#Sami Takeda-Ottoson the man that you are

[tomopri]

AT THE END OF THE WORLD, OR THE LAST THING I SEE

YOU ARE NEVER COMING HOME, NEVER COMING HOME

When I said STRUGGLING IN VAIN is like if i made your turn to die i wasn't exactly kidding.! sami is basically Okay. What do I remember of our dear be-beanied friend Sou Hiyori. job hopper, manipulated and manipulative, fake-friendly, plays dirty because he Can't Lose. he doesn't want to. he doesn't want to die. Okay. So what if I do that. sami started as someone with desperation at his core, and slowly evolved outwards. someone who thrives under the control of someone else, and will only survive because there's an instinct buried within him to keep moving forward. he is Also someone defined, at every turn, by Grief. his mother passed when he was 17, he attempted to follow her at 18, then he was tossed into a death game at age 24 with his baby sister, who was 12. her name was Karin Takeda-Ottonen. She died in that game, due to an accident misattributed to one of the other survivors of the game; Satoshi Okimoto, who i will talk ab some other time. his father, Otto Eelinen-Takeda, and his brother, Kai Takeda-Ottoson, were both killed as a way to 'motivate' sami to keep playing. all those who participated experienced this same motivation, but it was particular for sami, who just. kept. Losing. but he always managed to Survive. so the grief and being stuck with Chika Tomita (black haired girl from my previous art post) just drove him over the edge. he was tired of always being the only one to survive out of the people he cared most about, so. He took his life, on the rooftop, with Chika. And what happened next . . . ?

He went to Hell, met the man of his dreams, realised hhe was bisexual, lopped someone's hand off and took someone else's eye out, was initially crazy because someone in Hell reminded him eerily of Chika but chilled out because of said man of his dreams (hello Taraki Ventura Alvaro, btw. courtesy of my friend Nadia, who I don't know if she has Tumblr! I will edit this when she wakes up if shedoes) (also the girl in Hell tht reminded sami of chika is an oc belonging to oneof mmy wives @drdiagnosis named Calypso ♥) but then thru a freak accident mafia game that used majority vote which sent sami spiralling back into the initial death game mindset, Taraki Died! and then sami freaked out bbadly! and got closer to calypso only for HER to die too! SO WOULDN'T YOU KNOW IT, HE SURVIVED WHILE EVERYONE HE CARED ABOUT DIED AG AIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tho through the power of a wish he was able to bring taraki bback and by (accidentally) robbing calypso (she was behind a lot of this, it turned out, and had not permanently died) her Memory was preserved, but tthe damage is already so seve.re. and also in a separate branch of STRUGGLING IN VAIN called... ahem. THE LAST 35 SECONDS BEFORE MY EYES CLOSE ARE SPENT BY CONCLUSIVELY THINKING ABOUT THE MEANING OF MY BIRTH ( STRUGGLING IN VAIN BRANCH 4; ??? END ), xe just straight up ends the world. because thhat's freedom. and xe doesn't expect to be allowed to bring back taraki Or calypso or Anyone sso the wish is just used to bring about absolution it's kind of crazy THIS IS WHAT THE MULTIVERSE DOES TO A MOTHERFUCKER.

anyway. sami is like if you took a your turn to die fan, an arcane fan, and someone who sobbed both times they watched everything everywhere all at once and they all just beat a guy to death and reanimated their corpse. Can you believe this all started because i was like "I don't have enough some-guys in hoodies"

ANYWAY PT 2! here's the poses i drew sami (and karin) in. yes they're all from yttd. you caught me.