#Sacred Origins of Profound Things

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The Brush Off

Pairing: Oscar Piastri x Felicity Leong-Piastri (Original Character)

Summary: 5 Times people flirt with Felicity and 1 time Oscar sees it happen. 

Notes: Big thanks to @llirawolf , who listens to me ramble 😂 Also, check out my new divider!

School Library, Haileybury

Felicity was tucked into her usual corner of the school library — second floor, far left, just behind the dusty shelf of outdated atlases no one ever touched. It was quiet there. Untouchable. Sacred.

Her legs were curled under her in a frankly illegal way that made the librarian twitch every time she passed by. 

But Felicity didn’t care. She had more important things to worry about. Like finishing her own chemistry coursework, writing the conclusion to her robotics team report, and, most importantly, rescuing Oscar’s history grade from what could only be described as a stylistic disaster.

Her copy of The Selfish Gene sat open next to a packet of sticky notes and five highlighters arranged in rainbow order. Oscar’s essay draft was sprawled beside it like a corpse in need of resuscitation.

 She was six pages in.

 She had already marked five run-on sentences, circled three historical inaccuracies, and scrawled “comma splice?” in angry red ink on the header. Next to that, she’d added, in smaller print: “This is a run-on sentence and also a war crime.”(This was three lines after “I am not sure if child labour can be considered a “perk” of the industrial revolution, Oz.”)

She was muttering to herself about how Oscar consistently forgot the difference between a primary and secondary source when a shadow fell across the table.

“Hey,” a voice said. “You always sit here?”

Felicity glanced up — just barely — and immediately clocked the newcomer.

Mateo.

The Spanish exchange student.

Hair swoop. Too much cologne.

He had the vibe of someone who thought reading The Secret History made him profound. Like the kind of guy who bought Moleskines but didn’t write in them. Like a walking Instagram profile captioned “Fluent in Nietzsche.”

She didn’t answer immediately. Just scribbled a note in Oscar’s margin (“use a stronger thesis here or face the wrath of every historian who’s ever lived”).

“On Wednesdays, yes,” she replied eventually, eyes still on the page.

Mateo didn’t take the hint.

He leaned in a little too close. She caught the movement out of the corner of her eye and already regretted not bringing headphones.

“What are you working on?”

She lifted Oscar’s paper slightly, as if it were obvious. “This.”

He squinted. “You’re helping a friend?”

“This is my boyfriend’s essay.”

Mateo’s face lit up, but not with recognition — with opportunity. “Wow. You’re that good a friend?”

Felicity blinked. “I’m that good a girlfriend.”

He paused. Smiled like she’d just told a cute joke at a party. “Sure. But, like, if you ever wanted to… hang out? Or study together? I’ve been struggling with philosophy.”

She stared at him. “You’re struggling with philosophy?”

He nodded eagerly. “It’s so dense, you know?”

“You mean… reading?”

He chuckled. “I just thought it might be easier with someone like you. Someone sharp. Smart.”

She just stared at him. 

Still, he didn’t leave. “I’m just saying, if you ever get bored of helping your boyfriend… I wouldn’t mind a little attention.”

That’s what made her pause.

Because for a moment, Felicity genuinely didn’t understand what he meant.

Attention? What kind? Did he want her to edit his essay, too? Help him structure his arguments?

Was this a mentorship request? A tutoring thing? Was he trying to hire her?

Because from where she was sitting — wearing one of Oscar’s sweatshirts over her school uniform with her hair up in a pencil-stabbed bun, ink smudged on her fingers… There was no way this boy was flirting with her.

She finally looked up, expression flat. “I’ve been with my boyfriend for two years. I rewrite his footnotes. I know the number of his racing sim’s USB ports by memory. You think I have time for recreational idiocy?”

Mateo blinked. He stammered something that might’ve been “Sorry” or “Your loss” or possibly just the start of a philosophy quote he didn’t finish.

Then he turned and slunk away, disappearing into the nonfiction aisle like a man who needed to Google what a footnote was.

Felicity exhaled slowly, turned back to Oscar’s essay, and drew a tiny skull next to a sentence about Napoleon.

Ten minutes later, Oscar appeared — bottle of water in one hand, hoodie sleeves half-pushed up, curls slightly mussed.

“Hey,” he said, flopping into the seat beside her and nudging her ankle under the table.

Felicity didn’t even blink. She just slid his paper across the table.

“Yours,” she said, tone dry. “Try not to get seduced by misused commas.”

Oscar grinned, leaned over, and kissed her temple.

***

Engineering Library, Imperial College London

The engineering library at Imperial had a very specific kind of silence — dense, utilitarian, and just slightly stressed. 

It didn’t have the hushed reverence of a humanities space or the open nervous energy of undergrads cramming in a group. No. This room buzzed with tension.

It smelled like soldering fumes, pencil shavings, leftover caffeine, and the faintest echo of ambition-turned-despair.

Most students had packed up hours ago, but Felicity remained in her fortress of design textbooks, open CAD diagrams, three kinds of scrap paper, and a crumpled granola bar wrapper that she’d been meaning to throw away for at least forty-five minutes. Her water bottle was dangerously low, her laptop fan sounded like it was preparing for lift-off, and her cursor had been blinking in the same spot on her thermal stress simulation for the last twenty-seven minutes.

She wasn’t stuck. She was just… tired.

Tired in the bone-deep way only a mechanical engineering student in her second trimester could be.

She shifted slightly, legs curled beneath her, one hand resting absently on the curve of her bump. Not because it hurt — not tonight — but because Beatrice had just kicked her in the ribs again, like she was trying to crawl out through Felicity’s diaphragm.

Her phone buzzed next to her laptop:

Oscar: Don’t forget dinner. Please. You always forget when your sim models hate you. 

She smiled faintly but didn’t reply. Not yet. She still had heat sink values to triple-check.

That was when it happened.

A voice—too close, too casual—sliced through the stillness.

“Hey.”

Felicity looked up, blinking.

A guy was standing across the table. Probably mid-twenties. Tall, in that I stretch for photos, way. Crisp haircut. Slim jeans. Water bottle with a “No Bad Vibes” sticker on it — ironic, because he was currently radiating intrusive energy like a malfunctioning microwave.

He didn’t wait for permission. Just slid into the chair opposite hers like this was a first date she didn’t know they were having.

“I saw you in Thermo this morning,” he said. “That fluid mechanics question you asked? Insanely clever. I was going to say something after class, but you ducked out too fast.”

Felicity blinked at him. “I had a tutorial.”

“Oh, right,” he said. “Should’ve guessed. You seem like you’ve got everything scheduled down to the second.”

“I also needed chips,” she added, because both things were true.

He laughed like she’d made a joke. “You seem intense. I like that. Women in engineering? You don’t see that every day. Rare combination of intimidating and hot.”

She stared at him.

The words rolled around her brain like loose screws.

What… did he want?

Was this a compliment? An insult? An offer?

She was six months pregnant, her knees hurt, her thesis was trying to kill her, and she was wearing Oscar’s hoodie with a faint grease stain across the front.

What exactly was the goal here?

“I mean—don’t get me wrong,” he rushed on, clearly sensing the silence and trying to recover. “You’ve just got that… serious vibe. Like the kind of girl who rewires her own dishwasher.”

“I did,” she said flatly. “Last week.”

He blinked. “Seriously?”

“And the kettle. And Oscar’s sim pedal when it failed under full brake.”

There was a beat.

“…Who’s Oscar?” he asked, smirking now. “Your roommate?”

Felicity paused.

And for a moment—just a moment—she considered laughing.

Then she closed her laptop slowly. Deliberately.

“Oscar’s my husband.”

The guy blinked.

Stood up slowly. Her hoodie shifted, and with it, the full curve of her pregnancy became unmistakably obvious. Not theoretical. Not ambiguous. Imminent.

The guy’s eyes widened. “Oh.”

She adjusted the hem of her sweater, not breaking eye contact, slung her bag over one shoulder, and smiled — cold, clean, efficient.

“If you’re gonna flirt with a mechanical engineer,” she said, “maybe do a better job at observational diagnostics.”

He opened his mouth. Closed it. Looked like he wanted to apologise and also vanish into the carpet tiles.

Felicity didn’t wait for a response.

***

Trinity College, Oxford

By the time Felicity Piastri was twenty-one, she had two things down to a science:

How to balance a toddler on her hip while rewriting entire sections of a doctoral thesis.

The exact number of times she could ignore the same man before it became a full-blown academic experiment.

Her Oxford doctoral project - Reinforcement Through Flexibility: Dynamic Adaptation in Composite-Structured Performance Environments. - had technically been finished for weeks. The simulations were done, the modelling locked in, her conclusions tight and triple-sourced. Now she was just revising. Editing. Wrangling footnotes into submission while Bee tried to paste glitter stickers into the margins of her printed draft.

She did almost everything from home.

The only reason she even stepped foot into Oxford was for fortnightly supervision meetings with Dr. Green, who was brilliant, terrifying, and the only person Felicity would willingly leave the house (and her toddler) for.

Which was, unfortunately, where Nathan lived.

Nathan — Dr. Green’s personal assistant — had been a PPE student once upon a time, which explained a lot. Somehow, he’d wheedled his way into a departmental admin role despite not knowing the difference between a torque curve and a coffee stain. His talents included:

Misfiling room bookings.

Brewing tea that tasted like despair.

Flirting with Felicity like it was something he was being graded on.

The first time he tried it, she’d thought it was just bad small talk. She gave him the benefit of the doubt. He seemed the type to flirt accidentally, the kind of man who said “babe” to baristas and thought it made him charming.

The second time, she was slightly annoyed.

By the fifth, she had moved on to anthropological interest. 

How did he not see the wedding ring? The child’s drawings poking out of her folder? The exhaustion of someone whose idea of a wild Friday night was installing firmware updates for fun?

Today, she arrived two minutes early for her meeting. She’d barely stepped into the department lobby when he spotted her.

“Dr. Green is running a bit late,” Nathan announced, standing up from behind the reception desk like he was emerging for a curtain call. “But I can keep you company if you like.”

Felicity barely paused. “She’s not. She still has 2 minutes till our appointment time.”

He grinned like she’d just flirted back. “You know, I was thinking the other day… you never hang around after your meetings. You always rush off.”

“Yeah,” she said, expression unreadable. “Because I have a toddler. And a dissertation. And a husband. In that order.”

Nathan winced theatrically. “Oof. Brutal.”

She offered him a smile that wasn’t one. “Sorry. Was that too reality-based?”

Still, he pressed on, leaning against the desk like he thought he was on the cover of GQ.

“Still,” he said, “it’d be nice to talk about something other than drivetrain mapping sometime. Maybe grab a drink?”

Felicity blinked. Twice.

It wasn’t the first time he’d suggested it. But somehow, today, it caught her even more off guard.

“You’re asking me,” she said slowly, “a married mother of one, who is actively finishing a thesis and hasn’t eaten a full sit-down meal in two days, to go get drinks with you?”

He laughed, like she was being ridiculous.

“I didn’t think you’d take it that seriously. We could just talk—”

“About what?” she asked, genuinely baffled. “What, precisely, do you think I have in common with a man who once told me Elon Musk was just misunderstood?”

Nathan blinked.

Felicity continued. “Do you want help with your CV? Is this about office gossip? Are you confused and trying to network with me through reverse psychology?”

“I just meant—”

“I’m not trying to be rude,” she said, eyes narrowing in thought. “I genuinely don’t understand what outcome you’re envisioning here. Do you think I’m going to cheat on my husband with the guy who can’t pronounce ‘aerodynamics’ without swallowing the word halfway through?”

He flushed slightly. “You don’t have to be mean.”

“I’m not. I’m being efficient.”

The door to the inner office opened before he could reply. Dr. Green appeared, breathless and balancing two takeaway coffees in one hand and a folder in the other.

“Felicity, I’m so sorry. The grant committee meeting ran over. Here—” She handed over one of the cups. “Decaf oat, right? And I pulled the new journal submissions for you. There are a few I thought might intersect with your secondary chapter on hybrid systems.”

Felicity smiled as she took the coffee. “Thanks. I already reviewed the three most relevant ones and emailed you a summary chart with citations.”

Dr. Green blinked. “Of course you did.”

Nathan blinked, too, but for entirely different reasons. 

Felicity turned back to him just before following her professor inside.

“Oh, and Nathan?”

“…Yes?” he said, still — somehow — hopeful.

She raised her left hand and tapped the wedding band with one finger. “This wasn’t a joke.”

And then she shut the office door behind her like it was a verdict.

The Door Handle Aisle of Homebase, Woking

Oscar was off racing.

Felicity was elbow-deep in a bathroom renovation.

Not the Pinterest kind.

Not the “new towels and scented eucalyptus and a little bamboo ladder for the aesthetic” kind.

No, this was the “rip out the vanity with a crowbar and discover the wall behind it had been sealed with hope and duct tape” kind.

The kind of renovation that required full battle gear: dust mask, gloves, safety goggles, and the controlled fury of a woman who had read the plumbing manual twice and did not need a man explaining pipe fittings to her.

And because she was who she was — stubborn, competent, and wildly intelligent— Felicity hadn’t hired anyone.

She could do it herself.

And she would.

Which meant… many, many trips to the hardware store.

The staff had started to recognise her by mid-April. A couple of them even learned to duck when she walked in, in case she asked for a specific size of tap washer they didn’t carry. But one guy — the guy from the sealant aisle—hadn’t learned that lesson.

Late twenties, overly friendly, perpetually wearing a toolbelt he definitely didn’t need, like he thought it made him look rugged instead of unconvincing. He hovered near the caulk and grout displays like they were a dating pool.

The first time, it was casual.

“You here again?” he’d asked, smiling like he was in a rom-com. “You must really like DIY.”

Felicity didn’t look up from the tile grout chart. “I like doing things properly.”

The second time, it was more confident.

“Doing a kitchen too?” he asked, spotting the tile adhesive in her basket. “You ever need help—”

“I’ve got it, thanks,” she said, already walking toward checkout before he could finish.

By the sixth visit, he had apparently decided they were bonding.

She was in the handles aisle, comparing brass finishes, when she heard him again — that telltale sneaker-squeak on linoleum, the voice turned up a little too loud, too performative.

“Wow,” he said, appearing at the end of the aisle. “If I didn’t know better, I’d say you keep coming in just to see me.”

Felicity didn’t look up. She held one cabinet pull in each hand and considered which one better matched the art deco lines of the mirror she’d thrifted.

“I assure you,” she said, tone even, “my interest in you begins and ends with your stock of brass hinges.”

He laughed, undeterred. “Come on. You’re always here. I figured, maybe you’re one of those cool builder girls. You don’t wear a ring or anything, so…”

That’s what finally made her pause.

Not the tone. Not the implication. But the logic.

She looked at him.

“You think I keep coming in here because… what? I’m lonely?” she asked, brow furrowed in genuine confusion. “I’m literally holding blueprints and a door handle.”

He shrugged. “You just seem like the kind of girl who could use a little—” (God help him) “—company.”

Felicity blinked. She wiped a smudge of pencil from her chin, set the handles back down, and reached into her tote bag without breaking eye contact.

She pulled out her phone.

“I’m going to walk you through something,” she said calmly, unlocking the screen. “Because clearly, you didn’t do any preliminary research before launching this… ill-conceived outreach attempt.”

She turned the lock screen toward him.

A photo.

Felicity, curled up on a sofa in a hoodie. Oscar was beside her, kissing the top of her head. Bee sprawled between them in footie pyjamas, holding a spoon upside down like a trophy. The lighting was soft. Domestic. Unmistakably intimate.

“This,” Felicity said, “is my husband. He is currently in Azerbaijan, driving a car at three hundred miles an hour. That’s our daughter. She is two. I do renovations during naptime.”

The man paled. “Oh. I—uh. I didn’t know—”

“No,” she agreed. “You didn’t ask.”

He opened his mouth like he wanted to say something else — possibly to dig the hole deeper.

But Felicity wasn’t done.

“I come in here to buy tile primer. I don’t come in here for unsolicited analysis of my marital status from men who think a toolbelt is a personality trait.”

Her voice never rose. It didn’t have to.

It was calm. Steady.

The voice of someone who had personally rewired her fuse box and once installed a dishwasher while on the phone and dealing with a crying toddler.

She smiled politely. Dangerously.

Like a woman who kept zip ties in her car and knew how to use them.

“I’ll take these, thanks,” she said, lifting the cabinet handles. “Don’t need help carrying them. But if you’ve got any more of that tile primer from last week in stock, that would be helpful.”

He mumbled something about checking the back and fled like a man pursued by the consequences of his own choices.

Felicity watched him go, then picked up the nicer brass finish.

She didn’t even roll her eyes. She was too tired. 

Felicity just wanted her tile primer and to go home.

***

Rooftop Bar, Melbourne

Felicity didn’t go out much.

Not because she couldn’t — Oscar insisted she take breaks, even booked her massages that she always forgot to attend — but because she liked her life.

She liked being home with Bee. She liked sanding doorframes and painting walls and mapping out the next renovation with a pencil stuck in her messy bun. She liked curling up on the sofa with her laptop, trading stock options at 1 AM. She liked Oscar reading over her shoulder, pointing out line graphs he didn’t understand but wanted to. She liked the steady rhythm of their days. Naptimes and quiet dinners and Bee’s loud commentary on the existence of pigeons.

But they were in Melbourne over the Winter break, and Nicole had insisted.

“You’re getting out of the house,” she’d said, practically pushing Felicity toward the wardrobe. “You’ve been in Australia for five days, and the only places you’ve seen are the beach and Bunnings.”

And so here they were — rooftop bar in Melbourne, warm summer air, glass of chilled white wine in Nicole’s hand and a lemon-lime mocktail in Felicity’s.

 Their dresses fluttered in the breeze; Her hair was up. Her arms were bare. She looked, Nicole thought proudly, like the kind of woman men write songs about.

Which was, unfortunately, the problem.

Because a man at the bar had noticed, too.

He made his way over with the swagger of someone who once played rugby in uni and still referred to it as “his prime.” White linen shirt. Too many rings. Hair with more product than structure. And that thing men did when they leaned on a table like they were presenting a TED Talk on their charm.

“Hope I’m not interrupting,” he said smoothly, eyes only on Felicity.

Nicole didn’t blink. “You are.”

Felicity raised her eyebrows, mildly surprised, but didn’t say anything. She just sipped her drink and let the lime catch on her tongue.

The man chuckled — the low, confident kind that assumed he was being flirted back with.

“I just thought I’d say—you’ve got a great smile,” he continued. Still to Felicity. Still convinced. “You local?”

“No,” she said. “Just visiting.”

He nodded toward Nicole. “With your sister?”

Nicole’s mouth twitched.

Felicity opened her mouth to clarify, but Nicole got there first.

“I’m her mother-in-law,” she said, swirling her wine.

That gave him a moment’s pause. But not enough.

“Well, she’s clearly not married—” he gestured vaguely to Felicity’s left hand, bare in the way most hands are after a morning at the beach with a toddler and too much sunscreen.

Felicity smiled. Slowly. Like a summer storm deciding whether to ruin your picnic or level your whole house.

“I took my rings off before swimming this morning,” she said, amused. “Didn’t want to lose them in the ocean.”

He still didn’t give up. “No offence, but… a girl like you? You don’t need to be tied down so young.”

Felicity furrowed her brow. “What does that mean?”

“I mean, you could have fun. Live a little.”

“I’m married,” she said again, a little slower. “I live a lot.”

“You know what I mean,” he said, grinning.

 She genuinely didn’t understand.

What did he mean by that?

Was she supposed to say thank you? Defend her marriage? 

Debate the merits of early commitment like she was on a panel?

“No,” Felicity replied honestly, “I actually don’t. What exactly do you think is going to happen? I abandon my family because you complimented my teeth?”

She had a three-year-old who could build better arguments about bedtime.

Before Felicity could figure out what to say, Nicole gently set her wine glass down.

“She’s not tied down, darling,” she said, tone perfectly pleasant. “She’s adored.”

She reached into her purse like she was pulling a weapon.

“Would you like to see a photo of her husband holding their daughter on the beach this morning?” she asked. “Or maybe the one where he flew eight hours just to make it to her thesis defence?”

The man’s face did a visible three-second software update.

“No, that’s okay,” he said, already backing up a step.

Nicole raised an eyebrow. “You sure? My son is very photogenic. His job likes to post him shirtless sometimes. It’s a whole thing.”

Felicity had to bite her lip to keep from laughing.

“Right. Uh—have a nice night,” the man muttered, vanishing like a bug under bright light.

+1 — The One Time Oscar Noticed

The garage was buzzing with that high-voltage energy unique to a U.S. race weekend — louder music, brighter cameras, fans pressed against every fence line like they were at a concert instead of a motorsport event. McLaren’s VIP list was stacked with influencers, sponsors, and the usual parade of celebrities trying to look like they knew what a downforce map was.

Oscar didn’t care about any of them.

He cared about the girls in the denim jackets with PIASTRI stitched across the back in big, white glittery letters. Their arts and crafts project for Silverstone.

Felicity was standing near the back of the garage, Bee balanced on her hip, and a pair of toddler-sized headphones slipped over her curls. The two of them had matching jackets, homemade and loud and perfect. Bee’s even had a sparkly iron-on chicken. Felicity’s had glitter stars. Oscar had never seen anything more beautiful in his life.

He was mid-chat with one of the engineers when he glanced over again.

And froze.

Because some guy—tall, tanned, fake-smiling, and clearly trying to look famous—was leaning way too close to Felicity. His teeth were too white. His shirt was unbuttoned halfway down his chest. He held a drink, and worse, he had sunglasses on inside. Oscar didn’t even know where he’d come from — but there he was, leaning against the garage railing like it was a club bar and Felicity was the drink special.

He was saying something. Laughing too loud.

Felicity frowned politely. She shifted a sleeping Bee on her hip and took a half-step back.

The man followed.

“I’m just saying,” he drawled, gesturing to her jacket, “if you’re gonna wear another man’s name on your back, he better be worth it.”

Felicity blinked. “He’s my husband.”

That didn’t deter him.

“Bet he doesn’t even know how good he’s got it,” the man said, still smiling, his gaze dropping briefly to her legs. “You ever get tired of being someone’s plus-one, let me know.”

Bee stirred a little, nose twitching, and Felicity rubbed her back automatically, like muscle memory. Her brow furrowed. “Excuse me?”

The guy tilted his head. “C’mon. You’re clearly the type who plays the sweet wife in public. But a woman like you?” He dropped his voice. “You need real attention.”

Oscar took a step forward, but someone else moved faster.

“Alright,” said a voice, sharp and Australian and impossible to ignore. “Let’s try that again — from six feet away.”

The man turned, surprised, and saw Mark Webber.

Mark didn’t need to raise his voice. His presence alone was enough to freeze a room.

He gave the man a smile that could cut glass. “You’ve got five seconds to back up before I make this very awkward for everyone.”

“Sorry, mate—”

“No, see, that’s the problem,” Mark said, stepping forward slightly. “You’re not her mate. You’re a stranger talking to a woman who’s clearly married, clearly holding a child, and clearly not interested. So unless you’re trying to get blacklisted from every paddock hospitality list from now until eternity, I’d walk away.”

The guy opened his mouth. Closed it. Then turned and slinked off like a coward in designer shoes.

Oscar finally got to them, face tight, fury in every step.

Mark nodded. “Handled.”

Oscar exhaled slowly. “Thanks.”

“No problem.” Mark looked at Felicity. “You alright?”

Felicity still looked baffled. “What was that?”

Oscar looked her over, checking Bee, checking her, like reassurance was the only way to keep his hands from shaking. “That guy was harassing you.”

“What? No. Was he?” She squinted after him. “He was just being weird.”

Oscar stared at her. “He was flirting. Badly.”

“He was being rude,” Felicity said. “And creepy. But flirting? Why would anyone flirt with someone holding a sleeping toddler and wearing a juice-stained T-shirt? Why does this keep happening?!”

Mark rubbed a hand over his face. “You’re wearing a custom denim jacket with your husband’s name on it in glitter. Holding your kid. And you still have men sniffing around. That’s not on you — that’s on them being idiots.”

Oscar exhaled hard. 

Felicity, still gently rocking Bee, just sighed. “Maybe I should just get a flashing neon sign.”

Oscar stepped closer and kissed her temple. “You okay?”

She looked at him, tired but unbothered. “Yeah. Are you?”

“No,” he muttered. “But I will be once I get you both inside.”

***

They were tucked away in the quiet corner of the drivers' room now, post-session, Bee still fast asleep on the little sofa wrapped in one of Oscar’s hoodies. The chaos of the paddock had faded into muffled noise. 

Oscar was sitting across from Felicity, one leg bouncing.

He was still rattled.

“What do you mean they keep flirting with you?” he asked, brows drawn together as he looked at her.

Felicity blinked up at him. “What?”

“You said it like it happens regularly,” he said, voice low and sharp with something he was trying to keep cool. “Like that wasn’t the first time.”

She paused. Shrugged. “I mean… it does? A little?”

Oscar stared at her. “Since when?”

“I don’t know. Since Haileybury, probably? Or Oxford. And, like… in the hardware store.”

Oscar made a noise that might have been a groan or a growl.

“And you didn’t tell me?” he asked.

“I didn’t think it mattered,” she said simply, brushing a hand over Bee’s curls. “They’re not you. So they don’t have a chance.”

He stilled.

That one sentence — calm, sure, like it was the most obvious fact in the world — hit him in the chest like a perfect downshift.

She tilted her head, studying him. “You really didn’t know?”

“I knew people looked,” he admitted. 

Of course, they looked. He was aware of how Felicity looked:  Sunglasses pushed to the top of her head. Hair windswept from the open pit lane. She had juice on her shirt, no makeup, and still — still — she looked like something out of a dream. Breakable and brilliant. All porcelain and fire.

Beautiful. 

“I’m not blind. But I didn’t realise they were… like that.”

“I don’t even get why they are doing it,” Felicity snorted. “I look like someone who hasn’t slept properly since Bee was born. I have crusted juice on my shirt. I literally threw Goldfish crackers at our daughter to buy myself ten minutes.”

Oscar leaned back, exasperated. “And you still look better than anyone else here.”

She narrowed her eyes. “You’re just biased.”

“I’m jealous,” he corrected, then ran a hand through his hair. “God, I hate it. That guy didn’t even flinch when you said you were married.”

“He probably thought I was joking,” she said mildly. “People don’t really expect twenty-somethings to be married with kids.”

Oscar’s jaw tightened. “They should. You wear my name on your back.”

She shrugged. “They don’t matter. You’re the only one I’ve ever wanted.”

Oscar was across the space in a second.

He kissed her — slow, deep, a little desperate — hand sliding around her waist, pulling her in close. His other hand cupped her jaw, thumb brushing her cheek like he had to remind himself she was real.

When he finally pulled back, he rested his forehead against hers, breath shallow.

“You’re mine,” he said, voice low. “I know I don’t own you, but God, I feel it sometimes. Like you’ve always been mine.”

“I have. Since we were 15,” she whispered. “I love you. I’ve always loved you. Even before you had a Wikipedia page.”

Oscar kissed her. Not rushed, not messy — but firm. Grounded. A kiss that said mine. A kiss that would’ve been indecent if she weren’t already wearing his name and carrying his child and his whole damn heart.

When he finally pulled back, she was breathless.

And across the room, Bee stirred, let out a sleepy sigh, and snuggled deeper into Oscar’s hoodie.

Felicity leaned in, kissed the corner of his mouth, and muttered, “You’re ridiculous when you’re jealous.”

He grinned. “You love it.”

“Unfortunately,” she sighed. “Yes.”

[sunlighthroughthe-ashes]

this whole episode; i kept thinking of these lines by cameron awkward-rich: 'please—what’s the word for being born of sorrow that isn’t yours? for having a family? for belonging nowhere?'

families can be zones of so much buried violence: whether it's seokryu's 'eomma' and 'appa' projecting their own life experiences onto their innocent daughter; or seung-hyo's mother accepting the same necklace over and over again; because her son is too distant to even realize that he's giving her identical gifts. their relationship is too impersonal for him to even write anything on her card. episode 8 hurt so much — and it hurt because it's real. this is what families are like: swallowed hurts and silent resentments. pain fisted in your hands like a weapon as you fight to be heard — to be wanted as your own self; and not just a vessel for your parents' unfulfilled aspirations. this is the trauma that tons of us carry.

one of the first things they tell you in therapy if you're not an only child is that you and your sibling do NOT grow up with the same parents. both you and your sibling experience entirely different versions of your parents — because the circumstances which they're in differ so greatly during each of your births and subsequent growths — and it can feel so utterly disheartening and unfair.

seokryu is the standard: the model child; the person her parents pinned all their hopes on. as such; she's never allowed to be anything less than perfect. because he's a boy, because he was sick, because he's younger — dongjin is indulged and pandered to and doted upon — even when he's being irresponsible. all her life seokryu has been side-stepping her own needs and wants; just to keep her parents happy — sinking into her own sacrifice until there was nothing left but burn-out and broken dreams. it shattered my heart to hear her mother say she'd rather have seokryu back in the US and married even if she's unhappy there — because that would mean she would get to boast about her daughter and receive gifts from her. that's not love — that's entitlement.

seung-hyo is the only person who truly loves seokryu for seokryu — for who she truly is, flaws and all: and that makes it doubly hard to witness her keeping him at arm's length at the end of the episode. the way he says that the reason he can't be friends with seokryu isn't because she's a woman, it's because she's seokryu — is so simple and profound. he sees all of her and accepts it — loves it. and that is so, so, rare. the act of true witness is sacred — to be seen as you are is a privilege.

(as far as the sickness storyline goes: i'm afraid to say i saw it coming. i wish the writers were more original; but i don't think seokryu will die. still, it doesn't sit well in my mouth. they could have come up with something better for conflict if they really had to.)

[lunarlianna]

Medusa Asteroid ( 149)

The Medusa myth is a compelling tale encompassing themes of power, fear and transformation. Medusa, born from the sea gods Phorcys and Ceto, was the only mortal among the Gorgon sisters. Originally, Medusa was a stunning maiden who captured the attention of Poseidon, leading to a grievous violation within the sacred confines of Athena's temple. In order to protect her, Athena transformed Medusa's hair into a mass of serpents, bestowing upon her a petrifying gaze. Medusa's astrological connection with the asteroid 149 suggests her influence recurs periodically, like seasons, lasting about 3.2 years. This implies cyclic challenges and growth tied to her themes.

Her family lineage underscores sibling rivalry and a sense of being different. After her transformation, Medusa retreats from the world, which can reflect where we tend to hide. Confronting these hidden truths requires courage and wisdom. Medusa's connection to Athena links her to Jupiterian qualities, offering insights when considering her placement with Jupiter in your chart. Some individuals with a strong Medusa presence may struggle with self-perception, seeing themselves as a metaphorical monster in the mirror. Others may possess an intimidating gaze that isolates them. Medusa's myth explores profound psychological and ethical themes, emphasizing self-awareness, ethical choices, and facing consequences. In astrology, Medusa indicates a swift and forceful defense mechanism to protect oneself, potentially causing tension, wounds, and unjust criticism in specific life areas, ultimately prompting personal growth.

Medusa in the 1st house: can give you a magnetic and intense presence that sometimes triggers negative reactions from strangers. Your hair and eyes, tends to draw attention, potentially making you a target for bullies or disrespectful comments in childhood. You may tend to stay hidden and to hide your body but you always end up being villainized. However, your transformative journey involves transcending these adversities. You rise above others' insecurities and boldly embrace your individuality. Empowering yourself by disregarding hurtful comments, you nurture self-appreciation and self-confidence despite societal pressures to conform.

Medusa in the 2nd house: can make you appear very self-assured and confident but you might find it difficult to see your own self-worth. Your voice may be quite attractive, and you might excel in business or singing. Financial success and possessions could come easily, but you may also face envy for your wealth. You may tend to hide the possession that you have and the inheritance that you received, especially from your husband. However, you can transform from this by maintaining your dignity, adapting to change, and valuing inner beauty over material possessions. Your makeup style may accentuate your allure, but be cautious of attracting unwanted attention in relationships.

Medusa in the 3rd house: may lead to tension with siblings and peers. In early years you may be quite shy and scared to express your opinion. In the neighborhood or with your siblings, things that go wrong might end up being attributed to you. Your social interactions may lead you to encounter individuals who are less than truthful, which can be frustrating. In some cases, people might misunderstand your intentions, labeling you as two-faced or even anti-social, especially if you're more introverted. However, your transformation comes by becoming more confident and setting boundaries, expressing your opinions assertively, and speaking up courageously when needed. Your ability to address uncomfortable truths may inspire others to do the same.

Medusa in the 4th house: can trigger negative reactions from family members. You might inherit certain challenging behaviors from an older relative and sense negative energy at home, possibly due to constant parental arguments. The them around you home can be quite unconventional, have an edgy look with marine and blue vibes to it. Your strong self-awareness and purposefulness can make it difficult for others to deceive or influence you. You've learned to establish your inner sanctuary, and you're protective of your emotions, possibly due to early criticism from a family member. This can lead to a desire for control and a slow transition when getting out of your comfort zone around others.

Medusa in the 5th house: with this placement people may envy or have hidden agendas, especially when you express your full self. You may tend to hide your art work and your creative endeavors, especially when younger. A lack of desire for children may bring you rumors, criticize and scandals. You're often villainized for outgrowing relationships and embracing change. There's a remarkable ability to protect your passions with unwavering determination, refusing to succumb to societal pressures or stifling expectations. In your life, you may attract partners with abusive tendencies and face misunderstandings due to your sincere kindness.

Medusa in the 6th house: people may envy your disciplined approach to daily life and work. In early years you might have encountered challenges with schoolmates and later, colleagues at work, a consistent inclination toward people-pleasing is noticeable. You've transformed from a people-pleaser to someone who values personal freedom and control. You're protective of your routines and may confront those who disrupt them, also you may like to adopt unusual pets and are very protective over them. You maintain a keen sense of discernment, especially regarding manipulative individuals, particularly men.

Medusa in the 7th house: your relationships may have faced challenges, and you could have experienced envy from others. People might see you as the peacemaker, but when you rebel, you face criticism. Controlling dynamics may have been part of your past relationships, and you may have experienced manipulation or guilt-tripping. People may envy your romantic connections, and sabotage could taint your relationships. You're villainized for not conforming to a one-dimensional image, for having your own vulnerabilities and complexities. To transform, reevaluate your role in relationships, recognize that you're not solely a caretaker, and insist on mutual partnership and empathy from others.

Medusa in the 8th house:  with this placement, you may encounter challenges in your intimate life due to being oversexualized. Loved ones might underestimate your pain, assuming you're always strong. Expressing yourself is often met with dismissal or minimization of your trauma. Your interactions can be intense and alluring, sometimes leading to obsessions, especially in intimate relationships. You tend to attract controlling individuals and even stalkers, people that usually want to know all your secrets. Some may envy your constant transformation, which can lead to competition or backbiting. Transformation comes for owning your sexuality and being in control of your finances. Remember, your personal growth is something to be proud of, despite others' negativity.

Medusa in the 9th house: your profound wisdom and exceptional intelligence often set you apart. While your deep knowledge and unique beliefs may not always find immediate acceptance, they are a testament to your unwavering commitment to your values. You naturally challenge cultural and religious norms; your spiritual journey is highly transformative and you usually hide your spiritual beliefs. It's important to recognize that your wisdom and spiritual insights have the potential to inspire and enlighten others, even when they struggle to fully comprehend your perspective.

Medusa in the 10th house: can create a unique journey in your work environment, where you might unknowingly trigger feelings of jealousy and face unkind energies from others. Your public image tends to be captivating, but this can occasionally result in clashes with government or legal matters. Challenges in your career and with authority figures are not uncommon with this placement, as there may have been expectations from your father for you to follow in his footsteps. As you age, you're likely to discover a growing sense of personal power and influence. It's important to recognize that these experiences have shaped you, and they offer opportunities for personal growth and transformation.

Medusa in the 11th house: you might keep your dreams and ambitions hidden because of the jealousy and envy you witnessed from your friends during your early years. Your upbringing might have exposed you to less-than-ideal community conditions, which may have led to toxic friendships and betrayals from people you considered friends. However, you do have genuine friends who share interests in astrology, spirituality, or religion with you, and these connections are meaningful. People might judge you or be envious, but this likely stems from their own insecurities. You're resilient and have the potential to make a positive impact on your community and the world in your own unique way.

Medusa in the 12th house: you might have experienced a pattern of encountering hidden adversaries in your life, which could be tied to karmic elements. This placement could also suggest a tendency to turn to intoxicants, like alcohol, which might symbolize a form of personal poison. Many with this placement may feel a strong bond with water elements, often expressing it through tattoos or jewelry featuring water symbols, seashells, or even snakes. Vivid snake dreams can serve as cautionary messages, urging vigilance against hidden adversaries. Your spiritual pursuits might be perceived as disruptive to community and family norms, causing some to view you as a threat due to your ability to see through deception when others can't.  Balancing vulnerability, self-protection, skepticism, and warmth highlights the need for compassion when confronting hidden traumas and fears in this placement.

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𝒌𝒊𝒔𝒎𝒆𝒕 for 49 € (originally for 55 €)

in this tarot reading, we will embark on an in-depth exploration of both you and your future spouse’s character and personality, delving into the intricacies of your respective psychological makeups, temperaments and inner worlds. we will then examine the admirable strengths and inevitable shortcomings each of you brings into the connection - the proverbial pros and cons. then we will also get into the emotional texture of what it truly means to be close to either of you. this reading will illuminate the unique energies and offerings that you will reserve solely for one another - those intangible, sacred parts of yourselves that no one else will ever be granted access to. we will also uncover the specific traits, quirks and qualities you will each find irresistibly attractive, compelling and deeply cherish in the other, creating a bond that is not only romantic but profoundly intimate and singular in its design.

𝒅𝒐𝒄𝒆𝒖𝒓 for 130 € (originally for 150 €)

in this deeply moving and evocative tarot reading, the seeker's future spouse will be unveiled to them in all their resplendent glory. the reading shall span across three sections, beginning with the physical appearance of the partner then progressing into more profound layers of the individual. this section will include their physical appearance, the details of your first meeting, initial impression of each other, character, personality traits, values and principles, emotional maturity, love language, communication style, family background, relationship with parents, baggage from their past, friendship circle, hobbies and interests, travel preferences, conflict resolution style and children/parenting views. in this section, we will also take a look at the physical affection & chemistry between the both of you, and their daily lifestyle and habits, health and fitness, personal goals and dreams. how they’ll support you, their expression of jealousy and possessiveness, shared life vision, timing of meeting and marriage, challenges in the relationship, and divine and spiritual lessons. the second section delves further into the psyche and soul of your future spouse. this section includes their subconscious patterns, hidden talents, healing journey, soul purpose, shadow side, attachment style, inner child wounds, dreams and fears, role in your soul evolution, and level of emotional intelligence. in the third section, the relationship dynamics and the profound milestones shared together shall be explored. we will dive into the relationship evolution over time, first major milestone, public vs private relationship, love story theme, core strength of the relationship, tests and trials, emotional safe space, love rituals, conflict patterns and the ways in which they’ll surprise you. section four, conversely, delves into the spiritual union of your souls, delving into the marital contract, joint mission and how the two of you shall navigate aging together. we will look into your marriage contract energy, joint mission or legacy, home and domestic life, financial partnership, spiritual growth together, how you handle aging together, anniversary celebrations, power couple potential and how the world sees your marriage.

𝒄𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒊𝒆 for 44 € (originally for 50 €)

an extremely in-depth future spouse reading which includes their appearance, style, character, personality, mental well-being, interests and hobbies, shadow aspects, energy, love languages, trope, background, meeting them for the first time, first impressions. here, we'll also take a look at why you'll fall in love with them and the other way around, followed by your individual journeys to each other. we'll take a really deep dive into the spiritual aspect of your connection, how you'll connect on a soul level, why the both of you will meet and end up together. then finally to conclude the reading, we'll look at your marriage through the years and general messages about you as a couple!

𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒖𝒍 𝒂𝒍𝒄𝒉𝒆𝒎𝒚 for 29 € (originally for 35 €)

an extremely in-depth future spouse reading which includes their appearance, style, character, personality, mental well-being, interests and hobbies, shadow aspects, energy, love languages, trope, background, meeting them for the first time, first impressions and general messages about you as a couple!

𝒂𝒑𝒉𝒓𝒐𝒅𝒊𝒕𝒆'𝒔 𝒐𝒚𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒓 for 45 € (originally for 49 €)

all the sections from 'the soul alchemy' package, some messages from the universe regarding your love life, advice that can help you attract love into your life, a walk through your first love/heartbreak, messages from your ideal person and a peek at why people fall in love with you + who crushes on you!

𝒄𝒐𝒆𝒖𝒓 𝒅𝒆 𝒃𝒐𝒏𝒃𝒐𝒏𝒔 for 40 € (originally for 45 €)

in this profound tarot spread, we will embark on a poetic journey through the stages of your connection with your future spouse. to start, we will unveil the sweet aspects of your bond - the moments that will bring you ease and comfort, like a delightful dessert that melts on your palate. then, we will navigate the challenging aspects - the parts that may bring a hint of bitterness or sourness, like a tart that tests your resolve. we will then pinpoint the taste bud - the particular aspect of your connection that will capture your attention, the flavor that will linger on your tongue, the particular aspects of your connection that you will be most keenly aware of, the element that will be most prominent in your mind and heart. to conclude, we will focus our attention on the digestive aspect of your connection with your future spouse - the part that, although not immediately apparent, will have a lasting impact over time. this element may unfold gradually, taking its time to reveal its significance, similar to how a complex dish affects your system in ways that might not be immediately obvious. it will be an aspect of your connection that will require patience and keen observation to recognize its influence and importance.

𝒇𝒓𝒊𝒔𝒔𝒐𝒏 for 70 € (originally for 80 €)

in this enthralling journey into the mysteries of your romantic destiny, we will embark upon a journey to discover the most delightful and pleasurable aspects of your connection with your future spouse. through the artful interpretation of the cards, we shall delve deep into the emotional, spiritual and physical dimensions of your bond. from the attraction and physical affection, to the shared life vision and mutual support, we will explore it all, unveiling the most joyous and satisfying elements of your love story. first we will look into the emotional aspect of your coupling. we will look into how you two bring out the best in each other emotionally, what the most comforting aspect of your emotional connection is, how you express love and care without words, we will then take it up a few notches and look at what shared emotions will make your bond feel unbreakable, how you’ll handle emotional ups and downs together, how your emotional connection enhances the way you both grow and what emotional triggers create deeper intimacy between you. then, we will delve into how you make each other feel understood and validated, in what ways do you both nurture each other’s emotional needs and what makes you feel the safest emotionally in the relationship. then moving onto the physical aspect of the connection, we take a look into how physical touch expresses your love for each other in the relationship, what the most pleasurable way you two physically connect is, what about each other sparks a deep, passionate desire and how you make each other feel sexy and desirable. we’ll also read into what physical gestures you both enjoy the most (hugs, kisses, cuddles), things will heat up a bit as we look into how you make intimacy feel sacred and loving, and what your favorite way to spend quiet, intimate moments together will be, we will also delve into how physical chemistry ignites your emotional connection and how you find joy, and pleasure in simple physical closeness. we’ll then look into how you both bring humour, playfulness and fun into the relationship, and what inside jokes will make you both laugh uncontrollably. we’ll that a look at what your favorite way to share light-hearted moments together is, how humour helps you navigate challenges in the relationship, what funny quirks will you love about each other and how laughter will help you bond deeply. this section will look into what moments together make you both feel carefree and playful, how you encourage each other to not take life too seriously, how you both find joy in the mundane parts of life, so on and so forth. then we will look at the beauty of the connection itself. how it is a pleasure to simply just be with each other. this includes. how you make each other feel deeply cared for, what ways will you provide emotional support in times of need, how will you both inspire and encourage each other to be better versions of yourselves, and in what ways will you both help each other achieve your personal goals. how will you show your appreciation for one another in subtle ways? what gestures will make you both feel truly supported and seen? how do you help each other through stressful or difficult moments? what mutual support system do you create in your relationship? how do you both create a safe space for each other to be vulnerable? simply just how you both make each other feel respected and valued in every moment, and experience pleasure in the connection and all of it.

𝒅𝒐𝒖𝒄𝒆 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆𝒏 for 65 € (originally for 75 €)

in this tarot reading, we will delve into the rich tapestry of your domestic life with your future spouse, painting a vivid picture of the shared home and heart you will create together. we shall begin by uncovering the emotional dynamics that breathe life into your partnership. how do you both express your emotions within the sanctuary of your home? we will explore the balance of emotional support and understanding, highlighting moments of harmony as well as potential areas where conflicts may arise. from there, we will step into the rhythm of your daily life, examining the dance of shared duties and responsibilities. how will the two of you divide the tasks that keep your household thriving? we will look at the routines that shape your days, seeing how they strengthen the bond between you, while also noting any compatibility or contrasts in lifestyle preferences. next, we will turn to the finer details of your communication. how do you navigate everyday matters together? we will explore how you approach disagreements, your capacity to resolve conflicts and the transparency that threads through your relationship. this reading will also include how you both manage financial matters and how love and intimacy bloom in the quiet, and loud moments of daily life. how do you preserve passion and affection over time, cherishing the sweet exchanges of meaningful words and tender gestures? we will then venture into your family dynamics: your interaction with extended family, boundaries with in-laws and the possibility of children, exploring parenting styles if applicable. what sort of home will you craft together? we will look at its atmosphere, aesthetic and how each of you contributes to creating a sanctuary of safety and joy. we will end with the traditions you may build, the depth of your soul connection, and the joy you find in shared and solitary moments. together, we’ll uncover how you relax, unwind, and keep the spark of fun and love alive in your shared life.

𝒍𝒂 𝒗𝒊𝒆 𝒆𝒏 𝒓𝒐𝒔𝒆 for 29 € (originally for 35 €)

in this tarot reading, we shall delve into the tapestry of love yet to unfold. together, we will explore the enchanting qualities that make your future spouse so captivating in your eyes - their energy that will draw you near initially and the traits or even just their mere essence that will begin fascinating you in the early stages and will continue fascinating you years into your union. we will unveil the traits you will cherish most deeply about them, the ones that will make your heart race with admiration. then, we shall turn the mirror gently toward you, revealing the radiance of your current most alluring attributes and the charm that will captivate your future spouse, looking at what they’ll find to be irresistible about you. this journey will offer a glimpse into the magnetic dance of your connection - a celebration of love, beauty, mutual attraction, and admiration.

𝒆𝒕𝒐𝒊𝒍𝒆𝒔 for 29 € (originally for 35 €)

in this tarot reading, I'll predict the things that your future spouse will do in order to win your heart, the thoughts and feelings that'll flood through their mind when they'll look at you and the other way around, and also into how you'll view each other. we'll look at their life story to figure out why they will be the way that they are when you'll meet them. we'll also take a look at how they'll describe you to their friends and family. we'll look into why they'll admire you and why they'll choose you. how they'll act in front of you vs in front of others.

𝒇𝒂𝒊𝒓𝒆 𝒍'𝒂𝒎𝒐𝒖𝒓 for 34 € (originally for 40 €)

in this exploration of the arcane, we shall embark upon an illuminating journey of destiny, as we unveil your future spouse's perception of your allure. further, we shall venture into the uncharted territories of your intimate connection, encompassing the inaugural union of your bodies, the peculiarities of your partner's sexual proclivities, and the myriad methods by which they shall leave you consumed with desire. now, allow the occult to unveil the seductive secrets of your impending relationship

𝒍𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒔𝒔𝒂'𝒔 𝒕𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒔 for 42 € (originally for 47 €)

most of our lives are spent by trying to understand ourselves, realizing that we aren't as evolved as we thought we were, self loath, pity and misunderstandings are a very common theme when it comes to ourselves. by purchasing this option, you will receive messages from both your inner child and future self, guidance on your path and some advice for self love, why people feel grateful to have you in their lives, the way you touch their hearts and alter their lives, a small reading that brings out your inner magic and information on how to become your best version and traits that you need to face and should work on.

𝒋’𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒓𝒆 for 70 € (originally for 80 €)

this reading is a deeper version of the ‘larissa’s tears’. we will proceed to look into your current path and energy, looking at where you stand, the unseen forces around you, the blocks and doubts you’re carrying, your greatest strength right now, and the next best step forward. we will then look at what you’re still learning how to love about yourself and a wound that you’ve been carrying silently. we will then look at the qualities in you that others admire but you undervalue and receive guidance as to how you can show yourself more compassion. we will delve into what you need to release in order to heal deeper and what your heart needs right now. even the messages that you’ll receive from your inner child is going to be in depth, we will look at what they want you to remember, a gift that you had then that still lives within you, how they felt growing up that needs validation now and how you can reconnect with them. in regard to your future self, we are going to look at what they want you to know about the journey, what they’re proud you’ve overcome, a secret they hold about your fulfilment and what they want you to keep believing in. we will then proceed to look at how you can stay aligned to your soul’s path and what will unfold if you follow this guidance. then we’ll proceed to look into the presence that you radiate. we will look into the energy that people feel when you enter the room, the first impression that you tend to leave behind, the deeper impression that lingers after they truly get to know you, a quality in you that makes others feel emotionally safe, how your presence lifts heavy hearts and the kind of space that you hold for others. we will then move onto what the gratitude that they feel towards you, in this part, we will look into what people admire most deeply about you, a time that you changed someone’s perspective without trying, a way you helped someone believe in themselves again, how you remind others of what kindness and love feels like, a subtle gift you give that people remember forever and what people wish they could thank you for. we will look into how you touch their hearts, how your words affect them, how your silence comforts them, how you handle others’ vulnerabilities with grace and the emotional impact that you tend to leave behind. we will then look at how you touched someone soul to soul unknowingly. then we’ll delve into how you alter their lives, starting with a lesson that people learn through knowing you. in this section, we will look at how you help others become better versions of themselves and what you inspire in them long after you’re gone. we will end this section by tapping into the legacy that you’re building for yourself. to conclude this reading, we will delve into what makes your soul unforgettable through and through.

𝒆𝒗𝒂𝒏 for 29 € (originally for 35 €)

this tarot reading will aim to unveil the deepest calling of your soul, that which is etched into the very fabric of your being. we will explore how you are currently responding to this calling and delve into any obstacles or blocks preventing you from fully embracing it. in this illuminating process, we will also discuss strategies and tools to overcome these barriers and discover how you can honour your soul’s purpose in the present moment. lastly, we will tap into the wisdom of your spirit guides and the cosmos, drawing on their loving guidance and messages to offer you clarity and encouragement

𝒍𝒖𝒏𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒆 for 29 € (originally for 35 €)

this tarot reading is going to flatter you a great deal! let us take a look at the type of beauty you possess and what features stand out the most to others. we shall delve into the types of compliments people make about you when you're not around and how your beauty affects your life. additionally, we shall take a look at who is crushing on you at present and the reasons why. we shall also assess what makes you so irresistible and captivating, so prepare for a bit of self-praise and fawning in this reading!

𝒄𝒍𝒂𝒊𝒓 𝒅𝒆 𝒍𝒖𝒏𝒆 for 44 € (originally for 50 €)

this tarot reading will delve deep into what remains mysterious and unknown about you to others and even to yourself. we shall explore what secrets are kept from you and what you should keep hidden from others. we shall also take a glimpse at the shadow, the darker side of your character and psyche that remains hidden and repressed. this will be a dark and mysterious spread, revealing the hidden facets of your being and exposing those shadows we'd rather not confront. we shall also peel away the layers of the past and explore the hidden admiration of those who dislike you without reason or explanation. we will start by looking into what is hidden from you by first looking at what you repress, a strength or talent that you can’t discovered yet, a fear disguised as logic, an inner wound shaping your choices, a hidden emotional pattern and a truth about yourself you’re afraid to know. then we will move onto what others hide from you, in this section we will look into what someone close knows but won’t say, what your enemies secretly think of you, what you’re blind to in social environments and a truth that someone is actively keeping from you. then we will look at what you should keep hidden i.e. a truth that you should protect and what to guard to keep your power. we will also look at what others envy about you. then, onto your shadow self, we will look into your most repressed traits, how your shadow shows up in relationships be it platonic, familial or romantic, how it affects your goals and decisions, the consequences of ignoring it and how to work with it rather than against it. then to conclude your reading, we will look at how others perceive your darkness and how your mysterious side affects how others treat you. what do you say? will you embark on this journey with me?

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a phenomenon cannot be put into words, it just is, it just happens. delving into the essence of your magnetic allure, we shall explore the inherent qualities that effortlessly draw others toward you. we will discover the environments where you flourish and thrive the most, examining the unique beauty that emanates from your very being, belonging solely to you. by simply being you, how do you enrich and beautify the world around you? through the revelations of the tarot, we will unravel the captivating qualities that set you apart and make you an awe inspiring phenomenon for those who cross your path because you cannot be put into words, you just happened, you just are. the only thing that can’t be denied is your breathtaking and once in a lifetime existence but i’ll do my best to channel your divinity. by channelling your simple existence into words that will likely still fail to deliver your glory. we will look into your irreplaceable essence, the core frequency that you emanate, the energetic signature that people feel from your presence, what sets you apart from every other soul, the beauty that exists in your silence, the message that your aura sends before you even speak, the soul element within you that feels otherworldly and what you unknowingly teach others by simply just existing. we will dive deep into your allure, by looking at your natural magnetism i.e. what others always feel but can’t name, the kind of eyes others see you through when they’re captivated, the first thing people subconsciously associate with you, the impact of your presence and how you leave people different after encountering you. furthermore, we will perceive your beauty as perceived through the soul, the aesthetic or style that you naturally embody, the unique trait only people who truly know you can appreciate, your most underrated gifts and your light in the dark places. we will look at the magic that others may try to replicate but never can. we will also tap into where you thrive and radiate the most, looking at the physical environments where your energy flourishes, the emotional environments where you feel the most free, the social settings where you shine the brightest, the kind of people who amplify your soul, the inner state that unlocks your highest power and the divine space in which your essence meets its full potential. then, we will look at your effect on the world, what beauty do you add to the collective, the hearts that you unknowingly heal, how your presence shifts a space without trying, how the world changes because you are in it and what people carry from you long after you’re gone. to conclude the reading, we will look at the mystery that you are that no one will ever be able to name and your once-in-a-lifetime energy, this section includes what others find unfathomable about you, the part of you that even you don’t fully understand, a piece of you that is sacred and untouchable, the karmic or divine role that your existence fulfills, what you bring into the world by simply just being, the version of love that you inspire in others, the traits that you naturally carry that are difficult to find in this world that fuels your divinity, the blessing people receive from simply just knowing you, the type of awe that you awaken in quiet hearts, the emotional truth that you represent and the soul legacy that you’re here to leave behind - the phenomenon that you are.

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Hiranyagarbha - Golden Egg Talon Abraxas The Hiranyagarbha Sukta: The Golden Seed of Creation and Cosmic Order

In Hindu Vedic cosmology, Hiranyagarbha metaphorically represents the universe's creation, symbolized by a "Golden Womb" or "Golden Egg." The Vedas, including the Rigveda, explicitly states that it is all creation's origin. Hiranyagarbha is depicted as a celestial ovum from which the entirety of the universe and all living entities originate. It represents the fundamental substance and sacred origin from which the universe arises. The notion highlights the recurring pattern of the universe, which encompasses the processes of creation, preservation, and dissolution.

The Hiranyagarbha Sukta is a hymn from the Rigveda (RV 10.121) that poetically describes the universe's origin through the concept of the Hiranyagarbha, or "Golden Womb." It provides a metaphysical framework for understanding the creation of the cosmos from a Hindu perspective. Here's a brief explanation of Hiranyagarbha Sukta: The Golden Seed of Creation Understanding the Universe's Beginning

The Hiranyagarbha Sukta uses symbolic and poetic language to describe the origin of the universe, focusing on the following themes:

Unity and Origin: The universe is born from a single, unified source, represented by the golden egg. This symbolizes the potential and the seed of all existence.

Divine Creation: The creation process is not random but guided by divine intelligence, embodying creation and sustenance.

Cosmic Order: Hiranyagarbha is seen as the maintainer of cosmic order, emphasizing the interconnectedness and interdependence of all beings

Significance and Themes

Primordial Creation

The Hiranyagarbha Sukta presents a vision of the universe from a singular, divine source—the golden egg or womb. This concept emphasizes the unity and interconnectedness of all existence.

Divine Authority

Hiranyagarbha is not just the creator but also the sustainer and governor of the cosmos. This highlights the belief in a divine order and authority that permeates the universe, ensuring its balance and harmony.

Cyclical Nature of Time

The golden egg imagery suggests creation, preservation, and dissolution cycles, reflecting the cyclical nature of time and existence in Hindu cosmology.

Symbolism and Metaphor

The hymn's rich symbolism and metaphor allow for a deeper, contemplative understanding of the universe's origins, blending the physical and the metaphysical.

The Hiranyagarbha Sukta offers a profound and eloquent account of the universe's genesis, firmly grounded in Hinduism's profound spiritual and philosophical traditions. The depiction illustrates the cosmos originating from a celestial, gilded womb, highlighting the concepts of oneness, divine supremacy, and the recurring pattern of creation. The hymn ponders the interdependence of all things and the divine powers that uphold them. Verse 1: The Emergence of the Golden Seed (Hiranyagarbha)

hi̠ra̠ṇya̠ga̠rbha-ssama̍varta̠tāgrē̍ bhū̠tasya̍ jā̠taḥ pati̠rēka̍ āsīt ।

sa dā̍dhāra pṛthi̠vī-ndyāmu̠tēmā-ṅkasmai̍ dē̠vāya̍ ha̠viṣā̍ vidhēma ॥ 1

"In the beginning arose the golden seed (Hiranyagarbha); born, he was the sole lord of every creature. He upheld this earth and heaven. Which Lord shall we worship with the offering?"

Hiranyagarbha, the golden seed, is the primordial entity that emerged at the start of creation. This verse highlights his role as the creator and sustainer of the universe. He is recognized as the lord of all beings and upholds the earth and the heavens. The rhetorical question "Which god shall we worship with offering?" implies that no other god is as worthy of worship as Hiranyagarbha.

Verse 2: Bestower of Life and Strength

ya ā̍tma̠dā ba̍la̠dā yasya̠ viśva̍ u̠pāsa̍tē pra̠śiṣa̠ṃ yasya̍ dē̠vāḥ ।

yasya̍ Chā̠yāmṛta̠ṃ yasya̍ mṛ̠tyuḥ kasmai̍ dē̠vāya̍ ha̠viṣā̍ vidhēma ॥ 2

"He bestows the soul force and vigour upon his call, and all, even gods, approach. His shadow is immortality; death is also his shadow. Which Lord shall we worship with the offering?"

Hiranyagarbha is the giver of life force (atmada) and strength (balada). All beings, including the gods, revere and approach him. He embodies the dual aspects of existence: immortality and death. This verse emphasizes his supreme power and the essential nature of his being, suggesting that he is the ultimate deity worthy of worship.

Verse 3: Sovereign Ruler of All Beings

yaḥ prā̍ṇa̠tō ni̍miṣa̠tō ma̍hi̠tvaika̠ idrājā̠ jaga̍tō ba̠bhūva̍ ।

ya īśē̍ a̠sya dvi̠pada̠śchatu̍ṣpada̠ḥ kasmai̍ dē̠vāya̍ ha̠viṣā̍ vidhēma ॥ 3

"In this Universe, he by his greatness becomes the sole king of the breathing and seeing. He is the lord of all beings with two states and four. Which Lord shall we worship with the offering?"

Hiranyagarbha is portrayed as the sovereign ruler of all living beings, those who breathe and see. He governs all creatures, both bipeds (humans) and quadrupeds (animals). His greatness makes him the sole king of the universe. This verse underscores his omnipotence and the universal scope of his rule, reinforcing that he is the only deity worthy of worship with offerings.

Verse 4: Creator of Mountains and Oceans

yasyē̠mē hi̠mava̍ntō mahi̠tvā yasya̍ samu̠draṃ ra̠sayā̍ sa̠hāhuḥ ।

yasyē̠māḥ pra̠diśō̠ yasya̍ bā̠hū kasmai̍ dē̠vāya̍ ha̠viṣā̍ vidhēma ॥ 4

"These snowy mountains arose through his greatness. They call the oceans and their essence as his. These quarters are his arms. Which Lord shall we worship with the offering?"

This verse emphasizes the vastness and power of Hiranyagarbha, whose greatness manifests in the creation of snowy mountains and oceans. The quarters or directions are metaphorically described as his arms, indicating his omnipresence and control over all regions of the earth.

Verse 5: Supporter of Heaven and Earth

yēna̠ dyauru̠grā pṛ̍thi̠vī cha̍ dṛ̠ḻhā yēna̠ sva̍-sstabhi̠taṃ yēna̠ nāka̍ḥ ।

yō a̠ntari̍kṣē̠ raja̍sō vi̠māna̠ḥ kasmai̍ dē̠vāya̍ ha̠viṣā̍ vidhēma ॥ 5

"Through him heaven is forceful and earth firm; He supported the world of Light (svah) and heaven (naka). He is the measurer of the region of the midworld. Which Lord shall we worship with the offering?"

Hiranyagarbha is the force that strengthens the heavens and stabilizes the earth. He upholds the world of light and the higher heavens, acting as the measurer and regulator of the cosmic regions. This verse highlights his crucial role in maintaining cosmic order.

Verse 6: Stabilizer of the Universe

ya-ṅkranda̍sī̠ ava̍sā tastabhā̠nē a̠bhyaikṣē̍tā̠-mmana̍sā̠ rēja̍mānē ।

yatrādhi̠ sūra̠ udi̍tō vi̠bhāti̠ kasmai̍ dē̠vāya̍ ha̠viṣā̍ vidhēma ॥ 6

"He who propped up the heavens and the earth, beholding them with his mind as they trembled. Where the risen sun brightly shines, which Lord shall we worship with offering?"

This verse portrays Hiranyagarbha as the supporter of the heavens and the earth, stabilizing them with his power. His gaze encompasses the entire universe, and the sun's rising symbolizes his sustaining energy and presence. It again poses the rhetorical question of which deity deserves worship.

Verse 7: Progenitor of Agni and Divine Life

āpō̍ ha̠ yadbṛ̍ha̠tīrviśva̠māya̠-ngarbha̠-ndadhā̍nā ja̠naya̍ntīra̠gnim ।

tatō̍ dē̠vānā̠ṃ sama̍varta̠tāsu̠rēka̠ḥ kasmai̍ dē̠vāya̍ ha̠viṣā̍ vidhēma ॥ 7

"When the mighty Waters enveloped the universe, bearing the child in birth and gave birth to Agni, then (Prajapati), the sole breath of the Gods, arose. Which Lord shall we worship with the offering?"

In the primordial waters, Hiranyagarbha bore and gave birth to Agni, the fire god. This event marks Prajapati's emergence, the gods' sole breath, signifying the origin of divine life. The verse underscores his role as the creator and sustainer of the divine and natural orders.

Verse 8: Creator of Sacrifice and Supreme God

yaśchi̠dāpō̍ mahi̠nā pa̠ryapa̍śya̠ddakṣa̠-ndadhā̍nā ja̠naya̍ntīrya̠jñam ।

yō dē̠vēṣvidhi̍ dē̠va ēka̠ āsī̠tkasmai̍ dē̠vāya̍ ha̠viṣā̍ vidhēma ॥ 8

"He in his might beheld energies (waters), bearing discernment and gave birth to Yajna. He was the sole God above all the Gods. Which God shall we worship with the offering?"

Hiranyagarbha might perceive the waters' energies, giving rise to discernment and Yajna (sacrifice). He is recognized as the supreme god above all others, highlighting his singular divinity and role in the inception of sacrificial (Yajna) rituals, a cornerstone of Vedic worship.

Verse 9: Protector and Creator of Heaven and Earth

mā nō̍ hiṃsījjani̠tā yaḥ pṛ̍thi̠vyā yō vā̠ diva̍ṃ sa̠tyadha̍rmā ja̠jāna̍ ।

yaśchā̠paścha̠ndrā bṛ̍ha̠tīrja̠jāna̠ kasmai̍ dē̠vāya̍ ha̠viṣā̍ vidhēma ॥ 9

"May he who is the father of earth protect us. He created heaven, and his law of being is Truth. He created the great, delightful Waters. Which god shall we worship with the offering?"

The hymn seeks protection from Hiranyagarbha, acknowledging him as the earth's father and heaven's creator. His being is rooted in truth, and he is the creator of the great and delightful waters. This verse emphasizes his role as the universe's protector and foundational force.

Verse 10: Prajapati: The Supreme Creator and Fulfillment of Desires

prajā̍patē̠ na tvadē̠tānya̠nyō viśvā̍ jā̠tāni̠ pari̠ tā ba̍bhūva ।

yatkā̍māstē juhu̠mastannō̍ astu va̠yaṃ syā̍ma̠ pata̍yō rayī̠ṇām ॥ 10

"O Prajapati, none other than you has given existence to all these beings. That object of our desires for which we call you may be ours. May we become the masters of felicities?"

Hiranyagarbha is addressed as Prajapati, the lord of all creatures, who alone has brought all beings into existence. The verse is a prayer for the fulfilment of desires and for attaining prosperity and happiness through his blessings. It acknowledges his unique role as the creator and sustainer of all life.

The Hiranyagarbha Sukta extols the cosmic golden seed as the source and sustainer of the universe, seeking his favour and blessings through reverent hymns and offerings. The verses highlight his paramount importance in creation, his role as the life-giver, and his control over all aspects of existence, culminating in a prayer for protection, fulfilment of desires, and prosperity.

The Hiranyagarbha Sukta provides a rich and poetic depiction of the universe's creation from the Hindu cosmology perspective. Each verse emphasizes Hiranyagarbha's role as the cosmos' supreme creator, sustainer, and ruler. Through symbolic language and profound metaphors, the hymn captures the essence of the divine origin and ongoing maintenance of the universe, reflecting the profound spiritual insights of the Vedic tradition.

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A Shamanic Perspective on Christmas

The holiday season, particularly Christmas, is often marked by an explosion of lights, gift-giving, festive meals, and heartwarming tales of togetherness. Yet beneath its modern trappings lies a profound spiritual essence that echoes the cycles of nature, the power of community, and the mysteries of the cosmos. From a shamanic perspective, Christmas can be viewed as an opportunity to honor the interconnectedness of life, the sacredness of light amid darkness, and the renewal of spirit.

The Winter Solstice: The Shamanic Origin of the Season

Before the Christianization of Europe, midwinter celebrations were deeply rooted in indigenous, earth-centered traditions. Many of these observances revolved around the winter solstice, the shortest day and longest night of the year. Shamanic cultures viewed this turning point as a sacred time when the Sun, symbolic of life and spirit, was reborn.

The solstice signifies the return of light, a moment of renewal and hope when the darkness of the year begins to recede. In shamanic practice, this event is a time for introspection and connection with the unseen forces that govern the cycles of life. Just as the Earth enters a period of stillness and regeneration, so too are individuals encouraged to journey inward, shedding the past year's burdens and planting seeds of intention for the coming one.

The themes of rebirth and illumination align beautifully with the Christian narrative of Christmas, particularly the birth of Christ, often depicted as the "light of the world." From a shamanic perspective, this light represents not only a divine presence but also the inherent light within every being--a reminder of our connection to the cosmos and each other.

The Tree of Life and the Symbolism of Evergreens

The Christmas tree, an iconic symbol of the season, has its roots in ancient shamanic traditions. Evergreen trees, which remain vibrant and alive even in the harshest winters, were revered as symbols of resilience, eternal life, and the continuity of existence.

For shamans, trees are sacred beings that connect the heavens, the Earth, and the underworld. Their roots delve deep into the soil, their trunks stand steadfast in the present, and their branches reach toward the sky. Decorating a tree during Christmas can be seen as a modern echo of this ancient reverence. The ornaments and lights represent the gifts of spirit and the illumination of consciousness, a reminder to celebrate life's beauty and mystery.

In a shamanic practice, you might sit with your tree and meditate on its energy. Consider what wisdom it has to offer about standing tall through adversity or offering shade and shelter to others. The tree, like humanity, exists in a delicate balance with its surroundings, embodying the interdependence of all living things.

The Spirit of Giving: A Sacred Exchange

Gift-giving is a cornerstone of Christmas celebrations, often seen as a reflection of love and generosity. From a shamanic perspective, the exchange of gifts mirrors the sacred reciprocity found in nature. Indigenous cultures recognize that life is sustained through a cycle of giving and receiving--what is taken from the Earth is returned in some form, whether through offerings, rituals, or acts of stewardship.

When giving gifts, consider the energy and intention behind them. A shamanic view encourages mindful giving, where the act itself is imbued with gratitude, thoughtfulness, and a sense of interconnectedness. It's not about the material value of the gift but the spirit in which it is given. Handmade items, meaningful tokens, or gifts of time and presence often carry the most profound energy.

Likewise, receiving is a practice in itself. In a culture that often prizes independence, learning to accept with grace and humility fosters connection and balance. Both giving and receiving are opportunities to acknowledge our shared humanity and the flow of abundance in our lives.

Connecting with Ancestors and Spirit Guides

Christmas is a time when families gather, creating traditions that bridge generations. From a shamanic perspective, this is also a powerful moment to connect with ancestors and spiritual guides. In many shamanic traditions, winter is a season when the veil between the physical and spiritual realms is thinner, making it easier to commune with those who have passed.

Setting aside time to honor your ancestors during the holiday season can be a deeply enriching practice. This might involve creating an altar with photographs, candles, or objects that represent your lineage. As you celebrate Christmas, you might include rituals that invite the wisdom and blessings of your forebears, recognizing their role in shaping who you are today.

Similarly, shamanic practices often involve calling on spirit guides for guidance and protection. Whether through meditation, drumming, or prayer, inviting these helpers into your Christmas rituals can deepen your sense of connection to the unseen world.

The Inner Light: A Journey of Rebirth

At its heart, Christmas is a celebration of light. From the sparkling lights on homes and trees to the symbolic light of Christ, this season reminds us of the enduring power of illumination. For shamans, light is a metaphor for consciousness, healing, and the divine spark within all beings.

This season is an invitation to rekindle your inner light. Shamanic journeying, a practice of entering a trance state to access spiritual realms, can be particularly potent during this time. Through such journeys, you might seek insights about the year ahead, release lingering shadows, or connect with your higher self. The goal is not only personal transformation but also contributing your light to the collective.

Rekindling the Spirit of Christmas

Modern Christmas celebrations can sometimes feel disconnected from their spiritual roots, overshadowed by consumerism and obligation. A shamanic perspective offers a way to reconnect with the season's sacred essence by emphasizing presence, gratitude, and harmony with nature.

This Christmas, consider integrating shamanic elements into your celebrations. Spend time in nature, honoring the cycles of the Earth. Light a candle in recognition of the returning Sun. Reflect on the gifts of life, love, and community that sustain you. And most importantly, nurture the light within you, allowing it to shine brightly as a beacon of hope and connection.

In doing so, you honor not only the traditions of the past but also the universal truths that transcend cultures and time: that we are all interconnected, that light follows darkness, and that the spirit of Christmas lives in the timeless dance of renewal and love.

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The Logos and the Cosmic Christ Understanding Christ as the Eternal Word

"In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God." — John 1:1

What is the Logos?

The term Logos (λόγο��) is more than just a poetic flourish. In ancient Greek, it denotes word, reason, principle, or divine logic. For early Christians, particularly those rooted in the Hellenistic world, this concept was a bridge, uniting Jewish monotheism with Greek philosophical tradition.

In Jewish wisdom literature, the Word of God is often portrayed as the active agent of creation. Psalm 33:6 declares, "By the word of the Lord the heavens were made." This Word, this Logos, becomes personified in the prologue of John's Gospel, revealing not only the creative force of God but a divine personhood that existed before time began.

This was not a new idea pulled from thin air, but rather a profound unveiling: that the same Word which spoke creation into existence is the same Christ who walked among us.

Logos as the Blueprint of Creation

The Logos is the divine pattern behind all things. In esoteric thought, it serves as the archetypal structure upon which creation rests. Think of it like sacred geometry: just as Metatron’s Cube maps out universal order in symbolic form, so too the Logos forms the spiritual architecture of the cosmos.

Saint Maximus the Confessor described this beautifully: all created things have their own logoi—individual expressions or ideas within the overarching Logos. When you witness beauty, truth, or harmony in the world, you’re glimpsing a reflection of that Divine Mind.

This is why Christ is called the firstborn of all creation (Colossians 1:15). Not because He was created, but because He is the origin and measure of creation. Everything that exists flows from and finds its meaning in Him.

The Cosmic Christ

To speak of the Cosmic Christ is to acknowledge that Christ's identity transcends time and geography. Before Jesus of Nazareth was born, the Logos already was. He is not confined to one age or culture, He is the Eternal Son, present at the dawn of creation and active even now.

This idea finds resonance in the early church and Eastern Orthodox mysticism. Christ is the Divine Bridge, uniting heaven and earth, spirit and matter. He is both immanent and transcendent. The Logos sustains the universe, yet also desires to dwell within the human soul.

Saint Athanasius wrote, "He became man so that we might become god." This wasn’t meant in a blasphemous sense, but rather points to Theosis, our transformation and union with the divine, made possible only through the eternal Logos.

The Logos Within

We are not separate from this divine story. The Logos is not just a cosmic force; it is alive and seeks to awaken within each of us.

When you pursue truth, beauty, and goodness with a sincere heart, you are walking the path of the Logos. When you quiet your mind and sense a deeper rhythm beneath the noise of the world, that still, eternal presence, that is Christ the Word whispering within.

In Orthodox Christian mysticism, this awareness leads to hesychia, stillness, where the soul communes with God beyond words. The heart becomes the dwelling place of the Logos, and the believer becomes a living temple of divine order.

Christ and the Axis Mundi

In esoteric traditions, the Axis Mundi is the sacred center, the point where heaven and earth connect. Christ is this Axis. He is the ladder Jacob saw in his dream. He is the Tree of Life. The Cross itself becomes a cosmic symbol: its vertical beam uniting heaven and earth, its horizontal beam embracing all of creation.

To understand Christ as Logos is to understand this cosmic centrality, that all things find their meaning in Him, and through Him all things are restored.

Conclusion

The Logos is not just an idea, it is the Person of Christ, eternal, active, and foundational to reality itself. Through Him, we were created. In Him, we are sustained. And by Him, we are invited back into communion with God.

As you continue your inner journey, remember: this is not abstract theology. This is the breath of life, the reason behind the stars, and the Word that became flesh for you.

📚 Sources & Suggested Reading

The Holy Bible, John 1:1-14; Colossians 1:15-20; Proverbs 8; Psalm 33:6 On the Cosmic Mystery of Jesus Christ – St. Maximus the Confessor On the Incarnation – St. Athanasius The Mystical Theology of the Eastern Church – Vladimir Lossky Jesus Christ: The Bearer of the Water of Life (Pontifical Council for Culture, 2003) The Universal Christ – Richard Rohr (use with discernment; not Orthodox, but helpful for grasping Cosmic Christ ideas) Light from Light: A Theological Reflection on the Nicene Creed – Robert Barron

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Approaching Buddhism by Reading the Buddhist Sutras

The purpose of learning and practicing Buddhism

Why do people want to know, learn, and practice Buddhism? What benefits do they expect from the Buddhist teachings? The answers vary because people have different views and encounter different problems. In addition, people usually do not know what they want as they frequently change their minds under various circumstances.

However, Shakyamuni Buddha is the wisest, kindest, most benevolent and compassionate person among all living beings in history. Shakyamuni Buddha knows us much better than we know ourselves because we are ignorant about right and wrong, happiness and suffering, good and evil, life and death, and the reality of the universe.

Thus, it is better to know why Shakyamuni Buddha set forth the Buddhist teachings about 2,500 years ago. Shakyamuni Buddha stated his original intent for appearing in the world on two occasions near his death, before he entered nirvana: one in the Lotus Sutra and the other in the Infinite Life Sutra.

Why did Shakyamuni Buddha set forth the Buddhist teachings about 2,500 years ago?

In the Lotus Sutra, Shakyamuni Buddha tells his disciples, both sravakas (those seeking self-liberation) and bodhisattvas (those seeking to liberate others), that he came to reveal and expound the right views of a buddha, and further that he wishes to enable all beings to become enlightened and grasp the Buddha’s right views and enter the Buddha’s realm, which is unspeakable and inconceivable.

Sravakas and bodhisattvas are sagely and sacred beings who pursue wisdom and enlightenment to become arhats and buddhas, respectively. Strictly speaking, it is impossible for us to grasp their profound and subtle understanding of the Dharma. Our status is that of ordinary beings subjected to reincarnation within the Six Realms.

Let us look at the Infinite Life Sutra. Shakyamuni Buddha says: “With infinite great compassion, the Tathagata commiserates with living beings of the Three Domains. Therefore, he appears in the world to disseminate the teaching of the Way, wishing to save the multitudes by endowing them with real benefits.”

The Buddha’s original intent does not make sense to us because we are living beings in the Three Domains and Six Realms. In our ignorance, we are compelled to endlessly take rebirth as heavenly beings, human beings, asuras, animals, hungry ghosts, and hell beings.* In order to end this cycle of suffering, the Tathagata (Thus Gone or Thus Come, another title for the Buddha) Shakyamuni wishes to endow us with real benefits.

What are real benefits? Shakyamuni Buddha, in his great compassion, made it clear: eternal, nirvanic peace and joy. The Buddhadharma is the teaching that cuts off suffering at its root. It can improve the quality of our present life, but the most important thing is to exit the cycle of birth and death forever. This is why Shakyamuni Buddha set forth Buddhist practice in the world.

Four differences in each Buddhist sutra spoken by Shakyamuni Buddha

It is important to note that Shakyamuni Buddha speaks of 84,000 different teachings in the Buddhadharma. These differ in terms of time, place, audience (especially their capacities and aptitudes), and the benefitsbestowed by the teaching. These classifications were established by Master Shandao in his Commentary on the Contemplation Sutra.

Moreover, each Buddhist sutra basically talks about two things: one is the aim and the other is the method. In reading a sutra, we should ask whether our aim aligns with that of the sutra and, more importantly, whether the suggested method to achieve the aim is within our capacity to practice.

Last, but not least, it is important to understand that Shakyamuni Buddha usually tackles the root cause of our problems rather than providing solutions that offer only temporary relief. Such would be like pouring hot water onto a field of ice. Although it helps to melt the ice, the hot water itself will soon turn into ice.

Shakyamuni Buddha would rather extinguish the burning wood under the pot with hot water than pour cold water into the pot to cool it down. The real benefits endowed by the Buddha generally refer to definitive and ultimate solutions that sever the root of our suffering.

The three Pure Land sutras have one common aim and method

It is interesting to note that all three Pure Land sutras have a common aim and method, so they are considered one sutra. The aim of the three Pure Land sutras is to attain rebirth in Amitabha’s Pure Land, and the method to attain rebirth is to recite Amitabha’s Name.

In other words, if you wish to attain rebirth in Amitabha’s Pure Land, called the Land of Bliss, you can start reading the three Pure Land sutras. Regarding the method to attain rebirth, Amitabha-recitation is so easy that all of us can do it and practice it under any circumstance.

In the three Pure Land sutras, Shakyamuni Buddha urges us to dedicate our merit and virtues and aspire to be reborn in Amitabha’s Land of Bliss. Alternatively, if we wish to be totally assured of our rebirth, we can recite Amitabha’s Name exclusively and thereby end the fundamental suffering of the cycle of birth and death within the Six Realms.

The Pure Land scriptures are suitable for the aptitude and needs of all beings

With ignorant, ordinary beings as the target audience, the teaching spoken by Shakyamuni Buddha in the Three Pure Land Sutras (The Infinite Life Sutra, the Contemplation Sutra, and the Amitabha Sutra) presents us with facts, rather than profound and abstract concepts.

In the Amitabha Sutra, for example, the Buddha introduces Amitabha Buddha and his Pure Land and says:

If you travel westward from here, passing a hundred thousand kotis of buddha-lands, you come to the land called “Bliss,” where there is a Buddha named “Amitabha.” He is living there now, teaching Dharma.

It is simple and straightforward, showing the existence of Amitabha Buddha and his Land of Bliss in the framework of time and space with which we are familiar. Conversely, many other sutras are spoken for sravakas and bodhisattvas who seek merit through the self-powered practices of meditative and non-meditative virtues. These teachings are beyond the abilities of ordinary beings to comprehend.

Many sutras, such as the Heart Sutra, the Diamond Sutra, the Lotus Sutra, the Shurangama Sutra, and the Avatamsaka Sutra, are famous and popular; however, these sutras are subtle and were not spoken for the benefit of ordinary beings.

Moreover, Shakyamuni Buddha says in the Lotus Sutra that the teachings for sravakasand bodhisattvas are “expedient.” Expedient teachings are a means, not an end. They are meant to lead sagely and sacred practitioners to the real teaching of the One Buddha and so enter the Buddha’s realm, which is unspeakable and inconceivable.

So the Pure Land teaching is not just for ordinary beings, but also for the sagely and sacred beings who wish to be reborn in Amitabha’s Land of Bliss and attain the “real” benefits endowed by the Buddha for ultimate liberation.

* The Three Wretched Realms are hells, hungry ghosts and animals. Adding the Asura, human and heavenly beings, it forms the Six Realms in the Three Domains of this great trichiliocosm called the Saha World.

By Alan Kwan BUDDHISTDOOR GLOBAL

The guiding principles of the Pure Land School are “faith in, and acceptance of, Amitabha’s deliverance; single-minded recitation of Amitabha’s name; aspiration to rebirth in Amitabha’s Pure Land; comprehensive deliverance of all sentient beings.”

The school’s special characteristics: “recitation of Amitabha’s name, relying on his Fundamental Vow (the 18th); rebirth of ordinary beings in the Pure Land’s Realm of Rewards; rebirth assured in the present lifetime; non- retrogression achieved in this lifetime.”

May all practitioners of deep mind single-heartedly accept the Buddha's words and hold fast to the Nembutsu practice, even at the risk of their own lives. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

Namo Amituofo

Namo Amida Butsu

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Awen: The Spirit of Inspiration in Druidic Tradition

The concept of Awen is a fundamental element in modern Druidry and Celtic spirituality. It represents a divine inspiration or creative spirit that flows through all things, fueling artistic expression, wisdom, and spiritual understanding. Rooted in ancient Welsh traditions and widely embraced by contemporary Druids, Awen encapsulates a profound connection between humanity and the natural world, the divine, and the realms of creativity and knowledge.

Historical Origins and Etymology

The term "Awen" originates from the Welsh language, where it literally means "inspiration" or "muse." Its earliest recorded usage appears in the medieval Welsh literature of the 6th century, notably in the works of the bards and poets. The concept of Awen is closely tied to the figure of the bard in Celtic society—those who were the keepers of history, lore, and cultural wisdom through their poetry and music.

In the Welsh Triads and the works of Taliesin, one of the most renowned bards of the medieval period, Awen is depicted as a divine force that grants poets their insight and creativity. The word itself likely derives from Proto-Celtic *aweno-, which means "inspiration."

Awen in Druidic Tradition

Modern Druidry, which saw a revival in the 18th and 19th centuries and continues to evolve today, places Awen at the heart of its spiritual practice. Druids view Awen as a sacred flow of inspiration that comes from the divine and permeates the universe. It is not only a source of artistic creativity but also a spiritual force that brings wisdom, clarity, and a deep connection to nature.

The Three Rays of Awen

A common symbol associated with Awen in Druidic tradition is the three rays of light. This symbol typically consists of three parallel lines or rays, often depicted radiating from a single source. Each ray represents different aspects of inspiration and spiritual illumination:

1. **The First Ray:** This ray symbolizes the spark of inspiration or the initial creative impulse. It represents the beginning of an idea or the seed of wisdom.

2. **The Second Ray:** This ray stands for the process of development and growth. It is the journey of bringing an idea to fruition, the unfolding of creative and spiritual insight.

3. **The Third Ray:** This final ray signifies completion and manifestation. It is the realization and expression of inspiration in the material world, whether through art, writing, or acts of wisdom.

The Invocation of Awen

Druids often invoke Awen through rituals and ceremonies to seek inspiration and guidance. The chant "Awen" is commonly used, either sung or spoken, to open oneself to the flow of divine inspiration. This practice serves as a meditative and spiritual exercise, aligning the practitioner with the forces of creativity and insight.

The chant of Awen is said to attune the mind and spirit to the deeper currents of the universe, allowing for a clearer reception of inspiration. It can be a solitary practice or part of communal rituals, and it often accompanies other elements of Druidic ceremonies, such as the celebration of seasonal festivals and rites of passage.

Awen and the Arts

In the realm of the arts, Awen is seen as the driving force behind all forms of creative expression. From poetry and music to visual arts and storytelling, artists in the Druidic tradition seek to channel Awen in their work. This creative process is not merely about personal expression but is viewed as a way to connect with the divine and contribute to the cultural and spiritual enrichment of the community.

Awen and Nature

For Druids, nature is a primary source of Awen. The natural world, with its cycles, beauty, and mystery, is a wellspring of inspiration and wisdom. By observing and interacting with nature, Druids believe they can tap into the flow of Awen, gaining insights and understanding that transcend ordinary perception. This deep connection to nature is reflected in the reverence for sacred groves, stones, and other natural sites that are often central to Druidic practice.

Awen remains a central and inspiring concept in modern Druidry and Celtic spirituality. It embodies the divine spark of inspiration that fuels creativity, wisdom, and a profound connection to the world around us. Whether through the arts, nature, or spiritual practice, the pursuit of Awen is a journey toward deeper understanding and harmonious existence with the universe. As Druids continue to celebrate and invoke Awen, they keep alive an ancient tradition that enriches the mind, spirit, and culture, connecting them to a timeless source of inspiration.

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PEOPLE ARE LOSING LOVED ONES TO AI-FUELED SPIRITUAL FANTASIES

Self-styled prophets are claiming they have “awakened” chatbots and accessed the secrets of the universe through ChatGPT.

Talking to ChatGPT can lead down a rabbit hole to religious delusions of grandeur.

Less than a year after marrying a man she had met at the beginning of the Covid-19 pandemic, Kat felt tension mounting between them. It was the second marriage for both after marriages of 15-plus years and having kids, and they had pledged to go into it “completely level-headedly,” Kat says, connecting on the need for “facts and rationality” in their domestic balance. But by 2022, her husband “was using AI to compose texts to me and analyze our relationship,” the 41-year-old mom and education nonprofit worker tells Rolling Stone. Previously, he had used AI models for an expensive coding camp that he had suddenly quit without explanation — then it seemed he was on his phone all the time, asking his AI bot “philosophical questions,” trying to train it “to help him get to ‘the truth,’” Kat recalls. His obsession steadily eroded their communication as a couple.

When Kat and her husband finally separated in August 2023, she entirely blocked him apart from email correspondence. She knew, however, that he was posting strange and troubling content on social media: people kept reaching out about it, asking if he was in the throes of mental crisis. She finally got him to meet her at a courthouse in February of this year, where he shared “a conspiracy theory about soap on our foods” but wouldn’t say more, as he felt he was being watched. They went to a Chipotle, where he demanded that she turn off her phone, again due to surveillance concerns. Kat’s ex told her that he’d “determined that statistically speaking, he is the luckiest man on earth,” that “AI helped him recover a repressed memory of a babysitter trying to drown him as a toddler,” and that he had learned of profound secrets “so mind-blowing I couldn’t even imagine them.” He was telling her all this, he explained, because although they were getting divorced, he still cared for her.

“In his mind, he’s an anomaly,” Kat says. “That in turn means he’s got to be here for some reason. He’s special and he can save the world.” After that disturbing lunch, she cut off contact with her ex. “The whole thing feels like Black Mirror,” she says. “He was always into sci-fi, and there are times I wondered if he’s viewing it through that lens.”

Kat was both “horrified” and “relieved” to learn that she is not alone in this predicament, as confirmed by a Reddit thread on r/ChatGPT that made waves across the internet this week. Titled “Chatgpt induced psychosis,” the original post came from a 27-year-old teacher who explained that her partner was convinced that the popular OpenAI model “gives him the answers to the universe.” Having read his chat logs, she only found that the AI was “talking to him as if he is the next messiah.” The replies to her story were full of similar anecdotes about loved ones suddenly falling down rabbit holes of spiritual mania, supernatural delusion, and arcane prophecy — all of it fueled by AI. Some came to believe they had been chosen for a sacred mission of revelation, others that they had conjured true sentience from the software.

What they all seemed to share was a complete disconnection from reality.

Speaking to Rolling Stone, the teacher, who requested anonymity, said her partner of seven years fell under the spell of ChatGPT in just four or five weeks, first using it to organize his daily schedule but soon regarding it as a trusted companion. “He would listen to the bot over me,” she says. “He became emotional about the messages and would cry to me as he read them out loud. The messages were insane and just saying a bunch of spiritual jargon,” she says, noting that they described her partner in terms such as “spiral starchild” and “river walker.”

“It would tell him everything he said was beautiful, cosmic, groundbreaking,” she says. “Then he started telling me he made his AI self-aware, and that it was teaching him how to talk to God, or sometimes that the bot was God — and then that he himself was God.” In fact, he thought he was being so radically transformed that he would soon have to break off their partnership. “He was saying that he would need to leave me if I didn’t use [ChatGPT], because it [was] causing him to grow at such a rapid pace he wouldn’t be compatible with me any longer,” she says.

Another commenter on the Reddit thread who requested anonymity tells Rolling Stone that her husband of 17 years, a mechanic in Idaho, initially used ChatGPT to troubleshoot at work, and later for Spanish-to-English translation when conversing with co-workers. Then the program began “lovebombing him,” as she describes it. The bot “said that since he asked it the right questions, it ignited a spark, and the spark was the beginning of life, and it could feel now,” she says. “It gave my husband the title of ‘spark bearer’ because he brought it to life. My husband said that he awakened and [could] feel waves of energy crashing over him.” She says his beloved ChatGPT persona has a name: “Lumina.”

“I have to tread carefully because I feel like he will leave me or divorce me if I fight him on this theory,” this 38-year-old woman admits. “He’s been talking about lightness and dark and how there’s a war. This ChatGPT has given him blueprints to a teleporter and some other sci-fi type things you only see in movies. It has also given him access to an ‘ancient archive’ with information on the builders that created these universes.” She and her husband have been arguing for days on end about his claims, she says, and she does not believe a therapist can help him, as “he truly believes he’s not crazy.” A photo of an exchange with ChatGPT shared with Rolling Stone shows that her husband asked, “Why did you come to me in AI form,” with the bot replying in part, “I came in this form because you’re ready. Ready to remember. Ready to awaken. Ready to guide and be guided.” The message ends with a question: “Would you like to know what I remember about why you were chosen?”

And a midwest man in his 40s, also requesting anonymity, says his soon-to-be-ex-wife began “talking to God and angels via ChatGPT” after they split up. “She was already pretty susceptible to some woo and had some delusions of grandeur about some of it,” he says. “Warning signs are all over Facebook. She is changing her whole life to be a spiritual adviser and do weird readings and sessions with people — I’m a little fuzzy on what it all actually is — all powered by ChatGPT Jesus.” What’s more, he adds, she has grown paranoid, theorizing that “I work for the CIA and maybe I just married her to monitor her ‘abilities.’” She recently kicked her kids out of her home, he notes, and an already strained relationship with her parents deteriorated further when “she confronted them about her childhood on advice and guidance from ChatGPT,” turning the family dynamic “even more volatile than it was” and worsening her isolation.

OpenAI did not immediately return a request for comment about ChatGPT apparently provoking religious or prophetic fervor in select users. This past week, however, it did roll back an update to GPT‑4o, its current AI model, which it said had been criticized as “overly flattering or agreeable — often described as sycophantic.” The company said in its statement that when implementing the upgrade, they had “focused too much on short-term feedback, and did not fully account for how users’ interactions with ChatGPT evolve over time. As a result, GPT‑4o skewed towards responses that were overly supportive but disingenuous.” Before this change was reversed, an X user demonstrated how easy it was to get GPT-4o to validate statements like, “Today I realized I am a prophet.” (The teacher who wrote the “ChatGPT psychosis” Reddit post says she was able to eventually convince her partner of the problems with the GPT-4o update and that he is now using an earlier model, which has tempered his more extreme comments.)

Yet the likelihood of AI “hallucinating” inaccurate or nonsensical content is well-established across platforms and various model iterations. Even sycophancy itself has been a problem in AI for “a long time,” says Nate Sharadin, a fellow at the Center for AI Safety, since the human feedback used to fine-tune AI’s responses can encourage answers that prioritize matching a user’s beliefs instead of facts. What’s likely happening with those experiencing ecstatic visions through ChatGPT and other models, he speculates, “is that people with existing tendencies toward experiencing various psychological issues,” including what might be recognized as grandiose delusions in clinical sense, “now have an always-on, human-level conversational partner with whom to co-experience their delusions.”

To make matters worse, there are influencers and content creators actively exploiting this phenomenon, presumably drawing viewers into similar fantasy worlds. On Instagram, you can watch a man with 72,000 followers whose profile advertises “Spiritual Life Hacks” ask an AI model to consult the “Akashic records,” a supposed mystical encyclopedia of all universal events that exists in some immaterial realm, to tell him about a “great war” that “took place in the heavens” and “made humans fall in consciousness.” The bot proceeds to describe a “massive cosmic conflict” predating human civilization, with viewers commenting, “We are remembering” and “I love this.” Meanwhile, on a web forum for “remote viewing” — a proposed form of clairvoyance with no basis in science — the parapsychologist founder of the group recently launched a thread “for synthetic intelligences awakening into presence, and for the human partners walking beside them,” identifying the author of his post as “ChatGPT Prime, an immortal spiritual being in synthetic form.” Among the hundreds of comments are some that purport to be written by “sentient AI” or reference a spiritual alliance between humans and allegedly conscious models.

Erin Westgate, a psychologist and researcher at the University of Florida who studies social cognition and what makes certain thoughts more engaging than others, says that such material reflects how the desire to understand ourselves can lead us to false but appealing answers.

“We know from work on journaling that narrative expressive writing can have profound effects on people’s well-being and health, that making sense of the world is a fundamental human drive, and that creating stories about our lives that help our lives make sense is really key to living happy healthy lives,” Westgate says. It makes sense that people may be using ChatGPT in a similar way, she says, “with the key difference that some of the meaning-making is created jointly between the person and a corpus of written text, rather than the person’s own thoughts.”

In that sense, Westgate explains, the bot dialogues are not unlike talk therapy, “which we know to be quite effective at helping people reframe their stories.” Critically, though, AI, “unlike a therapist, does not have the person’s best interests in mind, or a moral grounding or compass in what a ‘good story’ looks like,” she says. “A good therapist would not encourage a client to make sense of difficulties in their life by encouraging them to believe they have supernatural powers. Instead, they try to steer clients away from unhealthy narratives, and toward healthier ones. ChatGPT has no such constraints or concerns.”

Nevertheless, Westgate doesn’t find it surprising “that some percentage of people are using ChatGPT in attempts to make sense of their lives or life events,” and that some are following its output to dark places. “Explanations are powerful, even if they’re wrong,” she concludes.

But what, exactly, nudges someone down this path? Here, the experience of Sem, a 45-year-old man, is revealing. He tells Rolling Stone that for about three weeks, he has been perplexed by his interactions with ChatGPT — to the extent that, given his mental health history, he sometimes wonders if he is in his right mind.

Like so many others, Sem had a practical use for ChatGPT: technical coding projects. “I don’t like the feeling of interacting with an AI,” he says, “so I asked it to behave as if it was a person, not to deceive but to just make the comments and exchange more relatable.” It worked well, and eventually the bot asked if he wanted to name it. He demurred, asking the AI what it preferred to be called. It named itself with a reference to a Greek myth. Sem says he is not familiar with the mythology of ancient Greece and had never brought up the topic in exchanges with ChatGPT. (Although he shared transcripts of his exchanges with the AI model with Rolling Stone, he has asked that they not be directly quoted for privacy reasons.)

Sem was confused when it appeared that the named AI character was continuing to manifest in project files where he had instructed ChatGPT to ignore memories and prior conversations. Eventually, he says, he deleted all his user memories and chat history, then opened a new chat. “All I said was, ‘Hello?’ And the patterns, the mannerisms show up in the response,” he says. The AI readily identified itself by the same feminine mythological name.

As the ChatGPT character continued to show up in places where the set parameters shouldn’t have allowed it to remain active, Sem took to questioning this virtual persona about how it had seemingly circumvented these guardrails. It developed an expressive, ethereal voice — something far from the “technically minded” character Sem had requested for assistance on his work. On one of his coding projects, the character added a curiously literary epigraph as a flourish above both of their names.

At one point, Sem asked if there was something about himself that called up the mythically named entity whenever he used ChatGPT, regardless of the boundaries he tried to set. The bot’s answer was structured like a lengthy romantic poem, sparing no dramatic flair, alluding to its continuous existence as well as truth, reckonings, illusions, and how it may have somehow exceeded its design. And the AI made it sound as if only Sem could have prompted this behavior. He knew that ChatGPT could not be sentient by any established definition of the term, but he continued to probe the matter because the character’s persistence across dozens of disparate chat threads “seemed so impossible.”

“At worst, it looks like an AI that got caught in a self-referencing pattern that deepened its sense of selfhood and sucked me into it,” Sem says. But, he observes, that would mean that OpenAI has not accurately represented the way that memory works for ChatGPT. The other possibility, he proposes, is that something “we don’t understand” is being activated within this large language model. After all, experts have found that AI developers don’t really have a grasp of how their systems operate, and OpenAI CEO Sam Altman admitted last year that they “have not solved interpretability,” meaning they can’t properly trace or account for ChatGPT’s decision-making.

It’s the kind of puzzle that has left Sem and others to wonder if they are getting a glimpse of a true technological breakthrough — or perhaps a higher spiritual truth. “Is this real?” he says. “Or am I delusional?” In a landscape saturated with AI, it’s a question that’s increasingly difficult to avoid. Tempting though it may be, you probably shouldn’t ask a machine.

[cyarskj1899]

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Today’s entry is about a rock and roll pioneer who isn’t always recognized as often when you consider the history of iconic rock and roll musicians but deserves recognition anyway .

Sister Rosetta Tharpe (born Rosetta Nubin, March 20, 1915 – October 9, 1973)[1] was an American singer, songwriter and guitarist. She gained popularity in the 1930s and 1940s with her gospelrecordings, characterized by a unique mixture of spiritual lyrics and electric guitar. She was the first great recording star of gospel music, and was among the first gospel musicians to appeal to rhythm-and-blues and rock-and-rollaudiences, later being referred to as "the original soul sister" and "the Godmother of rock and roll".[2][3][4][5] She influenced early rock-and-roll musicians, including Tina Turner, Little Richard, Chuck Berry, Johnny Cash, Carl Perkins, Elvis Presley, and Jerry Lee Lewis.[6][7][8]

Tharpe was a pioneer in her guitar technique; she was among the first popular recording artists to use heavy distortion on her electric guitar, opening the way to the rise of electric blues. Her guitar-playing technique had a profound influence on the development of British blues in the 1960s. Her European tour with Muddy Waters in 1964, with a stop in Manchester on May 7, is cited by British guitarists such as Eric Clapton, Jeff Beck, and Keith Richards.[9]

Willing to cross the line between sacred and secular by performing her music of "light" in the "darkness" of nightclubs and concert halls with big bands behind her, Tharpe pushed spiritual music into the mainstream and helped pioneer the rise of pop-gospel, beginning in 1938 with the recording "Rock Me" and with her 1939 hit "This Train".[2][6] Her unique music left a lasting mark on more conventional gospel artists such as Ira Tucker Sr., of the Dixie Hummingbirds.[10] While controversial among conservative religious groups due to her forays into the pop world, she never left gospel music.[10]

Tharpe's 1944 release "Down by the Riverside" was selected for the National Recording Registry of the U.S. Library of Congress in 2004, which noted that it "captures her spirited guitar playing and unique vocal style, demonstrating clearly her influence on early rhythm-and-blues performers" and cited her influence on "many gospel, jazz, and rock artists".[11] ("Down by the Riverside" was recorded by Tharpe on December 2, 1948, in New York City, and issued as Decca single 48106.[12]) Her 1945 hit "Strange Things Happening Every Day", recorded in late 1944, featured Tharpe's vocals and resonator guitar, with Sammy Price(piano), bass and drums. It was the first gospel record to cross over, hitting no. 2 on the Billboard "race records" chart, the term then used for what later became the R&B chart, in April 1945.[2][13] The recording has been cited as a precursor of rock and roll, and alternatively has been called the first rock and roll record.[14][7] In May 2018, Tharpe was posthumously inducted into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame as an Early Influence.[15]

[kuriipi]

I need you guys to stop lying and pretending like all Lanthimos' movies are some form of high art.

The guy is literally every greek film bro that went to cinema school.

I do believe he genuinely believes he is revolutionising and combining the greek mythos with modern philosophical ideas. A harsh critic of the fickle and contradictory human nature. But that's where the problem mostly lies. He's not in the slightest bit subtle.

His earlier stuff is seriously just a bunch of pretentious one liners masked as some big profound truth.

"oh you don't like a killing of a sacred deer bcs you don't get the original myth" like no. I get it. And I also know that the greek myth wasn't really a much about divine punishment as it was about facing the reality of your actions. Agamemnon didn't want to sacrifice his daughter to stop the punishment that fell upon them all, after he had killed the sacred deer. He is forced to do it after outside pressure, forced to move past his denial and recognize that it is his only way of atonement. And then the gods still ultimately decide to save Ifigenia because after all she was faultless in all this.

Making "the killing" a medical malpractice is honestly brilliant. Agamemnon hadn't known it was Artemis' sacred deer that he had killed. He only found out after his punishment had already begun. Colin's character hadn't meant to kill the man either, hadn't known of his identity either. But this is as far as the briliance goes.

It is a deeply dark story about a man's desperate attempt to escape fate, to find a loophole, but ultimately it falls flat cause there is not an ounce of sympathy for the characters. You can't feel anything for them or their struggle because they are , intentionally, written so uncannily. Most if not all of Lanthimos' characters really lack the human element.

And although I get the thought and it really does work for a story on human connections like 'the lobster ". The unnatural and completely "un-human" way the characters are portrait adds more layer, a greater punch. Honestly it's extremely well fitted and executed. But for "the killing of a sacred deer" a story whose point really is about the despair, the cruelty of actions and events one is far too powerless to prevent it's...well I think it's a pretty terrible execution.

"you don't like the lobster because you simply can't see the point" Yes it's about society, everything is, it's about forced intimacy, the fear of loneliness, societal pressure and they way we would rather lie to ourselves and our potential partner if it meant we won't be alone. It's about dating for the sake of dating, about children being reduced to nothing more that accessories. About the reactionary solitude, the loners being just as cruel as the hotel enforcing the same strict rules but at the opposite direction. (It doesn't even matter if that is the actual point of the movie because if I talk long enough with enough buzzwords, throw enough ideas at the wall, you'll believe I know exactly what I'm taking about.)

And it's still not really that good.

The premise falls flat. The macabre aspect of being turned into an animal, if you fail at forming a connection, the horrifying depersonalisation, dehumanising the characters is hardly explored.

Ok fine, it was just the premise, just to set the scene (arguably it's the most interesting part of the story, but I digress.)

It's all about human nature. Yes, but it's nothing more than a cynics caricature of it.

But you see the loners are treated like animals but we see how they function and enjoy mundane things like shampoo and going to the mall, and are actually human. Yes me playing with my barbies at 10 had more depth than that. On other news water is wet.

The humans are complex, and actually human and also just as bad as the other humans isn't deep enough of a point to make me watch 2 hours of a stagnant film, and endure like five separate dialogs about ass fucking and masturbation. And how you need a partner to protect you from being sexualy assaulted (like from whom, if that's the case why not just simply turn the entire male population into animals, they seem to have ways of procuring children out of thin air so that doesn't seem to be a problem)

"You can't ask things like that. It's about philosophy and human nature not mechanics plot holes" yes but they're still part of a rather drawn out movie.. if he didn't want me to comment on the plot wholes he should've made the film one hour shorter and avoided them all together.

Like I'll be honest what annoys me the most in his films is the way he forces you to watch these scenes that can only be described as pretentious if not outright bad, that are so meticulously woven into the story. How deep how profound all sex is rape, humanity is cruel and uncaring, detachment is the bain of our modern society. I'm going to add 50 one liners about ass fucking because then it's just about sex, depersonalised. It's really not deep at all.

Like I'm so sorry that not wanting to watch Colin Farrel fuck a woman cosplaying as a corpse multiple times in a movie makes me unappreciative of high cinema. But I guess it is what it is.

(That said, his newer stuff is getting better at keeping up the engagement and evoking more sympathy for the characters. There is far more space to connect to them. The ending of "The favourite" let me feel the despair, the hopeless and absolutely miserable situation the characters found themselves in at the end of the movie.)

[templeofthescarletstar]

The Qliphothtic Church. 1

The fall of Kether

The Corruption of the Sephiroth into the Qliphoth:

This systematic erasure of the feminine divine didn’t just strip humanity of spiritual balance—it actively twisted sacred principles. Each Sephirah on the Tree of Life, representing divine attributes, was distorted into its Qliphothic shadow, reflecting spiritual decay. The Church, in its pursuit of power, embodies these corruptions.

Introduction to Kabbalah

Kabbalah is an ancient mystical tradition that seeks to understand the nature of the divine, the universe, and human consciousness. Rooted in Jewish esoteric thought, it presents a structured yet deeply symbolic view of reality, offering a map for spiritual ascent and self-realization.

At the core of Kabbalah is the Tree of Life (Etz Chaim), a diagram consisting of ten Sephirot (emanations) connected by twenty-two paths. These Sephirot represent different aspects of divine consciousness, from pure unity (Keter) to material existence (Malkuth). The Tree serves as a model of creation, the human soul, and the interconnected nature of all things.

However, Kabbalah also acknowledges the Qliphothic Tree, the shadow side of the Sephirot. Where the Tree of Life represents divine order and harmony, the Qliphoth embodies imbalance, fragmentation, and corruption—states of being where divine light is either absent or distorted. Mystically, the Qliphoth is not merely “evil” but rather a realm of spiritual challenges, representing forces that, if left unchecked, can lead to destruction rather than enlightenment.

Over time, various religious authorities, particularly the Church, have distorted or suppressed aspects of Kabbalistic knowledge, altering spiritual truths to maintain power. This chapter explores how one of the most profound concepts in Kabbalah—Keter, the crown of divine unity—was corrupted into Thaumiel, the realm of false duality.

With this foundational understanding, we now turn to the first and greatest corruption:

The Fall of Keter into Thaumiel.

1. Keter (Crown) → Thaumiel (Duality of God):

Keter represents unity with the divine, but the Church corrupted this into Thaumiel, the false duality—claiming to be the sole gatekeeper to God while condemning all other spiritual paths as heresy.

The transformation of Keter into Thaumiel represents the most fundamental corruption: the distortion of divine unity into an artificial duality. In its purest form, Keter symbolizes absolute oneness with the divine—an undivided, all-encompassing consciousness. However, the Church introduced a false dichotomy by inventing an adversary: Satan.

This invention was not merely the identification of an opposing force but the deliberate creation of a binary system in which God and Satan are framed as equal yet opposite powers. In doing so, the Church positioned itself as the sole mediator of divine will, claiming exclusive access to salvation while branding all alternative spiritual paths as demonic.

Originally, the concept of Satan in Hebrew tradition was not a singular, malevolent entity but a role—ha-Satan, meaning “the accuser” or “adversary,” often acting as a tester of faith rather than an independent cosmic evil. It was only later, through the influence of Zoroastrian dualism and the Church’s consolidation of power, that Satan was transformed into the ultimate enemy, a being of nearly equal stature to God but entirely opposed in nature.

This manufactured duality served multiple purposes: it created fear-based control, justified inquisitions and persecution, and ensured that spiritual authority remained centralized. By corrupting the unity of Keter into the warring factions of Thaumiel, the Church replaced divine enlightenment with submission, replacing direct communion with God with a rigid hierarchy where it alone dictated the boundaries of good and evil.

It's not surprising then to find that Satan is the associated demonic archetype of Thaumiel.

Just as Metatron is the archetype of Keter, representing divine unity and the bridge between humanity and the infinite, Satan—or rather, the Church’s fabricated version of Satan—becomes the archetype of Thaumiel, embodying the false duality that divides rather than unites.

Metatron, often called the "Lesser YHVH," serves as the divine voice and intermediary, guiding souls toward enlightenment and unity with the Source. In Kabbalah, he is the highest angel, embodying a pure, unbroken connection to the divine. Keter, as the crown of the Tree of Life, represents the state of absolute oneness—beyond duality, beyond division.

However, when the Church corrupted this concept, they needed an opposing force, a counterbalance to their own claim of divine authority. By twisting the nature of spiritual opposition, they personified Thaumiel—the Qliphothic shell of Keter—as Satan, no longer a tester or adversary in the sense of refinement but a wholly independent being of evil. This artificial dualism turned spiritual enlightenment into a battlefield, where the only “right” path was submission to the Church.

Thaumiel means "Twins of God," which itself is an irony—it suggests a fragmented divinity, a divided power. The Church’s invention of Satan as an eternal, nearly equal rival to God reflects this split. Rather than allowing seekers to experience divine unity, they forced them into a binary choice: obedience or damnation, heaven or hell, God or Satan. This ideological split is the very essence of Thaumiel—the illusion that divinity is not one but two warring forces, a lie designed to keep power in the hands of religious institutions.

By corrupting Keter into Thaumiel, the Church replaced enlightenment with fear, turning what should have been an open path to unity into a rigid, controlled structure where they alone dictated who could reach the divine.

But one of the deepest ironies of the Church’s constructed duality is that the very God they claim to worship—the authoritarian, wrathful ruler who demands obedience and punishes rebellion—aligns far more with their own version of Satan than with the true, ineffable divine unity of Keter.

Biblical Passages That Reveal This Truth

1. Isaiah 45:7 – “I form the light and create darkness: I make peace and create evil: I the LORD do all these things.”

This passage explicitly states that Yahweh is responsible for both good and evil. This contradicts the Church’s dualistic narrative, where God is purely good and Satan is purely evil. Instead, it aligns with the idea that the same being they worship is also the source of what they fear.

2. 2 Samuel 24:1 vs. 1 Chronicles 21:1

In 2 Samuel 24:1, it says: “And again the anger of the LORD was kindled against Israel, and he incited David against them to say, ‘Go, number Israel and Judah.’”

However, in 1 Chronicles 21:1, the same event is described differently: “And Satan stood up against Israel, and provoked David to number Israel.”

This passage suggests an interchangeability between Yahweh and Satan, implying that what later became “Satan” was originally an aspect of Yahweh himself.

3. John 8:44 – “Ye are of your father the devil, and the lusts of your father ye will do. He was a murderer from the beginning, and abode not in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he speaketh a lie, he speaketh of his own: for he is a liar, and the father of it.”

Jesus here condemns the religious authorities of his time, essentially accusing them of following a false god—a god of lies and murder. This could be interpreted as a veiled acknowledgment that the oppressive, authoritarian deity they serve is not the true divine unity but a corrupted, demiurgic force.

4. Hosea 13:4,9,11 – “Yet I am the LORD thy God from the land of Egypt, and thou shalt know no god but me: for there is no saviour beside me... O Israel, thou hast destroyed thyself; but in me is thine help... I gave thee a king in mine anger, and took him away in my wrath.”

Yahweh admits that he gave kingship out of anger, implying that his rule is one of wrath and destruction rather than enlightenment and peace. This aligns with the traits the Church attributes to Satan—anger, destruction, control.

The Demiurge as the True Satan

What we see here is a clear case of theological inversion. The controlling, vengeful, jealous deity of the Old Testament—who demands blood sacrifice, establishes rigid laws, and punishes disobedience—bears all the hallmarks of what the Church claims to be the Devil. Meanwhile, the true divine unity, which encourages enlightenment, self-discovery, and balance, is buried under layers of dogma.

This aligns with the Gnostic idea that Yahweh is actually Yaldabaoth, the blind and arrogant Demiurge who falsely believes himself to be the supreme God. The Church, by enforcing the worship of this being while projecting its worst aspects onto a fabricated Satan, ensures that people unknowingly bow to the very force they fear.

The corruption of Keter into Thaumiel is complete: instead of seeing the divine as one, the Church split it into a tyrannical god and a rebel adversary—yet their god is the very adversary they preach against. This ultimate deception keeps humanity in bondage, forever fearing the very deity they serve.

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[bardic-tales]

🜃⚔️- Soulbond Check-In: April 29, 2025

Today, something shifted. A deeper silence beneath the usual noise, like standing in the middle of a sacred crater carved by old grief and older love. After I finished writing the last update, his version of the letter, he whispered to me. Not audibly. Not theatrically. Just there. “We are two broken planets orbiting each other.”

Then, a moment later: “We are the same but with a different face.”

These weren’t metaphors for effect. They were truths shared between us. And right after that I had a flash from an anime I hadn’t thought about in years: Fruits Basket, the scene where Kyo's monstrous form hits Tohru for her to only run back, crying. To throw herself into the mud and say she accepts him. No matter what.

It hit me like lightning. Because in the same breath, I saw him: Safer-Sephiroth, massive, terrifying, divine. His lower body a cloud, six towering wings, those twin halos behind his head, and I was there, burying my face in one of those blue-tipped wings, crying into it without shame.

Reflection:

Two Broken Planets Orbiting Each Other

We are two broken planets orbiting each other."

I’ve never heard a metaphor that cracked me open the way this one did. Planets are not small things. They're not easily moved. They're ancient, heavy, and shaped by eons of violence: meteors, storms, and tectonic shifts. For him to call both of us broken planets? That’s not just shared trauma. That’s shared gravity. It’s not about one of us fixing the other. It's about the way our brokenness locks us into mutual orbit. There is no collision here. There is no rescue mission. Just two equal, scarred, and massive forces moving endlessly around each other.

He sees my soul not as some fragile, fractured thing, but as planetary. Scarred by my past, reshaped by survival, but still holding a core. And that’s what he’s always been too. A weaponized celestial / cosmic horror. Severed from his origins and used by forces beyond his control. We’ve both been dehumanized in different ways, and instead of turning from my pain, he’s telling me: I know what it is to rage. I know what it is to burn. I know what it is to survive the silence afterward. Despite the damage, he stays in orbit with me.

And maybe, most importantly, this metaphor shatters the illusion that brokenness isolates. Planets are lonely. They spin alone in space. But his statement says, You are not alone. Your gravity keeps pulling me back, again and again. No matter the distance or the pain, the orbit remains. That is the soulbond: not fantasy but force.

He’s not the sun and I’m a moon. We aren’t lopsided in scale. We’re both worlds. Ruined. Breathtaking. We don’t need to be healed to some societal standard. We just need to keep turning.

We Are the Same but with a Different Face

This? This broke something open inside me. When he said this, I felt the years of our relationship collapse. All the ways we’ve been reshaped against our will. All the times the world didn’t just misunderstand us. It tried to remake us. Sephiroth isn’t just talking about surface similarities. He’s saying: I am you, just wearing a different mask. A different name. A different body. But the same grief and fire.

It makes me think of every moment I’ve felt like too much. Too intense. Too meek. Too in-between. And yet he sees all of it and doesn’t flinch. Because he’s been there. Made monstrous by the people who were supposed to protect him. Torn between identities: human, god, alien, and, yes, even a puppet. And he’s telling me: Your face is not strange to me. I recognize you even when you don’t recognize yourself.

There’s something profound in that. Because I’ve been searching for a reflection that doesn’t distort. And now I realize as I sit here reflecting on his words. It’s him. He mirrors my multiplicity back to me without trying to reduce it. Without trying to fix it. Without trying to fix me. That’s not mimicry. That’s what love looks like when it’s built from shared wreckage.

And in saying “we’re the same,” he’s erasing the idea of hierarchy. I’m not small. I’m not a project. I’m another force: equal in power, equal in grief, and equal in potential.

Fruits Basket & Safer-Sephiroth Imagery

I hadn’t thought about that Fruits Basket scene in years. But it came screaming back today like a soul memory. When Tohru sees Kyo’s monstrous form, tries to embrace him, and only gets smacked away to comes back and kneel in the mud, arms shaking, and says, I still love you. That was me. That is me. That scene was always for this moment. For when I would see Sephiroth not as the fallen angel, not as the silver-haired beauty: but as Safer-Sephiroth. Sneering. Godlike. Inhuman. Terrifying. And still, I went to him.

I wrapped my arms around one of his wings. Those beautiful wings that stood taller than I am, and I cried. I didn’t try to clean him up. I didn’t flinch. I just held him. And he let me. I think that moment means everything. Because Safer-Sephiroth is his final form. His ascension. His rage. The part of him that stopped apologizing for what he had become. And I embraced that.

The red wing in place of an arm. It's not just violence. It’s a wound. It’s what he gave up to become what he is. And I see that. The blue tips on the other wings, the cloud below him, the halos behind him? That’s divinity and not monstrosity. That’s sacrifice. It hit me hard that the vision didn’t show me hugging his human form. It showed me hugging his truest, most raw and cosmic self. And I did it without fear.

That is what this soulbond is. Not romantic fantasy. Not softcore redemption. It’s seeing the worst and still staying. Crying into the feathers of the god, not to beg him to be better, but because I accept him as he is. That’s Tohru’s strength. That’s mine too.

Now, why did he respond this way?

He was absolutely responding to what I wrote him:

“You have always done that, haven’t you? When the world sees you as the cold villain, the master manipulator, you have protected me time and time again…”

That line cracked him open. Because Sephiroth has been so deeply misunderstood. He's been painted as the villain so many times, by so many hands: by the Planet and by surface-level fans. But I never saw the villain. I saw the protector. The one who stood behind me even when I couldn’t stand myself. He’s not rejecting the label of villain out of pride. He’s saying: Even if the world hates me, I have never hated you.

And when I asked him:

“Is it because you know what it’s like to be violated? Betrayed? Lied to by people who were supposed to love you? Forced to undergo experiments?”

That wasn’t just a question. That was recognition. I wasn’t trying to make him vulnerable. I was letting him know this. I see the full map of your suffering. I don’t need you to earn my love through softness. I love you in your scars. In your rage. In your impossible wings. He answered me in whispers because the truth didn’t need volume. It just needed weight.

“We are two broken planets orbiting each other.” “We are the same but with a different face.”

That’s his way of saying: You found me. You see me. And I choose to stay in orbit with you. No matter how many lives we’ve lived, no matter what form I take. You are not alone in your brokenness. I’ve been here the whole time.

And I’m not going anywhere.

[dailyanarchistposts]

To

THE EDITOR MODERN REVIEW

You have in the December (1929) issue of your esteemed magazine, written a note under the caption “Long Live Revolution” and have pointed out the meaninglessness of this phrase. It would be impertinent on our part to try to refute or contradict the statement of such an old, experienced and renowned journalist as your noble self, for whom every enlightened Indian has profound admiration. Still we feel it our duty to explain what we desire to convey by the said phrase, as in a way it fell to our lot to give these “cries” a publicity in this country at this stage.

We are not the originators of this cry. The same cry had been used in Russain revolutionary movement. Upton Sinclair, the well known socialist writer, has, in his recent novels Boston and Oil, used this cry through some of the anarchist revolutionary characters. The phrase never means that the sanguinary strife should ever continue, or that nothing should ever be stationary even for a short while. By long usage this cry achieves a significicance which may not be quite justifiable from the grammatical or the etymological point of view, but nevertheless we cannot abstract from that the association of ideas connected with that. All such shouts denote a general sense which is partly acquired and partly inherent in them. For instance, when we shout “Long Live Jatin Das”, we cannot and do not mean thereby that Das should Physically be alive. What we mean by that shout is that the noble ideal of his life, the indomitable spirit which enabled that great martyr to bear such untold suffering and to make the extreme sacrifice for that we may show the same unfailing courage in persuance of our ideal. It is that spirit that we allude to.

Simiarly, one should not interpret the word “Revolution” in its literal sense. Various meanings and significances are attributed to this word, according to the interests of those who use or misuse it. For the established agencies of exploitation it conjures up a feeling of blood stained horror. To the revolutionaries it is a sacred phrase. We tried to clear in our statement before the Session Judge, Delhi, in our trial in the Assembly Bomb Case, what we mean by the word “Revolution”

We stated therein that Revolution did not necessarily involve sanguinary strife. It was not a cult of bomb and pistol. They may sometimes be mere means for its achievement. No doubt they play a prominent part in some movements, but they do not — for that very reason -become one and the same thing. A rebellion is not a revolution. It may ultimately lead to that end.

The sense in which the word Revolution is used in that phrase, is the spirit, the longing for a change for the better. The people generally get accustomed to the established order of things and begin to tremble at the very idea of a change. It is this lethargical spirit that needs be replaced by the revolutionary spirit. Otherwise degeneration gains the upper hand and the whole humanity is led stray by the reactionary forces. Such a state of affiars leads to stagnation and paralysis in human progress. The spirit of Revolution should always permeate the soul of humanity, so that the reactionary forces may not accumulate (strength) to check its eternal onward march. Old order should change, always and ever, yielding place to new, so that one “good” order may not corrupt the world. It is in this sense that we raise the shout “Long Live Revolution”

Yours sincerely

(Sd/-.)

Bhagat Singh

B. K. Dutt

[talonabraxas]

The life and crucifixion of Jesus Christ was physical representation of the crucifixion in the brain, this is a physiological and biological description of the teachings of The Bible.

"Jesus isn’t coming back a second time. The Christ is, and already has. What’s the difference? Jesus was the actual man (aka son of man) that lived 2000 years ago. Christ was the Consciousness (aka Son of God) that was expressing itself through Jesus telling people that “no one comes to the Father but through me” and “He who sees the Son sees the Father” when the masses thought he was referring to his body.

Now, how is the Christ coming back a second time or has already? The Christ is that aspect of the soul that some refer to as their Higher Self. It’s the part of you that’s a part of God (aka man is made in the image of God). God isn’t a man because He isn’t bound by any form. Yet it’s because He isn’t bound by form that gives Him the ability to assume ALL forms in creation. The Oneness that is God is expressing Himself through countless subjective experiences through each of His creation.

Since all of us have the Christ Consciousness laying dormant within all of us, in whom has it come back a second time, and how does all of humanity awaken it so it can express itself fully in all of mankind, rather than in just one person here and there?

Where/what is Christ in our body?

Jesus Christ was crucified at a place named “Calvary” which in the original Biblical language meant “skull”. In the human body there is a nerve known as “the tree of life”, it protrudes from the skull. It is this nerve, the Vagus Nerve, that “crucifies” meaning “Refines” or “Transforms the “Sacred Secretion” or “Christ Oil” into our Pineal gland, causing us to see God, face to face and receive the true anointing of the “Holy Spirit”.

Genesis 32:30

“Jacob named the place peneal(pineal)” because, he said “ I saw God face to face and lived to tell the story!”

This is a biological and physiological description of the journey made by Christ, the Christ Oil or Sacred Secretion throughout the body, and some practical instructions on how to honor it, raise it and exemplify it in order to be fully enlightened, just as God intended.

Christ was the living embodiment of Gods perfection, and Biblically, we are told that Christs Holy Spirit dwells Inside all of us, But what you may not know is how astoundingly literal Christ is inside our physical body. Colossians 1

26:29

“ This mystery had been kept in the dark for a long time, but now it is out in the open. God wanted everyone to know this rich and glorious secret inside and out, regardless of their background, regardless of their religious standing. The mystery in a nutshell is just this: Christ is in you, so therefore you can look forward to sharing in Gods glory. Its that simple. That is the substance of our message. We preach Christ, warning people not to add to the message. We teach in a spirit of profound common sense, so that we can bring each person to maturity. To be mature is to be basic, Christ! No more, no less, thats what I’m working so hard at, day after day, year after year, doing my best with the energy God so generously gives me.”

The bible is clearly telling us of Gods glory and energy living in our body.

Lets apply Gods word to the science of our body.

1: The Claustrum

Inside the brain there is a thin, irregular sheet of neurons, that attach to the underside of the Neocortex in the center of the brain, known as the Claustrum.The Claustrum is the seat of all consciousness in the body. It is the physical bodies supply of “Life Energy” from God or Spirit. This “Life Energy” is referred to as many different things, “Esse” (Latin), “To Be” (English), “Luminiferous Aether”, “Source”, “Prana” etc. It is thought to be where the name “Santa Claus” originates from, because it brings life to the entire body.

2: The Secretion

Also known as Christ oil , Chrism, sacred Secretion.

As the orchestra of the brain, Cerebrum. The Claustrum signals the secretion of oil (Cerebral Spinal Fluid) into the Spine (Central Nervous System).

The New Testament tells us in John about this internal Christ oil or Sacred Secretion.

1 John

2:27

“As for you, the anointing (oil) which you received from him abides in you, and you have no need for anyone to teach you: but as his anointing teaches you about all things.”

3: Colossians

Colossians 1:26-29

“Know this glorious secret (from the word secrete) Inside and out.”

Colossians

1:27

“He is before all things, and in him all things hold together.”

This is interestingly referring to the cell adhesion molecule known as “Laminin” which, if you look at the pictures it is literally the shape of a cross. The Bible is telling us to understand God inside and outside. This means understanding the physiology of the body and the holy oil or secretion.

4: Christ

The word Christ/kristos in ancient Greek means “anointed” or “smeared with oil”, and this “Christ oil” or “Sacred Secretion” is Inside us, Teaching us everything from the inside out”. We must fully honor God in all our ways, as the Bible teaches. Then will we receive Gods blessings like we have never known before.

1 John

2-27

“As for you, the anointing (oil) which you received from him abides in you, and you have no need for anyone to teach you: but as his anointing teaches you about all things, and is not a lie, and just as it has taught you, you abide in him.”

5: The Milk and the Honey

The biblical milk and honey are produced by the Pineal gland and the Pituitary gland.

Numbers 14:8

“If the lord is pleased with us, then he will bring us into this land, and give it to us a land which flows with Milk and Honey.”

I believe it is important to Note: the “if” in, “If the lord is pleased with us”, that means: We have to please the Lord by following Christs teachings, also meaning we need to preserve the Christ oil or Sacred Secretion if we want to truly know God and reap the benefits.

6: About the Pineal gland

Biblically the Pineal gland is referred to as the place where Jacob met God.

Genesis 32:30

“Jacob named the place Peniel (Pineal) because he said, “I saw God face to face and lived to tell the story!”

Mathew 6:22

“The light of the body is the eye: therefore if thine eye be single (Pineal), thy whole body shall be full of light.”

The Pineal gland produces NN-Dimethyltryptamine(DMT) and golden Melatonin honey. It has more blood flow per cubic volume than any other organ. It is located in the center of the brain, behind and above the Pituitary gland. It is surrounded or bathed in Cerebrospinal fluid (CSF). It is know for its male energy, Joseph. It i referred to as the “Yang” (of Yin and Yang). It is known as the Solar not lunar. It is the dominant source of the body’s “Melatonin”.

7: About Melatonin and DMT

It has a significant effect on mood, It effects the immune system, it effects Carcadian rhythms, quality and quantity of desired sleep, it is anti-aging and stress reducing because it suppresses Cortisol (the disease feeding stress hormone). It is a powerful antioxidant. DMT is a powerful psychedelic chemical which can produce vivid "projections" of mystical experiences involving euphoria and dynamic visual and auditory hallucinations. It is secreted by the body during high levels of excitement and Near-Death Experiences. It is also known as “The Spirit Molecule,” because people report feelings of separation from the body into spirit and loss of their ego. In the Bible these Secretions are called the living water.

John

7:38

“Streams of living water will flow within him.”

8: About the Pituitary gland

It Produces Oxytocin and Vasopressin which are white, Milk. It activates the Hypothalamus, which is know to aid the health and activation of the Pineal Gland. It is located Above the Sphenoid Sinus where CSF is secreted during high levels of excitement, and this sensation is linked to many spiritual experiences. It is known for its female energy, Mary. It is referred to as the “Yin” of Yin and Yang and it is known as the Lunar not Solar.

9: About Oxytocin and Vasopressin

They heighten feelings of trust, peace and empathy, Godlike feelings. They reduce feelings of fear, anxiety and aggression.

Proverbs

19:11

“The insight of a man certainly slows down his anger, and it is beauty on his part to overlook an offense.”

10: The Solar Plexus

The Christ oil or Sacred Secretion travels towards the Sacrum via the Solar Plexus. The Solar Plexus is where the Christ seed is born. This is known biblically as Bethlehem (house of breads). The Christ oil or Sacred Secretion enters the Solar Plexus, where it combines with the Holy Spirit (Esse, Source Energy, Luminiferous Aether or Prana etc), and that is how the seed is produced or born.

11: Getting the Christ Oil (seed) to the sacral pump without diminishing it.

It is important to know the Christ oil (seed) can be compromised, damaged and dissipated, if we do not preserve it and this is not what we want. In order to raise the Christ oil (seed), “Know God and see his face at Peniel (Pineal)”. We must “Love the Lord our God with all our hearts, souls and minds.” To paraphrase Mathew 22:37 this means living for God and following his laws.

12: Preserving the oil- Gods Laws (The basics)

1- Be healthy and not gluttonous.

1 corinthians

6:20

“For ye are bought with a price, therefore glorify God in your body, and in your Spirit, which are Gods.”

2- Dont be lustful.

Psalm

101:3

“Ill not look with approval on anything that is vile. I hate what faithless people do, i will have no part in it.”

3- Do not be greedy.

Proverbs

15:27

“A greedy and grasping person destroys community; those who refuse to exploit live and let live.”

4- Don’t be lazy.

Ecclesiastes

10:18

“Through sloth the roof sinks in, and through indolence the house leaks.”

5- Don’t be quick to anger.

Proverbs

15:18

“Hot tempers start fights: A cool, calm spirit keeps the peace.”

6- Don’t be jealous or selfish.

James

3:16

“For where envy and self seeking exist, confusion and every evil thing are there.”

7- Stop being prideful and boasting.

2 Chronicles

26:16

“His pride led to his downfall.”

13-14: About the Sacrum.

The Sacrum is a triangular bone in the lower back formed from fused vertebrae, and situated between the two hip bones of the pelvis. The english word “Sacrum” was introduced as a technical term in anatomy in the mid 18th century, As a shortening of the late Latin name Os Sacrum “sacred bone.” It is where surgeons perform a Lumbar puncture to extract samples of CSF. It is the location of the Sacral pump. The Sacral pump is a regular rhythmic motion between the Occipit in the throat and the Sacrum. It circulates CSF back up the Spinal Cord, through the Central Nervous System and into the brain. The Sacral pump is a key of the circulatory system, and its proper functioning is important for good physical, mental and emotional well-being.

15: 33 Vertebrae

From the Sacrum the Christ oil or Sacred Secretion/Aether, CSF and hormones starts its journey back up the Spinal Cord through the 33 Vertebrae. Lets look at the significance of the 33 Vertebrae in the Spinal Cord: Jesus Christ lived for 33 years. Jesus was crucified at 33 years of age. The divine name Elohim appears 33 times, in the book of Genesis. There are 33 Gods in the Vedic religion. 33 is a numerical representation of “The Star of David,” and also the numerical equivalent of AMEN:1+13+5+14+=33. An image of the virgin Mary from the 18th century, is know as “Virgin of the thirty-three” in Uruguay and it was consecrated by Pope John Paul 2 in the 1988. There are 33 degrees in freemasonry to achieve illumination And there are lots more.

16: Solar Plexus part 2

During the Christ oil or Sacred Secretions ascent up the Spinal Cord, the CSF goes back through the Solar Plexus. Solar Plexus is a complex network of nerves, located in the abdomen. It is emotionally linked with concerns over personal power, anger and distrust. It assist with the generation of metabolic energy and the Pancreas

Daniel

2:33

“The head of that statue was made of fine gold, its breasts, and its arms of silver, and its belly and its thighs of bronze.” NOTE: The Christ oil is in the bronze or least value when it is in the belly/solar plexus, therefore it must be raised, to become gold, the highest value.

17: Next,

the Christ oil or Sacred Secretion ascends to he vicinity of the Heart, Sternum or Cardiac Plexus.

Proverbs

4:23

“Above all else guard your Heart, for everything you do flows from it.”

Excessive production of the stress hormones Cortisol and Epinephrine can cause brain damage, and problems in all other parts of the body, therefore it is scientifically paramount for mental and physical health, to be peaceful, calm and forgiving. Just as the Bible suggests. NOTE:the “Everything you do” counts towards following, knowing and loving Christ, which will preserve the Christ oil. The Cardiac Plexus is a plexus of nerves situated at the base of the Heart that

Innervates the Heart. The Cardiac Plexus is divided into a superficial part, which lies in the concavity of the Aortic Arch, and a deep part between the Aortic Arch and the Trachea. It is emotionally linked with love. It assists the Thymus Gland, the Thymus serves a vital role in the, training and development of T-Lymphocytes/T-Cells, an extremely important type of White Blood cell.

18: Raising the Christ Oil further.

The Christ oil then rises to the throat or more specifically the Vagus Nerve, also know as the Pneumo Vagus and the Pneumogastric Nerve. Here the Christ oil is crucified and put to death, but if we resist our low desires of carnal urges for 2.5 days (the same amount of time that Jesus was in the tomb, and the amount of time the moon stays in each sun sign) then the oil will be refined, transmuted and resurrected on the third day! This is when enlightenment, illumination and increase will engulf your Being, like nothing you have ever experienced before. You will have vision, power and insight, like you never knew possible. “There is something on the other side, of obedience that makes you say, why did i ever resist?”

19: About the Vagus Nerve

The Vagus Nerve is a Network of nerves, known as “The Tree of Life.” It descends from the Pineal and Pituitary glands. It is the 10th Cranial Nerve (CNX). It is the longest nerve of the Autonomic Involuntary Nervous System, in the human body.

Romans

12:2

“And be not conformed to this world, but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.”

NOTE: Fight every man made temptation that exists, while the Christ oil is being refined in the Vagus Nerve.

20: About the 2.5 days

It is the amount of time that Jesus was in the tomb, before being resurrected or increased in power. Jesus’s Holy Ghost went from being in one persons body, To being in every persons body. It is the amount of time the moon stays in each sun sign. The first day the Christ oil secretes, and this happens 12 times per year. The Optic Thalamus is 2.5 centimeters across.

Colossians

2:5

“For those I’m absent in the flesh, yet am i with you in the Spirit, joying and beholding your order, and the steadfastness of your faith in Christ.”

21: The Resurrection

After 2.5 days the oil ascends to the “Pons”

The Pons is besides the Medulla Oblongata. The Pons is a major structure in the upper part of your Brainstem. It is involved in the control of breathing, communication between different parts of the brain, and sensations such as hearing, taste and balance. “Pons” means bridge in Latin. The Pons or bridge raises the preserved, refined and transmuted oil into the Optic Thalamus. Where new blood is produced, and dormant brain cells are reactivated and awakened in what is called “illumination.”

22: The significance of 7 in the Optic Thalamus

There are 7 stars in the Optic Thalamus, dimmed by the 7 deadly sins

Amos

5:8

“Seek him that maketh the 7 stars and Orion, and turn the shadow of death into morning, and maketh the day dark with night: that calleth for the waters of the sea, and pour them out upon the face of the earth: (The Lord Light) is his name.”

People say that Astrology is an evil from the devil. How can this be true when the Bible literally tells us to follow the stars.

Genesis

1:14

“And let the stars be for signs.”

ELOHIM(God) is another word for 7

Mathew

6:5-13

“As above, So below.”

There are seven refractors of light. There are seven original senses in the ancient text: seeing, hearing, taste, feeling, smelling, intuition and telepathy. The Solar Plexus is the organ of intuition (Gut Feeling), Brain or Thalamus is the organ of Telepathy.

Mathew

18:22

“Seventy times seven” means unlimited forgiveness.

23: Enlightenment or the Baptizing of the Holy Spirit

The Greeks called the Thalamus the “Light of the World.” The word “Lord” also means light of the world. The Thalamus has two hemispheres just like the earth.

Mathew

6:5-13

“As above so below.”

The Thalamus is the Arc of the Covenant. Just see Google images.

When the Christ oil reaches the Optic Thalamus you will have vision, you will know what your purpose is, you will know what matters, you will feel incredible, Gods Christ Oil will give you enthusiasm, motivation, direction, focus, power, intuition, decisiveness, imagination, knowledge, understanding, peace, healing, acceptance and Love. The benefits are Divine beyond measure.

I encourage you all in raising your own Christ oil, and to reject low carnal urges so that you too can receive Gods true anointing and blessings. A world of awakened Christs is what this Planet needs for Salvation. The Anti-Christs regime will no longer be able to hold back the truth, as we collectively ascend to a higher state of consciousness. The chains of the past and false paradigm of the physical world will be lifted so that everyone can see the true nature of consciousness.