#REAL LIFE SHIT

[salchat]

Ridiculously young Jensen, or Dean - take your pick! My materials:

Little chunky-chunks of pastel. I used these exclusively, because I didn’t want anything with a fine point. I'm trying to be more Impressionistic. Or something.

Also, I wanted to apologise if there's anyone who's messaged me that I haven't got to. I'm kind of overwhelmed at the moment. I have my stoma reversal next week, and the recovery for that sounds particularly unpleasant. And then straight onto more chemo, do not pass Go etc. So, yeah, not fun.

But at least there's Dean...

[popodoki]

Hey so besties guess who had the worst, and I mean absolute worst kind of low after the high of TFNation? That's right, me :)

I basically got Covid 4 days after coming home, after 2 days back at work (100% confirmed I caught it from a colleague, not at the convention!)

The good news is that I am finally nearly fully restored, the bad news is that it has been almost 2 weeks and I am only now nearly fully restored. No going into details, but covid struck me and it struck hard. Please take covid seriously, I do not wish the kind of state I was in (as a 32 y/o, otherwise quite healthy!) for the past time, on anyone.

I want to get back into the groove, but looking back on my productivity before, lads I'm not doing that anymore even if I could :'')

Daily 'content' was a crazy pace, even with a hyperfixation and a brimming muse, don't do that, besties x

That said, I do want to get back into Catwin writings, and I have a few lil drafts I can check back in on, but I also want to state that

my inbox is open (to anons too) and any kind of prompt or suggestion is welcome! No promises I'll really write exactly what you suggest/ask, but it'd still be nice to get the muse going again.

Many thanks to everyone and anyone reading my fics/drabbles and giving kudos, the lil notifs are nice and uplifting x

[foxs0x]

Stop scrolling and look at my cat

She's a fucking Disney cat

[reyiosa]

radfem blogs: “when men hate women they want to kill/hurt/brainwash us, when women hate men they want to be left alone!!!!!”

radfem blogs: *want to kill/hurt/brainwash trans people who just want to be left alone*

[idkmanwtfishumanityanymore]

Yo what’s good chat? Because it certainly isn’t my life rn /gen

So we moved out of my moms ex’s place because he’s batshit insane, and he’s claiming that all our pets are his. We have to take him to court, over getting our cats. So yeah I might be in court fighting for my cats soon, fun. (<- /sar)

As I will be busy dealing with legal Bullshittery, I will not have time to get online. So I’m unfortunately going to be going on hiatus. Feel free to still tag me or ask me stuff, but know it’ll be a long ass time before I can answer.

[succstosucculent]

Blue-spotted jawfish (Opistognathus rosenblatti) at work

He’s basically me ❤️😊

[catdreamphilosopher]

At my smallest. At my biggest.

[menofsweaters]

My partner and I at Ikea:

Me: (picks up a pillow, then immediately drops it) oh no, this is the bad texture™️

My partner: how's that autism going

Me: I'm the only person I know who doesn't have autism

My partner: ...I have bad news for you

[darthbecky726]

ive reached a stage in talking to my mans where I send him screenshots of Tumblr posts as they come across my dash bc I know he'll think they're funny etc but I also know he's not gonna get Tumblr anytime soon so this is my version of sending him reels (which he does to me) and I think it's a sign of something real healthy idk

[mrderbird]

i've been totally housebound with the exception of maybe a 30-minute bimonthly errand run if i'm extremely lucky since christmas lmao

[sister-calliope]

I hate the panic attacks that come with realizing I fucked up at work. My work involves helping people who are screwed by the system so it’s rewarding but when I make any kind of mistake no matter how small it knocks me flat. I wish I was an Ultramarine so I could remember all the things and have perfect recall and executive function.

[nncastle]

Like many of you we are struggling with the anxiety of a changing world. We don't have children but we do have a young nephew and we wonder what kind of world he will grow up in. Every good day we have feels like the last sometimes. I feel like we are in a state of constant mourning for the way things were... but aren't anymore. Sad to read about the dying off of birds and insects and people. We turn to wiser words in this chaos, to try to live in the moment, be grateful, and stay in the present, but it's hard with this looming cloud of chaos that keeps advancing. Life has always been about accepting uncertainty but there is a difference between uncertainty and despair. Sometimes I feel extremely sad. We do our best here to foster nature and help the poor bees and wildlife, but I'm not sure it's enough. Feeling overwhelmed...

[leavesandbounds]

That one post about being an older sibling is really getting to me right now because no, our parents didn't treat me worse and learn for you. Our parents say that I was so good I didn't prepare them for you. Our parents say that I was the easy child. That I was quiet and nice and didn't lash out. God I wish I had lashed out more. Maybe they would have learned. Maybe they would be better to you. They treat you so horribly because you aren't like me and I'm not there to help anymore. I didn't do enough while I was there and now I'm gone and you're trapped in that house with people who learned to parent on someone who wasn't brave enough to stand up to them when they were awful. You're braver than me. You're stronger than me. I'm so proud of you. I love you. You told me once I'm your biggest role model.

You're mine.

[foxs0x]

So this month, my cat ran away/ went missing

And now my neighbour has just backed into my car and damaged it

Ugh.

[ottopilot-wrote-this]

Found out today a former colleague's son died. He was 22.

His dad and I worked together for 15 years. That's a long time in our line of work. There was a point where our entire team finally got laid off and we were the only ones left, keeping the lights on at a dying company.

I remember when he was born. He died this week, alone in his car, from an opioid overdose. Those details make something already tragic into something just unbearably sad.

My second cousin died on New Year's Eve. We weren't close, I've only met him a few times. That's because he spent his whole life in pain, in and out of prison and street gangs, a heavy drug user his entire life. He died living on the streets, the irony being he was finally clean. I don't know the details but imagine he also died alone. He was 52.

I use cannabis, it's legal and regulated here. But hard drugs are fucking awful. And addiction is powerful. It doesn't matter if you are affluent or poor, or if your family life is supportive or not.

The only thing I really fear is having to bury one of my children. My friend and my mom's cousin, from two very different walks of life, are both going through that, and 2025 is 9 days old.

I cried for an hour today.

[hislittleraincloud]

God damn this site, I have a post I was working on and it was SUPPOSED to save it as its draft but now it's out but I've privated it until I can finish it later. Even though it was a damn draft when I brought it up, dunno why it went straight to publish.

Things aren't great here. Just saying. I have to take a walk.

Stop being insane fuckers about your ship. Be reasonable. Think about the entertainment you watch from a mind that isn't soaked in fandom, maybe y'all can understand what I've been fucking saying.