#So I am a little proud of myself. Take care of yourselves y'all please

[runefactorynonsense]

Spooktober - Day 9 - Crystals

These aren't cursed, are they...? No, darling, their magic is much more interesting.

[lgchunji]

✧ .・゜゜hello, lgc admods!

     chwe hunji and jin eunji’s leaf wants to say: “hey admods! i know this may look a little sudden and a little weird but by the time you see this, i’ve been going around asking all the members what they want to say to you guys to show their appreciation! i know admin e probably already told you, but i used to do theater for about two years and i volunteered my time. i probably worked fifteen-thirty hours a week at a theater and i did not get paid and barely was thanked but i always put in effort. i gave them one hundred percent of myself and, if i was lucky, i would get a five dollar starbucks gift card in return. i was so exhausted and even stopped writing because i could not handle how much of myself i was losing every day. i gave a hundred percent of myself away and got five percent back. now, though, with legacy, everything has been flipped! you guys put a hundred ten percent of yourselves into this amazingly fun and honestly complicated place and i feel like i never get to give back. i know the joy of it all is in watching people write together but for me, just having fun was not enough, i wanted to compile something together for you guys! you do so much for us so i thought it was time i give just a sliver of myself back to you. so! under the cut is a lot of people’s messages that i’ve gathered. a lot of members were unable to send in something in time so i do apologize that not everyone is here, but i added a space in the bottom for anyone and everyone who wants to add something at a later date, so admins and members, be sure to check that often! in the meantime, though, you guys are so amazing and this place already means so much to me, i really hope legacy can continue to grow and flourish beyond your guys’ dreams because you really deserve it! p.s. the below notes are not in any particular order of length or alphabetized, they’re just random C:”

     han insoo’s al wants to say: “thank you for your kindness and dedication. you guys are troopers. i’m not very vocal about things publicly out of shyness but also bad experiences. i hope you guys know i appreciate to be here and that you guys have kept this up for so long despite the setbacks. it’s been a while since i felt comfy in a directory. much hugs and kithes!! thank you for being so open and welcoming!”      kang yonghwa and choi daehyung’s muffin wants to say- "thank you so much for all of the hard work! legacy is not an easy rp to run with all these career branches and events going on. i appreciate all of the mods for making this rp extra special by celebrating birthdays, holidays and other occasions. I love you all muahhhhhh~"      liu jiao and ok miyoung’s faye wants to say- “i disappeared from the rp scene for awhile and was kind of lost when it came to fitting back into everything. but joining legacy helped me along and i am so glad i decided to put my muse here. thank you to all the mods and for all of their hard word. i felt so welcomed by not only them, but the other members of the directory as well. so thank you for the lovely community you’ve brought together here. i am happy to say that legacy holds a special place in my heart.”      yoon shinha and pongsak, tee's simone wants to say: “when i first joined legacy it was because i had some friends here and i had read about it a lot on twitter. i was nervous and scared, which is how i usually feel when joining a new place. working on my own points page from scratch was a first but i was proud of myself and i felt accomplished when i finished it. i joined as a connection and it gave me a boost when it came to plotting. everyone was so nice and welcoming and i honestly love that when joining a new directory. the events were many and i was both excited and scared at how many there were. even if i couldn't understand something i knew i could ask an admin or mod and would get a quick reply. i love how kind and supportive the staff is. i've been here for a few months now and i always recommend it to others. i know that no matter what, i can go to a staff member with a question and i don't need to feel stupid for asking something bc the staff are so helpful and understanding. the thought that goes into this roleplay and the events are amazing and i am honestly so amazed every time a new event gets posted. they give sufficient time frames for events and i know they try to make it as fair as possible. i honestly love it here and i love the hard work and the time that is put into legacy.”      park taekyung and heo jane’s bobbi wants to say: “thank you for taking the time to create this awesome community! the time and effort you put into this rp is what makes it such a fun place and i hope that this post brings you just as much joy as you bring us! <3"      mayura nana’s cc wants to say: “i’ve been on and off in the group, seeing the first time it opened and how hard working the admins were to coming back and seeing the amount of growth in just a few months. i truly appreciate all that you guys have done for your members, the patience and love you put into every little thing you do so everyone can develop and enjoy themselves. you guys make this rp fun and safe and i’m forever grateful to have found a true home for my muse. keep up the good work and i can’t wait to continue being here and witnessing even more love and growth from the team ❤️”       park seojin, im hana and kang seyoon’s sara wants to say: “hello lovely team. it's been a great ride thus far and i'm so happy to have been here from the beginning to see the community grow. you've built a really nice and wholesome place here and it's been one of the best roleplays i've been in so far. it's hard running things but always remember that people love and respect you and so many of us are rooting for good things every day. you're human too and if you make a mistake, never beat yourself up over it. you keep things so much fun. truly nothing more i could ask of from a team. i’ve sent other messages in the past but there's really no limit to the praises and support i can offer to you guys. keep up the good work!! ♡♡”      wu aaron and kim alex’s em (aka the awkward cookie) wants to say - "to the amazing admins of this rp, i haven't been here nearly as long as others but i really enjoy having my muses here! i love lgc so much and you're all amazing admins who work very hard to keep this place running with amazing events! keep up the great work and i can't wait to see what else you all have planned! (please torture alex as much as you can. xD) i don't think i've really talked to the admins here much but still, i love you all and everything you do! <3 please don't let any negative comments or reviews get to ya'll and just know you're all doing great!"       choi jongsuk, son jieun, and kim jinah‘s jen wants to say -  "@ the mod team from your resident meme! you guys know how much i love lgc. i'm not shy annoying y'all with compliments and praise. every sunday is a highlight because there is always something exciting being posted- be it just a date lottery update or new events; you never fail to surprise and spoil us all with fun and creative ideas! also the way you manage to keep things as fair as possible for everyone and still manage to not make anyone feel left out or left behind. the quick replies to any kind of questions are just so nice to see and it makes me personally not scared ever to ask anything at all no matter how stupid the question may be! i probably annoy y'all with how often i said this already but i love this rp. i love the graphics, the concept and the execution of it all. thank you for creating this amazing space for all of us to write and hopefully to many more years! true to my name i shall exit on a meme~"      hwang subin and han allie’s nic wants to say - “hello admins!!! it's me, a nic. i know that i've said a lot of this in the past but to sum it all up, i love you guys!! thanks for giving me a place to feel a bit more comfortable when i don't feel that way in rp a lot lately. i love that you guys are always gracious and accepting of criticisms, questions, and critiques and i hope you continue to always be that way because i think it's important for rps to listen to their members. i also want you to know that you don't have to stand for rudely stated words just because you do that, either!! i appreciate the time you take to answer my questions, whether it be through the manager blog or through discord and for all the opportunities you've given my muses ( even if ONE of them might not be so grateful. i'm lookin at u subin ) so yeah ;u; i hope u all are having a lovely day, pls take care!!!”      tsai sunisa, park sarang, and jung jihye’s the ghost rper wants to say - “number one, thank you for making legacy an rp! i'm having a lot of fun with all of muses! especially since it's given me a chance to bring muses i've played before alive in another rp. two, they're [the admins] awesome for all of the stuff they've managed to do for the group and how many options you have to be apart of the industry and do more background related stuff! third, just stay awesome and remember to put yourself before rp! since without ya'll we wouldn't be here!”      min soyoun and kim jinseo‘s clara wants to say - "hi mods! thank you for making lgc a fun and safe haven for us. i appreciate the love, thought, and effort you all put in every single mission/event that happens in the roleplay. you guys are doing amazing!"      kwon sihyun‘s shinobi wants to say - “thank you for making me feel welcome!”      park iseul and ahn dohyun’s nine wants to say - “thank you so much for all your hard work! over the months i've been at lgc i've always felt like the admods have kept every single muse in mind when creating events and moulding the rp to fit the members. i've never felt as in love with an rp as i do now. keep up the good work, i can't wait to see the rp grow more and more!”      choi max and im nari‘s jada wants to say - “hi there mods !!! i didn't want this whole appreciation to go by without saying some words of my own, so here i go ! when i joined legacy a few months back i was hesitant to even join, doubting that i'd want to stay to make it even past the next activity check. it was an act of pure impulse, but perhaps the best thing i could've done ! alongside the many great friends i've made along the way, if it was not for all the hard work you do, the roleplay would not be nearly as lively of a universe as we've all made it to be ! i always compliment legacy for the dedication you all clearly have to making it enjoyable - from events going on all the time, to in-character posts that liven the spectrum of our creativity, to your speedy responses and patience whenever we have trouble ! i think me and the rest of the members can agree that what you do makes us enjoy the roleplay even more, and we always will be appreciative of that !! i think you guys run the roleplay SO smoothly at times that we forget the hard work you put in and the bumps you might encounter along the way, but it's times like this that make me realize how much more we should thank you. because of the team behind it all, i've once again found my place in a roleplay that's made me feel at home, and always ready to write and have fun !! i'm extremely grateful for the passion you've shown us and i hope that i too can do my best to make sure your hard work pays off and give thanks ! i'm looking forward to writing with all of you and giving a voice to our muses for as long as i'm able to type, haha ! <33 “      ahn yeoreum’s kay wants to say - "my first experience with krp wasn't exactly the best. i didn't land myself in the most welcoming environment and was planning to never join another krp. but i took a chance in lgc and didn’t regret it. since day one, everyone has been so welcoming and i loved playing yeoreum here. the admods have worked so hard to make this such a nice environment to rp in and i love how well thought-out all the events and activities are. thank you so much, admods !! we are super lucky to have such a talented and hard-working team. <3″      ji haneul’s maddy wants to say - “to legacy admods uwu, thank you for your endless hard work! seeing how the community has grown over the last few months, as well as the tons of opportunities for character development has made my time here absolutely amazing. i just want to say how much i love the rp, and how inspiring it can be in churning my writing muses. keep up the good work, and i hope you guys would also be able to have as much fun as the work you've put in in maintaining the rp! take care, stay safe, and stay awesome >:D *flings plushies in your directions* ♡"      lee seungjae’s fifi wants to say - "hello admods!!! i just wanted to say thank you for everything that you've done for lgc! i haven't been here long but everything about it is great and i can tell you've put in so much work to make it the great place that it is!"      kang dana‘s jay wants to say - “thank you so much for working so hard on this roleplay and allowing all of our characters to develop however we like! i have never enjoyed a rp as much as this one <3"      hwang jaerim and im hyunjin’s jia wants to say - "hello admod team, yall know im always here to bother u all with my weirdness and you guys are all great to talk to. i've been lucky enough to have been here since day 1 and to see this place flourish and see all the efforts you put into the rp, makes me glad to be here. thank you!!"      oh max and park viggo’s lyn wants to say -  "as one of those muns that has been in legacy from the very beginning, i've witnessed this rp grow and i can’t help but to feel extremely proud and happy for the admod team who works tirelessly to make sure that the progress isn’t only with the rp but genuinely with the muses within it. the admins take it into their own hands to celebrate the achievements that muses have obtained and put them on the spotlight, personally i've experienced screaming and getting emotionally overwhelmed with some of the mods at how happy and ecstatic i felt with some of the results for my muses. with that said i want to make it clear that my muses don’t always get what they want, when it happens, i do share some down time with said mods as well- not to complain but to just talk. the same happens vice versa, when the mods' muses don’t get a spot in future dreams or didn’t get the center of a group, or when they land a cf spot or has made progress by moving on a different path, i'm able to witness their reactions as muns as well- which quite frankly is humbling considering that it reminds me that their muns too and not just mods. essentially what i'm trying to say is that based on my experience and mine alone although i have no doubt i'm not the only one who feels this, clearly this post proves it, that the admod team is not just there to provide us with countless numbers of events or answer our endless amount of questions and woes with admirable patience or guide us in the right direction when we misplace a point or two in our submits, but rather to present us muns with a safe and progressive platform to comfortably establish and allow our muses to flourish in a highly entertaining environment. so thank you legacy team for your heartwarming and admirable work, i know this hasn’t been easy for you guys but hang in there, a lot of us got your backs ♡"

these are the folks who wanted to add something after this post was first published:

no one at the moment! if you want to say something to our lovely admins please either message them through the lgckrp askbox or, if you’re more shy, send me an IM or send it to lgchunji’s askbox with your message in quotations, which blogs you run, and your name/alias!

[helloalycia]

fake dating [one] // brie larson

summary: your mum decides to visit you after so long, causing you to seek approval in ways that are... unorthodox.

warning/s: none.

author's note: this turned into like a 6 part-ish mini fic lol so prepare yourselves! (if y'all don't like, I won't post the rest lol)

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     "Mum! What are you– why– huh?"

    "Lovely to see you too, dear," my mum said, inviting herself into my flat. "It's been a while."

    I blinked several times, shutting the door behind her. "It has... how did you even know where I lived?"

    She took off her expensive-looking coat and I watched as her eyes scanned the room, searching for a place to hang it. She decided on hanging it on her arm, holding it to her chest, as if there was nowhere good enough for it.

    "It wasn't very difficult," she said, a judgemental expression on her face, eyeballing my flat. "No help from you, might I add. You've never invited me over."

    "I didn't think you'd want to come," I admitted, leading her to the kitchen.

    I motioned for her to take a seat on the stool as I put the kettle on, knowing she'd want a cup of tea.

    "You never asked, so how would you know?" she countered, resting her hands on the countertop hesitantly. "Besides, I didn't come here to make you feel bad–"

    "Oh, that was just a plus..."

    "–I came to invite you to my wedding," she finished, making me stop my actions for a moment. My back was to her, so I couldn't see her face, but I was taken aback myself and tried not to show it.

    "You're marrying Isaac?" I asked, finally turning around, my face expressionless.

    "I am," she said, a small smile on her lips. "He proposed a few days ago."

    I nodded and my mouth formed an 'O' shape. I wasn't sure why I was feeling weird about this whole thing. It's not like I didn't like Isaac – he was a lovely man who cared about my mother. In fact, he was the only person who could set her down from her high horse and make her seem more human-like. It was just so random, I guess.

    "I thought it would be fitting, seeing as you're my only child, for you to be my maid of honour," she said, meeting my eyes.

    I heard the kettle whistle and accepted the distraction, deciding to fill our mugs with water. I was adding the milk when she cleared her throat.

    "It's rude not to respond, Y/N," she said, making me roll my eyes. Same old mum.

    "Congratulations," I answered, turning around and setting a cup of tea before her. "When's the wedding?"

    "Next week," she said, making me raise my eyebrows with surprise. "Being wealthy has its perks. We've already planned most things. It's in Hawaii. A week long. I'm hoping you can make it?"

    My jaw dropped. "Hawaii?!"

    My mum rolled her eyes. "Yes, dear. I've already got everything sorted out. Including your tickets. Will you come?"

    "I guess that wouldn't be so bad, but you said tickets as in more than one. Who are you expecting me to bring?"

    "I know you don't tell me much on our weekly phone calls, but I'm assuming you're with someone," she said, sure of herself.

    "Well, actually I'm–"

    "Bring them with you," she said sternly. "I don't want you to show up–"

    "Alone and embarrass all of your rich upper-class friends?" I finished, holding my mug and smiling knowingly at my mum.

    "Don't put words into my mouth, Y/N," she said, narrowing her gaze before wrapping her hands around her own mug. "I just want everyone to know you're doing well. Even if it means bringing that blonde-headed girl with you."

    I furrowed my eyebrows. "What– Who are you talking about? What girl?"

    She pointed a finger over her shoulder. "The framed photo? Of you and that blonde? She's your girlfriend, right?"

    I almost choked on my tea. "You mean Brie? She's not–"

    "I'll try not to be too offended by the fact that you hid this from me," she interrupted, once again not listening to a word I was saying. "It's very like you to not tell me anything important happening in your life–"

    "Mum! That's completely–"

    "–but I'm happy for you, Y/N. And I'm excited to meet her. I know I'll probably only be introduced at the actual wedding but–"

    "Mum, she's not–!"

    "–I'd appreciate it if you arranged a meeting before then," she finished.

    I sighed through gritted teeth. This was one of the reasons she was so infuriating to me. She never listened to a word I said, instead choosing to listen to what she wanted. This was one of the reasons I distanced myself from her.

     “You know, it's good that you're with someone," she added as an afterthought. "I wasn't sure you would be, considering..."

    "Considering what exactly?" I asked, raising an eyebrow.

    "Well, you've not exactly achieved a lot, have you?" she said knowingly.

    "I'm a school councillor and I help teenagers get through difficult times," I said proudly. "I think I've achieved quite a bit if it means making someone's day easier. It's a rewarding career."

    She stifled a smile. "If you say so, Y/N... look, I know I don't say it much, but I'm proud of you. Technically I haven't seen you both together, but to know that you're in a relationship is a good thing. I'm excited to meet this 'Brie' woman."

    I paused, finding it odd to see her staring at me with a sense of pride. She suddenly chose to express her feelings when she thought I was in a relationship? I hated that I felt like that little girl I once was, trying her very hardest to make her mum proud. Because now I felt the need to do it again, even though I knew I didn't need to.

    "Darling, I'm home!" Brie's familiar voice called through the flat, followed by the sound of the front door shutting and her laughter.

    "I wasn't aware that you shared flat with her," my mum noted, smiling over the rim of her cup before taking a sip.

    I facepalmed at the sound of Brie's footsteps nearing us. It was a bit between us – pretending we were a married couple because we'd been living together for two years now. Right now though, I could see how my mum thought otherwise...

    "Y/N, I have the funniest– oh! I'm sorry, I wasn't aware we had company," Brie said upon entering the kitchen. A friendly smile was on her lips as she dropped her bag by the counter and stood by my side, opposite my mum.

    "Brie, this is my... mum," I mumbled, gripping my mug. "Mum, this is Brie..."

    Brie gave my mum her perfectly angelic smile and outstretched her hand over the counter.

    "Lovely to finally meet you, Brie," my mum said, and it was the first time I'd seen her smile without it being because of something business-related or Isaac. She shook Brie's hand, saying, "Y/N here never mentioned your existence, but it's a pleasure."

    Brie chuckled, looping her arm through mine and pulling me close. "I'm not surprised. It took me a while to dig basic facts out of this one when we first met. It's a pleasure to meet you, too, though, Miss Y/L/N. Y/N's actually mentioned you a few times, so it's nice to put a face to a name."

    My mum seemed surprised at this, as she shot me a look. She looked back to Brie, smiling.

    "Please, call me Y/M/N, Brie."

    I looked between the two, the agitation I was feeling towards my mum slowly disappearing as I saw her looking genuinely happy and, dare I say it... proud? Was this finally a way to make her actually see me?

    "...Y/N will share the details with you but you must attend our wedding next week."

    Brie raised her eyebrows. "Wow, really? I mean, we've only just met and–"

    "You're important to Y/N, so you're now important to me," my mum cut her off, before standing up. I won't accept anything other than a yes." She was adamant, though her tone was lighthearted.

    Brie laughed. "Okay, I guess that's a yes. Especially if it means I get to see this one in a dress." She nudged me playfully, making me smile a little.

    "Tickets are already taken care of," my mum said, reaching into her coat pocket before setting two sets of tickets on the counter. Brie looked to me with surprise. I didn't know what to say at this point. "I must get going now, but thank you for the tea, Y/N," my mum said, finishing her last sip before standing up. She looked to me with a genuine smile and sense of pride, making me feel lighter. Was I actually impressing her? Just because I had a (what she thought to be) girlfriend?

    "Er, yeah, no problem, mum," I said, letting go of Brie and leading my mum to the door.

    "It was a pleasure to meet you, too, Brie," my mum added as I opened the door.

    "Congratulations on your engagement, Y/M/N," Brie said, smiling. "Thank you again, for inviting us."

    My mum returned the smile, making me do a double take. She was actually happy. She stopped at the doorway, looking between us both, before nodding at me.

    "You're a lovely couple," she complimented, and it was probably the third time in my life she'd paid me a compliment. "I can't wait for my friends to see you both."

    Brie chuckled. "What? Wait, d'you think–"

    "Thanks, mum," I interrupted Brie, instead intertwining our fingers for my mum to see. I looked to Brie, giving her a look. "D'you want to say thank you, darling?"

    Brie seemed to understand, though I could sense her confusion. Nonetheless, she plastered a smile on her face and pulled me close, looking to my mum.

    "Thank you, Y/M/N," she said, flashing my mum her signature Brie smile, though her cheeks were now a little pink. "And thank you for stopping by."

    My mum pulled us both in for a brief hug, making me freeze up with shock. She wasn't the touchiest of people, so this was definitely a rarity.

    "I think we should meet up before the wedding," she said when she pulled away. "How would you girls like to come to dinner at mine? Tomorrow night? Y/N, you know the address."

    I was taken aback at her invite. She was thinking about me. Wanting to know me. What alternate universe was I on?

    "Sure thing, mum, we'll be there," I said to her. Was I that desperate for an ounce of my mum's attention that I'd lie to her? I guess so.

    "Yeah, we'll see you then," Brie added, smiling, though I saw her spare me a confused glance.

    "Perfect. I'll see you then." My mum gave me one last look over before turning to leave.

    I closed the door behind her before releasing a breath, feeling the tension in my chest unknot. Same effect, as always.

    "Care to share what just happened, sweetie?" Brie said in a teasing high-pitched voice, raising our intertwined hands.

    "My mum happened," I groaned, going to the couch to flop onto it face-first.

    "Y/N, why does your mum think we're dating? It now makes sense why she would suddenly invite me to Hawaii when I just met her, but yeah, I'm a little lost still."

    I heard Brie's voice get closer and I assumed she was sat on the chair beside me.

    "Because she likes to think she has the perfect daughter when she doesn't," I said, my voice slightly muffled.

    "Y/N..."

    I sighed before sitting up, meeting Brie's concerned gaze. "I'm sorry... she just came out of nowhere. She's never even been here. She's getting married and wants me to be the maid of honour so she can impress all of her rich snobby friends. And she thinks we're dating because she saw a photo of us and didn't listen to me when I tried to tell her we weren't."

    "Well, you might want to tell her otherwise because she thinks we're going to her wedding..."

    I smiled awkwardly. "Maybe because we are...?"

    Brie raised her eyebrows. "Y/N?"

    "Oh, come on," I said, trying to sound convincing, "it won't be bad! She already thinks we're together and I've never seen her look so proud of me before. Did you know that was the first hug she's given me in three years?"

    Brie widened her eyes. "Really?"

    I nodded. "She and I aren't very close... she cares too much about what other people think of her. Of me. I left as soon as I could afford to and have been fine ever since. We talk every now and then, but nothing meaningful... she's my mum, though, and I guess I want her to be proud of me. This is the first time she's been remotely interested in my life. She invited me to dinner tomorrow! She's never done that!"

    "Y/N, that sucks and I'm really sorry," Brie started, a frown on her lips, "but this is crazy. We can't just be girlfriends to impress her. You can't lie to her." She avoided my eyes, her cheeks growing pink, making me wonder why she was suddenly so embarrassed.

    "Oh, I can," I said, nodding my head. "Look, it won't be long. Just her engagement party and the wedding and it's done. Plus it's in Hawaii, so it'll be like a holiday! I just want her to be proud of me. It won't be hard, I mean, we're already close and how many times have people thought we're a couple?"

    She quirked an eyebrow. "Never?"

    "The mail man!" I pointed out, a little unconvincingly. "Remember? He thought we were girlfriends."

    "He was also sent to prison for perving on the neighbours," she added, studying me curiously.

    I waved my hand dismissively. "Prison, shmison. Look, I'll love you forever if you do this one thing for me."

    "Oh, so you don't love me forever now?" she asked teasingly, a smile tugging at her lips.

    "You know I do," I said, returning the smile. "Come on. What could go wrong?"

    She pursed her lips, watching me. I smiled hopefully, moving closer to her and resting my hands on hers. She sighed, rolling her eyes, as if to distract from her now red cheeks.

    "Fine, I'll do it," she gave in, making me grin and jump on her, pulling her in for a hug.

    "Thank you, thank you, thank you!" I said, kissing her face several times.

    She laughed, shoving me off her. "You're welcome, idiot. Now. I need the rundown on your mother. She's a... unique character."

    I nodded, a grin on my lips. "You got it.

[greenappleeyes]

According To You (part 10)

Words: 1.6k

Summary: You and Misha talk about your recent engagement.

Warnings: Implied smut, language, RPF

A/N: For once I didn't make y'all wait a year for an update. Go me!! This chapter feels pretty final, but I promise there's more; much more.

Feedback motivates my writing muse, so an extra thank you to everyone that leaves some. If you'd like to be added to my tag list, just shoot me an ask or DM because Tumblr doesn't always notify me of comments and reblogs.

Misha is single in this series and, as always, no hate or disrespect towards Vicki or their family

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"I can explain." You stated nervously. But how could you explain? You just confessed that you loved him and now you had to tell him you were engaged to someone else.

Misha frowned at your sudden nervousness Upon seeing your reaction, it dawned on him that it wasn't just a simple piece of jewelry. "Y/N, what's going on? Are you..?"

He pulled away from you and sat up, trying to process everything that was racing through his mind. You winced at him reacting exactly the way you expected him to.

"Misha, please, I meant to tell you earlier I just…" you trailed off because you couldn't think of a good enough reason. You had been acting selfishly and now you were going to pay the price for it.

He dragged his hand over his face, trying to calm himself. "You've got to be kidding me right now." Anger, betrayal, and hurt were coursing through him; even if he felt like he had no right to feel that way. He was the other man after all. "So, what was this then? Our final hurrah before you run off and marry some dipshit who doesn't even care about you?"

"I… no, Misha. I never meant for this to happen." You pleaded with him, but he wouldn't even look at you. "I'm so sorry, I wanted to tell you before; but I didn't think it should be done over the phone."

He finally turned back to face you, eyes glistening with unshed, angry tears. "But waiting until after I told you I loved you makes much more sense." His face froze in shock as a horrific thought crossed his mind. "Did you even mean it; or were you just saying what you thought I wanted to hear?"

"Of course I meant it!" you shouted in frustration. "I still do. I love you and I nev…"

"You sure have a way of showing it." He said bitterly, cutting you off. "Tell me, if you love me so much, why the hell would you agree to marry someone else?"

A list of excuses formed in your mind; any one of them he would probably accept and then move on with his life without you. He deserved better than bullshit excuses; especially after how upset he was. "I was scared. I didn't know what he would do if I said no. He could have just left me in Vegas with no phone and no way home or… worse."

Mishas face dropped at the admission. Of course you were scared, how could he think you wouldn't be. "Shit."

He wrapped his arms around you and spoke soothingly. "I'm sorry, I was being such an asshole. I wasn't thinking."

"I felt so guilty. That whole weekend and even after." Your voice shook with embarrassment and shame. "We had sex. I let him and it felt like I was cheating on you. How messed up is that?"

A small jolt of jealousy hit Misha. He didn't like thinking of Paul being allowed to touch you in such a way. He only hugged you tighter to show that he didn't blame you. "Shh. It's not messed up. It was just your heart reminding you of who you'd rather be with."

You pulled back and wiped the tears from your eyes. "I would rather be with you. I just…"

"You just nothing." Misha said cutting off whatever excuse you were going to give. "Look, I love you, ok? I know I don't have the right to tell you what to do with your life; but if you think I'm going to let you marry that piece of shit, you're crazier than I am."

The part of you that wanted to argue was getting smaller and smaller. What was there to argue about? Whether you felt you deserved it or not, Misha loved you and was ready to free you from the cage you had been living in. You inhaled deeply and let out a shuddered breath as you pulled the gaudy ring from your finger and set it on the bedside table.

Misha smiled warmly at the gesture. "Come on, well stay at my place tonight and figure out the rest tomorrow."

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The next morning seemed to come earlier than you had wanted it to. You and Misha has stayed up most of the night verbally and physically expressing your love to one another until you were both completely sated and content to fall asleep.

"Morning." Mishas voice was low and thick from not being fully awake yet. "Sleep well?"

"Mhmm." You mumbled as you cuddled close to his chest. "Don't wanna get up yet."

Misha grunted in agreement. Thoughts of laying in bed with you all day long drifted through his mind as his blood flow travelled south. He sighed in frustration, knowing there just wasn't time for what he really wanted at the moment. "We have to. We have a lot to figure out today."

"Five more minutes." You groggily whined as you lifted your leg over him; letting your thigh brush against his prominent erection. "Or longer perhaps."

Suddenly much more awake than a second ago you rolled to straddle his hips. Mishas warm hands slid smoothly across your skin; from your outer thighs, over your hips, and up your back. He pulled you down, kissing you hungrily and groaned into your mouth as your slick folds rubbed against his cock.

"Ok." He said with a chuckle. "I guess we don't have to get out of bed just yet."

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When you and Misha finally managed to pull yourselves from his bed, you made your way back to your former home to box up the irreplaceable items you owned and leave a note for Paul. You had agonized for well over an hour over what you were going to write; but ultimately decided a simple "It's over." was sufficient.

Back at Mishas house, you stared at the 3 medium sized boxes that seemed to contain your entire life. It amazed you how little you actually considered yours compared to what was Paul's. "I don't know why I thought there would be more. Everything that wasn't surround with Paul is right here and there's just so little."

Misha pulled you into his arms, knowing that this was a hard step for you. "That just means you're starting fresh. We are starting fresh. We can find a place to put everything and make you feel at home here."

"That's actually something I wanted to talk to you about." Your heart was racing from what you were about to tell him. "I, um, I think I should be on my own for a while."

Loosening his grip around you, his face wore a dejected and heartbroken expression. "That does make sense. It's a lot to expect you to be ready to jump into another relationship right after ending a bad one."

You patted his cheek lightly and smiled up at him. "Mish, no. God no. That's not what I meant at all! Shit. I meant that I should try to, I dunno, learn how to take care of myself for a while. Find an apartment and a job. That little café where we first met is hiring."

"Y/N, I don't know…" Misha said hesitantly. "I want to make sure you're ok. I understand asking you to live with me is a lot; but I have more than enough room in this big house and a top quality security system."

Part of you wanted to accept his offer. Living with him sounded like a dream come true; but you were set on trying this on your own. "I know you're worried; but I really need to do this. I just feel like I need to learn how to be my own person for once. Does that make sense?"

Misha sighed. There was no way he was going to be able to change your mind; especially because he could understand where you were coming from. "I get it. I don't love it; but I get it."

You let Misha pull you into another embrace and your heart swelled at how supportive he was being. It was a feeling you'd never had before and, damn, if it didn't feel good. Your thoughts drifted to heading back to bed to celebrate some more when you were interrupted by the phone ringing.

"It's Paul." Your voice shook slightly. "I should answer it."

He rubbed his hands up and down your arms and nodded. "I'll give you a minute; but I'll just be over here if you need me."

Misha leaned against a doorway as you paced back and forth while on the phone. Seeing you look so nervous and on the verge of upset bothered him greatly; all he wanted to do was grab the phone and tell Paul to fuck off. But he knew this was something you needed to do on your own as well and he was extremely proud to hear you standing up for yourself against the man who had torn you down so many times.

As soon as the call was over, he was ready to accept you back into his arms. Your shoulders shuddered as you let yourself cry against him; too emotional to be embarrassed. Misha simple backed up so you both could sit down and was prepared to comfort and hold you as long as you needed.

As your emotions started to level out again, you looked up at him and smiled. Your runny nose, crimson cheeks, and bloodshot eyes weren't enough to hide the look of relived joy on your face. For the first time in your life, you felt free.

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[lyraeon]

No Spanish class this quarter after all because the school has a very strict course load allowance for freshmen, so I have only three classes despite that sounding wrong. The upside is, no more painfully late Wednesdays. The downside is, my start time varies so it's going to require an extra level of discipline, especially since my early days are the ones that also only have one class. Luckily it's the class I think I'll like the most. Leaving my Wednesday nights stream free anyway. We all know there's an 80% chance I'll be online anyway but I'm trying to leave gaps for errands and for friends who don't like streaming. That/wanting a night we can reliably go out on is part of why my Saturday stream is early; the rest is wanting to make sure I don't fuck up my sleep schedule too much on my days off. Alarm is 7:45 on early days, which were every day in the last iteration. Anyone who's followed me for long knows in the queen of procrastination and that I have little work ethic. But I also do better with predictable schedules. I was absolute shite at holding myself to one while I was unemployed, but now that there's something besides my limp willpower holding this schedule together, hopefully I'm gonna get somewhere with it. This school year is gonna be about a few layers of things. Rebuilding self-discipline without rebirthing the full brunt of my self-depriving is number one on the list. I need to be responsible. Be to class on time, walk the dog more often, have meals planned out, get my homework done promptly, have stream announcements pre-made so I can issue them on time and start on time. Most importantly, ask someone for help if I'm having a hard time with my work. Why am I pushing the streaming thing so hard? First of all, because I think I actually have a shot at it being a small source of income if I can keep growing. I'm not planning on juggling work and school this school year unless I really need to (might take a holiday job though), so if I could get an alternative and lighten my debt load even by a couple hundred it'd be swell. Is something that will get me in the habit of juggling work and school in the mean time by obeying schedules for both, while being less stressful because hey I get to have fun and if I don't want to wear pants I don't have to. By spring I'll realistically know if I'm up for just a 20 hour job while I'm schooling or if I think I could work full time on top of it. I'm also hoping, hoping hoping hoping, that keeping this busy will make the procrastination bug struggle for escape on such a level that I'll start writing again. It always manifests when I'm supposed to be doing something else. If I succeed, I'll plan more time for it in. (I'll just call it something else so it doesn't know I want to be "distracted" lol. Reverse psychology! On myself!) This isn't the wisest thing I've ever done, and I still admit that this arose out of the phrase, "what's the fastest way to get enough money in my pocket that I can pay off the utilities before there's issues", but things have fallen together nicely and have required just enough effort from me that I can tell I actually want to do this because I haven't tried to cop out yet. All I want from y'all is to take care of yourselves and each other, because momma's not gonna be around as much so somebody has to pick up the slack. If you want to do more, coming by my stream is always great for boosting my morale. Also, please send me recipes for shit I can marinade the night before or otherwise cook in under an hour. Especially things I can then take to school for lunches. I know I know how to cook so so many things but I still wind up drawing a blank pretty often, so having a calendar written out or a hat to draw from will keep me from spending spoons on the executive dysfunction of "what do I cook". I also wouldn't mind recommendations for audio books or podcasts, cuz I'm finally almost caught up on nightvale and 20 minutes of my 80 minute commute is spent outside of signal range, plus I'm trying not to eat up my data. Thanks everyone who's sent me kind words, I really appreciate all your support. I'm trying to succeed where I failed four times before, but for the first time in my life I have my mental illnesses under control AND have a safe environment at the same time, so I'm only a little scared. I'll make you proud everybody. I promise 💞💞 (We'll do it this time, self. I know we can 💓)