#Some Sunday Soul Searching Topics lol 😆

[destinyc1020]

Just some food for thought.....

I just thought about this the other day... 🤔

You know, when thinking about Tomdaya and their breakup in 2019, and especially the things that transpired afterwards in 2020 👀, we usually seem to think about things through Tom's point of view. For example, how he felt about those Jacdaya/NYC pics 👀, the things that may have led him to break things off with Nadia, how he seemed excited to rekindle things with Z again, etc. Part of this is because Tom is way more transparent with his feelings just in general lol, and he's a little more "active" about posting his private life than Zendaya is.

With that said however, as a woman, I recently started thinking about things more from Zendaya's pov.... especially with regards to the events that took place in 2020, given the information and the "turn of events" that we have seen now lol. 😂

For example:

I think about how Z may have felt during the outset of the pandemic. She was still dating JE at that time, and while she was seeming pretty happy with him while life was still normal, when the covid-19 pandemic hit, everything shut down, and JE went back to Australia, Z probably came to a point where she really had to face her feelings. It's easy to distract yourself with a new bf in order to try to forget about an ex bf (not to mention a best friend) that you had a major breakup with the year prior. But when everything is shut down, and you can't leave your house, and the Tree Trunk bf has gone back to his home country, you're almost FORCED to sit down and face your feelings. 😳 If Z has still been in love with Tom all this time (which, obviously if she's back with him again it's because those feelings for him never really left), then I can only imagine how the events from February 2020 (leading to radio silence on both ends), and the pandemic hitting may have been tough for her emotionally. 😔 To this day, I still don't think that her telling Sam "I haven't really been doing too well..." was JUST due to her breakup with JE. It was probably part of it, but I don't think it was just that. I actually think her "not doing too well" was due to a combo of everything that went on not only in 2020, but also in 2019.... (i.e. her major breakup with Tom, trying to still be cordial "friends", seeing him appear to "move on" so quickly with O, knowing about Tom's reaction to the Jacdaya pictures, maybe realizing that JE wasn't really all that he was cracked up to be, the whole George Floyd incident/BLM marches, Trump's behavior in the White House, her not really knowing who she is outside of/without working, etc) Even Claire seemed to be supporting mothers of children who are going through mental and emotional struggles during that time of the pandemic. Even Z's presence on social media was nonexistent at one point. I really think she was going through it.

I also think too about how Z may have felt AFTER the Jacdaya breakup, knowing that Tom was now with N, but that she would still have to eventually work with him again in the upcoming months on the SM3 set. 👀 I mean, just put yourself in her shoes.... Let's say that you and your ex bf split up even though there's still some feelings there, but yet you two both move on to try to date other people, but then YOUR relationship ends (and not on good terms either), but yet your ex bf is still dating someone else, and you know that pretty soon you're going to have to see him again and work with him for the next 5 months. Can you say, "AWKWARD!" 🥴 I just wonder how Z may have been feeling during that time that's all.... esp since it seems like she and Tom may have sort of been on the outs around that time as well. 👀 She was eventually going to have to work with him closely again. She would even have to play love interests with him. How embarrassing that the guy you went "public" with in Feb, ends up being a dud, and now, you two have broken up, and yet your ex has moved on to another girl, and has even posted her to his IG page. And pretty soon, you two have to work together again, and you will have to swallow your feelings for him and ignore them while working together since he's with someone else now.

Now granted, I don't think ANYONE would have predicted that Tom would break up with someone less than a week after posting them a second time to his IG page 🥴👀, but hey, like he said, sometimes "sh*t happens!" 🤣

Anyway.... those were just my random thoughts for the day lol. 😂 Like I said, we usually look at things from Tom's pov since he's so easy to read lol, but when you look at what things might have been going on from Z's pov as well, it's crazy how much stuff was going on with her probably emotionally during their breakup. She's just very private with her feelings, but that doesn't mean she wasn't feeling anything. I'm just speaking on this from a woman's pov, especially if you're still in love with an ex.