#Rifp to all of us and to all of us a good night

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Opinion on helpi GASLIGHTING cassie the entire game/lh (im already a gregory protector i may as well be a helpy protector too..)

I honestly…. Really loved Helpy…… like i didn’t even pay attention to what he was saying he was just so cute whenever he popped up on the screen and explained stuff 🥲 I might need therapy but I would let him stab me and I’d still find him cute and just pat his little baby bear head and tell him he’s doing a great job

As for the protector stuff? I’m not taking sides ฅ(≚���≚) everyone got stuff going on but Cassie def ended up paying for it just for doing things out of the kindness of her heart. I don’t really think that Gregory betrayed her tho, there was more than just the mimic in the pizzaplex giving her trouble or even trying to stop her all unrelated to Gregory :0c hope everyone is ok in the end :> Cassie deserves better too 💖 she’s a good bean

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1-6 for rust and 20-29 for slade!

cut for length!

What was your first time with your f/o like?

the first time was A Mess because we were both hyped up on whatever had been circulating at the Crusaders’ party. we ended up in some empty room in this run down fucking house fucking over a table, and got walked in on by ginger and his gaggle of goons. i realized later though that ginger and them never realized it was ME rust was with, because he’d leaned forward and put his arm in front of my face, so all they saw was the blonde hair and just assumed he’d found some chick. it was kind of, idk, sweet?? to realize years later he ended up reflexively protecting me from the start. 

How often do you and your f/o have sex?

it depends. pre ‘95 we were going at it pretty wild until he was able to push me out of the crusaders after i got jumped. ‘95 was a mixed bag until the dora lange case was solved, but after that it was pretty regular, a few times a week until shit imploded in ‘02. 

Is the sex between you and your f/o usually sensual? Passionate? Animalistic?

sensual is probably a good fit for the most part. not to sound cliched but we definitely try to convey things through sex that we’re too emotionally constipated to say with words. sometimes rust buries his face in my neck and tells me i need you, and i know that there’s more to it than the immediate, psychical need. (altho what he NEEDS is a therapist lbr here)

How messy is the sex, or do you and your f/o try to keep it as clean as possible?

oh it can get pretty messy, entirely because of me. he tells me once after the fact, because he’d gotten into something in the evidence locker, that when he was married him and his wife could go at it and you couldn’t even tell, “but we go at it and it’s like the goddamn flood sweepin’ noah’s ark away”. 

Do you and your f/o prefer having sex in the dark or with the lights open?

he likes having the lights on. not like, blindingly bright, but a nice soft glow is good. i prefer them off so we compromise sometimes. 

What was the most embarrassing thing to happen between you and your f/o before, during, and/or after sex?

marty caught us once when he was staying with us in ‘95. rust had actually gotten some sleep the night before, and it was right after the dora case got closed, before marty was allowed to move back in w/ maggie and the kids, and well...we do like tables. nothing kills a boner faster than glancing over to see marty walking into the kitchen giving his balls a morning scratch and proclaiming through a yawn “aw, come on man, i fucking eat at that table” followed by “great, i’m gonna be seeing rust’s ass every time i close my eyes now, thanks for that partner.” 

How good is your f/o at oral? How do they use their lips and tongue to pleasure you?

jesus fucking christ slade’s so good at it. and he KNOWS it and he USES that. he’s also into face sitting, and his extra sturdiness from those army experiments means no worries about his neck. he likes to take little breaks though to come up and kiss me, he thinks it’s very important i know what i taste like. 

How does your f/o taste?

like a goddamn killing machine hm, [swirls cum around a wineglass] DO I DETECT A HINT OF NUT??? i want to say like, iunno, tangy? altho outside of the drink i’ve never been able to figure out precisely what tangy even means, but pleasant enough nonetheless. 10/10 would swallow again.

Is there any dirty talk? If so, how dirty? What about pet names and/or derogatory names?

oh jesus there is. so much. like almost every time, it’s rare there’s not. it kind of took a while for us to find the right balance of it though, and i realized during that time apparently i was unintentionally creating some sort of build-a-dom with him, because he actually admits once he didn’t used to be so ‘like that’. he ended up following my cues which basically led to a “hope this doesn’t awaken anything in me” situation. 

the best mix though is an even distribution of degradation and praise. like, absolutely tell me what a filthy fucking boy i am, but be sure to tell me what a good filthy boy i am. he also likes to claim ownership, which is how his dumb ass accidentally pavlov trained himself into going into nut mode whenever someone calls him death//stroke because “slade” as an answer to “whose pussy is this?” wasn’t getting me what i wanted and it was like ten minutes before i came up with the right answer. after that he kept doing it because you know, ego, hubris, etc, and now he’s fucked himself while trying to fuck me, good job, colonel. (oh, great, colonel will be the next thing.) 

How good is your f/o with their hands/fingers?

sO LIKE, i actually have a non-sexual attraction to hands to begin with but i particularly go nuts for slade’s, and usually always want to be fidgeting with one of them as much as possible, so with that said, 

rifp this fucking pussy honestly. he loooves getting fingers involved with oral, and is also good about thumbing up against the clit while balls deep. i actually don’t let him do the second one that often though because it gets to be too much stimulation, but is also the quickest way to get me cumming. he’s misjudged it before and had me done before he was, which of course i used to say “haha look what you did, mr. big man”. he jerked off onto my chest in response.

How loud is your f/o? Do they moan/whine/whimper? Do they curse? Do they call your name like it’s the only thing they know?

for all the talking that goes on he’s actually fairly quiet. because that’s what it is, talking. and he knows what really gets me off is him growling in my ear, not raising his voice. he’s prone to the usual moaning and a few swears here and there. sometimes when i’m being particularly frisky i can manage to weasel this kind of, not high-high pitched, but high pitched for him yelp out of him when i’ve been sucking dick for too long and he literally has to pull me off him. 

i think there was like one single time where i got him to the point where he actually called the safe word instead of pushing me off. (it’s titan, by the way. which was decided as being the most obvious word neither of us would be saying during sex, but my response was also “i dunno, that seems like a good way to turn on your revenge brain and get my neck reflexively snapped”. he didn’t appreciate the joke.) 

Do you and your f/o hold hands while making love? How tightly do they hold onto you?

yee, sometimes. it depends on what position we end up in, or what we’re hanging onto. surprisingly enough i’ve never had a problem with him like, not paying attention and hurting my hands or anything. you’d think it would be a problem, what with the augmented strength, but no it never is. sometimes i feel like he’s holding on because he still thinks i’m not going to be here when he wakes up. 

What’s your f/o’s stamina like? Do they last long or finish quickly? Can they go for multiple rounds?

god bless the us army for that healing factor and enhanced metabolism and stamina can i get a YEE HAW from the crowd!! i mean, yeah he still needs a few minutes, but it’s absolutely multiple rounds. he can usually last a good bit, too, but every now and then that hubris rears up and he gets himself too psyched up playing with me and will come early, but it’s fine, he always makes up for it. 

Is there anything that can make your f/o cum every single time?

every now and then, i will absolutely ride him, and he will fucking go off like a geyser every time. there are times between that and oral where i get a bit puffed up and take the reigns for a bit, and like a dog with a bone, slade goes nuts for it. 

How wrecked/spent does your f/o look by the time the two of you are done? Do they have a dazed look on their face? Completely disheveled hair? Chest heaving for breath?

sometimes the eyepatch ends up getting lost in the shuffle because i’m like “oh shit, handle!” and i may have broken a few straps. if his hair’s grown out enough it’s absolutely a fucking MESS and i have no idea how he can stand to detangle that shit. on rare occasions slade just absolutely knocks the fuck OUT afterwards and i can always tell that whoof, i did a good job when that happens. he always ends up commenting about how well he slept the next morning, so i strut around like a preening peacock for the rest of the day. 

What’s the aftercare like, if there is any?

oh it’s a must if things got intense. lots of nuzzling and kisses and praise and affirmation. also sometimes the heating pad for me because sex can rev up those kidneys and i need to be able to relax everything. and sometimes when the orgasm(s) gets intense enough the flood of hormones makes me cry. 

i judge a good bout of sex by if he falls almost into a coma after, he judges it by if i start crying. but it’s fine, because he kisses my cheeks and tells me again what a good boy i am, and tries very very hard not to laugh too much about the juxtaposition of me during foreplay vs me sobbing intermediately after an orgasm. 

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Nickname: Felix, Sherk

Zodiac: Virgo

Height: 5'2"

Time: 9:19 I was very tempted to wait until 4:20 to post this

Favorite band/artist: They Might Be Giants! I'd recommend checking out Let's Get This Over With, Experimental Film, and Birdhouse in Your Soul! But every song of theirs is a complete bop tbh.

https://youtu.be/zSV06UBrJag

https://youtu.be/Sf9S1WVVmLM

https://youtu.be/NhjSzjoU7OQ

Song stuck in my head: Video Killed the Radio Star! It's my current favorite song. I also almost constantly have The Elements of the Periodic Table and Why Does the Sun Shine? stuck in my head.

https://youtu.be/cUDRZiEdDDA

Last Movie I Saw: Wonder Woman! It's pretty badass she throws a tank.

Last Thing I Googled: Affordable cowboy hats. Good news: I found one. Bad news: I'm still figuring out how to purchase things online I'm a disaster.

Other Blogs: rifp I'm too lame for multiple blogs.

Do I Get Asks: Sometimes @ruioolee yells Ace Attorney Homestuck Au at me, but as a rule not really.

Why did I choose this username: Axolotls are cool and also I eat oranges in the shower like a hecking heathen I actually do not like the color or the taste of the fruit in general.

Following: 51

Average amount of sleep: 6 hours, but I also like to get like 3 hours a sleep a night for several nights in a row and then get like 12 hours of sleep all at once.

Lucky Number: 13

What I am wearing: A tie-dye shirt from my summer job at a summer camp. It's orange. I'm also wearing cargo shorts and my binder heck it's been on too long hhhhhh.

Dream job: I'd love to design lighting or set for a Broadway show someday! Though tbh I'd be 100% down with working crew or tech on any sort of show for any sort of theatre. Also I want to breed and sell praying mantises on the side.

Dream trip: A hecking roadtrip with @hduece @summer-vaporeon and @ruioolee I love you, bitch. I ain't never gonna stop loving you, bitch.

Favorite food: Potatoes and pineapples. Not at the same time, god no.

Play any instruments?: Cello and piano! I also mess around with an ocarina and a ukelele sometimes but not enough to be any good.

Hair color: Light brown

Describe yourself using aesthetic things: Dew on spiderwebs, a ghostlight in a dark theatre, bioluminescence, burying yourself in the snow, campfires in pitch blackness, opening night nervous excitement, new car smell, fireflies off the side of the road, HGTV, orchid mantises, jumping spiders wearing water droplet hats

Languages you speak: English, a bit of German, a bit of ASL, does music count it feels like another language sometimes

Most Iconic Song: What does iconic mean??? It is asking me to represent myself or just a song I think is pretty great? Don't Let's Start is pretty neat on both fronts I guess???

https://youtu.be/VJQnZZ-Wmao

Random Fact: I can sorta ride a unicycle. I'm still learning but I can go a few feet without faceplanting.

@hduece @ruioolee @summer-vaporeon @nanocupcakes @galactic-chiroptera @detective-in-space  

Do it you heckers.

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TAGGED BY: @koffiehuis-love​ thnx <3

TAGGING: hmmm @loevinde​ @stclhjerte​ @danishlxw​ @mr-puffinwhisperer​ @quietnorthernwind​ @holgerdanske​ idk?? my nordic peeps in general and who ever wants to do this~

NAME: Val (kyrie)

STAR SIGN: Virgo

HEIGHT: 180 cm

MIDDLE NAME: Eva Maria

PUT YOUR ITUNES WMP ON SHUFFLE. WHAT ARE THE FIRST 4 SONGS THAT POPPED UP?

“Ready As I’ll Ever Be” Varian, Cast – Tangled The Series

“My Shot” Lin Manuel Miranda, Cast – Hamilton the Musical

“Målløs” Skei & PT, Serlina

“Bloodstream” Ed Sheeran

GRAB THE BOOK NEAREST YOU AND TURN TO PAGE 23. WHAT’S LINE 17?

( I have to write down this whole page cause it’s hilarious )

     Her eyes widened. “This is mine? You’re giving this to me? This is so cool.”     “It’s a tranquilliser gun.”      Her face fell. “Oh.”       “It’s still cool,” he insisted. “But I’m going to need it back afterwards. It’s a part of a set. I have the other one, and I like to keep them together. It’s already loaded with a single tranq dart, so all you have to do is point and pull the trigger. The dart is loaded with enough sedative to bring down a––”      “Small elephant?”      He looked at her. “What?”      “You know. In the movies, if they’re going after something dangerous they always say their tranquilliser darts have enough sedative to bring down a small elephant.”     “What does people have against small elephants?”     “Well, nothing, but––”     “There’s enough sedative in these darts to bring down a werewolf, which is exactly what we’re hunting. Why would we want to bring down an elephant when we’re not hunting elephants?”      “It’s just something people say in movies.”     “If we were hunting a were-elephant, I would understand the reference.”     “There’s no such thing as a were-elephant.”      “Of course there is. There are were-practically-everythings. Weredogs, werecats, werefish.”     “There are werefish?”     “They don’t generally last very long unless they’re near water.”     “I don’t believe you. I’ve fallen for this too many times in the past.”     “I don’t know what you’re talking about.” He started across the road.     She followed. “Oh, don’t you? You’ll insist they’re real and I’ll eventually start to doubt myself, and then I’ll ask Are there really werefish? And you’ll look at me and say, Good God, Valkyrie, of course not, that’d be silly, and I’ll stand there feeling dumb. Just like with that colony of octopus people.      “The what?”     “You told me once that octopus people were real.”     “And you believed me?”     “I was twelve!” From the amazing Skulduggery Pleasant: Kingdom of the Wicked by Derek Landy

EVER HAD A POEM OR SONG WRITTEN ABOUT YOU? LOL no, why?

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU PLAYED AIR GUITAR? …don’t really do that. I’ve done an air violin however.

WHO IS YOUR CELEBRITY CRUSH? It’s always changing but atm I’m all over heels for Matthew Mercer.

WHAT’S A SOUND YOU HATE + SOUND YOU LOVE?

Hate: Loud chewing. Burps. People cracking their knuckles (honestly it brings me physical pain to just hear it).

Love: Heavy rain accompanied with thunder. Schnauzer barks.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN GHOSTS? I’d say spirits and certain energies that could be described as ghosts? I find it more complicated than just ‘ghosts’.

HOW ABOUT ALIENS? It’d be naïve to think we’re the only one out here. I don’t think however we would be able to make any contact.

DO YOU DRIVE? Yep. My work consists of at least 7 hours of driving every day.

IF SO, HAVE YOU EVER CRASHED? Nope. But with my company car I backed into a truck who snuck up behind me even if I had indicated clearly I had no intention of entering the gate and backing around to drive back the way I came (it’s this gate to a warehouse where they store Spendrups beer and soft drink).

WHAT WAS THE LAST BOOK YOU READ? Um. I’m reading four books right now. Court of Thorns and Roses, Skulduggery Pleasant: Resurrection, Blood of Elves, The Dark Artifacts: Lord of Shadows. Last book I finished however? Skulduggery Pleasant: The Dying of The Light.

DO YOU LIKE THE SMELL OF GASOLINE? Not directly but if I’m working with my car then yes.

WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE YOU SAW? Hm…good question. I see a lot of things when I’m just up late. Last one I actively watched was The Hobbit: The Battle of the Five Armies for the second time. I love it but I get so annoyed on how they decided to end the film.

WHAT’S THE WORST INJURY YOU’VE EVER HAD? I think…when I almost tore some ligaments in my foot and I couldn’t walk for a month or so. Oh and one time I got a rope caught under my armpit as I fell and it tore my skin right open, leaving massive burn-ish mark from front to the back of my shoulder. Wasn’t pretty. It burned all night and I kept crying and sweating and tried to lay a cold wet piece of cloth over it. I was 12 I think.

DO YOU HAVE ANY OBSESSIONS RIGHT NOW? Critical Role. Just, what I generally talk about and fangirl over. I have plenty of other things close to my heart but they’re a bit on hold as I have my new child to look after.

DO YOU TEND TO HOLD GRUDGES AGAINST PEOPLE WHO HAVE DONE YOU WRONG? You’d imagine I’d do, cause I used to, but generally these days I’m too tired to even bother. If you wronged me I probably will just turn around and don’t look over my shoulder. I have little energy these days and honestly, I’ve matured quite a bit not to hold onto grudges. Even the first person to really fuck me up mentally I’m generally “meh” when someone mention them.

ARE YOU IN A RELATIONSHIP? Nope, never been, not actively looking. Happily dating plenty of fictional characters tho, RIFP.

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knowing your partner well can potentially make writing together a lot easier! * repost , do not reblog !

1. BASICS

NAME / ALIAS: Raz PRONOUNS:  She/Her, They/Them. SEXUALITY:  My ass is Ace like a mfer ZODIAC SIGN:  Cancer AGE:  23

2. EXPERIENCE

HOW LONG (MONTHS/YEARS?):  I’ve been rping for 10 years. I started on MSN Messenger. I’m an old school mfer. PLATFORMS YOU’VE USED:  MSN Messenger, DeviantArt Chatrooms, Tumblr, Discord. All in that order. BEST EXPERIENCE:  My best experiences so far have?? Been in the BNHA fandom? Shocker. That and my other good experiences come from a fandom we do not speak of.

3. WRITING PREFERENCES

FLUFF, ANGST OR SMUT: ALL THREE, WHADDUP. GENRE:  Gimme anything bls PLOTS OR MEMES:  I prefer memes tbh?? I go with the flow and plots feel too formal so?? LONG OR SHORT REPLIES:  Both! I try my best to match my writing partner lmao. BEST TIME TO WRITE:  Night time t b h though I get distracted easily all the time rifp me ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S): I tend to be, yeah! I connect more with them that way huehuehue

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Tagging: @surprisetrash @lernillion do it u memes

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ALL THE ASKS DO IT unless ur too busy #collegelife love u ❤❤❤❤

LOVE U BOO never too busy for u (also using this to procrastinate on my french composition so)

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk?

i eat my cereal………………….dry…………..

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day?

YES that’s literally my life now. i love it but also my nose was running today all the way to get coffee in downtown. i was in THREE LAYERS it is not even DECEMBER

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books?

answered! :)

4: how do you take your coffee/tea?

if i’m going to be a bitch and just get plain coffee, i’m gonna get it black bc otherwise i’ll just have a white mocha or a cappuccino or something (the ppl at the campus coffeeshop know who i am. they know my order. “one sin-ful latte coming up!” thank u for fueling my Addition.) i take my tea with milk and sugar if it’s black tea ((earl gray)) or with honey if it’s green tea. if it’s white tea i’ll sometimes have it with sugar, and if it’s something like peppermint or lavender or chamomile i’ll just have it plain. IM A PICKY BITCH

5: are you self-conscious of your smile?

i used to be! but now i like it. 

6: do you keep plants?

YES pls pray for them

7: do you name your plants?

answered! :)

8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings?

poetry! i like to watercolor too, actually, though i left them at home :(

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself?

YES i miss my car bc that’s when i would have Prime Time to sing and hum to myself or along to whatever song i live for at the moment. (i’m into a musical rn and i can’t yell the lyrics out i’m so ANnoyed Always)

10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach?

answered!

11: what’s an inner joke you have with your friends?

i have fucking countless at home……. at college there are quite a few too! as in: “hypothetically, vodka?,” “fuckinG,,,WHAT,” “[blow twice] [slurp sound] [tongue click] noice.,” “SHPEAKERSH OHN!,” “over there! like, over there? over there. over there?,” “just going to go kick some nutria,” and of course, the classic, “same, but jewish.” 

12: what’s your favorite planet?

URANUS actually tho it’s uranus. i had to do my planet project on it in the 4th grade and i gave my brother AND mother silent treatment for two days bc they laughed at its name. i’m very protective

13: what’s something that made you smile today?

i saw my favorite puppy on campus again today!! he’s grown so much!! also my poetry professor’s wife had a successful surgery! #GoMeredith 

14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like?

SO MESSY………………….listen. @michelle i’ve seen ur room, and i would just accept that that is how we live now and it’s fine. it would also be aesthetic as fuck tho tbh. full of yarn and animal fur. and books. and junk food #RIFP

15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is!

if saturn’s rings were a meter long, they would be 10000 times thinner than a razorblade! what the fuckkkkkkkkkkk

16: what’s your favorite pasta dish?

UHHHHH fucking;;;;;;;;what how am i supposed to #represent my italian fmaily with this DISGUSTING question,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, jk i fuckig love risotto, just ur basic bitch peas and cheese risotto and i’ll cry. also?? gnocchi!! holy shiiiiiiiit. 

17: what color do you really want to dye your hair?

my hair has such good color i’d actually rather shave it all off than dye it :/

18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up.

HHHHHHHH yesterday. LITERALLY yesterday. there was a french club meeting that served cheese and bread! so i took my Good Friend WIliam (who is not in french, unlike me), and we walk into the room, and i say “helLO!” bc that’s good manners, when you’re going to just get food and leave, and it’s dead silent. i get food and leave. william has told everyone in our entire hall twice.

19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it?

answered!

20: what’s your favorite eye color?

i’m so biased……….but……..brown………..

21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that’s been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces.

my brown leather one! it’s actually super fake leather and i got it from target!! but it’s cute and small and somehow fits everything i need to put in it, including 3 beers and my wallet and 2 phones last weekend. i’ve had for 4 years now 

22: are you a morning person?

yes! i like waking up early actually 

23: what’s your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations?

go on youtube and waste time, or walk around campus/downtown with friends, or shop!

24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets?

yes

25: what’s the weirdest place you’ve ever broken into?

my cousin’s RV

26: what are the shoes you’ve had for forever and wear with every single outfit?

my brown leather boots! wow there’s a trend here lmao. actually i’ve had two pairs of these bc my first was falling apart?? i used them first in a cosplay……in the 7th grade………..(i was matt from death note and to this day i’m STILL not fucking ashamed, i had the wig and goggles and everything.) i love them and wear them all the time, they’re so comfy and warm and stylish and i feel like a hacker badass everytime i wear them. still to this day.

27: what’s your favorite bubblegum flavor?

bubblegum gives me hives i do Not enjoy it :(

28: sunrise or sunset?

sunset!

29: what’s something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing?

one of my friends down the hall will call things/ppl “cute as pie” completely genuinely!! i love her!!

30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared?

oh yeah

31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks.

i fucking love them thanks end of story. wearing them makes me feel cozy and put together and also atm my dorm floor is Disgusting. i sleep with them when it’s cold and my feet are dry! i have so many fun socks it’s great. i love them. socks are highly underrated.

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.

my friend and i were driving around evERYWHRE basically, we went from pasadena/san marino to like. hollywood all the way to beverly hills and back and it was wonderful, we stopped 3 times to chase stray cats, take shitty pictures, go to iHop, and almost died several times bc hE SNAPS AND DRIVES at NIGHT on LA FREEWAYS

33: what’s your fave pastry?

croissants, followed by scones, followed by coffeecake 

34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it?

bunny the stuffed bunny! she’s pretty large, like as long as my torso! she’s white fabric with colored fluffy bits and very floppy, loose ears. she has green button eyes that i had my grandma sew on bc otherwise she actually scared me a bit when i was a kid, but i loved her anyway bc my great-grandmother sewed her for me in the first place. bunny still lives on my bed at home! 

35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often?

YES! i ddon’t use them very often though bc i feel like i should save them for something. rip me

36: which band’s sound would fit your mood right now?

stromae hands down

37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean?

clean….i’m so lazy tho

38: tell us about your pet peeves!

sudden loud noises, being startled, being touched physically when i don’t expect it, someone making assumptions about me, being dismissed, being told what i want or what i’m going to do, borrowing something of mine w/o telling me, being interrupted 

39: what color do you wear the most?

HONESTLY black bc i’m an emo bitch

40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what’s it’s story? does it have any meaning to you?

one i’ve been wearing a lot is the fork ring i got from the portland saturday market! it’s literally the tines of a vintage fork separated from the part you hold, sanded down so it’s round, and looped into a ring shape. i fidget with it a lot and it reminds me of my mom and step-dad, bc i got it when i was with them. i wear it mostly everyday tbh

41: what’s the last book you remember really, really loving?

new american best friend by olivia gatwood in general, or thick as thieves by megan whalen turner when i re-read it out loud to my mom on the ride up to college

42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it!

yeeeeeeS i have several! the bistro, which is on campus: it’s so comfortable, it has couches everywhere and board games and so many books and zines and the walls are half chalkboard so there’s always art or snark everywhere. the music is super eclectic (it was lorde yesterday, today when i went in it was old-school 90s rap), plus it’s student run so the coffee and pastries and food are SO GOOD. the archive, which is downtown, is really boujee as fuck but it’s SO COOL. it’s so fucking aesthetic, with brown leather stools and uncomfortable booths and vintage books and stuff everywhere. for half the day, it’s a coffeeshop, and after 7, it becomes a bar. then back home, of course, coffee bean and tea leaf is the classic

43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with?

half my hall when we went star tripping at the start of the year!

44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything?

honestly the last time it was genuine was probably around…….january? i was in so much emotional pain and grief, but i was surrounded by family who loved me and were in that same pain and were so happy i was with them to help and be there with them. i wasn’t serene per say, or at peace, but there was this equilibrium….

45: do you trust your instincts a lot?

yes!

46: tell us the worst pun you can think of.

my RA told me this one this morning: did you hear about the explosion in the cheese factory in france this morning? de-brie everywhere! 

47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe?

tomatoes 

48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today?

spiders, YES

49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought?

i do…………………….. it was the soundtrack to romeo et juliette (2010)

50: what’s an odd thing you collect?

everything; stickers, pressed flowers, rocks, receipts 

51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them?

the easiest one is when i think of my roommate, davey the dog’s barking cover of “do the hustle”

52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far?

ew

53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them?

no, yes, no, no, it was okay

54: who’s the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face?

ME, BITCH

55: what’s the most dramatic thing you’ve ever done to prove a point?

chugged an an entire pitcher of water to prove i could, three times

56: what are some things you find endearing in people?

genuineness! vulnerability! eye contact! fidgeting!

57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics?

made me feel PUMPED, and of course i did

58: who’s the wine mom and who’s the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why?

i am both

59: what’s your favorite myth?

uHHHHHHHHHH i love the myth of beowulf actually bc i had to do a project on it once, i have a soft spot for it, i love all myths tho wtf

60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves?

YES,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, recently some of my favorites are the entirety of a montage of a dream deferred by langston hughes, “totem sonnets” by sherman alexie, “on earth we’re briefly gorgeous” by ocean vuong, “one art” by elizabeth bishop

61: what’s the stupidest gift you’ve ever given? the stupidest one you’ve ever received?

stupid gifts are nonexistent :/

62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind?

noooo

63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be?

yes lmao…….i kinda leave them be but i don’t like it if i let someone borrow them and they trash them uGH

64: what color is the sky where you are right now?

Pitch Black

65: is there anyone you haven’t seen in a long time who you’d love to hang out with?

YES

66: what would your ideal flower crown look like?

morning glories, lavender, baby’s breath!

67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel?

very good, thankfully, bc i am in oregon

68: what’s winter like where you live?

in LA, it’s cold and sweet and late and breathless and i adore it

69: what are your favorite board games?

jenga, clue, ??

70: have you ever used a ouija board?

NONONONONO

71: what’s your favorite kind of tea?

peppermint for mornings, earl gray for evenings!

72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you’ll forget it?

yes, sadly

73: what are some of your worst habits?

biting the skin around my fingers, bouncing my knees incessantly, procrastinating on my french compositions……

74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns.

well there’s this amazing person who i met in freshman year german…….;)

75: tell us about your pets!

i WISH

76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren’t?

yes :(

77: pink or yellow lemonade?

pink of course

78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub?

i am the true hateclub: i don’t react. do not give them power. they Feed off of your Hatred

79: what’s one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?

get me flowers, surprise me with chocolate, come up to me and compliment me on my writing, etc!!

80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why?

at home my walls are a soft orangey-peach, which is picked bc i love it. here, my walls are very very white, which i did not pick, but am neutral towards.

81: describe one of your friend’s eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of.

circuit-board chips busted open

82: are/were you good in school?

ehhhhhhh

83: what’s some of your favorite album art?

MELODRAMA

84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones?

yes! a minimalistic double-delight rose for my great-grandmother, “love ya!” in my grandpa’s handwriting, maybe a nutshell with a crown over it (for the “king of infinite space” bit in hamllet), possibly “soyez réaliste, demandez l’impossible!” (be realistic, demand the impossible!) from the french student revolution in the 60s

85: do you read comics? what are your faves?

somewhat, def hawkeye or the young avengers bc i’m basic :/

86: do you like concept albums? which ones?

the only one i’ve rlly ever listened to is fucking danger days, so i worship them obviously

87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?

i think ppl should make their own agendas :/ however, i have deeply loved secondhand lions, up, moonlight, the grand budapest hotel, and other basic bitch things

88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy?

impressionism!! aaaaaaa!!! also just shove me in front of abstract art and i’ll fall for it!!! 

89: are you close to your parents?

so so so so close to my mom and step-dad, on okay terms with my dad

90: talk about your one of you favorite cities.

listen to me. I LOVE SEATTLE. art! fish market! weird side streets! mean street art! bitchy coffee!! neon everywhere!! a big fuckin needle in the sky!

91: where do you plan on traveling this year?

ITALY THIS SUMMER IM SO EXCITED i’m gonna meet all my mom’s friends from her semester abroad that she’s kept, i’m gonna see what she saw when she was my age, i’m gonna see where my dad’s family is from maybe if we go south???, i’m gonna see all the places and things she used to tell me about to get me to dream big and want to see the world and experience what’s out there!! aaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!

92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch?

depends on the pasta

93: what’s the hairstyle you wear the most?

down bc i’m fucking lazy and also inept when it comes to doing things with hair

94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday?

my friend across the hall from me, who is now 19 years of bitchiness!

95: what are your plans for this weekend?

stay in, study, maybe go to a kickback tho

96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot?

lol i put them off until my computer ceases to function altogether 

97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house?

zodiac obviously

98: when’s the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it?

fucking…….summer?? i did!

99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them.

“feelings” by hayley kiyoko, “vacation town” by the front bottoms, “february” by beach bunny, “hard feelings/loveless” by lorde, “moon river” by henri mancini, “let me in” by flor, “a million miles away” by the plimsoles, “girls like me” by bonnie hayes, “love my way” by the psychedelic furs, the entire legend of zelda soundtrack, “place, je passe” from the mozart l’opera rock soundtrack, etc etc

[survivormoves]

RANDOM POSITIVITY ANON: compliment 5 blogs of your choice by saying at least one thing you like about them.

FIVE blogs??? Oof. When you follow over 400 blogs it’s kinda hard to pick only FIVE you know? BUT. Let me get to it. Five blogs to compliment on a thing I like about them... I’ll list off the five that have been helping me a lot lately so...

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@brckenmartyr​ Let’s start with this gem. She’s been so incredibly kind to me? Like, we don’t write a lot ( I wish we did but we both suffer the late night shifts rifp and we live in the same timezone ) but she’s been helping me with Dystopia and generally talking to me and stuff and I love that? She’s a cutie and I love seeing her around!! I also cannot wait to meet her in April! :D Have I mentioned she has such cute muses too, under which Ella? Which my Murphy might’ve gotten a bit protective over. I can’t wait to talk more with her and scream about stuff tbh lmao

@leaderbuilt let’s face it Wrynn, you’re my person, I talk to you daily and you make me really happy whenever we talk and wtf all the aus and verses we have laying around and all the threads even if we can’t keep up too good XD And all the asks in my inbox from you I have yet to reply to!! And probably vice versa, lmao. I regret nothing. You’re an absolute sweetheart and you’ve been SO helpful to me whenever I’ve felt down and you’ve just been a constant? Whether I was moping or squealing out happily, you’ve been there to join me lmao. ANYWAY I love how kind you are? And how easy-going? I love how you write Bell and I love all our things. You’re a gem and deserving of SO much good, I wish you all the best in life, yes?

@lakewoodsecond CHARLES has been there with me since I started on Murphy. And gosh was I SO nervous to talk with him at first because I know how some people feel about duplicates and I just got out of a rough patch;;;  But in the end? Super happy that I have! Charles proved to be fun, a gem, nice to talk to and scream about our son. Now we’re screaming daily about Murphy and Audrey and richard and lmao he’s the greatest. I highly promote following Charles on whatever blog he might be on. Cause he has SUCH a great grasp on the muses he got??? YEAH YOU HEARD ME CHARLES. You’re great and I’m grateful to have met you, NOW GOOO ENJOY YOUR DAY

@seesgood Lia, Lia, Lia. SERIOUS sunshine here? Like, what the fuck. I’ve known her since BEFORE Murphy. Even BEFORE Klaus, on my Dragon Age OC. That’s a LONG time I’ve come to realize now, lmao... But I wouldn’t trade a second of it. I know Lia struggles at times, she’s a bright sunshine, a flame no doubt. But even a flame sometimes flickers and I just want her to know she deserves all the love and cuddles when that happens. I adore the way Lia plays Caroline, cause honestly to me she is Care. Maybe I’m biased but idc. It is how it is. I love the verses we got. I love the way we can scream to each other about Klaroline and Murpholine and practically ANYTHING because neither of us judges the other and are just happy for one another lmao. I’m so grateful to know you Lia, okay?

@kiingbuilt Lenee, I know you’re currently struggling with a lot of things and honestly my thoughts go out to you daily... I know times are rough but I am hoping that in time it will go to easier waters for you... You are SUCH a kind soul and you try so hard and gosh, like I said yesterday it’s okay to make mistakes... Anyway I ADORE seeing you on my dash, I adore seeing your positivity float about and I often smile when we talk with one another. Im never as social as I should be, but I am here if you need me

There’s a TON more in my mind but you asked for five, so five you got!

[kishibe]

Can you explain why jotahan is a thing?? I'm just confused

well, i can’t speak for the whole fandom bc i suppose we all chose to pair them together for different reasons so... i’ll just tell you my own reasons hoping that helps??

personally, i find their dynamic to be pretty interesting. we barely see them interacting in canon, which is truly a shame given how their personalities would allow them to have a good atmosphere for both of them.

truth, rohan is an overbearing person, as koichi mentions in the Sheer Attack arc, also pointing out how it’s the opposite to Jotaro’s own reserved, quiet being. 

even so, rohan is overbearing ONLY to koichi because he likes him, and he isn’t that way to anyone else who hasn’t caught his attention. in normal circumstances, he wouldn’t push further dialogue when it’s not necessary, and for a person like Jotaro who skips idle chatter and only speaks in pragmatic sentences, they could actually find a way to work out a good conversation.

there’s also the fact that rohan and jotaro would be able to work together as a team, given that rohan doesn’t precisely rely on anyone and jotaro isn’t the type who’d enjoy being dragged down by another person. the fact that they can work independently while at the same time considering the other’s strength and weaknesses (as we see in the Highway Star arc, rohan isn’t indifferent to other people on the same fight as him, as he saved Josuke without hesitation trusting that he’d find the user of this Stand and put an end to this).

they’re characters that are known for the high intellect and quick measurement of the situation they’re in, and they also use whatever method is necessary so they can get an upper hand in the battle. though in my opinion, Rohan is far more reckless than Jotaro, but that’s just an observation, even Jotaro would feel kind of weirded out at how far Rohan goes for taking the contrary of someone who thinks they’ve got the advantage against him lmao. extra af.

now, after pointing out these things, here comes the canon basis: 

rohan took the decision himself of investigating Kira after reimi requested him, regardless of whether the user was a stand user or not. he collected information and we also see him, in the RPS Kid arc, taking pictures of the people because of a theory he’d thought on his own (’we know that he took the identity of a middle aged man so if we narrow it to just that then we can properly investigate their backgrounds and find a lead’ or something along the lines) and this was key information in the pursuit of Kira, as the photograph he took of Kosaku showed Hayato recording him.

Rohan doesn’t need anyone to tell him exactly what to do, he’s pretty smart and efficent when he puts his mind to it and that’s something Jotaro had to rely on during the investigation, because we know Rohan and him at one point exchanged information in the Kira case.

Plus, it was essential for Jotaro to investigate Rohan due to his connection with Reimi Sugimoto on the night of the murder, so it’s unavoidable that they had to interact at one point behind the scenes, which would lead to both Rohan and Jotaro to observe how the other does their job and their way of doing things.

Rohan is also a person that Jotaro can grow to respect, despite how eccentric and arrogant the mangaka may appear. The fact that Rohan would risk his life in order to prevent any unnecessary deaths at the hand of a murderer and to save someone he supposedly hates above all would be contradictory to the face he shows to the world, and that would deeply intrigue Jotaro. He values this kind of courage (courage, for him, is often translated in willpower/resolution just as we see in his fight against N’Doul, which i often use to describe how Jotaro CAN see the good in a person, no matter who they are and acknowledge a good warrior) in a person and it wouldn’t go unnoticed.

In the final arcs we see that Rohan and Jotaro were supposed to reunite to investigate the Kawajiri household in order to find something that could lead them to Kira, and the fact that Jotaro actually accepted Rohan’s invitation says a lot on its own because he wouldn’t waste his time on someone who he deemed as unreliable. He also wasn’t biased by the judgement Josuke provided about Rohan --- i mean, this is a probability because Josuke never shuts ups and at one point he sure as hell bitched about Rohan (i love josuke bc same).

Then, now in the final chapters, we see that Rohan talks directly to Jotaro, telling him to use his Stand to catch Kira. This proves that Rohan had knowledge of Jotaro’s stand abilities, which could either have been revealed by Koichi or by Jotaro himself in order to work well together should the time ever come. Jotaro doesn’t ignore Rohan’s words and says that he’s too far out of range for Star Platinum’s World to have any effect, so he desists of the idea. Again, Jotaro isn’t one to pay attention to anything anyone says if he deems it unimportant.

There are a lot of things about their characters that could actually work, but we never got the canon interaction we deserved so rifp all I could use to describe the potentially good dynamic between them is mostly interpretations of my own.

I also find that Jotaro wouldn’t annoy the shit out of Rohan and that’s already good enough, because Rohan is the type who kicks out people from his life or proximity once they reach too much. The fact that Jotaro doesn’t press on something or that he is quiet most part of the time and is actually very intelligent and observant would match very well with Rohan’s own life-style. They’re methodic and mental, not really bothering to seek trouble. It’s trouble that finds them for some reason and, in Rohan’s case, ghosts.

Idk I hope this helped?? explain why I like them?? i mean, i could say more but this already like 18737824 paragraphs long and my dash is gonna hate me for this essay

[survivorcutthroat]

Rites of Passage - Day 40

Listen to this as you read along...

Amir: i donut kn0w u but i am $ure you are a nice person and am looking forward to meeting u

Dustin:  We never got to truly meet, however i know that you are a strong player, and good enough to make onto this season.

Rob: Ali <3 I’m still annoyed that Bodhi was originally planning to flip on you. I knew you were going to be loyal to our alliance and the fact that our hard work did not pay off because of an idol play  and for it to end the way that it did was so depressing. It was an iconic first boot though.

Amir: 

Dustin:  oh Nehe, bud you were just a bundle of energy and I wish i would have been able to contain you. I truly did want to vote with you, however i was the one that lead the charge for you to be voted for the challenge. I just couldnt trust you fully, and i obviously made the right decision sticking my neck out for Amir & Zack. Sorry bud that this wasn’t the season for you because I know how excited you were to play.

Rob: We haven’t talked since Arendelle and then I ended up hosting you in Bouvet. That was an experience but rip I might share the same fate as you. You were taken out because of the mysterious vote which sucks.

Zack: Honestly… You tried me! And everything you said about, was actually true. That’s why you had to go. But it was nice talking to you.

Amir: 

Dustin: Liana we have met a few times here and there, but i mostly know you through your husband. He was a honor to host in bora bora and he always talked about you in it. One day i wish i could find my final two like you have. Tell Chips I say hello.

Rob: I think that at this point of the game you were in the middle of moving if I remember correctly with Chips. I like you, but i’m glad I didn’t have to play with you because I would have been terrified from the last time we played together.

Zack: M O M M Y ! I love you so much and I’m sorry we turned against each other once again but honestly just know how much I love you.

Amir: I was really excited to play with you and you were fucking robbed so early ily

Dustin:  we spoke just a few times, but you sounded like such a fun guy and I think we could have done something special, unfortunately for the both of us, it just wasn't this game.

Rob: Our relationship is rocky. Right now you’re at camp, and when you get back you’ll read this and see you won Bouvet. Congrats hehe, however, I don’t know what you were thinking in this game, you were a hot mess and I’m pretty sure you acknowledge it too.

Zack: Crackt king! You wanted me gone though so I just had to strike before you did! Really hope we can talk outside of here though because I think you’re hilarious.

Amir: i liek u and im glad we’re friends again but u lied to me 2 much in the game luv u tho 

Dustin:  Ohh Jaiden i fought so hard to not go to that tribal that got you out. Maybe if I would have given up you wouldn’t have gotten out. Life works in mysterious way I guess, and survivor is a game of what if’s. I know how much you love this game, this community ,and yourself. You truly are a one of a kind and its a pleasure to know I finally got a play a game with the infamous Jaiden Hantz.

Rob: I liked you, personally. The confessional you wrote in Bahamas made me cry, it was a rough time for me and I couldn’t handle a lot of things. Coming into this game, I could not trust you at all. I know you were excited, but at this point, I played with you a lot and the plans you come up with would screw me over in the end. I feel bad about the whole ordeal with the joint tribal, but you wanting me to be your goat and pretending you were leaving when Liana left was not nice.

Zack: Crackt king pt 2! Honestly every time I play with you, I never know what to expect. But that’s what I love about you. You’re a legend. 

Amir: RIFP

Dustin:  I never trusted you from Day 1, which is so funny to think about. You were so shady when you won that challenge and voted out Zack on Magyi with Nehe. I wish we could have had a battle of the century, but alas it was not meant to be.

Rob: You being removed was bittersweet. On one hand, the reason you were removed was dumb and I was infuriated for you as a player and as a friend. On another hand, you were dangerous and such a snake. If you made the merge you would have been a force to be reckoned with. It’s been so long since I first met you and you were one of my first friends in the community. So thank you.

Amir: I genuinely care about you so much and you know that and I don't know what else to say, I had to do what I did and I 100% own up to it, but yeah ily 

Dustin:  Luke i have heard alot about you, but I never got to hear anything from you. Our games never crossed paths, and i never got to know you. I wish we could have spoke more, and thats one of my regrets from premerge is not being social enough to the other tribes because my favorite part of these games is truly meeting people from all over this planet that all have one thing in common. A love for this game.

Rob: I love you, I really do. First, I want to apologize for the things that happened OUTSIDE the game. I took it way too far and I know you’re upset about it. About the game, I don’t think we clicked. We didn’t talk nor were we really allied. I couldn’t trust you, and I wanted you gone early. I just don’t think you were in the right mindset for this game.

Zack: Another one who tried me!! I honestly would have LOVED if me you and Abel had a lowkey alliance but you just weren’t feeling it! You know I love you though and don’t take any of this personal and hope you do the same!

Amir: ILYSM and im upsetti that you didn't make merge, i was so excited to play with you and tbh you're too good for us 

Dustin:  Cole, your boot was one of the hardest ones for me, and changed my path on this game. I truly did want you to be ride or die. However you were being shady right before tribal and Mearl got me to throw my vote onto Sherry which put the nail in your coffin. I wish I could have stuck with you, but you were just too unpredictable to be a ride or die. I am glad we squashed our beef from BBHell cause you truly are one funny guy.

Rob: I had no problem with you. I was the ONLY person to vote with you and yet you remove me as a contact while we were in another game together. You added me back, and I would not have been mad if you won at all. You played a good game with what was given and I’m hurt that you don’t feel the same way. I did want to be friends with you after both of our games but if you don’t then that’s fine I guess.

Amir: 

Dustin:  Oh Sherry, you added some much needed energy and fun to this game. I will never forget you quizzing Cole at tribal council. It sucks that we got put against each other, but we never got to truly get over it and become allies. You are for sure someone I will never forget, and i wont forget your idol either ;)

Rob: We did not connect with each other and I think it’s really my fault. For that I apologize, you work hard to help young people which I really respect. You wanted to work with me but you are such a good player and I was worried about your relationship with Sid as well. You didn’t talk much, which I understand, you had the class and work. Even then, you still managed to turn things around for yourself. I panicked when you threw my name when we merged but I think we managed to clear the air. Whether you would have worked with me or not is a mystery, to me at least, but it’s sad you were taken out by a medevac. 

Amir: Hello Steven aka pharmacy daddy i wish we got to talk more throughout the game and im sorry for how things worked out 

Dustin: Stevie, you had such bad luck at this merge. I wish we had a closer connection so that I could have fought for you to stay. However after voting in the minority I didn’t have enough wiggle room to get a vote going. You’re a rad guy and the main chat was always a little bit quieter without you there.

Rob: I think you had a certain level of trust in me, but it wasn’t reciprocated from my part. I was weary of whether you would try to cut me at some point in the game after the Arctic Circle vote. I was sad because I really wanted to work with you and Sam in that game and you two were the main reason I voted Roxy which screwed me over big time. Admittedly, when you joined Akyab I wanted Seamus instead but you voted with the majority and kept me safe from my blunder so thank you. You were someone that I was worried about coming into merge but there had already been such a huge target on your back that almost everyone wanted you gone.

Zack: Bring me to bears week next year please.

Amir: Im scared to compliment literally anyone cuz I was voted biggest ass kisser FEWJBHBF but i promise i'm being genuine when I say you’re one of the strongest players I’ve come to play with in a game and in just the way you spoke and how you played the game I could tell how much of a fucking threat you were, I hope you 4give me. 

Dustin:  Now you for one caused alot of chaos in this game. I wanted to trust you so desperately. I was told by all my friends that you were loyal to your alliance in other games, and so desperately wanted to be the Becky to your Yul. However you were just Chaos Kass. You threw me into a loop making so many alliances, and excluding me from some. I wish we could have just talked things through and had no more messy votes like you said.

Rob: I was really hurt by you on a game level. When we swapped together you were someone that I wanted to work with and I did trust you. During the Cole vote, you were playing everyone and I do believe that it hurt your game. It exposed you as an unreliable person and lost the trust you had with a lot of people. And then the night you leave you wanted me, Tommy, and Dustin to vote in the minority against Zack when you voted Abel? Grr. You were such a huge threat and I hoped that you at least had fun at Florida not worrying about this game. Andreas told me he met you hehe.

Zack: I honestly wish we talked more! But I heard you were against me and you also started to start an alliance with like over half the cast. But I sure do love crackt antics so I stan!

Amir: Despite you making it your mission in this game to destroy me, I actually do have a lot of respect for you as a player, and I know you targeting me wasn’t personal but still I had no choice but to try and destroy your game back. You're a nice guy 

Dustin:  Tommy you are such a pure soul. I felt like I could talk to you about anything, and I hope you felt the same way. You truly made this game feel like survivor with the constant talking and getting to know people. You kept energy alive around camp, and once you left it seemed as if people didn’t talk as much as they used too. I wish we could have stuck together longer as the minority alliance. However the cards just weren’t there. I wish i could have told you the truth about it, but idolmania makes us all paranoid. No hard feelings Tommy, you are an amazing social player.

Rob: You have all the reason in the world to hate me. You trusted me so much and I ended up backstabbing you. Because of the crocodile bite, if I had voted with you, you would not have gone home. I didn’t. I voted against you, told the people you were targeting about your plans with Crow and Dom, and made you look like Booboo the fool. It was entirely a game decision. I love you. You were someone I really liked and trusted but I don’t think I would have made it where I am right now if I flipped with you. I hope that after this game is all said and done we can be friends again. You can berate me and say I’m the worst when you finally get the opportunity, but I hope you can forgive me. I’m sad that you unfollowed me on tumblr : (

Zack: It was great getting to know you! You tried getting me out several times so I just had to turn on you. No hard feelings and I hope the same from you <3

Amir: you are not a nice guy 

Dustin:  God Dom, you caused me so much stress in this game without you doing anything. We never did get to forgive and forget what happened in BBHell last year, and I think because of that we just were always meant to be on opposite sides of the coin. One day I know we will cross paths again and I think then we will bury the hatchet, but until then, ill keep the hatchet firmly in my hand.

Rob: Personally, I don’t see what other people were talking about. I think you’re a nice guy, but I must not see what others are seeing. I’m sad we weren’t close in this game, you were someone I was looking forward to working with. I think you fell into a bad spot and I knew I couldn’t work with you if I wanted to make it further into this game. It disappointed me that it seemed like you gave up and would have liked to see some fight left in you. We still have our streak though!

Zack: Honestly robbed legend.

Amir: You are a charming guy and I really really wanted to work closely with you, but I felt like you didn't make much of an effort to reply to me and on top of that the direction I took my game in didn't involve you so it was my fault too but I still consider you my showmance, also you were so fucked over by that instant  

Dustin:  The next OG Magyi voted off after Nehe, I never could tell where you stood in this game, whether with me or against me. I think because of that I always assumed the worst. It sucks you got screwed over because of one move you made. But I guess that’s just how the game works. Who knows maybe if it wasn’t an instant tribal and there was a immunity challenge, who knows what the game would be like right now. But i guess that is just how the game goes.

Rob: You were screwed over by the freaking instant tribal. You had no chance of possibly winning immunity which was the only way I saw that you could have saved yourself. I think that the reason you were put into such a terrible spot in the first place was because I had exposed you as trying to flip the game. I couldn’t vote with you when Tommy left, people saw you as such a huge threat, you were smart, you had the double vote, you were a likable person to the jury. If pulled off the Zack vote then you would have made a huge game move and you were going to win this thing.

Zack: CROWWWWWW!!! I’ll never forget round 1 when you stuck your neck out for me. I know you turned on me but I had to pay you back for saving me round 1 that’s why I voted Sid out the round you left with you (sorry Sid, oops) but your vote got cancelled anyway so it didn’t really matter :/ Love you tho.

Amir: I don't even know what to say, Sid im so so so so sorry, I don't wanna sound like im not owning my move, I own it and im proud of it but I hope you know how important you are to me and yeah you’ve made the past month so fun for me and I wouldnt be saying that if i didnt mean it, 

Dustin:  God Sid I wish i was as smart as you. I was always so afraid you didn’t like me because of the cole vote off when i voted Sherry. But i just wanted to say I am so glad i faced my fears and made up with you. Going on calls with you and just comparing notes are some of my favorite moments because i never thought that would happen just a few weeks ago. I so badly wanted to work with you, however you are just too good of a player on all fronts. I hope you take it as a compliment we took you out, no hard feelings, and i’ll tell Torsa you say hello.

Rob: I find it funny. In Bangladesh, I was obsessed with getting out the Maldives people, and in this game, it was sort of the same story. We didn’t play together but I heard MANY stories about you. You were super smart and dangerous which was why I was against you and Sherry. I didn’t talk to you after that because there’s no reason being fake and talking to you every single day. When we did eventually talk the day of the instant tribal, it solidified for me that you had to go. I didn’t have a good relationship with you, but that one conversation made me think otherwise which showed you could flip things around for you. You controlled a lot of what happened this game and had a damn good shot at winning. You didn’t get a multiple of seven this time too so congrats.

Zack: Okay, Hi, LEGEND. I love you and I had to vote you out because of your challenge advantage thing but I really hope we talk outside of this game and I really hope I can consider you a friend because I’d love to talk to you some more.

Amir: Hey cunt u know how i feel about you and i’m so lucky i was able to meet you through this game and i consider you a close friend after this game and your ass is the only ass id kiss mwah (heart)

Dustin: Abel, you getting Cirie’d truly broke my heart. Some tears were shed for sure, but you know me I cry during everything. You were one of my best friends in this game and we were on hours of calls together just gossiping about the game like school girls, and you helped me out of a really rough breakup through every step of it, and every crazy text and phone call. You are someone you don’t just meet everyday and I truly mean that. You are an amazing person, player, and overall, friend. If i was going to lose to anyone I wanted it to be you, but just know I am going to try my hardest to win for you Abel. If one good thing came out of this game, it was truly our friendship. Abel I truly do love you, and don’t let you get cirie’d get you down, you’re a winner in my book.

Rob: Abel, I am sorry. I thought you were going to make the end and win this thing because you were such a huge threat. I never heard of fake idols being planted by the hosts before so I was shocked when it turned out to be fake. I really do want to thank you, so much, for telling me about everyone’s plan to and you should be proud of the game you played. Like you offered to me, after this game if you want to talk, I’m available because under the circumstances, it was either going to be you or me. I need to apologize for the things I said that night because I did go overboard, but the thoughts, they were genuine. Like we had talked about before, I do have problems that I’m trying to handle and I am trying my best. I enjoyed our calls, you were an easy person to talk to and I felt that you were sincere in wanting to know everyone.

Zack: Honestly… The HARDEST round for me. To watch you go :( You know how much you mean to me already.. I love you.