#Renan Mercar

[mimmikyyu]

🪷 and 🌺 for the Rook ask :3 hopefully they show up right. It's the lotus and the hibiscus just in case

Thanks for asking!!

🪷 Does your Rook have an irrational phobia?

As much as Renan hates to admit it he has a fear of tight dark spaces. His last master would lock him up alone in a small dark room and it did its damage to him. The Shadow Dragons helped him work through his fear and instead of full panic attacks he now just gets uncomfortable and sweaty. Thankfully, he’s never in a tight space for too long anymore. The Necropolis however gives him the same feeling, he tries not to dwell there too long.

🌺 Is there an object from Rook’s childhood they look back on fondly?

Sadly when Renan was captured most possessions were taken from him. He managed to hide away a crudely carved halla statue that his sister Arla made for him. He kept it for awhile before he offered it to a young Dalish slave. She was far more scared than him and he gave it to her for comfort. He hopes wherever she is that she still has it.

After he reunites with his sister however, she gives him another gift. This time it’s a wooden nug statue, far better make. Renan keeps it in his room for safe keeping.

[maaenyo]

Super personal post, for once. Still DA related tho. This might be long, like, very..

I have to start this by stating I was born old. What does that mean? Well, the human soul is a mysterious cosmic potato and many cultures have tried to explain it. The Greeks had the Styx giving people amnesia every time they crossed it over but learning does leave a mark, like water on rock, eventually a stream can make a canyon. Some things eventually do slip through, they're not entirely forgotten. Ever heard a kid make a weird creepy comment about a past life? Ever had a kid make an oddly wise comment adults didn't think of? That's stuff slipping through. So, my cosmic potato of a soul is old enough that I was just born old, knowing stuff, important life lessons already digested gods know how long ago.

This included human nature stuff. How people work, what makes people people. I always knew clothes were just pieces of fabric put together for warmth or because they looked nice. My mother always insisted on putting me in dresses but I wasn't the dresses. The dresses didn't make me be me. I was just a kid playing outside climbing trees and picking bugs from under the rocks, and when I started getting the "close your legs, sit like a proper lady, get down from there, everyone can see your panties" from my own mother I knew that was wrong. I was just playing, nobody should have been focusing on my underwear. So as I grew up enough to start dressing myself I went straight to pants and t-shirts. My mother didn't agree, she was oh so worried about what would people say about her for letting me get out of the house looking like that. Like what? I was like 10 wearing pants and t-shirts, I wasn't looking like a starved and sick victorian kid coming down the chimney. I was never a problematic kid, I was an undiagnosed autistic girl who was "polite and shy" and really wearing comfy clothes I didn't feel suffocated in when my mother would have preferred to have me look like a porcelain doll with frilly dresses must have been my most rebellious act.

I always knew clothes, looks, don't make a person's entire identity, that's just the first layer. I struggled with everything society was throwing at me since very early on, telling me how I should dress and look like to be what I was supposed to be, because I just didn't fit into it, at all. I was always a girl tho, that never really changed, but in my early teens I had already decided that I was more than what people understood by that.

I was just me, first and foremost, and what people saw or expected to see in me had to take a number and wait in the queue. It took me ages to get comfortable with feminine stuff, because I had spent ages avoiding it, avoiding being defined by it by others, just because a doctor once said "it's a girl". Nobody ever asked me who or what I was, never, that wasn't a topic of discussion in the 90s, the internet was in diapers and most people had no idea, we didn't have the words we do now.

I was a feminist before I even knew the word for it. I was bisexual before I knew there was a word for "also liking girls". I just knew more than I was supposed to, out of thin air because nobody was teaching me any of it.

I've been a gamer since age 5 when my great-aunt got me a bootleg Famicom with those cartridges that claimed to have "300 games" but were just a handful of them with the different levels on a long ass list. I spent my formative gamer years playing all the tropes and all the male characters, and the female one I did play as had torpedo 3d boobs; Lara was great but man, the sexualized visuals always pissed me off. Most female characters were useless damsels in distress or walking boobs&ass boobily and assly jiggling all over the screen. It would be a couple of DECADES before I got to play female characters I could be comfortable playing with. Female characters with layers, that had more going on than a bikini armor.

I love RPGs, I love stories, I love interesting characters and the silly illusion of choice. I spent countless hours messing around RPGMaker giving it a try, just having fun with variables and sprites. I am not what I dress as, and I'm not what I do, but videogames are a pretty big part of me.

So I'm 38 now, I had to self-diagnose my autism when I was around 30 because it was getting ridiculous nobody ever fucking noticed when in retrospect it was all there (but so was the bias on autism on girls enforced by gender and social norms that had doctors take the "she's just shy" shortcut instead of really wondering why I barely talked with people). Part of that process resulted in me being more comfortable being me, I guess it's a thing of getting old, you just stop caring what anyone says. I'm old now, I get to be however the fuck I feel like! A joy, really.

Also with time and tons of searching and deep thinking I defined myself better, in terms of beliefs and spirituality in general. I was raised Catholic, but at age 13 I understood nothing I did or didn't would spare me the fiery pits of hell I was certain to end up in because I wasn't "right" and after a short-lived solemn high of faith at age 15 I made God a very simple request and God said "lol watch me shit on that real quick " and I said "ok dickhead, bye". I'm grateful I found a path I'm better suited for, even if it's a constant challenge.

I am many things now, can hold many titles, made my own mythos to acknowledge and accept my place in the universe and I'm pretty much at peace with it all. But as it turns out, once you understand yourself as just another manifestation of everything and nothing (it is everything everywhere all at once tbqh, it's why I'm perpetually tired lol) you don't really stop to wonder some stuff. Like gender. Yes, I am a woman, I just left it at that. But I'm also something else beyond that, I was always aware of that too. So I had two distinct statements and it's taken me my whole life so far to put them next to each other to notice "hey, there's a word for that" that could apply to me too. I imagine now it must have been a consequence of the whole detachment from existence thing I have running in the background that prevented me to see it earlier.

It wasn't until DAV happened that I explored it more consciously. Since the game OFFERED THE OPTION and I was making more Rooks than I could hold in both hands, as I aimed at trying everything the game had to offer it was only logical that one of those Rooks were meant to explore the non-binary options.

Renan Mercar is my nb Rook and I've grown unexpectedly fond of them, more than the others. I do have my favorites but so far Renan is at the top of that list and they're not even my designated canon Rook. They're precious to me and it did take me a while to fully understand why. They're part of me, the part that is nb, that has always been. Possibly due to my autism that has me hanging on words sometimes I failed to make a connection and accept it because I'm a woman, and somehow to my brain that was not compatible with being non-binary, and yeah I know it's all a spectrum, but brain works like that sometimes, thick and silly, that's why it needs time for things to make sense, sometimes.

On one hand I don't want to sort of appropriate anything from anyone, because even though technically I know I'm not I'm also painfully aware of all my privileges and my personal struggles with identity can be nearly non-existent compared with most people, but on the other...I am what I am and what I am is me, not this or that, just me.

When I had to think on this in regards to pronouns I also noticed sometimes I use plural pronouns. Not just they/them, but also we/us, even in Spanish which is my first language (they/them as neutral is an English thing, Spanish is a heavily gendered language and neutrals are very scarce). I know why I do it, it's part of being a manifestation of the everything thing, but I understand it might lead to misunderstandings because I am not a system. There's only one inside this head, a painfully cosmically aware self but still a singular one.

So, that's pretty much it, yup. I'm glad the realization eventually came from my favorite series ever which is also my special interest and the world where a fraction of my mind is constantly in, and I'll forever be feeling a bit stupid for not catching on things earlier but brain just works that way, very smart but also very silly brain with the attention span of an amoeba for most things, frankly idek how I function on a daily basis.

None of this will change much for me going forward, tbh my path supercedes most things, labels in particular, but this has been in the back of my head for a while now and it had to come out somehow so here it is.

And this is Renan by the way! Being relatable and a cutie.

[thedinanshiral]

Renan, The Beauty

Faction: Shadow Dragons

Lineage: Elf

Age: mid 20s

Gender: Non binary

Class/Spec: Rogue, Veil Ranger

Kewywords: Loyalty and Resolution

Also The Strategist.

They are non-binary, and tends to present slightly more femenine than their twin brother Revas. They’re more aware of what makes them special as they served indoors for one of their Tevinter masters and overheard interesting converstations, and one night almost burnt their face off trying to stare into a mirror with a candle close enough to see the purple streaks on their iris.

While both of them often dream, Renan is the one who more often remembers what their dreams were about; they stopped telling their brother about them when they grew up as the dreams became more concerning than amusing. Their particular condition makes their relationship with the Fade a very strange one and while they do draw unwanted attention no demon or spirit can touch them.

They’re more sensible than Revas, equally strong but less stubborn and more amicable, also on alert but open to new people hoping they’ll be decent enough. They also have a wittier sense of humour than their brother that they often make use of to push him into making new friends, much to their twin's dismay.

Renan's feelings and thoughts regarding the Evanuris and Fen'Harel are practically the same as their brother, although they're a bit less resistant to listen and reconsider in light of new developments.

[esseastri]

For the curious, my Rook list:

Revira Thorne, mage, elf, romanced Davrin. She was a lightspeed story-mode run that Lisa and I did together so we could avoid spoiling each other, and we both accidentally fell in love with her.

2. Tetalya Mercar, mage, human, romanced Lucanis. Her playthrough is actually finished, as she was supposed to be my personal Canon, but. I love her, but I should have gone with my gut and not done Shadow Dragon first... I just didn't really connect (note her wearing all the Crow apparel... sigh).

3. Vida de Riva, mage, elf, romancing Lucanis. I just finished Weisshaupt with her, and she is rapidly becoming Canon, as she should have been because let's be real, my canon was always going to be a Crow. I am predictable. I, um. Am obsessed with her. To an embarrassing degree.

4. Thova "Laidir" Durwindor, rogue, dwarf, gonna smooch Harding. She's not actually a Lord of Fortune, her faction is Inquisition Agent, it's complicated because I love making shit up for backstories. She is my self-indulgent delight.

5. Renan "Aldwir" Devarin, mage, elf, romancing Bellara, possibly. Also deeply Not Canon. Just entirely Not Canon. She's an Inquisitor, but like hell is anyone else tracking down Solas while she still draws breath, so now she's Rook.

6. Dovari Thorne, rogue, dwarf, is romancing Harding. She's on the big city Choice because I have no self-control, a LOT of Feelings about both Dwarves and Wardens in this game, and a deep need to get her to Weisshaupt.

7. Descence Laidir, mage, qunari, will eventually romance Taash. This pic does not properly show off how teal they are. They're not even out of the tutorial yet, but I am OBSESSED with their design.

8. Sabina Ingellvar, mage, human, gonna kiss Emmrich. She was never meant to exist. I blame ek johnston and my sister. Help me.

9. Serasio de Riva, warrior, human, will either romance Neve for the city Choice drama (betrayer of his home! for LOVE!) OR he will kiss Bellara as originally planned because she deserves some romantic nerd to come sweep her off her feet. I have no idea which way it'll go, but I do know: Boy Pretty.

10. Evithali Aldwir, mage, elf, will romance Davrin and then send him on the distraction team because she's for the Nightmare Difficulty run and the Nightmare Runs always have Terrible Decisions in them. I will be remaking her on the PS5 when I've got a free slot though, no way I'm doing nightmare on PC, so this might not be her final form. We shall see. But she is Last on the list, gotta do all my easy and normal plays first!

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[mimmikyyu]

He’s just so pretty 😍

[mimmikyyu]

Renan Mercar

Renan Mercar of the Shadow Dragons

[mimmikyyu]

I’m going to upload this until I figure out how to make comics…

A lil backstory preview for my Rook, Renan.

When they return to the lighthouse Renan goes to his room, laying down on the green couch. When he closes his eyes he sees his sister again, her face is getting blurry now but her voice is clear in his head. The last time he ever sees her plays in his mind.

“Da’len, come back home.” Arla gives him a small hug and kisses his forehead. Renan opens his eyes, reaching out his hand to the dark ceiling above.

“I am sorry sister, I could not make it.” He whispers in elven before slowly falling asleep.

[mimmikyyu]

He’s so pretty

[mimmikyyu]

Renan Mercar Rogue Shadow Dragon Story:

Before Tevinter there was Ferelden

Renan waves goodbye to his clan as he goes to hunt, not knowing this is the last time. He shoots his arrow at the slave traders trying to take him, it hits but it isn’t enough. There’s too many, he thinks about his sister before the world goes dark. When he awakes, he’s in a cage with other Dalish, he asks them where they are, but they don’t know. The sun is brighter here than back home.

Before Freedom there were Chains

He loses his name when he is sold, they hate his vallaslin and try to cut it from his face. He doesn’t make a sound; he won’t dishonor his clan. He works in the fields in the hot Tevinter sun, but he doesn’t complain. He won’t dishonor his clan. His third Master is by far the worst, they only want Dalish slaves. He is whipped and beaten for small crimes. He doesn’t speak against it; he will not dishonor his clan.

Before Dragons there were Snakes

They are taken someplace dark, a circle is drawn on the ground with blood, Dalish blood. He watches others being killed and sacrificed before he sees his chance. He comes to with blood all over, the Venatori weapons in his hands. Someone is speaking to him but the ringing in his ears is louder. He looks around to see dead bodies everywhere, scared Dalish slaves hiding from him. The person touches his shoulder, he slowly turns to them. When the ringing finally stops, they ask if he wants to join their cause, save slaves from Venatori, save Tevinter.

Before Rook there was Renan

Renan has been in Tevinter longer than Ferelden, he scarcely remembers Lavellan anymore. He hears during the Inquisition that the clan is destroyed. Renan grieves alone. Renan destroys a slave trading ring, making Magisters put a high price on his head, the Shadow Dragons must cut ties. Renan grieves alone. A man named Varric offers him a job, stop an elven god from destroying the world. Renan joins the team. Then when it’s all done, Renan will grieve alone.

[esseastri]

Ok, like 20 hours stand between me and DAV, so I finally got around to establishing my final worldstates and naming Rooks.

Canon: -Liarora Cousland (dual-wield warrior, romanced Alistair) -Aliena Hawke (archer rogue, romanced Isabela) -Nyeni Lavellan (knight-enchanter, romanced Cassandra Josephine) -Tetalya Mercar (human, Shadow Dragon, mage, romancing Lucanis)

Wardenquisitor (The Tragedy of Ro Cousland): -Liarora Cousland (dual-wield warrior, romanced Alistair) -Aliena Hawke (archer rogue, romanced Isablea) -Liarora Cousland (champion, romanced Alistair) -Genilise Thorne (human, Warden, warrior, romancing Taash?)

All(ish) Dwarves (The Arrow Squad): -Bal Brosca (archer rogue, romanced Zevran) -Aliena Hawke (archer rogue, romanced Isabela) -Gydha Cadash (archer rogue, "romanced" Varric) -Thova Laidir (dwarf, Lord of Fortune, rogue, romancing Harding)

All Dudes (How Did That Happen?): -Faron Tabris (dual-wield rogue, romanced Morrigan) -Ren Hawke (force mage, romanced Anders) -Tieran Lavellan (rift mage, romanced Dorian) -Serisio de Riva (elf, Crow, rogue, romancing Bellara?)

All Mages (The Higher Difficulty Nightmare Runs): -Elarien Surana (elf, arcane warrior mage, romanced Leliana) -Ren Hawke (force mage, romanced Anders) -Renan Lavellan (knight-enchanter mage, romanced Solas) -Evithali Aldwir (elf, Veil Jumper mage, romancing Davrin?)