#Steddie2023MusicList

[undreaming-fanfiction]

Steddie 2023 Music List collab

2023 is almost here and with that, I propose something for all of us Steddie lovers.

Please post a single song that you associate with Steddie and tag me/reblog this post so I can see it and add it to the Spotify playlist.

Include the lyrics and your reasoning, why do you see them in the song? Feel free to include a small drabble, a full fic, a fanart, a Christmas sweater, I don't care. The only requirements are 1 person 1 song and the post with reasoning. Let us see what you see in the song. Share your Steddie vision.

Let's build the ultimate Steddie music list together. All music genres are welcome, all headcanons, all versions (happy ending Steddie, one-sided, pining, AUs...).

Please tag as many people as you want and forward this, the more the merrier! I will try to update this list as much as possible with the links to your posts. And if you find the link to your post missing, please DM me, I will fix it ASAP!

The playlist is HERE!

Tagging my moots and people I follow to get this show started (the usual no pressure if you don't want to thingy here) @unclewaynemunson @strawberryspence @steveshairychest @willowworkswithwords @thefreakandthehair @thelastwalkingsoul @skeliiix @stevesbipanic @steviesbicrisis @henrystars @yournowheregirl @henderdads @frankenstein-ate-my-left-shoe @sidekick-hero @legitcookie @hoples (gimme that November Rain, I know you want to!) and anyone who wants to join, if I left you out I just forgot because I'm rushing to post this while I remember, I still love you all!

Oh and by the way. YOU DON'T NEED TO BE WRITERS/ARTISTS. You can just love the ship and that's it. *smooch*

If you want a tag, it's Steddie2023MusicList.

Go!

EDIT: I very much appreciate all the song comments/reblogs, but please create a post with the reasoning and tag me so I can add your song/reason to the list! It's not just a set of songs, but also the reasons why you chose them! I can't link comments so please, create posts, not just tags or comments. Thank you!

List of songs and posts under the cut:

@undreaming-fanfiction: Meat Loaf - All of Me

@daysarestranger: Journey - Faithfully

@steveshairychest: Chance Peña - In My Room

@frankenstein-ate-my-left-shoe: The Chordettes - Eddie My Love

@asbealthgn: Ludo - The Horror Of Our Love

@reignofdreams: Adam Lambert - Whataya Want From Me

@hoples: Guns N' Roses - November Rain

@goddess-of-the-donut: Taylor Swift - Invisible String

@henderdads: Alex & Sierra - Little Do You Know

@mira-jadeamethyst: Beth Crowley - The Dark

@cinnamon-mushroomabomination: ABBA - Super Trouper

@steviesbicrisis: Maneskin - Coraline

@rogueangelshunter: Jóhan Jóhansson - Mandy Love Theme

@willowworkswithwords: Crosby, Stills, Nash & Young - Almost Cut My Hair

@yellowsweater-bluevest: Cuarteto de nos - El innombrable

@sidekick-hero: Mehro - Chance With You

@lenythepillow: The Smiths - There Is A Light That Never Goes Out

[steviesbicrisis]

This is for @undreaming-fanfiction 's Steddie 2023 Music List Collab! The timing is kinda perfect because I've been listening to this song the other day and thought about Steddie immediately:

Coraline by Maneskin

This song talks about a girl who takes the weight of other people's problems as her own but never thinks about herself. Coraline is described to be a beautiful girl who's considered worthless by other people, she has anxiety, she wants to move away from her town but she's stuck because of a big weight holding her back.

The story of Coraline is told from the singer's POV who asks Coraline repeatedly to be honest with him and tell him all her truths. The singer wants to help her and declares he would do anything, be a soldier or a shield for her and he doesn't want anything in return, just a smile from her.

I fell in love with the idea of Eddie noticing Steve's pain after everything he went through, his efforts to make everyone in the Party but himself happy, and writing this song to Steve to show him he knows and would do anything to help him out.

Also there are a lot of symbols that remind me of them: there's a reference to a castle in which Coraline can hide (Steve's house), the singer being a Shield (like the shield Eddie made for the bats), Coraline being afraid of water (some suggest that Steve will be scared of water after jumping in the lake) and the singer asking for more time to help her (we'd all love it if Eddie had more time, wouldn't we?).

I'm gonna paste here some of the lyrics:

Coraline as beautiful as the sun, Warrior with a zealous heart Coraline bella come il sole, Guerriera dal cuore zelante

She takes the pain of others, And then she carries it inside her Che prende il dolore degli altri, E poi lo porta dentro lei

She is a child but she feels, Like a weight and sooner or later she will break È una bambina però sente, Come un peso e prima o poi si spezzerà

She has not known love, But a father who is nothing like a father Non ha conosciuto l’amore Ma un padre che di padre è niente

Coraline, Coraline, tell me your truths, Coraline Coraline Coraline, Coraline, dimmi le tue verità, Coraline, Coraline

I will be what you breathe, I will understand what you have inside Sarò ciò che respiri Capirò cosa hai dentro

I will also be a soldier, I will be your banner, shield Or your silver sword Sarò anche un soldato, Sarò vessillo, scudo O la tua spada d’argento

And in return I ask for nothing, Just a smile E in cambio non chiedo niente, Soltanto un sorriso

I hope this post isn't too long ahahah anyways check out this song because it's actually really good!!

[steveshairychest]

Were you counting stars? ☆

[ post for @undreaming-fanfiction 's Steddie 2023 Music List Collab!! ]

(This is the song -> In My Room by Chance Peña. I picked this song because 1: it hurts so bad and I wanted to write angst. And 2: i like the idea of them rushing into a relationship and doing so much at once that they dont realise its not working until its too late, until one of them decides they need to leave, to seek something else. The happy ending is that they leave and grow and then find their way back to each other but that doesn't happen in this post.

Hope you like the angsty drabble i wrote to go with the lyrcis! Lyrics are in italics ;P)

☆☆☆

They say counting stars

You play the part of a soul missing home

He'd said he couldn't stay any longer. He'd said it without looking Steve in the eyes, had stared at his feet and gripped his guitar case with white knuckles. He'd said he needed more, needed to find something else.

Were you counting stars?

'Cause you packed your bags, had your heart set to roam

"Do you want me to come with you?" Steve had asked quietly, afraid that he already knew the answer. All his worst fears were coming true right in front of him and he could do nothing to stop it.

Eddie inhaled sharply and, still without looking at him, shook his head. "I need time to roam on my own. It's not you- "

"Don't fucking say it."

When you left for Georgia

Said your friends didn't want ya

But I swear I do, say, "What we are?"

They stood outside their apartment, well, Steve's apartment now, and when the silence became too much, Steve asked. "Did this mean anything to you? Was I just here to keep you entertained? Are you bored of me now?"

He tried not to cry, tried to keep himself together but it was hard when his entire world was up and leaving him without a good fucking reason. It hurt even more that Eddie couldn't even look him in the eyes. He'd tried to leave while Steve was at work, not expecting Steve to get off early and catch him loading his van with stuff.

Time's not a problem

Do you think we were moving too fast?

"Was I too much? Did I do something wrong?" Steve ran a hand through his hair and gripped it tightly, trying to resist the urge to yell and scream. "I know it all happened so fast, I know I asked a lot, but I thought we were okay. I thought... we were going to spend our lives together. You said that to me. Do you see me in your life at all?" Steve broke at that point. Tears fell down his cheeks and his chest was heaving with each awful, ugly sob that wracked his body.

They'd whispered these things against each other's lips every night, whispered promises to stay by the other's side no matter what, whispered about hopes to one day get married.

Guess we weren't meant to last

"No, Steve, I need something different, something more. I can't stay here forever."

Something more. What more could he want? Steve had given him his entire heart but apparently it wasn't enough.

Eddie finally lifted his head and a slight crack formed in his mask when their eyes met. His bottom lip wobbled as he said, "I still love you but it's not enough anymore, Stevie. I need to leave this godforsaken town and I need to do it alone."

"Don't come back." He'd spat at Eddie's feet. He'd channelled every bit of anger that bubbled up inside of him to stop himself from latching onto the one thing he needed most, to stop him from begging Eddie to stay.

I can't move on from that and I don't have the words

So I'll keep counting stars inside of my room

Inside my room

Eddie took a piece of Steve when he backed out of that driveway and never looked back. He took a part of him far, far away and each night Steve goes out to the balcony they used to sit on to count stars and he tries to get that piece of himself to come back home.

[unclewaynemunson]

For the steddie playlist thingy by @undreaming-fanfiction i'm gonna force one of my fave bands down your throats bc I can't stop thinking about how “Can you handle my love?” by Walk the Moon is the PERFECT steddie song. I may or may not write a oneshot about this bc im going feral over it again, but for now, I’ll just stick to why it’s such a steddie song :)

So basically this song describes someone who feels everything very intensely, it's about high highs and low lows, combined with some substance use, and it just feels sooo eddie-coded to me. The recurring question here is "Can you handle my love?" which i can totally see eddie being afraid about. He's head over heels for steve, but he knows that he's ~a lot~ and he's so scared that sooner rather than later, he'll become too much for steve. In the end, he realizes that steve has already seen all of him and that he's still there, so he finally starts trusting that they'll be alright.

There’s also some VERY eddie-coded lines, like:

“It’s just the way that I am, I’m a freak and it’s literal”

“Close your eyes, roll the dice”

“It’s just the way that I am, I’m alive and it’s bittersweet“

“I guess you must like me cause you’re still by my side”

(Full lyrics under the cut)

I woke up this morning and my vitals were low My eyes were red from crying I was up until four Turned up the sound of silence lying dead on the floor It's just the way that I am I'm a mess and it's literal Got a hole in my heart gonna fill it with chemicals So I drove to my cousin's I was feeling like shit Until I walked through the door and then my energy flipped Another day in paradise I'm high with my friends It's what I did last night I think I'll do it again It's just the way that I am I'm a freak and it's literal (what you got?) Got a hole in my heart gonna fill it with chemicals It's just the way that I am not trying to be difficult I got a crush on you and it's not just physical Can you handle my love? Then take a chance with my love So can you handle my love Then close your eyes, roll the dice Take a chance with my, chance with my love All the possibilities get me feeling kinda free Then my insecurities get me down on my knees Like I can't believe I need a release Gotta feed my soul gotta spread my wings I make mistakes but I still own up I may be late but I still show up If you can't relate then you're too grown up Life is the bomb and it might blow up It's just the way that I am I'm alive and it's bittersweet Got a hole in my heart trynna fill it with everything and anything It's just the way that I am not trying to be difficult (what you got?) I got a crush on you and it's not just physical So can you handle my love? Then take a chance with my love So can you handle my love Then close your eyes, roll the dice Take a chance with my, chance with my love My dream plane lands and I open my eyes The sun is up already and my head is on fire I guess you must like me cause you're still by my side I haven't slept in days and I still feel so alive Feel so alive... feel so alive I feel so alive, feel so alive Feel so alive So can you handle my love? Then take a chance with my love Can you handle my love Then close your eyes, roll the dice Take a chance with my, chance with my love Take a chance with my love Take a chance with my love, chance with my love My love Take a chance with my

[asbealthgn]

The Horror Of Our Love by Ludo is THEE Kas!Eddie Steddie song to me! Here is an excerpt of some lyrics:

“I’ve murdered half the town, left you love notes on their headstones”

“Moonlight walking, I smell your softness, carnivorous and lusting to track you down among the pines”

“But I’ll grind against your bones until our marrows mix, I will eat you slowly”

“The horror of our love, never so much blood pulled through my veins”

“The awful edges where you end and I begin”

Just the images of Eddie as this transformed monster still seeking out Steve and they’re still in love but now it’s darker and bloodier aaaahhh

Highly recommend this song in general and I would like to submit it for consideration to @undreaming-fanfiction’s Steddie playlist <3

[sidekick-hero]

For the steddie playlist thingy by @undreaming-fanfiction I picked Mehro's chance with you. It's super sad. It's about regret and missed chances, so obviously I had to think about Steve after Eddie's death.

I can see Steve sitting at home, Eddie's vest balled up in his fists and his face burried in it, still chasing Eddie's scent. He thinks about their past and how he always noticed Eddie at school but never did anything about it. To concerned with his reputation.

Oh, I've heard all about you All those things they had to say You're a legend 'round this school Locally famous drama queen Turn my eyes, I see you stare Cross the room and right at me Now you're smiling like you've got Like you've got something on your mind

He thinks about how they got to know each other over that one week and how that changed everything. Remembers how much he liked what he saw and learned about Eddie, remembers how much he liked how Eddie made him feel. It had been intense and terrifying but also so good to feel alive again. Wanted again.

You're so beautiful I don't want to turn away You've been here before Make me feel like you're a Wild animal Shaking, I am your prey I'm all you want

He also thinks about how he didn't know how to react to Eddie's flirting, the bluntness, the attention. He had been unsure how to show Eddie any of the things he was feeling, overwhelmed with Eddie's loudness and boldness.

You are always on my mind Sitting here, I am waiting Ones like you, they make me shy Innocently intimidating I still can't figure you out You're the kind that drives me mad Are you here looking for love Or do you love being looked at?

And then Steve thinks about how he would do everything to go back in time to have a chance with Eddie. Everything. That's when the tears start flowing ans sobbs wrecking through him.

If I could go back in time I'd shoot my shot I'd risk it all If I could go back in time I'd shoot my shot Just so I could have a chance With you With you

[yellowsweater-bluevest]

El innombrable

this is for the Steddie 2023 music list collab thing (made by @undreaming-fanfiction ). The song is called "El innombrable" by el Cuarteto de nos, it is an Argentinian rock song in Spanish. The song title means the unnameable. I do feel it is like perfect for them so I did translate the lyrics. (with some annotations for clarification)

Lyrics (in English)

Don’t name him x8 

Touch wood and burn benzoin.*

Look who nears, look who comes here.

It’s him! The disgrace**, the one that shakes wasps' nests, the one everyone says is a bird of ill omen.

His presence ruins every celebration, and by invoking him, a disgrace happens.

They say he is like this, that is how he was and will be and he attracts disasters as if he was a magnet.

Don’t let him see you and don’t let him touch you***. No one dares think of greeting him. Don’t go shouting his name. Because it calls fatality.

Don’t name himx8

Everything he touches, he ruins. Like king Midas but the other way around. It’s him! They accuse him when something bad happens, but the truth is no one knows if he knows.

When did his fame start? How did the rumor spread? Who was the first one who stigmatized him? 

Because once marked, they will always point at him. Who becomes stone, will die stone.

All his life he will carry that weight. And that weight will end him. And it is partly joking, partly serious. He will be the target of a cruel laugh.

Don’t name him x8

It does not have an explanation, it is antirational. Like in the inquisition, hunting witches for the hunt. 

And whoever says no? That one no will also become, without justification, another unnamable who to fear.

And we hide in a torn bag, the cowardice of not accepting. Charging the guilt to someone else, for the things that go wrong****. 

Don’t name him x24

Clarifications

*thing you burn to defend for witchcraft word in Spanish is “benjui”

** the word in Spanish is “yeta” which is an Argentinian colloquial word I had never heard before the song. It means “disgrace or bad luck” or “a person considered by others like the carrier of disgrace or bad luck”

*** “Que no los vea y que no los toque” is more closely translated to “that he does not see you, that he does not touch you” putting the responsibility to the unnameable. That translation is a mouthful, tho. And I am pretty certain it is grammatically incorrect but I might be wrong.

****in Spanish it says “Las cosas que nos salen mal” “nos” is the Spanish word for “us” but is used as an indirect object with no preposition, which means the things that go wrong are “ours”. This places blame on the singer and away from the unnameable.

I feel Steve would defend Eddie against the cult and murder allegations that Hawkins created. This song is about a man who everyone ostracizes for no reason, which I feel is pretty indicative of Eddie, a man who has been called the head of a cult before season 4 begins.

[lenythepillow]

This is for @undreaming-fanfiction steddie 2023 playlist

I chose this song for my ficlet because the songs talks about a couple running away from the place where they are, besides it indicates one member of this couple has a Baad relationship with the people that live with them. I found it very fitting for what I wrote:

There is a light that never goes out

Dustin hits the wall with the flat of his hand; his knees swinging from side to side, and he can't help the small sounds of anger that escape from his mouth; He turns his gaze to the trembling figure huddled in his chair, curses under his breath again, and dials the number for the Munson's new trailer one more time.

"Dammit," He whispers, "I swear I'm not going to get off the phone until he answers. I don't care if it takes all night."

The trailer park was dead silent; it was calming for Eddie. He enjoyed silence more than ever; this was a result of the upside-down incidents. Flashing lights or loud noises out of nowhere could make him think something terrible was going to happen. He jerks awake and looks around before getting up and answering it.

"Whoever you are, what the hell are you doing calling at this hour?".Eddie looks at the clock hanging on the wall "It's two in the morning, you fucking maniac."

“Eddie, it's me, Dustin. I'm sorry to wake you up at this time of night, but we have an emergency. I need to know how quickly you can come to my house.” Dustin exclaims, nervousness slipping from his voice.

“Does it have something to do with Vecna?” Silly question, the portal to the upside-down had been closed for a few months, yet Eddie lived in constant fear that it hadn't closed completely.

"No, but it's almost as serious as a situation related to the other side."

Eddie rolls his eyes, unconvinced that any situation resembles what they experienced in Hawkins's hell. "Henderson, if you think you can get information out of me about the next campaign by talking to me at dawn, let me tell you-"

Dustin grumbles impatiently, "It's about Steve; he is seriously injured and needs you to come to pick him up quickly."

Eddie falls silent on the other end of the line; Dustin takes a moment off the phone "Eddie? Are you still there?" before receiving an answer the call is cut off.

Dustin redials the number and waits, hoping the call didn't hang up before Eddie hears his pleas; he attempts to call the trailer at least four more times before sighing, cursing again, and giving up. He walks towards his sofa and tries to wrap his relatively short arms around Steve. "He's coming, I know he is; I'm sure he heard me; he'll be here any minute."

The only response Dustin gets is a slight nod, it's not enough but Dustin knows this is not the time to demand anything from Steve; he can't even look at him without feeling even more like crying over the state he's in. The body of the man next to him trembles and Dustin doesn't know if it's because of the winter cold that plagues Indiana or because of the terror that his big eyes show; warm tears run down his cheeks, reaching the point where they merge with the bloodstains that adorn the older man's clothes.

Claudia Henderson did a great job cleaning Steve's wounds when he first arrived; even so, the surprise had been monumental. She would never have imagined finding his son's best friend at the door of her house sporting a black eye, blood dripping down his forehead, tiny pieces of glass adorning his hair, and severe bruises along his arms. Mrs. Henderson led Steve to the bathroom to disinfect his wounds and give him something to soothe his black eye.

The situation was awkward not because of Steve's state, but because he refused to talk about whatever had happened to him. Without a doubt, if Claudia was concerned, Dustin was distraught. The thought of his friend's injuries being the result of a battle with a beast from the other side that had remained alive made his blood run cold; Steve made sure that it hadn't been anything similar, but when Dustin tried to get him to talk, he only asked Eddie to find out about it.

With no more than five minutes gone by, a knock on the door alerts Dustin; the boy gets up and desperately runs to open it, seeing Eddie's figure with a look of concern and breathing quite agitated, his hands trembling while staring at Dustin blankly.

"Where's Steve?" he asks; Dustin steps away from the door and leads Eddie into his living room, where the other man is hunched over, both arms resting on his knees, watching Eddie with those huge, tear-filled eyes. Eddie has no time to react when Steve has already thrown himself into his arms and hides his face in the curly-haired man's chest.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry…" he whispers; Eddie's arms wrap around his figure while Steve's crying intensifies; he can barely get a breath as he clings to Eddie as if the metalhead were going to break apart or vanish into thin air. Eddie directs a gloomy look at Dustin; the boy shakes his head, silently telling him that he is just as confused about Steve's situation.

"Don't worry Steve. We're here, okay? You're safe.” Eddie whispers in the taller man's ear, gently stroking his back. “Do you want to talk about what happened?” Steve shakes his head from side to side and moves closer to Eddie, as if that's possible, considering there is no more space between them.

“I just want to go home,” Steve says quietly before crying again.

"Okay big boy, I'll take you home, don't worry; you're safe now." Eddie pulls away from Steve and places his hand on Dustin's head, smiling sadly. “Thanks for calling me Henderson; have a good night.” Dustin nods, but his eyes fill with pain and concern.

"Eddie, promise me he is going to be fine; please don't let anything happen to him," Dustin begs, looking directly into Eddie's eyes, Eddie feels how little by little his heart cracks knowing how much Dustin would like to help the other man in the room. “He'll be fine, I swear.” with this Dustin nods once more, waving his hand in farewell.

Both men exit the Henderson residence, Eddie helping Steve into his van, watching him sadly; he hadn't been able to examine Steve's wounds closely. As much as he wanted to hear the brunette's voice and for him to explain what had happened to him, Eddie understood that it was best not to ask anything yet; Steve was still in a pretty strong state of shock.

Once behind the wheel, Eddie starts the van and drives to the best neighborhoods in Hawkins. He is not sure exactly where Steve lives, so he waits for directions; the path is not that far, and before they both notice, they are close to the house that used to belong to the Byers, and this causes Steve to speak for the first time during the entire journey.

"Eddie? What are we doing in Fayetteville?" Steve asks in an almost inaudible whisper

"I'm not sure where your house is; I've never been to your neighborhood, but I know it's not exactly the closest. What I remember is that Buckley mentioned that you lived around the Byers' house." Eddie stops suddenly, waiting for Steve to direct them.

“Please let's go,” Steve whimpers. “They're looking for me and the last thing I want is to see them again.” His hazelnut eyes meet Eddie's; Steve is terrified and his eyes show it, flicking from the road and back to Eddie.

"But you said you wanted me to take you home." Eddie turns his head slightly to the side, unable to understand Steve.

“That hell isn't my home, Eddie.” Steve pinches his nose lightly, attempting not to burst into tears again. "I want to stay with you. I swear it will only be tonight until I find a place to stay."

"You want to stay with me?" It shouldn't be a question, yet Eddie is still surprised that Steve considers the overgrown can in which he lives as a home.

"Please, I want to stay with Wayne and you." Steve draws his knees up to his chest, trying to hide his face. The metalhead only watches Steve, feeling how his already cracked heart fell apart at such an image. He couldn't understand what was so serious that it made the pair of stars that Steve had for eyes flood, but if one thing was certain, it was that he would no longer allow it.

"Hey, Stevie, it's okay; you can stay with us as long as you want. Wayne's not back yet, but" Eddie takes Steve's hand, which makes the brunette look for his figure even with half of his face hidden in his arms. “I'll be there; I'm not going to leave you alone, okay? I'm not going to walk away from you for a second."

Steve nods, letting go of Eddie's hand so he can have both hands on the wheel; the drive to the trailer park begins, taking almost an eternity even though it's not that far. Steve spends the entire time looking at the large mounds of snow through the window, Eddie keeping his eyes on the road, being much more careful than usual not to upset Steve. He's had enough for one night.

Once at the park, the doors of the Van open; Steve shoots himself toward the Munson's trailer and waits for Eddie to open the door and allow him inside. It doesn't take long; with both men inside, the curly man invites Steve to sit in front of the table.

Minutes tick by, and the silence stretches out, almost as if Eddie is alone in the middle of the room. Steve doesn't seem to have any intention of saying anything and even so Eddie can't help but feel curious and worried about the person next to him. Maybe he was making a mistake, but he had to say something if he wanted to help Steve.

"I've never seen you cry before."

Are you serious, Munson? He thought, Is that all you have? Do you see that he is having a breakdown and it only occurs to you to ask him that?

"I didn't want you to see me like this," Steve answers " I didn't want Henderson to see me like this either. It's just that everything happened so fast; before I knew it, his mother was already disinfecting my cuts."

Eddie sighs, pulling his chair closer to Steve's. "Do you want to talk about it?" the hazelnut eyes focus on Eddie and panic takes over him "It's okay if you don't want to tell me anything; if you don't feel good talking about it I understand," the metalhead lets out a nervous laugh "There's no reason why I should know about anyway."

Steve is silent for a couple of minutes which seems like forever, as a lump forms in Eddie's throat, wishing he hadn't said anything out of nervousness. With the two of them silent, the movement of the metalhead's ankle is more evident than before, going from side to side quickly.

“My parents came back without warning...” Steve sighs, squeezes his eyes shut, and continues “, As soon as they got there, they started questioning me. They were furious about the rumors that were made about me."

Eddie takes Steve's hand, rubbing his thumb against the surface of Steve's back. "I'm listening" was the only thing that escaped his lips, hoping it was a green light visible enough for the brunette to continue.

“My father said horrible things” a sob dragged down the taller man's throat before he could continue. “He said that I shouldn't have helped the people affected by the earthquakes... he said that it only brought me down to 'their level' and when I tried to defend myself-” more sobs tore from Steve, his eyes getting wet again.

"He took a vase and smashed it against my head," his voice trailed off before finishing the sentence, just as Eddie got up and hugged Steve tightly, knowing that the back of the chair prevented him from being as close as he wanted. "My mother didn't do anything to stop it, Eddie; she was insulting me too." Eddie kisses his boyfriend's head and neck, hugging him tighter.

“Steve,” no matter how hard he tries to avoid it, tears are also released from his eyes; but Eddie's tears are more from anger than sadness like Steve's. “I can't believe those monsters are your parents. Those savages shouldn't have dared even touch you."

“I was forbidden to go near Robin; I don't know how they found out about her preferences, but they told me I shouldn't be near her anymore.” the taller man's hands take Eddie's arm, trying to pull him closer to him. “And when I told them that I would not abandon her, everything got worse; The next thing I know, my father hit me with his belt… Like I was a kid.”

Eddie lifts Steve out of the chair, leading him to the sofa with slow steps as he gently holds his hands, making both of their bodies sit up, and pulls Steve up to his chest, stroking his hair as he tries not to shed any more tears. This is impossible for Eddie; to date, he can't understand how an angel like Steve is the son of two people as cruel as his parents.

"You're safe now honey; I'm not going to let them get close to you again" Eddie kisses Steve's shoulders as he pulls him closer to his chest, melting inside when Steve looks up and those huge eyes find him. Eddie can see how he relaxes, his shoulders slump and a somewhat weak smile begins to grace his lips; like a silent thank you.

“I will look for another place to stay tomorrow,”

“Oh no, princess, you shouldn't worry about that. Stay as long as you need,"

"Eddie, don't you get it? I can't go back to that house anymore. They're looking for me because I still need to be punished. I can't go back."

Eddie leans in lower to kiss Steve's forehead, smiling slightly as the man lying on his chest squirms and his long hair tickle. "That's perfect for me; you know Wayne adores you, and he'll be more than happy to adopt you."

"I don't want to cause more problems, Eddie," Steve doesn't believe his own words; he knows that on the inside he couldn't be happier for the offer that Eddie made him, yet he felt that accepting would be a terrible abuse of the trust and hospitality that his boyfriend gave him.

"Can I tell you something?" Eddie asks, getting a little 'go-ahead from Steve'; he takes a deep breath and continues, "Those little gremlins we adopted are growing up, they all have a great future waiting for them; I'm sure it will be away from Hawkins. When I graduate I won't have much to keep me here, no hellfire members will stay in this hell of a town, besides the people here don't seem to want me around. I think they tolerate me even less than before."

"They don't know what kind of person you are Eddie. They would all love you if they took the time to notice how loving and kind you are." Steve puts his hands on Eddie's thighs to gain momentum, getting closer to his lips and kissing him with incredible softness, being so gentle as if Eddie would break with any sudden movement.

“If you say that out loud it would ruin my reputation. I'd rather it be a secret just between you and me” a sigh “My point is that there isn't much going on for anyone here in Hawkins, not with all the interdimensional tragedy that haunts it. So Wayne and I were thinking of getting out of here." Eddie feels Steve's body tense at his words. "I needed to tell you because we think you don't have much to stay in this place either, besides the kids."

Steve stands up and turns his body to face Eddie, who takes his hand and brings it up to his face to kiss each of Steve's fingers. “I wanted to propose that we leave together, touring through the country until we found a place with better opportunities for the three of us. Maybe a place where people don't think I kill people as a sacrifice for James Hetfield."

Steve's lips part but no sound comes out of his mouth; he looks like a confused fish "Where would we go?" is the only thing he asks before receiving a couple of spontaneous kisses.

“Wherever we want, Stevie, wherever we feel good, anywhere that makes you happy,” Eddie smiles, letting out a surprised sound as Steve pounces on his chest in a hug. Steve is always a little rough with his hugs, being so strong that most end up turning a little red from lack of air. Eddie wouldn't want it any other way.

"Please, I want to go with you; the place doesn't matter to me as long as I'm with you."

Having said this, Eddie separates from Steve, lifting his chin to look into his eyes ", Thanks for letting me take care of you." their lips collide.

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June 16, 1990

It had been a long time since Eddie had seen the trailer in motion; for almost as long as he could remember, the metal structure had been standing still in a trailer park in Indiana; now, his house was in motion, on its way to Massachusetts. Midnight had just arrived, and the stars began to grace the sky. At the wheel of his home was Wayne; he was already used to working at night, so he had no problem driving at dawn as long as he had a chance to rest in the morning.

On the right side of his bed was the one that Eddie considered the most beautiful man in the entire world; he smiled at him in a way that filled his chest with heat and made his knees tremble. Three years ago, they had begun planning their escape; now, they were far from that place that had made them suffer so much. Eddie wouldn't trade that moment for the world.

Steve looks at Eddie, his smile growing huge. He wouldn't change that situation for anything either; he was with the hero who saved his life in so many ways; Eddie was like a rattlesnake full of energy and a thirst to do something big; Hawkins was too small for a man as jolly as Eddie. If there was one thing Steve was grateful for, it was that that flash of joy and energy had chosen him as a boyfriend. Without his little bell of happiness, Steve wouldn't be there.

Without saying a word Steve turns on the radio, tuning in to the station they love the most, listening carefully to the announcer's voice.

“, And to celebrate the fourth anniversary of its release, this is There Is a Light That Never Goes Out, by The Smiths...”

Steve approaches Eddie, wrapping his strong arms around the metalhead's torso. Begging silently with his eyes for one of those kisses that they both love.

According to Eddie, Steve's kisses are like summer; his lips are soft like his tanned skin and dotted with tiny moles that make him look like a beautiful insect, one Eddie could stare at for hours (Steve pretends to hate that comparison, they both know he loves him). Steve's kisses taste like summer, they're refreshing like any drink that quenches Eddie's thirst for his affection, and at the same time, they are warm like a fire to roast marshmallows.

According to Steve, Eddie's kisses are like autumn. His lips are always a little dry; for Steve, it feels like falling into a pile of dry leaves for fun; they are a perfect balance between the cold wind that gives him chills and that warmth of a bonfire to roast chestnuts, sweet like the caramels that people usually buy during those times for children. Steve is the happiest child on Halloween in that case since he always has the sweetest kisses, which constantly vary in shape and duration like the autumn leaves change in color and rustle.

The kisses go on for hours and hours, getting closer and closer, with light caresses and ever longer shocks of summer and fall. All while Morrissey's singing accompanies them. Eddie knows how much Steve loves The Smiths, but he couldn't understand why until that night.

“I think that will be my favorite song now,” he whispers.

"Yeah? Why?" asks the brunette

"Because I promised that no one would take away the light from your little eyes ever again."

Steve blushes, "You're so cheesy,"

"And you love that" Eddie receives one more kiss and a light "Yeah, I love it", Steve sighs with pleasure "I love you, Eddie."

"I love you more, Steve Munson,"

They both melt into a warm embrace, Morrissey's soft voice lulling them to sleep,

“And if a double-decker bus

Crashes into us

To die by your side

Is such a heavenly way to die

And if a ten-ton truck

Kills the both of us

To die by your side

Well, the pleasure, the privilege is mine

Oh, there is a light and it never goes out

There is a light and it never goes out

There is a light and it never goes out

There is a light and it never goes out

There is a light and it never goes out

There is a light and it never goes out

There is a light and it never goes out

There is a light and it never goes out..."

[undreaming-fanfiction]

For the Steddie 2023 Music List thingy...let me present my pick:

Because look. I adore all the fluffy and perfect Steddie moments, the pining, the happy endings, but in the end relationships are imperfect and that's okay. It's a constant process of learning, getting used to the changes in the world and in yourself together. And also working on the more challenging parts of yourself that you can't hide anymore because the other person knows you too well.

And this is what I want for Steve and Eddie. I want them to grow together, to become so comfortable in each other's presence that Steve won't feel like he has to hide his mean attitude, because he is grumpy and nagging and it's his nature, and Eddie will have to face the sides of himself he doesn't like, become more responsible and learn to compromise.

Just because you're with someone you love, your ugly sides don't go away. But when they show up, Steve and Eddie will talk it through, as they should. That's what their happy end is in my book.

MEAT LOAF — ALL OF ME

I caught a glimpse of myself today Wasn’t a pretty picture, I must say Well, I threw a dagger of poison words straight for my heart Was it deserved? Well, it’s too late to make up some excuse and say it wasn’t me Well, what’s the use? Oh, you’ve seen too much Ooh, let me introduce you to

This is my anger This is my shame These are my insecurities, that I can’t explain This is my fortress, crumbling ‘round my feet Take a good look, baby: this is all of me

They found that nerve deep in my soul Poised and ready to explode And no one else on earth but you could get close enough To light that fuse And you crawled up underneath my skin Crept now through my veins and through my head Ooh, you got so deep You might as well get to know the rest of me

This is my anger This is my shame These are my insecurities, that I can’t explain This is my fortress, crumbling ‘round my feet Take a good look, baby: this is all of me

We all live under the same roof We go by the same name

It saddens me to think that I cannot turn back the hands of time

This is my anger This is my shame These are my insecurities, that I can’t explain This is my fortress, crumbling ‘round my feet Take a good look, baby—

This is my anger These are my doubts These are my emotions, all strung out This is my fortress, crumbling ‘round my feet Take a good look baby: this is all—this is all of me

This is all of me Oh, this is all of me This is all of me....

[undreaming-fanfiction]

Bringing this back because it's still open if you want to add some songs! Nudge nudge

Steddie 2023 Music List collab

2023 is almost here and with that, I propose something for all of us Steddie lovers.

Please post a single song that you associate with Steddie and tag me/reblog this post so I can see it and add it to the Spotify playlist.

Include the lyrics and your reasoning, why do you see them in the song? Feel free to include a small drabble, a full fic, a fanart, a Christmas sweater, I don't care. The only requirements are 1 person 1 song and the post with reasoning. Let us see what you see in the song. Share your Steddie vision.

Let's build the ultimate Steddie music list together. All music genres are welcome, all headcanons, all versions (happy ending Steddie, one-sided, pining, AUs...).

Please tag as many people as you want and forward this, the more the merrier! I will try to update this list as much as possible with the links to your posts. And if you find the link to your post missing, please DM me, I will fix it ASAP!

The playlist is HERE!

Tagging my moots and people I follow to get this show started (the usual no pressure if you don't want to thingy here) @unclewaynemunson @strawberryspence @steveshairychest @willowworkswithwords @thefreakandthehair @thelastwalkingsoul @skeliiix @stevesbipanic @steviesbicrisis @henrystars @yournowheregirl @henderdads @frankenstein-ate-my-left-shoe @sidekick-hero @legitcookie @hoples (gimme that November Rain, I know you want to!) and anyone who wants to join, if I left you out I just forgot because I'm rushing to post this while I remember, I still love you all!

Oh and by the way. YOU DON'T NEED TO BE WRITERS/ARTISTS. You can just love the ship and that's it. *smooch*

If you want a tag, it's Steddie2023MusicList.

Go!

EDIT: I very much appreciate all the song comments/reblogs, but please create a post with the reasoning and tag me so I can add your song/reason to the list! It's not just a set of songs, but also the reasons why you chose them! I can't link comments so please, create posts, not just tags or comments. Thank you!

List of songs and posts under the cut:

@undreaming-fanfiction: Meat Loaf - All of Me

@daysarestranger: Journey - Faithfully

@steveshairychest: Chance Peña - In My Room

@frankenstein-ate-my-left-shoe: The Chordettes - Eddie My Love

@asbealthgn: Ludo - The Horror Of Our Love

@reignofdreams: Adam Lambert - Whataya Want From Me

@hoples: Guns N' Roses - November Rain

@goddess-of-the-donut: Taylor Swift - Invisible String

@henderdads: Alex & Sierra - Little Do You Know

@mira-jadeamethyst: Beth Crowley - The Dark

@cinnamon-mushroomabomination: ABBA - Super Trouper

@steviesbicrisis: Maneskin - Coraline

@rogueangelshunter: Jóhan Jóhansson - Mandy Love Theme

@willowworkswithwords: Crosby, Stills, Nash & Young - Almost Cut My Hair

@yellowsweater-bluevest: Cuarteto de nos - El innombrable

@sidekick-hero: Mehro - Chance With You

@lenythepillow: The Smiths - There Is A Light That Never Goes Out