#Pregnant!BellaSwan

[braveclementine]

Betrayal Hurts like a Bitch. Think I'd Be Used to it By Now

Warnings: 18+readersonly, trigger warnings for suicidal thoughts

Copyright: I do not own any Twilight characters or locations. I do own Davina Mikelson and Marcel. I also own the backstory for my OC. I do not condone any copying of this.

Davina P.O.V.

I had gone all the way to Oregon to feed. Apparently there was a large American Black Bear population and since I only needed one anyways- it seemed worth it. And it was. I found that the Black Bear did taste a little bit better than the mountain lion. But in my surprise, when I hunted a herd of deer, they tasted even better than the carnivorous animals.

I experimented with the different tastes- bunny, deer, cougar, and black bear. The bunny and deer honestly tasted better.

I wondered why. Carlisle had explained that to vampires, carnivorous animals like bears and wolves and big cats and such were better to the taste because of being closer to the human population in terms of blood.

So why?

It was falling dark and I knew I had to get home so that Carlisle didn't worry. I wondered if Jacob was still at the house or if he had gone back to the pack yet to let them know of her illness.

If Carlisle had let him in. I wondered if Bella's sickness was so bad that Jacob could spread it too.

I started home.

Carlisle's P.O.V.

Jacob sat in the living room with the rest of us. Davina was still out and I was nervous, wondering if she was still at La Push, back at the cottage, or out hunting. The cottage was the only good option, though I wasn't entirely sure if Sam would harm her or let her be harmed if she was still in La Push.

"Sam's lost the element of surprise," Jacob explained. Leah had apparently joined the 'pack' with her brother Seth. She knew what Sam was planning. "and he doesn't want to take you on outnumbered, so he's not going to come at you head on."

I was leaning on my knees, sharing the couch with Esme and Marcel. Bree was standing far away from Jacob, still scared of the wolves.

Edward was standing nearby, his eyes crazed.

"He's got the place surrounded and he'll wait for his opportunity." Jacob continued.

"We won't get through without a fight." Emmett said behind me, standing near the windows alongside Jasper.

"No fights." I whispered, looking over my shoulder at him. "We won't be the ones who break the treaty."

"The treaty is void, at least in Sam's mind." Jacob said.

"Not in ours." Esme said, tightening her grip around Marcel's hand.

I wondered just how close they were. Were they between the cottage and the main house?

"Carlisle, no one's hunted in weeks." Emmett said.

"We'll make do." Esme said.

"You've done us a great service, Jacob." I said. Lord growled inside of me, not agreeing. He still wanted to rip Jacob's head off. "Thank you."

Jacob nodded.

I hesitated and then asked, "What about Davina? If Sam is close and she's still at the cottage, she's separated from us."

Jacob hesitated and then shrugged his shoulders helplessly, "He was banking on her being away, she had told us she hadn't been to the main house in a week. I don't know if he'll attack or allow her to be attacked if she tries to come here. I wouldn't think so, but if you have a way to contact her, tell her she'll have to stay there and stay in, you should."

My heart clenched at the idea of being so far away from her but I nodded, getting up and leaving the room to leave a message on the cottage house phone.

Davina P.O.V.

The house was almost empty when I entered. I could hear the faint beeping that there was a message on the phone machine but I waited, checking in on the kids first.

They were all awake, sitting up, waiting for me. I chuckled, grabbing the baby bottles that were a mix of baby formula, and a little blood- once finding out I preferred deer blood that's what I added in hopes to start them on the animal diet early.

They were all able to hold their own bottles and feed themselves. It was cute, but it made me sad too, knowing that they were aging and maturing so much faster than a normal human baby. It made me wonder how many years I would get with them. The average adult life was around 72. 6 years. Round it up to 73. So what would I get with my kids? 35 years? 36? That seemed like a long time, but when you lived forever. . .

I supposed if they became to old, I could always change them in vampires. . . if that was what they wanted. But at the same time. . . the fact that they were already drinking blood. . . did that mean they were vampires? Part vampire? But if that was the case, wouldn't they age slower instead of faster? Vampire stopped aging completely. So if they were part, shouldn't they be aging slower rather than faster? I didn't understand it and it scared me.

I worked methodically around the house, plugging the sink to give them baths, putting the special baby soap to the side. I loved giving them baths and changing them into clean clothes. Carlisle had bought some of the cutest outfits for Caroline. And he bought mostly suits for Niklaus and Samuel which were also adorable.

I smiled a little, just thinking about it, before going and getting both of my little boys to take care of them. Niklaus splashed the water with his little hands, making me laugh. Everything they did so was so adorable. They made my world a lighter place.

I sung as I washed them. I had never liked singing before- I sounded like someone was brutally murdering a chicken. But now, with a perfect voice that could hit any pitch at any frequency at any time with perfection. . . how could you not sing?

And when I think that God, His Son not sparing Sent Him to die, I scarce can take it in That on the cross, my burden gladly bearing He bled and died to take away my sin

Then sings my soul, my Savior God to Thee How great Thou art, how great Thou art Then sings my soul, my Savior God to Thee How great Thou art, how great Thou art

I dressed Niklaus in red pajamas and Samuel in green. Then I went to put them back down in their cribs, taking Caroline next.

Without even thinking, I started to sing a song that dad used to sing to me before I went to bed. It wasn't the normal kind that you usually sung kids, because this one was a patriotic one. But I had loved it, the powerful way he sung it, the way that it made my heart rise and soar and be proud to be a daughter of a Colonel. Proud to be an American. Proud to be a part of this country where we had the freedom to say what we wanted, to keep guns if we wanted, to do almost whatever we wanted. The freedom to worship God or Allah or no one at all. The freedom to refuse choose what we could eat, what we could buy, where we could work, who we could marry, what we put in our bodies. Whether we took the flu shot or not. Whether we gave our kids a Hepatis A shot or let them go without it because they didn't actually need it. The freedom to watch whatever we wanted on TV and more.

Those were the images that were sent to my mind whenever I listened to the song. The song from before I even believed in werewolves and vampires and witches and dragons. I had believed in this song first before I watched movies and read books. Before I started to believe in magic. Before I moved to Forks again and found myself falling in love with a vampire and having a werewolf as a best friend.

Before I became a vampire myself.

That life was so long ago.

If tomorrow all the things were gone I worked for all my life And I had to start again With just my children and my wife

I thank my lucky stars To be living here today 'Cause the flag still stands for freedom And they can't take that away

And I'm proud to be an American Where at least I know I'm free And I won't forget the men who died Who gave that right to me And I'd gladly stand up next to you And defend Her still today 'Cause there ain't no doubt I love this land God Bless the U.S.A.

It sounded different in my voice, less strong than my fathers, more wishful than anything else. Maybe I could get Marcel to sing it for me.

I quietly hummed the rest of the song as I dried Caroline off carefully, slipping her into her pink pajamas.

I sat in the bedroom, grabbing one of the Jack and Annie books that I liked reading out loud to them, reading-aloud in a quiet voice until they all drifted off to sleep.

Once that was done, I headed back to the kitchen, pulled out vanilla cake mix, and started to make a cake.

I would bring it to Emily's tomorrow for Claire's birthday party. I had already told her I would. It was a princess themed party that would be Emily, myself, Claire, and a bunch of her friends.

I had bought a dress for Claire down in Port Angeles, taking off the tag, putting it in a beautifully wrapped box. It was a pink and cream coloured dress with roses down the front. Complete with a small tiara with small pink gems laid in it. It hadn't been expensive- at least, not compared to Carlisle shopping for our kids.

I quickly mixed all the ingredients together at the same time I was preheating the oven. Vampire speed had its' perks almost all the time.

I wasn't entirely sure what I was to do about the top of it.

So I moved onto the cupcakes.

Yes, these kids were going to get lots of cavities.

I was very excited about the cupcakes because of what I was doing with them.

I had bought small princess figurines and I was going to imbed them into the cupcakes.

[So. The first picture with the stickers is all the princess she is going to use. The second picture is how they'll look with the figurines. I couldn't find one with all the ones I wanted]

Of course, this meant a lot of different coloured icing, but that was alright because I was going to have a lot of fun making the different shades for the cupcakes. While the cake and cupcakes baked, I mixed together 15 bowls, each with different colours and shades. Three yellow, five blue, two red, one pink, one purple, and three greens.

These were the princesses as follows:

Yellow: Pocahontas, Belle, and Snow White Blue: Cinderella, Mulan, Elsa, Ana, and Merida Red: Moana and Elena Pink: Aurora Purple: Rapunzel (personal favorite) Green: Ariel, Jasmine, and Tiana

I WAS SO EXCITED!!!

And thankfully, I was a vampire so I had the skill and precision to make the cupcakes identical and neat.

I set everything out to cool, while grabbing one of the books from the shelf. By the time I was done reading it, everything had cooled down and I started the frosting job, leaving the cake for last as I still wasn't entirely sure what to do with it.

Once the fifteen cupcakes were done (hopefully I had enough), I put them in their case carefully, before sliding it into the refrigerator.

I stared at the cake for a while, envisioning all sorts of things- most of them dramatic and would require several layers of cake to complete. Finally, I found a simple design.

I frosted the cake pink, layering it to look like stone in a way. Then I used vanilla buttercream frosting to create a top layer with drips going down it. I placed small pearl candies and butterflies into the icing, completing the simple touch. I used fondant as a way of making an edible gold crown to set on top of the cake along with a pendant I attached to the front of it that said: HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRINCESS

I really hoped she liked it.

[FUCK NOW I REALLY WANT CAKE  😫😫😫😭😭 ]

Once it was done, I put it in a cakebox, sliding it into the refrigerator as well. I started to clean up the mess. The four excess cupcakes, I frosted just as delicately, using some of the leftover figurines in case there were other girls or two of the girls wanted the same characters.

I got some frosting on my fingers and out of habit, reached up and licked the frosting off. I froze as the sweet taste developed on my taste buds. I waited for it to start to taste like dirt, but it never did.

I stood there, blue frosting on my fingers, sweetness in my mouth, and then smiled.

~The Next Day~

I loaded the cake, present, and cupcakes carefully into the car before setting out on a drive. I hoped Esme would come over today to watch the kids, but I had fed them and they shouldn't be home alone for long.

It was until I crossed the border into La Push that I realized I had forgotten to check the phone message. I groaned internally, but knew it probably wasn't that big of a deal that I hadn't checked it yet.

I pulled up into Emily's front yard. For once, it was packed with cars of parents who were dropping their kids off. I was quick to park, getting out of the door, beaming. I loved parties, honestly. I had hated them as a kid when I was on the receiving end of them- but I loved giving other people presents. It honestly made me ecstatic.

I pulled the three boxes out of the trunk of the car, holding them in one hand, while I closed the trunk of the car with the other.

I meandered my way through the crowd, slipping through the door. Most of the girls were in the party room and Emily was cooking on the stove. I set the boxes down on the table.

"DAVINA!" Claire's voice shouted. Emily jumped, spinning, but I barely noticed as I grinned, scooping Claire up in my arms.

"Hey birthday girl!" I said excitedly. "I brought you a present!"

"A pwesant!" Claire giggled, pulling at my hair.

I smiled down at her. She reminded me of my own daughter- just brunette instead of blond.

I set Claire down on her feet, picking the present up. "Where should I put it?"

"Gwve me!" Claire demanded and I laughed, handing it to her.

"Emily, do you want me to the put the cake and. . ." I drifted off, the smile fading off my face as I saw Emily's face. "What's wrong?"

"Davina, you shouldn't be here." She said quietly so that only I could here.

I frowned, "I. . .shouldn't?"

I looked around, wondering what was wrong. "Wait. Did something happen to the pack?"

She seemed to be reading my face and said, "You don't know?"

My fingers trembled around the cakebox and I quickly put it down, wrapping my arms around my body instead. "What happened? Is someone hurt? Sam's okay, isn't he?"

Emily sighed, setting the spoon down. She motioned to the door and I followed her out until we were standing away from the house, closer to the woods.

"Emily? Please. Sam? Embry? Seth?"

Emily had tears in her eyes, "Sam. . . Sam decided to attack the Cullens."

The words didn't register with me. I shook my head frantically. "No. No he knows it would kill me. He wouldn't-"

"I'm sorry." Emily said.

I fell to my knees, gasping for breath. Carlisle. Was Carlisle alive?

The message on the phone. What if that had been his last message.

"Davina I'm sorry." Emily's voice cracked. "They haven't come back yet. None of them have. And Jacob and Seth left the pack before the attack."

"Why-" I tried to ask, but my voice wouldn't work.

"Because Bella's pregnant and Sam thinks the child will be dangerous."

I snapped my head up. Pregnant?

"No." I argued, "No, Bella's not. . . pregnant! She's sick! That's why I haven't gone back to the main house! She's sick!"

But I knew Emily was telling me the truth. I put my face in my hands. The world had stopped. Sam had gone and he'd attacked my family. Carlisle was dead. Marcel. Bree. I had saved her from the Volturi just to be murdered by wolves.

Esme. Jasper. My favorite son. Emmett. My second favorite son. Alice. Oh Merlin- God- Alice.

"Davina I'm so sorry." Emily choked out.

"I- I didn't even get to say good-bye." I choked out. "I haven't seen Carlisle in nine days and now. . now he's dead."

Venom welled up in my eyes. My brother had gone and killed my family. My boyfriend had gone and killed my family. Suddenly, I couldn't pick out Sam and Azim's faces individually. They seemed to mesh together, to become one.

When I got back there. . . would I have time to put my family back together? Or would they be burning, turning to ash. . . like my mother. My mother's body burned, welded to the stove.

I screamed then. Pure agony in it's truest form. I buried my face into my hands, dry sobs racking my body. Carlisle's face swam before my eyes and I realized tears were falling. I was some sort of screwed up vampire then. One that could cry.

I felt warm arms come around me and Emily's soft voice, broken in my ears, "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry."

"I have no one left." I choked out.

I heard footsteps crunch against the ground and I looked up. The face swam before my eyes and I whispered, "Azim."

Sam P.O.V.

We watched through the glass windows all night. Most of them were pacing, looking out the windows every so often. Especially Emmett, Jasper, and Marcel.

Carlisle looked out the windows too, in a specific direction, for long periods of time, and I realized that must be the direction of the cottage.

I commanded the others to stay in their positions. I broke away from the others, slinking through the forest in that direction. I watched carefully as Carlisle ran a hand through his hair, turning as Edward called him.

I darted through the forest until I came upon a medium sized cottage. I could hear the sound of the SUV and realized Davina had just left the house. I crept closer, smelling around but I could only smell Davina's scent and the overwhelming scent of vanilla cake and icing.

What in the world?

Why was she baking a cake? Paul's voice asked, surprised. They could smell the intoxicating sweetness through my memories. She's a vampire, she doesn't eat.

She's different than the others though, remember? Jared voices. Remember? Blood doesn't taste good to her and all that? Maybe she can eat human food?

Oh! Quil's voice was surprised, knowing, and scared all at once. Claire's birthday party is today. Emily and Mom were planning the whole thing together. Mom was in charge of the cake.

Surely she doesn't think she can go back to the Reservation? Collin snarled.

Collin and Brady didn't like Davina like the others did. They didn't call her mom, but she still tried her best to be kind to them.

I'll go back. Quil and I thought together.

We'll go together. I amended. Embry, Collin, you two take the day off too. Get some sleep. Trade off with Jared, Paul, and Brady later on.

Quil and I ran back through the forest towards La Push. We had to go around the back way as we couldn't risk any of Claire's friends or parents seeing us turning back into humans.

That was when I heard the scream. At first, I thought it was Emily, but then I realized it was Davina. It wasn't an angry scream. It was a scream of agony and it went straight to my heart. Quil looked upset.

"Go inside, make sure Claire and Emily are okay." I murmured, running for the place I'd heard her scream.

She was there, on the forest floor on her knees, her face in her hands. My heart plummeted when I saw Emily was behind her, hugging her, also crying.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." Emily's voice was broken.

"I have no one left." Davina's voice was dead.

Oh. She thought we'd killed them. I felt a little bit of relief that the attack had never happened.

I stepped out and Davina lifted her face to meet mine. Her strange, beautiful yellow eyes were riddled with tears that were falling out of her eyes. Another thing to make her different from the other vampires- she could cry.

She opened her mouth upon seeing me and I was ready for whatever she was going to say. Her eyes seemed unfocused and the word that she said wasn't anything I was ready for, "Azim."

It hit me like a punch to the gut. Her boyfriend who had murdered her parents and brother and everyone she knew and everyone she didn't know. And now she thought I was like him.

I saw Emily's eyes widen at the comparison and she looked at me, sadly.

Davina was suddenly in front of me, on her knees, staring up at me, tears falling down her face, "Please."

Seth. Leah. They'd all been right.

I could see Emily, getting to her feet behind Davina. She was shaking her head frantically, tears falling down her face.

I reached out, taking Davina's precious face into my hands. Emily turned away. Davina closed her eyes. I wiped the tears off her cheeks and said, "They're all alive."

Emily whipped around. Davina didn't move. Instead she spoke, "I should've asked you to do this a long time ago Azzy. I should've died when they died. I never deserved this love and now all I feel is pain. End it Azzy, please. If you really love me you'll kill me."

"Davina, it's me. It's Sam. Carlisle is alive. Emmett, Jasper, Alice, Marcel, Bree, Edward, Esme, Rosalie, Bella, they're all alive. They're all alive Davina, I swear." I said forcefully. Her words were continuous punches to my gut. No- it felt like she was stabbing me with burning knives. This wasn't supposed to be happening. I wasn't supposed to be like him. Not like him. I was supposed to protect Davina- not hurt her. This was my little sister. How had things become so wrong?

Davina opened her eyes, staring hesitantly. I knew she couldn't afford to get hurt again. I couldn't imagine why I had thought attacking them would be a good decision. I don't know why I had imagined that Davina would forgive me if we had killed the entire family.

"They're. . . alive?"

I nodded, getting to my knees as well. "I swear on my life."

Davina quieted down, tears ceasing and she very slowly wiped her face, "But. . . but Emily said you were attacking them because. . . because Bella's pregnant?"

"We don't know how the child will be after." I replied softly, "We just want the creature dead, not your family."

She flinched and my expression softened. "Please Sam. Please wait. Please don't kill my family. Please, I'm begging you."

I hesitated. On the one hand, I could get the wolves out of the forest, bring them home. But at the same time, the creature, no matter how badly Davina begged. Davina was one person, even if she was my sister and my best friend. I still had a whole tribe to protect and I couldn't let my selfish desires get in the way with it.

I hesitated to long. She stepped back, out of my touch, tears popping up in her eyes again. "I guess I know my answer."

And then she was gone. I groaned, staying on my knees, pushing the palms of my hands to my forehead. The Cullens always ruined everything.

First, they had turned me with their appearance, causing me to break Leah's heart and even though I loved Emily- she was my other half- I had still loved Leah. And then they had continued to ruin other tribe members' lives. And then Davina had come back and she had fallen for the doctor and I couldn't blame her because they were soulmates. And then the tracker vampire tired killing her. And then the Cullens had left. And then the black vampire had tried killing her. And then the youngest Cullen boy had gone to these Italian Vampires and Davina had gone after him and now they were interested in her. And then the red-headed vampire had created an army to kill her and Bella. And then the Cullens had turned her into a vampire through a dead pregnancy. And now the Cullens were ripping Davina away from me.

"Sam." Emily's voice was soft, tearful, but firm. "I love you. But this- if you do kill the family- at least spare Carlisle. Otherwise she's not going to find the will to live."

And then Emily walked away, heading back into the house where Claire's friends were cheerfully talking about the wonderful cupcakes that Davina had made.

Davina P.O.V.

My heart- dead or not- was racing. I had left the SUV at Emily's house- didn't matter now- and was racing through the forest back to the main house.

I was torn between going straight for my kids and making sure they were all right, or making sure that Carlisle was alright.

Finally, I detoured back to the cottage. It had been stupid really, to get on my knees before Sam and beg him to kill me when my kids were still here. I couldn't leave them to die of starvation or just plain die. If Sam truly went through with this, I wouldn't ask him to kill me. Not right away anyways. I'd wait till my kids were dead and then go to him. Or maybe I'd go straight to the Volturi.

I'd probably have to do something drastic though. Both Aro and Demetri liked me to much for my own good. I'd have to do something strange. Something no one would forget. And it wouldn't be something simple like standing in the sun.

I supposed I could stack as many cars as possible and lift them over my head. But that seemed weak. I suppose I could show how fast I could run and jump off buildings. Hmm, I would need something extremely dramatic.

I dashed into the house, checked on the kids, made sure to feed them again, and then dashed out of the house for the main house.

I sprinted and my thoughts were so focused on Carlisle that I didn't even notice the large wolf that was jumping towards me until it hit me.

I grunted in pain as I collided with a tree, hearing it crack.

I turned to see Brady standing over me, teeth barred, drool dripping off the fangs. The wolves were still in the forest? Were they surrounding the house? Did that mean that my family couldn't get out and hunt!? That wasn't good- especially for Marcel, Bree, and Jasper.

"Brady get off." I hissed angrily, shoving lightly, making him stumble back. He growled, snapping at me and if I hadn't jumped out of the way, my hand would've been taken off right then and there.

I had no choice, I turned and ran. I could hear him crashing behind me, but every time he made a leap for me, I dashed around a tree. Finally, I could see the house in the distance and I clambered up a tree and made a leap onto the roof before dropping down onto the porch and throwing myself through the front door.

Carlisle was there in an instant, his eyes wide. "Davina? What are you doing here?"

I slapped him across the face with sudden anger, "Bella wasn't sick! She was pregnant! Why the hell didn't you tell me?"

But then, I was so overwhelmed that he was alive, I threw my arms around him, kissing him fiercely. He kissed me back, his arms so tight around me I thought I might shatter in a million pieces. Tears fell down my face and he pulled back in surprise, wiping them away curiously.

I snorted completely burned out with my emotions. Jasper would've had a field day if he could feel them, "Yeah, another thing that makes me completely different."

"It's okay." Carlisle said, kissing my tears away quickly. "And I. . ." He looked around and I noticed we were alone. He dropped his voice so that even I- with my hearing- could barely hear him, let alone any of the vampires upstairs. "I didn't want you to know what your brother would have done had it been you."

Realization washed over me and I wiped away more tears. I nodded, burrowing my face into his sweater. He hugged me tightly.

"Mom!"

"Seth?" I whirled around, throwing my arms around him. "Oh my God, Seth!"

"Hey it's alright." Seth said with a light chuckle.

"What. . . what are you doing here?" I asked, confused.

"Jacob broke away from the pack last night." Seth explained. "Leah and I did too. The plan is for the werewolves to pick apart you guys when you try and go hunting. Since you'll be separated."

I felt my heart plummet again. Why Sam?

"What about me?" I asked.

Seth shrugged his shoulders helplessly. "I don't know."

I turned to look at Carlisle apologetically, "I have to go back to the cottage."

"I know." Carlisle nodded, taking me into his arms, "I know."

"Or. . . I could bring them here." I whispered as Seth jogged away, presumably to get Jacob I think. "It would be more protection for them. We'll stay up in the attic."

Carlisle was sad, but resigned. "Alright. Can you manage all three at the same time?"

I had no idea. And no matter what, Brady would see them. No doubt he was expecting me to go through there again.

Suddenly, Jacob came in through the doors and didn't look surprised to see me at all. "Sam just pulled the wolves out of the forest. I think they're all going back to La Push."

I practically melted in relief into Carlisle's arms.

"Why?" Carlisle asked, tightening his hold around me.

"I asked him." I whispered. "I. . . I didn't know about any of this until this morning. I had spent most of last night baking the cake for Claire's party. Emily told me. . . and I thought all of you were dead." I tightened my arms around Carlisle. "And then Sam showed up and told me that you weren't dead. And I begged him not to attack you guys. He didn't answer me, but this must be his answer."

"Unless it's a trick." Jacob pointed out.

"We need to hunt." Carlisle said in worry.

I looked up and saw that his normal honey eyes were indeed ringed with black- and it wasn't from Lord.

Jacob nodded, "Let Seth, Leah, and I push the perimeter out farther, double-check to make sure. Then maybe go in sets of three or so."

It felt strange that Jacob- who had hurt my feelings and tried killing me only a few days ago- was suddenly my protection unit. Well, ours, but still.

Carlisle nodded and Jacob was gone. We stared into each others eyes for a long time, just gazing. Finally I said, "I can taste human food."

A smile flitted over Carlisle's face and he pulled me into his arms. "I figured."

"I'm going back to the cottage." I whispered, not wanting to leave the children alone with such uncertainties with the wolves. "Come back when you're done hunting."

"I will. I love you." Carlisle said, his eyes burning black now. His thumbs stroked across my cheeks and I realized just how much I had missed him- missed this. I craved his touch.

"I love you more." I whispered, smashing my lips to his, and then I backed off and was gone.

[braveclementine]

Jacob's Declaration

Warnings: None

Copyright: I do not own any Twilight characters or locations. I do own Davina Mikelson and Marcel. I also own the backstory for my OC. I do not condone any copying of this.

Davina P.O.V.

I was playing soccer on the beach in La Push with most of the other werewolf members. It was a relatively cloudy day, but it didn't make it any less enjoyable. It had been around two-ish weeks since I had become a vampire, two-ish weeks since Edward and Bella had gone on their honeymoon, and two-ish weeks where our triplets had gone from looking like newborns to looking like they were around four or five months old.

I kicked the soccer ball lightly, sending it towards Jared. I was really hoping to score a goal, but I had also promised not to completely use my vampire senses so here I was, missing scores and gritting my teeth, getting annoyed easily.

I did feel a little bad though. Jacob, Embry, and Seth were sitting on a log by themselves. Jared, Paul, Leah, and Sam were either playing soccer with me and each other, or kissing up on their girls; Kim, Rachel, and Emily. Quil was squatting by the waters' edge with Claire.

"Maybe they'll say she was in a car crash." Jacob's voice was quiet and I wasn't entirely sure that the werewolves could hear him, but I definitely could.

I knew immediately he was talking about Bella and I missed the soccer ball completely, hissing under my breath as Paul crowed.

"Or tripped and fell off a cliff." Jacob continued as I chased the ball, sending it back to Jared. I knew he was thinking about what the Cullens, my family, was going to tell Charlie.

"Keep it in play! Keep it in play!" Paul chuckled and I kicked the ball at his shins. A quick glance over my shoulder showed that Seth and Embry's faces were sympathetic towards Jacob.

Leah kicked the ball hard, sending it into Sam's hands across the beach. I nodded to her, smirking.

"At least I'll get one thing out of it." Jacob continued.

"No you won't." Sam called, pausing in the game, glaring at Jacob as I came to a stop completely, my face dropping. Sam looked at me before looking back at Seth, Jacob, and Embry, "Cullens are not a danger to the town or the tribe."

Leah came to stand by Jacob and I drifted closer. "Well, he's either going to kill her or change her." Jacob said. "And the treaty says. . ."

"I say, Jacob." Sam was using his alpha wolf voice now. "I say."

Sam looked at me and then at Leah before looking away, tossing the ball to Jared. I no longer felt like playing and neither did Leah.

"You know, if you wanted things different, you should've become alpha." Embry said.

I shot him a look and he raised his hands apologetically. "I don't mean about going to war, I just mean about the Bella decision."

"Turning it down seemed like a good idea at the time." Jacob muttered.

"Jake, you really think you could kill Bella if she became a vampire?" Seth questioned. "I know I can't kill Mom."

"Neither could I." Embry said very quickly and I gave him a half- smile.

"No." Leah interrupted, sitting down on the other side of Jacob. I remained standing, staring out at the ocean. It felt like it was calling to me. "make one of us do it, then hold a grudge against us."

"Ah shut up Leah." Jacob snarled.

"Jake." I chastised.

"Would you just get over it?" Leah demanded, "It's not like you've imprinted on her."

We all glanced over at the guys who had settled down, holding their girls in their arms. Well, Quil was still squatting next to Claire. But the others were settled in each others laps, arms around the neck, kissing each other, eating food, feeding each other. It made me long for Carlisle and I crossed my arms, almost hugging them across my chest.

I needed to go home. But I liked being so close to the ocean.

"At least they seem happy." Seth commented.

Leah glanced over, hurt crashing over her face at Sam and Emily. I looked away, wishing I could do something about her pain.

"Yeah, some people are just lucky I guess." Embry said.

"Lucky?" Jacob scoffed. "None of them belong to themselves anymore. And the sickest part is, their genes tell them they're happy about it."

"Least if you imprinted on someone, you'd finally forget about Bella." Leah offered as I put a finger to her shoulder, not wanting to startle her with a whole hand. We all glanced over again to see Sam and Emily kissing each other. "I mean, being any kind of happy is better than being miserable."

"You guys will all find someone." I said softly. "I promise."

Jacob snorted, "What? You're happy?"

"Yeah, I am." I said softly.

"I don't believe that!" Jacob said, getting to his feet and I took a step back, shocked at his anger. "HOW THE HELL COULD YOU BE HAPPY!"

His shouting had attracted the others attention. Sam and Emily broke away from their kiss.

I scoffed, "What are you talking about?"

'Don't get angry. Don't hurt him.'

"I mean." Jacob spat the words and Seth was up by Jacob's shoulder as he towered over me. I held my ground, not backing off. "Everyone around you dies. You parents. The Army. Your kids. Harry! And now Bella. How can you possibly be fucking happy?"

"Jacob!" Sam snapped, getting to his feet.

But I stumbled backwards, turning, and then fleeing.

Sam P.O.V.

"What the hell was that?" I asked angrily at Jacob.

Jacob glared back at me unfazed, "Well it's true! Everyone around her either dies or gets turned into vampires! And she's bringing Bella down with her!"

"Don't talk about mom like that okay, don't talk about her like that." Seth begged, taking one of Jacob's arms.

"Don't ever badmouth Davina again, you hear me?" I snarled.

Jacob scoffed, shaking off one of Seth's arms, storming away.

I knew the Bella thing would be hard on Jacob. He loved her and she loved the Cullen boy. But Jacob needed to stop thinking she was a victim. She was choosing vampire-hood the same way that Davina had said she would eventually change it. But this was still no reason to take it out on Davina.

I knew what would happen if Jacob attacked the Cullens. Davina wouldn't fight. She would get hurt instead, trying to step between Jacob and anyone he attacked. Not even fighting, just pushing them away from each other.

I imagined her-

"Sam?" Seth asked quietly.

I snapped out of my thinking, looking at the little boy.

"Yeah?" I asked.

"Can I go after Mom?"

I blinked. "I don't know Seth. She has wonderful self-control but she's upset right now and I don't know if you want to get close to her at the moment."

Seth wasn't usually the one to break rules, but I could feel that he really wanted to today. I sighed, "Go. But be careful."

Seth nodded, trotting away before becoming a sandy werewolf and running.

"Of course you just let him go off to a house of werewolves by himself." Leah snapped and I closed my eyes, wishing she wasn't here. "Mom might be good, her husband might be good, but that doesn't mean the rest of them are."

She was still beautiful, not matter what, and I still loved her deep down inside, which just made things worse for the both of us. She glared at me with hateful eyes, storming away the way Jacob had gone.

I sighed. So much for a nice beach day.

Carlisle P.O.V.

I got off the phone with Bella and Edward, looking around at everyone- minus Davina, Rosalie, and Emmett- who were waiting to figure out what had happened.

"She's pregnant. . . at least that's the conclusion as of now. They aren't sure." I stated. "They're coming back home."

"What!" Alice asked, gasping.

My eyes sought Esme's and I gave her the slightest of nods.

"We're all going to meet them at the airport, take her back to the house." I sighed.

"What about her father?" Bree asked.

"We could tell him they're extending their vacation." Jasper suggested.

I nodded, "That sounds good."

Alice frowned suddenly and looked at me, "Mom's home. She's upset."

"I'll go to her." I murmured, "Prepare Rose and Emmett for the news when they get here."

I darted out of the house and found Esme following me. I stopped for a moment.

"I told you." Esme whispered.

I sighed, "I know."

"So what are you going to do about it?" Esme asked.

I hesitated, "Whatever Edward and Bella want, I suppose. Not everyone wants kids and Edward seemed pretty animated that he wanted it out of her."

"I can't imagine Bella would want that." Esme warned.

I thought about it, "I don't know. But these kids. . . the word of Bella's kid will get out to the Quileute wolves. I need to see their reaction before I start telling everyone that mine and Davina's kids are still alive, alright?"

Esme hesitated and then nodded, "I need to go back to Marcel. Do you think. . . "

"I can handle my wife, sister." I smirked slightly.

Esme laughed quietly and then she was gone, back to the house.

As I got closer to the house, I noticed the werewolf stink around it but tried not to think to much of it. She was allowed on their lands, I was sure she allowed one or two to come here- though I wished it wasn't our house so much as it would probably take a while to get the horrid smell out.

Seth was the one who stepped out the door, smiling when he saw me. "Hey Dr. Cullen! Mom's inside. She was a little upset, Jacob said something. . . rude to her. But I think she's better now and I'm sure she wants to see you."

"Thank you Seth." I said with an easy smile. This young werewolf was far more likable than the others and really, the smell wasn't that bad.

Seth ran a few paces before becoming a wolf and leaping away. I darted through the door and found Davina in the room with the kids.

"Does Seth know. . ."

Davina shook her head, "No."

I relaxed a little. "So. . . he said Jacob was rude to you?"

A flicker of pain crossed her angelic face and it made Lord want to rise up and go beat the crap out of Jacob. Or just end his life.

"He said everyone dies around me and I'm bringing Bella down with me." She whispered. "He's right."

I enveloped her in a hug. "He's not right."

"Really?" Davina laughed but it wasn't the laugh I had loved the first time I'd heard it. It was bitter. "Name one person in my life who isn't dead. My parents. The Soldiers. Joshua. Bree. Marcel. . ."

"Sam." I whispered, "Seth."

"But their werewolves, it doesn't count." Davina murmured.

I sighed. "I know."

Davina swallowed, turning to me, kissing softly along my jawline. "I love you so much Carlisle."

My dead heart always managed to do flips whenever she said that.

"I love you too my beloved." I murmured softly, running my fingers along her jaw. Her lips flickered into a smile, setting lovely Caroline down into her crib.

"The bed hasn't been used in. . . thirteen and a half hours." She murmured, kissing down my neck to the collarbone. "I think it needs warming."

"Agreed." I purred, scooping her up into my arms and disappearing in the other room.

~One week Later~ Davina P.O.V.

I stood, leaning against a tree, making sure that I was in Billy's sights. I had my eyes closed, wondering what the packs reaction was going to be. There were so many different ways they would react.

Of course, I wasn't entirely sure what kind of sickness she had. Carlisle had said he would get back to me in a few days. He seemed a little out of it, not knowing what it was. He said he had his suspicions that she might not actually be sick, but until he knew, he wasn't coming to our house or letting me go between the houses, lest he be wrong and it was contagious. He didn't want our children to be infected.

I knew Jacob would be in a state if Sam decided not to attack the pack. I had heard the howls rip through the forest. Billy knew this too, which was why he was waiting out here for Jacob.

I melted away for a second when Jacob appeared out of the trees.

"Got a minute, Jake?" Billy asked while Jacob sniffed the air.

Jacob was going to walk straight past Billy before Billy continued and said, "C'mon kid. At least help me inside."

"Since when do you need help, old man?" Jacob asked.

"My arms are tired. I pushed myself all the way here from Sue's."

"It's downhill. You coasted the whole way." Jacob corrected.

"Caught me." Billy said as Jacob rolled the chair up into the living room. I came out of the shadows as Billy continued, "Think I got up to about thirty miles per hour. It was great."

I chuckled quietly while Jacob said, "You're gonna wreck that chair, you know. And then you'll be dragging yourself around by your elbows."

"Not a chance. It'll be your job to carry me."

"You won't be going many places."

"Any food left?"

"You got me. Paul was here all day, though, so probably not."

"Have to start hiding the groceries if we're gonna avoid starvation."

"I can cook for you." I offered quietly, leaning against the doorway of the house. "I don't mind."

Billy smiled at me but Jacob's eyes were full of hate, "What are you doing here?"

I sighed and said quietly, "I knew you'd be upset so I came to see what I could do to help."

Jacob snorted, "Help? You can't help! You're letting her become a monster like you!"

"Jacob!" Billy snapped.

I held out a peaceful hand to Billy. "Jacob, I-"

Jacob towered over me but I stood my ground. I sighed, "Look-"

And the next thing I knew, I was flying out of the house. I spun in the air, landing on my feet. It hadn't hurt, but it had shocked me. I guess Carlisle and I were about to find out if my skin was indestructible or not.

"I was going to attack the Cullens." Jacob growled, "But I guess I could just start with you."

I shook my head, pleading, "Jacob you don't have to do this."

Because I wasn't going to protect myself. I just wasn't. I couldn't hurt Jacob, even with him wanting to kill me. He was in pain. He was in love. I remembered wanting to wrap my hands around Azim's throat during the trial and choke the life out of him.

Jacob became the large red wolf that I remembered and I felt my skin start to tingle with nerves. I remembered this as my enemy, but I would not defend myself.

"Jacob, please." I begged as Billy rolled himself out of house, calling Jacob's name. "Bella-"

Jacob leaped in the air and I darted to the side as he crashed in the sand. He growled at me, snapping his large teeth.

I was growing angry and I was trying to push it down. "BELLA ISN'T BECOMING A VAMPIRE!"

Jacob hesitated. I took this as a chance to say, "She truly is sick Jacob. I don't know the details. I'm. . . not a normal vampire so Carlisle won't let me near her until he finds out if she's contagious or not. He isn't sure if I can get sick or not since I have so many other human characteristics."

Jacob was human in a minute. "Where is she?"

"At the main house." I murmured.

Jacob was gone, taking his motorcycle, riding away.

I sighed, looking at Billy, "I'm sorry."

Billy shook his head, "I'm sorry."

I ran a hand through my hair. "I should go back to my house."

"You really don't know what Bella is sick with?" Billy asked hesitantly.

I shook my head, "No. I haven't seen any of the others- not even Carlisle- in the past week."

Billy nodded.

I nodded and then was gone. I really needed to go hunting.

Sam P.O.V.

I sighed in relief when Davina had said that. I was furious with Jacob for trying to kill her and they could all feel it. No one touched Davina.

~A Few Hours Later~

We had stayed in wolf form, spread out as we waited for Jacob to come back. And when he did, there was nothing that we were expecting.

Bella Swan was pregnant with a vampires' child.

We could hear the gist of everything. The blond vampires' protection of the child, Carlisle's reluctance to let it live, Marcel and the younger newer vampire girls' aversion to the child. Alice's hatred for it. The big vampire backing Rosalie up- though slightly reluctantly- and the one who could control emotions backing Alice. The other girl, the one who was mated to Marcel was also protective of the child.

Davina was no where to be seen.

The thing was killing Bella from the inside out.

No one knew what it was.

The thoughts started to flow from the other wolves.

How can this be? What does it mean? What will it be? Not safe. Not right. Dangerous. Unnatural. Monstrous. An abomination. We can't allow it.

Everyone was pacing around the clearing that we had settled in and I watched all of them, not thinking myself.

The treaty does not cover this. Paul thought.

This puts everyone in danger, Jared thought, but at the same time, he was trying to push Davina's face away from him.

The thoughts grew louder, urging more towards war with the Cullen clan until Jacob finally said, Wait.

There was a pause for a beat and I thought, There's little time.

But- what are you thinking? You wouldn't attack them for breaking the treaty this afternoon. Now you're planning an ambush, when the treaty is still intact?

This is not something our treaty anticipated. This is a danger to every human in the area. We don't know what kind of creature the Cullens have bred, but we know that it is strong and fast-growing. And it will be too young to follow any treaty. Remember the newborn vampires we fought? Wild, violent, beyond the reach of reason or restraint. Imagine one like that, but protected by the Cullens.

We don't know-

We don't know. And we can't take chances with the unknown in this case. We can only allow the Cullens to exist while we're absolutely sure that they can be trusted not to cause harm. This. . . thing cannot be trusted.

They don't like it anymore than we do.

What about mom? Seth asked.

That put everyone on hold and so Seth continued, showing us the memory of when he had followed her after Jacob had snapped at her. She was sitting outside of a small cabin in the woods, obviously hers and Carlisle's.

'It's not like he isn't right.' She whispered to Seth. 'And I worry sometimes about what Bella's turning will do to Jacob. I think he'll attack Seth. And maybe the pack will follow and maybe they won't. But I can't handle loss anymore Seth. I lose Carlisle or Jasper or any of my other vampire family. . . I might as well just get on my knees and beg Sam to kill me too. I can't live without Carlisle Seth. That's like Sam trying to live without Emily or Jared with Kim. I can't do it. I'll just let them kill me too.'

We can't. Seth whimpered. We can't attack.

Leah was pacing now, thinking about conversations with her and Davina. I swallowed hard, looking at my packs' memories of my sister. Her dancing with Carlisle at the wedding- smiling. Cooking in Emily's kitchen. Teasing Paul. Helping Quil with Claire. Helping Jared plan a date with Kim.

Seth's hurt the most though, bringing up how he remembered her before. In Kentucky. Her brave face she put on, brushing aside hateful notes.

She won't be there. I finally thought. She told Jacob specifically that she's staying in that cabin instead of the main house. She won't even know until it's over.

Yes, let's hurt her like that. Leah snarled. That will definitely go down well when she comes back the next day, kneels in front of you, and asks for you to bite her head off.

Or she'll got to those Italian Vampires. Jacob fretted. The way Edward did when he thought Bella was dead.

We're forgetting about the thing in Bella's stomach. Brady growled fiercely. We can't take the chances!

Then tell them to leave Seth thought.

And inflict the menace on others? When blood drinkers cross our land, we destroy them, no matter where they plan to hunt. We protect everyone we can. I said.

Except Mom Leah argued.

But she's also normal, Embry argued, And she's mine and Sam's sister.

This is crazy. This afternoon you were afraid to put the pack in danger. Jacob said.

This afternoon I didn't know our families were at risk.

I can't believe this! How're you going to kill this creature without killing Bella?

There was silene and Jacob knew the answer. He threw his head back and howled in agony. She's human too! Doesn't our protection apply to her?

She's dying anyways. We'll just shorten the process. Leah replied.

Jacob lunged for Leah. I leaped after Jacob, dragging him back and he howled in pain.

Stop! I ordered and he did. I turned to Leah. You will not be cruel to him, Leah, Bella's sacrifice is a heavy price, and we will all recognize that. It is against everything we stand for to take a human life. Making an exception to that code is a bleak thing. We will all mourn what we do tonight.

I felt the shock go through all of them but Seth was the one who voiced it, Tonight? Sam- I think we should talk about this some more. Consult with the Elders, at least. You can't seriously mean for us to-

We can't afford your tolerance for the Cullens now. There is no time for debate. You will do as you are told, Seth.

Seth's front knees folded as he bowed to me and I felt sick. I prayed that Davina would truly be away. Even if she came to me in the morning, as long as she wasn't there tonight. Tomorrow I could figure out a way to help her.

Seth snorted, but said nothing. But I could hear his thoughts anyways, thinking about what Jacob said about her going to the Italian vampires and how she wanted to die if Carlisle died.

We need the whole pack for this. Jacob, you are our strongest fighter. You will fight with us tonight. I understand that this is hard for you, so you will concentrate on their fighters- Emmett, Jasper, and Marcel Cullen. You don't have to be involved with the. . . other part. Quil and Embry will fight with you. Paul, Jared, and I will take on Edward and Rosalie. I think from the information Jacob has brought us, they will be the ones guarding Bella. Carlisle and Alice will also be close, possibly Esme. Brady, Collin, Seth, and Leah will concentrate on them. Also Bree if she is there as well. Whoever has a clear line on- I couldn't say Bella's name- the creature will take it. Destroying the creature is our first priority.

And if Mom is there? There was so much hostility in Leah's voice and I wished- no stop.

I'll do it. I said heavily.

Yeah don't worry. Leah spat venom and she spat good. She'll let you so it'll be an easy job.

Davina had been the only good part about Leah's transformation. Having a girl there who could understand her. I turned away as the pack made nervous agreement on the entire thing.

I could feel Seth's hurt, betraying his friend- Edward. And I could hear Jacob going over each and every vampire, landing on Carlisle last. That one hurt almost as much as thinking about Davina dead. Because Carlisle was her mate. Maybe even with the rest of the family dead, she might live if she had Carlisle. And that he was human, a doctor, saved lives. Jacob was thinking about how Carlisle might be better than humans and his life was just as worth saving. That Carlisle was just like Davina- wouldn't fight back, even to save his own life, because he wouldn't want us- Davina's other family- to die.

It all hurt.

Pull it together, Jacob. The tribe comes first. I ordered.

I was wrong today, Sam. Jacob was begging.

Your reasons were wrong then. But now we have a duty to fulfill.

No.

I snarled. Yes. There are no loopholes tonight. You, Jacob, are going to fight the Cullens with us. You, with Quil and Embry, will take care of Jasper and Emmett. You are obliged to protect the tribe. That is why you exist. You will perform this obligation.

I had meant it when I said it.