#Really living up to my name as mx hyperfixation..

[mx-hyperfixation]

why they kinda babygril

I absolutely adore fire imagery in characters but they’ve literally been interpreted as a candle and I love it teeny hands and the sparks oough theyre my favourite don’t mind me

[milfygerard]

For the ask game! Jasmine, edelweiss and daffodil? :D

jasmine ⇢ do you have a movie or book you loved but will never watch/read again?

AAAA I FULLY FORGOT TO ANSWER ONE. im pique adhd rn ok uh. first that comes to mind is the merciless by danielle vega. its like a YA horror book but its for real fucked up and horrifying to read also it has a sick cover look at this and tell me u dont wanna read it (dont mind the pic of the back i just took it now cause its not on google lol)

edelweiss ⇢ how’d you think of your url/username? what’s it associated with to you?

lol april fools 2020 me and my wonderful friend javi @faceshredding decided we would be mx and mx milfygerard and dilftoro. however, my url before that wass till my old stealth dan and phil one (tape-6) and i was looking for a change and so, milfygerard stuck around. It fit my vibe and got ppls attention and was about my actual current hyperfixation that i was posting nonstop about rather than my waning, inactive one

milfygerard is so important shes like. my online last name. i literally Cant change it. i am barry "doctor worm" milfygerard thats my identity. shes like a brother to me <3 so everyone thank javi mwah

daffodil ⇢ do you have siblings? if yes, in what ways do you think you’re similar to or different from them?

yes i have three siblings. I live w two of them and i love them all very much and also they drive me Fucking Insane sometimes but its ok thats theyre jobs. my sister drove me to wendys after work today so she rules. my brother is straight but also is obsessed w movies and we talk a lot n watch movies together. my oldest sister actually lives in new york and works as an event/stage manager. shes like 10 years older than me so we arent as close but shes cool as hell and i should call her more. uhhhh im the baby and the only transgender and also the really weird one but we're all like huge nerds and love our parents and thank god we're all left leaning or id lose my mind trying to talk about anything. but yeah in conclusion im pretty close to all my siblings and i love them a lot fr theyre good peoples

get to know me asks!

[airel]

Orthodoxia - Guchiry (English Translation)

WOW!!!! another translation!!!!!! i LOVEEEE this song and am actually hyperfixating on it so i made a translation using my limited jpn and a lot of dictionary searches. i did this within a matter of hours. it’s also posted in the comments of the official youtube upload!! :)

translation below! includes original jpn above each line for comparison! there are probably a lot of errors, keep in mind!!! also it includes the text in the MV!! the MV text explains a lot imo :)

tw for corrupt themes regarding religion!

ORTHODOXIA ENGLISH TRANSLATION

【経典（拾伍箇条ノ正統タル教エ）】

【Scripture (The Fifteen Orthodox Instructions of Tal)】 

壱、神の偉大なる恩恵は、純然たる信仰心に施される。

First, God's grand blessings are bestowed upon those with utmost faith in Him.

弐、神の名を騙ることは、教主にのみ許される。

Second, God permits the founding Priest to deceive in His name.

参、神の遣いである教主に仇な��者は、排される。

Third, those who are enemies of the Priest, who acts as God, are to be rejected.

肆、神の意志の正統たる後継者こそ、教主である。

Fourth, the Priest is the successor of God's orthodox Will.

伍、神の教えとは、それ即ち世界の摂理である。

Fifth, God's teaching is the providence of the entire world.

陸、神に背くこととは、それ即ち極楽からの乖離である。

Sixth, if one defies God, one is estranged from Paradise.

漆、神に疑念を抱くこととは、それ即ち思考の崩壊である。

Seventh, if one carries suspicion towards God, that is the collapse of thought.

捌、神への冒涜とは、それ即ち己への存在否定である。

Eighth, blasphemy towards God will result in the negation of one's existence.

玖、神は見ているが、決して救わない。

Ninth, though God sees us, He persists in never saving us.

拾、神は聴いているが、決して伝えない。

Tenth, though God hears us, He persists in never communicating with us.

拾壱、神は知っているが、決して教えない。

Eleventh, though God knows, He persists in never teaching us.

拾弐、神の言葉は全て、神託として教主の元へ下る。

Twelfth, all the words of God go to the Priest, who is His oracle.

拾参、神の意向こそ、世界の意向である。

Thirteenth, what God intends is what the world must intend.

拾肆、神と教主は、同一視される。

彼は言った「奇蹟は起こる　信じる者に主の救済を」

Fourteenth, God and the Priest are one and the same.

拾伍、神は、絶対である。

Fifteenth, God is absolute.

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He said, "Miracles do happen. Those who believe in Him will receive salvation."

Fifteenth, God is absolute.

祈り祈る　ただひたすらに　独り祈る　ただひたすらに

Pray, pray in earnest. Pray alone, still earnestly.

声を捧げよ　腕を捧げよ　舌を捧げよ　主には祈りを

Offer up your voice, offer up your efforts, offer up your tongue, believe in prayer.

願い願う　それら全て　還るための命？

Hope earnestly for life to return to all of them?

盲信者の行進　群れを為して往く

The parade of blind believers travels as a herd:

誰もが皆、"生"を求めてゆく

Everyone wishes for "life;"

"正"しいなんて二の次、五の次

"Correct" is next to second, or next to fifth in what they'd wish for.

私利私欲＝ほら正当化

Self-interest, you see, is justified by all.

枯れた木々も奇蹟で元通り？

But were the withered trees restored by a miracle?

馬鹿らしい法螺話ばっかりね

It's just an idiotic fairy tale, wouldn't you say?

そんなもんなどありゃしないのに

I don't have a damn thing!

ほら　また

You see, still,

嘘をついた（信仰）

I simply told a lie (creed)

生を奪い去って　願いすらも食い潰して

Steal away life! Eat up those crushed wishes!

他人様の不幸踏みつけて息をしていたんだ（献上　献上　献上）

I was breathing in other people's misfortune! (OFFERING, OFFERING, OFFERING)

世界なんて所詮そんな素晴らしいものじゃなかった

The world, after all, truly isn't quite so magnificent!

偶像に媚び売りゃ救われる命

Simply gain favor with your idols to gain a life's salvation!

正しい教えなんてない

There's no such thing as a righteous teaching!

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「彼らは、虚像の偶像を信仰していた。」

"They all believed in a false idol."

「その姿は、まるで創られた王の様でもあった。」

"His form was that of a created king."

「"他人の不幸は蜜の味"とは言うが、彼ほど甘い蜜を啜っていた人間を、私は知らない。」

"'The misfortune of others has the taste of honey' is what he said, but I never did know anyone else who was as sweet as he."^(1)

「言うなれば"サイコパス"と呼ばれる性質なのだろう。」

"I guess one could say his true nature was that of a 'psychopath,' huh."^(2)

XXX著『陰謀論』より引用

Excerpt from XXX's book, "Conspiracy Theory"

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彼は言った「奇蹟など所詮ただの虚構　嘘だらけだ」と

He said, "In the end, miracles and the like are fiction. It's simply a lie."

されど祈る　ただひたすらに　独り祈る　ただひたすらに

Be that as it may, pray, pray earnestly. Pray alone, earnestly.

その身捧げよ　心捧げよ　全て捧げよ　主には祈りを

Offer up your body, offer up your heart, offer up everything, pray to the Lord.

妬み嫉み　即ち欲に溺れ沈む命（疑惑）

Envy, envy, a life that is submerged in greed (suspicion).

盲信者の行進　群れを為して往く

The parade of blind believers travels as a herd:

誰もが皆"生"を求めてゆく

Everyone wishes for "life;"

"正"しいなんて誰かの思い通り

"Correct" is what they think it is.

自己犠牲≠また正当化

Self-sacrifice is, once again, not justification.

涸れた湖も奇蹟で元通り？

But was the dried-up lake refilled by a miracle?

浮かれた理想論ばっかりね

It's just some merry idealism, wouldn't you say?

されど信じるモノを履き違えて　もう

I misplaced what I believed in--by now,

声は止ま��い

I can no longer stop my voice.

狂信者の反乱　群れを為して往く

The herd built up a fanatic insurrection!

誰も彼もが　群れを為して逝く

Everyone in the herd went for the sake of what was good--

聖者は経典唱え扇動する

The saint's preached scriptures were the incitement!

皆　主に祈りを

Everyone, let's pray to the Lord--

狂信者の反乱　群れを為して往く

The herd built up a fanatic insurrection!

誰も彼もが　群れを為して往く

Everyone in the herd went for the sake of what was good--

信徒の暴走　笑う道化師

The laymen ran wildly, laughing like clowns!

ほら　ほら　「醜いでしょ。」

Look! Look! "Aren't I repulsive?"

生を奪い去って　願いすらも食い潰して

Steal away life! Eat up those crushed wishes!

他人様の不幸踏みつけて息をしていたんだ（懐疑　懐疑　懐疑）

I was breathing in others' misfortune! (DISBELIEF, DISBELIEF, DISBELIEF)

ヒトなんてのは所詮そんな素晴らしいものじゃなかった

Humanity, after all, truly isn't quite so magnificent!

偶像に媚び売りゃ救われる命

Simply flirt with your idols to sell a life's salvation!

正しい教えなんてない

There's no such thing as a righteous teaching!

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「欲と慢心さえなければ、或いは優秀な人格者だったかもしれない。」

"Even if there wasn't any greed and pride, he definitely wasn't any superior person of character."

「転生志望の不幸者と違い、教徒たちは今世の幸福を望んでいた。」

"Unlike the unhappy person who simply wished to reincarnate, the believers had a wish to bring happiness to the present world."

「成立の経緯から経典まで、アレは本当にいい加減な似非宗教だ。」

"Ever since the formation of that scripture, that was a really careless pseudo-religion."

「彼の最期には、正直同情するよ。相当に凄惨だったそうだ。」

"Though since he's died, one really has to feel sympathy for the man. That was a really ghastly end."

XXX氏、ある取材にて

Interview with Mr/Mrs/Ms/Mx. XXX

XXX著『陰謀論』より引用

Excerpt from XXX's book, "Conspiracy Theory"

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生を貪って　何もかもを食い潰して

Crave life insatiably! Eat up just about anything you can get ahold of!

他人様の不幸踏みつけて息をしていたんだ

I was breathing in others' misfortune!

『愛も所詮そんな素晴らしいものじゃなかった』？

"Love, in the end, truly isn't so magnificent" ?

どの口が其れを言ってんだ

Who's mouth is saying that?!

偽善者よ（報復）

You wolf in sheep's clothing! (REVENGE)

生を奪い去って　願いすらも食い潰して

Steal away life! Eat up those crushed wishes!

他人様の不幸　踏みつけて　息をしていたんだ（憎悪　憎悪　憎悪）

I was breathing in other people's misfortune! (LOATHING, LOATHING, LOATHING)

じゃあこの現状も結局自業自得だった

So, this present state affairs is my just desserts, in the end.

偶像に媚び売りゃ救われる命

Simply flirt with your idols to sell a life's salvation!

等しく無価値な報われぬ命

All lives are repaid equally as worthless!!

無様で愚かな美しき命

This is my unsightly, foolish, beautiful life!!

正しい教えなんてない

There's no such thing as a righteous teaching!

NOTES

1, 2: not super confident in these lines! also on note 2, i don’t really agree with “psychopath” as a derogatory thing, but !!