#Rnm 1x07

[eusuntgratie]

me watching a deeply emotional scene in Roswell New Mexico: damn he's so hot wtf

[winnie-the-monster]

[dr-lizortecho]

Alright so I held back on my farewell to Roswell New Mexico this long for a slew of reasons. For anyone still following me post 4x13 you probably have a small hint as to why. But now I’m at peace with how the show went out (not happy, obviously. I’ll still maintain my views on pretty much the entire season and the writers involved). But I have been able to come to a place where my love for Liz and a lot of her supporting characters have surpassed all of that negativity. Cause though the writing felt like a knife specifically curated to cut into my heart it failed to tarnish the characters and relationships. The rest of this will be under the cut for being overly sappy and cringe <3

Roswell New Mexico came into my life not once but three times (coincidentally the same amount of times Liz came into Max’s), and each time it gave me something I can’t ever be grateful enough for. The cast and crew truly created a gift, one built with love and so much thoughtfulness (barring certain aspects as it continued on). Jeanine’s love and passion for her character shinning through flawlessly in all her scenes, even when the script she was working with was sub par.

First, I discovered the show with my brother through seeing a trailer during one of the arrowverse shows. And then we decided to watch. It was a wild ride, as season one was. Both of us having alternating theories and discussions about the show and the characters. This was at a time when my life felt empty and broken (I was a highschooler, lol). My brother -one of my best friends- was graduating and probably leaving my life in some way shape or form, creating a complicated mess of emotions. Through all of that we had forgotten how to interact and just be, without something external to bring us together. And RNM became that. More than that the characters dynamics reminded me of how my childhood felt, Max and Isobel’s dynamic reminiscent of how we’d been when we were little. Creating a firm nostalgia that helped me try harder and push the limits in reconnecting. Just seeing Max’s fear of losing Isobel was enough to make me certain I didn’t want that. All while Maria and Liz’s friendship making me homesick for the same thing with my best friend. Who I’d made the terrible mistake of attempting to date (cause highschool and questioning my sexuality), which had fractured our dynamic in a strange way. Not only that but struggling through that relationship being ‘outed’ to my conservative/religious family, and watching the way my mother distanced herself. Having her tell me it was something my father didn’t need to know about, because it was over and I’d never fall down that path again. So for two seasons RNM saved my two most important relationships to date, helped me reconnect with my two best friends. Because I was reminded by Alex in 1x07 to get out of my own head and talk to my best friend, reminded time in and time out by Max that it’s in the trying to communicate. If you love something you don’t let go, unless you’re asked to.

The second time RNM saved me is probably the most meaningful to me in some strange way. Though it took the longest, and seemed to stretch out for an eternity. All of season three and the entire lead up to season four (and half of it, though the current season wasn’t really part of it). Somehow between all the life events of starting college, losing my dog, and falling into a depressive state, I’d forgotten the show existed. Then while skipping a class (Chemistry, lol), because the anxiety was too much for me to handle, I opened Netflix and it was suggested for me. It was like a million memories crashed into me and they were warm and safe and comforting. So I turned it on and rewatched and relearned all the characters who had once meant so much to me, then when that was over I opened ao3 and tumblr (for the first time since the Supernatural obsession). Somehow I let my depression and anxiety get the best of me, flunking classes and moving from job to job. Whatever it took to stop the cold feeling of inadequacy and anxiety every time it seemed to take over. Long story short this continued for at least a year, one in which I fell so hard into the depression I stopped reaching out to my best friend, almost lost her honestly it was so bad. But along that line, getting to watch Liz struggle with similar things -though vastly different- was a lifesaver. It gave me that small bit of strength to push through and understand myself. By being able to examine her traumas and reasons for running so fast and so forcefully I was able to examine myself. Not just what I was running from but running too, like 3x08 tore my heart out and showed it to me. Not only that, but being able to watch how Max saw Liz, seeing her faults. How she was loud and took up space, how she ran from people, how she built armor around her like a cage. To be able to watch him love her unconditionally, to see him not only love her positive traits but the negative ones. It all helped break the cage around my own heart, helped me face myself and the people I loved. Not only that but being able to watch Liz Ortecho be loud and take up space- as a woman who’s spent my whole life being told by the people closest to me that I’m too loud and too opinionated. It just, she means so much to me. Her and Max’s relationship as well. Because in some convoluted way I am lovable cause they exist.

Like, it’s so hard to express it. But I’m finally in a place where I’m living my life instead of being a passenger in my body. Finally made it to a place where I’m at peace with who I am and what I want. And am actively building towards that, with my recent admission into a new college for my new major. For a career I want (not the one I was told I wanted). With my chosen family around me and knowing who I am for the first time ever.

The third time RNM saved me occurred during the second time, but in a very different way. It saved me through the fandom, the people who spent time reading what I created and commenting and engaging with me. (It was a big part in my realization I wanted to go into the arts not the sciences). But mostly it helped me learn how to engage with people on a social level on my time. And to anyone who’s taken the time to read this, that includes you. All of the people in the fandom space have been so lovely and welcoming and kind. And have by proxy of sharing their own content and engaging with mine, helped me smile a little more through some difficult times. Helped me fully come to terms with my own identity. So thank you all for making this show and it’s content impossibly more meaningful.

So though the show won’t be airing anymore, know my love for it will always exist. And for the fact someone in a room somewhere let these characters and their stories exist in my screen, I am forever grateful (even when I’m being salty about the show, I never will regret it). And as always the mandatory I will be here churning out Echo content till I die <3

[lesbianmaxevans]

Roswell NM #8 and #12 😊

8. A quote from RNM that means a lot to me.

Maria's monologue in 1x07 will always mean a lot to me

“Everyone in this town rejected everything about me, and she just…she just embraced it and raised me to love myself. The sound of my own voice, the way I crazy dance, and the color of my skin when I literally thought we were the only black people in the world."

12. What attracted me into checking RNM out.

this is SO embarrassing but I was into PLL as a teen so I literally decided to check the show out for Tyler. like literally that was the full reason I had for deciding to watch the pilot. and now I hate his guts bc the redface and decade of profiting off a lie. 🤪

[bisexualalienss]

ALEX MANES

1.07 "I Saw the Sign"

[maycanady]

Are you sure this is what you want? It’s the only way.

[gra-sonas]

🥺 Oh my 🥺

[winged-fool]

Michael Guerin + Junkyard Fire Sad Boi Hours

[angrycowboy]

the alien giving their human soulmate the instrument of their own destruction so that the other person can heal

for @ober-affen-geil​

[suzteel]

Maria DeLuca Weekend | Day 1 | Favorite Moments

[rhcenyra]

LIZ/MAX in ROSWELL NEW MEXICO ⇢ 1x07

You were right earlier. Isobel's dangerous. We all are. My sense of fairness and justice does not apply to my family. I thought I was more principled than that, but the three of us are all alone together. And I can't give up on them, ever. But if something happens and I can't protect you and Isobel at the same time, you should have a way to protect yourself.

[winnie-the-monster]

[lizacstuff]

[dr-lizortecho]

rnm (obviously) and 16

Hi! Thanks for the ask 💜💜💜

16. A scene/moment that makes me really emotional every single time

Okay, so it’s in 1x07 and Liz is talking to Mimi and she’s reading her future, but Liz let’s her read “Rosa’s” future

But instead of taking Mimi into the harsh cold world Liz has lived in for the last decade, she paints a beautiful world where Rosa lived and chased her dreams. A beautiful well constructed life easily falling from Liz’s lipa because of how often it had plagued her. The what-if’s of what her sister could have become.

I mean I cry like a baby

send me a fandom and a number <3

[bisexualalienblast]

What if it had been Alex Manes?