#Shout out to thesaurus for making me sound smarter then i actually am

[sometimesrayjay]

-Rather die-

Summary:

Managing to escape, you ran through the outskirts of the home The yanderes had forced you to call your own. With them chasing you, You accidentally come across a cliff, Now cornered, your back facing certain death, you try to jump.

TW: Abuse, Violence, Attempted suicide, Yanderes having a whole mental breakdown, got kinda dark

Shoto Todoroki 

You could barely even keep up with the speed of Todoroki, let alone outrun him, But Hope still held on.

Your Heart rang in your ears, streaks of tears burning your scratched cheeks, dry throat painfully heaving for air as you were all but calm. Tripping over yourself, you continued forcing your bruised body to press on, The appeal of freedom enough to push the thoughts of giving in to the edges of your mind.

It was all happening so fast, Too fast in fact.

The forest around you was painted in red, signifying the dying light transitioning into night, You regretted even escaping at this time, from alot of perspectives the bad outweighed the good. But the important thing was that you even got out.

got out before you fell too deep.

As the trees around you started to thin out, you knew you were finally out of the bush of forest you blindly navigated, and all of a sudden you could finally see the sun staring at you, peeking on the horizon.

Assumptions were quickly made as you saw land disappearing ahead of you, Panic setting in.

If you were right, you were about to throw yourself off a cliff.

Naturally you skidded to a stop, feet digging into the soggy ground, Forcing your side to slam into the ground to keep yourself from going off the edge.

You scrambled up, hands digging into the ground ahead of you to keep your body from teetering off a literal cliff, dirt and mud caked on your face.

Through your blurry eyes, you could see Todoroki in the distance running towards you, yelling your name.

It was a split-second decision, With no time to mull over the consequences, and fear laced through your body, you could only give yourself one order.

Your not going back.

Pushing your arms back, you toppled over, skidding off the edge, your thoughts only just catching up.

If He catches you:

Frustrated, Pissed, Livid.

Not only did you run away, but you so carelessly jumped off-  you could’ve died! The first thing he does when he catches you is knock you out, Todoroki is a patient man, but when it comes to you getting hurt, It’s insanely thin ice your skating on.

After your limp in his arms, he lets out a sigh of relief, hugging you, The realization of how dangerous this situation really was burning into him.

Thank god he saved you.

Cleans you up and tends to your wounds first, He would rather you be awake for your punishment. 

And as soon as you do, He pets your head, Softly telling you he loves you as he slowly breaks your legs. 

You could only throw your head back and scream.

With chains wrapping around your arms bounding you to the floor it was quite hard to even think about escaping again, Your heart heavy with shame in the face of failure and humiliation.

Afterwards, He starts to think back.

What would he really do, if you died that day?

He then tries to make it up to you, making you your favorite dinner, getting you a pet, taking you outside on dates-

Your silence really starts to worry Todoroki after a while.

Izuku Midoryia 

Pushing yourself past your limits seemed only to tire you out faster.

Disbelief followed you through your tracks as you could’ve thrown your arms up in joy, Were you actually outrunning him?

Panicked heart slamming against your rib-cage, you struggled to catch your breath, needing more air than you could take in. Battling with Burn-out, Your body stuttered and screamed at you to slow down, to take a break.

Taunting yourself with the reward of freedom from the man who worshiped your being forced your legs to keep moving, to keep up with the speed Izuku’s presence demanded.

Sweat trickled down your face, crying out in frustration; you managed to push yourself even harder, The promise of relief in the near future spurring your efforts on. 

The dreary Moonlight lit up your path as you could only blindly run in whatever direction felt necessary, straining your eyes to see for obstacles ahead of you, The thought of one thing going wrong messing up everything Caused your cautious eyes to dart between paths and thick trees, Making sure you didn’t slam or trip on a random object

So how could you notice the cliff in front of you in pitch black?

Your heart dropped as you seemed to step on air, Hoping that you would feel ground under you, Hoping that you didn’t have to pay the price for your ignorance to go out in the middle of the night.

Fortunately your Body reacted first, shooting your hands out to grab whatever was at your disposal.

Lucking out, your hand managed to wrap around someone else’s.

wait-

Your head shot up to meet with izuku’s startled face. He reached out his other hand to continue pulling your dangling body up.

Heart in your throat, your gut clenching painfully, You wanted to cry, to scream out.

Luckily your sweaty, wet hands made it easy to slip out of his iron grip.

If He catches you:

He panics, as soon as he catches you, he pulls you into a bone crushing hug, babbling senselessly through hurried hiccups and tears.

Immediately takes you back home, cooing to you the whole time, assuring you that you were safe now, that he was here, that everything was going to be okay.

His Delusional side really shows when hes handling this.

He gives you a bath, stressing to you about how dangerous that little stunt you pulled was, That you could’ve gotten seriously hurt, even died.

But at that point, you wish you did.

If escaping wasn’t already a pain in the ass for you, Now it was near impossible, trackers, sensors, cameras, It doesn’t matter, Your privacy doesn’t matter, and your consent was already brushed off by him a very long time ago.

That night he cry’s into your chest. Telling you how scared he was, How much he loves you and how much you mean to him.

Everything seems to go downhill from there.

Your every waking moment seems like its dedicated to this stupid ‘relationship’ now.

Eijiro Kirishima

The bitter cold slapped against your face as you helplessly ran, sobbing in between pants. 

You could hear Kirishimas shouts echo throughout the throng of spruce trees, only adding to your gut clenching terror. Forcing your roughed up legs to skip through the mesh of wildlife littering the ground was hard enough, But having to constantly retaliate against your fatigue and running as fast as you could was near impossible.

Slowing down was inevitable, you confronted that as soon as you started moving; but if only you could deny your bodily needs just for a few minutes-!

While wishing for the impossible, for everything to be in your favor; The booming footsteps behind you only got closer and closer.

Everything hurt, Your mind a Hazy mess, and your legs burning.

You felt like you were drowning.

But hey, Whatever happened, if you escaped or not, At least you could tell yourself you tried?

Stumbling over your own bare feet, You pressed on, Body trembling as it was pushed to it’s limits. Coughing, You felt yourself giving in, slowing down, shutting off.

And as the Spruce trees around came to an abrupt stop, You slowed down, the Sky was a gloomy grey, and below you was a whole other forest scattered over the horizon. and as you bunched together in your mind that you were standing over a goddamn cliff, you wanted to cry out in frustration.

you stopped.

Catching your breath through hoarse groans, you looked up to the sky weakly, Choking on your own dry sobs, you mourned your failure, where could you go now?

Kirishimas hollers now becoming louder and more clearer, You opened your eyes and turned your head around, watched his figure becoming bigger and bigger in the distance.

You really didn’t wanna have to deal with this anymore.

And, looking back towards the cliffs edge, you knit your eyebrows together, eyes fluttering closed.

Maybe you didn’t have to

Your body seemed to move on its own.

If He catches you:

Immediately wraps himself around you, arms snaking around your waist as he bury’s his face into your neck and shoulder, His entire body trembling.

So shaky, You could practically feel his body trembling as he curls himself around you, feverishly petting your hair.

occasionally pulls from the abrasive hug, thumbs swiping against your cheeks, looking at you through blurry eyes.

“Are- Are you still here?”

Starts sobbing into your shoulder after awhile, Hes struggling to keep up. When he finally pieces himself together, (It takes a while, trust me) He picks you up silently, and carry’s you home, your cries and shouts falling deaf on his ears.

If your legs weren’t already broken from the fall, He’ll break them for you, He’s so- so lost- eventually just breaking down, falling to the floor and telling you how sorry he is.

Sorry he wasn’t enough. Sorry he made you think you had to do something like this. Expect him to loosen up the rules, wheeling you around the park, taking you on vacations, letting you freely roam about the overgrown mossy backyard- 

All under his supervision, of course.

But no matter how many more places you get to go to now, it still doesn’t take away the weight of the chain around your ankle.