#SO DONT BE SHOCKED IF THERES A STYLE SWITCH UP IN MY ART!!!!!

[violettressedd]

omg did not realize how long that ask was (and how long this one turned out to be- so sorry 😭) til u answered my bad i yap a lot lmao

oh really? u *dare* me? ive got a very competitive spirit, sweetheart, and i love to win. i also play dirty, so fair warning that i WILL find ur weak points and exploit them <3

and remember darling, u wont ever be getting what u want until u ask nicely. (let me know if pet names are okay?)

yesss its just. the HUMANITY and the eternal knowledge that whatever i know or feel or am, someone else knew and felt and was before. 'we are the universe endlessly reflecting itself'. everyone whos been in love knows what its like. that feeling when u smile at a baby or when ur in a big group of people all singing the same song and its so powerful it lifts u right up out of ur body. its all just so fucking beautiful.

i love lots of different periods/themes/parts of history but im especially interested in things like mythology and religion, folk tales and nursery rhymes and lullabies. the stories we tell ourselves and others are so so important to learn how we see ourselves and the world in general and humanity and good and evil and all sorts of things its so so fucking COOL! i could talk for hours on all this sorry for this freaking long ask lmao

oooh i loveeee philosophy!! we have a college philosophy textbook in out home library that i read for fun when i was like 14. speaking of im 19 and pronouns are she/her. my bad i forgot lol

i also wanted to be a therapist or a counselor for a long time but its not in the cards rn. maybe someday. i love listening to people and giving advice and helping them tho its always been smth ive been good at

in everything im interested in i think theres this common theme of 'people' or 'humanity'. i just love people, learning how they work and how our minds work and how we grow and change and have relationships and its all just so fascinating

ooh tell me more about what ur learning!

thank u!! i dont want like a sleeve or anything super big and bold. i want small simple delicate line art. lots of little things in different places. ooh wdymmm more sci-fi style? im intrigued

thats SO fricking sick smart women are incredible and admirable (and also hot) tell me more about ur planned research! whats psilocybin therapy? also i did a research paper in school about the effects of music on the brain and body and it was SO fascinating like when u play music to alzhiemers patients it helped them remember, and the effects of music on ur actual physical body was shocking as well like it was just so cool. i would def recommend looking it up if ur at all interested its absolutely fascinating!

ill be getting my degree in childcare and early education, like for preschools and such. i work at a preschool rn and if i work here 20hrs a week (which i do, and ill be working more during the summer when my 2nd and 3rd jobs end) i get my classes for FREE which is super incredible. im currently planning on working my way up to a lead teacher position but rn im just an aide. its super fun tho i love all my babies so so much

what time is it for u when u answer this? rn its 11:42 pm so i need to sleep soon lol ive got work and i still have to prep for it tomorrow

goodnight!

<3 🍒

really it's no problem, all i do is yap so i get it. and i love rambling on about random stuff it's fun as fuck

competitive, huh?? did i rile you up enough to make you want to take me down? good luck with that, you might play a bit dirty but you're going to have to fight for it. pin me to the floor, rough me up, make me shake. show me you deserve it, then maybe i'll say your name.

(i love petnames!! i added a list of some i'm not into in the intro post but any others i'll welcome)

(also love the switch from hornyposting to anthropology, the duality of humanity hahsh)

you get it!! understanding that the world around us is full of continuous and integrated cycles is so interesting. the love i've felt has been experienced by countless others in the past and will continue to be long after i die. we forget we're all just a part of nature, life that's intrinsically tied to itself and interconnected. and like you said about each of us knowing our common experiences, yess bc there's no feeling that hasn't already been expressed. you can find solace in the fact that thousands if not millions before you do understand and have lived through the exact same experiences.

BIG ON MYTHOLOGY AND RELIGION OMG, two of my biggest interests especially as a younger teenager. understanding the nature of existence through stories that have built upon themselves for decades. they're all metaphors for the natural world and that's insanely poetic. particularly with religion, it's so interesting reading about how it's expanded and formed over time according to culture. and the amount of ethical frameworks that stem from or are influenced almost exclusively by religious beliefs is so vast.

and yess psychology and therapy is such an interesting field, just going deeper and deeper into the mind and why it behaves or reacts is ughh beautiful. and how it shifts and adapts through different ages is crazy, the difference between the neuroplasticity in an adolescent and a senior is astounding

what i'm studying right now is more looking at the differences in their cultural views on sexuality, marriage, kinship groups, also their intersection with local politics <33

yes yes yes i love the soft, gentle tattoos i think they look so pretty. especially with flowers, it's just elegant idk how to describe it. and sci-fi meaning something stereotypically futuristic in design or maybe cyberpunkish if that makes any sense??

thank you!!! psilocybin therapy is used to treat patients that have undergone significant trauma (veterans, child abuse survivors, etc) and help them by giving them a microdosed psychedelic to induce introspection and maybe even a bit of ego dissolution to unpack their trauma. YES WAIT i was going to do a meta analysis on musics interaction with alzheimer's or stroke victims and it's so cool how differently the brain responds to something like music in comparison to other stored information

that's so so awesome and sounds like one of the best jobs known to this earth omg. preschool kids are so precious and early education is super fun because you can integrate so much psychology into it (also free classes hell yeah)

i'm answering this way to late at night for me so i'll end it here haha, i might have written a little too much

anyways gn 🍒!!

[inosukeslefttoe]

so,,, yesterday i read this manhwa called “the horizon” (i forget the author but ill put them in the tags) and good god... it was so heartbreakingly beautiful and im gonna make a few posts about it B) ((i say a few bc theres a few things i wanna talk about but i dont wanna make it all unorganized ?? if that makes sense))

first theres just the amazing artwork done in this piece... the range is just fucking incredible and every single panel had so much work and heart put into it and i had to sit there just to really admire the art of each page for a long time (usually im an impatient little bitch and skim artwork in manga/manhwa but damn this one was something else). but like !! look at how many different styles and shit the artist did depending on the circumstances !! 

oh if i didnt mention,, this manhwa is like an apocalyptic world where this little boy meets a little girl and they just sort of roam the world together right... but they come across so many terrible things and theres this back and forth between hope and despair and everytime you start to be like “hey maybe things will be good for them, or at least as good as they can be” the tiniest thing happens that just shatters all that hope to the ground and suddenly everything is lost again. it really reminds me of this book i read for english called the road by uh.. something mccarthy i think... and it was about a boy and his dad trying to survive and walk down a road together in a post apocalyptic world and it was also sad as shit. BUT IM GETTING OFF TOPIC. BACK TO THE ARTWORK.

so thE RANGE OF STYLES YES THATS WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT. as i already said, its just this whole rollercoaster of emotions but it really forces you to sit there and fucking f e e l your emotions yknow? it makes it impossible to just sit there and be like “lol damn thats sad” ,, the art and the layout are so shocking and stunning that you h a v e to sit there and admire them and think about the events and really just feel every ounce of emotion and loss that the characters are going through and that the artist put into this piece. it did this thing where it would sometimes stretch on for a few pages of just the same frame with tiny differences just taking up the whole page without any words/little words to let the magnitude of the situation sink in and envelope you. its so powerful with its message especially with the themes of hope and loss and it just... usually i keep pop culture/anime/manhwa feels separate from my irl feels but... dude this one was so fuckin amazing that i genuinely had to take a break a few times bc the feels were getting all mixed up and i genuinely felt that sorrow that the characters were feeling. i seriously wanna read this again actually so i focus more on the amazing art since i know the story already.

i just love how much it switches up from all the different looks too. sometimes it would have that classic anime/manhwa feel to it especially when there were lots of characters (i didnt include a sc for that oops) but a lot of the time it would focus on the beauty/emptiness of the landscape around the characters since there wasnt really much left in the world. there were a lot of gruesome scenes drawn in that sort of chalky/charcoaly look that involved death and i am just obsessed with how they made it look so organic and like it was actually, yknow decomposing. they also used a really messy scribbly style when super chaotically terrible things where happening, both externally and internally which was such a perfect reflection of those bundled up negative and hopeless emotions that were present throughout the story. it sort of made it seem like those things were simply too horrible to be drawn fully and even the artist couldnt subject the reader to such a terrible sight. also ... the use of color... usually they would use color to represent the presence of hope and damn dude it really worked... especially after seeing some of these same images consecutively and that dramatic change really makes the reader feel so much brighter and happier when hope is back in the story !! although that one other colored scene... where the boy is in the ocean... god that hurts my heart so badly... i think the color was used in that case to show the reality of his situation and that it was really r e a l yknow ??? it wasnt just a comic written to make ppl sad and thinking about death,, this is that kids whole LIFE and he had to accept the (bad thing that happened but im not gonna write it bc i dont wanna spoil) was something that happened and now he really had no reason to keep on living... and all these feelings are so wonderfully portrayed and definitely did a very good job of making me, the reader, Very Sad. 

HAHA I DIDNT WANT THIS TO BE TOO LONG BUT I RAMBLED LMAO... ill prolly make one or two more posts about this but they wont nearly be as long dont worry

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