#Self aware! Reverse 1999

[imtotallynotthere]

Pavia hates it. He hates being forced to fight even if the rush of it is exhilarating. More specifically, he hates "dying." Many times, he's fought and been dealt a fatal blow. During that time, it's almost like fainting. He sees the blow coming but can't do anything about it as it hits him only for him to wake up back on the main screen. The "home screen" he sometimes hears it being called.

It's almost like he misses a part of his memory. Like a chunk was taken out and not given back. He knows that’s not the case, as he quite honestly died, but he can’t help himself from feeling that way.

Against the odds, he doesn't hate the player. He can see they're just clueless he's self-aware. He knows they wouldn't be making him do it against his will if they knew. He can hear whenever they panic when he's low, muttering about how they wish they had put a healer on the team and had enough luck to get a good one from a "banner." He's talked to others, ones who are aware. Granted, he can only talk to them once the player is off the game, and it isn't too many.

The player holds the tendency to stick only to one team. Something they seem to have experience doing by the way they talk about some game called "Honkai Star Rail."

The system he's trapped by doesn't allow him to stray far from his preprogrammed lines. He can change them up only slightly. Where his lines, though different, are so similar that they're barely noticeable. He hates that, but at least he holds some sort of control.

Saying the lines over and over again is something he holds large hatred for. It has become tiring, but he can’t do anything against the system. He's talked to X a few times about it, and X has said that even he doesn't know what to do, but he's working on it.

He wonders what X is doing because he hasn't seen him in a while.

Maybe he'll be able to talk to the player, maybe not. Whatever's the case, he'll keep trying. He's stubborn just as they are, and he'll keep pushing because the player is not clueless. He's taken notice of their brows furrowing when his morning line is different and when his battle lines sound more annoyed.

They'll find out in one way or another.

[moon-cakiie]

pov: Pavia can able to communicate you through your screen.

w/o bubble speech version:

A/N: I made a self aware au feat by Pavia. It's inspired the self aware au hcs/scenario I read from @nopersonishere.

Feel free use as a wallpaper, repost is not allowed unless if you asked me permissions first.

[vasito-de-leche]

;R1999 - Self-Aware AU

Headcanons about an Alternate Universe in which everyone knows they're living inside a videogame. However, Vertin is the only one aware of the entity inhabiting her own mind, the real conductor - the "Player".

this is one of my favorite AUs to slap on whatever media I'm into so here we are <3 not sure if anyone's done this already, but PLEASE PLEASE PRETTY PLEASE link me if you've seen any other ppl write for this AU! this one and any actor AUs are my absolute fave

this is just a word vomit introduction for fun, to get the basic ideas out of my head, so I can start writing for characters individually!

Okay, okay! First of all, some context for the AU before I go deranged overexplaining my HCs!

Aside from the "Storm", there is something else that haunts the people of this world: the fact that their lives are nothing but a simulacrum, part of a game.

The requirements to obtain this "self-awareness" is unknown. Those within the Foundation believe it's related to their respective "roles", that only the main and relevant characters are given the chance to fully open their eyes to the truth. Those within Manus Vindictae claim that one must be strong enough to break through the fog of complacency and their assigned scripts, to have their full potential unleashed and obtain true liberation. Either way, similar to the "Storm", this is a well-kept secret for a very good reason - everyone wants to have the upperhand.

There is one outlier to this whole system. Vertin is not only aware of the truth of this world, but also of her duty as the eyes and hands of the "Player". She must experience it all for their sake. Or rather, whatever she experiences will be the story that the Player will see.

This applies to her suitcase, the place where the Player's influence increases tenfold, bending everything and everyone to their will through her own body and voice. The longer one stays within her suitcase - or within her general vicinity - the easier it is for them to become self-aware.

How does one become "self-aware" and what does it entail?

The requirements and the catalyst for a character to become self-aware are still a mystery. But that's mostly because I specifically wanted to keep them as vague as possible, to allow some flexibility for NPCs and other characters outside of Vertin's suitcase.

The whole process of gaining sentience or self-awareness is mostly described as waking up from a nightmare, or a very, very realistic dream. It's like a switch, something that happens in a second without any warnings whatsoever.

I like to think that most of the people who wake up are easy to spot, because it's a jarring experience and panicking is the most normal reaction - but that they're often taken care of by the Foundation or recruited by Manus Vindictae.

The levels of awareness also depend heavily on each individual - some only know that nothing is truly real, that everything they've done up until that point was just a carefully scripted lie, the most basic realization. Others can understand the rules that govern this game and use them to their advantage, either through observation and study or just inherently.

Overall, the experience of being sentient varies as well, with some describing a disconnect from their body, while others feel exactly the opposite. Again, keeping it pretty vague so that people can fill in with their own ideas!

I'll talk about Vertin's case in detail when we get to her specific bullet point, but the same way the Player is able to experience the "story" through her eyes, she's able to see the same things they do - this includes the UI, the menus and everything you can interact with in-game.

Vertin as a character and a vessel for the Player.

The most common thing I've seen in self-aware AUs in my years of fandom is to turn the player stand-in (the main character that serves for the player to experience the story through and/or project onto, depending on the genre of the game) into an obstacle, one that keeps the characters from truly interacting with the Player, capital P.

The second most common thing I've seen is to simply ignore the existence of this player stand-in and replace it with the Player themself, either through isekai methods or thanks to the customization the game allows, etc etc.

When it comes to Vertin in this AU, I know I want her to retain her role as the center of everything, instead of being sidelined by the Player. She's THE Timekeeper, after all.

There's still some details I'm trying to iron out, like whether she's always been self-aware or if she became self-aware at some point during her childhood at the St. Pavlov Foundation. But I like to think that her relationship to the Player is a parallel to her immunity to the "Storm" - neither of these two things are inherently good nor bad. Surviving the "Storm" is helpful, sure, but it's painful for her. Having an entity like the "Player" haunting her is scary, sure, but it can be an advantage. It's a matter of how she utilizes the assets she was given, since her adaptability and determination are big aspects of her character. Vertin makes up for her mediocre arcane skills with unconventional plans and strategies.

But this isn't to say that Vertin isn't affected by the presence of the Player. Ironically, she's the one person whose freedom is limited. During battles, her skills and Tuning are available to you, they can also prove to be vital to win a fight, but in the end you're still the one calling the shots and choosing when her friends get to attack. You're the one choosing the layout of the Wilderness. You're the one picking which one of her friends deserves to become stronger.

In the last bullet point I mentioned that some characters can understand the rules of the game - Vertin is the most extreme case, as she can see the same UI as you do. She learns the way you like to fight your battles, your own strategies, she can see this and more.

Overall it's a very complex dynamic. It's not as easy as saying that she likes or dislikes you, that she considers you a friend or foe. You're part of her, you influence each other in many aspects and are stuck together for reasons she can't even fathom. While you may be able to read her thoughts most of the time, she becomes invisible once you enter the suitcase - the main menu of the game. Sure, the character you selected to greet you every day is actually talking to her, not you, but she's out of your view and therefore, out of our range. That's when Vertin wonders the sort of person that you are, if you care about her friends as much as she does. Are you playing just to be entertained? Are you invested in these events? Will you be there for her until the end of her story?

Another detail I like to think about is that Vertin is the only one who knows your name. Because at the very beginning, you were asked to input a name and she was there.

[screenshot was taken from this video, since it's the first one I could find that showed this specific part of the game lol]

Well, "your name" not quite right - she knows that whatever you wrote there is the name linked to your account, at least. And that's the name she knows you as.

Those who take residence in Vertin's suitcase or spend prolonged amounts of time with her, growing closer to her and all, end up becoming self-aware. This is a direct side-effect of your presence.

I like to think that characters who reach the 100% Bond can begin to sense the Player, to see the world in a similar way as Vertin does. Maybe even feel their presence EXACTLY like Vertin does whenever there's a battle. There is someone else on the other side of this screen, the fourth wall, who watches over them.

To some, it's hard to differentiate Vertin from the Player, as they just go hand in hand - but Sonetto, for example, has the easiest time telling the two apart.

On the subject of freedom and acting out of script.

The Foundation, Manus Vindictae, Laplace... It doesn't matter if they're self-aware and acting outside of what their script dictates, because they're missing one key ingredient: you. No one else but Vertin and her group knows about your existence, after all.

They don't know that the only story that matters is the one that Vertin is part of. The one that the Player gets to see and read and experience. And because the game gives you a very limited view into the lives of these characters, you don't know what neither Arcana nor Constantine do behind the scenes. You and Vertin don't see that, therefore, it never truly mattered.

Those most likely to start "acting out" are the troublemakers within Vertin's suitcase. Characters who are too curious for their own good, who are more susceptible to supernatural entities, who are just too impulsive - they would start to test the limits and see how far they can go, how much they can interact with the Player. Can the game be broken should they end up shattering the fourth wall? Is there a way for the Player to communicate with them? What will happen to Vertin?

I like to think that Vertin probably supports this, as she's rather curious herself, prone to questioning everything. She would also like to learn more about the Player, to truly tear into the game and see the full extent of your influence and her freedom.

Sometimes, Regulus and X will change their usual voicelines, just enough to be noticeable if one pays enough attention. Characters like Sotheby or Leilani might slip up and address the Player, rather than Vertin. Lilya, Pavia, Bkornblume have new animations and different expressions, ones you've never seen before - they stare ahead, as if searching for something, and then smirk or hum to themselves, deep in thought, like they realized something you're not privy of.

Sometimes, if you leave them as your selected assistant on the main menu, you can catch them muttering to themselves - idle quotes you never heard enough, about the outside world. Diggers does this the most, it's almost embarassing how easy it is to catch him talking nonsense, followed by Sonetto. If you leave Medicine Pocket alone for too long, you might come back to a screen covered in weird scratch marks.

On the subject of these characters being curious about the outside world and all, I think that a good chunk of them are generally content with the way things are?

We have to remember that in-universe, they're arcanists displaced from their respective eras. Their best chance at surviving is siding with Vertin, and if Vertin is content with the way things are, then there's no point in trying to disrupt what they have right now. They're curious enough to prod, but only as far as Vertin allows it.

And I think that's it for the word vomit!

There are some details I didn't know where to fit in, like the possibility of the fourth wall slowly dissipating the more time the Player invests in the game, leading to some characters being able to directly hear you if you talk while playing and whatnot. Or what would happen should someone outside of Vertin's suitcase figure out the existence of the Player, let alone interact with you in some way.

Or the concept of death being meaningless, unless it was pre-established by the game itself.

In Borderlands, there's this game mechanic where you can just be revived over and over and pay a percentage of your money as a fee, even though the canon that's established is that you play through the whole story without dying a SINGLE time - because the revival mechanics aren't canon. There's the divide between story and gameplay. That's pretty much the standard. But what about the deaths in battles in R1999? The amount of times I died to 1.3's UTTU's Flash Gathering is insane. How do self-aware characters feel about this, now that they know that they're bound to die over and over and be brought back because you have to do your Pneuma Analysis or reach the final stage of Limbo?

But that's pretty much it for now, I think I got most thoughts out of my system! Thank you for reading!

[c3egames]

Spoilers for chapter 4 of Reverse:1999 just a lil bit

I am unable to contain my sheer sadness for Schneider AND my pride for Sonetto's growth. By chapter 2 we are all aware of Schneider's rejection from the Foundation, leading her to join Manus Vindictae to protect her family.

All she wished for was to live just a little longer, to keep her family safe, to live through the "Storm" and grasp the future. But no.

Prepare yourself for the shit you bout to see

I don't think I've been this fucking angry over a video game ever since Wilbur in counter:side. This made me go, "ARE YOU SHITTING ME!?!" Like damn Sonetto had self control here the debate duel must have let her relieve some aggression cuz I would have murked that bitch.

Sonetto, I'm proud of you.

[solns]

i dont give a fuck what anyone says about this nerd i love this guy lmao i enjoy how self-aware and cheeky he is

im back to reverse 1999's event story after binging the game awards

[t1da1-wav3s]

Hello!, Your apple addict M🧃 here!

Im excited to say this is my first post!, I’ve seen many people on this platform making posts about one shots and stuff so I decided to also do something’s like that!, I’ll try and figure out how to open requests so you can ask for me to write anything!, of course I do have boundaries for my asks so as long as it’s reasonable I’ll try to do it

I’m in a lot of different fandoms so I’ll try to write for those and if you ask for a character from a fandom I’m not apart of I’ll try to look it up and make it very similar to the character you requested!, this is the listing of all the fandoms I’m in!, warning my writing is not the best as I’m still a beginner but I’ll try to make it on par to all of your standards!

- Genshin impact (self aware included)

- Honkai star rail (self aware included)

- Identity V

- Twisted wonderland (self aware included)

- Jujutsu kaisen

- Obey me (it’s been a long time since I last played)

- Reverse 1999

Thanks for reading!

-Your apple addict M🧃 Out!

[carlosoliveiras-wife]

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ .ೃ࿐ ┈┈┈┈ : . . . . : ─ hola, qué pasa. i’m chloë [she/her], biromantic[?]/ace-spectrum hispanic [white/mex] ladee who enjoys masc titles. here’s my main selfship carrd [still in progress]. here’s my general f/o list. here's my fandom ref drive. please like this post once read!

the guys shown above are My Darlin's, my main F/Os that I have super bad brainrot about and who are just part of my main squad but with a fancier label. rubs eyes. in order, they are...

Carlos Oliveira; Resident Evil 3 [Remake]

Pavia; Reverse: 1999

Miguel O'Hara; Specifically ATSV's Version*

Charles Smith; Red Dead Redemption 2

Lúcio Correia dos Santos; Overwatch

Lee; Arknights

Rei Sakuma; Ensemble Stars!!

the asterisk is that i largely use comic lore in reference to Miguel. in case that needed to be said. i just needed to put that out there i guess??

my terms on sharing are that i'm not comfy, and if you're too lazy(/nm) to read below, the gist is dni if we share, and if you reblog from someone who shares my f/os of any status, i'll just softblock for my mental health because i. am a bitch when it comes to sharing. sorry.

in the same sense: if you share any of my friends' f/os, i either will block or not follow just for their sakes and i have a personal bias when it comes to my friends' stuff. if that makes sense. probably not. here's the link to the list, which can be updated at any time.

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˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ .ೃ࿐ ┈┈┈┈ : . . . . : ─ i’m specifically writing my new pinned to sound like i lack enthusiasm, because, y’know, i kinda feel that way a lot. don’t be intimidated, i don’t bite unless you give me a permit to do so, otherwise i’ll just stare at you from across the room. i’m not new to selfshipping in the slightest, and i’ve been doing this shit since i was a kid. i heavily love fictional characters and i see them as my bitches who should bow down to me. that’s a joke. i’m bowing down to them. sidenote: i put the question mark by biromantic because i have no idea if i’m aroace or not. sigh.

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ .ೃ࿐ ┈┈┈┈ : . . . . : ─ i like a lot of things outside of fictional characters who make me wanna eat grass. i love to draw, i love to write, i love to design, i’d fucking love to not have seasonal allergies. i also really fucking love animals, however, don’t rely on me for knowledge because i obviously don’t know everything about anything. my faves are orcas and foxes! my favorite foods are salmon nigiri, tamales, and conchas. awkward thumbs up emoji.

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ .ೃ࿐ ┈┈┈┈ : . . . . : ─ my dni and other stuff can be found on my main/introductory carrd. fandom-wise, you can find my info and trivia and all your need-to-knows on my ascendaries carrd.

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ .ೃ࿐ ┈┈┈┈ : . . . . : ─ yes, i’m aware i have a rain theme going on. personal ties and i love the weather. shrug emoji.

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ .ೃ࿐ ┈┈┈┈ : . . . . : ─ yes, i'm aware a lot of my selfships have repetitive themes and tropes. those themes and tropes are very comforting and also largely stem from personal things which is why i indulge them. tldr: if you hate childhood friends to lovers, hooh, you're gonna hate me.

little tidbits about me, i suppose. a good chunk of these are taken from my old pinned.

- ͙۪۪̥˚┊❛ i quite literally use myself in all selfships, and prefer each fandom variation to not be called a "self insert". it's legit just me befitted for a fandom (usually a f/o, ie, if a f/o is an eldritch horror then fuck it i am too) 😔 ❜┊˚ ͙۪۪̥◌

- ͙۪۪̥˚┊❛ i have a lot of interests and tend to show an interest in a lot of things at once— while i may not know everything about a media, i do immediately go searching for character analyses as well as consume media as much as i can. i do have an attention problem which involves finding it hard to sit down and binge. but i will read the info as much as i can, i do tend to like reading more than watching/playing. ❜┊˚ ͙۪۪̥◌

- ͙۪۪̥˚┊❛ again, as previously stated, i am a hispanic selfshipper. however, i look whiter than one would assume, and kinda act it as well. while meals and pronunciations are a big deal to me[minus the joking mispronunciations which earn me 'oh she's white' stares; listen it's kinda funny], i'm not fluent in spanish [i know a few phrases…] nor do i have many experiences many others may have. i admire a lot of the traditions, however i did not grow up with them. i’d love to meet other hispanic selfshippers though, y’all are cool and i’m giving you all a little kiss. ❜┊˚ ͙۪۪̥◌

- ͙۪۪̥˚┊❛ yeah, it's actually spelled “Chloë”, in case you had to know. ❜┊˚ ͙۪۪̥◌

- ͙۪۪̥˚┊❛ i love to indulge my friends and mutuals as best as i can! my inbox is always open for rambles and such, so don't be afraid to talk to me. i also don't mind infodumps on any of my faves because you'd more than likely help me understand them more anyways, which is always welcome. ❜┊˚ ͙۪۪̥◌

- ͙۪۪̥˚┊❛ i do love to portray myself as the more affectionate one in any of my selfships— while everyone loves affectionate male/female f/o stuff, i like giving out more love and flustering my dumbasses. ❜┊˚ ͙۪۪̥◌

- ͙۪۪̥˚┊❛ unfortunately, i am a lady who is very not okay with sharing. if that bothers you, just please do not interact. i know non-sharing selfshippers seem silly and childish, but it's just how i am. similarly, i do not care to interact with anyone who selfships with faves on the friend DNI list, meaning that i prefer their selfships above all else. i know that ain’t gonna stop anyone, but oh well. that list doesn’t apply to anyone following before that list was updated, so! yeah. ❜┊˚ ͙۪۪̥◌

- ͙۪۪̥˚┊❛ i'm uncomfortable with nsfw and if you are a nsfw account, please do interact on a different account. while i do have nsfw humor, indulging in actual nsfw makes me uncomfy, so please keep that in mind. ❜┊˚ ͙۪۪̥◌

- ͙۪۪̥˚┊❛ don't be scared of interacting with me. i'm not gonna leap out of the water and bite your hand off. as long as we don't share f/os, i don't mind interacting. ❜┊˚ ͙۪۪̥◌

- ͙۪۪̥˚┊❛ i don't mind being tagged in things. i find it quite fun, actually! and i feel honored! hehehe ❜┊˚ ͙۪۪̥◌

- ͙۪۪̥˚┊❛ fandom blogs PLEASE dni. there's nothing wrong with you guys...some of y'all, i mean. i'm just. i'd strongly prefer not to have fandom blogs follow me. likewise: ccxcc shippers for my f/os. sorry i'm still a person who's uncomfy w/sharing ❜┊˚ ͙۪۪̥◌

͙۪۪̥˚┊❛ edited last: 12/6/2023 — while this blog is by all means "private" (read: i have the settings that doesn't allow this blog to be searched up or something else), i don't think i'm too bothered by reblogs or stuff about my personal selfship content anymore. i had this rule in place initially so that way i did not burn a hole in my brain from too much attention, however, i will do my best in taking things easier so that way i don't hit that mark of burnout again, or at least, as fast. ❜┊˚ ͙۪۪̥◌

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DNI

you fit basic DNI criteria, this includes being a zionist. i dont wanna see any proshippers or racists or pedos or lgbtphobes or islamophobes or anyone else who fits this bs criteria

if you share my f/os, this is just more of a comfort thing. im less likely to follow if you reblog from someone who does share my f/os just for my own comfort

if you associate with @/tealilii or @/glazelilii or whatever other handles she has. she's caused trauma for me and another friend of mine, and might still be doing harmful shit to my other friend.

you associate with @/lolthia. you can find posts on why you shouldnt associate with them.

javier escuella slanderers. i will throw you like a fucking dodgeball

people who like dark content, including but not limited to: yanderes, DD: DNE, noncon or dubcon, incest including stepcest, the glorification of abuse

see someone wearing certain things in fashion and immediately ask if theyre into nsfw things or why they're wearing "fetish gear". its weird, dont do that, esp not to me.

there's probably more but. hm. i'll update eventually

i don't know what else to add. glances to the side. so uh. yeahh. hi there guys...??

dividers are by @/cafekitsune!!

[schneidersumbrella]

INTRODUCTION POST

Hi! I'm Schneider's Umbrella aka just Umbrella! I go by they/them pronouns. I mostly write for Re19 but write for Genshin, HSR, and PJSK too. I really like self aware aus, especially when it has no religious themes so I will write for that. Probably a lot. I also like ship content so request away!

Guide to tags!

- umbrella.drabbles.♡ = shitposting/rambling

- umbrella.important♡ = important info or posts

- umbrella.fics.♡ = fics written by yours truly

- umbrella.hcs.♡ = headcanons and thoughts

-umbrella.longposting.♡ = tagged when a post will take up your entire dash. filter if needed

-umbrella.catposting.♡ = posts about cats!!

-umbrella.art.♡ = art posts!

Fandoms I will write for!!

-Reverse: 1999

-Genshin Impact

-Project SEKAI: COLORFUL STAGE! feat. Hatsune Miku

-Honkai Star Rail on occasion

-Vocaloid

-MILGRAM

EDIT 1 STARTS HERE

-Hermitcraft too now! I'm mostly experienced with seasons 6, 7, and 10, though.

-Ghost and Pals, especially anything from team 6×111 (qualia automata, lamentations)

EDIT 1 ENDS HERE

That is all, adieu.

EDITS MADE: 1

[nomorefstogive]

Attempt at Masterlist.

Good Evening my friends and welcome to my humble little corner of the web. I am glad to have you stop by and pay me a visit on this day, and I hope that you enjoy browsing through my merry collection of stories and ideas during your brief stay here. 

Please be advised this is my first attempt at a masterlist and as such it is somewhat of a mess, I will try and think of a better way of formatting it later on, but for now I believe this will work as a good enough placeholder until such a time. 

Before you start browsing though, I would like to recommend you visit my Introduction, DNI and Such.   

Please bear in mind that while I am always open to discussing ideas and such with asks, my requests are closed for the foreseeable future. With all of that said, I welcome you to my humble little corner once more, and likewise wish you enjoy your stay here once again. 

Ao3 account:

TheGreatestShow

Current fandoms I am writing for are:

SAGAU for Genshin Impact

Path To Nowhere

Planned fandoms to write for:

Arknights

Azur Lane

Reverse 1999

Maybe posting some of my original character/world designs for future stories.

Whatever other games peak my interest.

Brainrots:

First Batch of Brainrots, please feel free to use as inspiration just @ me so I can see what you make of them 

Headcanons:

Traits of The Divine (Can be considered both a Brainrot and Au Idea as well I believe) 

Hydro Archon Headcanons (General with mentions of Twin God au and Mother Knows Best au) 

Au Ideas:

Mother Knows Best (Child God Reader with Mother God)

The Elder Twin (Child God Reader with sibling) 

For Lack of A Vision (Warning contains dark themes)

A Day of Miracles (Child God Reader with self indulgent Fluff) Part 1  

A Day of Miracles Part 2: Liyue 

SAGAU Stories:

 Making Jean Take A Break (Child God Reader with Soft yandere cult) 

Hydro Archon: A Tale of Tides 

Path To Nowhere Headcanons:

Langley SFW Headcanons

Wolverine SFW Headcanons  

Che SFW Headcanons

Shalom SFW Headcanons 

Path To Nowhere Fics:

Our Dearest Sin (Cross Posted On Ao3) Chapter 1: Langley being Pampered After Work By Female Chief

Our Dearest Sin (Cross Posted On Ao3) Chapter 2: "We All Rest In An Oaken Casket." 

Our Dearest Sin: Chapter 3: Taking Care of Flowers (Crossposted On Ao3)

Self Aware Path To Nowhere: 

Self Aware PTN ideas

Warhammer 40k, Female Primarch AU:

Through Love, Perfection. Female Fulgrim/Gender Neutral Character.

[kireoppi]

[Image description: An illustration of the night sky. A yellow crescent moon is in the centre of the dark blue sky and there are clouds surrounding the edges of the image. End description.]

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hello and welcome! my name's Will.

here's some information about me:

☆ i am an autistic person and i am self diagnosed, though i am currently trying to get a professional diagnosis as soon as a i can. if i say anything wrong/incorrect, please do correct me as im also still learning and figuring stuff out about my autism and just autism in general.

☆ i am mentally ill in one way or another, though i am completely undiagnosed.

☆ also physically disabled with illnesses that are diagnosed (Scoliosis, Hypermobile Joint Syndrome), and suspected (POTS, ME/CFS, Fibromyalgia). i also find it hard to read smaller texts at times, so blogs will mainly have texts in bigger fonts.

☆ i use mobility aids, such as forearm crutches and a cane.

☆ i am transgender and cupioromantic asexual achillian, please refer to me using he/him pronouns.

☆ although verbal, i do struggle with communication via oral speech and sometimes even experience speech loss episodes, so i use AAC sometimes.

☆ i occaisionally may use an AAC board to write posts on here as practice!

☆ when asking questions or interacting with me, please use tonetags!

☆ if i don't respond to asks, it may just be me having a hard time to answer trying to figure out how. there can be other reasons, but i most likely wont ignore you on purpose for no good reason.

☆ i may speak in other languages, like Malay or Chinese. but there will always be translations in either the tags or right underneath the text

☆ this is the more personal sideblog of @yippee-tippees. (i guess?)

what this blog is about:

this blog will mostly be about autism, disability and mental health, though it will mostly be about disability. i will mostly reblog a lot of stuff, but may also talk about my experiences and opinions on here. some posts may have a lot of typos, so i do apolagise for that. i also sometimes will have trouble with grammar and typing as these things can be difficult for me at times, so please be patient with me.

i will also often post/reblog other things i deem important and would like to share! again, please correct me if i say anything wrong as i am still learning. though, you should definately go check out other disabled people and find out more as i am not at all someone that can provide the best information about these things and you should just support others as well.

like mentioned above, im an AAC user even though im verbal and i am self diagnosed when it comes to autism, so please treat me with respect. a lot of what i want to write down here is already above so this is pretty much all! enjoy your stay here.

*please note that im still learning about autism and many other things, so feel free to educate me about anything or add to any replies i give asks if you know about the topic. thank you!

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tagging system:

#important ! : stuff i find important.

#awareness : information about something and to spread awareness.

#acceptance: posts about acceptance.

#<3 (heart emojicon): positivity/reminders.

#rant: rant posts.

#vent: vent posts.

list may keep updating overtime.

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♧ list of special interests & hyperfixations!: Space/Astronomy/Cosmology, Geology, Biology, Greek Mythology, Marine Life, Sharks, Singing/Voice related things, Drawing/Arts, Animals, Chemistry, Pirates, Psychology, Philosophy, Ride The Cyclone, Phantom of the Opera, Welcome Home, The Amazing Digital Circus, Team Fortress 2, Hades Game, Reverse 1999, Good Omens, The Song of Achilles, They Both Die At The End, Simon Snow Trilogy, Steven Universe, Will Wood (& The Tapeworms)

list will keep updating overtime.

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‼️ DNI: Racists/Xenophobes, Sexists, Homophobes, Transphobes, Proshippers, Pedophiles/'Maps', Fetishizers, Ableists, Self-proclaimed 'Aspiesz', NSFW blogs, Anti-agere, Trolls , SH/ED blogs, Autism Speaks Supporters , people who know me in real life unless we’re close (please), people who dislike any of my special interests & hyperfixations (sorry), transabled/transid and RCTA

list will keep updating overtime.

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Thank you for reading my introduction!

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[beardedmrbean]

Jan. 9—A former Patterson man who sexually abused and impregnated an 11-year-old girl has been granted parole from prison, according to the Stanislaus County District Attorney's Office.

From 1999 to 2000, Richard Fuentes Revelez, now 66, repeatedly sexually abused the victim, the daughter of his then live-in girlfriend and mother of two of his younger children.

Even after the victim gave birth to Revelez's child, he continued to abuse her, according to a press release from the DA's office.

The abuse was reported to law enforcement when school officials looked into the victim's absences and learned of her childbirth.

Investigating detectives interviewed the victim, who revealed Revelez had been sexually abusing her and was the father of her child. A search warrant of their home uncovered sexually explicit photos of the victim, according to the press release.

Revelez pleaded no contest to lewd and lascivious acts with a child under 14 years of age and admitted to a "strike" enhancement. He was sentenced to 15 years to life in state prison and ordered to register as a sex offender for the rest of his life.

During Revelez's fourth parole hearing in December, the parole board cited his good track record of institutional behavior during his 22 years in prison, his solid work ethic while incarcerated, and his "pro-active" participation in many self-help programs among its reasons for granting him parole, according to the press release.

In addition, board members felt that Revelez expressed genuine remorse for his actions and exhibited sufficient insight and self-awareness of his crimes. They said he has remained sober and has well-developed post-release plans, including support from various individuals in the community.

The board's decision is subject to review and does not become final for 120 days, at which time the governor has 30 days to review the board's decision and could reverse it.

If Revelez is released, the conditions of his parole require that he live in transitional housing outside of Stanislaus County, submit to random drug and alcohol testing and have no contact with the victim or the child he fathered with her.

This story was originally published January 9, 2023 2:35 PM.

[imtotallynotthere]

You just downloaded Reverse 1999 a few weeks ago, played through the first book out of four, and grinded those teardrops just so you would get a chance at the Knight. From the ads alone, you have pretty high expectations for it. You've seen some of the characters from the trailers, but one character you’re wanting to aim to get is Pavia in terms of 4-stars. You don’t quite know what it is that draws you too him, but you have a feeling it’s his accent and attitude. Yes, he may be insane, but…oh well? In all defense, you've crushed on villain characters like Pantalone from Genshin Impact, so he's not as bad.

You click the summon screen and click the ten pull. No luck with get Pavia or the Knight. As you go through two more summons, your disappointment begins growing. You summarize that life must hate you because God you’re getting all 4-stars besides Pavia. You go through one more and press skip, praying and finally. It’s not the Knight, but it’s Pavia. You quickly go to where all your characters are and click him, grinning like an idiot as you level him up and get him to Insight one. You are low on the Dust, but that’s fine. You press the three dots and lines at the bottom of the screen and change the character on the home screen from Apple to Pavia.

You give a grin at him on your screen and click him. You listen to his line before you do it again, and again, and again trying to see if you can get that ‘interact with a character 10 times’ achievement because you just remembered you didn’t have that one done.

While checking the tasks to see if you got it, you don’t see how his face twists into annoyance or how he adjusts his posture. As soon as you click out of it, everything goes back to normal. Though, you can swear his lines seem to be said with a little more grit to them, almost as if he’s saying them through his teeth.

Almost as if he’s annoyed.

[fruit-kick]

link to pfp // link to header // dreamwidth: lotusburned // mastodon: stardropped

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🍂 This blog doesn't follow a specific theme, I just reblog things I enjoy and post stuff I've made sometimes!

🍂 My current fandoms are Reverse 1999, Blue Period, Camp Camp and Saiki K!

🍂 My ask box is open to those curious and I accept basically anything, its just open for fun!

🍂 Note that I reblog some things for awareness but it doesn't mean that I personally experience those, if you dont want someone out of an experience reblogging your post, then please let me know and I'll gladly remove it! <3

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🍂 I tag things as I go along this blog so if for example, I tag "unsanitary cw" today, I might've not tagged a post with unsanitary subjects yesterday. the date beside the tag is to let people know when I added that tag so they don't scroll past that date on my blog :)

🍂 Mentions are tagged as of 10/8/2022

🍂 Implications are tagged as of 10/24/2022

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#🍊fruit.posts🏀

#🍊fruit.draws📙

#🍊fruit.edits🧶

#🍊animal.time🦀 • 9/12/2022

#🍊fruit.rants💥

#stimmy • 9/29/2022

personal tag for my favorite stimuli

#dont rb

posts i dont want anyone reblogging

#reblog

#self rb • 12/17/2022

for my own posts that i've reblogged

#positivity • 9/13/2022

#bigotry (mention/implied) tw • 9/7/2022

general tag for any form of bigotry

#ableism (mention/implied) tw • 9/7/2022

#queerphobia (mention/implied) tw • 9/7/2022

general tag for any discrimination against queer people

#transphobia (mention/implied) tw • 10/23/2022

#transandrophobia (mention/implied) tw • 10/23/2022

#transmisogyny (mention/implied) tw • 10/23/2022

#amatonormativity (mention/implied) tw • 10/23/2022

#bodyshaming (mention/implied) tw • 10/2/2022

#racism (mention/implied) tw • 9/7/2022

#colorism (mention/implied) tw • 9/7/2022

#xenophobia (mention/implied) tw • 5/2/2023

#misogyny (mention/implied) tw • 9/7/2022

#classism (mention/implied) tw • 9/7/2022

#residential schools (mention/implied) tw • 10/1/2022

#antisemitism (mention/implied) tw • 2/15/2023

#sexism (mention/implied) tw • 4/24/2023

#drugs (mention/implied) tw

#death (mention/implied) tw • 9/7/2022

#cults (mention/implied) tw • 1/5/2023

#violence (mention/implied) tw

#substance abuse (mention/implied) tw • 12/18/2022

#eating disorder (mention/implied) tw • 12/18/2022

#murder (mention/implied) tw

#pedophilia (mention/implied) tw • 11/4/2022

#blood (mention/implied) tw • 10/5/2022

#cannibalism (mention/implied) tw • 9/28/2022

#suicide (mention/implied) tw • 9/7/2022

#injury (mention/implied) cw • 9/7/2022

this is for wounds and such, so like an obvious scratch or bruise. doesnt apply to a video of someone falling off the stairs and ending up completely unscratched or scars so keep that in mind!

#gore tw • 10/16/2022

#flashing lights cw • 9/7/2022

#jumpscare cw • 9/7/2022

#eyestrain cw • 9/7/2022

#suggestive cw

#explicit cw • 9/7/2022

#unsanitary (mention/implied) cw • 9/7/2022

#rape (mention/implied) tw • 9/16/2022

#sexual assault (mention/implied) tw • 5/2/2023

#abuse (mentioned/implied) tw • 12/11/2022

#unreality

im not sure if I'm tagging this one properly so do let me know if something needs to be tagged/untagged! i tag this for posts that talk about fictional events or situations as if theyre real, and i do it for religion and other beliefs such as that. so ARGS, posts from x timeline, shifting, etc

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byebye!

[vasito-de-leche]

Hi! I read about your super cool Self Aware R1999 AU and it got me thinking about what Sonetto would be like, since I have a 100% bond with her in the suitcase.

Would she try to keep normalcy? Have a brand new idle line? Perhaps pull a Monika DDLC and start writing poetry where she tries to grapple with the fact that there’s an eldritch being puppeteering her best friend?

;R1999 SONETTO - Self-Aware AU

Headcanons about how Sonetto would act upon becoming self-aware. Related to this Self-Aware AU post.

glad you like the AU! this was a nice chance to explore Sonetto's character more <3

To organize my thoughts better, I gotta talk about Sonetto first for a bit.

I definitely talked about this with a few friends, but Sonetto is a wonderful character to me because I both dislike and feel for her a lot - especially in the new 1.4 Main Story update. The emphasis the game puts into her role as a military dog (raised to follow orders and die for a cause she doesn't truly understand) and a lost puppy (a curious and dependant child believing her caretakers have the best of intentions) really lives up to the way she portrays these same traits. Yes, it's awful to see her continue to perpetuate the harmful ideas the Foundation taught her, but it makes sense. Yes, it's lovely to see her slowly break away from everything she's ever known, and yet revert back to her habits because change is difficult. The way she works perfectly as a foil to Vertin, it's so good!

To me, Sonetto is a character that resists change, while yearning for it at the same time. That's why her Medium is curiosity, after all. It's so lovely and ironic to see THE perfect example of a Foundation martyr being set up for failure in something that they couldn't have even foreseen, her own Medium, her own innate curiosity.

So with this in mind, I think that within the Self-Aware AU ... I think she would be able to deal with this sudden awareness of everything being fake, because her first reaction would be to assume there's something wrong with herself for thinking something so outlandish, so beyond what she was taught. Sonetto would still resist this change - if this is a game, then she's not meant to be aware of it, therefore she's the one at fault and perhaps, broken in a way.

Maybe "broken" is too heavy of a word, I imagine it's more like she believes she broke the rules by gaining this level of sentience. That it' wasn't supposed to happen in the first place.

How would she act overall?

I feel like Sonetto would be relatively fine upon becoming sentient because of this, she'd be shaken but would continue to do as expected and follow the script like a proper little chess piece, one of the many cogs needed in the machine - her reasoning is simple: if everyone who is self-aware began to act out, there wouldn't be a game to play. And what would happen to her friends, then? If this stability that the plot and script brings is suddenly gone?

There would be times where she might slip up, but they'd be very subtle changes in the her dialogue - perhaps the inflection of her voice, rather than the words - she might pause for longer to think, to consider whether to do anything outside of what she's expected to. But that's about it.

The problem begins when she finds out (or is told) that the Foundation had known this truth about the world they live in for longer than she's been alive. Sonetto remains docile entirely to keep that order and harmony she's been raised to maintain, but to find out that the very people who taught her that have known and done nothing but lie to everyone - that would be the catalyst for her.

Personally, I like to think that this is something she figures out on her own, rather than being told. A truth she must face on her own instead of just accepting someone else's words.

Her behaviour would still largely remain the same whenever she knows she has a part to play, but in those moments when she knows there's no "camera" looking at her, Sonetto would... sit there. WIth the way I've interpreted Sonetto, she's a character that struggles to actually have an identity outside of the Foundation's training, so now that this is something she can't rely on, she's at a loss as to what to do with this newfound freedom.

I imagine this is when other arcanists who were self-aware before her would start reaching out to Sonetto and slowly give her that stability she needs.

On the subject of Sonetto's relationship with Vertin.

The way I interpreted Sonetto and Vertin's dynamic, I don't see them as best friends!

From reading back some scenes and transcribing most of CH 03 of the Main Story, it feels like both Sonetto and Vertin have always found themselves in a one-sided relationship: when they were kids, Sonetto rejected Vertin's attempts at becoming friends because of their differences, even if they were both curious about each other. They never striked me as close. Now that years have passed, Vertin treats Sonetto similar to how she treats everyone else, while Sonetto explicitly wants to be closer to Vertin due to what happened when they were kids.

To me, Vertin has shown more emotion to Schneider and Madam Z than to Sonetto. There's this one-sided dynamic again.

In the context of the AU, I think Sonetto finding out about what Vertin goes through with this entity and this role that the game forced upon her, she would double down on her feelings to protect Vertin. There's a lot of guilt involved, since - once again - that's what the Foundation teaches to all orphan arcanists, to repent for their unruly and destructive existence.

I think Sonetto would feel guilty for not gaining sentience sooner, while Vertin has been struggling with this heavy weight for God knows how long. She would recontextualize everything about Vertin, her actions and the differences that constantly got her into trouble as a child, her desire to escape - attributing all of it to this entity that follows her. Because I do think that Sonetto idolizes Vertin to a degree that fuels this one-sided dynamic between them, not out of malice of course, just like a puppy.

So in the end, Sonetto would resent the Player and worry even more for Vertin, now using this as a justification for acting out of line and out of script, as Vertin's self-imposed protector.

It would take Sonetto a looooooong time to do anything with her sentience and freedom, beyond continuing to support Vertin. Her poems and her art would reflect this progress slowly, but yeah, not a lot of noticeable changes.

Reaching 100% Bond with Sonetto.

This is a very conflicting event for Sonetto, I'd say.

The more attention you pay to her, the more aware she becomes of your influence - and now she has to come to terms with the fact that there is no way of separating you from Vertin. She can't free Vertin from this fate, and it doesn't look like she wants that to happen either, but it eats Sonetto from inside out. Because she doesn't understand, and she wants to know why this is the way things are meant to be.

When it comes to reaching 100% Bond with her, or levelling her up and so on, I don't think she'd pay much attention to the mechanical aspect of it all. She's a skilled arcanist, she's the first important character the game gives to you during the tutorial stages, she knows just how important her Disarm ability can be to win a battle - of course you would want her on your team.

But as she slowly spends more time with Vertin and the Player, I think Sonetto would start to wonder about the outside world. They're small, little and impulsive thoughts in the back of her mind, like wondering if you too have someone in this fictional little world that you care about enough to see the story through the end. Are you capable of loving someone that can't reach out to you nor acknowledge your presence? Isn't it cruel, for those who remain blind to the truth, to be so loved and cherished by you?

Do you read the newspaper the same way Vertin does? Do you care about her? About her goals and dreams and thoughts?

This is the only way Sonetto can reconcile this resentment she has for you: through Vertin. I think Vertin would eventually notice all these subtle changes, the way Sonetto never looks truly happy whenever she looks at Vertin, looking above as if she could catch a glimpse of the Player. And Vertin would help through the whole process, easing up to sentience as a whole, to accepting the Player's existence as just something that is there, neither good or bad.

While she's one of the very few who has no trouble differentiating your actions and influence from Vertin's own free will, she would eventually come to respect your choices. Doing her best and beyond whenever you choose her to battle, because now the stakes are higher - now, she's choosing to fight for something she fully understands and cares about.

I like to think that Sonetto can't hear you, but she might be able to see you. Little glimpses here and there, when she happens to look up at the sky, and she sees you cheering after beating that one level that's been giving you a headache. I like to think that she would share these details about you with Vertin, if only to ease her own mind about the complex dynamic you have with THE Timekeeper.

But at the end of the day, this is progress and these are many changes that happen out of your field of vision. Perhaps, one day, Sonetto will gather the courage to thank you for taking care of Vertin when no one else would.

[luciddreamingcrow]

𓄿✧⊰Introduction & Masterlist⊱✦𓄿

•°≂Requests: Open≂°•

✧°Welcome to the abandoned ruins traveler, I hope you'll enjoy your stay here. My name is Lucid, I run this abandoned library along side my dear companions, if theres any book you'd like to read just go to front desk near the entrance and there should be a box, a couple papers alongside some ink and a feather you can write with, after writing the book that you are looking for, fold the paper in half and slip it in the box, the crows will come later to pick the box and find the book for you^^ Remember they will favor you if you bring them some snacks, preferably wild berries, starberries or bioluminescent filled acorns(likes, reposts, shares, etc. )°✦

✧≕Requesting and boundaries≔✦

✧⋖If you are a recurring visitor/requester you can be writen in the catalog and each time the crows find a new book you'll be one of the first people to hear about it (also known as tag list/ anon list^^)⋗✦

✧The request that have the following themes will be sent to the crows to look for them as fast as possible (things/ tropes Im comfortable with writing): character x reader, Fluff, hurt/comfort, soulmate au, self-aware au, playeble char. au, team hc, etc. ✦

✧The request that have the following themes will be automatically sent the the fire room to be burned (Things/tropes Im not comfortable with writing): Character x character, character x oc, NSFW, yandere, any kind of proshipping, heavy gore, ✦

✧°Master list°✧

These are the fandoms that you may request for darling^^:

✦⋖Genshin impact⋗✦

Playable character au pI

Playable character au pII

The Tsaritsas painter

Al haitham, Scara and Albedo x reader {hurt/comfort}

Winged Xiao hc's

⋆⊰Cookie run kingdom⊱⋆

White lily and Sea fairy x reader

PureVanilla and ClottedCream x reader

Sagau but make it cookie run

The gem mermaids x maid/butler! reader + ART!

⊚◎Cookie run ovenbreack◎⊚

Crowberry x reader

Almond x reader

Scorpion x reader

Birthdaycake x reader

›°The arcana°‹

✧While at your stay in the library you will eventually see a couple paintings here or there if theres a painting youd like to see on display just send in a request and we'll consider it^^✦

Nothing yet :/

⋆☾Reverse 1999☽⋆

Nothing yet, sorry

˗ˏˋ.𖥔 ݁ Honkai star rail.𖥔 ݁ ˎˊ˗

Nothing just dust...

✧⁕❃The gallery❃⁕✦

Cookie run x y/n 😳

Ningguang

Raspberry cookie

White lily cookie

And if you want to add me as a friend or play together, these are my acc!

Cookie run ovenbreak: LucidCrow ID:WSPFL6049

Cookie run kingdom: LucidCrow (pure vanilla server)

Genshin impact: 649972260(American server)

731302065( European server)

[kontextmaschine]

It’s weird that for so long the prestige, “prime time” model of TV was basically character types in disconnected but formulaic vignette plots and “multi-episode plot arcs driven by changing character dynamics as plotted by a coherent creative team” was the degraded, low-status daytime “soap” form

People date the “Golden Age of TV” to The Sopranos but I think the key was reversing this and that started in the decade prior. By the time it debuted in 1999, Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Xena: Warrior Princess already had a real reputation for that (and for playful writing with self- and genre-awareness, which was impressive when you consider they were both based around fight scenes); the X-Files was famous for balancing monster-of-the-week and broader series mythology.

You can see the progression in the Star Trek serieses - TOS was barely consistent from episode to episode; TNG had the Borg arc and recurring Q episodes but also the entirely abandoned Season 1 arc about corruption and betrayal in Starfleet; by DS9 they kicked off the series by plopping the station next to a blob of long-term plot and introducing elements – Sisko as Emissary of the Prophets – that didn’t resolve for seasons.

Maybe further back to the 80s, when this even became possible as shows staffed up their writers’ rooms enough to produce consistent work in-house rather than just taking freelance pitches and polishing them. Miami Vice was a breakthrough not just for the cinematic style and contemporary pop score but that it had elements of overarching plot – the hunt for Calderone, Sonny’s amnesia (how soapy!) – at all