#Rika's up next bc she's my gf

[motherhenna]

Pokemon Scarlet / Violet but it's a dating sim and Mr. Jacq is my boyfriend

[in-mysme-hell]

I like the scenarios about MM you post. 😍Would you mind doing one where the MC has bad depression and cuts, but tries to keep it from them at all cost. Like always putting on a smile and wearing long sleeves cause she really loves them.

Oh boy, you should take a seat for this one. It’s a long one holy freakin’ hell someone needs to stop me but I hope this is what you had in mind. I divided it into multiple posts (bc I have no self control when it comes to this stuff)

Jaehee | Zen | Jumin | Saeyoung 

Pupper Yoosung:

If he picked up on the fact that you almost always wore sweatshirts or hoodies, he didn’t mention it. Once he complained that the AC in your apartment was too much fuck wearing a long-sleeved shirt in the summer, but you quickly brushed it aside with excuses about how the optimal temp. for sleeping was 18 degrees celsius and etc.

You were hanging out at his place like you did so often. Ofc, in typical Yoosung fashion, he was raging hard at LOLOL while you sat back on his bed with your laptop to answer emails for the next party. You usually loved these peaceful moments where you could be near each other and still do your own thing, just taking comfort from their presence.

Though today you were having problems with a stubborn party guest how tf do you communicate with a cat??

You could feel the coldness seeping into your body, making your chest feel heavy. The bad thoughts were coming back, that voice in the back of your head that told you what a failure you were. For goodness’ sake you couldn’t even convince to get the Oil Prince to come!

Feeling frustrated, you voiced your complaints to Yoosung, whose attention was divided between the rare boss monster he was fighting and his cute MC

“Oh, I remember him from our first party. He was really impressed with Rika and even asked her to organize his son’s coronation ball,” Yoosung exclaimed without looking away from the screen.

Fuck, despite how hard you tried, you couldn’t even compare to Rika with her first party whereas this was your second and you had all her old notes to go off of. Could you be any more stupid?!

Instead of tearing up, you could feel yourself shutting down and all your emotions were slipping away. Your fingers felt like ice when you slipped them under the sleeve of your sweatshirt and scratched against week days old scabbing wounds.

Mumbling out some half-hearted excuse about having to finish chores, you left. All you could think about rn was getting home and getting relief

Without even thinking about the razors under your bathroom sink, you stumbled into the kitchen and pulled out a steak knife. The cool metal of the blade felt like a lover’s caress against your skin and a hiss escaped your lips as it sliced through paper-thin skin

“Never enough…not as pretty as Rika, not as charming as Rika, just not as Rika as Rika!” - “Can’t even do one thing right…a failure” - “Never be good enough for Yoosung or the rest of the RFA, can never be even close to the place their precious Rika had in their hearts”

Yoosung hadn’t realized until after you left that you had sounded so upset. Feeling like he’d let you down as your bf, he rushed to your place

You didn’t even hear the doorbell ring or the spare key being slid into the lock. But you did hear the panicked yell “MC, NO!” and felt his arms come around you.

“MC, no why, please. I can’t lose you. Why would you…no, I’m sorry. I’m so so sorry. Why would you do this?” he pleaded, but you refused.

It took several minutes of begging and sobbing on his part to get you to open up and tell how you’d always been dealing with depression but lately it had gotten really bad. How ashamed you felt about not being able to fit in Rika’s shoes.

“MC, I’m sorry. I know I bring her up all the time, but I swear I don’t mean to compare the both of you. She’s my cousin, and you…you’re my MC. The love of my life, my cute gf that always supports me and makes me feel like I’m on top of the world.”

Hell if that didn’t make you feel even more ashamed - here was your sweet bf who thought the world of you and you were complaining

But that sweet bf also made you promise to tell him whenever things got really bad again and to call him out immediately if he said or did something to trigger an episode. You also promised him you’d think about seeing someone about your self-harm

- admin Shay