#REAL LIFE SHIT

[salchat]

Ridiculously young Jensen, or Dean - take your pick! My materials:

Little chunky-chunks of pastel. I used these exclusively, because I didn’t want anything with a fine point. I'm trying to be more Impressionistic. Or something.

Also, I wanted to apologise if there's anyone who's messaged me that I haven't got to. I'm kind of overwhelmed at the moment. I have my stoma reversal next week, and the recovery for that sounds particularly unpleasant. And then straight onto more chemo, do not pass Go etc. So, yeah, not fun.

But at least there's Dean...

[popodoki]

Hey so besties guess who had the worst, and I mean absolute worst kind of low after the high of TFNation? That's right, me :)

I basically got Covid 4 days after coming home, after 2 days back at work (100% confirmed I caught it from a colleague, not at the convention!)

The good news is that I am finally nearly fully restored, the bad news is that it has been almost 2 weeks and I am only now nearly fully restored. No going into details, but covid struck me and it struck hard. Please take covid seriously, I do not wish the kind of state I was in (as a 32 y/o, otherwise quite healthy!) for the past time, on anyone.

I want to get back into the groove, but looking back on my productivity before, lads I'm not doing that anymore even if I could :'')

Daily 'content' was a crazy pace, even with a hyperfixation and a brimming muse, don't do that, besties x

That said, I do want to get back into Catwin writings, and I have a few lil drafts I can check back in on, but I also want to state that

my inbox is open (to anons too) and any kind of prompt or suggestion is welcome! No promises I'll really write exactly what you suggest/ask, but it'd still be nice to get the muse going again.

Many thanks to everyone and anyone reading my fics/drabbles and giving kudos, the lil notifs are nice and uplifting x

[reyiosa]

radfem blogs: “when men hate women they want to kill/hurt/brainwash us, when women hate men they want to be left alone!!!!!”

radfem blogs: *want to kill/hurt/brainwash trans people who just want to be left alone*

[idkmanwtfishumanityanymore]

Yo what’s good chat? Because it certainly isn’t my life rn /gen

So we moved out of my moms ex’s place because he’s batshit insane, and he’s claiming that all our pets are his. We have to take him to court, over getting our cats. So yeah I might be in court fighting for my cats soon, fun. (<- /sar)

As I will be busy dealing with legal Bullshittery, I will not have time to get online. So I’m unfortunately going to be going on hiatus. Feel free to still tag me or ask me stuff, but know it’ll be a long ass time before I can answer.

[succstosucculent]

Blue-spotted jawfish (Opistognathus rosenblatti) at work

He’s basically me ❤️😊

[catdreamphilosopher]

At my smallest. At my biggest.

[menofsweaters]

My partner and I at Ikea:

Me: (picks up a pillow, then immediately drops it) oh no, this is the bad texture™️

My partner: how's that autism going

Me: I'm the only person I know who doesn't have autism

My partner: ...I have bad news for you

[darthbecky726]

ive reached a stage in talking to my mans where I send him screenshots of Tumblr posts as they come across my dash bc I know he'll think they're funny etc but I also know he's not gonna get Tumblr anytime soon so this is my version of sending him reels (which he does to me) and I think it's a sign of something real healthy idk

[mrderbird]

i've been totally housebound with the exception of maybe a 30-minute bimonthly errand run if i'm extremely lucky since christmas lmao

[sister-calliope]

I hate the panic attacks that come with realizing I fucked up at work. My work involves helping people who are screwed by the system so it’s rewarding but when I make any kind of mistake no matter how small it knocks me flat. I wish I was an Ultramarine so I could remember all the things and have perfect recall and executive function.

[foxs0x]

So this month, my cat ran away/ went missing

And now my neighbour has just backed into my car and damaged it

Ugh.

[nncastle]

Like many of you we are struggling with the anxiety of a changing world. We don't have children but we do have a young nephew and we wonder what kind of world he will grow up in. Every good day we have feels like the last sometimes. I feel like we are in a state of constant mourning for the way things were... but aren't anymore. Sad to read about the dying off of birds and insects and people. We turn to wiser words in this chaos, to try to live in the moment, be grateful, and stay in the present, but it's hard with this looming cloud of chaos that keeps advancing. Life has always been about accepting uncertainty but there is a difference between uncertainty and despair. Sometimes I feel extremely sad. We do our best here to foster nature and help the poor bees and wildlife, but I'm not sure it's enough. Feeling overwhelmed...

[hislittleraincloud]

God damn this site, I have a post I was working on and it was SUPPOSED to save it as its draft but now it's out but I've privated it until I can finish it later. Even though it was a damn draft when I brought it up, dunno why it went straight to publish.

Things aren't great here. Just saying. I have to take a walk.

Stop being insane fuckers about your ship. Be reasonable. Think about the entertainment you watch from a mind that isn't soaked in fandom, maybe y'all can understand what I've been fucking saying.

[gosmigenergy]

I just wanted to post something say thank you to everyone who keeps loving and reblogging my work rn.

The past month and a half has been challenging to say the least and though writing normally allowed me to escape reality, everything became too heavy.

It was only a week after I’d gone off work sick with stress that my dad passed away. I managed to post one story delayed and found the strength to write another before I stopped. This week, we’ve finally celebrated his life.

My dad never shared his creativity and actually, he never knew I was sharing my writing online so when I log on, it still surprises me. Knowing that people have enjoyed what I’ve done, based off characters I love, brings me some happiness at such a weird time.

I’m also so grateful for The Wild Robot and Gladiator II coming out during this period because gods know what it would have been like without them.

Once I’ve fully processed everything and I’m in a better headspace, I will be back but I thought I’d just give a little acknowledgement incase I do go silent. However, I can feel the little sparks of fic inspiration coming already ✨

[theresthesnitch]

Toy store gift wrapping is great, but you know what would be even better? Putting together the toy after bedtime the night before to avoid, "is it ready yet? Is it ready now?"

[gildedmuse]

For anyone who donated to Diesel's bills, I want you to know I WILL be starting on those projects.

While we were not able to afford the surgery, I was able to afford a vet visit and antibiotics and I did everything they told me including holding a heating pack to the wound for 15 minutes every night and as you can see, the little angel is doing so much better!

I am deeply eternally thankful for what donations I received, and I apologize that it's taken me so long to do.... anything. Anyone who follows the blog knows I deal with my own health issues. They've caused me to lose my job (turns out throwing up at your desk is a faux pas, even if you tell them about your sickness at your interview, even if other people work from home with weak excuses but you're not allowed because "your history of getting sick". ) due to the opioid endemic and my age - I'm under 50 - they only intended the pain meds as a "temporary" fix for a chronic, genetic problem that has no cure short of getting my kidneys replaced. So I'm relearning after two years how to live in full time pain.

I hope you can stay patient with me. I am so thankful for all help and well wishes, I honestly wish I could write for everyone who even promoted my original post. When he was brought to me, I just quit my job and gave my sister all my savings for his surgery and then suddenly, from nowhere, she drove up and left two dogs with me. Turns out that's a lot of expenses, especially when one needed a second surgery. It's honestly thanks to the support I received I was able to get Diesel into a vet; I still haven't been able to take his sister in to see anyone, and my sister didn't leave any of her records, but she seems happy and healthy. According to my mom, they are happier with me now that they're not kept in crates (plus I spoil them pretty heavy with pets and walks; I can barely afford the kidney meds and food the boy needs but damn if I can't pet him for hours!)

I just want to thank everyone once again, and promise you're requests have not been forgotten.

I know it's selfish to ask, but I just need a little more time to adjust to my old pain levels and try and find a passable way to make a living while dealing with this pain (the reason I was given pain meds in the first place was because I worked; the deal was, I found a job I thought I could work so they'd give me pain meds, but without a job, obviously, there is no reason for me not to be in pain. And the pain grew bad enough that I was unable to continue work). But I am so, so thankful and I have not forgotten. I've just had to adjust to a very new lifestyle, and I am so sorry about the delay.

Thank you again, I promise I won't disappoint.