#SOME!! TIMES!! I THINK OF DOING TERRIBLE THINFS!!!!

[unknownarmageddon]

gh….

waow!!!

[bittasol]

The thinf you said about the mafia au and dynamics being unlocked is so true, another thing that I really liked about this chapter is the Opera/Ameri rivalry dynamic they have going and I find it really fun!! It's so different from what we're used to seeing from them (actually I don't remember if they've actually interacted that much in the original) (but them being rivals and fighting each other is so fun!!!! I love it)

YEAH even down to its bones the way characters are being presented is very different from the main series! Azz azz’s loyalty to Iruma taking multiple chapters, the age and manner in which Iruma meets Sullivan, Opera and Irumas dynamic being more sibling/partnerish than canon etc BUT it all feels true to the characters i think! Iruma still loves his family and is willing to do anything (even the impossible) to help them, love trio is still together with secrets between them, Kalego and Opera still have their beef)

THE OPERA AND AMERI DYNAMIC is sooo tasty omg…both are so protective (and a tad possessive) of Iruma! Plus they’ve both grown with him and protected him in the different eras of his childhood! It’ll be fun to see them squabble in the future. I’ve always compared their designs as two red/orangey demons with fuzzy ears, both strong and both people who are close to Iruma, so its extra fun to see them as rivals.

Mm yeah they’re sorta an underrated dynamic! Iruma kun has soo many characters to juggle, its easy to forget who and when characters meet. Thank you for the excuse to gather up their major interactions^^

Chapter 70: Walter Park

She’s in Opera’s group during the Walter park arc! They have fun playing dress up along with the misfit girls.

Chapter 81: Invincible Maiden

Ameri fights a mouse beast during the terrorist attack; Opera observes and compliments her bloodline ability.

When Ameri is discouraged, Opera encourages her, assures her shes quite strong with room to grow and even invites her to be a sort of assistant under them within the Sullivan household. I think this is an extremely high compliment! Opera’s a demon who’s been shown to be very protective of both Sullivan and Iruma, and who finds value and purpose in being able to serve them, so wanting Ameri to work with them shows a lot of respect and admiration toward her ability and person

(She turns down this request but then realizes this would mean she’d be around Iruma so she backtracks its very cute)

Chapter 143: Heartful Cooking Lesson

Opera teaches Iruma and Ameri how to cook after noticing they’re both terrible at it.

Chapter 167: The Sound of Anticipation

This one is small but I think its funny how they both set up to record the Misfits’s performance cuz they both love and support Iruma 110%! And Opera shuffling Ameri’s equipment over implies she’s got the best angle in the house, you could read this as a power move from them jeje.

Chapter 277: Opera-Sensei

When Opera becomes a teacher, they go around the school and greet everyone including Ameri. Ameri’s super excited, and because she values Opera’s strength, asks them to train the student council given they have time for it. I think this is such a sweet example of Ameri’s character; She’s strong, ambitious enough to ask for extra (hard) training, thoughtful enough to value their time and ask in a way thats not demanding. I think it also speaks of her respect toward Opera, who could theoretically be a poor teacher considering they’re new, that she trusts in them so much!

I’m sure theres more tiny bits of them but it’s been a while since I’ve properly read or watched iruma kun.

My thought process is a little scattered but I did wanna mention that I think these two would meet and be good buddies even without Iruma kun’s presence in their lives! Sullivan being the head of Babyls, and Ameri being a top student as well as a child of a 13 crown, I dunno I feel like they would have ended up training together at some point anyway. Probably not with Opera as an offical Babyls teacher, considering they only become one to keep an eye on Iruma, but in some universe where Iruma isnt in the picture and Ameri reaches for the Demon King’s seat yk? a private lesson or two!

Cannot say the same for Mafia AU tho… Iruma’s the reason those two are doing what they’re doing, and I think it’ll be up to him to get them to get along lol.

[adepressedartist]

I am really scared.

I have this horrible bad energy floating around me. It's looming in my shadow, creeping up to me everytime i look.

E wanted to do a cleansing with me today, but C had to leave in order to catch her train. Would've loved doing the cleansing. Maybe that would've helped.

It's not P that's creeping around. Someone, or something that makes me feel much more fear. I feel like I'm a toddler, that's supposed to start fighting a grown bodybuilder. I am scared. The presence makes me feel confused.

Also i started crying on the toilet, because of my cancer. I noticed that i have more and more trouble speaking. Not out of social anxiety; I've almost completely battled that. But because I physically can't. It started shortly before my cancer diagnosis in 2021. And it's progressively getting worse. I mean, i noticed effects from my tumor long time ago already. Horrible migraines, my eye sight beeing heavily affected, and much more. But if it's affecting my ability to speak, it's terrible. Because I could end up mute. Or stupid. And I don't mean the funny kind. I literally forget words, sentences, meanings of words, etc. I am aware of depression heavily affecting the brain as well. But being fully aware that this most definitely comes from cancer makes me scared. I'm on a waiting list for my treatment, and i still have to wait 9,5 years. What if I'm dead till then? What if I'm mentally so disabled till then, that it's not worth it anymore? I'm scared that if i go mute from it, or like i said get heavily mentally disabled in a way I can't understand thinfs anymore, that people keep me living. That they try their best to do things with me, to cheer me up. Thinking i enjoy them. I will not. I would be grateful for the act if I'm still mentally capable of that emotion or thought till then, but i wouldn't enjoy it. I would never wanna live that way. I am scared. Very scared. I want help. But I can't get any help. And comfort does not help me because i never knew comfort and don't know how to handle it. I am so, so scared. What if all happens too quick now? What if it happens so quick, that I don't have the chance to end it in a prideful manner? I don't want to be left a 24/7 care case, that's not able to use the bathroom or eat anymore. I want to remain some pride at least. Accepting the fact I'm going to be in a wheelchair is already hard enough. It is horrible to sit in there, and be dependent on other helping you, have others stare at you, and the other shit. It's not fun or relaxing. I'm scared. And I'm scared that I will be alone when I die. Because i can't do this to my loved ones.

Idk.