#Some were so frikin funny tbh

[morag-renart]

I've been following such a beautiful aerti fic that i just HAD to draw them. This image stuck to my mind and wouldn't leave until it was done. That scene was absolutely fenomenal!!

Tried a different shading style, the perspective was a hell to draw and probably it doesn't make too much sense, but something is better than nothing when you want to create!

You can support my work with a Kofi I'd really appreciate it c:

[isabella-kr]

HEY!! I AM SO HAPPY TO SEE A UNHOLYC LOVERS WRITER!!! AND A GOOD ONE AT THAT!!!I swear it's so hard to find fanfics or oneshots of the game Eventhough it's so amazing and don't get me started on the charecters even the mc- unlike other games, has a personality and she is frikin Adorable and I relate to her so much (her appearance is unique too🥰) 🥺 whereas other otome games make the mc a no personality basic self insert that's apparently supposed to help you imagine yourself in them but does the exact opposite 🤕🤞 ALSO I SAW YOUR POST OF SIU'S ROUTE AND THERE IS ACTUALLY AN ENDING WHERE YOY END UP EITH HIM (IN SOL'S ROUTE OFC) BUT I DONT WANT TO DO IT CUZ I DONT WANT TO UPSET OR MAKE MY SOL SAD 😟☝️‼️ ALSO THE BUTLER IS MY FAV TOO I CANT WWIT FOR HIS ROUTE I AM 100% SURE ITS GONNA BE SPICY TOO😭😭

Another thing is the fact that william has 200 years of experience of- (ifyk yk) but he stopped after he became Mir's butler?? Because habits are very hard to let go of especially sexual ones *wink* *wink* so the fact that he stopped- idk maybe he got bored of railing but I am a strong believer it's because of his love for mir🥺🥺

Sorry this is long I was just excited to find someone (especially a writer) that also loves unholyc lover it's the best otome game in my opinion tbh. YOUR WTITING IS ALSO SP GOOD??? YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I WAS STARVINGGG BEFORE I DISCOVERED YOUR CONTEBT 🥺🥺SO HAPPY!!1!1!

¿Unpopular or popular opinion?

: unholyc lovers should be more famous than mystic messanger because first of all

- the art is so detailed and amazing

- the charercters are just so unique

- THE MC ISNT BASIC AND BORING

- she doesn't change for the characters (to gain favourabilty of the charecters it's more like increasing your interactions with them and while there is diffrent options for charecter's likeability the mc's charecter doesn't change that much except preference and such which is supposed to be picked by us <3)

- the animation??hello?😐⁉️

Anyways thank you for coming to my ted talk hope this wasn't annoying 🥰💞

Aww thank you so much, that’s so sweet! I’m always self-conscious of my writing so hearing people say they see it as good writing always helps so much ❤️❤️ I’m glad you’re enjoying my works!!!

YESSS this game deserves so much more recognition than it gets! The characters are just so well done and every one has a different personality… ugh it’s just *chefs kiss* the bins between them too - it’s so beautiful. Their friendship is so adorable… especially when Sol fangirls over Hi - it’s so cute!

Nooo! I don’t want to hurt Sol’s feelings 😭 but I’m afraid some sacrifices must be made😮‍💨 I’m sorry sol… I’m coming for Siu and nobody can stop my… except for the guilt I’m going to feel.

WILLIAMS ROUTE IS GONNA BE SPICY AS HELL I CAN ALREADY FEEL IT 😯 I’m just wondering how it’s going to play out. Will it be the same premise of getting MC through the week again or is it going to be a totally different plot. I’m so excited to see what they came up with!!

He gave up so much for Mir 🥺 which is why I have no doubt that out of all the characters, he’s be the best one for her. Sure the other characters definitely love her but William… he just knows her like the back of his hand you know! Ugh he deserves to be happy 😭😭😭

NGL EATERS ROUTE I AM EVEN MORE EXCITED FOR. IMAGINE THE ANGST, WILLIAM DISAPPROVING, ALL THE UNHOLYCS BEING LIKE WTF??? OMG MIR VILLAIN ARC?? So many possibilities and it’s going to be so SO SO SPICY!

Omg YES they deserve more popularity! If not more famous than MysMes, at least have a similar kind of popularity. Both are executed so well, but I feel like Unholyc was executed a bit better. Especially when it comes to the depth of the characters and the MC.

Pls! The Mystic Messenger MC is SO bland like??? And I love how the Unholyc MC doesn’t change for any of the characters like she does in Mystic Messenger and she’s willing to call out bullshit when she sees it. She makes it clear she’s staying the way she is and I feel like if she did become like the MysMes MC, William would not be having any of it. He would either remind Mir of her worth or he would take it out on her partner 😳 Plus the way he keeps reminding Mir she’s “better” than the boys is just so funny but sweet 😭 he cares die her so much ugh.

I feel like if Mir was in Mystic Messenger, she’d end up calling out

Yoosung for his obsession with Rika and him constantly comparing MC to her. It’s not cool yoosung… and it’s weird.

Jumin for being an obsessive asshole - as much as I love him, I hated sticking up for him in the chat in order to get his good end. Especially when he was being unreasonable. MC was practically his prisoner, there’s no other way to look at it.

Zen for being so narcissistic. I’m not gonna lie his route is one of my favourites because he genuinely shows he cares - at least more than the other characters - but his narcissism did get annoying after a while. Loving yourself is okay, but there’s a limit 😭😭 I wish they gave him more depth than just problems with his family and narcissism.

7… my boy has no flaws 😡. The only thing I hate is doing different routes ever since Cheritz said he is in love with MC in every route 🥲 …. I can’t stop flirting with him.

V… gtfoh. We get it, you loved her… but you need to let go 😒 losing your sight over a cult leader isn’t worth it, boy.

Jaehee… I love you, but you need to stick up for yourself bby. And you’re gay 🙄

OMG THE ART IS JUST AMAZING LIKE OOF.

It’s just so colourful and pretty! The art style is amazing in so many ways - I’m in love with it!!!

Don’t worry Anon! You were not being annoying I actually love when people send me these type of asks!

[persephones-bde]

I Saw Hadestown Contd.

This is all about Act II! It was the actors fund performance and guys. WARNING: CONTAINS SPOILERS

-Persephone. That is all.

-She does the step in my office and is just gyrating for a while but then she gestured really bluntly down and started hip thrusting. It went on for literally 15 seconds straight

-Persephone was having a GOOD TIME.

-Hermes walks away from her pulling the sides of his coat to his chest, as if hiding the contents inside from her. She makes a pouty face behind his back, and he kind of just rolls his eyes and keeps walking slowly. It’s clearly not the first time.

-“I don’t know about you BOYSSS” was so loud I jumped. It is way more aggressive live than in the album

-she did her little dance thing where it’s like whats my name? I’ll tell you my name! Persephone!” And Oh My God. I don’t know what happened but it was like her voice just stopped working and it came out a squeak and I put it on tumblr because it was so like????

-And she does a little dance segment. I thought she generally took a deep breath/panted but she like gagged/hiccuped?? It was an interesting choice of action but it just showed how absolutely trashed she was and I just. Ugh. Amber Gray. Fuck me up.

-Theres a part where Persephone moves from center stage to ds right. She didn’t walk there though. No. She hip thrusted all the way over there. Like leaps and mud air hip thrusts. The. Whole. Way.

-Ambers vocals also sent me

-When they give names of the musicians, everyone on stage pretends to play said instrument with 100000% enthusiasm

-Not plot but: Im not sure if it costume or not but Timothy totally had a tattoo or something?? I saw HA in super small letters but the rest was covered by the strap of his overalls. Anyone know anything about this??

-Eurydice looked so happy/hopeful and like held her hand out to shake to the workers before the fates said they weren’t listening

-Jewelles voice? I was close to the stage and her voice is so powerful. I could listen to the fates all day tbh

-During flowers, Persephone just sits the piano and rests her head in her hands.

-Everyone is kind of in the dark and it’s just such a beautiful song guys

-Eurydice beams when she sees Orpheus and asks if he heard her. When he said it didn’t, Andre turns around and looks at the audience like he’s in the office, but also raises his arms in a very clear ‘dude why would you even-‘ fashion

-PAPERS. Y’all. There was more Persephone shit than I imagined.

-Hades said the “no respect for property!” And on property, all of the workers and the fates whip around to look at Orpheus at the exact same time.

-Hades laughs and theres a moment where Persephone looks genuinely afraid, arguably moreso than even Eurydice

-All of the workers are circling and the beat is kind of on a cycle. Persephone is standing off orchestra right. Each time the cycle ended the workers would crouch/prepare to attack him. Each time, Persephone raises her hands up (kind of like Hélène did with Pierre) as if you protect herself. She’s afraid. That shit hit me hard.

-the fates strut over to v injured Orpheus with utmost smugness and seeming very satisfied with the results. Yvette looks like she’s about to laugh. God, they are totally the antagonists of this show

-afra and johns workers seem like they’re supposed to be together. Once they see each other again their eyes lit up and they do not let each other’s hands go. It was so cute. It melted my heart.

-people found the ‘have another drink’ line during how long funny, which I had never seen it as such but eh you know

-The way Hades says the girl means nothing to me is like kind of dismissive, but also almost painful for him to say: he rushes it out but it ended with almost childlike indignance. He won’t look at her.

-Both of their voices sounded like they were so close to breaking, but so, so fed up.

-Theres a moment in chant II where Orpheus is directly behind Hades on the outer turntable, and Hades says something, and Persephone points in their general direction. But then Reeve moves and she jerks her hand down and quickly turns and walks the other way

-Once Orpheus realizes others are beginning to stand up with him, he gets this like awkward smile and tries to look all macho by puffing out his chest and continuing his failing buff facade by like waddling around for a moment.

-Y’all I was orchestra left like second row. I could hear the stool slam and through the speakers. He does it so aggressive goddamn.

-Patrick’s eyes looked like they were sparkling as the tears welled up. He was fighting the urge to cry. That acting tho. By the time he and amber began to dance, their faces were entirely wet with tears.

-People gasped when they began to dance and there were sniffles

-Their embrace was so cute. They like high key blocked all of the stage from my view and I was not mad.

-His kiss the riot was basically spoke to our section. I thought I was gonna die. My heart began vibrating.

-Worker Afra and John didn’t stop holding hands the whole time.

-I don’t remember when this happened but Reeve sort of holds out his hands as if to shield her, and she just grabs them and pulls his arms into her.

-Im not going into Doubt comes in because I can’t even express emotions for how much anxiety and how much that song makes me literally shake any time I hear it. The lighting gets foggy and so frikin eerie

-There was some sort of technical difficulty on the platform because Hermes looked down first. The song started, and they had to repeat this line like a few times, and the music kind of just kept going but Persephone still hadn’t come back up yet. Like there were moments just Eurydice was singing because Amber wasn’t up yet.

-Bows were cute. Jewelle looked directly at me and I thought I was going to die

-During the Actors Fund speech the band was supposed to be like playing a tune and the band didn’t do it until like halfway through

-He proceeded to address the audience with “Can I get an Amen? Can I get a WoMen? Can I get a non-binary, gender fluid...men?’” and it was entirely both unexpected and welcome

-then one of them starts and he turns to look at them and goes ‘finALLY’

-Andre told a story of his former boyfriend who passed away. Amber is full on BAWLING. like she turned side profile and just was sobbing. You can tell how deep and meaningful this was for him to share

-Amber, Reeve, Eva, Patrick, and the Fates were going off stage and had an impromptu like 20 second dance sesh as they were leaving. Such pure babies. May the theatre gods protect them.

[filmery]

Stream of Consciousness

from Iron Man

****WATCH OUT FOR LOTS OF GRAMMATICAL ERRORS****

fav marvel opener- flipping comic book pages -never read any whoops

no one is wearing black- back in black

sexist- driver woman

rdj is =iron man

peace sign kid holds- he dies so thats why tony does peace sign

"older guy cant work camera" clishe

uggggh shaky camera

why was he with the troops/ not in helicopter?

zoom into bomb fast- GREAT fast comedic moment just before sadness

he shud not have been conscious after explosion that close

WTF IS THAT UNDER HIS SHIRT WTF- IFITS ARMOR IT SHULD PROTECT HIM

al quaeda to soon

so hes steve jobs- made a frikin computer in his garage

ewww rbj with no beard- bad cgi :( cant u just shave and get over urself?

yes weapons are the key to peace hahahahahahAHAHAHAHAHAHAHhahaha

rip terrence howard as rhody

"too cool for award" cliche

"bald guy is bad" cliche

"hes always working" uhhh besides a few montages.... no he really just parties

only talks to cute girls....... uggggh

military funding? ha more like military debt ahahahahah 20 trillion is iron mans fault

jarvis is wing man after one night stand???? idve thought hed think tony was cheating lol

"girl wakes up with just guys shirt" cliche

"guy wakes up and leaves before girl wakes up" cliche

cat fight ha+2 points

literal and figurative island haha

so tony aint smart, he just uses jarvis

he obvi doesnt know how t4he faa works

i was gonna get REAL mad if tony didnt buy a painting cuz it was "too expensive" but we good

tonys a dick

yet pepper finds him attractive

ksorry

yaaaas rhody calling him a baby cuz he FING IS

im pretty sure laser shows in airplanes are illegal

"im not drinking them gets drunk" cliche

in my opinion from what ive collected, you cant be feared AND respected. fear takes over and you do things based on fear, not fromrespect - also how will blowing up people help them respect you? unless youre talking about getting respect from those u protect and those u kill cuz thats completely differeent then

"i respectfully disagree" or do you "fearfully disagree"

starts out as all techno talk, then turns into baby talk wtf

that shock wave conviently stopped right after it hit them

montage of painful surgeyr cliche

ewww that pipe in his nose as groooooooss

"dont do that but dontexplain" cliche

the dude cant understand english how did he know that tony refused????

why tf wouldnt u test it ANYWHERE BUT THE MIDDLE EAST?????

why cant they just wait and order the missile

k so this scene is srs and all but WATCHING HIM CARRYING THE CAR BATTERY IS SOOOO FuNNY I CANT

"no he wont" OK NOW U CANT UNDERSTAND U POS

"theyll never find u" cliche

why is his friend here?

how does he know how to build it? tbh he probs just had jarvis do it back home

how does the gov not know hes selling weapons to terrorists? we cant be that corrupt can we?

so hes building his ring thing but they DONT FING NOTICE THATS THERES NO MISSILES AT AlL??????

and they didnt question them the entire time

lemme peek but not go in and investigate

"i have steady hands" and then he crashes his car and LOOK! Doctro strange!

when a speech starts with a history lesson, u know its been rehearsed u poser

honestly... hot coal in mouth- worst way to die fml

props to marvel for not telling how fast theyre moving so i cant bust them for not being able to get it done

why the circle around the chest thing

wouldt one of their rules to be able to see u at all times

ctrl i is italicize hahahaha

why did the lights shut off but no the clearly hookedup laptop?

i enjoy the rock music as background music- not ur stereotypical ( yet awesome) hans zimmer score

yaaaaaas bitches run

gun shootsthen rebounds onto him- pretty sure thats not how physics work

if anyone should die, its tony tbh that whiny bithc

-2 for killing an actual good guy

how does not one of those bullets penetrate his suit?

----not enough use of the word penetreate

k no theyd keep shooting

tony: everythings on fire and im dying

ouchie that giant fall

how does he know hose helis are good?

DONT TOUCH HIS SUNBURNT AND BLISTERING SHOULDERS RHODY EWWWW

+2 for cheeseburger yas

-2 for burger king ew

doesnt sheild deal with aliens not terrorists?

newsreels? hes not THAT old

+10000 for ACCOUNTABILITY AND RESPONSIBILTY WOOOOO

k hes obvi doing the best thing here and now everyone gets pissed for him TRYING TO SAVE PEOPLES LIVES EHY IS THAT BAD?????? HE ALREADY HAS a shit otn of money LET HIM BE

fuck u and ur segway obidiah

the other thing..... dont put ur name on it

jokes on u! it was alqueade

+100 for mad money reference!!!!!

...so pepper didnt know about it so whyd he blame her for .3 seconds?

pepper is useless omg PUT YOUR HANDS IN HIS CHEST

why did he say dont take out the magnet but all of a sudden u dont need it?

i wonder if they actually built robots for tonys btterfingers

rhodeys we need pilots speech was just proven again by the aircraft landing in the hudson

so non military= humanitarian now? and if so why that bad?

honestly surprised that jarvis isnt some hot lady voice

k raza with sunglasses= morpheus

why is the mask the most vital part for raza?

tony crashing into wall is why u should ALWAYS WEAR A HELMET KIDS

obadiah is NOT playing the piano

+2 for not trusting obidiah

daaaamn if thats 1% whats 100% capacity

and he still doesnt wear a helmet

k his eye holes are so small how can he actually see?

run before walking leads to lots of problems later in life tony

at leaast he checked atc

goddammkit u made smol child drop ice cream

beginners luck

rip that baby grand he probs didnt know how to play

+2 for that fire extinguisher

+50 for Pepper being a cutie with that gift

how does tony not have his liscence revoked? hes a shit driver and can hire a chaffeur

STAN LEE BABE

RIP COLESON OMG :'(

so just fire pepper and marry her

pepper is totally right and tony should seperate who actually matter to him

how is a lot of olives 3?

im not my company- THEN TAKE UR NAME OFF HOE

no, modern day hell s walking those 15 miles and watching a car and heli and camera lady who are fine and can get there in 20 minutes

i sincerely hope that these footages were planned and not real

is this the news or a documentary?

just realized he never gave pepper her drink lol

yeah, let the kids watch their dad get shot thats fine omg

after that hit, he looks like a lion

why did he say colonel rhodes form weapons development? that name isnt that common

there was 0 time for radio contact omg

the only thing i could think during this scene was SERPENTINE SERPENTINE SERPENTINE

k now im getting a lil tired of the electric guitar

finally obi has been outted geez

im feeling some west side story WITH snaps

why is raza telling obi what he ALREADY KNOWS CUZ THEYVE BEEN IN CONTACT

how has no one noticed that obi just GOES TO THE MIDDLE EAST LIKE ALL THE TIME

this scene between pepper and tony is THE MOTHER of cliched lines

WHY DIDNT SHE SHUT DOWN THE COMPUTER STUPID WEIRDO

he tried to push his hair back hahahaHAHAHAHAHhaha

not scraps obi.... he had his own stuff

im just imagining obi hidig under toys couch haha

that dick took his shirt!!!

yaas beethoven reference

props to makeup people for his paralysis on point!

sorry but paralysis seems to me like U CANT FING MOVE TONY

i thought the old reactor needed a magnet

OF ALL THE CARS TO STEAL RHODY YOU STEAL THE AUDI

goddman all these chains

JUMP SCARE COMING HAHA I KNEW IT

-2 awful jump scare

yes middle age mom- honk at the GIANT FING ROBOT

nooo not the hydrogen powered bus!

gooood iron freezes before stainless tell

daaamn obi is a real bad shot

and radiation now floods the malibu land area and thosands are illed thanks to tonys reactor

sk glad hes corrected the mediait aint iron

coleson never briefed tham

that was longer than 90 seconds

iron man- STOP TRYING TO BE BATMAN

great ending 10/10

affter credit scene: 10/10 avengers yay

[0225pm]

currently listening to: nothing without you / 10cm please click on the link and give it a listen while reading the english translations of the lyrics because it speaks for me.

yo haha

han is probably not gonna like that i posted that first photo of him and his bird’s nest hair because he thinks it’s ugly but he’ll always sparkle in my eyes hehe.

anyway on this day i decided to run away from responsibilities (i need to find a shorter word or phrase for skipping work other than just “skipping work”) and went to see the doctor at bedok polyclinic.

did you know? bedok polyclinic has moved! after god knows how many years but ya they’ve moved to a new location situated in a building right beside fairprice. i forgot what’s the name of the building. i think heart@bedok or something idk LOL but yay to new facilities and the hospital-like interior! i actually really dig the new place.

ok so the night before i asked han if he can accompany me and he was like sure what time? and i said idk maybe around 2? and he’s like okkkkkk but then he came late anyway but haha forgivable cus i’m forever late also besides, even if he came early we would still have to end up waiting anyway cus even after he arrived, i was still waiting for my number to be called e_____e 

me: so long sia the person at the registration counter say maybe must wait 2-3 hours and told me probably around 4:20pm my number will be called han: ya la everyone today monday blues then want to see doctor cus all never go work me: >____> 

and then he went to the vending machine and bought some drinks and a snack. we decided to sit at the area near the vending machine for awhile before moving over closer to the tv screen thingy where your number will be shown when it’s being called. we sat there for like idk i think 15-20 mins just talking shit and me touching han’s face and neck LOLLLL because his body’s so warm and i was cold af even though i was wearing a pullover, until this lady asked us to move and sit inside.

lady: hi are you still waiting? if waiting you can wait inside. me: oh but my room isn’t in hub A, mine’s hub B.  lady: then you cannot sit here because here only for hub A. me: ?????????? han: ????????  me: oh really ah....... han: duduk sini bayar lain pe (i can’t rly rmbr what he said but i know he sounded annoyed hahahaha damn funny and he even said it loudly wtf gile boi want to carik pasal) me: *stands up* hahahaha let’s go bb there got seats *points to hub B area* (which is fucking just beside hub A LOOLLLLL) han: *moves along with me while still muttering the duduk lain bayar lain thingy*

and then!!!!!

me: bb come sit beside me la *there were two empty seats and i already sat in one) han: *moves his butt* random lady: *sits beside me* me: LOLLLLLLLLL  han:  me: you so slow LOL han:  han: *continued sitting on the arm rest of the sofa couch* me: are you comfortable haha do you want to move? *points to another area of empty chairs* han: i’m ok baby i’m sitting also what here me: um okkkkkk

but lol tbh i wasn’t even complaining bc him sitting on the arm rest thingy actually made me feel so fluffy bc i can grab his arm and smell his old man perfume jacket. idk why la but just holding his arm makes me feel so safe and warm and nice wtf idk how to like describe the feeling but i love it la ok. and then he pat my head hahahaha and i was being so passive aggressive about cus i said smth like it’s r00d but actually i like it wtf bodo sia me *facepalm* then he talked about how it doesn’t matter cus he’ll be paying for my head anyway and i was so confused at this point cus like uh what do you mean paying for my head??? then he explained about the zakat thing and how the man in the fam must pay all. quite interesting bc my parents did talked about zakat thingy before but i don’t really know much about it.

also!!! i’m not tryna like stir beef w old men out there but like i described the perfume as old man bc it smells exactly like the perfume my nose sometimes decide to take a whiff of when i walk past old yalam men going to the mosque. also!!! apparently the perfume is from a small bottle that his grandad gave him/used to use or smth i can’t rmbr clearly sorry this post is like 2 days old my memory is shit i need to learn the mind palace thing!!!

i also saw mustakim and his boyfriend!! at first i was like ooooh who is that familiar person and then i realised it was him but we didn’t acknowledge each other hahhahaha 

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ok ya so i went to see the doctor and decided to ask for doxycycline again to help with my acne and bumps. she also prescribed some 2.5% benzoyl peroxide for me though i’m currently tryna steer clear of any acne treatment products at the time being cus my skin is already super dry after washing my face and all those products i dumped on my face to help soothe and relief the pain when my face had a crazy ass breakout party the other time. also apparently you’re supposed to religiously take doxy for like 6 months before you can really see the difference wtf. i’ve been taking them for only a month and then i stopped cus i thought it wasn’t helping at all and the doctor before this that prescribed me doxy the 1st and 2nd time didn’t even tell me such basic info. but ya you’re supposed to take it for about 6 months but some people can see some changes in the period of 3-4 months. then she told me to just come back for monthly visitations and see if there’s any improvement. i should have probably also set an appointment for next month so i don’t have to wait so long for my turn but i didn’t ahhahahahaha

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then after more waiting for the collection of the meds, payment and official stamp for my mc, we finally went to eat!!! yayerz

han told me that there was fish n chicks at the coffee shop beside princess and i was like ?????? really???????? omg wow i didn’t know they have an outlet here in the east wah damn near leh!!!!!! so we decided to eat there! i would have taken better photos but nvm la hungry already also hahaha! i got chargrilled chicken with cheese pasta and fries for the sides, and han got black pepper chicken with the same sides. i’m gonna try their popular hawaiian chicken next time cus i saw a photo of it on the internet and it looks frikin delish!!! kinda wish i had ordered that one instead but it’s ok there’s always a next time!

and then we sat there for a really long time, the sun even set and the evening skies started taking over the day. we talked about so many things, mainly about what happened the other time at the hotel (will be in another post!), how cheated he felt when i didn’t wear matching outfits with him on the day we went to afa, how disappointed he was when he knew i wasn’t able to come on the day his mom got married after telling his cousins about me and styling his hair, grooming himself just to see my reaction when he pick me up, and then about NS stuff.

i felt so sorry.  and felt even shittier after he told me that he doesn’t wanna wear or try to initiate wanting to wear anything matchy anymore. but i guess, i understand. he doesn’t really like matching things (kinda sux bc i like it) and when he tried to do it, i ended up just brushing his efforts aside. 

sigh.

i was even more sorry about the day of the marriage. cus it was also our 9th month, an even special day for us. yet everything was ruined when all he wanted was to see me. i wanted to see him too, but circumstances wouldn’t let us. 

but i learnt something through this talk we had.  i’m also glad that he tells me things now without me having to force it out of him. i’m not sure if he realised that he tells me things but i really like that raw and vulnerable side of him when he talk about how he feels. not because it makes me feel like i have authority or whatever, but more so because he trusts me enough to confide and have a h2h talk about whatever he feels displeased with rather than just keep it to himself and letting his true thoughts and feelings consume him from the inside.

also by knowing our mistakes, and the hurt we caused each other because of our actions, we can learn from the mistakes and work things out together to try and prevent the same or similar things from happening again in the future. 

communication is really the key and i’m happy to know that han feels the same because he wants the relationship to go far. damn i’m starting to sound old. or maybe this is part of me adulting in a relationship. 

(to be continued)

[0225pm]

lmaO he probably knew i took these photos but yaaAsss look at this fine specimen *_* honestly i kinda wanna shoot him one day like for real with a proper theme and all i think it'll be fun!!!! anyway time check, it's 3:15am right now and i'm so damn bushed!!!!!! i just had a quick shower and removed my make up and shit. honestly im not sure if it's bc of my acne medication but my skin is becoming really dry so my foundation ends up looking really shitty and cakey at the end of the day. it just looks like my face is cracking and breaking apart wtf. i just moisturized using my nature republic's aloe vera soothing gel tho. idk if it'll help but i literally slapped on a rather thick layer and i'm just gonna head to bed in a bit, hoping that when i'm awake later my skin will be less inflamed and hydrated. so the beginning of my day started off really shitty and i legit almost broke down (though i still ended up tearing anyway wtf) when i finally reached lasalle. i guess maybe this is my fate? i don't know.......... i honestly have no idea where life is taking me right now and all i can hope for is for my parents to continue being as supportive of me as they can. in the meantime, self reminder to source for upgrading courses to enroll in, etc!!!! i asked han whether he had his lunch already and he shook his head no, so we decided to walk to bugis to grab a bite together. we didn't really have a plan in mind and han finally!!! picked something that HE wanted to eat (instead of always giving in to my tastebuds) which was wok hey and i ofc couldn't say no bc tbh wok hey's pretty darn good and their portion will keep you full till your next meal of the day. besides, i really wanted to try their shanghai fried rice after i got their egg fried rice the very first time. it was sOoooo good!!!! way more flavorful than the egg fried rice. we got some drinks at cold storage and then we walked back to bugis+ to sit down to eat (there's these area with red seats for people to sit down/rest for a bit). i bought a top and bottom today!!! i'm regretting the top a little now that i actually am home but unfortunately for temt they don't offer any refunds :( so i guess i'll just try to make it work one day! han was so tired he kept dosing off throughout the day and i felt so bad knowing he could have just head home and slept after going for the talk but instead he came all the way to meet me and keep me company T___T aiyo where to find such a wonderful bf like this i am so lucky!!!!!! also he was lugging around his uniform and boots that weighs a ton!!! after we were done eating, he suggested to accompany him back home so he can put the stuff down and then catch a movie after! he also suggested catching spider-man homecoming since we didn't manage to watch it the other day (ya ikr he actually suggest a lot of things today i am so proud and happy he actually took the lead HAAHHAAH). we took the downtown line towards bukit panjang and then took the bus back to his place before taking the train to woodlands to catch the movie at causeway point. i suck at giving movie ratings but i have to say, the starting was a little bit too slow for my liking and in some parts throughout the movie i actually found myself losing a little bit of interest until something cool happens. the real mvp of the movie is ned tho!!! his lines in the movie suits his character really well it's funny ^_^ but overall it was an ok movie, didn't really make me gripped my seat nor glued my eyes to the screen 100%. and then after the movie, han sent me back!!! we took the train to bishan and there was this weird dude who apparently was staring/glancing at me???? idk if he knows me or smth but i didn't realize that even han observed it bc he told me that the guy kept looking at me and then look away when han stared back at him. strange and the whole situation just makes me feel uncomfortable knowing that he probably knows me from God knows where, but i don't even know him at all. then we took 59 back (it felt so quick!!!) before dropping off and transferring to 60. we dropped off one stop before my block to get some takeout at the 24 hours indian shop. i got myself mutton chop and han got nasi pattaya. it tasted really good and i thought i wouldn't be able to finish it but lmao i literally swallowed every last bite and i felt like i could have eaten more. my eating habits are getting out of control and this happens every damn month when it's nearing that time of the month. it's annoying bc that's the period where i also gained some extra weight which i don't want wtf go away fats!!!!! :( han then took a nap and even snored haahah he must have been super frikin tired. i kept asking him to quickly book a grab so he can go home, rest and sleep at the comfort of his own place instead of feeding mosquitoes and becoming victim to other bacterias and flies that comes out at night. grab was so hard to book so i booked his trip home via uber!!!!