#Returning

[shirleyjacksonism]

"I come home - and I have a feeling of returning like a ghost to its haunt."

Katie Maria // Sharp Objects // Bonedog, Eva H.D // Why Be Happy When You Could Be Normal?, Jeanette Winterson // The Early Journals , Virginia Woof

[alexversenaberrie]

Returning...

[nobeerreviews]

We shall not cease from exploration And the end of all our exploring Will be to arrive where we started And know the place for the first time.

-- T.S. Eliot

(Copenhagen, Denmark)

[weirdlookindog]

Returning

by Wirth Lawson / © 2024 WirthMoPhoto

[seventhstop]

Back on tumblr for the first time in years thanks to the tiktok usa ban and unsurprised to immediately be faced with destiel memes about it. Ah, home.

Anyone made a Doctor/Rose wall scene about it yet cause if not I’m waiting.

[karinathebutterwolf2k5]

GOOD NEWS, GUYS!

Based on the final results shown here...

I'M REACTIVATING MY DEVIANTART ACCOUNT TOMORROW!

Not only that, but I also vow to be a better user than before! Not just on DeviantArt, but on social media overall!! That means no more opinion bashing, no more homophobia, and no more hate speech!!!

So, good night, good bye, and good luck to myself tomorrow!

[positivethinkingforlosers]

It’s been a while.. but this vid got me thinking..

[luckykaix]

A shot at God. More updates soon.

[dramioneasks]

Growing Sideways - CatchCathWriting - E, 21 chapters - After escaping to France after the Wizarding War, Hermione Granger finds herself back on British soil with no direction in life. As she finds her way, old dramas haunt her and Hermione Granger soldiers on as she has always done, until she breaks down. As she rebuilds herself, she finds support from the most unlikely of people. And she can't keep her eyes off of Draco Malfoy as they work together to try and close his Auror case that has been open for too long.

[dabiconcordia]

Returning

I years had been from home, And now, before the door, I dared not open, lest a face I never saw before Stare vacant into mine And ask my business there.

My business, — just a life I left, Was such still dwelling there? I fumbled at my nerve, I scanned the windows near; The silence like an ocean rolled, And broke against my ear. by Emily Dickinson

[astreille]

Should I make actual daily doodles of Noah starting from today(I don't remember shit about the lore and will probably have to make a completely new account)

[alliwanttodoiscollectpoetry]

Unreturning by Emily Dickinson

[nobeerreviews]

To be free means always leaving... or returning to a place where leaves never fall.

-- Rich Shapero

(Barcelona)

[literaryxbones]

Where I've Been

So, I am officially back from my hiatus. I'm planning to return to Tumblr at least part-time in the middle of college courses and work. (I got a new job!) I also am planning on launching my first business! I'll reveal the concept for it soon, I think it's pretty cool. I've got a lot of things going on, so my activity may vary.

Addressing The Elephant In The Room

My mental health has improved considerably. I've made new friends in college, and I have somebody in my life I can talk to about my dissociation and heightened emotions. Our experiences are both different, but it's nice to know somebody I can relate to. Offline and online, I haven't had to worry about the voices as much. They've been unusually quiet, which is a great relief to me. I've also noticed that I'm not getting triggered as much.

This probably has something to do with my change in environment. I'm no longer in highschool, which was a traumatizing place for me. I now have a job that I like that feels meaningful. Classes are more aligned with my interests and my life has a general, vague sense of direction now.

And finally, I have a friend who gets me. They mean the world to me, and I love them dearly. Before meeting them, I had never felt a sense of safety, security, and comfort with another person before.

I've had lots of friends, both in-person and within digital spaces, but I didn't feel truly connected or comfortable with them.

In terms of therapy, I still need to contact Mental Health Services, complete my intake, and see a therapist qualified to treat adults. The trouble is, I'd have to answer the same questionaries over and over again, revealing personal information about myself and my past. My progress in being evaluated for my memory loss and dissociation would completely restart. I would still have to see somebody that doesn't know me, my history, or anything about me. It's a long process, but one I'm still willing to go through. I'll probably need something in the room for emotional support while I'm taking my call. And once I do that, my health company would actually have to have a trauma specialist available that's familiar with dissociation.

This is just the surface of my journey with therapy, but I'm counting on it! I haven't given up just yet, and my trauma will be addressed. I promise you that.

What's Happening to Goth History?

I'm still continuing Goth History, but I can no longer keep up with publishing series installments every three days. Between business, work, and school, spare time is limited. Instead, I'm switching over to a weekly or bi-weekly schedule. Saturday will be the designated posting day for episodes.

New Series

A while ago, I released a poll asking what content you ghouls would like to see. Some of you expressed interest in music recommendations, reviews, and analysis. Music is an important part of the goth subculture.

Social media algorithms tend not to prioritize music content when it comes to the subculture, but I hope to change that. Bands deserve to be discussed alongside fashion, aesthetics, and horror flicks. I'm considering a monthly schedule for this new series. "Macabre Music of the Month" maybe?

Out of a month's listening, I'd choose a band, album, song, or artist that stands out to me in the subculture.

These are my plans so far, and it'd be awesome to kick this series off in January!

Thank you so much for reading. Divider graphics are F2U.

-SORDID

[jarofalicesgrunge]

Where were you when I was burned and broken?

While the days slipped by from my window watching

And where were you when I was hurt and I was helpless?

Because the things you say and the things you do surround me

While you were hanging yourself on someone else's words

Dying to believe in what you heard

I was staring straight into the shining sun

Lost in thought and lost in time

While the seeds of life and the seeds of change were planted

Outside, the rain fell dark and slow

While I pondered on this dangerous but irresistible pastime

I took a heavenly ride through our silence

I knew the moment had arrived

For killing the past and coming back to life

I took a heavenly ride through our silence

I knew the waiting had begun

And headed straight... into the shining sun