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The Year In Recap 2017

I have not done a recap for anything since 2011. This is mostly because of the deep, deep hole me and my Mental Health Issues ended up in and also my inability to get/keep/hold a job due to same. Since 2014 there have been some improvements but also more than a few steps backward.

2017 did not have a very auspicious beginning, and frankly, most of it   sucked. On the other hand there were a number of things that I was   actually able to start/put in motion/re do. At the end of 2016 I managed  to be very prolific as far as fan fic writing was concerned, though   less so in original fic writing or meta posts. ( 2016 also saw a few   Major Kerfuffles where my meds kept me from the anxiety/depression   spiral of doom that carried over into 2017 in the form of the Horrible   Fic Which Is Horrible, and some snarky meta/explanations for the   increased security on certain fan fics, and my general feels for the   entire VLD fandom, and the Spokesperson, who is their   representative/avatar. Yes VLD fandom,  you are all that single solitary person who decided to harass me,  refused all attempts to communicate reasonably, ignored a sincere  request/offer that they beta my critiques, and got their friends to join  in attacking me, then acted indignant that there were other people who  didn't agree with them and pulled stupid middle school powerplays on  me.Maybe they actually were middleschoolers. I'm told the entire vld  fandom is middle schoolers  by the Spokesperson.) This  year I decided to try volunteering at a animal shelter. Unfortunately, I  was not able to continue volunteering due to a combination of "way too  many mistakes" on my part and what I think were personality conflicts,  followed by what may or may not have been sabotage. (I got clobbered by a  cat, which got me marked up. Then I interrupted a pet adoption because I  was cleaning the other adoption/exercise areas--I was trying to be  polite but apparently not? Then an otherwise sweet pitbull made a break  for it, though I got control pretty quickly, then one of the staff  members refused to hold the door so I could get the darn martingale  collar around the neck of the dog I was going to walk, then someone let a   bunch of dogs out of their kennel and I was  blamed for it and the next day I was given a second strike notice and  told that I had definitely let the dogs out. Then one of the staffers  let me go into the cat room when I really, really shouldn't have and I  got chased out. Then later, when the problem cat was back in it's kennel  I went in to play with the cats and someone put the "do not enter sign"  back up...while I was in the room. So it would look like I was  disobeying clearly written instructions. This was apparently by  "accident." After this I decided that I could not trust the staff, or my  own ability to risk-assess and stopped volunteering. This stuff only  happened at the main center. If I was at the center in the mall, I had no problems, aside from the time a chihuahua slipped their darn collar and I had to fix the darn collar.) This  is why I take meds people. I make really dumb mistakes then have   anxiety/depression spirals that increase the likelihood of really dumb   mistakes which lead to anxiety/depression spirals ad infinitude. Even taking the meds doesn't mean I won't have them, just make it easier to crawl back out of them. This year I am making a second attempt at getting SSI due to my continuing inability to actually land and keep a job. (I was hired seasonally at a department store, but after that, no bites.) The first time did not go so well, but the second time I have more documentation and a lawyer. Due  to the continuing job hunt being a major stressor because I was putting  more energy into the job hunt than I was getting out of it, I stopped  working with vocational rehab/my job counselor. I decided  to start a Patreon and also started a Ko-Fi for my writing. I also   started on an original fic project that is being posted on Patreon and   also on catchingshadows  I have other original fic projects planned, but not written yet because reasons. I have been diagnosed with osteoarthritis in my knees, and had physical therapy for a few months. I have  been very bad about continuing the exercises because getting started on  doing anything or continuing anything is Very Hard for me. I  still don't know why I have chronic headaches. There is apparently  nothing wrong with my brain. I have been told by an eye doctor that  there is some eye damage that is indicative of me probably having been a  preemie. (I think I wasn't though?) Also I can look forward to my eyes getting worse, which yes, I know.  I have new eyeglass prescriptions I don't have the money for. (Yes,  even if I did one of the online sites. I don't get a lot of money and  most of it goes toward rent.) The last few months have been  horrible because of End Of The Year Baloney. Such as renewing my   subsidized housing, getting overdrawn, being in danger of being over   drawn, renewing my school loan payment program, renewing Medicaid and   renewing my lease. I should note that I have ALWAYS had money problems   toward the end or beginning of the year, and I am not entirely sure why.  (It is totally because I can't budget for shit.) Also I have been sick for the past couple weeks. I was not able to do very much writing due to End Of The Year Baloney and depression. What writing I did get done was fan fic. For fanfic, I am pretty close to the end of two for mirth and Safety Dance. I do not know how close. I do not know how they will end. I still have trouble with endings, but I am mostly optimistic I will not fuck them up. (they flow from form to form) is still in progress. I am not sure I'm even toward the middle yet. And I'm fussing about the pacing. *pokes the fic* There is a new fic Eriond: be the Rogue of Hope which is a crossover between the Belgariad-Mallorean and Homestuck. There  is also a plot weasel wherein John is the Chosen One and the other   betas are his Companions to destroy the Evil Empress. Except for the  part where the Evil Empress has already been defeated? And Feferi is ... actually the Chosen One. Obviously? Why would a human be the Chosen One?  Also you're six months late? And you burned down a bunch of Alternian towns?