#SORRY FOR RAMBLING but godddddd connor and leon being It for eachother but also having so much at stake

[19871997]

also in 12 when tess becomes like part of the heist for stromer... if we took it in a direction of like this is working for mcstrome this time, like really truly working, leon can be Behaving abnormally about it and then connor can do the same thing in reverse when mattdrai starts to really properly work, and they (mcdrai) can be very hypocritical and weird to each other about it with the funny add on of you are both being gay on the daily so what is the issue with you two banging it out. you're not even closeted

gdhfjgklglgja connor being. extremely abnormal about leon and matthew to the point where bedard is like. hey man. is everythibg alright between you two you looked like you were about to bite his head off when he talked about proposing? and connors all. no. im fine. i dont even care (he cares a lot. actually. doesnt really know why) and nuge pulls him aside and is all. hey buddy, do you want to put a name to these special feelings youre having about leon? connor: my special feeling is that hes always talking about matthew. matthew this matthew that 🙄 nuge: so.. would you say youre jealous of matthew…? connor: NO. whatever. he’s distracting leon from the job. this is why relationships are bad for leon :( and alternatively, leon, at anyone who will listen when things are working between dylan and connor: he already broke his heart once! why is he trying with him again he’s only going to get hurt when he realises dylan cant give him what he wants and needs. i could take better care of him. nuge: so.. you’d want to be with him? leon: when did i say that.

also like. this connor and leon have the messiest personal relationship ever like yes they have all this trust and faith and boundless respect and together the lourve should start thinking about improving it’s security and yes they love each other (as friends) and yes theyve had sex (somewhat often) (also as friends) and yeah. sure whatever every time connor was with dylan leon felt like his insides were made of sand and every time leon was with matthew connor felt the desperate need to explode something but thats probably normal (it’s really not, man, you might wanna get that checked out, mitch tells leon one day. you’re insides are what? you have got to become more normal, auston tells connor) BUT theyve never really put to words or sat down to have a think about like. why it makes connor want to throw up at the concept of leon marrying matthew/not being by his side forever or why leon couldn’t bring himself to be sad about connor’s divorce (or, really, why connor went into his marriage knowing that leon will still be there, no matter what happens with dylan, ans why leon stood next to connor as his best man finding comfort in the fact that they were not going to last because noone gets connor the way leon does and he knows this to be true because connor fucking told him at his fucking bachelor party) and like half the reason they havent talked about it is because if they go sideways then their whole livelihood goes sideways especially at this point where all their friends/accomplices are melded together and they dont want to add that into the mix and the other half is that theyve come this far being selfish and putting themselves first that now there’s someone else they care about just as much as themselves they dont really know what to do about it all. (also like connor had thought that the most he could care about someone else was dylan. leon thought the most he could care about someone else was matthew. dylan and matthew always knew they came second to leon and connor)

ALSO funny concept of like every any time connor and leon are at risk of having a fight they just have fuck about it -> make a decision post orgasm (has led to interesting results but at least the come about the result quickly ..!) so when they’re honestly really trying with dylan and matthew. well. they have to actually talk out their problems. which theyre not going to do. obviously. which well. less to issues and problems