#SINCE IT'S BEEN SMOOTH SAILING I WOULD LEAVE IF ONLY I COULD FIND A REASON IM MEAN BECAUSE I GREW UP IN NEW ENGLAND!!!

[zukkaoru]

forgot how hard noah kahan went with homesick. this song should be illegal

[mejaemin]

cheer up - hong seunghan

day eight of my valentine’s day countdown! ♡

wc: 0.6k

summary: you’re having an increasingly bad day, and just about anything might set you off. the one person you were hoping wouldn’t approach you, too smiley for your own good, ends up being the one to turn it around <3

warnings: college au, shy seunghan, grumpy!reader x sunshine!seunghan, the rest of riize is mentioned, not much else !!!

an: riize debut !!! we all cheered !!! this is also my first time really doing a romance trope, so i hope you all enjoy !!! btw lmk if i should do a pt.2 of this after the event ends 👀

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if there was a nicer way to word how you were feeling you would use it, but it’s nearly impossible to find one, so you could only describe it as flaming hot shit.

your morning started off bad with the outfit you laid out the night before being peed on by your cat, and it was made out of all new clothes you were excited to wear. after that, you ordered a coffee from a shop on the way to campus that ended up tasting way too watery. once you got there, everything was relatively smooth sailing until you remembered the pile of work you had to do, so instead of going home and relaxing in bed, you went to the library, where you’ve been since it was light out.

your headphones are on and you’re sure your expression perfectly matches how you feel. the tension in your eyebrows is strong enough for you to notice, but with the piled up assignments you couldn’t care less. maybe it will mean people will leave you alone. just how you like it.

unfortunately, the world just doesn’t like you, because you aren’t left alone for long when you see someone making their way towards your table. you look up, pulling the headphones off of your ears to see what they wanted.

it’s a boy you’ve seen around before, part of a fairly popular friend group you couldn’t care less about. at least you know his face? he takes a sharp inhale before speaking up, “hi.. i’m really sorry to bother you, but i was accidentally given an extra coffee, and you.. sorry, you look like you might need it?” his eyed widen and his cheeks turn red, “not that- god, sorry- not that you look bad or anything, because you really look great, but maybe it could cheer you up?” he holds the cup out to you, his face burning red as he turns it away to grimace at himself.

you take a quick glance behind him, seeing the table he came from where his friend group is snickering and taking photos. it may be a little dramatic but that makes the entire predicament that much more annoying, and with a heavy sigh (and a deeper crease in your forehead) you take the cup.

“thank you.” you speak bluntly, taking a sip while trying to ignore the way he’s still standing there. as soon as the chilled liquid hits your tongue, you can’t help the sigh of relief that escapes your lips. it’s the same flavor as what you wanted to have earlier, and you look up at him to give a gentle nod, much less aggressive than before.

he smiles, albeit hesitantly, before pivoting and speedwalking back to his table with his head in his hands. you try not to be nosy but as soon as he does, the two next to him are patting him on the shoulder and laughing hysterically. the boy in question, seunghan if you remember correctly, looks like he’s stressing, running a hand through his shiny hair and patting the clear, flushed skin of his cheeks. shaking your head you return to your work, because what the hell are you doing?! this guy’s too uppity and annoying for you to be staring at him, not that you were for any reason…

taking another sip of your new drink, you remove the sleeve to see if it came from the same café you buy from. on the inside, you see a bit of black, and upon further inspection, there’s a phone number paired with a stupidly cute cat doodle.

you tell yourself to throw it out on your way out of the library, but upon arriving home your phone has a new contact that you find yourself staying up late texting.

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[persephonememes]

* (  STICK SEASON FOREVER BY NOAH KAHAN /  SENTENCE PROMPTS.

These may have been edited for clarity or length or to better apply for roleplaying.

" how you been? "

" what does it mean? "

" i am stuck between my anger and the blame that i can't face "

" i miss the way you laugh "

" but you know how it gets out here "

" you got all my love "

" if you need me dear, i'm the same as i was "

" it's all okay, there ain't a drop of bad blood "

" i just hope that your scars heal "

" i was scared to death "

" i'll never let you go "

" i don't get much sleep most nights "

" i'm seeing you in every dream "

" i'll love you when the oceans dry "

" i'll love you when the rivers freeze "

" don't you know there's a coffin buried under the garden "

" i'm in the process of clearing out cobwebs "

" someday i'm gonna be somebody people want "

" it's been a long year "

" would we survive in a horror movie? "

" i wanna love you 'till we're food for the worms to eat "

" i know every route in this county "

" i'll tell you where not to speed "

" honey, come over "

" no one will tempt you, we know you got sober "

" it's yours if you want it "

" i've been ready for you to come home "

" i didn't think to ask you where you'd gone "

" why'd you go? "

" i haven't drank in six months on the dot "

" don't you find it strange that you just went ahead and carried on? "

" the last time i drank i was face down passed out there on your lawn "

" are we all just pulling you down? "

" remember telling me that you thought you were cursed? "

" love is fast asleep on a dirt road with your head on my shoulder "

" those things I miss but know are never coming back "

" if i was empty space and you were formless shape we'd fit "

" i'm still angry at my parents for what their parents did to them "

" i know there are worse ways to stay alive "

" why is pain so damn impatient? "

" the last that i heard you were down in new orleans "

" i worry for you. you worry for me. "

" it's fine if we know we won't change "

" i'm leaving this town "

" i know that you're fearing the end "

" i only tell truth when I'm sure that I'm lying "

" how have you been and are you bored yet? "

" time moves so damn slow "

" i stopped caring about a month ago since then it's been smooth sailing "

" i would leave if only i could find a reason "

" i got dreams but i can't make myself believe them "

" i don't want to say goodbye "

" i'm still here with you "

" for a minute the world seems so simple "

" who was i to watch you wilt? "

" i promise to be there this time "

" i'm naming the stars in the sky after you "

" i'm remembering i promised to forget you now "

" it's all the same, anyways "

" i ain't proud of all the punches that i've thrown "

" i gave your name as my emergency phone call "

" i'd die for you "

" why do you do this to yourself? "

" this place had a heartbeat in its day "

" it just ain't that simple, it never was "

" we'll drink to new year's "

" i'm not ready to let go yet "

" now the weight of the world ain't so bad "

" i saw the end, it looks just like the middle "

" who am I to complain? "

" now the pain's different. it still exists, it just escapes different. "

" don't you cancel any plans "

" all lights turned off can be turned on "

" i'll drive all night "

" don't be discouraged "

" i've been exactly where you are "

" if you could see yourself like this, you'd have never tried it "

" won't you stay with me? "

" i even gave up driving after nightfall "

" i'm ain't angry at you, love "

" i'll be waiting for you "

" we spent so long just getting by "

" i'm not a city girl "

" it still has a lot of meaning to me because i grew up there "

" it's a small community of people that really look out for each other "

" last time i was in the back of a cop car, i fell in love "

" it's all the same anyway "

" let's drive for no reason "

" honey, it's starting to storm "

" i won't be alone for the rest of my life "

" i broke a bone that never healed in my hand "

" so when i hold you close, i might loosen my grip. but i won't ever let you go. "

" but i won't ever let you go "

" remember when we called the cops 'cause you got too high and you got scared? "

" could you imagine that? "

" i'm running out of tears to cry "

" maybe something's changing me "

" you love me and i don't know why "

" i only call you once a week "

" does it bite at your edges? "

" do you lie awake restless? "

" this town's the same as you left it "

" your page was blank, but i read it "

" i stare out that hallowed ocean as if to pick a fight "

" for the dreams my old man dreamt for me, lay on the other side "

" we're overdue for a revival "

" we spent so long just getting by "

" who the hell likes living just to die? "

[the0retically]

Homesick by Noah Kahan, Rand being stuck in Galloway while the others got out

“Some guy won Olympic gold eight years ago, a distance runner and that makes a lot of sense. This place is such great motivation for anyone trying to move the fuck away from hibernation”

“Time moves so damn slow, I swear I feel my organs failing. I stopped caring 'bout a month ago since then, it's been smooth sailing”

I would leave if only I could find a reason. I'm mean because I grew up in New England. I got dreams but I can't make myself believe them. Spend the rest of my life with what could have been and I will die in the house that I grew up in. I'm homesick”

[steddieas-shegoes]

this place is such great motivation for anyone trying to move the fuck away from hibernation

chapter 4: i stopped caring 'bout a month ago, since then it's been smooth sailing also on AO3  Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Rated E

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Wayne Munson was looking at Steve Harrington as if he was worse than the dirt under his shoe.

And that’s how he felt.

He watched Eddie spend months after Steve left wondering what he did wrong, what drove him away, what made him decide that leaving was better than staying here or explaining his feelings.

Wayne didn’t believe in holding back when you cared about someone, especially not after everything Eddie had been through.

And he thought Steve felt the same.

He saw the way that boy watched Eddie, whispering to himself when he thought Wayne wasn’t in the room for Eddie to just wake up, saw how often he came by the trailer just to check on him when he was home.

In short, nothing he did made any damn sense.

And what didn’t make any damn sense at this very moment was the fact that Steve was standing on Wayne’s porch holding Eddie’s hand.

“Someone better start talkin’ before I lock the both of ya out of this trailer,” he said as he crossed his arms over his chest.

“Wayne-“

“I think you’ve earned the right to call me Mr. Munson, don’t you?”

Wayne watched as Steve gulped, Eddie squeezed his hand, and they both took a step closer together.

He sighed.

“This is a sit down talk, ain’t it?” he asked Eddie.

“Yeah, probably,” he responded.

“Fine. Get inside. Be quiet. Mia’s sleepin’ and she ain’t due to wake up for a bottle for another hour.”

He walked inside, didn’t bother holding the door for either of them.

He was mad at Steve, sure, had been for a year now.

But he felt a simmering anger for Eddie, the nephew he loved so much, and his too-forgiving soul.

The only reason he was entertaining this conversation at all was because Eddie was giving him his big puppy dog eye look, the same one he used to get away with things as a kid and teenager, the same one Mia used to get extra snuggles before bed.

He sat in his chair, watched the way Steve and Eddie sat on the couch as close as they could get without being in each other’s laps.

“So you wanna explain why you’re here or should I assume it’s to hurt my boy again?” Wayne didn’t pull his punches, never had, never would, not when it came to protecting his family.

“Wayne-“

“Ed, I’m not askin’ you. I’m askin’ him. And then I’m gonna ask you so get your answers straight,” Wayne raised his brows at him before turning his eyes back to Steve, who looked even more tense. Good. “I’m gonna assume you came back to visit and didn’t think you’d run into Eddie, but you did. I’m also gonna assume you didn’t know about Mia. I’m gonna tell ya right now, I’m more protective of her than I am of Ed and you remember how protective I am of him.”

Steve nodded.

“Well? You gonna explain or am I just gonna send you on your way?”

“I guess you’re right, mostly. I didn’t plan on running into Eddie at first, and no one told me about Mia before. But I did and I met Mia, and I was hit with this feeling that I’d missed even more than I thought, and I was reminded that I left more than just friends. I left a future. I tried to find one, but the one I could’ve had never even got a chance. I-“ Steve cut himself off, looked at Eddie to gain some courage. “I shouldn’t have left the way I did and I won’t ever forgive myself for it or expect anyone else to. I was scared of a lot of things, my feelings for Eddie one of them, and I thought running would get rid of the fear. It didn’t. I kinda learned to live with it, though, at least until I came back and ran into Eddie. I saw what he had here with Mia, with you, with the kids, and I realized that the life I’ve been living is…I dunno, wasting away? I guess I just stopped caring about anything because it was easier than feeling the pain of leaving.”

Wayne could see they’d both been crying. Steve was crying again now, and Eddie looked like he wasn’t far behind.

It was easy to see that his pain was genuine, his incoming apology was genuine.

But that didn’t change things for Wayne, not without showing that he was going to actually do something to make it right for Eddie, for the kids who were just as hurt when he left.

“I’m sorry. For leaving, for hurting Eddie, and the kids, and anyone else, especially you. None of you deserved that, none of you should have had to wonder what happened or worried that you did something to upset me to make me leave. I’m sorry that you had to clean up the messes I left behind. I’m sorry that I may never be able to make it right.”

He could feel Eddie’s eyes on him, silently begging him to accept the apology for what it was.

“I’m gonna do everything I can, though. For Eddie, and you, and Mia. You all deserve more than I can give, but if you let me, I wanna try to give all I have,” he begged.

That’s what he was doing: begging.

Wayne could see how much Steve was relying on Wayne’s acceptance. Not forgiveness, maybe, but he needed Wayne to accept that he was here and recognizing his own failures.

“You know how much you hurt him?” Wayne said softer than he’d been speaking until now. “You know how many nights I was scared to go to work because he hadn’t slept in two or three days because he was crying and worried about you? How many mornings I came home and tried to make him breakfast and he wouldn’t eat because he was too worried? And how badly he needed you when Mia got here? How many times I walked in to hear him trying to muffle his cryin’ in his pillow while she slept, asking for you?”

Eddie didn’t know he’d heard that, he’d never mentioned it, but now was as good a time as any to let it out.

“You know how much I worried about him tryin’ to hold it all together for Mia? You don’t. You couldn’t. He wouldn’t tell you how bad it was, and no one else knows how bad it was. But I was here, I saw it all, I see how he still sometimes zones out while she’s taking a bottle, starin’ at your photo by his bed. How much he still misses you, loves you. And to me, you don’t deserve it-“

“Wayne-“

“Ed, not yet,” Wayne held his hand up. “You were selfish, exactly what I expected of a Harrington, and you just show up now thinkin’ I can allow it without bein’ on edge. I hear your apology, I think you’re genuinely sorry, but that don’t mean shit to me until you prove how sorry you are.”

“Can I talk now?” Eddie asked.

Wayne looked him over, sighing as he saw his clenched jaw, his rigid back. He nodded for Eddie to talk.

“I appreciate you sticking up for me, and you’re right. He shouldn’t just be forgiven because of an apology, not with the way he hurt me and not with how much I would have to lose if he were to leave me again. I know that. But I know Steve isn’t gonna do that again. He’s not,” Eddie insisted.

“And how do ya know that?”

“Because last time we didn’t say how we felt. This time we did. We both put it all out there. He knows what it would look like to leave now,” Eddie glanced behind him towards his bedroom. “He knows what he’d be leaving and he won’t do that. Not to me or Mia, and not to you.”

"So, what? You’re movin’ back to Hawkins?” Wayne directed his question to Steve, but his eyes still glanced back at Eddie as Steve tried to form a response.

He looked hesitant, and that was more reason for Wayne to be concerned.

If Eddie had even a hint of a doubt, Wayne wouldn’t listen to any explanations. Not a single one.

“I’m…not moving back here, no.”

That’s what he thought.

“So you’re leavin’? Again?” Wayne must be missing something.

Eddie wouldn’t allow this, and Wayne certainly wouldn’t.

“I’m leaving, but Eddie’s gonna come with me. Or he will soon, at least. When he’s ready and when Mia’s ready.”

Wayne sat back in his chair.

He turned all of his attention to Eddie, who looked suddenly like he wanted to be anywhere but here.

“Oh, is that what’s happening? Not to be a negative Nancy, but how you plan on doin’ that when you can’t even get a place here, Ed? You know the city is more expensive, that’s why you ain’t gone yet.”

He hated being the bad guy, hated doing this to Eddie when he knew he knew.

But sometimes love makes you do stupid things. Sometimes you need someone with logic to step in and think for you.

And sometimes, Wayne took his protective streak just a bit too far.

Like he did now.

“I’m well aware I can’t afford shit, Wayne, thank you. I know it’s expensive, I know it’s a risk, and I know that it won’t be easy. But I also know that I can’t stay trapped here, I can’t keep Mia trapped here, and I can’t live with myself if I never fucking try!”

Mia started crying in their room and Eddie instantly let go of Steve’s hand and stood up, already looking like he wanted to cry out of frustration.

“Eds-“

Wayne watched as Steve stood with him, reaching out a hand to stop him.

“It’s fine. I’ll be back,” Eddie brushed him away, turning and walking towards his room to take care of Mia.

Steve watched him go, and Wayne watched Steve.

Steve’s face fell, eyes closing to ward off tears that started to fall anyway.

He sat back down on the couch, his face turned to the floor.

“I know you’re angry with me, but can you please not take it out on him?” Steve whispered, his voice shaking.

Wayne would give Steve one thing: he was brave. He never stood down when it came to protecting the people he cared about, even if it meant causing more trouble for himself.

He respected it, even with his negative feelings toward Steve, he knew what Steve was risking by saying something like that to Wayne, and he knew he was doing it because of how much he cared for Eddie.

“I’m not tryin’ to take it out on him. I’m tryin’ to get you both to see some sense.” Wayne leaned forward in his chair, face softening as he took in the way Steve tensed. “You’ve started a new life just as much as Ed has. You’ve got your job, your friends, your future. Adding Ed and Mia to the mix ain’t gonna be easy. You both have to think about Mia more than yourselves.”

“We know it won’t be easy. I know. I don’t expect him to make a decision that could be bad for Mia. I don’t want either of them to get hurt any more than you do,” Steve argued.

“But you’ve already hurt him. I can’t let that happen again, Steve.”

Eddie walked into the kitchen holding Mia, trying to keep her looking away from Steve and Wayne, but failing.

“Mamamamamama!” Mia started yelling.

Wayne’s brows drew up, eyes widening comically.

Steve smiled at her, giving a small wave.

“Mama!” she started smacking Eddie’s face and kicking her legs like she was trying to fly to Steve. “Mama! Uh!”

Wayne watched as Steve gave in, making his way over to where Eddie looked like he was going to collapse on the floor, exhaustion and emotions clearly all catching up to him at once.

“Hi princess,” Steve said softly, holding his hand out to get her to stop hitting Eddie’s face excitedly. “Are you having good dreams?”

Steve took her from Eddie’s arms, giving him a quick kiss on the cheek before waving to him to go away.

Wayne watched.

He took in the way Eddie’s entire body relaxed, how he looked at Mia in Steve’s arms with such adoration, so much love for her.

He never doubted Eddie’s devotion to Mia, to making sure she got everything she needed and felt loved.

And watching this scene now, watching Steve make her giggle in his arms while Eddie slumped against the counter for a moment, seeing how easy it was for them to fit like this, Wayne had to admit to himself that he was being unfair.

Maybe not completely — he still felt like his worry about their future was understandable — but he could see how jumping to the worst possible outcome wasn’t necessary.

“I got it,” Steve said quietly to Eddie as Mia babbled away in his arms.

“I can-“ Eddie started.

“I got it. Go talk to him,” Steve insisted, grabbing the bottle of formula from the counter to start filling the bottle Eddie already had sitting out.

Eddie turned to Wayne.

Wayne tilted his head towards the front door, silently suggesting they go out on the porch to talk.

Eddie nodded once before pecking a kiss on top of Mia’s head and one to Steve’s temple.

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Eddie and Wayne had always found solace in sitting on their front porch.

When things were hard, they came out here to make them easier.

Eddie took his spot on the top step while Wayne took his spot on the rocking chair.

They didn’t look at each other, didn’t have to when they were out here.

“I think I need you to explain to me what you and Steve had before he left,” Wayne said.

Eddie looked over at him briefly, nodding as he looked back at the front yard, the pitch black of the trailer park surrounding them.

“I don’t really know if I could explain it. It was technically nothing, I mean nothing more than friends. But we both knew it was more, or would be more. I loved him a lot, Wayne,” Eddie sighed. “And I think maybe I should have told him sooner. I think he would have stayed if I’d told him.”

“Why didn’t he tell you?” Wayne asked.

“He’s got…a rough history with telling someone how he feels. I knew I would have to be the one to make that move and I didn’t so that’s on me,” Eddie sighed. “But I’m not letting him just get away with what he did. I need you to understand that. My forgiveness for him is conditional and he knows that. He’s got work to do to make it right. But he’s trying already, and I need you to understand that he deserves the chance to keep trying.”

Wayne was watching him, letting his words sink in for a minute before responding.

“I love ya, kid. I just worry about the way you love people sometimes. Sometimes they don’t really deserve what you give them, and I can’t watch ya go through that kinda hurt again.” Wayne moved to sit down next to him on the step, grunting as his knees creaked and popped. “You really think he’s the one? For you and Mia?”

“I think that there’s a reason he came to the shop on the one day I have to handle the front, and there’s a reason that Mia already is obsessed with him, and I think the reason is that he’s supposed to be mine. I think he’s supposed to be ours.” Eddie bit his lip, wringing his hands together. “I know I’ve done a good hiding it over the last couple of months, but the hurt I felt when he first left never went away. I was still hurting just as much, it just got easier to show everyone that I wasn’t. Having him back, even if it’s only been for a minute, has changed everything for me.”

Wayne nodded, encouraging him to keep talking.

“I hope you get the chance to see the Steve that I’ve been able to see. I hope you can understand that he made a mistake and he’s owning up to it and making it right. I hope you can see that he’s good for me, and he’s good for Mia, and he’s good for our future. He’s good, Wayne. He’s the reason I’m even here to convince you to like him.”

“He’s also the reason you cried yourself to sleep for months,” Wayne said before letting out a long sigh. “But I hear ya. I can’t promise I can forgive him completely right now, but I can give him a shot. I can try. But I need ya to promise me something.”

“Anything,” Eddie nodded, hesitant smile on his face.

“I need ya to promise me that you’ll visit as often as ya can.”

Eddie let out a small sob, nodding as he fell into Wayne’s side.

“As much as we can, we’ll be here. Promise,” he said between breaths, his tears soaking through Wayne’s shirt.

“You better. And if anything happens, I want ya to come right home. No told ya so’s here, as long as you’re both okay,” Wayne said as he wrapped his arms around him.

“Okay.” Eddie sniffled, but didn’t move away from Wayne. “Thank you.”

“Yeah, yeah. I guess I should be a little nicer if he’s gonna take on the task of making sure you remember to eat breakfast and fill your tank with gas,” Wayne teased.

Eddie pulled away with a shocked face.

“I can do that stuff by myself!”

“Uh huh. Sure ya do.”

Wayne hugged him again before standing up, groaning at the way his knees popped again.

“You invite him over for dinner tomorrow so I can get to know him better. No arguin’.”

“Will you be nice?” Eddie raised a brow at him.

“I’ll do my best. For you and Mia.”

Eddie nodded, smiling up at him. “Then I’ll tell him to come over after my shift.”

Wayne gave him a pat on the shoulder before walking back inside, hopefully to be nice to Steve or leave him alone entirely.

Eddie let out a long sigh.

“Jeez. That bad?” Steve joked from behind him.

Eddie turned quickly to see him standing there holding a sleeping Mia, blanket covering everything except her face.

“No, actually. Better than expected. She drink a whole bottle before passing out again?” Eddie went to stand up and take her from Steve, but Steve held out his hand to get him to stay put.

Steve sat down next to him slowly, making sure not to jostle Mia too much where she was drooling against his shoulder.

“She had about half.” Steve rubbed her back slowly, leaning his head onto Eddie’s shoulder.

Eddie wrapped his arm around Steve’s waist, tugging him into his side as gently as possible.

“She’s pretty attached to you,” Eddie whispered against his temple, letting his lips rest there while Steve relaxed against him.

“I’m pretty attached to her. And you. You’re pretty great,” Steve tilted his head up and beamed at him.

And it hit Eddie then. Maybe it should have hit a lot sooner, or maybe later.

He spent a lot of the last six months worried that it would always just be him and Mia.

Sure, he had Wayne, and the kids, and maybe even Robin if she decided to visit, but they weren’t Steve.

No matter what else he had, he never thought he’d have Steve.

Now he did, now he would.

He couldn’t help letting out a laugh, louder than he meant to, and immediately getting a glare from Steve when Mia let out a small whine.

He shushed her, patting her back and bouncing just slightly to try to keep her asleep.

Eddie watched with a fond smile.

Everything he wanted was here, everything.

He leaned down to kiss the top of Mia’s head.

“Sorry, I just realized that this is maybe the happiest I’ve been since you left. Maybe even before that,” Eddie whispered before leaning in to kiss Steve’s forehead.

“I’m gonna keep making you happy then,” Steve whispered back.

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Steve spent the night, insisting on being the one to get up with Mia when she inevitably needed the other half of her bottle.

“You have work tomorrow, I’m just meeting up with the kids for a bit. I can take a nap,” he said with his hands on his hips, leaving no room for an argument.

Eddie fell asleep holding Steve against his chest, tracing patterns and words against his bare back.

When his alarm clock went off the next morning, Steve was already awake, sitting up in bed with Mia on his lap.

“Hey,” Eddie smiled at them, wiping the sleep from his eyes.

“Look who’s awake, princess!” Steve exclaimed, smiling at Mia then at Eddie.

“Mama!” Mia yelled.

“Nope, dada. Mama’s been awake. You remember, you were there. An hour ago when you decided that screaming was the best way to wake me up,” Steve said, never losing the smile on his face.

“Sorry, I usually wake up as soon as she starts crying,” Eddie apologized, sitting up so he could take her in his arms.

Steve handed her over, but cuddled into Eddie’s side instead of laying down or getting up.

“’S okay. We had a nice long talk about letting dada have his sleep, didn’t we?” Steve was poking Mia’s tummy, smiling as she giggled.

“Oh, you did?” Eddie booped Mia’s nose, smiling at her as she giggled. “And she signed the contract that says I get to sleep in until at least seven in the morning on weekends?”

Steve sighed.

“Unfortunately, my client refused that part of the contract. But she did agree to go to bed earlier tonight so we can spend time with Wayne.”

Eddie kissed the top of her head as she smacked his face and babbled random noises.

He kissed the top of Steve’s head after, smiling when Mia copied him, at least to the best of her abilities. Mostly, she left a trail of drool in Steve’s hair.

Eddie started to apologize, but Steve waved him off.

“I don’t mind, baby.”

Their morning flowed seamlessly; As Eddie got ready for work, Steve got Mia’s breakfast ready, following Eddie’s very detailed instructions perfectly.

Wayne was out fishing, had apparently already arranged with Steve that he’d be home by ten to take over watching Mia.

Steve even handed Eddie a plate of peanut butter toast with a raised eyebrow.

“Heard you forget to eat breakfast before your shifts.” Steve ran his hands through Eddie’s hair. “Not happening while I’m here. Eat.”

“Sir, yes, sir,” Eddie joked, ignoring the way Steve’s ears went red as he took a bite of the toast.

Mia babbled to herself and to them as she munched on her Cheerios and bananas, taking sips of her bottle every minute or so.

“Before you head out, is it alright if I use your phone? Just for a couple minutes.” Steve was wringing his hands together, a nervous habit Eddie had never noticed before. “I, uh. I’ve been doing daily morning check-ins with Robin. She was worried about me coming back here alone, so this is how I got her to agree.”

As much as Eddie wanted to dig deeper into that, ask a million questions about why she was so worried and why she was requiring check-ins, he knew neither of them had time for that.

“’Course you can, sweetheart. Tell her I said hi,” Eddie gave him a comforting smile.

He tried not to listen in, but the trailer was small and sound carried far, especially when Steve didn’t close his bedroom door.

But even Mia went quiet when she realized Steve had left the room, content to finish the last few bites of her breakfast in silence.

“Robs, it’s fine, I-“ A full minute of silence. “No, we talked and-“ He glanced over at Mia, who was looking towards the bedroom with her head tilted to the side like she was trying to listen too. He’d laugh if he wasn’t worried about making noise. “Robin. I’m fine. He’s fine. We’re fine. I’ll talk to you more about it tomorrow, okay?”

“Mama?” Mia asked, surprisingly quiet, like she knew she should be.

“He’ll be right back, princess.”

Eddie stood up to take care of his plate and start cleaning Mia’s hands and face from the mess she’d made.

Steve was by his side only a moment later, kissing his cheek and whispering a quick ‘thank you’ before he pulled Mia out of her high chair.

“Look at you! You did so good, princess. Barely even a mess on the bib,” Steve blew raspberries against her neck, making her laugh and flail her arms and legs.

“God, I love you,” Eddie said, unable to hold back for another second.

Steve looked over at him, eyes wide, awestruck.

“Yeah?”

As if Eddie hadn’t already professed it the night before, looked at him like he lit up the night sky ever since. As if Eddie hadn’t agreed to upend his entire life, go outside his comfort zone, take the biggest risk of his life for him.

“Yeah. More every minute, seems like.”

Steve tucked Mia against his hip, leaning over to kiss Eddie’s lips.

“I love you, too,” he breathed out, only pulling away when Mia started smacking at his cheek.

“Mama! Mama! Uh! Mama!”

“You are up, silly,” Steve said to her with a smile.

“Uh! Ooo? Ooo.”

Steve’s brows furrowed before his eyes widened and he looked at Eddie.

“Eddie. Oh my God.”

Eddie just stared back at him, waiting to understand what the sudden panic in Steve’s eyes was about.

“She’s trying to say ‘I love you’, listen,” Steve turned back to Mia and poked her belly. “Were you tellin’ Dada you love him?”

“Mama! Uh oooo!”

It seemed like a reach, but it was pretty damn close for what Mia was actually able to say.

“Sounds like she’s telling Mama she loves him,” Eddie nudged Steve’s arm.

He would probably be upset that Steve was getting all this attention if it wasn’t as adorable as it was, or if Steve didn’t have the reaction he did to most of it.

“I think she just doesn’t know how to say Dada yet,” Steve replied, but his eyes were filling with tears and Eddie knew he would start crying any moment.

“Maybe. Or maybe she loves us both.”

Steve kissed the top of her head and turned back to the clock on the wall.

“You’re gonna be late if you don’t go!” he exclaimed, pushing Eddie out of the kitchen.

“Okay, but-“

“No, go!”

“Kiss!” Eddie demanded, barely holding back an actual pout.

Steve kissed him again, a quick peck on the lips so he would hurry out the door.

“Bye! Love you both!”

“Love you!”

Those words would be all Eddie needed to get through his day.

———————————

Mondays were Adam’s days to bring lunch for them.

He’s a naturally good cook, always makes them some kind of casserole that’s way better than it should be.

Today was no different.

He’d been busy today, catching up on some paperwork from last week while the guys worked in the shop. Mondays were like that: high stress, very little downtime, and loud music.

It’s why he was grateful Wayne never worked Mondays.

Bringing Mia to the shop on one of their busiest days of the week would be difficult, even with help.

Because of this, the day flew by.

Adam brought him a plate of food for lunch, but he worked while he ate, unable to completely avoid a couple of customer phone calls and placing an order for parts.

After lunch, he was able to work in the shop with the guys, which he much preferred to having to sit at a desk.

Customers kept coming until nearly closing time, and Eddie had to turn the last two away because he would already be here late, and he couldn’t be. Not tonight.

Tonight was dinner with Steve and Wayne and it was too important to get stuck at work.

If he asked one of the other guys to stay, they would, but he couldn’t do that to any of them, not when he was supposed to show that he was a leader.

Imagine: Eddie being responsible. High school super senior Eddie wouldn’t even believe the maturity.

“You sure you don’t need us to stay, Ed?” Michael asked.

He worked part time during the week, fixed up old cars as his main job, but was always quick to offer to stay on their busy days.

“All good guys! Won’t be much longer, anyway,” he replied with his head in the hood of the Ford Escort that had been here for most of the day.

Everyone said goodbye as they trailed out of the shop door.

Eddie was distracted, trying to loosen a bolt that seemed like it was superglued to the engine, which was why hearing Steve’s voice right behind him made him jump so high he bumped his head on the hood.

“Fuck!”

“Sorry! I’m sorry! Are you okay?” Steve’s hands hovered over Eddie’s shoulders and arms, trying to figure out the best way to comfort him.

Eddie let out a laugh as he rubbed his head, turning completely so he could smile at Steve.

“I’m okay. What’re you doin’ here?” Eddie thought he was meeting him at the trailer in an hour, but maybe he’d been mistaken.

“I, um.” Steve ran his hand through his hair nervously. “I kinda missed you. And I drove by and saw everyone leaving except for you, so I thought I’d check on you.”

Eddie’s heart flipped over in his chest.

“You worried about me, Stevie?” Eddie teased, trying to cover the shake in his voice at the thought of Steve being concerned enough to go out of his way to check in.

“Always a little worried about you. Never know what you’re getting up to,” Steve teased back, finally settling his hands on Eddie’s arms.

“I’m okay. Just wanted to try to finish this one up before I go. It’s been a problem all day,” Eddie gestured to the car in front of him.

Steve leaned over the engine, nodding to himself and making little “hm” noises as if he was thinking about what the problem could be. Eddie watched him fondly, smirking as Steve stood back and put his hands on his hips.

“I think I know what the problem is.”

“Oh? Do tell.”

Steve faced him and smiled.

“You’re not fucking me in the backseat of it.”

Eddie’s jaw dropped.

“What.”

Steve leaned in, his breath ghosting over Eddie’s lips as his surprisingly heated gaze met Eddie’s.

“I may have spent the last hour working myself up a little too much. Don’t think I can make it through dinner without you taking care of me first, baby,” Steve whispered against his lips.

“In…this car? This one?” Eddie looked at the two door car, calculating how the hell they were both supposed to fit in the backseat in any position other than vertical.

“Mhm. This one. Unless you’ve got another one somewhere?” Steve looked around the otherwise empty shop. “I guess we could always go to my car or your van, but-“

“Nope, this one works. I’ll make it work,” Eddie interrupted, wiping his grease-stained hands on the towel he kept in his back pocket.

Steve didn’t seem to care that he was messy, or that they were technically in public, even if the shop was empty and would stay that way.

His lips were on Eddie’s, hungry, teeth biting into his bottom lip in a damn near frenzy to be as close as possible.

Eddie groaned into his mouth, his hands gripping Steve’s hips hard, pushing him towards the passenger seat of the car.

They didn’t separate while Eddie opened the car door, barely even separated when Eddie sat down in the seat, pulling Steve onto his lap.

“Said you got yourself all worked up for me?” Eddie asked as he unbuttoned Steve’s pants.

“Mhm,” Steve whined as Eddie’s hand brushed against his cock, his breath hot on his neck. “Wanted to be ready.”

Eddie froze.

“Ready? Steve, did you-“ Eddie pulled back and looked up at a smirking Steve. “Jesus Christ, where did you come from, sweetheart?”

“Please fuck me,” Steve replied, not answering the question at all, but Eddie couldn’t find it in himself to care.

He was too gone on the pleading look in Steve’s eyes, his hips rocking back and forth to find friction that Eddie wasn’t giving him yet.

“Gotta get your pants down,” Eddie tugged on his waistband to emphasize his point.

Steve managed to get up enough to pull his pants down to his ankles, though it was a slower process than it would have been in bed, or really anywhere that wasn’t a customer’s car.

God, he was fucking Steve for the first time in a customer’s car. This was one for the books.

“Shit, um, condom? I don’t exactly keep them on me,” Eddie said, coming back down to earth long enough to have some sense.

Steve shook his head.

“I’m good if you are. I mean, I haven’t — I haven’t slept with anyone since, well, shortly after graduation. Wow.” Steve huffed. “I should’ve thought to bring one.”

Eddie wasn’t letting this opportunity pass, not when he knew for a fact he was good to go without.

Instead of giving him an answer, Eddie finished unzipping his coveralls and tugged the waistband of his boxers down.

“Up for a second, love,” Eddie’s tone was demanding, but gentle, a moment of softness interrupting their previous rush.

Eddie sucked on his own fingers for a moment, making sure they were wet enough to ease the way. Even with Steve prepping himself beforehand, he didn’t want to cause any type of pain, not for their first time.

He reached down between them, smiling to himself when he felt how prepared Steve already was.

“You were just driving by? Or you were driving here?”

“Well, I-“

“Seems like you came straight here the moment you had three fingers in your ass, sweet thing,” Eddie slowly pushed two fingers into Steve, smirking as he met no resistance. “So hungry for it you couldn’t even wait until later?”

Steve whimpered, nodding quickly before throwing his head back as Eddie added a third finger.

“Please, I’m ready, I promise,” Steve begged.

He was, Eddie could tell. But the teasing was too fun.

“No, I don’t wanna hurt you, sweetheart. Probably should take my time in case you didn’t stretch yourself enough,” Eddie muttered against his neck, lightly nipping the skin.

“I’m good. I’m good, really.”

Eddie felt his legs quivering around him, holding himself up while Eddie’s fingers were stretching and searching inside him clearly a difficult task.

He withdrew his fingers quickly, ignoring the whine Steve let out at the loss, and grabbed the base of his cock.

“C’mere then,” Eddie growled out.

Steve fell forward, giving Eddie the perfect position to slide inside.

Steve’s moan as he filled him was like music to his ears, loud enough to echo in the whole shop.

Eddie held him still for a moment, let them both get used the feeling. As prepped as Steve was, as loose as he’d felt around his fingers, he still tight around his cock.

“Fuck, feel so good, Stevie,” Eddie sighed out, letting his forehead rest against Steve’s chest.

Steve’s hands curled into his hair, his lips brushed against the top of his head.

“Feels better than I imagined,” Steve breathed against him.

The moment was surprisingly soft for how desperate they’d both been only a moment ago. He let himself be held, let himself hold Steve, both of them holding this intensity between them.

Eddie kissed Steve’s chest, wishing he was completely naked, wishing he could spend all night worshiping every inch of Steve’s skin.

But he’d take this for now.

He rocked his hips up, tugging Steve down at the same time.

“Holy shit, Eds,” Steve whimpered. “You’re so deep.”

Steve’s words were almost slurred and Eddie had to pull away to look up at him properly.

His face was flush, hair already a mess.

Eddie had never loved him more.

“You gonna ride me or did you do all this work for nothing?”

Steve’s eyes hardened, the mischievous gleam making Eddie smirk back at him.

“I already did all the work, baby. Thought you’d take care of me.”

Oh, Eddie was gonna have too much fun with him.

He dug his fingertips into Steve’s waist and lifted him up, only to drop him back down on his cock.

The car was already rocking with their movements, and they’d barely even gotten started. Eddie didn’t care. He barely even noticed it once Steve gripped his shoulders and actually started riding him.

“That’s it, sweet boy. Take what you worked so hard for,” Eddie groaned.

Steve didn’t answer, just let out small whimpers and pants as he used Eddie’s shoulders as leverage to lift himself up and fall back down on Eddie’s length.

They didn’t have space to do everything Eddie wanted, but he reached over to put the seat back a few inches so he could work with a new angle.

The moment Steve moved in his lap, he tensed, his lips parting into an ‘o’ shape.

“Right there, sweetheart?” Eddie asked innocently.

Steve nodded, suddenly rendered silent by Eddie’s cock rubbing constantly against his prostate.

Eddie knew they didn’t have time to drag this out; Wayne was expecting both of them for dinner soon, and this car wouldn’t fix itself.

But someday soon he would spend hours like this in Steve’s car, maybe make Steve work for it all himself first, get him screaming his name before taking over, making him lay down face first in his backseat.

Or maybe he would lay out a blanket and pillow in the back of his van, play some music, open him up with his tongue and stay there for hours, tasting every part of Steve.

Maybe he’d find somewhere in the woods, park under the night sky, and fuck Steve on the hood of his car under the stars.

At some point, Eddie must have started daydreaming out loud because Steve was mumbling ‘yes, yes, please’ and ‘want that, too’ and Eddie was a goner.

His hips sped up, the head of his cock brushing against Steve’s spot with every thrust.

“Fuck, Eds, touch me, touch me, please.”

As much as Eddie could and would listen to Steve beg all night, he knew he was too close to the edge himself to make that happen.

He wrapped his hand around Steve’s leaking cock, pumped once, twice, and Steve was done for.

He clenched around Eddie so tight he could barely move, and that mixed with the sight of Steve coming apart above him was enough for Eddie to fill Steve with his own release.

Steve collapsed against his chest, breath labored and heart racing.

Eddie’s arms wrapped around him, a small laugh leaving him as he closed his eyes.

“What’s the laugh for?” Steve asked against his shoulder.

“Just can’t believe we fucked in a customer’s car. I’ll have to leave the windows open all night to air it out,” Eddie laughed again.

Steve sat up, smirking down at Eddie.

“Maybe we knocked something right and it works now,” Steve joked.

Eddie cupped Steve’s face in his hands and pulled him down to kiss him, his tongue tracing along his bottom lip.

When he pulled away, he smiled.

“Can’t believe you really showed up at my job just to fuck me,” Eddie shook his head. “I’m supposed to be a model employee.”

Steve rolled his eyes.

“Unless there’s a camera somewhere around, no one will ever know.”

“Oh, I didn’t mention? They have a security camera set up across the shop. Just filmed your first porn, Stevie.”

Steve slapped his chest, laughing.

“I gotta get up without making a mess,” he sighed.

“Didn’t think that part through, did you?”

“I’m not sure I thought any part through other than showing up,” Steve admitted, but he didn’t sound upset about it.

“And I am so happy you didn’t.”

He meant it, but a small part of him was maybe regretting their choices when cum started to drip out of Steve’s hole as he stood up to get out of the car, right onto the carpeted floorboard.

“Never getting that out,” Eddie shook his head. “Get dressed before we stain the seat.”

“You gotta finish up here before you go?” Steve asked as Eddie did what he could to wipe the cum from the floor.

“Just gonna try to start it again. If it doesn’t, I’ll just come in early to work on it.”

Steve watched as Eddie grabbed the keys from the workbench by the car and got in the driver’s seat.

He cranked the key.

The engine turned.

The car started.

“Unbelievable. We actually did fuck something into the right spot,” Eddie laughed in disbelief.

“Seriously?” Steve snorted. “I guess you should hire me then.”

“Be careful what you ask for, sweetheart. Could use someone to sit naked on the hood while I work,” Eddie winked as he shut off the car and got out. “Ready to go?”

Steve’s face fell.

“What is it?” Eddie asked.

“Just nervous. Wayne doesn’t like me,” Steve shrugged, trying to play it off like he wasn’t bothered when it was so clear that he was.

“He doesn’t like what you did. There’s a difference. He’s giving you a chance and you have to give him one, too, okay?”

Steve nodded.

“Okay!” Eddie clapped his hands together. “Ready to go home?”

“Yeah,” Steve smiled at the ground. “So ready.”

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[thenighttrain]

fave lyrics today?

well i'm tired of dirt roads named after high school friends' grandfathers and motherfuckers here still don't know they caught the boston bombers time moves so damn slow I SWEAR I FEEL MY ORGANS FAILING i stopped caring about a month ago since then it's been smooth sailing I WOULD LEAVE IF ONLY I COULD FIND A REASON I'M MEAN BECUSE I GREW UP IN NEW ENGLAND!!! I GOT DREAMS BUT I CAN'T MAKE MYSELF BELIEVE THEM spend the rest of my life with what could have been 🗣️🗣️🗣️

[sincerelyang3l]

Noah Kahan Lyrics that Reverberate with Me on a Different Level 🙏💕

I’m not depressed I just rly like noah Kahan guys and I might do this for all my favorite singers? (Maybe. Who knows)

Northern Attitude

“If I get too close, And I'm not how you hoped, Forgive my northern attitude. Oh, I was raised out in the cold.”

Stick Season

“No, I am no longer funny, 'cause I miss the way you laugh. You once called me forever, now you still can't call me back.”

“And I love Vermont, but it's the season of the sticks. And I saw your mom, she forgot that I existed.”

All My Love

“I still recall how the leather in your car feels. And at the end of it all, I just hope that your scars healed”

New Perspective

“Ooh, this town is for the record now. The intersection got a Target, and they're calling it downtown. You and all of your new perspective now, Wish I could shut it in a closet, And drag you back down.”

Everywhere, Everything

“Everywhere, everything. I wanna love you 'til we're food for the worms to eat. ‘Til our fingers decompose, Keep my hand in yours.”

Orange Juice

“There's orange juice in the kitchen, bought for the children. It's yours if you want it, We're just glad you could visit. Feels like I've been ready for you, To come home for so long, That I didn't think to ask you. Where you'd gone, why'd you go?”

“Are we all just crows to you now? Are we all just pulling you down? You didn't put those bones in the ground.”

Growing Sideways

“But I ignore things, and I move sideways, Until I forget what I felt in the first place. At the end of the day I know there are worse ways, To stay alive. 'Cause everyone's growing and everyone's healthy, I'm terrified that I might never have met me”

Halloween

“There's a murder of crows in the low light off Boston, And I see your face in each one. I'm losin' myself in the tiniest objects.”

Homesick

“Well, I'm tired of dirt roads, Named after high school friends' grandfathers. And motherfuckers here still don't know they caught, The Boston bombers. Time moves so damn slow, I swear I feel my organs failing. I stopped caring 'bout a month ago, Since then, it's been smooth sailing.”

“I would leave if only I could find a reason. I'm mean because I grew up in New England. I got dreams but I can't make myself believe them. Spend the rest of my life with what could have been, And I will die in the house that I grew up in. I'm homesick”

Mess

“I'll move back home forever. I'll feed the dogs, And I'll put all my pieces back together where they belong. And I'll say, "I'm a mess, I'm a mess, oh God, I'm a mess".”

The View Between Villages

“Feel the rush of my blood, I'm seventeen again, I am not scared of death. I’ve got dreams again.”

“Passed Alger Brook Road, I'm over the bridge. A minute from home but I feel so far from it.”

Your Needs, My Needs

“To spiral out, to try and float, To see a friend, to see a ghost. Bitter-brained, always drunk. Rail-thin, Zoloft. Subtle change, shorter days. Dead-eyed, dead weight. Your life, your dreams. Your mind, your needs. My needs.”

Paul Revere

“One day I'm gonna cut it clear. Ride like Paul Revere, And when they ask me who I am. I'll just pretend I didn't hear.”

You’re Gonna Go Far

“So, pack up your car, put a hand on your heart, Say whatever you feel, be wherever you are. We ain't angry at you, love. You're the greatest thing we've lost. The birds will still sing, your folks will still fight, The boards will still creak, the leaves will still die. We ain't angry at you, love. We'll be waitin' for you, love.”

Forever

“And I'll tell her so she knows. That I'm broke, but I'm real rich in my head, That I broke a bone that never healed in my hand. So, when I hold her close, I might loosen my grip, But I won't ever let her go.”

Part of Me

“Even through the pain, I can't recall your face. Just the ache of knowing everything was gonna change. I got so close to love with you, my dear, But I don't miss you. I miss the way you made me feel.”

Hurt Somebody

“One day before you know it, you will see, All of the pain and all the irony, yeah. You'll feel the stinging and you'll think of me. ‘Cause it hurts when you hurt.”

[minimavampiress]

★ -- 𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐂𝐊 𝐒𝐄𝐀𝐒𝐎𝐍 ( 𝐖𝐄'𝐋𝐋 𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐁𝐄 𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐄 𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 ) 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒 - 𝐩𝐭 𝟑

𝐇𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐎𝐖𝐄𝐄𝐍

❝ The dawn isn't here ; the sun hasn't rose. ❞ ❝ Last that I heard , you were down in New Orleans. ❞ ❝ I drink 'til I drown and I smoke 'til I'm burnin'. ❞ ❝ I worry for you , you worry for me . . . it's fine if we know we won't change. ❞ ❝ I'm leavin' this town and I'm changin' my address . . . I know that you'll come if you want. ❞ ❝ It's not Halloween , but the ghost you're dressed up as sure knows how to haunt. ❞ ❝ I'm losin' myself in the tiniest objects. ❞ ❝ I know that you fear that I'm wicked and weary. ❞ ❝ I know that you're fearin' the end. ❞ ❝ I only tell the truth when I'm sure that I'm lyin'. ❞

𝐇𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐒𝐈𝐂𝐊

❝ How have you been ? Are you bored yet ? ❞ ❝ The weather ain't been bad if you're into masochistic bullshit. ❞ ❝ This place is such great motivation for anyone trying to move the fuck away from hibernation. ❞ ❝ I'm tired of dirt roads named after high school friends' grandfathers. ❞ ❝ Times moves so damn slow , I swear I feel my organs failing. ❞ ❝ I stopped caring about a month ago ; since then it's been smooth sailing. ❞ ❝ I would leave if only I could find a reason. ❞ ❝ I got dreams , but I can't make myself believe them. ❞ ❝ I will die in the house that I grew up in. ❞

𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐋𝐋

❝ It only falls into place when you're falling to pieces. ❞ ❝ You miss something that you can't place , but you can't deny it. ❞ ❝ Don't know whether you want a place in the coast or the country . . . ❞ ❝ It's like I'm still here with you. ❞ ❝ I don't want to say goodbye. ❞

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐕𝐈𝐄𝐖 𝐁𝐄𝐓𝐖𝐄𝐄𝐍 𝐕𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐀𝐆𝐄𝐒

❝ For a minute , the world seems so simple. ❞ ❝ I am not scared of death. ❞ ❝ I've got dreams again. ❞ ❝ It's just me and the curve of the valley. ❞ ❝ A minute from home , but I feel so far from it . . . ❞ ❝ It's all washin' over me ; I'm angry again. ❞ ❝ The car's in reverse ; I'm gripping the wheel. ❞

𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐍𝐄𝐄𝐃𝐒 , 𝐌𝐘 𝐍𝐄𝐄𝐃𝐒

❝ Who was I to watch you wilt ? ❞ ❝ You'll always be a flower on my skin . . . and the pain that I am in. ❞ ❝ You were a work of art . . . that's the hardest part. ❞ ❝ You asked me why I wasn't saying a word. ❞ ❝ I'm naming the stars in the sky after you. ❞

[cardcaptorsakura96]

Fairy Tales-Chapter 4

Fandom: Supergirl

Relationships: Kara Danvers/Lena Luthor

Characters: Kara Danvers, Lena Luthor, Original Danvers/Luthor Children, Jess, Zatara, Zatanna, Billy Batson, Lillian Luthor, Alex Danvers, Kelly Olsen, Kanna (original character), Krypto,

Summary: Lena finally has the work and home life balance that she wants and is excited to get to spend the next two weeks that she has off with the girls while Kara is away. She believes that it will be smooth sailing, but things are not as they seem.

Word Count Up To For All Chapters Combine: 13,880

Chapter 1 link, Chapter 2 link, Chapter 3

The twins started bouncing up and down in the car once their grandma’s house came into view. 

The girls screamed, “Grandma!” 

They bolted from the car and ran to Lena’s mother who was already standing in front of the house.  Lena sighed because she knew she had some explaining to do once she got inside the house. She made sure her face looked passive enough, got out of the car, grabbed her and the kids stuff, and walked to the front door. When she got inside, she saw only her mother standing there. 

“Where are the girls?”

“They are in the playroom getting acquainted with my temporary guest.”

“Who would that be?” asked Lena warily.

Lillian smirked and said, “Follow me.” 

They walked through the living room and exited to the sliding doors which led directly to the playroom. Alexa and Liza were huddled in a corner hunched over something. As Lena got closer, she stopped. Alexa and Liza were currently hunching over a white dog that looked like a curly coated retriever. The girls giggled over the dog while braiding ribbons in its hair. Lena was surprised that the dog looked so content. 

Lena looked back to her mother in shock and asked, “You got a dog?”

“He is only temporarily here” said Lillian waving to the girls. 

“I asked you for a cat when I was little. You said that anything that licks itself belongs outside with the other beasts” muttered Lena. 

“As I said, he is only temporary. I have to find him a home.” said Lillian while motioning Lena back into the living room. 

They both went to sit on a couch that was facing the girls so they could still see what they were doing. In front of the couch,  there was a table with a spread of tea, cookies, honey, and sugar. 

As Lena went to pour herself some tea, she mused, “The dog’s former owner must be desperate if they trusted you to find him a home.”

Lillian smirked and said, “Technically, I am the owner of the dog.”

“What!”

As Lillian poured herself some tea, she asked, “Remember Alexa did a presentation on animal rights a couple of months ago?”

“Yes. Why?” asked Lena warily.

“Well, she gave an impeccable speech on the importance of treating animals with respect. It really moved me.”

“Really?” asked Lena, giving her the side eye. 

“Yes, really. It made me want to do better. Thus, I had been gradually finding homes for the animals Cadmus had been experimenting on.”

Lena stared at her mom baffled. Cadmus is Lillian’s organization. She used to use it to try to create genetic technology to annihilate all alien lifeforms on earth. However, since the girls had been born, she has been using the company to try to improve the health quality of life among the aliens on this planet. Lena had made multiple suggestions to Lillian over the last couple of years including the one to stop the testing on animals. Lillian had told her it would increase cost to stop the testing all together. 

“I didn’t think you cared so much about how the girls think of you” mused Lena. 

Lillian looked to the side away from Lena and said with her voice wavering, “Of course I do. I know I have given you plenty of reasons to see the worse in me. I don’t want to leave that same impression on the girls.”

“Mother.” Lena said softly.

Lillian fanned her eyes and said, “That’s beside the point now. I know you are avoiding the real topic at hand. Would you care to tell me about the new threat that you and the girls are facing, and why your so-called wife isn’t doing anything about it.”

Lena winced because she was not wrong. She would rather pick up dog poop instead of going into details of what is going on. 

Lena sighed and said, “Kara is off world conducting peace negotiations with several alien species, or I would have dealt with this together with her.”

“Convenient time for her to go into space” muttered Lillian while sipping her tea. 

“Mother!”

Lillian chuckled and said, “It is not a dig. Isn’t it convenient that a threat comes up and your main defender is gone?”

Read the rest on AO3

[technotional]

The Great SharePoint Copying Disaster: A Cautionary Tale

The Great SharePoint Copying Disaster: A Cautionary Tale

Picture this: You’re the friendly neighbourhood IT tech, summoned to help with an innocuous-sounding task. Your mission? To copy some files from an old employee’s backup (already on sharepoint) into a shiny new SharePoint for “current projects.” Easy, right? You’ve got admin access, you’ve got the "CopyTo" feature, and you’ve got confidence.

The Plan"Hey, SharePoint has this neat 'CopyTo' feature," you think. "It'll be a breeze." You’re doing it through the web interface, so no need to worry about whether the files have been downloaded onto the computer, which can sometimes result in… copying the file name but not the actual file as it can only copy what’s physically located on the computer.. Everything’s set up for smooth sailing. What could possibly go wrong?

One Week Later: Enter the HorrorWell, apparently… a lot.

It turns out, SharePoint’s "CopyTo" feature is more like a "Pretend To Copy But Actually Just Copy the Folder Names" feature. That’s right, it copied the folders — but not the contents. Oh, cool. Just a handful of empty folders with no files inside. Thanks, Microsoft.

No sweat. You’ve got admin access! You roll up your sleeves and decide to right-click and manually recopy things. "This’ll be quick," you think, full of determination.

The First Obstacle: No Merging FoldersWait a second. The online version of SharePoint doesn't let you merge folders. Of course it doesn't! That would be far too convenient.

So, your only option is to create a new copy and replace the original folder. Simple, right? Except... what happens when SharePoint decides to mess with the folder names for no good reason?

The Naming DisasterHere’s where the real fun begins. You expect the newly copied folder to be named something helpful, like:

"2024.01.35 Folder name – Copy"

"2024.01.35 Folder name (1)"

Nope. What does SharePoint give you instead?

"2024.011.35 Folder name"

That’s right. Instead of keeping things neat and consistent, and having the copy of the folder next to the original folder, SharePoint decided to rewire the folder name into some bizarre format, like it was playing a game of "let's confuse the user as much as possible." Oh, and the date? Totally messed up so now things are all over the place.

Another folder, another mess:

Original: "2024.03.28 Folder name"

What you get: "2024.031.28 Folder name"

Why? Why would anyone ever think that’s an acceptable outcome? Why would this ever be a thing?

A Tale of Misery and DespairAt this point, you’re starting to wonder if you’ve stumbled into some twisted developer competition to create the most infuriating user experience. “Great job, Microsoft! Really knocking it out of the park!” you mutter under your breath as you try to make sense of the chaos.

And just as you’re about to give up and start physically sorting through folders, a tiny voice in the back of your head says, “Maybe I should find the developer who created this and… have a chat.”

I don’t often wish violence on developers, but let’s just say that whoever is responsible for this feature had better hope I don’t ever find them.

In the end, it’s a tale of tech gone wrong. A reminder that even the simplest tasks can spiral into chaos when software developers forget the golden rule: Make it work like people expect it to, not like some abstract vision of what you think is clever.

Either that or actually test your own products and not leave it to the masses.

Also, if you insist on leaving it to the masses, then you should have a way to get things fixed up since, right now, the goal seems to be to make people go away instead of fixing issues from Microsoft tech support.

[loumauve]

short non-comprehensive list of Noah Kahan lines from Stick Season that make me physically ill with blorbo feels. which blorbos you ask? you're gonna have to guess

and I'll dream each night of some version of you that I might not have but I did not lose [ Stick Season ]

now I know your name, but not who you are. it's all okay, there aint a drop of bad blood. it's all my love, you got all my love [ All My Love ]

someday I'm gonna be somebody people want [ Come Over ]

no blorbo feels just 'grew-up-right-outside-of-town-inbetween-the-fields-and-dirt-roads' me vibing: oh, this town's for the record now. the intersection got a Target and they're calling it downtown. you and all of your new perspective now, wish I could shut it in a closet and drag you back down. [ New Perspective ]

feels like I've been ready for you to come home for so long, that I didn't think to ask you where you'd gone. why'd you go? [ Orange Juice ]

oh, if my engine works perfect on empty, I guess I'll drive. and if all my life was wasted, I don't mind, I'll watch it go. yeah it's better to die numb than feel at all [ Growing Sideways ]

I already posted about [ Halloween ] but I also adore there's a murder of crows in the low light off Boston and I see your face in each one

I stopped caring 'bout a month ago, since it's been smooth sailing. I would leave if only I could find a reason. [..] I got dreams but I can't make myself believe them. spend the rest of my life with what could have been. and I will die in the house that I grew up in. [ Homesick ]

just. the entirety of this one is a mood [ The View Between Villages ]

[stargazing-and-peoplewatching]

a collection of lyrics that make me think of someone else

i think it's time to go now i think my curtain's falling just don't forget about me when you get out of college if it's my final album and if i am forgotten i hope i made you smile that's all i ever wanted

both my current college friends who are already graduating next year and my old high school friends who i feel like i'm falling out of touch with. i have this,, fascination with being forgotten, you'll see.

am i ready for love? or maybe just a best friend should there be a difference do you have instructions? maybe i'm stuck on what i see on tv i grew up on disney but this don't feel like disney

i love you, angel. i'm not going to leave, but god this lyric plays through my brain every other day. i knew how hard this would be and it still knocked me off my feet. i'm going to keep trying.

maybe a hundred bad days made a hundred good stories a hundred good stories make me interesting at parties

i miss you. you introduced me to ajr and this was the first song you showed me. you thought it fit sylvie and the time, and i think it fits you now. i wonder where you are. i hope you're okay.

and i took a job for just july but feels like i might be here for life yeah, i'm in it now, i'm in it now could i start again somehow? ... so i spent last night blowing up my life now you won't see me again cheers to the front, and cheers to the back and cheers to the 2010s i could hate my guts when the sun comes up but i like myself like this i like myself like this

this is for the same person as the last one. i remember you saying how you liked this song when the album came out. you had that shitty taco bell job over the summer and i haven't really heard from you since. we still wish you happy birthday. we leave posts for you like leaving a light on for when you come back. i would get it if you don't though. maybe you're figuring out how to move on. know we love you.

two months since you got back how have you been and are you bored yet? ... that makes a lot of sense this place is such great motivation for anyone trying to move the fuck away from hibernation ... time moves so damn slow i swear i feel my organs failing i stopped caring 'bout a month ago since then it's been smooth sailing i would leave if only i could find a reason i'm mean because i grew up in new england i got dreams but i can't make myself believe them spend the rest of my life with what could've been and i will die in the house that i grew up in i'm homesick

you don't like noah kahan. i associate you with this song because when it came on at 2am you said you don't listen to him because his songs would be too real for you. you flipped off my laptop at the chorus. that night we talked about how we tried to get out of our childhood spaces. that's the easiest way i can put it, because nyc doesn't really count as a hometown, does it?

are you tired of me yet? i'm a little sick right now but i swear that when i'm ready i will fly us out of here

nowadays i only go to you when i don't have anyone else to talk to. i try not to, you deserve better than that. yknow you were probably the first transmasc person i ever met. you matter so much to me and you were a lifeline and we don't really talk anymore. it's probably my fault. back when we were younger, back when i didn't know how to play the ukulele, you played and i sang and that was the first interaction i remember having. i kept trying to recreate it. that last time didn't feel the same.

so can i call you tonight? i'm trying to make up my mind just how i feel could you tell me what's real anymore? i hear your voice on the phone now i know i'm not alone just how i feel could you tell me what's real anymore? cause i wouldn't know.

it feels crazy, i feel crazy thinking i've lost a dozen people to distance and time. you all are right there but it doesn't feel the same anymore. we're all growing up and we don't have the time anymore. yknow, i'm thinking of doing my old experiment again. i could. and then maybe i'd feel close to you guys again. i miss staying up with you all. now i just do it alone.

we were tight knit boys, brothers in more than name you would kill for me and i knew that i'd do the same and it cut me sharp hearing you'd gone away but everything goes away, yeah, everything goes away but i'm gonna be here till i'm nothing but bones in the ground and i was there when you grew restless left in the dead of night and i was there when three months later you were standing at the door all beat and tired and i stepped aside

i think about those characters we made once. you were the murderer and i was the ghost. the days when we were the closest pair feel like forever ago, and if i said it like that, you'd probably say it's both of our fault. that i can't be mad that i also let our friendship fall through. it is my fault, isn't it. every duo i write is what i wanted us to be. i miss you. i thought we'd stick by each other's side forever. i know it's my fault.

[persephonememes]

* (  STICK SEASON (WE'LL ALL BE HERE FOREVER) BY NOAH KAHAN /  SENTENCE PROMPTS

" how you been? "

" what does it mean? "

" i am stuck between my anger and the blame that i can't face "

" i miss the way you laugh "

" but you know how it gets out here "

" you got all my love "

" if you need me dear, i'm the same as i was "

" it's all okay, there ain't a drop of bad blood "

" i just hope that your scars heal "

" i was scared to death "

" i'll never let you go "

" i don't get much sleep most nights "

" i'm seeing you in every dream "

" i'll love you when the oceans dry "

" i'll love you when the rivers freeze "

" don't you know there's a coffin buried under the garden "

" i'm in the process of clearing out cobwebs "

" someday i'm gonna be somebody people want "

" it's been a long year "

" would we survive in a horror movie? "

" i wanna love you 'till we're food for the worms to eat "

" i know every route in this county "

" i'll tell you where not to speed "

" honey, come over "

" no one will tempt you, we know you got sober "

" it's yours if you want it "

" i've been ready for you to come home "

" i didn't think to ask you where you'd gone "

" why'd you go? "

" i haven't drank in six months on the dot "

" don't you find it strange that you just went ahead and carried on? "

" the last time i drank i was face down passed out there on your lawn "

" are we all just pulling you down? "

" remember telling me that you thought you were cursed? "

" love is fast asleep on a dirt road with your head on my shoulder "

" those things I miss but know are never coming back "

" if i was empty space and you were formless shape we'd fit "

" i'm still angry at my parents for what their parents did to them "

" i know there are worse ways to stay alive "

" why is pain so damn impatient? "

" the last that i heard you were down in new orleans "

" i worry for you. you worry for me. "

" it's fine if we know we won't change "

" i'm leaving this town "

" i know that you're fearing the end "

" i only tell truth when I'm sure that I'm lying "

" how have you been and are you bored yet? "

" time moves so damn slow "

" i stopped caring about a month ago since then it's been smooth sailing "

" i would leave if only i could find a reason "

" i got dreams but i can't make myself believe them "

" i don't want to say goodbye "

" i'm still here with you "

" for a minute the world seems so simple "

" who was i to watch you wilt? "

" i promise to be there this time "

" i'm naming the stars in the sky after you "

" i'm remembering i promised to forget you now "

" it's all the same, anyways "

" i ain't proud of all the punches that i've thrown "

" i gave your name as my emergency phone call "

" i'd die for you "

" why do you do this to yourself? "

" this place had a heartbeat in its day "

" it just ain't that simple, it never was "

" we'll drink to new year's "

" i'm not ready to let go yet "

" now the weight of the world ain't so bad "

" i saw the end, it looks just like the middle "

" who am I to complain? "

" now the pain's different. it still exists, it just escapes different. "

" don't you cancel any plans "

" all lights turned off can be turned on "

" i'll drive all night "

" don't be discouraged "

" i've been exactly where you are "

" if you could see yourself like this, you'd have never tried it "

" won't you stay with me? "

" i even gave up driving after nightfall "

" i'm ain't angry at you, love "

" i'll be waiting for you "

" we spent so long just getting by "

" i'm not a city girl "

" it still has a lot of meaning to me because i grew up there "

" it's a small community of people that really look out for each other "

" last time i was in the back of a cop car, i fell in love "

" it's all the same anyway "

[sorcadh]

Homesick - Noah Khan

Two months since you got back

How have you been and are you bored yet?

The weather ain’t been bad if you’re into masochistic bullshit

And every photograph

that’s taken here is from the summer

Some guy won Olympic gold

eight years ago a distance runner

And that makes a lot of sense

this place is such great motivation

For anyone tryna move

the fuck away from hibernation

Woooo

Well I’m tired of dirt roads

named after high school friends’ grandfathers

And motherfuckers here

still don’t know they caught the Boston bombers

Time moves so damn slow

I swear I feel my organs failing

I stopped caring ‘bout a month ago

since then it’s been smooth sailing

I would leave if only I could find a reason

I’m mean because I grew up in New England

I got dreams but I can’t make myself believe them

Spend the rest of my life with what could have been

And I will die in the house that I grew up in

I’m homesick

I’m homesick

I’m homesick

Oh

I would leave if only I could find a reason

I’m mean because I grew up in New England

I got dreams but I can’t make myself believe them

Spend the rest of my life with what could have been

And I will die in the house that I grew up in

I’m homesick

I’m homesick

I’m homesick

I’m homesick

[thiscoffeelooksbiracial]

😭

I've been going back and forth with myself for the last year and I have come to the conclusion that yes, I did blow up my life for no reason.

But I'm here now and I can't stop or go back. I could try, but that would be the path to homelessness and becoming fully unhinged. Unfortunately, I'll be the most stable if I stay at the job I hate and finish the career path that now wholly uninterests me.

I was relieved because it meant that I wouldn't have to worry about money or finding a job for 15 months. But corporate sucks and while I'm comfortably paid, it's not the kind of money to make me content to just produce slide deck after slide deck until I retire.

Also, the world is burning and I feel like I have to pretend it's not. What's the point of all of this if there won't even be a society when it's time for me to retire?

On the bright side, it's almost March so there's only 10 months to go. I hope things turn around by then or I've at least found a path forward.

I will simply show up, do the minimum and not quit. The only way I'm leaving is if I'm fired. So the next thing to do is to build up a 3 to 6 month emergency fund so that if I really must quit I'll have enough money to get by.

Mentally the past two months have been rough. Most of it was work stress which probably affected my hormones. My period was a month late so imagine six weeks of pmdd rather than two. I've survived, but I have started to consider getting on lexapro. Sis is on it with great results so maybe that could be the ssri that finally works for me. I've also been eating well and exercising and I've stopped taking unisom on a nightly basis. So maybe I can maintain my mental health without drugs. If not I know I can get a 3 month supply for about $100 including the mental health assessment so I'll keep that in mind. I ordered a pms support supplement from iherb. I'll give it another month before I can say whether it's really made a difference.

I finally got an industrial piercing. For the longest I was worried about looking respectable and whether potential employers would make me take it out before it healed so I never bothered. I also got my nose pierced at the same time. The nose hurt more initially, but I think that one may heal the easiest. My only issue with it is that I didn't know what the L-shaped piercing looked like so when it came loose in my sleep, I spent about 30 minutes looking for some time of latch that I thought fell out 🤦🏾‍♀️Pushed it back in and it's been smooth sailing ever since.

The industrial has been super crusty and I can't tell if a bump/keloid is forming or if things are still a bit swollen 10 days in. I bought some piercing cleaner that's well reviewed on amazon, but it's pretty much just a weaker, non-lidocaine version of the bactine I got at the piercing shop. I know it's early, but I did take the industrial out because I needed to wash my hair and I didn't want my hair to get tangled up in the bar. Mildly uncomfortable to re-insert, but not impossible. I've read it can take up to a year to heal, but I hope it can be healed sooner. I think I'll give it until June and then get 3 holes in each lobe. Then in September get a helix. I also want to start a sleeve next month for my birthday.

[sideblog-usernametaken]

@tokiro07

Would've put this in the replies but it would've taken too many parts so I made it a reblog instead:

This would actually make a scary amount of sense if we're being completely honest. Kurusu's tragedy boiled down to "Well, she can't be an idol anymore. What a shame." Compared to basically every other Negator tragedy this is utterly trivial. This is something that not only does happen in real life, but it also happens constantly. While getting mobbed by your fans is absolutely traumatic, it's not really comparable to accidentally killing your parents or killing a colleague on live TV or being forced to live for 445.5 Billion years.

Depending on the activation conditions, someone with UnChaste could live a completely normal life like the holder of UnAvoidable before Void. So it's not impossible that Kaede could've gotten UnChaste, gave up the idol life, then settled down to have a family without ever knowing she's a Negator. Her leaving the idol scene because of UnChaste would also explain why they never told Fuuko about it, how do you explain to your kid that you used to have a successful music career but stopped because your fans got too horny at a concert? Likewise, this is why her grandfather never told her either. However bad it would've been to explain before it's even worse after Kaede dies.

This would also fall into place with our new knowlege of how Negator abilities work. If Kaede used to work with Kurusu, then she probably recommended her to be the next UnChaste. We still don't fully understand how the timing works or what criteria previous Negators look for, but with Unbreakable and UnTruth there's a precedent for choosing people close to the previous Negator despite what kind of tragedy will occur.

Lastly, we come to the UnChaste tragedy itself. The reason Kaede dies in a plane crash is because her daughter developed UnLuck. If she didn't have to give up on being an idol, then she either wouldn't have had children or she would've had them later in life, meaning she never would've been hit with UnLuck. The plane crash could've been a two for one tragedy where Fuuko loses her mother and Kaede has to reside in her former colleague and know that her daughter is growing up without parents (And eventually meeting her in person through Kurusu and finding out just how horrible of a life she's really had).

Now that I've said all this, I would like to address that narratively speaking this is unlikely. The reason is because the current loop has a lot of time dedicated to characters who never got much of a spotlight or explanation on the previous loop. Like, Void didn't really do much in the previous loop either, he showed up and got murdered then he was almost never brought up again outside of Fuuko feeling guilty (Even then that guilt was mostly about Gina). I mean, he never even makes it to a manga cover until the next loop starts yet he's one of the first characters to get an arc dedicated to them. Then there are other characters like Sean who got maybe 5 pages worth of apperances total in the previous loop who are now just part of the main cast.

My point here is that while it is possible Kaede will be UnChaste (It would easily fit after all) Kurusu is probably still going to get UnChaste and be the focus of this arc. However, I'm not going to try to predict either way because Kaede is much more important to the plot than Kurusu and got much less time than her in the previous loop.

There is also the worst option:

Kaede gets UnChaste.

Fuuko accidentally touches her a little bit and a massive stroke of UnLuck happens.

Kurusu gets UnChaste.

Fuuko and Kaede both fail to escape their tragedies despite Fuuko helping to save literally everyone else.

This serves as a breaking point for Fuuko, and a poorly timed one at that because they still have more Master Rules to beat and Andy to save. It would basically be a way to throw a monkey wrench into the whole operation since things have been relatively smooth sailing so far and they seem like they'll genuinely be prepped for Sol at this rate (After all their main issue last time was infighting).

look i just need to say this one thing. if fuuko's mom ends up being unchaste i'm going to fucking scream