#Rahel rambles

[cooper--jones]

*the midnight club spoilers ahead*

for me, the craziest part of the midnight club is that all the overtly supernatural stuff could be fake. it literally ends on a "you're just imagining things/it was all a dream" note, with only the ballerina leg left as a bit of "yes the other side possibly exists." unlike hill house, bly manor or midnight mass, it is heavily implied that there isn't actually anything supernatural happening. even the creepy grandma and grandpa who were the original owners of the property could be figments of ilonka and kevin's imaginations since they're the only ones who paid attention to the old photos (it's not as if mike f has ever been subtle about ghosts being more than just ghosts). literally, save the ballerina leg, there is nothing to concretely indicate that supernatural shit is going on. and the ballerina leg just adds to the theme of hope that the show pushes so hard - hope in the face of crushing despair, that there is possibly more. it's not about whether the supernatural exists or not but reinforces one of the main themes

what i mean by all this is that mike f made shows where ghosts explicitly exist and explicitly told us that they aren't ghosts, they are wishes, and that people become stories and dead doesn't mean gone

and then he made the midnight club which is basically a cinematic manifestation of these ideas and i think that's very sexy of him

[natasha-barton]

reading fanfic off something you haven’t consumed yet is like reading the sequel to a book you haven’t read yet

[joyce-bi-ers]

hey babes i have covid rn and it’s awful and i feel awful and so i cleaned up my desk drawers and found these oil pastels that hadn’t been opened yet and immediately felt the need to draw with them and so i did. i have not drawn with oil pastels since kindergarten so you can imagine how it went.

first i just doodled some little doodles . you know the stuff you usually draw when you doodle somewhere on your notes or whatnot. hearts. flowers, the sun, a ladybug idk . it’s nothing special but my mom loved it and so she has it now

then i looked at Pinterest for inspiration and found this cute little image of a strawberry and tried to draw it . it’s a bit wonky and obviously i didn’t have all the colors but she’s kind of pretty isn’t she . i like her

then I saw this stunning picture of a figure standing in front of a twirling blue, purple and pink sky and thought I can draw swirls . and I drew swirls but I did them differently than the one I saw and mine are just kind of … there and don’t look like the sky but yk what it’s modern . for sure right

then I remembered I saw this pretty candle and tried to draw it and I have to say given the fact I only had ten colors it looks pretty okay

then I drew the mandatory ‚sun set sea‘ thing which ., the colors are pretty but it’s eh . also the birds turned out very wonky

then i just drew a big chunky ladybug because i adore ladybugs and they are very simple to draw ! look at this beauty. I don’t know why the red is so vibrant here tbh

I thought I could draw a big flower and searched on Pinterest, found nothing I liked but then settled on this pretty purple one and I think it is clear that I have close to zero actually skill with oil pastels bc there is no depth whatsoever and I don’t know what I was thinking with the background tbh

because the chunky flower went so so well I thought I should draw tulips . fantastic idea. I really don’t know what I was thinking with the yellow one in the bottom right corner but she’s there for some reason . the greenery looks absolutely weird .

anyway that’s it thank you for reading and looking at rahels art™️

[mjparkerwriting]

Happy Storyteller Saturday! 

I’m taking this opportunity to catch up with my writeblr friends. What are you working on right now? What stage is your WIP in? How is it going? What are your plans for the future?

Basically, take this as an excuse to ramble about your writing.

(I'm at work and should be doing something productive but it's my plan period and the last week of school before winter break so it's either tumblr or Papa's Burgeria.)

Hello! I have not been on tumblr a lot lately. I have been doing a lot of writing and a little living. Right now, I'm about 20k words into a new WIP titled UTBS. It's about a girl--Rahel--who has been wronged by the government in her world and is seeking revenge for what they've done while being chased by a soldier--Bellamy--pledged to said government. On both of their journeys, they slowly discover who they are in this world, question their religion and what they've been taught, and struggle to get the best of each other all while a civil war is growing into a world war, taking the lives of everyone around them. This will hopefully have three books.

I have taken a break from The Bird Book simply because it just didn't seem to be working out. I was struggling with the voice and perspective of the book and even after writing in both first and third person and trying new things, it just wasn't feeling right. BUT I think I cracked the code and realized what was missing.

My OG (not really OG though) WIP, TLBH, has been on hold. After finishing the first draft, I took a long break and I've been doing a lot more reading and research. I have some ideas and I plan on going back to it at some point with fresh eyes and more skills.

[kyrju]

Blind Channel tiktok edits are the only thing still keeping me from burning someone's house down. just saying.

[oddlyplanc]

Okay sO I may have gotten too deep into the DanPlan k-pop group thing idea. But, hear me out:

So their names DanPlan obviously.

The members are Daniel, Hosuh, Stephen and Jay.

Their fans are called “ideas”. Why? Cuz without ideas you can’t make a plan. A plan consists of ideas. So without their fans DanPlan simply wouldn’t be.

Their light stick is their logo made out of four light bulbs in their representative colors. Light bulbs bc they stand for getting an idea and their fans are called ideas

Their first song is a Korean cover of this fucked up wonderful world ft. the soloist Jenny.

Tell me if you want more:)) I’m currently working on the light stick so some time I’ll post that too. I’ll link it here then probs

[mittleres-schieferblau]

liSten I don’t care what anyone says: FROZEN 2 IS A GREAT MOVIE

Im gonna be real with y’all, I didn’t really like the first movie. Cried rivers while watching it and after that. Not that that’s a bad thing but the movie left me with a bad feeling and kinda not satisfied ygm. So when my mom and I decided to go watch frozen 2 I didn’t have many expectations. But I’m happy to say that the second frozen movie, in my opinion, is way better than the first one. It may also have something to do with the German voice actors (let’s be real Hape Kerkeling is just that bitch and he’s absolutely perfect for Olaf) but the movie was funny, it had an understandable plot, wasn’t too long or short, did I say that the jokes were good? I l o v e all the songs omg they’re amazing. I’ve been listening to them on repeat. Okay maybe I’m such a big fan of the movie bc Olaf just is amazing bUT SO WHAT

[wishesofeternity]

rambling thoughts on SSNS (Glass Alliance 3 by Joanna Hathaway)

(SPOILERS)

(it’s gonna get long)

okay, I read the prologue and already started crying.

I really want Cyar to survive.

“Jali Furswana says that if he dares flatten even one of her cities, she’ll kill him in his sleep with a manicured nail to the neck.“ we’re all rooting for you, Jali.

… Shadowborn? Oh, Athan.

Athan is just Done™

ARMY-NAVY-AIRFORCE! That makes for a cool scene

Kalt is officially the vainest brother.

Oh hey, they won.

Ali’s letter hurts.

"Kaziah’s aggressively watering her beloved herbs” I feel like this is the core of who she is, honestly.

BARK

SHE’S HERE

Arrin, stop being an ass and give Bark a hug.

But on the plus side, he and Athan are finally getting along!

“I’m convinced that if I can learn to paint, if I can just pat every horse I pass and learn to love them, then Ali will come back to me.” … I have nothing to say to that

Just for the record: Leannya is bi, and is therefore my favourite Dakar.

Ali in this book is really like “fuck the rich”

“A dazzling sparkler of a woman” … damn

Oh my god, these soldiers are disgusting.

“Everyone here knows what happens to local girls when left alone with the Butcher of Thurn” I want him dead

"This is what he does. He takes brave people, and he breaks them" I WANT HIM DEAD

Wow, he’s apparently a terrible father, too.

Cyar and Minah are engaged?????!!!!

Garrick and Violet are married????!!!!

Well, at least Athan's love life still sucks

god, I want to give Ali a hug.

Kalt is officially the coolest brother.

"My father...he's fading" excellent

ALI

AND

LEANNYA

!!!!!!!!!!

oh shit

oh shit

wait, this is all happening too quickly

WAIT

This is probably the most visceral, horrifying death in the entire series, and I think what hurts the most about it is just how preventable it was.

god, I'm going to miss his jokes.

“I hate crowds” same

oh god, this hurts

I love Kaziah so much

it feels like Athan has been trying to keep everything and bay and now it’s just … exploded

Athan’s grounded. oops.

Dakar is a terrible father and a military dictator responsible for countless deaths, but at least he likes dogs?

wait, no

this hurts too much

OH MY GOD

RAHELLE

wait, Merlant’s also involved???!

Their plan is from a place of privilege, but it's also well-intentioned, and it makes sense, and it's sure as hell more than what anyone else from Landore is doing.

damn, Leannya is clever

she's also just...so tired of everyone, lmao.

good god

Ali is the governess of Arrin’s son?  

Mati is literally a mini-Arrin and everyone sees it and that is both absolutely hilarious and horrifically tragic

lmao, even Athan hates Windom

I'm kinda confused with Arrin and Windom's dynamic though

I adore all the Leannya content we’re getting so far

ALI AND VIOLET! ALI AND VIOLET! ALI AND VIOLET!

it’s so heartbreakingly sad that they love each other, and they always will, but they’re just so fundamentally divided in who they are and how they see the world that things just … can’t go back to the way they were before.

but they love each other! they’re still sisters!

okay, is everyone married?

Leannya just dragged Athan's ass lmao

Violet is the No. 1 Ali x Athan shipper.

Ali and Athan break my heart.

but also, props to Ali for all this deception, lol

oh fuck

Kalt

wait, no

GARRICK???!

Oh, Garrick

Arrin refusing to see Garrick but making sure his comrades are with him till the very end was … Something.

Poor Folco :(

I like how Athan and Katalin are … comfortable, if slightly distant, friends. It works, for both their parts.

Leannya is doing what we all wish we could do by trash-talking the fuck out of her father

Leannya, I LOVE YOU

I really love Ali, Kaziah and Damir sitting in their apartment and plotting away.

damn, Ali, you’re fucking brilliant

(terrifying, though)

yeah, I can see how this is gonna go down

okay, this entire conversation with Athan and Kalt was intense.

“His Wicked Majesty”

so much shit is going down, and he's actually still concerned about his stupid love life.

oops, Ali x Athan drama

OH SHIT

SHIT

SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT

WAIT, SLOW DOWN

IT WASN’T SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN LIKE THIS

WHAT’S GOING ON????!

(This is just not a good day for people who's names begin with K)

… Havis???

Oh damn, I did not expect to see Seath right now.

Seath “builds and breaks, shatters and restores” I love this

“I want to know how a princess—my niece—escaped a royal trial, crossed the sea, survived for eleven months living right alongside her enemy, and now arrived with this” Ali's had a wild life

I love how the conflict so far has just been … this complete disaster of things, everything happening at once and yet nothing moving forward, barely holding itself together with new treaties and scattered positions and haphazard lines. but now, with this one decision, the war that has been looming overhead for so long is finally going to be unleashed.

at least Kalt’s in the sea

“I’ve given you everything. I’ve done everything you’ve ever asked, since I was too young to know better, and now you’ve stolen my brother. This is your own goddamn fault. You made him fight even when in a corner! And you’d better pray I don’t live long enough to see you do the same to him.” Arrin's SNAPPED

oh. my. god.

this entire conversation is making me tear up

the parallels between Ali/Athan and Arrin/Rahelle, though

honestly, this entire conversation about choices is … interesting. and very approproate.

“I want to force them to see us as we are—even if only for a moment.” and "We have the chance to alter history. To make sure they’re broken at the knees for good. We may go down burning, but we’ll take them down burning right along with us, and maybe that’s worth it.” Ali and Athan are so different, and yet they’re exactly the same.

They’ve come so far.

“Make an airplane” HOW DARE YOU

Ali is in a frozen world, surrounded by despair and death and decay … and yet a little child hands her a warm cup of tea.

can you believe I actually found Havis annoying in DotW?

no, honestly, it’s absurd to think about that now. I guess it was because he was that typical annoying, far-older suitor who Ali hated, and though I obviously found him interesting, I didn’t like him.

but all of that seems so far away now. he’s seen a lot, he knows the world, and he does care. he’s entwined with Ali’s family.

also, he's clever and crafty and fun.

“It wasn’t really peace they offered us. It was violence of another kind”

and the fact that Arrin knows how fucked up this is, but he's been fighting for so long, that he's resigned himself to it. he's tired. he's trying to survive.

but Athan, who despite everything he’s seen and everything he’s done, still hopes, is able to convince him to refuse. to take a stand.

and Arrin agrees. because they’re brothers. and because it’s what’s right.

“Arrin takes Father’s chair at the head of the table.”

OH

MY

god

THIS IS SO GOOD

THIS IS GLORIOUS

(just imagine the look on Dakar’s face)

I love this so much. All these people, so very different, who have come from so many different walks of life, but they’re all united in resistance. they’re all united under the name Nahir.

“I’ve learned not to care what anyone thinks of me” good

I would kill for Elan

wait, never mind, Ali already did

“I will kill all the monsters for you. I promise.”

OH MY GOD

IT’S CYAR!

I MISSED HIM!!!!!

Athan and Cyar both wanting each other to get the fuck out of this war and start living again.

but both of them refusing, because that wouldn’t be living, it would be surrendering

all they can do now is fight

Arrin and Leannya are both like “our brother is an idiot with zero self-preservation instincts, and we need to protect him”

aww, Arrin's crying

“And then—then he goddamn hugs me.”

OH

MY

GOD

WHAT THE FUCK???????

I can’t handle this.

I’m taking a break.

Just saying, Sapphie Erelis would be so happy right now. Because this is her legacy. Her children standing together and trying to do what’s right. Her children loving each other, wildly and unconditionally. (also her children overthrowing their father and placing him under arrest) (I think the last one would almost make her happier, honestly)

god, Ali has come so far, and I’m so sad for her, but I’m also in awe.

she’s amazing.

Seath is fascinating, and there’s something about him that’s so similar to Sinora. I don’t know what it is - maybe it’s the way they speak. their expansiveness. the sheerness of the lives they’ve lived and precision in how they continue to endure. There's something so radiant about them.

I LOVE YOU, ALI

Athan and Cyar are 20-years old and are considered old veterans.

“I’m a bastard of a captain” oh, Athan.

Also, what has Leannya been doing till now? Is she in Savient?

but also, how the heck have they managed to hold on so far? like, there’s no way their forces are any match for the combined ones of Landore, Elsandra, Resya, and the other royal nations.

still, there’s something so powerful about them going up against an entire empire to keep their fire burning.

Kif is Athan’s surrogate dad, confirmed.

naturally, Bark works as an adorable buffer between two ex-enemy Aces.

I really love all this resistance fighting. all the little things and the bigger things that they do, that all make a difference.

did I mention I would die for Elan?

“The Safire have outfoxed everyone” whoops. (so that's how they're somehow managing to win.)

Ali raging against the battle unleashing before them,  and then trying to get a little lost girl to safety … that’s who she is in a nutshell.

Ex-rivals to reluctant allies to frenemies who save each other’s asses in battle.

“Prince Charming”, huh?

I ship it

Ali and Arrin do have a strange history between them, but any interaction they have is also just very funny

Ali is so damn sharp, and I love it. She gets people. She gets what her uncle was going to do, and she refused to play into it. She adapts, she survives, and she hopes, and there’s something so empowering about that.

“I know I’m just tired” LMAO (same tho)

“Am I not allowed one impossible hope in all of this?” you are, Ali. You are.

“If her soldiers dared turn back, gave up even an inch of ground, she ordered her officers to shoot them.” what … the … fuck.

yk, the way Dakar was just … brushed aside, without even a word, was so abrupt in the best way possible. I’m honestly curious to know what he thinks about all of this, though.

OH MY GOD, HE’S ALIVE

YES

YES

FUCK, YES

I missed you, Kalt!

…oh no

damnit, Arrin. Just to give my take on it though - I think this was Evertal's idea, and that Arrin knows, deep down, that he is absolutely wrong and Athan is absolutely right. I think those bullshit justifications he came up with, which he might have even convinced himself were true - this is what they need, perhaps things would be different with them - are his way of rationalizing it to himself. But he's unable to see the sheer extent of how wrong he is - how horribly, disastrously, pathetically wrong. He cares and understands on a personal level, but it's like Athan said, he's been groomed to see the world in through sheer objectivity. that's learned behaviour, it explains his thought process and is really sad, but you have no idea how much i want to fucking slap him right now.

oh shit

if they do anything to Elan, I’m gonna fucking murder them

Evertal, leave Elan alone

… oh

Arrin and Elan recognizing each other from Beraya is … something.

wait, what the hell?

those fucking idiots, lmao

“You don’t deserve to be a father” SNAP

I'd love to read a whole other novel just on Seath, and the long complicated heartbreaking tale of his life.

I'm so glad Fenn is alive. I'm so glad Ali is okay.

Arrin was doomed right from the beginning. In this life, there is no way he could have survived.

“The first wave of grief isn’t for me. It’s for Leannya.” oh my god

“But in death, couldn’t he at least be buried beside our mother? Couldn’t we all be together, somewhere, eventually?“ YOU STOP RIGHT THERE

“Maybe he really didn’t want any of this. But it doesn’t matter. He still went—we all did—and now here he is, destroyed by his own artillery. It’s both just and stupid.” that just about sums it up.

but I love how Arrin believed in Athan, till the end and beyond. He knew that he was right. Which is why i think that, had he lived, he would have listened to him. It might have been probably been a longer and messier path, but i genuinely think - or rather, I hope - that at the end of the day, he would have listened to his brother and done the right thing, because I don't think Athan would have let him do anything less. And I think Athan believed that as well - or at least wished for it - because even though Arrin was dead and gone, Athan made the right decision with his name.

I also really like how the narrative doesn’t really … define Arrin. It just gives us his story, his choices, and it lets us decide for ourselves, as history will probably decide for itself, what kind of a person he could have been, and what kind of a person he was.

at least he’s with his mother and sister now.

and I definitely want to know what their father feels about this whole thing.

… holy shit

Fenn

She's such a "give no fucks, take no orders, smash the prisons and the borders" kind of person. She is spectacular.

okay, I’m crying

THEY’RE SISTERS

“We all deserved better”

you did

god, you did

you all deserved so much more

Evertal is just. so entertained by the Dakars brothers' disastrous love lives lmao

WE’RE HERE

WE’RE AT THE PROLOGUE

Oh my god

okay, this is intense

this is INTENSE

Ali and Athan FINALLY come clean to each other, clear up their misunderstandings, and it’s … soothing, in a sense.

“Beautiful in a world of steel.” wait, I remember this. god, Athan, you’re such a romantic.

I love how … the war is raging, and Ali and Athan are there, but they’re together, under a golden sky, and they’re going to be okay.

they’re going to be okay.

... everything seems to have gone to hell again

I love Ali’s letter to Reni.

goddamn

LEANNYA

I can’t believe she actually killed him, lmao

what a legend

ATHAN GETS HIS PLANE BACK

wait

wait, no

god, I expected Cyar to die within the first few chapters, but it’s so much worse that he almost made it to the end

almost

DAMNIT, IT WASN’T SUPPOSED TO BE LIKE THIS

of course he went down defending his best friend

but god, I so desperately wanted him to live.

(edit: HE’S ALIVE! HE’S FUCKING ALIVE AND I’M SO FUCKING HAPPY AND DKJSKSKSKSKSKSKSKSKSKSKSKS, AT LEAST ONE OF THEM GOT TO HAVE SOMETHING EVEN REMOTELY RESEMBLING A HAPPY ENDING)

Reni, you have absolutely no right to talk about pretentious royals. You’re one of them.

oh, no

Violet’s gone, too. at least she’s with her father again, and Garrick

holy shit

I knew it

I knew it

I KNEW IT WAS LEANNYA. Look at her - she's organizing councils, giving speeches, making sure all those who are lost are returned to their homes. she's amazing, and it is so damn embarrassing that a literal teenage girl is more competent than all these idiots combined.

“I think of her before the League, repeating her brother’s words, making them new. She is him. But she is also not, because she made a different choice.“ I love her

I bet people are gonna have historical debates about the Dakars someday.

and i love how this situation seems to be shaping up? because Landore might have won now, but Savient is gonna be the nation that eventually gets it right in the long run. maybe not the immediate future, where the story will be rewritten, but a century from now, in the eyes of history, i think they're going to be viewed very differently. because the values on which Savient was founded upon were always important. they grew dangerous with Dakar, but the potential is there. it's always been there. and im sure, someday, it's going to thrive.

“I want us to have mattered.” you have, Ali. I promise you, you have

what the FUCK

this is so wacked and so fucking amazing, holy shit

I guess Athan has two surrogate father-figures, now.

Athan is like “look, if I’m gonna die, can I at least have some food?”

The Isendare siblings make me sad

(Not really relevant, but i wish Ali had taken her mother and uncle's surname in this book? It would have been symbolic but would have also been a genuinely believable and logical decision based on the way she's grown over the series)

“If we’re truly looking for those guilty by association, then are you not the greatest culprit here?“ DRAG HIS ASS, ALI

I’ve waited for this for so long

honestly, I really cannot stand pro-monarchists. and I find Reni...sad, but also deeply irritating. It's a mixture of his absolute privilege, his self-righteousness, the way he pats gimself on the back for doing the literal bare minimum (honestly, barely even that), and the way he occupies a weird centrist middle-ground position in the conflict that allows him to be complicit in it while also staying removed from it while also benefiting from it.

I'm glad he's found his own path though the circle of reformers, and that he's doing what Sinora had dreamed of.

“It wasn’t good enough." / "But it was good.” SHUT UP

sorry, I refuse to believe that Athan will die.

I’m just … I'm so happy for Ali

I’m so happy that she gets to live on her own terms, that she's in the South, with the people she’s come to love. I'm so happy that she looks at flowers growing from the ruined earth, and sees herself in them.

I’m so happy that she gets to live.

I’M SO HAPPY THAT ATHAN IS OKAY

I love how this series has a prologue that shows a world that’s broken, and an epilogue that shows a world that’s finally beginning to heal.

Okay, I’m gonna go cry myself to sleep now. See y'all in therapy.

I am so fucking grateful that I read this story.

[natasha-barton]

i still think about this one inception/dream husbands fanfic that i read about a year ago in the middle of the night and it feels a little hazy and like a fever dream but that’s how it should be i think and it went like this : imagine if Arthur and Eames had known each other for a long time . They’re in love, they’re together but unbeknownst to them, Eames has a teenage daughter ! She and her mother randomly show up at their Apartment (which is located in a very hot country i think, i only remember talk of beaches and short sleeved shirts) for whatever reason (I’m sure there was a good one I just don’t remember) and then they get pissed that Eames is together with Arthur. The teenage daughter is very angry at Arthur for taking away her dad and they constantly write each other letters and she insults him (???? I think??? Bc she hates him) but in the end I think they like each other and I don’t even remember how it truly ends but I also wouldn’t know how to find it again on ao3 but I just wanna say how much i love dream husbands fanfics in general bc i always have weird memories connected to reading them

[cooper--jones]

i did a Thing and started a substack

hi besties

so i did a thing and started a substack for reviews and rambles by yours truly

i know tumblr is literally the worst platform to promote this (which is part of its appeal because there's zero pressure and i dont want to tell people i know just yet) but i did a review of red white and royal blue which is sort of a book/movie simultaneous review/comparison so if that's up your alley i would love it if you checked it out (please only tell me if u liked it; I'm too fragile for negative criticism rn)

i dont think this is my best work tbh but i needed to get the ball rolling so here it is

my next post is going to be a review of rocky aur rani kii prem kahani as an example of a purple hearts-esque story actually done well (and why i liked karan johar's latest bollywood venture A LOT) but that's still in the works

anyway if this post gets any traction i will truly be amazed and if not it will be quite lol and expected

ok that's all. tq for coming to my tumblr post. see u soon.

[natasha-barton]

I got my friend a pinboard for her birthday among others things and she’s been putting a lot of notes abt bungo stray dogs on it (I know nothing abt it except for what she tells me(which is a lot)) and today I went to her house and she very shyly asked me if she could explain the pinboard to me once she’s finished it ? Like girl . Of course??? That’s literally what friends are for . You listen to my rambling about romance novels and fanfics I’ve read I will always listen to shit you say. Then I said maybe she’d get me to read the mangas or novels whatever there all is idk and then she was very happy lmaoo shes always liked forcing me to read/watch stuff with her (she’s not actually forcing me it’s just like „rahel!watch this with me!!/read this when you come over!!“ and I go „yes🫡“) she’s great.

[cooper--jones]

Sincere question: can I watch the Riverdale finale without having watched a single episode since S3 or S4?

[natasha-barton]

BTW I hate these ‚rate yourself out of ten‘ things because if we were all right in our heads we would rate ourselves 10/10 always. Doesn’t mean we are perfect and that we don’t make mistakes but I think I’m amazing and I deserve someone who loves me for who I am and who will put up with my annoying sides etc and who’s willing to help me.

Wdym you’re a 6/10 because you don’t have the body ideal that’s popular rn and you have acne. Literally fuck off you’re great

[joyce-bi-ers]

I would listen to everything red velvet puts out. their voices immediately make a song better

[natasha-barton]

the thing with grief and losing a person is that i don’t think you will ever fully realize it . you’ll live your life and grief and then it’ll get better and then the grief hits you again, then ebbs away again . but that person you lost was so ingrained in your life it is so hard for your brain to comprehend that it’s not there anymore . you read something interesting or funny and think of calling them to let them know … wait no you can’t do that anymore . it’s those little things that make everything hit so much harder. humans are creatures of habits and they’re so hard to break

it’s been 16 years since my father died (I was three) and sometimes still it hits me that I’ll never have had a real dad . a dad who was present in my childhood, who cooked with me, who drove me to school, who did homework with me, who listened to music with me, who read to me, who tucked me into bed and woke me up . like girl yes i fucking know that I didn’t have a dad, i was there, but unconsciously i forget it in my every day life

[cooper--jones]

this blog is slowly devolving into queer brainrot (and 2023 isn't helping). should i just rebrand to a "multifandom" (read: ofmd, hannibal and good omens coded, with a side of a couple other fandoms) blog? or should i start a new sideblog

idk how likely it is that i will ever revisit riverdale tbh altho i am still pro bughead