#Psychology Student Rambles About Shitty Writing in a Video Game

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Some thoughts under the cut because I need to complain about swtor.

I really want to finish the JK and do a full run of the JC (And me being burnt out from a rush run of Kotfe/et) I really, don’t find the strength to run said stories as I use to? 

The JK’s little “Well, sorry but we need you to go back into the fight despite the highly stressful and traumatic situation you just went through” at the end of Ch2/start of 3, is just so much worse in my eyes now that I’ve actually studied all of this stuff. I knew it was bad, years ago when I was a 15 y/o fresh to this game, just doing it for fun. It was angst fuel. I liked it. But now? It’s like, trying to move a really heavy rock. And I don’t mind that it is something that happens in a story, conflict is good. Trauma happens. It is not bad to show these situations (As long as, you know is not for Edgy Shock Value or the TW are in place.) I really just hate the fact it is never properly addressed. The JK never gets help. 

And that mission in SoR is not even a “Too Little Too Late” scenario. It’s a “What the fuck are you doing here?!?!?!” Scenario. Because magically erase Bad Memories is not how you fix things! You are not healing the person! People block out bad memories all the time. The brain does that. You “forget” traumatic events for your own safety, but the consequences are still there. And it’s just wtf were the writers thinking?  Let me tell you, in my eyes that give the Jedi a very bad image. It just, makes me question a lot of things. Too many things. Things that I do not have enough space to ramble about in a tumblr post honestly. I will admit I have a bias because too many things about the way the Jedi act reminds me of my Catholic upbringing, due to the fact it involved a lot of “Bear your cross (Just deal with shit and move on), Repression™ (Yeah I know it’s old and tired, but like I said, my bias.) and you’ve to be selfless to the extremes, whatever it costs you.”   And the JC (Aside from that objectively boring and tedious VA you’ve to endure) Is kind of, the same to me? Here you buddy, heal these people even though it might kill you. No, no, don’t teach that Special™ Technique to other more skilled healers. Clearly, that is not how teaching works. We need those Special Space Lamps to teach us. I know Jedi are selfless and light side and yada yada but, at what point is it no longer selfless and it turns into a harmful thing?  I have been there. I’ve thought I was being selfless for pushing myself to extremes for others, and I was not. It was just very self-destructive. So I once again I have to ask, what the hell were the writers thinking? And why am I supposed to root or even care for the Jedi if they will barely acknowledge the suffering of (Possibly Very Young) Jedi and dub it “Heroic Sacrifice.”  And this is (Disclaimer cause I don’t want someone @ me for shit I did not say) Not me saying oh man Jedi Suck, Sith Good. The Sith are FUCKED in a whole lot of different ways. I know this. Pretty well. I have about 3 proper Sith OCs and they’re not even very Sithy. They’re definitely leaning more into Grey/Light Sided alignments. But I feel like it’s wrong to not acknowledge the ways the Jedi Order is Fucked. Because I think we can all agree this Handwaving of Issues is something that just, stays with them up till the Clone Wars Era. We see it clearly with Anakin. We see them be unfair to Ahsoka too.  So yeah, I’ve many issues with the Jedi. I don’t like either order to be completely honest. Not as they are in canon. I don’t really like everything from fanon either. Will I make a ramble like this about the Sith classes? Likely, once I actually play them again. I haven’t picked up the SI in like 3 years. And the SW I did last year but I don’t really remember it cause I was busier shitposting through it.   Am I just very tired of media handwaving away/ignoring the consequences of Trauma and acting like mental health issues are easily healed and/or handwaved? Definitely. Am I asking too much from a BW game? For sure. Will it stop me from yelling at the void that is tumblr? Nah.