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craptainkirk · 1 month ago

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I think For a long time the reason i was hiding behind a really big ego around art is because of how weak and helpless and bad at art and not good enough I feel around it. That's why i avoid it. I feel like a sad little child and if I'm humbled by something I feel that crushing feeling. I feel like a weeping little beast

#People reblogging that kirk drawing and you know. Loving it and saying wonderful kind things and being like #How did you do that #And thats exactly how i feel about everything else #Like when i look at other peoples art #I have always felt like I can't actually draw. And anything that comes out good is an accident #But logically it can't be true #If i feel confident about my art it's all ego. And if I try to viscerally #Prove to myself using logic it's not true it feels like theres smoke coming out of my ears because the cogs are trying to turn #But they cant because theyre stuck because theyre in there and theyre grinding so hard but wont move #I feel like the steel is heavier than feathers guy!!! im like. Wh.. hj . . Wha..t. ? But steel is heavier than feathers. .. ?

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