#TELL ME HOW I MESMORIZE YOU I LOVE YOU AND DESPISE YOU

[lao-huangs-bitch]

YAPPING UNDER THE CUT ! ALLERGEN WARNING CONTAINS DAIRY AND NUTS

Okay so basically idk how much I've explained on Here but I imagine it's been a Minute. I have a Million And One ways I depict Douglaos but one of the more Prominent ones is that they are just two Lonely Masses of Testosterone. No Rules, No Strings Attached, No Affection (((tho Douglas is lowkey like pls))), just two Very Frustrated men needing a cheap way to blow off steam as a means of Escapism. They messed around back during the Army but it wasn't more than just some kinda Lonely Experimenting, up until Lao called it off for Reasons tm. But on Mira, they said to Hell with Everything after a night of drinking, and their poor excuse of a relationship Spiraled from there.

The Key thing that kept Lao involved was the Emotional Detachment but still with someone he trusted and could be consistently with (HC that there was ONE instance he tried to get a Hooker, but he couldn't even get it up. So he just slammed the money on the nightstand, told her to keep the motel room and checkout is 7AM, and just Left). However, Douglas does actually have feelings for him, but just. Takes what he can get. He would be an Idiot not to take the offer of being Lao's Fuck Buddy.

They don't fuck NIGHTLY, mostly bc of their exhausting Jobs and Work/Mission Schedules, so it's more like maybe once or twice a week if they're lucky. But when they fuck it is, simply put, Explosive.

Usually it's an established time/place (I HC Lao has his own private quarters in the Pathfinder hall of the barracks bc of his Rank), and it's always Cut the Crap, Get to Business. Lao always takes a shot (or three) of Whiskey right before, and typically Douglas will have a shot with him initially. Not enough to really impact judgement, but enough for Lao to get himself through this bullshit. Lao is EXTREMELY paranoid about his Secret Passtime getting discovered so he will just Rush Douglas in, and in public Lao is lowkey like Don't Even Look At Me (Douglas ignores that lol).

Their foreplay borders on Domestic Violence and need full Medical evaluations after they go a few rounds. Grabbing, shoving, hair pulling, hitting, biting, choking, these men are halfway getting off just beating the daylights outta eachother, Douglas is throwing that man around like a rag doll. They are literally just two Athletic Young Men full of Testosterone and Rage and good Lord they are gonna take it out on eachother. Their dynamic almost is a Brat/Brat Tamer type deal, Lao tends to be more of the Snarky one, while Douglas's arms are Personality Fixers. Lots of Douglas commenting that Lao's such a pain and a Little Bastard, while Lao is like "So What 🙄 Make Me Shut Up, then😒". Sometimes it seems like he just does it to get Douglas Angry so maybe he WILL choke him to death this time <3 !!!! (Lao wants to Die)

This game they sort of established is a way that Lao can put on a facade of Disinterest, because there is a LOT of "I don't care"/"Make Me" talk + Consensual Forcing, so there's an Illusion of well he didn't AGREE to being railed (Yes he Did). Lao also has a more deep rooted need to feel Powerless in the situation, given how his role as Division Lead makes everything his responsibility, along with his belief that his choices and his actions were the cause of everything (thinking "its all My Fault"). So to be someone of Power despite not really wanting his role, going around every day and expected to be a "Strong, Fearless Leader", to be finally told No you are at Someone Else's Mercy, is a type of release. However, Douglas is mildly aware that the Degradation Kink isn't really because he's into it, but more because he Actually Hates Himself and wants someone else to say it. But again, Douglas would be an Idiot to deny Lao fucking Huang what he wants, but tries his best to keep the Degradation more Sex Related as opposed to general insults (like "Fucking Slut" as opposed to "Fucking Bastard"). Though he will make these generic insults at the beginning, they're sparse. Lao will try to egg on Douglas's rage throughout it though to see how hard he can get Douglas to smack him, so really this is also all an Elaborate Version of Self Harm.

Douglas has to be a fucking Psychic to get a real read on that man, but he's pretty good at figuring out Lao's Fake "I Hate You" and his Genuine "Get the Hell Off Me". Honestly, there's a very real fear of Douglas's to one day not be able to figure it out, but Lao is just like "the day I go to gouge out your Eyes is when I mean it. Now slam my head into the bed frame." It's a little unfair for Douglas, but while he is the "Dominant" one physically, mentally it's established he's a Pushover, and will just play along despite his concerns.

Their Physical vs Mental Differences help create that perfect contrast though, with Lao being a little Bastard but Douglas having the physical advantage. This was just one of many things that made Douglas the Ideal Canidate for Lao's Fuck Buddy, they were basically a Match made in Horny Hell (I think that's the 1st Circle?). Because of this part of their dynamic, it will slip through in Day to Day Life, with Douglas slamming Lao against a wall in a back alley if he was being a little shit again. Douglas is much more open to Risky Public action, but Lao will NOT let that fly. If Douglas does choose to grab Lao by the throat and throw him against a wall (((I love to think of that one back area in Armory Alley between the two Consoles))), Lao will grab his wrist and give an "I Mean It- Back the Fuck Off, Barrett." Death Glare. TBFH the two kind of Radiate Sexual Frustration.

During the Fun Part, they're all over the room. The Wall, the Desk, the Kitchen Counter, the Couch, none of it is off limits. Lots of changing positions and Lao acting like it's nothing, with Douglas determined to make Lao Change His Mind. Obviously, Lao is a Power Bottom, with Douglas seeming dominant but actually doing everything to please Lao because he's a Lao Simp just like the rest of us. Lao hates giving oral, that's TOO gay, but there have been instances of Douglas coercing him to just give A FEW little licks. Just to get it wet yknow. Lao much prefers the journey, he likes the prolonged suspension of an intense moment of aggressive kissing with insults and quips between breaths, while Douglas can't wait to slam Lao's face into the pillow. Lao will sometimes have to tell Douglas to slow the FUCK down (come on, Douglas. Be Civilized and take your TIME to Physically Abuse Lao), and Douglas has to fight his urges. Douglas is a lot more Verbal during sex as we can imagine, while after a point, Lao will basically shut up and grit his teeth. Lao keeps as quiet as he can while getting railed, not wanting to give Douglas the Satisfaction of hearing him, which in turn just makes Douglas try Harder. They usually do Face Down/Ass Up, with Douglas liking the Dominance and view of Lao's Thick Ass, and Lao preferring how the position let's him avoid eye contact and use the pillow to muffle any grunts that accidentally slip. However, Douglas likes also to throw Lao into am Eagle Spread/Mate Press because he wants to see Lao's embarrassment because he's actually very cute <3 But overall they try a lot of things including against walls/bent over furniture. Lao HATES being jizzed in but really has no say in that part.

After they've beaten the Shit outta eachother and the whole Barracks Hall knows what they're doing, Douglas is much more the Aftercare Giver than Lao. He's medical (Douglas is a Healer class+when he fixed up Irina+his H2H about needing to get First Aid Kits, I figure he's PROBABLY a Medic), so he wants to make sure Lao didn't get a concussion when he landed his skull on the bed post. But Lao is emotionally detached, and after it's over, he just wants to be left to stew in his Misery again, not be forced to accept Douglas's Affection (he will be forced to take a 9 inch cock, but Affection??? That's Too Much, absolutely Not). Douglas tries to just reason with him like "Hey asshole, regardless of whether or not it was Me who bit the hell outta your shoulder, I'm still Medical and going to evaluate your condition, aight???". Luckily for Douglas, Lao is too worn out to protest too much, and Lao learned better and knows he won't win the fight. But during the care, Lao tends to go almost Nonverbal because he doesn't want to acknowledge the genuine care. He doesn't want to be Loved, he wants to be Evil. He can't stop Douglas from hugging him like a tiny evil Teddy Bear when he crashes tho, that's 250lbs of Dead Weight he can't lift and is trapped <3

Obviously with such a Shitfucked Relationship, they have their issues. They have some conflicting Kinks, especially with Lao's asphyxiation. One time Lao literally did Black Out, albeit very briefly, but that was when Douglas tried to tell him okay no more, I'll grab your throat and lightly squeeze it, but that's it. Douglas thinks maybe Lao doesn't realize how strong Douglas REALLY IS and doesn't understand no really, he could Snap Lao like a Twig (he never would, ofc, but its still an easy thing he could accomplish if he wanted to). But Lao finds choking the ultimate way of realizing his Life is really under control right now, which is one of the main reasons he's here, so Douglas, Again, can't really win the fight. He does also think it's really hot to grab Lao like that, but yeah that one scare threw him for a loop.

Another common issue is, Tragically, there have been instances where Lao couldn't get it up </3. He's pure Stress and Depression, and since he's using rough sex as escapism, it's not surprising he would try to call in his Boy Toy when frustrated, only to find It's Not Working Tonight. Douglas will try to assure him it's Okay, he knows what Lao is going through, but still it's not only frustrating, but humiliating for a man. Lao will insist he's fine, but Douglas knows if he can't get it up, this really IS a time Lao's here for Borderline Self Harm reasons, and doesn't want Lao to try and take a pill or anything. Like if he's not into it tonight he's not, that's final.

While Douglas is very Experimental, Lao isn't much into Bells and Whistles, and thinks toys and accessories are just wastes of time. Douglas would love to bust out the Riding Crop and Fuzzy Cuffs (Slap Sticks and Candle Wax, anyone?), but Lao is like "just use an old Tie and slap me with your hands like a Man.". Shame because Douglas Very Much wants to put Lao on a Leash. I imagine there COULD be an instance where Douglas told Lao to Shut Up and put on the damn Collar.

In Conclusion I Hope They Explode.

I'm Bored and yall have been Safe from me for Too Long. Think I'm gonna make a huge wall of NSFW Douglaos Headcanons