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queenoffishingandcookies · 3 months ago

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Rambling on Ikutoh. That’s literally it.

Just heard a song and it gave very specific Hachijo Tohya and Ikuko feelings, If you haven’t finished Twilight of the Golden Witch, don’t click the separator.

Full spoilers below, this is your warning.

This is going to get hideously long and I apologize in advance.

Ikutoh: A very short overlook.

We know so very little of what happened to Battler, after he escaped Rokkenjima with Sayo. There is the fact that she jumped into the ocean to commit suicide, unable to tell him the truth about her body, and that Battler jumped in after her as soon as he realized she was gone to try and save her life.

We know that Battler couldn’t save Sayo. That he was eventually forced to let go of her hand, and floated back to the surface of the ocean.

We don’t know what happens to him then, in the interim of floating back to the surface, or what happens when he did reach land.

However, we do know the eventual aftermath of getting to land. Battler made his way inland, to a road somewhere where he would be struck by a passing car.

Hachijo Ikuko, who was out driving that day, would find him laying in the rain there. Unable to move, unable to speak, injured and barely conscious.

He later wakes up, in her home, unable to remember anything except that he is eighteen years old. Ikuko, after introducing herself and speaking with him, then gives him the name Tohya, taken from alternative readings for the characters that make the number 18.

For several decades, the two lived together as writing partners - though they are not married - writing mystery novels, as well as forgeries revolving around the Rokkenjima incident that killed most of Tohya’s family, as well as leading to the ‘death’ of his previous self, the identity that was Battler.

Ikutoh: A Deeper Look At The Roots - Battler Gets Hit by A Car And Dies. Kind-of.

There’s a few things alarming about Ikutoh’s relationship, and I’ll start with the most glaring one.

Battler was hit by a car.

We don’t whose car it was. We don’t know how fast the car that hit him was going. We don’t know far how he was thrown back by the force, or the full extent of his injuries.

Other than the fact that the impact was enough to knock him near unconscious and left him unable to move, getting struck by that car - if it wasn’t also caused by the near drowning and all the after effects that would have had on him - had a large hand in causing his later amnesia.

Effectively, the impact was the moment of Battler’s ‘death’ by removing his memories, while also giving rise for Tohya to be ‘born’ in Battler’s place. The accident would result in the necessary development of a new self, as the old one had ‘died’ without the memories which had initially formulated it.

That’s just about all the information we get.

We don’t know anything l about how long he was unconscious, or anything more about his injuries, at least in the VN. There’s some implication of muscular atrophy, as he’s described by the doctor as ‘almost completely wasted away, but there’s nothing more to indicate the passage of time.

In the interlude of the manga where we first see Tohya’s point of view (Twilight, Volume 5), ‘Battler’ is depicted as laying flat on his stomach in the road. (I say ‘Battler’ because, at this point, he’s been struck by the car and is on the verge of losing consciousness. He’s not quite Tohya yet, but he has lost the memories which let him perceive himself as Battler).

As it wasn’t confirmed that Tohya had been Battler at that time, only implied, we can’t really get a good look at his head - it’s either covered by text boxes, out of frame, or depicted as very…dark, for lack of a better way. The outline of a head, but completely filled in with black ink.

His hands are scraped, and his shirt and pants stained with splotches of blood. Looking closely at where he lays on the asphalt, you can even see where his blood has smeared on the road, especially around the hip waist area.

When he tries to lift his head and speak to Ikuko, there are scrapes and blood all over Battler’s face (though, you can’t make out much other than his nose and mouth, most of it covered in shadow or hair - the goal, again, was to obscure who Tohya had been). His blood is also on the ground below his face.

At the very least, Tohya had a pretty bad case of road rash.

When he wakes up, his head was likely shaved so that his head could have been bandaged - his right cheek had the little square piece of gauze, while the majority of the left side of his face, with except to his eye, was wrapped up. The worst of the trauma was probably on the left of his skull, taking a guess.

On the next few pages or so, while he’s recovering at Ikuko’s home and in the wheelchair (the first time), we do see Tohya’s right leg all bandaged up. It looks like his pant-leg is rolled up to make way for them, meaning the bandages are bulky or on-top of something bulky.

So, it may actually be a cast of some sort - which implies his leg was either broken by the impact, or pretty badly sprained. He’s also later seen recovering with crutches and keeping his weight on one leg, so I’m inclined to think it was broken.

As far as I can tell, when she found Battler, covered in blood and laying nearly dead in the middle of the road, Ikuko didn’t bring him to a hospital. Or notify the police.

Which is actually the next concerning thing.

Ikuko picked this bloodcovered, unconscious young man up, put him in her car, and presumably drove him straight to her house.

This person, a young man who has at the very least suffered severe enough blunt trauma as to cause amnesia - and she brings him not to a hospital, but to her house.

Without context, the most likely assumption to make was that he was either hit while walking alongside the the road, or jumped or thrown out of a passing car. Either way, on a road with literally no one and nothing else, she’s passing by and finds this young man laying - for all purposes - dead in the street.

Ikuko, seemingly with no hesitation for however shady the situation seems, still brings him to her house instead of thinking that it seems strange to literally find a kid dying in the middle of the road, and that hey, he needs immediate treatment, maybe I should bring him to a hospital.

Now, this was 1986. Cell phones weren’t really a thing at the time. Its easy to assume he’d at least been brought to a clinic of some sort beforehand, or if one wasn’t nearby but her house was, she would have gone there so she could call and notify some sort of authority, and get him some help there while waiting.

Technically, Ikuko did do that - a doctor did come to examine Tohya’s injuries. The man even suggested bringing him to a larger hospital, which would have the equipment to better examine his head, and look into the possibility of brain damage and its severity.

However, Ikuko paid the doctor extra to keep his examination of Tohya secret - off the record. Why she would do that, when really he should have been brought to the hospital to maybe be identified, I have only one idea - and it’s not exactly a good one, but I’ll get to that.

Over the next few pages, there are panels where we watch Tohya slowly recuperate, but…we don’t see him get brought to a hospital. He might have been brought to one in those early days, but we do not see it, and it isn’t mentioned.

I find it more likely that Tohya would have been brought to a hospital once he was more recovered from his initial injuries at that time, if at all, back in 1986. A broken leg doesn’t allow for a person to have much easy maneuverability, especially if they’re already struggling to move their body.

The fact that the doctor suggests visiting a hospital, made a house call to check on Tohya, and that Ikuko paid for his silence implies that Tohya was brought immediately to her house from that road.

In other words, he wasn’t brought to whatever local clinic or hospital that was in the area.

Ikuko’s house - mansion, really - is located at the top of a hill. She owns that land, the hill that she lives on - and arguably, she doesn’t have any close neighbors because of that. Otherwise, unless she wasn’t interested in speaking with them, her cat Bernkastel wouldn’t have been her only companion. Ikuko would have had some other acquaintances.

We don’t know how far her home was, from where Ikuko found Tohya on the road. How long it would have taken to reach her home, while being Tohya there.

The road had to have been somewhat close to the ocean, for Battler to drag himself to it, but other than that, the location of the road - its distance from Ikuko’s house on the hill, or the fishing village/town nearby, and Ikuko’s distance from the town - is unknown. It’s surrounded by trees, hence why Ikuko first asks him if the area was his garden (rhetorically I think, but it’s hard for me to tell).

So we don’t know how long it took for Tohya to be put into Ikuko’s car, brought to her home, and treated for his injuries, three of which that can be inferred manga-wise, with varying levels of severity.

Firstly, the blunt trauma to the left side of his head could have lead to swelling of the brain (mentioned by the doctor). Considering how much blood his face was covered with, it wouldn’t be a far cry to say that it had started to bleed either.

Then, the large amount of scraping over the entirety of his body would be very painful, a potential root for nerve damage depending on how deep they were, and that’s not considering the potential blood loss. It’s likely they weren’t deep scrapes considering the doctor’s statements, but that’s still something to consider.

The third injury is his broken right leg. Likely, it was a closed fracture, as an open fracture would have needed surgery to have been corrected. Still, it’s something would would need to be correctly set and splinted, as wrong movements could lead to further damage - not to mention the risk of causing the bone to jut out his skin depending on the actual type of break in the bone.

Additionally, if Battler dragged himself through wooded area to reach the beach, assuming he walked up a slope from the beach area of whichever island he reached, there would probably be a myriad of other scratches and maybe bug bites or something else.

Now that I’m thinking on it, we don’t even know if Ikuko called the doctor immediately. She found Battler in the road while it was raining, so there’s no way of telling if it was nighttime or if another storm had rolled in - obscuring the actual time.

All I know is that it had to be some point after noon - as Sayo and Battler had been at sea, and Sayo had jumped off of the boat, sometime during either the early morning or afternoon of October 6th.

When Tohya wakes up in Ikuko’s house, it’s daytime, so at the very least - maybe a night has passed. Maybe more. If it was nighttime when she found him, maybe that was why he wasn’t brought to a clinic - it might have been closed.

The scene of Ikuko finding Battler in the road and him waking up without memories at her house are right next to each other, which the illusion that maybe it’s been only a day or two. However, the passage of time is never confirmed, so… we don’t actually know how much time has passed.

Ikuko, or her staff, could have bandaged him up that first night, and then called for the doctor the following morning or, depending on how you interpret her, even after that, the longer it took for him to wake up.

The doctor mentions before leaving that he wouldn’t have lasted long, if he’d been left out in the road and Ikuko just drove past (or right over) him. If not from his injuries, my best guess is that hypothermia could have done him it - it was early October, and raining after all.

Considering Battler’s injuries when Ikuko found him, she would have had to move very quickly to save his life -> and she didn’t seem very panicked at all, stooped over him and asking if he was still alive. She would have had to make a decision very closely, and he would have had to have been hit very recently - and yet, no other cars were nearby.

This probably sounds cruel, but I think Ikuko (unintentionally) hit him with her car.

Ikutoh: Ikuko’s Potential Hit & Kidnap

This is one of the reasons why I think Ikuko didn’t want Tohya’s examination to be on record.

If she hit Tohya with her car, there’d be damage which would need to be repaired (unless she chose to hide the car or replace it), and if it went on record that a physician paid a visit to an injured young man at her house, around the same time her car would be sent in for repairs or replaced - well, that’s shady, to say the least.

There tends to be a stigma on hitting people with your car.

Of course, her staff would be paid for their silence, as would whoever worked to repair the car…but things can slip.

In the VN, Tohya later remembers two bright lights coming at him, and being aware that he was in danger while being unable to move, despite someone honking their horn at him.

He heard a sound, and then a car door opened.

He doesn’t say that he heard the car door open. He says that he heard a sound, which makes it distinct from the squealing of the brakes, and then the car door opened. The phrases are separate.

If Ikuko really did hit him, I think the sound he heard was his own body getting struck by the car bumper. However, this can also just be liked to the head trauma of having already been struck, and struggling to comprehend his surroundings and stay conscious.

In the manga, her car doesn’t seem to be damaged. This can either throw the theory that she hit him out the window, or I can apply the same logic as above - that Tohya is incorrectly remembering the car as undamaged, as Ikuko would later show it to him as proof she didn’t hit him.

For one, it was dark and rainy when he was hit by the car. Then, he also had the headlights of the car directly on him, which would have made it difficult to see the front of the car properly from his perspective on the ground, if he could see it at all.

Tohya wasn’t likely to get a good look at the car, whether it was a different one that hit him and Ikuko had found him, or she had been the one to hit him.

Lastly, people’s memory is not infallible - it can be altered by things you learn after some sort of event, or manipulated by others to make you think something happened one way or another - and that’s what we call gaslighting, folks.

Either he had already been hit by a car when Ikuko had just managed to avoid running him over entirely - the reason he hadn’t been able to move maybe the exhaustion of near drowning and trying to move inland - or Tohya incorrectly recalls how the car stopped before hitting him due to the trauma, and the information he’s given later on.

Considering the head trauma he suffered as well, It makes sense to me that Tohya would misremember things, especially that event, and later interpret those memories differently. Especially so, when Ikuko - who saved his life, took care of him, whom he trusted, who gave him a new identity to live under - told him or implied something else had happened.

With head trauma like that, discounting his other injuries, Tohya would have needed immediate care. The closest person would probably be the person who hit him with the car. If they didn’t flee the scene of the crime.

In this case, I think that’s Ikuko.

The notion of Hit&Run Ikuko does already come up in Umineko, but only so far as to deny her culpability in the matter.

As I mentioned earlier, Tohya did think for a time that Ikuko had been the one to hit him. She later showed him her car - and it was undamaged. That implies it wasn’t her, and essentially exonerates her in causing Tohya’s injuries + amnesia.

However, Tohya was wheelchair-bound for some time while he was recovering. He relied on Ikuko, or the maids working for her, to move around.

We don’t know how long he was unconscious, or how long it was until he was recovered enough to sit in a wheelchair and move around. Then, there’s the question of what state he was in while recovering - how much he slept, how much he could move, and so on.

When did he move into the wheelchair, how long he was in a wheelchair afterwards, and then when had he graduated to crutches to walk around himself?

In that unknown span of time, Ikuko could have had her car repaired. She could have replaced it - gotten a new car - or already had another car of some sort stored away, choosing to show Tohya the undamaged one.

When Tohya was brought to the car would have been entirely reliant on when Ikuko wanted to show him the car, and what his health was at the time.

Besides that, considering how badly Tohya had been injured, the interior would have needed to be deep-cleaned. There would have been mud, if not Tohya’s blood, all over the inside of Ikuko’s car. Why not get the car repaired or just get rid of it at the same time, as well?

It’s never outright said that Ikuko didn’t hit Tohya with her car.

She never says she didn’t hit him either. Ikuko mentions that Tohya had originally thought she did. He mentions to Yukari decades down the line that he eventually came to believe she hadn’t, due to the evidence he’d been shown.

Ikuko's innocence is something that we infer from what we are shown.

I say she kidnapped him too, because again - Ikuko didn’t bring Tohya to a hospital.

She paid the doctor to keep his visit a secret, and Tohya’s examination off-record. She didn’t contact police about finding someone badly injured in the middle of the road, even after getting him help. Presumably not even after confirming he was 18, still a minor.

He could have had his teeth examined and they would be able to find his dental records, police or hospitals or someone, and then he could have been positively identified. That was how Maria’s jawbone was identified when recovered from Rokkenjima.

Through her dental records.

That’s not touching on the fact that, considering the close proximity whatever island she lives on to Rokkenjima, the incident would have been on the news for at least a little bit, on the Internet and television and newspapers -> including faces of the victims, their ages, but I’ll go into that a little bit later.

There were avenues Ikuko could have taken to get Tohya identified after she saved him - even if she was panicked in the moment she found him (and she didn’t seem like it) eventually the idea would have come to her - and for whatever reason, she didn’t.

Ikutoh: Ikuko’s character

Before continuing, I want to look at what we know of Ikuko’s character. All things speaking, we don’t…really know much in concrete fact.

Ikuko was older than eighteen when she found Tohya, but described as not to old to get married - even if he personally thought she’d given up on it.

So, in 1986, my personal belief is that Ikuko was somewhere in her mid-twenties (24-25). At the most, she’d probably be somewhere in her early thirties - maybe around Rosa’s age or a bit younger.

We know very little about her background.

Ikuko belongs to a rich family of landowners. She has several brothers, and out of all her siblings, she was considered a bit eccentric. Due to a series of choices she made, her family nearly disinherited her - pushing her out of the public eye, and telling her to live quietly in her mansion atop the hill.

She was effectively disowned, but….softly? A more accurate term would probably be exiled or excommunicated.

Ikuko still had access to quite a bit of money and so on, a large staff to care for her, but… otherwise, Ikuko was left completely alone. It didn’t seem to be something she minded, as Ikuko is described as not being very social, but still - her home is a very isolated area.

Though she lived in luxury, with a full staff to care for her, Ikuko reads to me as being a person who was very lonely. Ikuko really only had her cat, Bernkastel, as her companion up until finding Tohya.

She presumably told him this herself, which I find interesting considering that she does have people working for her, and around her.

Though Ikuko is in no way close to the Ushiromiya Family in regards to how her servants are treated, the fact that she was lonely does imply distance between them and her. They are there for work. She essentially takes the staff’s presence as her due, not as companionship.

Similarly to Tohya, who wasn’t introduced as a separate character until Twilight and whose’s name originated as Ikuko’s pseudonym while writing, what else is known of Ikuko’s characterization is only something inferred because she doesn’t appear that often (although more than Tohya).

In her case, much of Ikuko’s character ties in to the nature of the fantasy witch, Featherine Augustus Aurora. On a fantasy level, Featherine is a Creator witch who can effectively rewrite reality as she wishes - to name just one of her abilities. We see it in Twilight when she quarters Lamdadelta's body.

Looking from a reality perspective, Featherine is the meta-verse fusion of two people - Ikuko and Tohya - who wrote the most populr forgeries that perpetuated the occult mystery of Rokkenjima. Her abilities stem from the fact that they are writers, creating and erasing multiple realities on the pages of the forgeries they write - which, in turn, is what the meta-world is built atop of...it gets confusing.

When she’s introduced in Dawn, Ikuko and Featherine are very much implied to be one and the same -> linked, at the very least (I’m fairly certain that Featherine is actually composed of both Tohya and Ikuko?). At that point, it's assumed to be (roughly, not accounting for being separate entities and a person's perspective on the meta) 1:1, since I don't think anyone knew Tohya was separate from Ikuko until Twilight.

The same thing occurs in Twilight, during the ‘reveal’ of Eva’s diary -> Featherine essentially being a witch-persona of Ikuko’s to some degree. They are almost but not quite the same, slipping in and out of what's reality and what's meta.

Meta and it’s ties to reality are very fluid, as is how intertwined Featherine is with Ikuko.

If we read into her influences on Featherine, who predominantly seems to be in personality and appearance most like Ikuko over Tohya, as if his influence is swallowed up by her own - as well as the scenes in reality, she views most people as below her, their actions as something entertaining - it’s very reminiscent of viewing herself as above others, above human.

Ikuko has a bit of a god-complex. Although she has a way of speaking that makes people slow to irritation when she speaks with them, she’s generally condescending towards others.

One of her first lines when she is introduced in Dawb is to refer to the fans of her and Tohya’s written works as ‘trash’, because in her eyes they read the books for the prestige of it - to seem intelligent for indulging in mystery, especially mystery written by a renowned author.

Other people are…distant, from Ikuko. She can view them as children who argue with one another, things to watch for entertainment, but they are below her.

However, this doesn’t mean that she doesn’t get lonely, or that she is entirely divorced from being a person. When Tohya lives with her and begins reading her manuscripts, Ikuko eventually admits to him that once it was fun writing for herself, but she enjoyed when he read and discussed her manuscripts with her.

Just like anyone else, Ikuko needs someone or something around.

For example, We don’t see her act as expressively condescending with Tohya as with others, she greets him somewhat as an equal, but - then again, Ikuko essentially molded who Tohya was.

Put roughly, Ikuko holds all the power in their relationship. If there was anyone she’d treat as someone close to her, if not an equal than as something she cared for, it would be the young man who she saved, and named, and created a new identity for. The person she let stay in her home, because they had nowhere else to go.

Tohya is her caged bird, with clipped wings that do not allow him to fly. Her condescension manifests in different ways towards him.

They didn’t have any sort of connection when she first found him in the road, but they built one later - and it’s a somewhat one-sided dependency at that. Ikuko does depend on Tohya, but in an emotional manner (companionship), rather than the emotional-material dependency on Tohya’s end.

Additionally, she saved his life and was incredibly lonely by that point, and there’s that to consider when looking at the way she interacted with Tohya…

There’s just - so much to her character and their relationship that’s just barely touched on, but what we do get is something interesting to pick at.

This is me cutting her character into some of the roughest blocks possible at the moment, since I’m not really accustomed to it - or much of the answer arcs, really.

@batbeato’s depiction of Ikuko has greatly formed my own understanding of the character, and she’s made a few posts on Ikuko and Tohya’s relationship already - as well as fleshing it out in her fic, ‘A fate outside the catbox’. I recommend checking out both the post and the fic.

Ikutoh: Ikuko + Tohya’s identity + Why she kept him secret

So. Ikuko finds a young man (Battler) in the road. She sees he’s still alive, but grievously injured. Ikuko saves him, and maybe she thinks - oh, someone to keep her company. That would be nice.

Though she might not mind being alone, Ikuko is still a lonely person.

By saving the young man, he would likely stick around at least to thank her, and that would bridge the gap between a relationship and non-relationship.

We don’t have a canon answer for how she made the jump from finding this kid in the road to bringing him straight to her house, it’s never really touched on… There’s no way to know exactly what went on inside her head when she picked Battler up. That’s the roughest, sketchiest idea of her line of thought in my head.

Pretty sure most people would assume foul play after finding a person laying in the road like roadkill with no one else, not even a wrecked car, around - contact the police or the ambulance after getting said person to the nearest safe place to do so - but Ikuko just…doesn’t.

Or she doesn’t care. Ikuko brings him to her home.

Then. The young man wakes up.

This I find really interesting, because even before he speaks, you can see now in Ikuko’s lines her eagerness at having someone to talk to, as soon as he (Tohya, but not yet named) woke up.

She introduces herself, and she’s dropped the distant way of speaking from when she found him, that she uses speaks to others (Ange, the Witch Hunters, etc). Ikuko speaks like they are equals, wanting to get off on the right foot. She seems so eager too, especially in the manga (which really makes me feel like Tohya was knocked out for a while).

She asks for his name, and he can’t give her one. He doesn’t remember his name, and after watching him struggle with that for a moment, Ikuko asks what he does remember, which is only his age -> eighteen years old, or around there.

Ikuko gives him the name Tohya - an alternative reading to the numeral characters that make the number eighteen. She also immediately adds her own surname, Hachijo, a link between the two of them.

She asks him if that works, but directly afterwards states she’s chosen well - which, while cute (the manga panel has flowed floating behind her little chibi figure with a cat smile), also makes it seem that name is already concrete in her mind for him. Like a claim.

Ikuko looks at this amnesiac kid, and she has to have decided on the spot - hey, he can live with me. I’ll give him my last name for the time being, then.

Considering the initial plan with her relationship with Tohya which was scrapped, this makes me Feel a very certain way (I go into this a little further down).

Its reasonable to assume Tohya hadn’t woken up prior to this, so Ikuko wouldn’t have planned for this - she wouldn’t have known about his lack of memory, even if the doctor believed it likely.

It’s interesting to look at, because with his memory, Battler would have likely had a motive to leave the mansion, but without it…Tohya doesn’t.

Doesn’t have a name, or paperwork, a place to stay…

Ikuko would know that, even if she didn’t know who Tohya had originally been outside of being a teenager she found dying in the middle of the road. Because if Tohya himself doesn’t know…what does he have to look for other than his memories, and where would he stay while recovering?

Quite the issue.

Keep in mind, Ikuko seemed to have no thought of contacting the police about this teenager she found in the road, and no indication of bringing him to the hospital. Which could probably manage to pair his dental records with Battler’s and identify him.

Tohya stays with Ikuko, and she doesn’t seem to make a move to directly try and find out who he is. It could start with a simple offer to stay with her while he recovers, she’ll foot the medical expenses, but then staying for a while grows longer and longer…

Not exactly great.

While saving his life and letting him stay with her seems benevolent on papers, and she likely had benevolent intentions…there are issues with the ethics of Ikuko’s actions.

We know later on that Tohya did go to several hospitals for his migraines in his life, but not when. At the very least, when Ikuko had first found him…she didn’t bring him. As far as we know, she didn’t contact anyone but the doctor who she paid off to keep Tohya’s case secret.

She specifically didn’t want other people to know about Tohya, who she had saved and who was staying with her. Which makes it feel like she wanted Tohya isolated, wanted Tohya to herself.

Ikuko lives on an island somewhere in the area near Rokkenjima. Her house has a view of the sea, and there’s no other way for Battler to have ended up in the middle of the road that night otherwise.

News stations would be reporting the incident, and soon enough, pictures of the servants and the Ushiromiya family would also be televised.

Regardless of how long Tohya was unconscious, sooner or later, Ikuko should have known that Tohya had been Ushiromiya Battler.

In the manga, his face is completely bandaged up - but this can be a design choice, due to the fact that during the interlude it’s only meant to be implied that he was Battler who survived. However, Ikuko had already seen his face. Besides that, bandages need to be regularly changed - others would have seen his face eventually too.

When Tohya and Yukari meet decades later, she can identify him right away. Which implies that his facial structure wasn’t horribly altered by the accident.

Which makes the fact that Ikuko didn’t contact the police, or bring Tohya to the hospital right away, or even tell him who he had been, extremely strange. An eighteen year old, in the middle of nowhere? Even if she didn’t tie him to the Rokkenjima Incident, it’s still weird she didn’t contact anyone.

Tohya also had at least two family members left, which makes it worse if Ikuko did know who he was before Tohya remembered. Eva and Ange were alive.

Ikuko watched him grapple with struggling to remember who he was - and later, once he remembered, with trying to either accept or coexist with his memories as Battler. To the point that he ended up in a wheelchair.

It could have been out of concern for his safety that she didn’t contact anyone, considering the mysterious deaths of everyone else in his family -> but, only if she really only knew after he had remembered. It’s pointedly mentioned that Eva wasn’t seen by public as a culprit until a forgery was published declaring her, the sole survivor, as the culprit.

Banquet. Which Ikuko and Tohya had written.

Up until the message bottles were found and made public, I can’t even remember if it was treated as a mass murder or not. Rokkenjima wasn’t truly known about until the message bottles had been found and information about them released to the public.

Ikuko might not have had a television, preferring to read over watching shows or a movie, but she did leave her house. She wouldn’t have found Tohya that night, otherwise. There would be newspapers, magazines, something around the town depicting the incident for at least some time after the island exploded.

Ikuko should have seen Battler’s face in them at some point, known that it looked like Tohya’s and connected the dots, especially as forgery after forgery began coming out on the Internet and interest in the accident as an occult matter began to rise.

Maybe she did.

But it’s never brought up if she knew who he was, and if she did know beforehand, even before people starting pointing fingers at the family and servants for mass murder, especially at Eva who had survived…she didn’t tell Tohya.

She didn’t tell anyone.

I think that, had he been told that Ikuko thought she knew who he had been, it would have saved Tohya a lot of the pain and fear he later went through, in regards to his relationship to Ushiromiya Battler, and the clash of the original identity against his existence as Tohya.

On top of all this, as though the implications of Ikuko not looking into Tohya’s identity weren’t pretty bad, or already knowing who he was while he wanted to remember, Tohya literally can not leave Ikuko.

As I mentioned, He was physically incapable of doing so. He has no memory of where else he could go. As he has no idea who he is, he has no paperwork, no legal identity, no money, and so on.

If he’d been brought to a hospital or police at some point, they could have identified him via dental records - but Ikuko did not bring him, and considering how long he struggled to regain his memories, likely didn’t bring the option up to him if he didn’t take it.

Actually the fact that he did eventually go to hospitals for medication makes me wonder if she had paperwork forged for him. Otherwise he wouldn't have a medical record to hand in, which would be strange.

Essentially, in regards to material security, he’d be screwed. Additionally, Ikuko saved his life and gave him a name - let him stay with her at her house, maybe even encouraged it. He is indebted to her.

He cares for her.

In a way, Ikuko groomed Tohya for obedience to her. At least when she first saved him, he was literally dependent on her goodwill for everything, even when suspicious of if Ikuko had struck him with her car (which had to have been an uneasy feeling at the least).

We don’t have a lot in canon regarding their dynamics, unless it is stuff we can infer about their characters from Banquet through Twilight (which were confirmed, at least on a gameboard level outside of meta, to be written by the two) but there is something just very much Not Good about the way she found Tohya, and then kept him secret.

Ikuko is control of the information Tohya receives about the outside world, able to influence the decisions he made about his health to a great deal, and persuaded him to stay with her, somehow. Ikuko is the one who likely brings him to the hospital, gets the medication he takes, was the one to introduce Tohya to forgeries and likely urged him to start writing them -

This is the start of their relationship. This is the foundation for how they live together for decades, and originally, Ryukishi was going to have Tohya married to Ikuko. In canon, all we know is that they lived together, it remains unconfirmed whether it was romantic or not, but still.

Just -

There is Ikuko, somewhere in her twenties (24-25, maybe) at the youngest, finding an eighteen year old kid laying nearly dead in the middle of the street one night. An amnesiac kid who she takes in (possibly hit with her car), arguably tells no one about for some time, and gives the name Hachijo Tohya.

Despite his injuries, and a doctor's recommendation, there's no indication he was brought to a hospital for treatment. As a matter of fact, when she first found Tohya, her first instinct was to bring her to her house - and when she did call said doctor, she paid him to keep the visit unrecorded.

Ikuko lives on an island somewhere near Rokkenjima. An island belonging to the wealthy Ushiromiya Family which, coincidentally around the time she found Tohya in the road, had mysteriously exploded and killed nearly the entire family and staff on it - with exception to one Ushiromiya Eva.

It's initially written off as an accident, the island having once been an old military base back in the second world war. The television, the newspapers, publish pictures of the people who didn't make it off the island - and interestingly enough, one of them is a dead ringer for Tohya.

Ushiromiya Battler...would be just about the same age as him, too,

Eighteen years old.

Ikuko doesn't bring Tohya to the hospital...and she doesn't tell him about the papers, either.

Just….These two. I swear.

#umineko spoilers #umineko no naku koro ni #hachijo Tohya #hachijo ikuko #Ikutoh

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kakusu-shipping · 1 year ago

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Crush List

I use to have a crush list on my first pinned post but I ended up deleting it to save space and sense then have been pretty indecisive about bringing it back just because I didn't feel it was useful information and the concept was too broad and more and more excuses of the like.

Then my OCD got stuck in list mode so here we are anyway.

Long post under the cut, thankyou for your attention

Canon Crushes

Crushes that are canon to my Self-Insert's story (either I have a crush on them or they have a crush on me), some of which are also on the F/O list, but they're still in the crush phase to me <3

Katsuki Bakugo - My Hero Academia

Reedus Jonah - Fairy Tail

Usopp - One Piece

Makoto Katai - Komi Can't Communicate

Souichi Nishimura (Ironman) - Baka and Test

Junta Hayami - Romantic Killer

Kotaro Sato - Kotaro lives Alone

Franky Franklin - Spy X Family

Shiro Ashiya (Aciel) - The Devil is a Part-Timer

Shizuka Domeki - XXXHolic

Chieko - Princess Jellyfish

Masato Hanzawa - Sasaki and Miyano/Hirano and Kagiura

Baron Humbert von Gikkington - The Cat Returns

Arrietty Clock - The Secret World of Arrietty

Anger - Inside Out

Pearl - Steven Universe

Princess Celestia - My Little Pony; Friendship is Magic

The Beast - Over the Garden Wall

Ash's Sirfetch'd - Pokemon Anime

Guzma - Pokemon Masters

Doctor Mario - Super Mario

Metal Mario - Super Mario

Wardell - Animal Crossing

Spyke - Splatoon

CQ Cumber - Splatoon

Balan - Balan Wonderworld

Rayfa Padma Khura'in - Ace Attorney

Chara - Undertale

Flowey - Undertale

Gaster - Deltarune

Phineas Filch - Ace Attorney

Maugaloa Malosi - Overwatch

Luca Blight - Suikoden 2

Madeline - The Watchers (Novel)

Just can't be bother to make an S/I

For various reasons including; Already have too many S/Is for this media, There's a ship I like that already has the dynamic my S/I would have with them (including friend's self-ships), Haven't had a good S/I concept yet, etc.

Pantherlily - Fairy Tail

Taurus - Fairy Tail

Mayaya - Princess Jellyfish

Hilling - Ranking of Kings

Marco Pagot - Porco Rosso

Palo Barrrows - The Titan's Bride

Noppo - Drifting Home

Randall - Monsters University

Jasper - Steven Universe

Rose Quarts/Pink Diamond - Steven Universe

Padparadscha - Steven Universe

The Titan - The Owl House

Grime - Amphibia

Maddie Flour - Amphibia

King Andrias - Amphibia

Hugo Oak - Kipo and the age of the Wonderbeasts

Jamack - Kipo and the age of the Wonderbeasts

Black Hat -Villainous

Bobert - The Amazing World of Gumball

The Nomad - Nomad of Nowhere

Brock - Pokemon Anime

Cilan - Pokemon Anime

Ren - Pokemon Anime

Ingo and Emmet - Pokemon BW

Nanu - Pokemon SuMo

Mega Swampert - Pokemon

Regirock - Pokemon

Regice - Pokemon

Mega Lopunny - Pokemon

Dusknoir - Pokemon

Giritina - Pokemon

Blacephalon - Pokemon

Magnazone - Monster Mind

Bowser - Super Mario

Dimentio - Super Paper Mario

Grilby - Undertale

Damon Gant - Ace Attorney

Bobby Fulbright - Ace Attorney

Kisegawa - Ace Attorney

Junko Enoshima - Danganronpa

Chihiro Fujisaki - Danganronpa

The Ultimate Imposter - Danganronpa

Gundham Tanaka - Danganronpa

Winston - Overwatch

Mako Rutledge (Roadhog) - Overwatch

Akande Ogundimu (Doomfist) - Overwatch

Jean-Baptiste Augustin - Overwatch

Richmond - Suikoden 2

Don't know enough

Either a non-major character I got a little too attached to or Their source material is too small to inspire me or I literally haven't directly interacted with the media they are from

Lapointe - Fairy Tail

Sanji Vinsmoke - One Piece

Usopp - One Piece

Bartholomew Kuma - One Piece

Bepo - One Piece

Shiro Ashiya (Aciel) - The Devil is a Part-Timer

Kitsune - XXXHolic

Dream Seller - XXXHolic

Hiigari - I Realized I Am the Younger Brother of the Protagonist in a BL Game

Otori-San - I Like Otori-san!

Tomoki Inohara - Melt at Night

Satou Jun - Mimasaka-kun to Mayoeru Kobuta

Sayo Minoru - I need to suck blood tonight/Yabun ni Kyuuketsu Shitsurei Shimasu

Yuzuru Tachibana - Drifting Home

Metauro - Villainous

Caine - The Amazing Digital Circus

Data - Star Trek

Harvey Hornswoggle - Drawtectives

Animatronic - Drawtectives

Callagan - Pokemon the Power of Us

Tubba Blubba - Paper Mario

Ganon - Legend of Zelda

Agent 7 (Eight) - Splatoon OC

Nelly (Agent 8) - Friend Devin's Splatoon OC

Meta Knight- Kirby

Galacta Knight - Kirby

Morpho Knight - Kirby

Magalor - Kirby

Rouge - Sonic

Roche - Dokapon Kingdom

Gaster - Undertale

Light Field (Snake) - The Nonary Games

Shamura - Cult of the Lamb

Ralph - Detroit; Become Human

Jerry - Detroit; Become Human

Bloodhound - Apex

#Crush List #Proship Selfship #Proselfship #Self Ship #One of these sections is MUCH longer than the other #If you're uncomfortable with sharing your F/O and see them on this list #Don't Worry About It #These are specifically just characters I think are neat #But am not actively Self Shipping with #Because Brain Dumb #OCD made me work on this for like a full week now #And I honestly still feel like it's too short or too uneven #Buuuuut whatever #I don't want anyone to question Usopp being in the first and third category alright I've never seen One Piece #But I do have a self insert vetted by my BF who is currently hyper fixated on it #And said S/I is down bad for Usopp's cringe fail Transgirl swag #Alright anyway #Thankyou all for reading if you did I apologize again for going list crazy recently #It's 2am but I might also post an Ask Game to follow this up sense I have a crush ask game on hand #And my Drafts have passed 30 and I'm going to explode if I don't start chipping that down some #Thankyou very much for reading if you did

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SAN JUAN DE AVILA, SACERDOTE

Un sacerdote español de origen judío, San Juan de Ávila, vivió en el siglo XVI, un período de grandes reformas. Es un místico, gran predicador y consejero de muchos de sus contemporáneos como San Ignacio de Loyola. En 2012 Benedicto XVI lo proclamó Doctor de la Iglesia.

Infancia y formación sacerdotal

San Juan de Ávila nació el 6 de enero de 1499 (o 1500) en Almodóvar del Campo (Ciudad Real), de una familia profundamente cristiana. Sus padres, Alfonso de Ávila (de ascendencia israelita) y Catalina Jijón, poseían unas minas de plata en Sierra Morena, y supieron dar al niño una formación cristiana de sacrificio y amor al prójimo. Son conocidas las escenas de entregar su sayo nuevo a un niño pobre, sus prolongados ratos de oración, sus sacrificios, su devoción eucarística y mariana.

Probablemente en 1513 comenzó a estudiar leyes en Salamanca, de donde volvería después de cuatro años para llevar una vida retirada en Almodóvar. A pesar de llamarlas ‘leyes negras’ los estudios de Salamanca dejaron huella en su formación eclesiástica, como puede constatarse en sus escritos de reforma. Esta nueva etapa en Almodóvar, en casa de sus padres, viviendo una vida de oración y penitencia, durará hasta 1520. Pues aconsejado por un religioso franciscano, marchará a estudiar artes y teología a Alcalá de Henares (1520-1526). De esta etapa en Alcalá existen testimonios de su gran valía intelectual, como así lo atestigua el Mtro. Domingo de Soto. Allí estuvo en contacto con las grandes corrientes de reforma del momento. Conoció el erasmismo, las diversas escuelas teológicas y filosóficas y la preocupación por el conocimiento de las Sagradas Escrituras y los Padres de la Iglesia. También trabó amistad con quienes habían de ser grandes reformadores de la vida cristiana, como don Pedro Guerrero, futuro arzobispo de Granada, y posiblemente también con el venerable Fernando de Contreras. Incluso pudo haber conocido allí al P. Francisco de Osuna y a San Ignacio de Loyola.

Primeros años de sacerdocio

Durante sus estudios en Alcalá, murieron sus padres. Juan fue ordenado sacerdote en 1526, y quiso venerar la memoria de sus padres celebrando su Primera Misa en Almodóvar del Campo. La ceremonia estuvo adornada por la presencia de doce pobres que comieron luego a su mesa. Después vendió todos los bienes que le habían dejado sus padres, los repartió a los pobres, y se dedicó enteramente a la evangelización, empezando por su mismo pueblo.

Un año después, se ofreció como misionero al nuevo obispo de Tlascala (Nueva España), Fr. Julián Garcés, que habría de marchar para América en 1527 desde el puerto de Sevilla. Con este firme propósito de ser evangelizador del Nuevo Mundo, se trasladó san Juan de Ávila a Sevilla, donde mientras tanto se entregó de lleno al ministerio, en compañía de su compañero de estudios en Alcalá el venerable Fernando de Contreras. Ambos vivían pobremente, entregados a una vida de oración y sacrificio, de asistencia a los pobres, de enseñanza del catecismo.

Esta amistad y convivencia con Fernando de Contreras, fueron posiblemente las que motivaron el cambio de las ansias misioneras de Juan de Ávila. El P. Contreras habló con el arzobispo de Sevilla, D. Alonso Manrique, y éste le ordenó a Juan que se quedara en las ‘Indias’ del mediodía español. El mismo arzobispo quiso conocer personalmente la valía del nuevo sacerdote y le mandó predicar en su presencia. Juan de Ávila contaría después la vergüenza que tuvo que pasar; orando la noche anterior ante el crucifijo, pidió al Señor que, por la vergüenza que él pasó desnudo en la cruz, le ayudara a pasar aquel rato amargo. Y cuando, al terminar el sermón, le colmaron de alabanzas, respondió: <<Eso mismo me decía el demonio al subir al púlpito.

Durante algún tiempo continuó el ministerio juntamente con Fernando de Contreras. Pronto se dirigió a predicar y ejercer el ministerio en Écija (Sevilla). Uno de sus primeros discípulos y compañero fue Pedro Fernández de Córdoba, cuya hermana de catorce años, D.ª Sancha Carrillo (ambos hijos de los señores de Guadalcázar, Córdoba), comenzó una vida de perfección bajo la guía del Maestro Ávila. La que habría sido dama de la emperatriz Isabel, pasó a ser (después de confesarse con san Juan de Ávila) una de las almas más delicadas de la época y destinataria de las enseñanzas del Maestro en el Audi, Filia, preciosa pieza espiritual del siglo XVI y único libro escrito por Juan de Ávila. Su predicación se extendía también a Jerez de la Frontera, Palma del Río, Alcalá de Guadaira, Utrera..., juntamente con la labor de confesionario, dirección de almas, arreglo de enemistades.

Pero su presencia en Écija pronto le va a acarrear las enemistades y la persecución. El primer incidente ocurrió cuando un comisario de bulas impidió la predicación de Juan para poder predicar él la bula de que era comisario. El auditorio, sin embargo, dejó al bulero solo en la iglesia principal y fue a escuchar a Juan de Ávila en otra iglesia. Después del suceso, el comisario de bulas, en plena calle, propinó una bofetada a Juan. Éste se arrodilló y dijo humildemente: <<emparéjeme esta otra mejilla, que más merezco por mis pecados>>. Este hecho y las envidias de algunos eclesiásticos, llevaron precisamente a los clérigos a denunciar a San Juan de Ávila ante la Inquisición sevillana en 1531.

Procesado por la Inquisición

Desde 1531 hasta 1533 Juan de Ávila estuvo procesado por la Inquisición. Las acusaciones eran muy graves en aquellos tiempos: llamaba mártires a los quemados por herejes, cerraba el cielo a los ricos, no explicaba correctamente el misterio de la Eucaristía, la Virgen había tenido pecado venial, tergiversaba en sentido de la Escritura, era mejor dar limosna que fundar capellanías, la oración mental era mejor que la oración vocal... Todo menos la verdadera acusación: aquel clérigo no les dejaba vivir tranquilos en su cristianismo o en su vida ‘clerical’. Y Juan fue a la cárcel donde pasó un año entero.

Juan de Ávila no quiso defenderse y la situación era tan grave que le advirtieron que estaba en las manos de Dios, lo que indicaba la imposibilidad de salvación; a lo que respondió: <<No puede estar en mejores manos>>. San Juan fue respondiendo uno a uno todos los cargos, con la mayor sinceridad, claridad y humildad, y un profundo amor a la Iglesia y a su verdad. Y aquél que no quiso tachar a los cinco testigos acusadores, se encontró con que la Providencia le proporción 55 que declararon a su favor.

Este tiempo en la cárcel produjo sus frutos interiores, al igual que lo hiciera con san Juan de la Cruz. En ella escribió un proyecto del Audi, Filia, pero sobre todo, como él nos cuenta, allí aprendió, más que en sus estudios teológicos y vida anterior, el misterio de Cristo. Juan fue absuelto. Pero lo que más humillante fue la sentencia de absolución: “Haber proferido en sus sermones y fuera de ellos algunas proposiciones que no parecieron bien sonantes”, y le mandan, bajo excomunión, que las declare convenientemente, donde las haya predicado.

Viajes y ministerio desde 1535 a 1554

En 1535 marcha Juan de Ávila a Córdoba, llamado por el obispo Fr. Álvarez de Toledo. Allí conoce a Fr. Luis de Granada, con quien entabla relaciones espirituales profundas. Organiza predicaciones por los pueblos (sobre todo por la Sierra de Córdoba), consigue grandes conversiones de personas muy elevadas, entabla buenas relaciones con el nuevo obispo de Córdoba, D. Cristobal de Rojas, que quien dirigirá las Advertencias al Concilio de Toledo.

La labor realizada en Córdoba fue muy intensa. Prestó mucha atención al clero, creando centros de estudios, como el Colegio de San Pelagio (en la actualidad el Seminario Diocesano), el Colegio de la Asunción (donde no se podía dar título de maestro sin haberse ejercitado antes en la predicación y el catecismo por los pueblos). Explica las cartas de san Pablo a clero y fieles. Un padre dominico, que primero se había opuesto a la predicación de san Juan, después de escuchar sus lecciones, dijo: <<vengo de oír al propio san Pablo comentándose a sí mismo.

Córdoba es la diócesis de san Juan de Ávila, tal vez ya desde 1535, pero con toda seguridad desde 1550. Allí le vemos cuando murió D.ª Sancha Carrillo, en 1537, de quien escribió una biografía que se ha perdido. Predica frecuentemente en Montilla, por ejemplo la cuaresma de 1541. Y las célebres misiones de Andalucía (y parte de Extremadura y Castilla la Mancha) las organiza desde Córdoba (hacia 1550-1554). Juan recibiría en Córdoba el modesto beneficio de Santaella, que le vinculó a la diócesis cordobesa para lo restante de su vida. En el Alcázar Viejo de Córdoba reuniría a veinticinco compañeros y discípulos con los que trabajaba en la evangelización de las comarcas vecinas.

A Granada acudió san Juan de Ávila, llamado por el arzobispo D. Gaspar de Avalos, el año 1536. Es en Granada donde tiene lugar el cambio de vida de san Juan de Dios; en la ermita de san Sebastián, oyendo a san Juan de Ávila, Juan Cidad, antiguo soldado y ahora librero ambulante, se convirtió en san Juan de Dios. En numerosas ocasiones san Juan de Dios a Montilla para dirigirse espiritualmente con el Maestro Ávila, convirtiéndose en su más fiel discípulo.

El duque de Gandía, Francisco de Borja, fue otra alma predilecta influida por la predicación de san Juan de Ávila; las honras fúnebres predicadas por éste en las exequias de la emperatriz Isabel (1539) fueron la ocasión providencial que hicieron cambiar de rumbo la vida del futuro general de la Compañía.

En Granada lo vemos formando el primer grupo de sus discípulos más distinguidos. En Granada también, en 1538 están fechadas las primeras cartas de san Juan de Ávila que conocemos. En los años sucesivos vemos a san Juan de Ávila en Córdoba, Baeza, Sevilla, Montilla, Zafra, Fregenal de la Sierra, Priego de Córdoba. La predicación, el consejo, la fundación de colegios, le llevan a todas partes.

La cuaresma de 1545 la predicó en Montilla. Su predicación iba siempre seguida de largas horas de confesionario y de largas explicaciones del catecismo a los niños; éste era un punto fundamental de su programa de predicación.

Los colegios de san Juan de Ávila.

En todas las ciudades por donde pasaba, Juan de Ávila procuraba dejar la fundación de algún colegio o centro de formación y estudio. Sin duda, la fundación más celebre fue la Universidad de Baeza (Jaén). La línea de actuación que allí impuso era común a todos sus colegios, como puede verse plasmada en los Memoriales al Concilio de Trento, donde pide la creación de seminarios, para una verdadera reforma de la Iglesia y del clero.

Predicando el Evangelio.

Es la definición que mejor cuadra a Juan de Ávila: predicador. Éste es precisamente el epitafio que aparece en su sepulcro: “mesor eram”. El centro de su mensaje era Cristo crucificado, siendo fiel discípulo de san Pablo. Predicaba tanto en las iglesias como incluso en las calles. Sus palabras iban directamente a provocar la conversión, la limpieza de corazón. El contenido de su predicación era siempre profundo, con una teología muy escriturística. Pero ésta estaba sobre todo precedida de una intensa oración. Cuando le preguntaban qué había que hacer para predicar bien, respondía: ‘amar mucho a Dios’.

Los textos de los sermones de san Juan de Ávila están acomodados al tiempo litúrgico. Los temas principales son la Eucaristía, el Espíritu Santo, la pasión, el tiempo litúrgico; siendo el tema predilecto para los clérigos el del sacerdocio. La fuerza de su predicación se basaba en la oración, sacrificio, estudio y ejemplo. Podía hablar claro quien había renunciado a varios obispados y al cardenalato, y quien no aceptaba limosnas ni estipendios por los sermones, ni hospedaje en la casa de los ricos o en los palacios episcopales. El desprecio y conocimiento de sí mismo era el secreto para guardar el equilibrio al reprender a los demás, considerándose siempre inferior a los demás.

Su modelo de predicador era san Pablo, al que procuraba imitar sobre todo en el conocimiento del misterio de Cristo. Afirma su biógrafo el Lic. Muñoz que “no predicaba sermón sin que por muchas horas la oración le precediese”, ya que “su principal librería” era el crucifijo y el Santísimo Sacramento.

La misión apostólica de la predicación era precisamente uno de los objetivos de la fundación de sus colegios de clérigos. Ésta era también una de las finalidades de los Memoriales dirigidos al Concilio de Trento.

Retiro en Montilla

Desde 1511 Juan de Ávila se sintió enfermo. Gastado en un ministerio duro, sintió fuertes molestias que le obligaron a residir definitivamente en Montilla desde 1554 hasta su muerte. Rehusó la habitación ofrecida en el palacio de la marquesa de Priego, y se retiró en una modesta casa propiedad de la marquesa. Su vida iba transcurriendo en la oración, la penitencia, la predicación (aunque no tan frecuente), las pláticas a los sacerdotes o novicios jesuitas, la confesión y dirección espiritual, el apostolado de la pluma.

Su enfermedad la ofreció para inmolarse por la Iglesia, a la que siempre había servido con desinterés. Cuando arreciaba más la enfermedad, oraba así: “Señor, habeos conmigo como el herrero: con una mano me tened, y con otra dadme con el martillo”.

Pero a Juan todavía le quedaban quince años de vida fructífera, que empleó avaramente en la extensión del Reino de Dios. El retiro de Montilla le dio la posibilidad de escribir con calma sus cartas, la edición definitiva del Audi, Filia, sus sermones y tratados, los Memoriales al Concilio de Trento, las Advertencias al Concilio de Toledo y otros escritos menores. Se puede decir que Juan de Ávila inicia con sus escritos la mística española del Siglo de oro. Si en otros períodos de su vida se podía calificar de predicador, misionero, fundador de colegios, ahora, en Montilla, se puede resumir su vida diciendo que era escritor.

El Audi, Filia, a pesar de todas las vicisitudes por las que pasó, y tras retocarlo de nuevo en Montilla, queriéndolo confrontar con las enseñanzas de Trento, fue publicado después de su muerte. El rey Felipe II lo apreció tanto que pidió no faltara nunca en El Escorial. El Card. Astorga, arzobispo de Toledo, diría que, con él, “había convertido más almas que letras tiene”. Prácticamente es el primer libro en lengua vulgar que expone el camino de perfección para todo fiel, aun el más humilde. El sentido de perfección cristiana es el sentido eclesial de desposorio de la Iglesia con Cristo. Éste y otros libros de Juan influyeron posteriormente en autores de espiritualidad.

Las cartas de Juan de Ávila llegaban a todos los rincones de España e incluso a Roma. De todas partes se le pedía consejo. Obispos, santos, personas de gobierno, sacerdotes, personas humildes, enfermos, religiosos y religiosas, eran los destinatarios más frecuentes. Las escribía de un tirón, sin tener tiempo para corregirlas. Llenas de doctrina sólida, pensadas intensamente, con un estilo vibrante.

No hay en todo el siglo XVI ningún autor de vida espiritual tan consultado como Juan de Ávila. Examinó la Vida de santa Teresa, se relacionó frecuentemente con san Ignacio de Loyola o con sus representantes, con san Francisco de Borja, san Juan de Dios, san Pedro de Alcántara, San Juan de Ribera, fray Luis de Granada.

A Juan de Ávila se le llama <<reformador>>, si bien sus escritos de reforma se ciñen a los Memoriales para el Concilio de Trento, escritos para el arzobispo de Granada, D. Pedro Guerrero, ya que Juan de Ávila no pudo acompañarle a Trento debido a su enfermedad, y a las Advertencias al Concilio de Toledo, escritas para el obispo de Córdoba, D. Cristóbal de Rojas, que habrían de presidir el Concilio de Toledo (1565), para aplicar los decretos tridentinos.

La doctrina de san Juan de Ávila sobre le sacerdocio quedó esquematizada en un Tratado sobre el sacerdocio, del que conocemos sólo una parte, pero una belleza y contenido extraordinarios, y que sirvió de pauta para sus pláticas y retiros a clérigos, y para que sus discípulos hicieran otro tanto donde no podía llegar ya el Maestro.

Escuela Sacerdotal

Este término aparece con frecuencia en las primeras biografías de nuestro santo, para referirse a sus discípulos. Todos ellos tienen un denominador común, a pesar de ministerios muy diversos y de encontrarse en lugares muy distantes: predicar el misterio de Cristo, enderezar las costumbres, renovación de la vida sacerdotal según los decretos conciliares, no buscar dignidades ni puestos elevados, vida intensa de oración y penitencia, paciencia en las contradicciones y persecuciones, sentido de Iglesia, enseñar la doctrina cristiana, dirección espiritual, etc. Los encontramos en los pueblecitos más alejados de pastores y agricultores como en las aldeas de Fuenteovejuna, como entre los consejeros de los grandes; en los colegios y universidades o en las costas de Andalucía; en las prelaturas o en las minas de Almadén.

El grupo sacerdotal de Juan de Ávila parece que se estructura en Granada hacia el año 1537, aunque ya antes se habían hecho discípulos suyos algunos sacerdotes de Sevilla, Écija y Córdoba. En Córdoba reunió a más de veinte en el Alcázar Viejo. Y fue allí donde dirigió un centro misional durante ocho o nueve años. La gran misión del mediodía español es una de las manifestaciones típicas de la escuela sacerdotal de Juan de Ávila.

La escuela sacerdotal de Juan de Ávila no se puede estudiar sino teniendo a la vista la relación con la Compañía de Jesús. Juan encaminó a muchos de sus discípulos a la Compañía, y hubo intentos de fusión, cesión de colegios, estudio conjunto, ayuda a los jesuitas, que en Salamanca encontraron muchas dificultades. Pero Juan de Ávila no entró en la Compañía. Éste era el gran deseo de san Ignacio, hasta el punto de afirmar que “o nosotros nos unamos a él o él a nosotros”. Pero la voluntad del Señor no era ésta, la enfermedad de Juan y los caminos del Señor lo impidieron. A pesar de ello, él fue enviando a sus mejores discípulos a la Compañía.

La escuela sacerdotal avilista ser refleja principalmente en su Maestro. El testimonio y la doctrina de Juan dejaron huella imborrable, como le iba dejando su sello personal que tenía dibujado el Santísimo Sacramento. En sus discípulos dejó impresa la ilusión por la vocación sacerdotal, el amor al sacerdocio, con los matices de la vida eucarística, vida litúrgica y de oración personal profunda, devoción al Espíritu Santo, a la Pasión del Señor, a la Virgen María, entrega total al servicio desinteresado de la Iglesia en la expansión del Reino y la predicación de la Palabra de Dios. Pero lo que consideraba esencial en todo aquel que quería ser buen sacerdote era la vida de oración, ya que en la caridad y en la oración era en los que según él habrían de consistir los exámenes de Órdenes.

En la Santa Misa centraba toda la evangelización y vida sacerdotal. La celebraba empleando largo tiempo, con lágrimas por sus pecados. Sobre la Eucaristía jamás le faltó materia para predicar, especialmente en la fiesta y octava del Corpus. “Trátalo bien, que es hijo de buen Padre”, dijo a un sacerdote de Montilla que celebraba con poca reverencia; la corrección tuvo como efecto conquistar un nuevo discípulo. Ya enfermo en Montilla, quiso ir a celebrar misa a una ermita; por el camino se sintió imposibilitado; el Señor, en figura de peregrino, se le apareció y le animó a llegar hasta la meta. Fue el gran apóstol de la comunión frecuente, a pesar de las contradicciones que se le siguieron. Prefería la presencia eucarística a la visita de los Santos Lugares.

Su virtud principal fue la caridad. Tenía un amor entrañable a la humanidad de Cristo: “el Verbo encarnado fue el libro y juntamente maestro”. Su Tratado del amor de Dios es una joya de la literatura teológica en lengua castellana. Su amor al prójimo fue la expresión del ministerio sacerdotal. Toda la obra de Juan de Ávila mira hacia la caridad cristiana. De ahí la preocupación por la educación cristiana y humana integral, la preocupación por los problemas sociales, por la reforma del estado seglar (como él decía), por la reforma del clero.

Una cruz grande de palo en su habitación de Montilla, la renuncia a las prebendas y obispados (el de Segovia y Granada), así como el capelo cardenalicio (ofrecido por Paulo III), son índice de la pobreza y humildad de quien “fue obrero sin estipendio..., y habiendo servido tanto a la Iglesia, no recibió de ella un real” (Lic. Muñoz). No renunció al episcopado por desprecio, sino por imitar al Señor y por sentirse indigno. Su amor a la pobreza no tiene otra motivación sino un amor profundo a Jesucristo. Asistía a los pobres. Vivía limpia y pobremente y no consiguieron cambiarle el manteo o la sotana ni aun con engaño.

Su humildad le llevó a ser un verdadero reformador. No pudieron sacarle ningún retrato. Su predicación iba siempre acompañada del catecismo a los niños; su método catequético tiene sumo valor en la historia de la pedagogía.

El celo por la extensión del Reino aparece en sus obras y palabras. Las cartas a los predicadores son pura llama de apóstol. No admitía que murmurasen de nadie. La castidad la veía en relación al sacerdocio, principalmente como ministro de la Eucaristía. La devoción a María la expresa continuamente y la aconseja a todo el mundo.

De todas sus virtudes, de su prudencia, consejo, discreción, etc., hablan sus biógrafos. Pero él conocía bien sus propios defectos y, por eso, pidió en las últimas horas de su vida que no le hablaran de cosas elevadas, sino que le dijeran lo que se dice a los que van a morir por sus delitos. A Juan de Ávila no le atraían propiamente las virtudes en sí mismas, sino el misterio de Cristo vivido y predicado.

Entregado al estudio continuo de las Escrituras y de otras materias eclesiásticas, gastando su vida en la oración, predicación y fundación de obras apostólicas y sociales, en la dirección de las almas y en la enseñanza del catecismo, en la formación de sacerdotes y futuros sacerdotes, Juan de Ávila es un maestro de apóstoles.

La figura personal y pastoral de Juan de Ávila encontró pronto eco en Italia con san Carlos Borromeo, y en Francia en la escuela sacerdotal francesa del siglo XVII. Pero su obra quedó, en parte, en la tiniebla en su aportación más profunda a la vida evangélica precisamente para el clero diocesano y la vida de perfección cristiana en las estructuras de todo el pueblo de Dios.

Muerte de Juan de Ávila.

La estancia definitiva en Montilla fue especialmente fructífera. Dejó una huella imborrable en los sacerdotes de la ciudad. En una de sus últimas celebraciones de la misa le hablo un hermoso crucifijo que él veneraba: “perdonados te son tus pecados”.

Pero la enfermedad iba pudiendo más que su voluntad. A principio de mayo de 1569 empeoró gravemente. En medio de fuertes dolores se le oía rezar: “Señor mío, crezca el dolor, y crezca el amor, que yo me deleito en el padecer por vos”. Pero en otras ocasiones podía la debilidad: “¡Ah, Señor, que no puedo!”. Una noche, cuando no podía resistir más, pidió al Señor le alejara el dolor, como así se hizo en efecto; por la mañana, confundido, dijo a los suyos: “¡Qué bofetada me ha dado Nuestro Señor esta noche!”.

Juan de Ávila no hizo testamento, porque dijo que no tenía nada que testar. Pidió que celebraran por él muchas misas; rogó encarecidamente que le dijeran lo que se dice a quienes van a morir por sus delitos. Quiso que se celebrara la misa de resurrección en aquellos momentos en que se encontraba tan mal. Manifestó el deseo de que su cuerpo fuera enterrado en la iglesia de los jesuitas, pues a los que tanto había querido en vida, quiso dejarles su cuerpo en muerte. Quiso recibir la Unción con plena conciencia. Invocó a la Virgen con el Recordare, Virgo Mater... Y una de sus últimas palabras mirando el crucifijo, fue “ya no tengo pena de este negocio”. Era el 10 de mayo de 1569. Santa Teresa, al enterarse de la muerte de Juan de Ávila, se puso a llorar y, preguntándole la causa, dijo: “Lloro porque pierde la Iglesia de Dios una gran columna”.

La persona, los escritos, la obra y los discípulos de Juan de Ávila influirán en los siglos posteriores. Hemos visto los santos y autores que estuvieron relacionados más o menos con san Juan de Ávila; casi todos ellos influenciados por sus escritos, por su persona o por su obra. Se suelen encontrar, además, vestigios de influencia místico-poética en san Juan de la Cruz y en Lope de Vega. San Francisco de Sales y san Alfonso Mª de Ligorio citan frecuentemente a san Juan de Ávila. Y san Antonio Mª Claret reconocía el bien que le hicieron los escritos de san Juan de Ávila como predicador. Su influencia es notoria en la escuela francesa de espiritualidad sacerdotal, en cuyos escritos y doctrina se inspiraron.

En 1588, Fr. Luis de Granada, recogiendo algunos escritos enviados por los discípulos y recordando su propia convivencia con san Juan de Ávila, escribió la primera biografía. En 1623, la Congregación de san Pedro Apóstol, de sacerdotes naturales de Madrid, inicia la causa de beatificación. En 1635, el Licdo. Luis Muñoz escribe la segunda biografía de Juan de Ávila, basándose en la de Fr. Luis, en los documentos del proceso de beatificación y en algunos documentos que se han perdido. El día 4 de abril de 1894, León XIII beatifica al Maestro Ávila. Pío XII, el 2 de julio de 1946 lo declara Patrono del clero secular español. Pero el maestro de santos tendrá que esperar hasta el año 1970 para ser canonizado por el Papa Pablo VI.

La iglesia de la Compañía de Montilla, donde descansan sus restos, y la pequeña casa donde vivió sus últimos años san Juan de Ávila, son centros de continuo peregrinar de obispos, sacerdotes y fieles de toda España.

La Conferencia Episcopal Española ha pedido a la Santa Sede, con motivo del centenario del nacimiento de san Juan de Ávila, que sea declarado Doctor de la Iglesia Universal. Esperamos que aquél que ha sido conocido a lo largo de los últimos cinco siglos como el Maestro, pronto le sea reconocido por la Iglesia oficial el título de Doctor y Maestro del pueblo cristiano.

#evangelio #oracion #biblia #catolicos #iglesia #dios #gospel #catholic #mass #evangelio de hoy #santodehoy

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livecharliereaction · 9 months ago

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gonna be a long ahh post

ill try to see if theres anything strange for all of them but i dont remember all alibis n circumstances etc im using the red truths + question arc tip screen oki thats all i have Well i have my liveblogs too but that doesnt seem useful. first ep didnt have red truths yet but im quite sure it had to have been natsuhi or maria so

this was natsuhi + krauss + eva + hideyoshi + rudolf + kyrie

rosas definitely weird in ep2 i very vividly recall her BEING in that chapel too but i could be misremembering that part. though beatrice was there

this whole ordeal was a little strange i wish i remembered who exactly witnessed her bcs i feel like it wasnt just natsuhi n servants... Kyrie definitely saw her yes? I dont know what to make of it. What a cute outfit though shes so cute

also these mentions on shannon n kanon ep2 descs Awh

kanons key or servant involvement seeing as none of the others were first 6

kanon n jessica couldve killed each other Why? Who knows But someone carried kanons body out

"no one is hiding (regarding jessicas room)" STop i wouldve said that too im just like him i cant diss his abilities anymore.

Oh but also "kanon was killed in this room" =/= "kanon was killed in this room at that time" Im thinking about the scene where he "reappears" again i think its been said theres no disguise stuff so maybe

am i confusing the scenes because "theres no corpse" What happened in the doctors room???? when they saw him come back and bury his fingers to that wound i wouldve said he mightve died at that moment but then whats with the corpse. Girl

i miss her so much shes so funny "You are incompetent" in red is crazy

Beato:(.......

rosa had the keys yeahhhhhh i dont exactly remember Why i thought she was weird at the time but it was probably her. She was running around w the rifle too Well thats all for ep2 anyway

wtf even was charumi3 that was evas time to shine yes

Its definitely dead

None of the six committed suicide! hmm the weird linked one i remember it Though. Isnt "The six died instantly" incorrect in kinzos case if he was already dead... Since its a separate statement it doesnt have to refer to those six yes?? So maybe one of them besides kinzo didnt die instantly... Like battler suggested w a chain murder or one person going around to make up the chained rooms

Then theyd have a key too... girl i dont remember what eva was doing at this time also

at that point eva was supposedly in her room w a headache while witch eva was killing them so yeah doesnt look great for eva That servant things still possible too + rosa might as well have killed maria though idk who killed rosa in that case

eva did not kill hideyoshi... servant thing still strong and also wtf was kyrie thinking here anyway might as well blame her n then say eva killed kyrie but i forgor where eva was here again oopsie

"No life forms other than humans have any connection to this game" seems like a witch denying phrase but ok i guess its not a life form then

Lol. Once again kinzo thing makes this not matter... Though there go all my servants dawg maybe that was only for first twilight then

that is worrying. Do you think kanon n shannons names being pseudonyms affects the red truth. "shannon is dead" What if shannon is the idea of her servitude to the family and she threw it away for some reason and that way theres a Sayo who is killing people and doesnt really break the truths "shannon is dead" OR "there are no more than 18 humans on this island" All that goes for kanon too im just pretending that i didnt spoil myself his real name haha. Well kanon even more so since they made him appear and all but that couldve been jessicas delusion too...

she used to have so much fun that beato...

also even if eva was confirmed to not be involved in nanjos death that doesnt negate she couldve done well.everything else heart

thought about "Because of your sin, people die." a lot yesterday... The part about it not being about or with beatrice is of course very confusing and weird But yeah i cant even guess except apparently hes the reason the game exists? Or at least the reason it goes on or more specifically "cause of the eternal torture between us"

I dont understand how it could be about anything else BUT beatrice but ok. Maybe he was mean to maria like ange. But maria was literally 3 years old at that point... I guess he left the family 6 years ago but im having a terrible time trying to understand whats wrong with that really I guess asumu isnt blood related to him afterall but it cant be this great big sin beefing with rudolf u know. Id think his comebacks the reason the cerenomy was seen fit to be carried out (thinking about the amount of people) but angie wouldve normally been there instead of him anyway so the amount of people is the same and its over 14 anyway (13 sacrifices + whoevers imitating the epitaph) so i dont really understand blinks

i like when he goes Ah ngagh nnnghhh aaghh...!!! this vn loves to make people roar also They do it all the time. battler n beato do it the most but eva and many others always roaring too

also??? according to the wiki they didnt use red truth at all in ep3 until this point thats crazy i guess beato really WAS more careful about it

oh ange i miss u

i cant even tell what the first ones about theres no game record in ep4 tips how annoying <- doesnt remember at all what happened. Well ange was there uhh.

nvm its definitely about this one. I seriously remember nothing there was so much ange ange ange it was all eyes on ange.... I might reread my liveblogs

OH YEAH it was ppl supposedly witnessing kinzo killing everyone. Although uh "all ... acknowledged the presence of kinzo" Thats very different from "kinzo was there n killed everyone"... It couldve been in spirit or even if his corpse was there. Also last ones crazy u can just change that well i guess they were counting a corpse then

thats crazy confusing combined with knoxs rule about no accidents... what is left...

STOP. THERE GO BOTH OF MY SUSPECTS STOP IT

none of these negate kanon n rosa culprit yeah?

omfg wtf theres an image limit let me do the rest in another post

#charumi5

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harocat · 2 years ago

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(prev anon here. First of all, thank you very much for their sources! It definitely made a bit more at peace. Second, I am very sorry if this goes very long, or if it makes you uncomfortable (feel free to ignore this if it does, I am just kind of venting))

Okay so basically. I finished yoi like a couple of weeks ago and I was so giddy with happiness! (Though there were a few things I could have wished went differently, overall it was such a pleasant, feel good show) HOWEVER I made the mistake of searching for meta on tumblr because I wanted to see what other interpretations were. Because I came across a lot (and I mean A Lot) of posts form when the show aired (2016-18) about people either being disappointed by it being a queerbait/ multiple posts saying it was y//a/o/i fetishizing everything/about how it was just a generally shitty/mediocre show and that it's fandom was delusional or whatever and like. On one hand I do understand that the rep isn't perfect, and that there were various fandom drama that resulted in the wank (namely the crunchyroll award thingy, kubo's confusing interviews(?)) But also it's just. I was obviously not there so I still do not know the full context and it was all OVER years ago and presently, the show is mostly remembered by people with love and nostalgia. But now, I guess I just read too many negative comments about it and I just. Am very upset since I feel like I've lost the happiness the show gave me when I first watched it? I just don't know how to or what to do to like. Not take them seriously?? Obviously people have different opinions, they HAD different opinions but it also feels very draining to read something very, very negative about something you are emotionally connected to. On my first watch, I was almost 100% sure victuuri were canon? (Especially with Yuuri saying he's going to show his love to the world multiple times, and just. The whole show with every episode) and on one hand I get that people wished they could get explicit confirmation, an on screen kiss without it being hidden and everything but I just. I feel so confused and low-key stressed about this, especially since I KNOW all of this discourse is in the past and the fandom doesn't really have any of it now?? And it's been seven years since everything happened and it's over!! But. I just. I saw you've been here right form the start and I really wanted to know if you really had any advice (in lack of a better word) on how to just get over all of this? (Again: please ignore this ask if this is kind of out of nowhere because I am *this* close to chickening out and not sending it fjdgd. But I think I really need to talk about this and put it down because it's bothering me too much:( )

OKAY this is super long. tl;dr corporations and some fans are evil and homophobic, Kubo and Sayo are queens, and YOI is and always will be 100% canon gay.

First and foremost the main reason that the show is remembered largely fondly now and that all those meta about it being queerbait and all are ignored now is because 90% of them were bad faith criticism. There were a fair amount of people who REALLY hated this show, and most of their reasons were pretty petty (seriously I remember them calling themselves the YOI salt squad? lmao)! And they wrote really disingenuous meta that has not stood the test of time because of that. So I know it may be hard and some of their posts might get to you, but do your best to ignore them. They're not done in good faith. They're not done because these people legitimately care about representation. Most of them were done because a show they didn't like was popular and was being heralded as very special. There was actually even a big anti-Kubo movement on 2chan Japan that aimed to basically destroy the popularity of her work and of YOI by doctoring fake tweets, making accusations of plagiarism, etc. Mind, this was not just because of YOI. Before YOI, Kubo did a popular radio show with her best friend, who is one of the most famous trans women in Japan, Mineko Nomachi. She also occasionally discussed lgbtq+ rights in the workplace. You can imagine this annoyed the very conservative users of 2chan.

Secondly, one thing that caused issues in the fandom was mistranslations. There were two translators famous for taking interviews with the creators and basically 'no homo-ing' them. If you ever see translations floating around from Tora on Ice or K@rice, please just ignore them. Even the translations they did that weren't inaccurate, it's not worth digging through the mistranslations to find them. The problem with this ended up being that their mistranslations upset A LOT of people. People ended up really heartbroken over them because YOI and Victuuri meant a lot to them, and though it's mostly ebbed by now, there's still some damage caused by their homophobia.

Just to give perspective, K@rice said that if Victuuri were ever 'confirmed canon' (because according to her, despite making out and getting engaged they weren't canon), she would sell her blu-rays and leave the fandom. Well, I don't know if she sold her blu-rays, but when Otsuka said that quote I linked in the previous ask, where he used the indisputably romantic word 'renai', she did make a post about how 'disappointed' she was and never talked about YOI again. Both of them had a history of doing this in canonically lgbtq+ fandoms before, and have continued to do it in other fandoms since. But yeah, they caused a lot of damage.

Next up, CENSORSHIP.

When Sayo Yamamoto pitched YOI, she couldn't find a studio to take the project on. Although she was considered somewhat of an auteur, neither of the anime she'd made before were hits, and she was trying to sell a show that no one thought that would be popular. Studios that were interested in the project suggested she make it about teenagers in a high school club, which she refused to do. She brought Kubo on to help, and eventually they were able to get Mappa to take the project. At the time Mappa was considered an experimental studio that took on really creative, inventive projects that other studios might consider too risky. Otsuka (Mappa's second in command) at the time thought the show could be a hit, but probably not many other people felt the same. Indeed, there was almost zero buzz for the show before it aired in Japan. They always do big polls for most anticipated anime of the season, and YOI didn't even rank in fall 2016.

So Sayo and Kubo wanted it to be a romance, but Avex (the parent company above Mappa) didn't want this. She had to push for it, and she said that 'all parties' tried to stop her from putting the kiss in, but she insisted. To note, as a woman in the anime industry without any popular shows under her belt, this is hugely badass of her. She and Kubo both could have lost their jobs and lost control of the show they wanted to make so easily. She would NOT compromise. It was amazing of her.

YOI comes out and ends up being like... the biggest hit ever in both Japan and internationally, but while Mappa is pretty happy to embrace the gay (which you see with all the merchandise they directly produce; it's very overtly romantic), Avex gets cold feet (I'm assuming BECAUSE it's so popular). They want this to be a super marketable franchise, but because they are stupid they don't grasp that the romance is part of what makes it that. They stop doing a bunch of magazine spreads of just Victor and Yuuri looking romantic, and start shoving Yurio in there as an awkward third wheel. They try to market the series as a cast of bishounen where you 'pick your fave boy' instead of focusing on what fans are wanting. It's all very messy.

And then, this might not be Avex's fault, but magazine publishers get in on the censorship. In order for YOI art to be accepted in these magazines, they force Mappa artists to remove the rings from Victor and Yuuri's fingers. Although this at first is excused by fans because 'well the rings are spoilers', by a few months post series, fans begin to outcry, and even Japanese fans are growing very angry. One Mappa artist comes forward after the spread she drew is criticized for lack of rings, and says 'she never would have left them off, and that they were there when she submitted the art.' And this is how fans find out what's happening. This happens again when YOI animation director Noriko Ito expresses surprise that the design page for the rings is not included in the YOI setting book released by a publisher, because she knows it was supposed to be in there. The publisher removed it. Later art, as in post 2018, has more often featured the rings, but there's so little of that art that it's hard to know if it would be a permanent thing if YOI ever continued. Plus, that art has been specifically for YOI collabs and merch as opposed to magazine spreads.

After that we find out that Kubo and Sayo are being censored in interviews. Please don't criticize Kubo for being 'vague.' She did the best she could in a situation where she wasn't allowed to talk super explicitly about the romance. We know for a fact that when Kubo and Sayo were interviewed, Avex SPECIFICALLY told interviewers that they were 'not allowed to be asked questions about lgbtq+ aspects of the series.' I know! It's so upsetting. We also found out that Kubo and Sayo brought character designer Tadashi Hiramatsu on the project because they did not think they were being taken seriously as a team of two women (no hate on Hiramatsu though, he's amazing and he totally loves YOI). Avex didn't believe in YOI as a romance, even after it proved so successful. It's the saddest thing on earth.

So the end conclusion is that Kubo, Sayo, and yes Mappa (though I have plenty of criticisms of them now) were pretty cool about YOI. Kubo and Sayo pushed for and wrote a gay romance into a sports anime, something that had never been done before, at constant risk of losing their job and status in the industry. They were badasses and they're both writing heroes of mine because of that, and it actually makes me love YOI more knowing how much they cared and how much they were willing to risk to tell the story they wanted to tell, that of a romance between Victor and Yuuri. And it is a romance, indisputably so, and anyone who disagrees is frankly giving them a slap in the face.

#anonymous #yuri on ice

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asknarashikari · 1 year ago

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Kiramager reaction to Tametomo's dilemma and final result.

Tametomo: Stop teasing me over it.

Muryou: You have a crush on him.

Mabushina: Can't believe the other Tame-chan was just an illusion. He really tricked you and us.

Muryou: Or rather... something unexplained that doesn't need explaining.

Tametomo: I don't know if I should talk to him or not.

Muryou: You still have his photo album that you secretly bought.

Tametomo: Oooohhh... I... I...

Mabushina: It's best if you go talk to him to have your answers.

Tametomo: *sighs* I'll go.

Later.

Tametomo: *smiles*

Mabushina and Muryou: Sooo...

Tametomo: He really comforted me and gave an honest answer.

Mabushina and Muryou: And???

Tametomo: We're dating. I mean... he got all the benefits one could ever need.

Juuru: ...Well, at least he'll stop teasing me and Shiguru for being sappy and lovey-dovey.

Shiguru: Yeah, he'll be too busy being sappy and lovey-dovey himself. Amongst other things.

Sena: Mostly the other things, I think. He'll be lucky to come out unscathed.

Sayo: As long as I'm not his doctor for those things, I'm happy for him.

Takamichi: And he'll stop moping about as well... looks like we all win here!

#mashin sentai kirameiger #imizu tametomo #ask #i-am-randomtrash00

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amugoffandoms · 1 year ago

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Ooh, 3, 17, and 29 for the fic asks if you want :D

whoopee!! more mug's ao3 writing wrapped!! here's the list!

3. What work are you most proud of (regardless of kudos/hits)?

i am incapable of picking just one so here's a list aidnjf!!

Sing Your Sins! - yeah this would be an obvious choice but like audhgjgjg it was so fun to write about!! just let them be happy guys please!,!@,&$$

37.2°C -- Yuno Kashiki's Trial 2 Voice Drama - I had a blast rewriting some of yuno's trial 2 vd for this swap au judt man some of the last lines kinda just hit hard and man judt man

a mug of whumptober 2023 fics - is this cheating?? yeah a little bit buy i had so much fun writing some of this!! really can't wait to get to the rest shhffjjf

ILOLL - yeah the characters are historical figures, I like writing and if the story just so happens to be through these figures that were sort of modernized by a musical then yeah ajfjfjf ANYWAYS you can see my favorite part of formatting and also gruesome writing in this ajfhfj love both of those things dearly sjjf

17. Your favorite character to write this year?

yuno.

but there are some close contenders!!

Sayori is really fun to write! There's a balance of bubbly and bittersweet you have to hit and it's always fun standing on that line! also just sayo :]

Es, Mahiru, and Fuuta all because I've written them a few times to understand their character better and also they have beliefs and traits that are so intrinsically woven into their character that it's like Oh we're gonna have fun writing this yippee!!

29. Favorite line/passage you wrote this year?

oh man there's so many auauausu

here are some that i picked out sjfjf

“Ha, you know that you’re just pushing everyone away when you’re being honest?” She knows. She knows. It’s stupid, but she knows. No matter what she’s like, she’ll have to lie. Just to have a little warmth. How cruel is that?

Shidou hears that voice. He can’t tell who said that, probably one of the doctors pulling him out of the room. Closing his mouth to stop the next scream, he realizes, for a second, he believes them. He believes that if he lets other people dip their hands in the ocean of blood he wades through every day, his wife will be waiting for him. His wife will be alive.

It's only that noise and him standing around. He can feel his chest tighten with guilt and dread. If he dared to breathe, it felt like something akin to a noose constricted his breath, pulling him away.

"Sometimes I wake up and everything feels frozen. It's cold and I can't feel anything. It's nothing. I can't feel the light against my face. I can't feel my body ache for relief."

"Y-Yuno—" "I can't tell if I'm on the edge of my life or I'm already dead." "!" "Then, Mahiru-san comes into my cell with Shidou-san. He fixes my bandages. And, eventually, I feel something. It's cold." "..." Es stares at the other. "I think we both know, even Shidou. I'm on the verge of dying, Es." Es stands up and slams the table, with Yuno only blankly staring. "Yuno, you aren't going to—" "Am I... really alive?"

so that's it!! :D thank you for asking ^^

#mug answers #ask game!#mug's ao3 writing wrapped

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comshipbracket · 1 year ago

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Antis DNI

Remember, you are voting for the ship you prefer, not the ship you find more problematic

Propaganda for both ships under the cut.

Paperhat Propaganda (Abusive Dynamic, Power Imbalance, Species Difference, Age Gap)

"Eldritch horror shitty boss x fucked up doctor with anxiety employee. We have so many scenes of Black Hat strangling Flug. SOOO MANY."

SayoHina Propaganda (Incest, Twincest)

None that fits the bracket initially provided - feel free to Reblog with your own propaganda for this ship's advancement in the bracket.

However, you can find EXTRA Propaganda posted by an Anonymous source HERE

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nice2meetyouu · 2 years ago

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So may nakita nanaman akong eme at kahit antagal na nitong na-post, eh nag-reply ako. Ipe-paste ko na lang dito para kung may maligaw na undecided e may 1 more perspective na dadagdag sa pool of info niya.

Hi OP. Mahirap magdoktor pero depende sa "why" mo, magiging worth it naman in the end. Marami lang talagang kailangan iconsider.

"Kaso nga lang, 74 lang ang Percentile Rank ko."

Ok lang yang 74. Wala namang ambag ang nmat sa kung magiging magaling na doktor ka. Role lang nito ay makapasok ka sa med school. If you want a higher score, prepare then iretake mo na lang.

"Gusto ko talaga maging doktor kaya lang pangalawa ako sa anim na magkakapatid."

Magastos talaga ang magdoktor, financially and emotionally. May scholarships dito or kung sa UP (free tuition + stipend) or PLM (free rin yata if taga-maynila, not sure na) ka, less ang gagastusin. Sorry, 'yung outside manila, wala akong say.

"Naiisip ko na 'yung limang taon kong pag-aaral sa pagdodoktor ay parang malayo na rin mararating ko as a MedTech."

May be true. Baka nasa Canada ka na no'n or some first-world country.

"Ang dami kong concerns about sa career path ko kaya lang wala akong mapagtanungan."

MD na ako ngayon pero I still think about being an RMT para makapag-abroad. Not necessarily para yun ang ipractice for life. In demand ang doctors everywhere pero andaming barriers pag galing ka sa 3rd world country. Pero di naman imposibleng patunayan na ka-level natin yung mga nasa magagandang bansa.

Wish ko rin na I knew better bago ako pumasok dito, pero okay na rin, wala akong analysis paralysis since wala ngang nakakaalam. Hindi rin ako magaling sumagap ng info back then sa upperclassmen or kung sinuman. Nag-struggle ako kasi "ano ba 'tong ginagawa ko" feels pero may classmates ka namang maghihirap din kaya you're not alone. May vlogs din sa youtube saka mga forum. Syempre iba pa rin pag nandu'n ka na, no amount of reading or asking can prepare you, pero hindi ka nag-iisa.

"Enough po ba ang sweldo ng mga doctors? I heard po kasi na hindi rin sila nababayaran nang tama."

Depende kung ano ang enough for you. Napaka-varied kasi ng sahod since andami ring role ng mga doktor. If you're thinking of residency, sa government hospitals SG 21 sila, check mo na lang magkano 'yon. Private naman, nasa 30-50k. 30k madalas. Working hours? 80-100 hours a week, no joke (unless derma kukunin mo, char). In general, poor ang work-life boundaries habang nasa training. Pag hindi ka naman trainee, meaning GP ka or consultant na, ikaw bahala sa buhay mo. Basta keep in mind na hindi ito same sa traditional corporate path na magsisimula ka somewhere then pag lumipat ka sa ibang company after 2 yrs may career growth.

"Okay naman po ba ang work-life balance ng mga doctors? Napapanood ko kasi na 36 hours straight kung magduty mga doktor tapos lagi pa naman akong tulog 😂"

- During training, hindi. Gaya ng sabi ng mga nakasama ko sa isang ospital, "work" lang, walang work-life balance. Pero other than that pwede ka rin kasing magwork sa DOH, offices, maging company doctor, magtayo ng sarili mong practice, etc. Mahirap mag-generalize. If DOH or offices, M-F 8-5 'yun usually. Usually lang ha.

"Ako rin po magpapaaral sa iba kong mga kapatid dahil matanda na tatay ko tapos 'yung kuya ko naman may pamilya na. Hindi yata talaga ideal 'yung pagiging doktor sa akin."

Matagal ang ROI. Siguro i-set mo nang 10-15 years pa from day 1 ng med school. Marami ring factors involved like may business 'yung ibang med student or may mamanahing practice sa magulang, pero for first gens na starting from scratch, matagal ang ROI. Well let's say na magmo-moonlighting ka after graduation, ok naman ang kita. Or kung magd-dttb ka, malaki sahod nu'n.

"Litong lito na ako anong path ba talaga dapat para sa akin. Nakakatakot magdesisyon lalo na kung walang naggaguide sayo."

Take it slow. I also didn't have that privilege. Pero wala namang perfectly right or wrong answers sa life. Go with what you will least regret. When I was a student, I hated my life a lot, like bakit pa ako nagdoktor, ganito naman pala (pangit ang sistema, ang mean ng other hcw, mahirap, hindi ideal, walang makaintindi sa sitwasyon ko since walang ibang doktor o nasa healthcare field sa pamilya, etc.). Ngayong tapos na ako, I'm happy na kinaya ko. Of course I didn't make it on my own.

Sa mga may tanong, go lang. Basta, isang tao at isang perspective lang ako (n=1), don't blame me later for anything! Best of luck~

#wala namang pass or fail sa nmat #kalaban mo lang ang lahat hahaha #career #p.s. nasa pharmacovigilance ako if anyone's wondering #q&a

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mallowsheart · 2 years ago

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I'm not okay. tinatanong ko kung bakit, anong dahilan pero walang makasagot even yung doctor hindi malaman kung anong sakit mo kasi di ka pwedeng kuhaan ng dugo dahil ikakamatay mo, yet ganun parin ang nangyari.

For the past whole week ikaw ang pinaka may malaking reason kung bakit ako masaya. you made me laugh, giggle and smile. pero kinuha ka kagad.

Ang sakit sakit, sobra. hindi ako maka iyak ng sobra dahil baka maka apekto kay baby pero ang sakit talaga. akala ko lalaki ka kasabay ni baby pero nagkamali ako.

I'm so sorry kung wala kaming ibang na gawa para tulungan ka. Sana sa loob ng 1week na yun napasaya rin kita at naiparamdam ko sayo yung pagmamahal at alaga na deserve mo.

Lablab rest well. 😭

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beholdimhisbeloved · 2 years ago

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Lord :( gusto kong lakihan ang faith ko sayo. Kasi alam kong pagsubok lang ng faith to. Alam ko at naniniwala akong you will work miraculously sa buhay ng papa. Ang pinagpapray ko lang at iniiyak ng puso ko ngayon Lord ay sana po magkaroon ng miracle, would it be in our financial needs or sa mata na po ni papa. Naniniwala po ako Lord na magpprovide ka. Ikaw ang bahala. Ang tanging gagawin ko lang ay maniwala. Hindi matatapos ang June na hindi mo ko ifafail. Makakapag pa opera po si Papa, zero expenses.. sa magaling na doctor at gagaling sya at magrerecover ng mabilis in Jesus Name. I declare this in Jesus Name.

Faith can move mountains.

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ineffablyrandom · 2 years ago

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Story Time:

Sobrang tagal ko bago ko maisipan isulat, partly kase tinatamad ako, mostly kase parang ayokong ikwento or I don't see a reason to disclose whatever I went through sa buong 2022.

Hindi ako magpo-post ng pictures kase nabura ko na lahat ng picture from 2022.

2022 was one hell of a year. Katulad ng sabi ko, heartbreaks and doubts. Overthinking. Etc. Mostly because I feel sad. I entered 2022 thinking ikeep up ko yung pag post, my usual madaldal and makwento dito sa tumblr self. But I realize now why I stopped, posting, I was sad and lonely.

I think I made peace with everything I went through na in 2022. But here's what happened in October up to date.

My best friend and I planned to go somewhere, kase free siya ng last week ng October and sakto na magbi-birthday ako nang November 5. Last week ng September nag sa-suggest suggest ako sa kaniya kung san pwede pumunta. Yung malapit lang muna, no need for air travel, next year na lang tayo ulit mag travel na sasakay tayo ng eroplano. So sabi ko kung gusto niya ba Baler, or La Union. Sabi ko nga Quezon may magaganda din. Pero may nakita ako sa FB na post about sa isang place na maganda, Puerto Galera. Sinend ko sa kaniya sa messenger tapos ang sabi niya "G!".

So from then nag plan na kame, ilang araw, san kami mag stay, anong kukunin namin na tour package. Anyway, na-settle namin, aalis na lang ng October 28. 5 days kame mag stay. tatlong place/hotel ang pag stay-an namin (Kase maarte kame, at gusto namin ng magandang place na pag stay-an)

But before that, buntis yung aso ko (Qielli/Shih Tzu).

Nung October 27, a day before ako umalis papuntang Puerto Galera (28 nang madaling araw ang alis namin), dinala ko sa vet si Qielli para sa ultrasound niya. Apat na puppies. Tapos biglang sabi ng Vet/Doctor, "Pwede na siya manganak ngayon. mamaya or bukas". Nagulat ako, mali pala ako ng bilang ng araw sa pregnancy ni Qielli. Tinanong ako kung i-CS ba or normal na lang, kung CS pwede na iconfine si Qielli sa Vet Clinic. Hindi ko balak ipa-CS si Qielli, kaya tumawa ako tapos sabi ko sa vet, "Hindi Doc, kaya po yan ni Qielli. Mag Normal delivery lang po siya sa bahay." Tumawa din yung Vet/Doc tapos umuwi na kame.

Habang pauwi kinausap ko pa si Qielli sabi ko, "Ngayon ka na manganak Qielli kase bukas wala ako, walang mag asikaso sayo." Kase alam ko naman hindi naman kaya nila mama na paanakin si Qielli.

Mga isang oras pagkauwi namin nagle-labor na si Qielli. Sabi ko pa sa kaniya, "Good job Qielli bear." Kase all in all hindi siya nahirapan manganak, sobrang smooth. Hindi inabot ng tatlong oras. Nailabas niya din yung apat na baby niya ng buhay.

28 ng madaling araw (5 AM), bumyahe na kami ng best friend ko papuntang Puerto Galera. Umuulan ulan last few weeks ng October (bago mag 28), pero umaraw din, tapos di namin ineexpect na tatama yung bagyo ng 28 ng hapon mismo.

11 AM ata kame nakarating sa Puerto Galera, pagbaba na pagbaba namin umaambon na pero hindi pa malakas yung ulan. Hindi naman talaga lumakas yung ulan, hindi lang tumigil talaga. Pagbaba na pagbaba namin nag land tour agad kami kahit umuulan ulan pa. Sabi nung mga nagtu-tour dun swerte namin kase nakasakay pa kaming barko pababa ng Puerto Galera, kasi kami na pala yung barko na huling pinalaot, tapos sinara na yung Puerto Galera. Yung iba daw na-stranded sa Batangas.

Hindi namin napuntahan lahat ng sa land tour pero masaya naman, pagod.

Kinaumagahan ng 29 dineklara na yung bagyo, state of calamity na ata sa Mindoro. Buong araw malakas ang hangin. Na-stuck kame sa hotel room. Hindi natuloy yung Island tour namin. Dahil wala kaming magawa, naghanap kami ng gagawin sa loob lang ng room namin. Nag make up kame. Nag tiktok. Nag karaoke. Kinabukasan maaraw na. Saka lang natuloy yung Island tour namin. After ng Island tour lumipat na kami sa isang na-book namin na hotel. (10 for me, maganda yung ambiance tsaka maganda yung place. May breakfast. Mura for a night and beach front pa.) Nag swimming lang kame, hindi matagal kase lumakas na yung alon, tapos nag hanap ng kakainan. (Sarap nung kinainan namin. Pasta, chicken tsaka pizza). Wala masyadong night life kase siguro nga may bagyo and lahat ng turista siguro nastranded sa Batangas. Nakabili naman ako ng madaming pasalubong. Kinaumagahan lumipat na kami sa Beach House Lodge and Restuarant (10 din! Kase sobrang peaceful. Sobrang ganda ng place. Sobrang sarap din ng food nila. Huhu.) Hindi nga lang kami nakapag swimming na ng matagal din kase lumakas na din yung alon. Pero we got to enjoy ourselves reading book by the beach. And yung food masarap talaga. After pananghalian umuwi na din kame, bumyahe na kami papuntang port, sumakay sa business class na roro. By 11 PM ata nakauwi na din ako ng bahay. Nung last day nakin sa Puerto Galera saka lang dumami ang tao. Siguro kase bumabyahe na nga barko. Yung nga nastranded sa Batangas, napaunta na ng Puerto Galera.

The rest, well, birthday ko. Tapos nung December first week ata. dinala ko sa vet yung apat na puppies para sa second deworming and first vaccine.

December 23 ng umaga napansin ko na nag seizure yung isang puppy (Si Yuki), dinala ko agad sa vet kasama si Luna kase napansin ko na nag twitch din siya, the hardest part for me was I knew when I started noticing the seizures and tremors kahit bago pa man sila itest, alam ko na distemper yung sakit nila. It was so sudden and ang bilis lang, wala akong ibang nakitang symptoms sa kanila, few days before that napansin ko na malambot yung poop nila pero naisip ko baka dahil lang kase nag transition na ko sa kanila from milk ng mommy nila, to milk na pang puppy (yung tinitimpla), to wet dog food. So I had no idea na it was one of the symptoms. And nung umaga lang ng 23 talaga nag seizure si Yuki tas nag twitch yung hind legs ni Luna. Sa vet clinic tinest sila, postive sa distemper. I was so heartbroken and sad and confused and worried all at the same time, kase anim ang aso ko na nasa bahay, yung apat na puppy (Qiell, Yuki, Luna, and Quincy), si Qielli tapos yung aspin ko na aso si Cassie. Tapos tatlong pusa. So hindi ko alam pano gagawin ko, sabi ng vet most likely nag hawa hawa na sila since magkakasama sila. HIndi ko alam kung san possible nila nakuha, kase hindi ko pinapalabas si Cassie ng gate ng bahay, si Qielli din. Hindi din nilalabas yung puppies. Yung mga pusa? Kase sila nakakalabas tapos bumabalik din sa bahay. Or kami? Yung mga shoes and tsinelas?

Hindi ako umiyak, pero that night nung nagsunod sunod seizure ni Yuki, I cried. Pero malakas siya kumain, naglalaro, hiniwalay ko agad siya sa mga walang symptoms. Binili ko lahat agad ng gamot, vitamins na pwede ko ipainom sa kaniya, sa kanila. Nag search ako ng remedies, ng mga distemper survivors. Inalagaan ko si Yuki tinabi ko sa pag tulog.

December 25 after midnight Yuki passed away in my bed. Sinilip ko siya pagka midnight tinabihan ko sinabihan ko ng merry christmas and I love you. Lumabas lang ako saglit para kumain. Pagbalik ko di na siya humihinga. So I cried.

After Yuki died, Luna started having tremors. Hindi siya nag seizure pero napapansin ko na nahihirapan siya sa tremors niya, nag twitch yung hind legs niya, umiiyak siya minsan kahit tulog. wala pang symptoms sila Quincy at Qiell. Hiniwalay ko din si Cassie at Qielli.

Christmas and before new year was the worst. Pagod na pagod ako. Wala akong maayos na tulog. Round the clock ang painom ng gamot. Ako lang nagbabantay, nagpapakain, nagpapainom ng gamot, maya't maya ang pag disinfect.

December 26 dinala ko agad si Luna sa Distemper facility (Rehabilitation center) para ipa confine. Sarado sila nung 24 at 25, tapos hanggang 29 lang yung confinement, 29 iuuwi ko din si Luna kase 30 sarado daw sila. Sabi ko okay lang. Go. Kaya iniwan namin si Luna dun.

December 27, Luna passed away sa rehabilitation center. Kasabay nung kinagabihan nag seizure na din nang nag seizure si Quincy.

You would think okay sila. Traydor pala talaga yung distemper. Kase maharot naman sila, playful, sobrang lakas kumain. Then bigla silang mag seizure. Biglang mag drop yung katawan nila. Biglang magiging matamlay.

I cried again that day holding Quincy in my arms.

And then I whispered to her, sumama na siya kila Luna para di na siya mahirapan.

December 29, Qiell started having seizures na din.

December 30 ng madaling araw Qiell passed away.

Quincy died 7 or 8 AM din the same day (December 30).

Writing this was so hard. I keep crying. And even now, after ilang days, I still cried every night looking at their playpen.

I was consoling myself, sinasabi ko, okay lang yan, they were never meant to grow up. Magbubuntis na lang ulit si Qielli, or bibili na lang ulit ako ng Shih Tzu. I don't know.

Iniisip ko kung may nagawa ba ako, may nagawa ba kami para makuha nila yung distemper virus? Sinisi ko yung sarili ko, sinisi ko yung tao sa paligid ko.

And then I learned that yung kumare ni mama na nakatira sa may bandang likuran namin, namatay din daw lahat ng aso niya, sa may side namin na kapit bahay dalawa yung namatay, yung sa may labasan namin nagkasakit din yung aso nila. And I wonder if may virus outbreak ba na naganap.

Now, hindi ko na sinisisi yung sarili ko, and most of the time although I miss them, I'm grateful na hindi na sila masyadong nahirapan pa ng matagal. And I hope they're happy there in the rainbow bridge kasama ang isa't isa and all my dogs na nawala na.

Napapraning lang ako ngayon, maya't maya ko chinecheck si Cassie kung okay ba siya. Maya't maya ko chinicheck si Qielli kung may symptoms ba siya.

I'm still sad.

Nung nag new year, sabi ko sa sarili ko, this year I hope will be different. Sana wala nang masyadong heartbreak.

And if biyayaan ulit ng aso/puppy. I hope that puppy/dog will stay ng sobrang tagal sa amin.

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