#SO atleast I can scream abt it online

[everyday-is-brighter-with-you]

WHY AM I SO USEELESS /vent

[trickstarbrave]

i had a horribly time earlier today. i overslept and when i got up and went to the  bathroom the toilet immediately clogged bc its doing that all the time lately and i tired to go get the plunger from the other bathroom but SOMEONE IS SHOWERING WITH THE DOOR LOCKED and im sitting there with towels screaming and sobbing my eyes out

fucking piss water is flooding the carpet to my room and my door is wide open and im panicking and crying and banging on the other bathroom and just fucking losing my mind and im texting my boyfriend crying and its 20 fucking minutes before my family decides “UGH I GUESS WE’LL STOP FUCKING IGNORING BRAVE BECAUSE HE WONT STOP FUCKING SCREAMING HI HEAD OFF” and they then see the toliet is flooding and scream at me for ‘not telling them’ and my mom slapped me across the face

so i ran outside the house and i hid behind the wall. i sat there for 20 minutes trying not to cry my fucking eyes out anymore and bring attention to myself. i finally stop crying, walk around to the front yard, pull the screen off the window and climb back inside. they set up a fan and got the flooding to stop and i grab my phone and get in my usual hiding place in my room and i realize i forgot to say i was okay now. i check to make sure my boyfriend isnt assuming my mom is beating the shit out of me (which she has done before.... lmao) and there is no response. i feel stupid bc clearly its not worth worrying over and maybe he didnt see it

like no one replied to my tweets abt it. a whole ton of ppl are online. my BOYFRIEND was online and he didnt even acknowledge it 

and im so upset and i went to my vent acct and was on there and on and off on my main and im thinking “its nothing to be worried abt maybe twitter is being an ass” and i made 1 funny tweet and a dozen ppl replied to it

like okay when im fucking breaking down sobbing and feeling fucking miserable and just want some reassurance fucking nothing no one in their god damn minds glued to their fucking phone or computer couldl see any of my fucking tweets and be like “hey is everything okay now???” no fucking nothing everyone is just going ot ignore it for hours on end but laugh at ONE fucking remotely comical tweet abt something else i rted 

im so fucking worthless not a god damn person can pretend to give a fuck about me but im expected to always drop everything and comfort someone any time they have an issue jgehgebagehr its always fucking been like this too even since i was a fucking CHILD why is it like this?!/!?!?!?!?!

im deactivating my fucking twitter atleast for a fucking bti though i doubt anyone will fucking miss me on there since NO ONE can ‘see’ my tweets ive been going off on for HOURS when i actually fucking need it theyre just gonna sit there talking to their other friends and then guilt trip me when i dont drop everything to make THEM feel better