#People just be making the same posts 'omg dr who is so crazy who knew they have an evil brother who works in the government'

[stillthesunkenstars]

talked to my conniving counsel and decided to not delete this blog for the time being but just stave off posting any further fanarts before I'm comfortable enough.

since the main thing that makes me want to delete is that looking into the tag triggers my ptsd that nobody gives a shit about my art, and the main thing against deletion is that I want to keep this so future ppl interested in bs can find my blog and at least not starve with the lack of fanarts, and that I need an account to talk to ppl about the bs books that i like

[louloulover]

‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾ℌ𝔬𝔤𝔴𝔞𝔯𝔱𝔰 𝔇ℜ★

I have changed some things for my own enjoyment, the history is made up. I haven't changed the original story of harry potter. I simply added my own things. ⋆｡ﾟ☁︎｡⋆｡ ﾟ☾ ﾟ｡⋆

｡･:*:･ﾟ★〘ℌ𝔦𝔰𝔱𝔬𝔯𝔶 𝔬𝔣 𝔰𝔢𝔩𝔣〙

☘Family Magic - Rune's father has been on the earth for more than a thousand years, back in history Vikings were users of a ancient magic. The real magic of the world, They danced, sang and used magic one with themselves. The magic could only be passed on through blood. But as the Vikings fought and the people slowly decreased in the world. So did their true blood. Leaving Rune's father to be the last true blood user. The magic can be passed on, but memories will be passed on. Memories come from ancestors. The magic used in todays world isn't the same, nothing as powerful.

☘Parents - His father was one of the Heads of the people, he went into hiding once they were all gone. Rune's mother is a Russian hairdresser. They were brought back to Scandinavia so Rune could be with his people and learn magic from his father. But once his father gave Rune all of his power he was gone. Rune and his mother moved back to Russia. His mother is knowing for being the best hairdresser for muggles and wizards. His mother possesses regular magic.

☘Runes magic - Although Rune isn't full blood his father transferred all his magic and being. So Rune is the strongest being, who can shape nature and anything he chooses. He doesn't use a wand, he can but he doesn't have to. He uses his body.

»»───※ ·ℜ𝔲𝔫𝔢·ℌ𝔢/ℌ𝔦𝔪· ※───►

Rune has knowledge of all his ancestors, the magical runes that cover his every inch of his body shows how powerful he is. ₊˚⊹☾

★Important - He can take away his tattoos simply, but the rune his father put on his back stays. It shows the magic has been passed down.

★Features - Rune possess dark black hair, green like the earth eyes. Eyebrows like his father, big bushy and angled down. When he smiles it is a smirk, sharp canines show from his mouth. A piercing on his left ear, a hoop stays there.

★Body - 6'2''. He is fit, and very tall. Not as tall as the twins. He gives off confidence and pride. (Harry Potter Tyler Durden lmaoo)

★Animal - Rune owns a Crow, connected with his ancestors it is his messenger 'owl'. He also owns a dog at school, (my dog from here) instead of other pets.

★Outfits - He wears colors, often crazy color schemes but somehow works? he walks in a robe or just underwear in his shared room. You will never catch him only wearing black.

its hard to find images of crazy guy outfits, so imagine them with weird color combos ⋆⭒˚｡⋆

➶ ｡˚ °》𝑾𝒉𝒚 𝒂𝒎 𝑰 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆? 𝑾𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒂𝒎 𝑰 𝒅𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒈?《✧ ˚ 　· 　　

＞Honestly, i just want to have fun. That's why I gave myself such power. I don't want to deal with classes or sticking to a schedule. I want to go here for fun with friends, flying and of course the creatures. I want to see them all, fly with them, feel them.

✦ » 𝑾𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝑹𝒖𝒏𝒆? « ✦

＞He was asked by Dumbledore (6th movie) to come protect his school, he knew something was going to come up this year. He has been trying to find Rune but it toke him years, and having to talk to the Merlin to even get to me.

(yes Merlin's going to be the Merlin from the show Merlin.)⋆.ೃ࿔*:･

＞He agreed if he has freedom to do what he pleases, so really he is just to hang around the school. Allowed to enter wherever and whenever. You may see him on top of the highest part of Hogwarts watching the stars, napping on furniture in the halls, playing with his dog in the fields, and throwing items at quidditch players while they practice. || He is still keeping the school protected as he does so ||

Oh and of course hanging out with his brother Casimir..

˚୨୧⋆｡This post toke so long omg, I would love to hear of other people's dr's or even link your scripts in the comments if you want! C:

I'm going to make a post of the other characters in Hogwarts, as I've added some characters. The link will be posted below this once its made!

[spectralsleuth]

Saw you were lookin’ for some asks dont mind if I do 👀

To start off, I’m such a big fan of your writing! I genuinely look forward to every single update of yours and find myself rereading a lot of work in the downtime. You are such a good writer!! My never ending praises aside, here are some asks!

-You incorporate OC’s into your fics so seamlessly! They feel so natural in your fics that I legit get excited anytime they show up (srsly can’t wait for Lou Jitsu vs Hidden City, Sal’s my boy) lol how do you find the right balance when introducing and maintaining OC’s in your fics? I feel like that’s a particularly difficult balance beam to tread but you absolutely crush it.

-A previous ask you answered about Cass and Raph in LSoW got me thinking; how do the brothers handle humans crushing on them? Would they be receptive or dismissive? Do they develop crushes on humans- and if so, how is that perceived (by family or the general public)? The drama 👀

Last ask, I promise:

-I absolutely loved your crossover with Empathy is Learned! Got anymore crossovers planned in the future? Oooor if you could do a crossover with any other fic, which one(s) would it/they be??

Thanks for taking the time to even look at this! I hope these are some fun asks for ya :) I hope you have a lovely day!!

Omg thanks so much... I'm so happy people enjoy my writing it's crazy to me. I've written before, but it's always been just for myself so I never really know if it was good or not. (Years of text based DnD is to thank lol.) (Okay I got carried away answering this so sorry in advance.)

On OC's:

I got a lot of comments on LSoW from people who say "generally I don't like OC's BUT-" which is so funny and flattering. Because I am absolutely one of those people who don't care for OC's in fic.

Let me be clear: I LOVE that people write self indulgent self-insert of OC based fic, where they make the craziest off the wall story etc. Every time a fifteen year old writes a story about the cringiest Mary-sue/stu self insert, or non canon character, an angel gets its wings and I mean that one hundred percent. It makes me so happy I literally grin when I see it. I HOWEVER generally filter out the OC tags on AO3 when I'm looking for something to read myself.

So when I started posting LSoW I was expecting to get maybe like, 100 kudos MAX, maybe one comment or so. Which is great! I love writing niche fic just for me, and one other person who I assume I must be drift compatible with. I just could not figure out a way to write the story I wanted without a few OC's- Rise didn't have a big enough character catalog for me to draw from!

When I went to write the OC's, I knew that they had to have a very simple backstory, that was also very fleshed out. (Xander and Sal have full family, Dr. Heo and Carter have full jobs and history together, etc.) For another contradiction I wanted them to be interesting enough that someone reading wouldn't just be skipping ahead to when they weren't present, or just simply plowing through to get past the part where they were doing exposition. They had to be enjoyable! While also forwarding the story!

They also had to be distinct. Anyone who's ever watched a Whedon show or movie (Buffy, Firefly, Avengers-) knows what I'm talking about. It drives me nuts when the characters in a show are constantly the funniest person in the room, with the same personality traits, and the same girl boss/badass tendencies.

(Fandom challenge Impossible: Give a female fan favorite character another trait besides 'girlboss/mom/lesbian'. I'm dead serious.)

(Also a disclaimer: I LOVE making jokes and doing bits. I FANCY that I'm pretty funny, and I love making people laugh. But you can do that without making it a character personality trait. For example: Xander doesn't really crack any jokes in LSoW! He's just funny because we the reader know more about the situation and his thoughts than he does.)

But the BIGGEST THING I kept telling myself while writing the story, was DO NOT TAKE AWAY FROM THE TURTLES. Because the whole point of the story is the turtles! And Yoshi! The OC's are there to facilitate that. It's a hard balance to hit. I have all sorts of touchstones I keep in mind while I'm writing, and that's a big one.

(A SUPER good example of this done super well is @faiakishi 's Bella from Dawning of the Hour. She's a great OC that's super interesting, and a super important narrative element, but she never detracts from the main story. Big Bella fan here lmao. There's also the rest of the OC's/interpretations of franchise characters (TIGERCLAW), but Bella stands out as truly original.)

On the Turtles dating Humans:

(CW: CSA mention, SA mention, non graphic talk of minors dating etc.)

I actually talked a lot about this to @/tangledinink in feverish discord chats lmao.

When the boys were growing up they got a very detailed talk from both Yoshi, and their Doctors. ONE: Because nobody will know better than themselves if something was medically wrong with their bodies, TWO: The boys are all intersex (minus Mikey) and they had to understand that there was nothing wrong with them on TOP of the turtle thing, and THREE: Because Yoshi knew the boys would be getting a lot of attention, and you never know what kind of attention that form will take.

THE BEST WAY to protect children (any child) from being sexually assaulted or abused, is making sure they know what that abuse LOOKS LIKE. You don't have to make them terrified of being sexually assaulted, but them knowing how their body works, and also how to say NO and set boundaries, will combine to help make them safer.

Yoshi didn't know what would happen in the future and in a perfect world the boys would never leave his line of sight, but that's not always how things happen. (In a Short Season, Xander parroted Yoshi's instructions before going out to make sure the boys knew what to do if someone grabbed them (in any way) and it was to bite and be loud.) So the boys grew up knowing their bodies, knowing how to say 'no', and knowing that there was probably going to be people out there who would treat them as a novelty, and who wouldn't be appropriate to them as celebrities OR non-humans.

(Remember Emma Watson having to deal with that countdown to her turning 18? Or any other amount of child stars who had to deal with adults being predatory to them.)

But ALSO THIS IS HAMATO YOSHI. His sons are HANDSOME and HEARTBREAKERS! Leo has dated a lot but never anything seriously, and his inability to be intimate with anyone but family kind of puts a damper on any more permanent relationship. (He is gay.) He's the number one turtle people ask out because he's the most approachable. Because he made himself that way!

Donnie is in a sort of relationship with Kendra. (THIS WILL BE A FIC I'm working up to it lmao.) I have a head canon that Yokai and other empyrean based creatures are capable of having rivalry based relationships. IE Yoshi and Draxum in the canon show, the unhealthy dynamic between Yoshi and Big Mama, etc. (Caliginous relationship) Donnie is in a puppy love version of that with Kendra, while also lacking the context of yokai society to understand why he wants to punch her very badly, but also if anything happened to her he would die. They hate each others guts and also she was his first kiss. She is not a nice person I am not a Kendra apologist she's terrible I love her. (Donnie is bi!)

I know a lot of people head canon Mikey as ace, but he is a thirteen year old child you don't have to be head canoning him as anything. it is the very rare 13 year old who knows their orientation, and even if they DO I bet you donuts to dollars it will change eventually. This is normal and healthy. Mikey in LSoW has had puppy crushes on boys, girls, teachers, Violet, the mailman, Adam, and Rupert Swaggert. (Eugh eugh eugh.)

Raph is absolutely irresistible to the entire student body and is completely unaware of it. He's not stupid but he's face blind and bad at picking up subtext in conversations. He's gone to multiple people's houses and spent the whole day with them, without realizing they were trying to make it a date. (Raph is bi.)

All the boys have considered identifying as girls since their Dad is the martial arts equivalent of David Bowie and Fine With That, but have settled (for now) on being boys (age 10 the last time they considered this) because quote 'Lou Jitsu and Jupiter Jim are boys and they're awesome' unquote.

They don't get any fucking privacy for their relationships, and Leo in particular had a very bad experience that closed him off from dating big time. (Stamps 'THIS WILL BE A FIC' on this as well.) But also, as of the LSoW canon they are like, 12-14 and not doing a lot of dating ANYWAY. They are BABIES.

(Enter Casey Jones)

ON CROSSOVERS:

I have one crossover with my white whale of authors (you know who you are) I have pecked at with them that I think everyone will go fucking nuts for and love, but I won't mention it in case we can't get it off the ground! (A completely okay and normal thing to happen lmao.) I think that one will end up happening though because I am too excited about it, even if it's not any time soon.

I am super open to crossovers and cowriting, especially since writing with Li because I learned SO MUCH it was like speed running improvement.

The thing is it has to fit! There's some crossovers that wouldn't have a lot of substance because there's not really a lot to cover. When it came to EiL for example, there was PLENTY to cover and do, it was so fun! But other fics might not have a lot we could do for each other. (At least, not until I get some more world building done.)

That being said I do love talking crossovers with other creators it's so fun...

If you guys ever want to use my OC's feel free, just ask me in advance! I don't mind pings.

THESE ASKS ARE FUN THANKS FOR SENDING THEM I feel like you just threw a steak into my zoo exhibit. I am recharged and rejuvenated my crops are watered my skin is clear. This felt very pretentious to write I am mortified.

[icantthinkofanythingcool3]

Hii I saw ur post about short blurbs and was wondering if you could do 5 or 13 🤍🤍

Well this did not end up being short 🤦‍♀️ but here ya go! Hope you enjoy!💜

It had been 2 years since y/n had moved away from Beacon Hills and half of her friends. Kira and y/n had ended up at the same college and in the same dorm. Lydia and Stiles both ended up about a half hour from them in different directions. The group was still close, but things were definitely different for all of them. Kira and Scott had grown apart and Scott and Malia had grown closer. Lydia and y/n had grown closer than before, they were always going back and forth on the weekends visiting with each other. Although y/n and Stiles were really close before, things had simmered down right before they left for school two years ago.

All their friends had sworn that the two were going to be together, even with college coming up. They were going to school close enough where they could totally still pursue a relationship. Somewhere though, Stiles and y/n had ‘grown apart’. At least that’s what their friends thought. In reality, neither of them really knew what had happened. It was like one moment they were falling for each other and the next it was just gone. Y/n and Stiles had both tried on different occasions to talk to each other, but something always got in the way.

Y/n walked into her apartment, that Kira was decorating...for Valentine's Day. “UGHHHHHH. Kira I thought we decided not to make a big deal out of this stupid holiday.”

“No...you decided that. Just because you’re still stuck on Stiles, doesn’t mean everyone else can’t be happy about love.” Kira announced.

“That’s not-no you’re. Ugh, whatever.” y/n replied, not having a come back, because what she had said was true.

y/n was still really hung up on Stiles, she was still so confused about what had happened to them back in Beacon Hills. There had been plenty of times since then that Lydia, Kira, y/n and Stiles had gotten together to hang out, even times when Scott and the others had come down to visit. However, their interactions were always strange and confusing. She hadn’t been able to date anyone else, and was honestly just making herself super unhappy.

“Before you make yourself too depressed, this was slipped under the door for you today.” Kira handed her a note, folded up with a huge heart on one side and y/n on the other.

“What...what is this?”

“I don’t know silly, clearly I haven’t opened it...since it’s for you…”

Y/n’s eyes rolled as the note was opened. It was typed and it read:

"When love is not madness it is not love." –Pedro Calderon de la Barca.

I have felt nothing but madness from the moment I laid eyes on you.

As she read it to Kira, she let out a screech, “y/n!!!!! Omg you totally have a secret admirer! This is so EXCITING!”

However y/n was doubtful, she left Kira to go to her room. Who on Earth could have sent this to her? Was it a joke? Was it real? The next day, nothing appeared under the door and it disappointed y/n, even though they would never admit that, especially to Kira!

The next day however, when y/n got home from work Kira was waiting impatiently by the door with a note in her hands. It looked exactly like the other one. She basically threw it in my face and stood over my shoulder as she repeated ‘open it, open it, open it’ in my ear.

This one read:

“Love is like an hourglass, with the heart filling up as the brain empties.” – Jules Renard. This, I can assure you, is true. I make dumb mistakes every time I’m around you.

“I literally have no idea who could be doing this. I don’t talk to anyone, no one even notices me around here!” y/n exclaimed, confused.

“Well, you must be wrong, because someone is DEFINITELY noticing you!!!!”

“No, this is just wrong. This has got to be a joke or something. I’m telling you. Throw away any other ones, I’m serious.” With that, y/n walked into her room and slammed the door, she was done with this.

The next day was normal, but y/n wasn’t hopeful that she wouldn’t get another letter, and the next day, the 5th of February, Kira was waiting again with another note.

“You are my heart, my life, my one and only thought.” – Conan Doyle. You are the only thing I can think about lately, you’re in my every thought.

y/n didn’t know what to think anymore. Was this person a freaking psycho stalker? How did they know where I lived? We’re they stalking me?

“Kira, I know that you’re sitting here thinking this is some romantic love story...but what if this is some crazy stalker that now knows where we live? Like what if they break in and kill us in the middle of the night?”

“y/n I think you’re being a little dramatic. I feel like this is someone that has to know you in some way. This is some intense shit.”

“We’re gonna die...watch.” y/n finished, over the anxiety this was causing her.

Two days later, y/n didn’t have class. She was going back and forth from the front door, to her room. She was stuck between being excited and worried. Half of her believed that this was some kind of cruel joke, the other half thought maybe someone actually did like her. By 4 o’clock, she thought maybe that it was over, but as she made her way out of there room, there was a note by the door.

"Every heart sings a song, incomplete, until another heart whispers back." - Plato. This one may be corny, but it’s true, I feel this with you.

This definitely sounded like someone that knew her. But how could she be so oblivious? How could there be someone this into her and she had no idea. That’s why she still believed that this could be a joke. Like clockwork, two days later she got another note.

“You know you’re in love when you can’t fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.” – Dr. Seuss. I swear since I started these notes, I haven’t been able to sleep at all. I know this is probably starting to creep you out, I promise that you know me and I know you. I’m not a random person.

“I’m sure that this is supposed to make me feel better Kira, but I feel worse. How do I not know this person likes me, if they like me this much?”

“Well, I’ve been thinking from the beginning of this, do you think it could be Stiles?”

“WHAT?” y/n asked incredulously, “Come on, there’s no way. First of all, that would mean he would have to drive a half hour here and back every other day to slip these under the door? There’s no way, that would be crazy.”

“I mean, you guys definitely had something and then suddenly you guys just stopped. You’re still awkward around each other, maybe this is the only way he can get you back?”

“No. Seriously. Stop that’s, that’s. No, that's crazy.” But later that night, what Kira said had gotten the best of y/n. She did something she hadn’t done in a while, she called Stiles.

As soon as he answered, y/n regretted it, “y/n? Are you okay? Did something happen?”

“No, no nothing’s wrong. Sorry, I’m not even sure why I called…...I’m sorry.”

“You don’t have to apologize for calling, you know.”

“Yeah, sorry- shit I mean okay. I-I gotta go talk to you later.” And she hung up, she felt so stupid why would she call him? Kira and these damn notes have gotten her head all twisted up. She should know better than to think Stiles could have done this, she was getting her hopes up just thinking about it.

Two days later, y/n could hardly think at work. Her mind was all in a swirl and she kept making mistakes and dropping shit, by the end of her shift she was exhausted. As she had expected, when she got home, Kira was sitting on the couch, holding a new note.

“Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere. They’re in each other all along.” – Rumi. I haven’t known you forever, but when I met you it was like I had known you my whole life.

“There’s only three days left until Valentine's Day. What’s going to happen? Is this all leading up to something? Or are the notes just going to stop?”

“I guess that’s the fun part!” But when y/n looked at her pointedly she continued, “I know this is freaking you out and giving you anxiety, but this could be a good thing. Whoever it is, really cares about you. And I’m not getting creepy vibes from any of this, if someone was going to break in and kill us, I think they already would have.”

y/n knew that Kira was right, she shouldn’t be so freaked out about this. It didn’t seem like a creepy kind of thing, the notes were sweet and heartfelt, and they definitely, probably would have already been killed. So all y/n could do was wait.

As y/n made her way through the day before Valentine’s hazily, she could barely focus. She kept texting Kira, asking if she had found anything yet. Seeing as she was still in class, she had not. Y/n wanted nothing more than to leave her classes and go to the apartment, but she knew if the note wasn’t there yet, she would get even more impatient. So when Kira finally texted her that she got home and there was a note, y/n excused herself from her class and rushed home. Kira was waiting, almost as impatiently as y/n, with the note in her hand!

“Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.” – Lao Tzu. Meet me at Hilton tomorrow, 7PM, there’ll be a note left at the front desk.

“What? Kira, am I really supposed to just go to this random hotel and meet this random person?”

“I mean they said you know them, so they’re not that random!”

“I know a lot of people! It could be the cute barista that gets my coffee everyday! I technically know him, but would I go into a random hotel room with him? NO.”

“Okay, then I drive you there, and you keep me on the phone. If anything funky happens I’ll run up and save your ass. I think you should go. I see the look in your eyes when you read the notes, you’re excited. I haven’t seen you genuinely excited in a long time.”

Kira had saved my life multiple times, I trusted her, and it was a good plan. I was excited, she was right, I was stupid for thinking that I would get it past her. And I wasn’t exactly defenseless, I had learned to fight through many years of fighting off the supernatural. I decided it couldn't hurt, if anything it would end up a good story to tell one day.

The next day was torture waiting for 7pm. Especially since y/n had no class and only finding an outfit to distract her. y/n called Lydia in the morning, while Lydia had been pissed that she’d only just heard about this, she insisted on y/n video chatting her to pick an outfit. Together, they had decided on a blush pink dress, with a small flower design. There was a belt that tied right under the chest, that accentuated the top of y/n’s body and flowed down nicely to a little above the knee. They picked out black kitten heels, which according to Lydia, y/n should have already had. It was 4:30 when she got home, already ready to start her makeup to keep her distracted. Kira helped her do her hair nicely and put on minimal makeup, to highlight her best features. By 6, y/n was ready to get in the car, but the drive was only 15 minutes. Kira tried to distract her with finding things to fix, like an out of place hair, or too much highlight. At 6:30, she couldn’t distract her anymore and they got in the car. She drove slowly, constantly trying to hit red lights. Although, y/n had noticed, she pretended not, too.

Freaking out at 6:50, y/n got out of the car by the entrance. Looking at Kira who gave her a thumbs up, y/n walked in and to the front desk.

“Hi, um, I was told there was a note going to be left for me here?”

“Ahh, you must be y/n, yes?” The desk attendant said to me, smiling brightly.

“Yes, that is me!” I said, nervously.

“Here is the note, don’t be so nervous. I think you’ll like what is waiting for you!”

She looked at the note that looked the same as all the other ones. The note said:

Go to hotel room #33.

y/n double checked that Kira was still on the phone and went up the elevator to the correct floor. She walked up to the door, but was hesitant to knock. It took her a full minute and many deep breaths to finally knock. When the door opened, she gasped at what she saw.

“Stiles?” She asked incredulously.

“Hi, y/n. I was nervous you weren’t going to come.”

y/n looked down at her phone to see that Kira had already hung up, “I-I, the notes were you the whole time?”

“Yes, I’m sorry, I didn’t know how else to do it. I was freaking out about the whole thing. I know things got messed up before and honestly, I don’t even know why. I didn’t want to mess up again, and I just thought this was the best way to get you to see that I was sorry.”

Y/n took a minute to look around the room. There were two queen beds, both covered in rose petals. There was a small, pink and red bag on one of them. There were actually rose petals everywhere. There were small candles lit all over the room, lights turned down. There was a bottle of champagne on ice and room service on a trolley that contained y/f/flowers in a beautiful vase. It was beautiful honestly, and clearly took a lot of thought.

“y/n?” Stiles started, as she had not said anything after his confession.

“I’m sorry, it’s- I mean this is beautiful. It’s amazing honestly. I can’t believe you did all of this.”

“I’ve loved you for a long time y/n. And I don’t know how exactly we got all fucked up, but I was nervous and scared about what would come to us when school started. I’ve wanted to tell you everyday since that whatever was going on was stupid and that we should be together, but I never could get it out and I’m sorry.” Stiles was nervous, not sure y/n felt the same.

“I don’t know what happened either, if I’m being honest..I felt the same. Scared and nervous. I’ve literally made myself miserable everyday, knowing that I should have done something about what happened. I love you. I’m sorry too, that I didn’t do anything to fix whatever happened. I knew from the moment I met you, that we were meant to be more than just friends.”

Stiles couldn’t hold back after he heard y/n’s confession, his feelings had been overwhelming for so long. He walked closer to her, placed his hand on her face gently, and placed his lips on hers. At first, it was sweet and slow, but y/n moved her hands to the back of his head, pulling him closer. When they both ran out of breath, they pulled away smiling at each other.

“Can I ask you a question?” y/n spoke first.

“Of course, anything.” Stiles answered.

“Why are there two beds?” y/n wiggled her eyebrows.

Stiles face turned red and his hand went to rub his chin, “I well, I mean I didn’t want to-uh...I didn’t want to assume anything, I just, I didn’t want to mess anything else.”

“Well I don’t think we’ll be needing it.” y/n said and pulled Stiles back to her, placing her lips on his again.

[duckball]

The sound of K-pop is in the air as we enjoy the last few minutes before the season begins and we meet the Houseguests for the very first time.

Julie is rocking it in Red, and the front of the house has a purple and pink vibe, and the “windows” are different.

Beauty shots of the house, the 94 cameras and 113 microphones get their big moment. They say it’s a new Era of Big Risks, Rewards, and the biggest cash prize ever huh?

Okay the empty studio is a little bit creepy still.

We’ve got a group of men first, Travis, Xavier, Frenchie, and Derek F.

Travis says he’s up at 4 am, off work by 1:30 in the afternoon.

Derek F is going to build overall on my dad was a boxer bit.

Frenchie is off on the farm, he’s a superfan, says he’s a strategist, and has a notebook of what he would’ve done.

Xavier a college basketball player who had to get a real career. He’s going to try and avoid a showmance but will flirt.

Julie is giving them the same old song and dance about how one wrong move could end their game.

They all hang around for a moment, shake hands, they’re a pack. Meet the all guys alliance of BB23 guys. You’re thinking it, I’m thinking it.

Competition time right off the bat.

We also have some pre-show diary room/interview things spliced in. Those are…odd.

They’ve got posters and they have to rearrange the poster, so it matches the one behind them. The first one to buzz in wins the kickoff competition.

I legit just realized I’m spending my time, recapping, grown men putting together a puzzle on TV. It’s too early in the season to be questioning my life choices.

Frenchie wins. He’s eligible to play in the HoH later.

Azah, Britini, Alyssa, and Whitney.

Azah is a Pastor’s daughter, maybe a little boy crazy, and says no to showmances. So Azah and Xavier, right?

Britini, is our overachiever. She’s autistic and now I get her a bit more.

Alyssa is our swimsuit girl; she has a brand. She wears her emotions on her face, girl I feel you.

Whitney is a makeup artist, with two kids and is a single mom! Her oldest wants her to win so they can get a dog. She’s not looking for a showmance, but she’ll find one. I can tell you that.

Julie asks if they’re gamblers. None of them says yes.

The girls dressed up for this, while the guys before did not.

The girls are doing the BB Backdoor puzzle.

Whitney has won and will move on to the HOH competition later tonight.

Brent, Christian, Derek X, and Kyland.

Kyland works in sales, does lots of volunteer work.

Christian, lives with his parents, and something about him is giving me flashbacks of McCrae.

Derek X helps influences create meal kits and he’s a frat boy.

Brent, flight attendant, travels the world, he reminds me of someone…can anyone guess who?

Again, the guys are not as dressed up as the girls.

I will say I like the DR background this year.

This group of guys have the Get a Target on your back puzzle.

Lots of different techniques here.

Christian won, gets a chance to play for HoH.

Final four, Hannah, Claire, Tiffany, and Sarah Beth

Sarah Beth is that cosplay nerd girl.

Hannah is a grad student, dancer, and into fashion. She plans to tell them she’s a college student, she wants to be evil.

Claire is an AI engineer. She’s the coder and loves the strategy of BB. She wants an all-woman’s alliance, she’s bisexual and is down for the showmance for strategy.

Tiffany is a CEO of her own business where she goes to people’s homes and takes their blood. OMG she’s hitting a tire with a sledgehammer.

The girls have a quick group hug by the door.

Betray Showmance poster for this group.

Claire wins!

Julie reveals to us they’ll draft teams next.

Now it’s time for them to find out about teams of 4. The superfans are like cringing out loud.

Frenchie, Whitney, Christian, and Claire find out they’re a captain. A slot machine will give them two HG’s and then pick who they want.

Every team must have two men, and two women.

Frenchie is captain of the Jokers.

His options are between Hannah or Azah. He picks Azah.

Whitney is captain of the Aces.

Her options are Brent and Travis. She picks Brent.

Christian is Captain of the Kings.

His options are Alyssa or Tiffany. He picks Alyssa.

Claire is Captain of the Queens.

Her options are Kyland and Xavier. She picks Kyland.

Frenchie is up again and it’s between Sarah Beth and Britini. He picks Britni.

Whitney must pick between Derek X and Derek F. She picks Derek X. We all knew this choice was coming.

Christian gets Xavier (who is saving himself for Zing Bot) and Derek F. He picks Xavier.

Claire’s second turn, she gets Sarah Beth and Tiffany. She picks Tiffany.

Frenchie must pick between Travis and Derek F. He picks Derek F.

Whitney must pick between Hannah and Sarah Beth. She picks Hannah.

Sarah Beth goes to the Kings.

Travis goes to the Queens.

Jokers are Frenchie, Azah, Britni, and Derek F.

Aces are Whitney, Brent, Derek X, and Hannah.

Kings are Christian, Alyssa, Xavier, and Sarah Beth.

Queens are Claire, Kyland, Tiffany, and Travis.

Time for the HOH competition.

Anytime a member of your team becomes HoH the entire team is safe for the week.

“House of Cards”

A puzzle, balancing game with cards that fall from the “sky”.

Last place team will become have nots.

I hate the have not aspect of this game. Let’s just never bring it back ever again. Can we try that next year Grodner?

Frenchie is the first HoH, the Jokers won.

Queens are in second place.

Christian’s puzzle keeps tumbling over.

Aces are in third place, and now the Kings are Have Nots.

Julie is letting them know that this summer, they’ll be playing for $750,000. Can’t make it a million, can you?

Tonight, someone might get a prize.

Julie is making him a double or nothing offer. How does 2 weeks of safety sound?

All he must do to get a second week of safety if he gets both die on the table. He’ll be HoH and his team will be safe this week or next.

If they die don’t stay, he won’t be HoH, and his team is able to be up for eviction.

Frenchie has decided not to play, he’ll keep the HoH. Julie is going to try and get him to toss the die anyway.

Wild Card Competition on Sunday, Thursday is the first eviction.

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Med Rewatch Series (#5)

S3 e3: Trust Your Gut. From what I remember this is a big one. I just remember this episode title honestly but we’ll see what happens.

-look at that! ava’s just casually in this scene, minding her own business, doing her job! you would never guess that this is a character who would later have a psychotic break and commit suicide.

-that’s really the point i’m trying to make. I hate all those posts where they’re like ‘i hated ava before, but season 4 has finally shown her true colors’ like not even?? no??? we’re trying to prove that that was never even a thing. i want to eliminate the possibility of s4 happening from your minds. nothing from s3 should ever be used as foreshadowing. that’s what the rewrite is about, ava being a good character. ava was never going to commit suicide. she was never gonna go psychotic. that should be ingrained in everyone’s minds.

-anyways, back to the episode.

-connor takes everything like a personal attack. relax

- i never realized how fun stoll was. like obviously not in the story but as a character he’s hilarious. unattached by everyone else’s drama

-awww. this maggie interaction is amazing. tapping sarah on the shoulder (neck actually but whatever) just to say hi. adorable. and sarah is already super jumpy. come on. her anxiety is already setting in. they really gave sarah two huge storylines in the same season.

-maggie... no one else would ever slash sarah’s tires. i mean honestly

-WHY DOES CONNOR HAVE TO CONTROL OF EVERYTHING - honestly ava was just reading off the chart and he can’t even let her do that he has to take over just to say the same things.

-and the way ava just takes it with her smug smile

-she is such a strong character there is no reason she would have gone crazy over connor she literally needs nothing from him.he has not ever had anything that she needed. 

- SHE’S JUST ROLLING HER EYES, SMIRKING, AND SHAKING HER HEAD AT THIS INSECURE MAN ava I love you.

-okay there’s no way i can explain it but after rolling her eyes at connor Ava turns and looks at the patient and instantly her face changes and you can see such pure concern in her eyes?? s4 ava could never (can someone please rb with a picture of what i’m talking about? it’s uncanny and so so sincere.)

- she’s in control of her emotions. she cares so much for her patients so don’t even try to play that card. the only thing connor has done literally since she got here is get in her way.

-AND CONNOR LOOKS AT HER WITH SUCH DISTRUST AND CONTEMPT. TELL ME HOW. this is insane. exasperating.

-and the way she smiles and comforts the patient. i mean come on. she’s just so amazing. AND COMFORTING. if ava really was as heartless as people say, she wouldn’t take the effort to do that. connor didn’t even do that, he just scowls at ava.

-which just proves my point, ava is only ever mean to people who she thinks deserve it. and, the more that I think about it, she’s never really actually mean. sure, she’s blunt and rude, but never cutting. she’s nice to her patients (and I know what you’re going to say, it’s not because she has to be. she’s a doctor, she still wants to help people). but when her patients are dicks, she’s not nice to them. she’s as snarky with as she’s professionally allowed to be.

-like, take this guy. he seems nice enough. he’s funny, polite, comes across charming, so ava is nice and is polite back to him.

-let’s move on.

-why is connor always so suspicious of ava. come on. he’s the one who should be sus. she literally said ‘Don’t worry, Ray, we’ll take good care of you’ and he’s giving her this weird side eye.

-ethan and will being in this board meeting is really adorable to me. like, just, bros.

-oh godddd sarah please relax. sweetie. please.

-sarah fucking tranqed him oh my god

-oh my god noah asking people for help literally shut the fuck up

-straight people are gross. not to hate but how does anyone sit through manstead

-connor literally needs to chill. I know this bit (they’re arguing over menial things in surgery) plays more to them just picking on each other, pulling each other’s pigtails on the playground if you will (i didn’t like that analogy but I used it anyway), but if you look at it, ava was only trying to help connor (suggesting a wider possible target and an easier to handle stitch) and connor took it wayyy to personally. sure the second bit of advise is just poking at him, but she suggested a better spot on the base and he shut her down without any thought.

-and then latham points out that there is no point in arguing, to which ava defers, then connor snidely says ‘Thank you, Doctor, Now, how about from here on out we keep the background noise to a minimum’ and ava just shakes her head, scoffing.

-at this point ava just likes annoying connor because its fun. it’s entertaining. he gets so upset. everyone’s done that, just be annoying for fun (its bad to say but i mean come on everyones done it)

-another point, ava immediately deferring to latham might read to some as her being a suck up but that’s not what it is.

-ava really likes seeing how close to the line she can get. she goes right up to it, but she never crosses it. the same is true with her interactions with other people outside of surgery.

-I really like this story of the girl who passed out and hit her head, and her brother’s a wreck, and her parents obviously think the brother’s a disappointment. and it was finals week so of course she wasn’t taking care of herself. and the brother knew that, and you can tell he cares so much and feels so bad. it’s nice

-complication on the surgery they were working on. ava comes in with a solution (off of connor’s mistake during surgery after not following her advice) but I have a sneaking suspicion that by the end connor will be back on top

-the effort it took connor to say ‘it’s a good idea’ come on man just fucking let it go

-i’m glad we’ve all agreed that connor’s just a dick

-aw look at that she even held the door for him. connor would never

-i don’t want to overly push the ‘med is sexist’ thing but how is it that in a storyline between nat and ethan, characters who have never been romantically involved, they still pull the woman thinks one thing, man refuses to believe it and is right dynamic. i mean come on med seriously. what the fuck is wrong with you.

-the look of annoyance and disbelief on ava’s face that connor hadn’t actually messed up. comedic, but also i get your pain.

-glad that latham sides with ava, ava advocating for a riskier procedure so they could ensure the blockage is removed)

-(something could be said about ava’s high-risk, high-reward ideals. you could even draw the parallel to events in s4 and s5, even though I really don’t want to. it’s an interesting and notable character trait to say the least)

-YOOOO I FORGOT HOW METAL THE PSYCH STORY GETS

-dude straight up cuts his abdomen open and his intestines spill out

-the fear and shock and emotion on sarah’s face make me feel so bad for her

-WAIT IS THIS THE EPISODE WHERE SHE LOSES THE END OF THE INSTRUMENT? IS THAT WHAT THIS IS? i am not prepared to watch an ava bekker breakdown rn.

-the shock on ava’s face when connor said nice job.

-ava actually tried to apologize to connor. well, not apologize but she feels a little bit bad for just how abrasive she’s been to connor. (connor didn’t necessarily have to make it super competitive). Ava said “Look, I know i have the tendency to step on toes. it’s nothing personal”

-and now they’re not arguing and are this close to actually working like a team

-and i cannot believe connor’s big one-liner is ‘Murphy’s law’

-the emotion on april’s face when the girl’s parents won’t even let her brother grieve for her. I feel it. astounding. its so painful omg

-ava: “your optimism is enchanting.” when i was writing earlier I was worried I wasn’t being accurate with her dialogue and making it sound too overly formal but i guess I nailed it. also, this line reinforces how much I love her (so does every other line)

-connor just refusing to give ava anything, no credit, no nothing. doesn’t even give her credit for earning the surgery saying “you may have elbowed your way onto the case, but he is still my patient” (I JUST TRANSITIONED INTO A QUOTE SO SMOOTHLY WHY CANT I DO THAT IN MY LANG RHETORICAL ANALYSIS ESSAYS YOU’RE KIDDING)

-hey it’s joey!

- i can appreciate him so much more when he’s not chasing after reese

-do you remember their first meeting? bickering over who gets the last splenda? (real meet cute amirite)

-dr. charles remarking how all the scientific advances can’t beat human instinct, nice little tie in to the episode title

-ava just smiling while connor waits for her to apologize. she. takes. no. shit.

-i literally hate connor’s face so much. it fucking looks predatory like stop looking at her like that. it’s almost like you were planning her psychotic break

-ava’s cunning, saying ‘we’ instead of ‘i’ when talking about the decisions being made. she’s smart. she knows what to do. She knows how to present herself. (and yeah, a little hypocritical that she said to connor ‘when you fail, I will make sure that it is noted that it was your fault and not mine,’ but like I said, she just knows how to present herself)

-latham: “Dr. Bekker seems to enjoy this discordance.”

-rhodes’ face when changing his mind and saying ‘maybe I do’ when asked if he enjoyed it too - he literally makes the dumbest faces. please. stop. (is it a straight people thing?)

Alright. Another episode down. 17 to go. This was actually a pretty good episode all around. Ava took none of connor’s shit and you’d have to squint to find any sort of romantic subtext in their interactions, which is huge win in my book. reese’s storyline wasn’t too bad, she didn’t go through too much trauma, which, the bar for watching med is incredibly low i guess. This was a really good episode for ava. like I said before, very little romantic subtext, and she had a redeeming quality in the way she obviously cared for her patient at the beginning of the episode.

The main point is something I’ve been reiterating again and again. Ava cares about her patients. Ava is mean to connor because she knows someone needs to put him in his place, and she is glad that it is her.

All in all, this was a pretty good Ava episode. Very happy.

thanks for sticking with it.

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The Cold, Chapter 7 - The Messages Series

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The Cold is the final book in the main line of the Messages series. There is this one and three more chapters until the end (10 chapters total.) The story has been completely finished and is ready to post to schedule.

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Chapter 7:  Faremo L'amore Ogni Notte

She guided him away and they headed to her lab, leaving Tony behind in her office.

Tony agreed that what was discussed between Peter and Helen would remain between them. But it didn’t mean he wasn’t nervous about what was happening. Instead of pacing the courtyard, making a nuisance of himself, he headed to his long-disused personal labs two floors up.

Cleaning the place up, activating and repairing the equipment, it all took time. He checked his watch. Not enough time. Peter was still gone, still downstairs with Helen. He looked up what he’d been working on when he was here last, years ago.

There was little to distract him. Going over his notes on his development of the nanotech for his and Peter’s suits was interesting in a ‘historical record’ sort of way, though the data wouldn’t become part of that until long after it had ceased to be useful to him.

Watch-checking time again. Tony’s inability to keep himself distracted for more than, at most, an hour was annoying. He was sitting in what had been the top lab in the country, and he couldn’t find anything to do. Because his mind was still two floors down. Where he had no idea what was going on. Tony wasn’t sure which was worse. The possibility that something could be wrong or the fact that he couldn’t see it even if there wasn’t anything wrong.

Peter’s texts finally interrupted him.

We’re still talking

Still talking

Hey can you send me that vid of me stopping the car? The first one? Can’t find it.

Can you send me my laser-course stats?

Thanx

Ok headed to the examination room now.

The updates were at least keeping Tony from going completely crazy. But they also kept him from getting involved in anything truly distracting. So their effect was to have him sitting there, doing nothing, staring at his phone, waiting for the next one.

He wanted to text back, to find out more, but he didn’t want to interrupt an exam or a test. He had no idea what was going on before or after the texts. So he just stared at his phone waiting for the next notification.

Omg I haven’t been naked at the doctor since I was 13

This is not a gown this is paper wtf?!

Finally Peter texted him again. The medical exam was over (I get to put on my clothes now) and he and ‘Helen’ were going for a walk.

At that, Tony’s resolve not to spy on Peter broke. He could control things in Helen’s office. He could control things on the entire medical floor. A ‘walk’? Where? Under whose watchful eyes and ears?

Finally, after the cameras showed them heading outside, he gave the monitoring over to FRIDAY. “Track them, turn the surveillance off as they move along the grid, block communication from anyone who sees them and decides to talk about it. I want them in total privacy, from everything and everyone.”

Tony paused. “Even me,” he added, abiding not by the rules Helen gave him, but by the rules he set for himself after their argument.

After an hour, he got another text.

Were on our way back headed to the cafeteria. Im starving

Tony took the elevator down to the atrium level where the cafeteria and the entrance from outside was. He tried not to be, but he was a little terse when he met Peter and Helen at the door. He looked at Helen. “You and I need to have a conversation.”

Helen flashed him a sunny smile, then turned to Peter. “You won’t believe it, but the pizza here is actually good. I’ll see you after?” After Peter was gone, Helen looked back at Tony, but her smile didn’t fade. Most people would have been alarmed to find themselves at the receiving end of a Tony Stark Glare. Helen Cho, of course, was not most people.

“Your office, Doctor?” Tony said, waving his hand in that direction. He was too involved in his own conspiracy theories to notice Helen’s unflappable demeanor. When they arrived, he shut the door behind them. The windows that looked out onto the atrium darkened, the active monitoring lights turned off on the cameras.

“Why the hell did you take him outside into an uncontrolled environment? Are you asking for the spies in the building to know that he had to see you about something? That alone right there is more information than I wanted out about this. So what’s with the doctor/patient confidentiality? That doesn’t apply suddenly?”

Dr. Cho looked mildly surprised at Tony’s accusatory tone, but only shrugged.

“Sorry, it’s now confidential that I met Spider-Man? My bad.”

“Everything about this is confidentential, I thought I made that clear. Fury, New-Cap, no one is supposed to know anything about anything. Just knowing that Peter is talking to you lets them know that something is up with Spider-Man. That will get them curious.

"All anyone knows is that we came here so I could show off the labs to Peter and make sure New-Cap accepts him as an Avenger. Coming here to see you? Getting tested? That was never on the agenda.”

“Good thing you’ve secured my office, then. We’ll go over the details after Peter achieves some caloric intake. I have theories.”

“That’s great. It’s what Peter needs. I want him to have your theories, your conclusions. But I want him to have them. No one else.”

“And you made that clear when you tried to bribe me for my silence, Tony,” Helen said, stepping closer, her patient face hardening a bit. “Peter wanted to go for a walk. He had things he wanted to talk about, and he did. And for the record? I can think of sixteen things we could have been talking about without even trying, and the fact that YOU can’t think of a few is a little telling. Not that he needs an alibi for finding his own personal physician... do you realize he hasn’t had a physical since he was fourteen?” She shook her head in disbelief. “He hasn’t even gotten all his shots! Not that it matters but still… just the idea…

“In any case, Peter is my priority now. If he wants to tell me about the things on his mind in a field, or a laboratory, or an alien spaceship it’s his call. Not yours.”

“He still thinks the Avengers are one big happy family spending nights in pillow forts, watching movies, and eating popcorn. He has no idea of the risk. You can’t trust his ability to know where he should be talking to you. He still… he still fucking trusts people.”

She reached out to touch Tony’s arm briefly. “Well, we know better, don’t we? You were right to call me in on this one.” Helen’s tone was gentler now. “I’m glad he’s got you in his corner on this one, Tony. He may need you. You may be protecting the real next Captain America…”

“Over my dead fucking body,” Tony interrupted hotly.

“…And I’m not sure he’s ready to say ‘no’ to Nick Fury. But I know you. You were born ready.

“I think you two make a good team.”

Tony sighed, a little more relieved. At least Helen saw through some of the smoke and mirrors that surrounded her. “He trusts people. But… he’s the only one… I trust.”

There was silence for a moment. Only when he turned to look at Helen did she speak again.

“I’m glad, Tony. You, more than anyone else on this planet, have earned the right to every single trust issue you own, and then some. But you trust me to an extent, or you wouldn’t have called me. And I’m glad you did. And for the record? I think he’s adorable, and you make a very sweet couple.

“Now shut the fuck up and stop telling me how to do my job,” she said dismisvely, turning back to her desk and pointing at the door. “Go debate the propriety of pineapple on pizza with your boyfriend. I’ll meet you two back here when he’s done eating.”

Tony nodded. He knew he had no objectivity on this issue. Just being here was the last place he wanted to be, which he’d tried to explain… No, he hadn’t tried to explain, just expected Peter to somehow intuit — which wasn’t really fair. Nor was it fair to Helen to blame her for what went on around her.

“Is that even a debate? Of course pineapple belongs on pizza,” Tony said smiling as he left to go find Peter.

Peter had, in fact, already scarfed down his pizza and was on his way to find Tony. He only glanced around for a moment to make sure they were alone before he wrapped his arms around Tony and hugged him fiercely.

“Thank you for this,” he whispered.

Tony smiled and put a kiss on — not the top of Peter’s head anymore! — Peter’s cheek. “Helen says she has ideas. So, I’m glad we were able to come.”

When they entered Helen’s office, she was pulling up a chart on her holoscreen, using her finger to add Peter’s numbers.

“Now, obviously I can’t chart a line based on one point. I’ll need more data. Peter and I may have to talk once year, twice a year ideally. But based on his memory and what data you gave me, I have some theories. Peter’s weight, muscle mass, and BMI put him solidly average, though his height is in the lower 25% until this last growth spurt. Still very average. Nothing anyone can do about that. Now — the jumps in his performance scores look drastic, but not if you take into consideration that the recorded scores from when he was sixteen were inaccurate. According to him he was holding back. But given the stats you calculated in high-adrenaline situations, catching moving vehicles, going hand to hand with the Winter Soldier, I’ve made different estimates. And that gives us a trajectory that looks like this.”

She drew the line with one finger, then hovered over the chart already on the screen.

“The numbers appear extreme, but the math is ultimately the same. A non-enhanced male of Peter’s age, weight and healthy caloric intake, not to mention his daily workout schedule…

“Yes,” she interrupted as Peter tried to correct her. “You swing your bodyweight through over the streets of New York City for hours almost daily, you weren’t taking that into account.”

“So a non-enhanced young adult male’s trajectory would look the same as the one Peter is making now. If my theory holds he’ll peak the same time a non-enhanced male would peak, then begin to decline the same way.” She looked at Peter, as if asking permission to continue.

Peter only nodded and looked at Tony. He was nothing but smiles. He seemed pleased and relieved. When Helen kept looking at him, waiting for that permission to come, Peter decided that it didn’t need to. They were finished talking.

The numbers didn’t matter any longer. They’d discussed them during their walk. What mattered was that he was growing at a normal — for non-normal — rate. It would stop. He’d reach a peak and not just keep growing ridiculously forever. There would come a point where he didn’t have to keep being afraid of his ability. He could just learn how to work within it. He’d learn his limits. Then he wouldn’t hurt anyone else. And he wouldn’t hurt Tony. That was what both of them needed to know.

The meeting ended with cell phones out and schedules compared, Peter and Dr. Cho making plans six months in the future and exchanging numbers. Tony copying the dates in his. Peter hugged Dr. Cho before they left the office, then once again as they said goodbye.

“Did you get the answers you were looking for?” Tony asked as they left Helen’s office, heading to the residence wing.

“Yes, I mean no, but I got some decent theories. Which beat the fuck out of my theories. My theories were just too scary. Helen put it all into perspective. She’s awesome. Thank you, Tony.”

They left the medical wing for the stairs in the lobby, then down them, holding hands.

They had decided to kill the rest of the day by heading to the pool ‘to relax’. Peter’s manic need to perform feats of strength had cooled. They talked, they joked, they made up conversations in between Sam and Bucky who, they assured each other, were watching them at every moment. Peter matched Tony joke for raunchy joke, laughing freely and easily.

Tony smiled, sneaking glances at Peter when the kid wouldn’t notice. He hadn’t seen Peter this relaxed and easy since, well, since his work started to impinge on their lives. Peter’s happiness started to slip away when they’d meet up at different hotels in the city as something fun and different from the penthouse. At first, Peter would get excited and they’d laugh and play around with things in the suite, even bouncing like a kid on the very soft and bouncy beds.

That seemed like a long, long time ago. As Tony drifted away from their life, Peter also drifted away. Now, his Peter was back.

They did laps, at which Peter would’ve beat Tony easily if the kid hadn’t been acting like a dolphin following a ship, diving and ducking underneath him, swerving in patterns, even leaping up and over Tony’s body.

More than once Peter made bets he could hold his breath for ‘this long’, bets he always lost, unable to resist surfacing directly under Tony to grab him and lift him into the air.

The kid was a fish. Their swimming quickly turned into nothing but playing, splashing, dunking. And a lot of teasing. A kiss stolen and then swam away from. An ‘accidental’ brush against somewhere while coming up from a dive.

Tony let himself go. He couldn’t remember when he’d last played around in the water. Or even if he had ever just played around in the water. If the surveillance to the pool room hadn’t been turned off, no one watching would’ve believed that it was Tony Stark down there, laughing and smiling and playing.

“There’s a huge pool at my house in Naples. I’m taking you there. It’ll be just like this for a week. Only better. New-Cap and the Manchurian Candidate won’t be trying to spy on us.”

“Take me to Italy,” Peter said, grinning, swimming into Tony’s arms for another kiss. “Take me somewhere where I don’t know anything, and teach me all of it. Maybe we won’t come back.”

“Andremo in Italia. Nuoteremo in piscina ogni mattina. Faremo l'amore ogni notte.”

“Mmmmm… more. I love being ignorant.”

“I’ll take away your phone and you won’t be able to use ‘translate’,” Tony grinned.

“The less I know the better. I’ll just assume you’re telling me a dirty joke.”

“You’ll have to trust that I’m correctly teaching you what to say. That I’m not having you to insult someone and get us chased out of the restaurant,” Tony clenched his fist and sprayed a squirt of water at Peter’s face.

“Ti comprerò diamanti e quell'orologio e ti rovinerò marcio.”

“I agree! I assume it’s about sex, and I agree.”

“Ti porterò in ogni ristorante di lusso che riesco a trovare. Indosserai scarpe italiane da mille dollari. Ti misurerò per un abito da uomo che costa più di quanto la maggior parte della gente guadagni in una settimana.”

“Yes! I’m unfazeable,” Peter said, laughing. “Whatever it is, I’m in.”

“E quando arriviamo a casa, ti scoperò nel culo così forte che non puoi camminare. Ti lascerò persino toccarmi lì.”

“I’ll assume that means ‘I want to have sex in the pool’,” Peter said, sinking straight down, nuzzling Tony’s cock for a moment before swimming away.

“Voglio fare sesso in piscina,” Tony shouted just before Peter dove again, this time swimming all the way down to the bottom of the deep end.

Peter didn’t spring back up like he’d been doing. A whole minute passed and he was still sitting, cross-legged, at the bottom. Tony frowned and looked down at the distorted image through the water. He counted another ten, fifteen seconds before he dove down. Paddling in front of Peter he looked into the kid’s face. His hair was waving through the water, looking like a mermaid. His eyes were open and he was grinning.

When they had laughed themselves silly and their fingers were getting pruned, Peter and Tony headed to the changing room, showered off and dressed. When they hit the common room, Tony’s hair was slicked back wet, and Peter’s kept falling over his forehead in little ringlets.

Cooking and eating together, they spared only a socially required greeting then ignored any conversation attempts. They were alone in the large room, regardless of who was there around them. Their conversation ranged through the adaptations Tony would be working on for Peter’s suit to the new webbing Peter would create for it. They had no worries about the security of their discussion. No one would understand what they said, even if overheard.

Peter still teased about the pool, his dive, and how it had scared Tony. Tony was still breaking into Italian as he described what he would cook for Peter in Naples and how he would spoil him.

As they sat down to the table, a robot that no one even knew was in the compound came up to them, bringing a bottle of wine from a private cellar that, also, no one knew was in the compound.

By the time dinner was made and finished, they were dry, well fed, and in good humor. They headed to Tony’s suite, leaving behind a befuddled Sam, staring at Tony laughing like he must’ve been an alien left to replace the real Tony Stark.

Italian translations:

The title

Faremo L'amore Ogni Notte - We'll make love all night

Within the text

Andremo in Italia. Nuoteremo in piscina ogni mattina. Faremo l'amore ogni notte. - We will go to Italy. We will swim in the pool every morning. We will make love every night.

Ti comprerò diamanti e quell'orologio e ti rovinerò marcio. - I'll buy you diamonds and that watch and spoil you rotten.

Ti porterò in ogni ristorante di lusso che riesco a trovare. Indosserai scarpe italiane da mille dollari. Ti misurerò per un abito da uomo che costa più di quanto la maggior parte della gente guadagni in una settimana. - I will take you to every luxury restaurant I can find. You will wear Italian thousand dollar shoes. I'll measure you for a men's suit that costs more than most people earn in a week.

E quando arriviamo a casa, ti scoperò nel culo così forte che non puoi camminare. Ti lascerò persino toccarmi lì. - And when we get home, I’ll fuck you in the ass so hard that you can't walk. I'll even let you touch me there.

Voglio fare sesso in piscina. - I want to have sex in the pool.

[blazerina]

Road Trip Ready (Ethan x MC)

Road Trip Ready (Ethan x Allie – Open Heart MC)

Word Count: 1638

Summary: Another regular day in the life of Ethan & Allie – Allie begging Ethan for something he doesn’t want to give in to…will she get her way in the end? Read on to find out.

Author’s Note: I did another one of these a while ago just for fun and was so pleasantly surprised by the response I received. This is in response to a prompt request from @mrswalkerwritesagain about Ethan & Allie going on a road trip but I spiced it up a little bit. Hope you enjoy! I love these two. xoxo Also tagging @parkerattano because I know she’d want to see this and she’s my biggest supporter - love you girl!

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Allie glanced at her watch and sighed as she looked out the window of the moving train. She yawned and closed her eyes for a few minutes, leaning forward and resting her head on the back of the seat in front of her. Her last shift had turned into a very late night and she had contemplated sleeping at Edenbrook. But instead, she tried to get home to see maybe she’d be able to catch Ethan for a few minutes. She was unsuccessful in her attempt to spend a few moments alone in person with him.

Suddenly, she felt her phone vibrate in the cross-body bag she wore. Through heavy eyelids, she glanced at the text. It was from Ethan:

Allie smiled and placed her phone back in her bag when she realized this was her stop. Another day was starting. Another day full of people to heal, co-workers to encourage, and another day NOT see her boyfriend. It felt weird calling him that. He had first been her mentor, then her teacher, also her boss and then…it just happened.  He seemed too dignified and too mature to be considered her boyfriend - but that’s what he was.  

She missed him. Being a doctor herself, she knew all too well the realities of their hectic schedules and the very real issues that kept them both apart.  After all they had been through and overcome together as a couple, there was no way they would let a little lack of quality time, drive them apart. They’d been there, done that. 

However, she knew that both of them were in desperate need of time away. They needed a vacation.  Together. And a few moments to relax and unwind from the stress they were each under every single day. She asked him earlier if they could have a little getaway and that text on the train was Ethan’s reply. 

She picked up the pace as she entered the hospital, realizing she was a little later than she thought. Since their only way of really communicating throughout the day was text, she tried her best to keep him up to date on her day and he did the same with her. She always sent long and elaborate messages, his were short and sweet, but he had made comments on more than one occasion about how much he appreciated them, so she knew they made a difference.   Allie stopped at the entrance of the locker room and snapped a pic – immediately sending it on to Ethan:    

He was always incredibly slow to respond but Allie was especially proud of herself for being so darn punny this early in the morning.

She almost forgot the most important news from her morning and quickly typed out another update for him, this time getting a reply pretty quick:

Allie laughed out loud and said hello to a few fellow doctors changing clothes, while she made her way out of the locker room in search for her first patient of the day. She checked in at the nurses’ station and was making her way to room 604 when another text came through for her.

Finding a supply closet to suffice for a brief photo session, Allie replied by sending Ethan this picture:

Update – decision made. This is what I went with…photo creds - Belinda in pediatric oncology. She says hello.

Still pleased with herself, Allie walked quickly toward her patient’s room as the ache for her partner grew more and more heavy within her.

--

A few hours had passed since Ethan heard from Allie. The past few days he was living more and more for these texts from her. It felt as though they were in a long distance relationship as of late with both of their commitments at the hospital piling up more and more, keeping them apart longer than either one of them wanted.

“Damn.” He thought to himself as he realized it was his turn to respond to Allie. He had forgotten.

Seeing her dressed in scrubs would forever be his weakness. He had decided that long ago. Smiling as he frantically typed, he loved teasing her and realized with every message, just how far he had fallen for her.

“Saw you for 5 secs in the cafeteria but got called away…filling up the big one again?” He asked, and then followed up with:

  Ethan sighed as he remembered he had a few dozen case files to review in his office. He had about an hour between appointments and meetings so he rushed to his desk to see how much he could get done. His eyes were burning from the sting of the screen when the familiar hum of his cell phone shifted his focus from one electronic to another.

“hi.” The text from Allie read.

“this is what I look like…in case you forgot…😊”

“Took this the other day before going out with the girls. Miss you.”

Ethan felt his heart leap within his chest upon the sight of her and he quickly replied once again:

Shaking his head but not at all surprised by her response, he continued to focus on his work for a few more minutes before being distracted by an idea; a way to surprise her, that she would never see coming.

--

“Jeanine – could I have a post it note please?” Allie asked, hanging half her body over the front of the nurses station on floor 5.  

Allie wrote on the note for a few seconds before placing it inside the folder that held all the charts on Mr. Flores in 543, one of Ethan’s most difficult patients – one she knew he had been struggling with for a while.  

She caught a glimpse of Dr. Ramsey chatting with another doctor a few moments earlier. Her heart stopped seeing him right in front of her, but she could quickly see just how tired he was and could tell by his posture alone, that he was exhausted.

Being nosy, Jeanine opened the file and read the note:

“Honey, you two are so sweet. What is it the kids say these days? Couple goals? You’re it.” She patted Allie’s hand and winked at her before Allie said thank you and went about her business.

--

Later in the day, it was getting close to the end of Ethan’s shift and surprisingly enough, Bryce (who never texted let along communicated at all) sent Allie a message:

“U on floor 4? Get here now its going dwn”

Curious, Allie raced to the 4th floor just in time to see and hear Ethan chewing out a new intern. Even though Allie had experienced it for herself and knew it was for the betterment of the student, his patient and the overall experience for all involved, it was still hard to see Ethan act this way. 

She bit her lip and winced a few times when Ethan made point after point about using your head and thinking through the details, railing the intern about how people’s lives were at stake. When the worst was over, Allie text Ethan again:

Stealing away in the same supply closet where Belinda took Allie’s scrub picture earlier that morning, Ethan sighed and decided to give in to Allie’s wishes. But today had been longer than he anticipated and he still had so much work to do. He was grateful for her and the ways she helped him focus on what really mattered in his life. He adored Allie’s sense of humor and tried to match her in his response:

“You’re so full of it.” Allie responded with the eye roll emoji.  

Ethan snickered as he sauntered back to his office, praying he could have some peace and quiet in order to get his work done.

--

Not even a few minutes into more work on case files, Ethan’s phone was blowing up – message after message pinged, driving him crazy. He suspected a group message but was wrong.

Girl. Everyone knows my man Ethan is (fire emoji) but check this guy out. Yum. (eyes emoji) (drool emoji) He can train me anytime…know what I mean?! (heart eyes emoji)

Another message:

Shit. Ethan!! That was for Jackie.  And Sienna. Oh God. I AM SO SORRY. Love you? 

Another message:

OMG NO QUESTION> FORGET THE MARK. I meant: LOVE YOU. Mean it!!!!!

Ethan replied.

Pausing to think just a few more minutes, he then typed out his plan and sent it, knowing Allie would be stunned but also happy.

Also, we are going on vacation. Just you and me. Not sure where, but after your shift, come back to pick me up. We’ll swing by the apartment to pack and then we’ll hit the road.

Allie sent back a “happy dance” gif and Ethan knew he had made the right decision. He needed time with her. She needed time with him. They needed time together and far, far away from the hospital.

--

A few hours later, Allie was in the parking lot of Edenbrook, waiting on Ethan. 

She was beyond excited about spending some time with him. She didn’t know how long they’d have but even just a few hours would feel like an eternity compared to what they’d been given the last month. 

She snapped a selfie in car and captioned it Road Trip Ready!! Jenner’s here too.

Ethan practically ran out of his office, down the stairs and out to her car, smiling more than Allie had seen in quite some time. 

He threw open the passenger side door, slammed his body into the seat and quickly kissed her, tenderly at first with the kiss turning into one of longing and desire.

“Hey.” Allie whispered, breathless at the sight of him.

“Let’s go.” Ethan responded, holding her hand and kissing the back of it as his fingers laced with hers.

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Later that evening, Allie posted this on social media for all the world to see:

Trapped alone in a car for hours on end with Dr. Ethan Ramsey. Some may say it’s torture but for me -- this is my happy place. Don’t be jealous. #bouttime #roadtrippin #lovehim

 THE END.

[justimajin]

In the Making of: Catching a Case of the Doctor Blues 

I’ve decided to create this post because I feel like a lot of my writing energy has gone into this series and there’s tons I can share about the making process. So huge warning ahead, this is going to be a long af post. 

To make sure that this runs by smoothly, I’ll be breaking the process up into sections and talk about them each one at a time so it doesn’t look like a mess of words. I’ll be focusing on: 

The Initial Idea 

The Title 

The Characters  

The Overall Series

Alright let’s get it! 

The Initial Idea: 

The original story was going to be a whole lot different compared to the final end product. It wasn’t even for Taehyung or a doctor au to begin with and was actually suppose to be for Yoongi. It was going to be an office au with the same base storyline - two workers that start off as enemies but are secretly childhood friends that fell apart while growing up. Now I know what you’re thinking, how did this turn into a doctor au? 

The biggest reason I had for not giving Yoongi this role (am I casting director now? lol) was because I had just finished up His First Love and didn’t want to write two Yoongi series in a row (I apologize Yoongi stans). However, the characteristics of the role really suited Yoongi’s personality and then I was stuck in the dilemma of who else I could use for this particular story. 

After lots and lots (and lots…) of thinking I decided on using Taehyung. I haven’t really seen a lot of writers portray him this specific way and wanted to give it my best shot since I believe there’s a lot of heavy focus on that silly playful side of his. Might be because of fanservice, I dunno, but I really do think Taehyung is a lot more serious and smarter than he shows. 

 Now this brings me to the second point - the doctor au. Honestly this story could have worked just as great if it was an office au but I was coming onto the realization that it wouldn’t be enough with the base storyline. I wanted this series to be emotional and have loads of development so there had to be interrelation of work also within in it. So I was stuck in a rut. I want this to be a long series but needed something that keep the series going and not turn out to be boring. 

I ended up stumbling on a picture of Taehyung with glasses (I believe its the same picture used in the moodboard) and it kind of just clicked like: omg A DOCTOR AU *frails my arms around like a crazy person* and from there I knew exactly what I wanted this series to be. 

The Title: 

Just thinking about this is already giving me a headache again. This part was probably the hardest to think of as I am about to go through the various titles I had come up with and how I ended up incorporating an illness metaphor in the end (wow i’m so smart now aren’t i?). 

The first title gives me the most cringe - Doctors Don’t Cry. This title was actually stuck onto the series for the longest time and the more I looked at it the more I knew I had to change it. It was supposed to represent the message of doctors having to do their job but also dealing with their own emotions at the same time (which Y/N’s character is based on). Sounds like a solid idea, but that title? Yeah, no. 

So Doctors Don’t Cry went into the trash and I started researching more, eventually landing onto The Doctor Switch. Supposedly this is a technique taught to doctors and it helps them restrain their emotions when dealing with patients. I thought it sounded really interesting and connected well with the story, but ended up dropping it since it sounded confusing (as in the ‘Switch Part’ could be interpreted as a literal switch which would make no sense). 

Then I called it Taehyung’s Series out of frustration and that definitely meant I needed a title fast. So soon I decided on Doctor Blues - cute and simple without cringe and without confusion. However my punny side wasn’t loving it as much because it sounded too simple, so I finally got the title that I use now. PHEW. 

The Characters: 

Now this is the part I could just go on and on about. So once I finalized I was going to write the series I needed to figure out what my characters were going to be like. I’ll start off with Y/N and Taehyung. 

Since this was going to be an enemies to lovers au, I did some research on that trope to understand it more. One of the biggest things I saw was that usually there’s some kind of reasoning for the two characters to hate each other and this aspect later on fixes itself so that the characters can grow closer. In simpler terms, I needed a solid reason for them to hate each other. In order to do this, I thought about the struggles doctor have to face on a daily basis and separated two main themes required for the job - logic and emotion. 

Y/N would represent emotion and Taehyung would represent logic. Both of them would be professional and extremely good at their jobs (enemies to lovers also dictates they have some similarities) but their morals/values would conflict with each other. This was my focus in the beginning of the series with Taehyung not involving himself with any emotional situations while Y/N takes every opportunity she can to get involved. Y/N doesn’t like Taehyung because he doesn’t have an emotional side to him and Taehyung doesn’t like how Y/N gets so invested with patient care when they only need to logically fix the problem. 

Let’s get deeper into the characters now shall we? Their past is a crucial part to the series and its plays a key role in developing them into the people they are in the present day. Y/N and Taehyung both grew up in Daegu, both were part of loving families and both were living peacefully as kids. Although Y/N’s mentioned to have health issues, she finds support towards it because of her childhood friend. However, both characters face loss in an extreme way. Y/N loses her mother and is forced to move away with her aunt, leaving V behind, and Taehyung loses his entire family in a car crash and then loses his home. 

Now when it comes down to a horrible situation like this, its important for the person to have support from those around them. Y/N had this support in the form of her aunt and her friends during college. I don’t remember where I put this but when Jimin is feeling down because he isn’t sure how to confess to Chaeyoung, Y/N reminds him of the time he took care of her when she was missing her mom which showcases how even in hard times she had those around her supporting in some way. The same can’t be said for Taehyung. He was faced with similar circumstances but didn’t have anyone he could lean on (the only person really being Y/N but he was unable to talk to her after everything that had happened). This entire scenario reflects on them when they’re older as Y/N is more emotional (because of past support) but Taehyung is more logical (because of a lack of support). 

An aspect I also tried to incorporate was as Y/N and Taehyung got closer and eventually became a couple, their younger personalities would slowly emerge out more. Y/N was described as being a lot more shy + quieter while Taehyung used to joke around + laugh a lot. In the present day, this got translated into Y/N constantly getting embarrassed with the relationship and Taehyung playfully teasing her about it. 

I also tried to use their names with the character development (for the longest time all you can read is Dr. Kim and Dr. L/N). This was just used to signify how they strictly kept a professional relationship and didn’t want to associate beyond that in comparison to the rest of the staff in the hospital. But eventually this evolves into them using their names around each other more comfortably. It was also supposed to help with this wonderful equation: 

V (Tae’s younger happier childish side) + Dr. Kim (Tae’s older cold strict side) = Taehyung (a mix of both). 

Alright now that I’ve gone on a whole essay about the main characters, I’ll dabble into our lovely side characters. I wanted to add in the rest of BTS to this series because in the past some members would always get left out and I would feel bad because of that. So I decided to split them like this: 

Head Doctor/Surgeon: Namjoon

Doctor/Surgeon:Y/N, Taehyung

Doctor: Jimin, Yoongi

Intern:Jungkook, Jin, Chaeyoung

Patient: Hoseok

I just copy and pasted that from my outline (made it a whole lot easier to track everyone that way). I’ll just go in order of talking about them. So starting off with Namjoon, he was originally supposed to have a lot more going on but I decided to tone it down a bit because I needed to balance out the other aspects of the series. Basically Namjoon was supposed to have a wife with whom he runs the hospital with and she was going to be someone Y/N would look up to and admire. Later on when Namjoon takes a leave from the hospital it’s actually because his wife is due soon and he wants to spend some more time with her. If I had more time I would have gone through with writing this but I ended up deciding not to. 

Moving onto the other doctors, I needed some comic relief. I needed someone to be dramatic and hilarious when things got too serious and everyone just needed a good laugh - so this is how Jimin came to be. His relationship with Chaeyoung, his bond with Jungkook and his friendship with Y/N + Yoongi all came along with this and I honestly think he was my favorite character to write about. Yoongi became the other doctor and Y/N’s close friend when I felt bad about not writing this series for him. I also thought his personality would work out well with her personality since both are very calm and are constantly annoyed by Jimin lol. 

Jungkook and Jin came along because I wanted to write some jinkook bickering for the longest of time and their age gap worked perfectly with them both being interns (cue Jungkook teasing Jin about not being a doctor yet). Chaeyoung was added because apparently this hospital has only one female worker employed...so yeah that needed to be changed. I wanted to add more female characters but there was already so much going on and keeping track of all them was like mission impossible. Hoseok exists because sope lives on he added more onto the emotional part of the story.  

The Overall Series: 

I’ll be straightforward and honest with my answer - planning this series out was a true nightmare. There were so many important events that needed to take place and it needed to flow properly so you wouldn’t look at it and go like ‘what the actual heck is going on right now?’. That was a huge challenge. Especially when I originally thought that 10 chapters would be enough for everything and god, I couldn’t have been even more wrong about that. 

Looking back now, I’m pretty satisfied with the end result and how the slow pace actually managed to work out the way I wanted it to. I was able to balance out all the different genres too which had me worried since I couldn’t just transition from a sad scene to a funny scene abruptly - balance was definitely key. 

After having huge doubts and going through this rollarcoaster of a series, I’m happy with it. I even think along the way both me and my readers ended up enjoying this series a lot more than I had expected, so thank you for that.

[elejah-verse]

Game of love/1

Fanfiction

Part 1

Joel Goran x reader

with Klaroline, Kennett, Stebekah

TVD/TO crossover with Saving Hope

a/n: this was prompted by @arivalappears, and I dug into my fanfiction treasure chest and here is a crossover story with TVD and Saving Hope characters.

It is set in Mystic Falls, who is a big city in this story.

Summary: Y/N and Caroline Forbes are best friends, who start working in the Salvatore University Hospital as interns. The night before their first day at the hospital, Y/N hooks up with Joel Goran, and Caroline with Klaus Mikaelson. How will things go once their realize they spent a one night stand with their respective Attendings.

I hope you like it. Thanks so much for reading. I so appreciate it. 😘💕😘💕😃

Aslo, - I will post ‘Always’ part six tomorrow  😘💕😃

tags

@rissyrapp20 @arivalappears @dendrite-lover @cassienoble2000 @elejahforever @captainshurley @goddessofthunder112 @hides2000

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Y/N got in the apartment she shared with her best friend Caroline,  some time around the dawn.

Caroline greeted her friend and said-

"We shouldn't have gone out- I am so wrecked- and today is our first day at ‘Salvatore University Hospital’-

"I know"- Y/n said-"where did you go?"

"Rousseau's - and it was- I met this guy- wow- it was so- the sex was on fire."- Caroline said.

"Really? You had a one night stand?"- Y/N couldn't believe what she was hearing-”what about finding that one true love?”

"So what? Can't we just have like one time fun. We studied so hard and- Tyler and I broken up- so- anyway- where have you been?"

"Ah, well. I am no better than you are-"- Y/N said taking a bottle of water out of the fridge. The way Y/N smirked, her friend knew that she hooked up with someone as well.

"Oh, God, he is so dreamy."- Y/N said-"and- huh- like you said - the sex was on fire."

"OMG, Y/N??? What about Kai?"- Caroline asked. 

"What about him? He cheated with Katherine, so-"

"But I thought you've forgiven him!"- Caroline said.

"Ok, can we not now- I am going to bed."- Y/N said now her mood changing and went to her room.

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Morning

Klaus’ apartment

"No, Rebekah."- Klaus Mikaelson said to his sister now switching off the loudspeaker, taking his phone from the kitchen counter-"Camille filed for divorce, and so be it."

"You two were so good together. I am sure if you sit down and talk, she will see that this one time with Hayley meant nothing, same as hers with Marcel. She was hurt and -" -Rebekah said on the other side of the phone.

"Look, we tried- but- let's just drop it. I got this job here now. And- I don't think of going back to New Orleans. I thought that you of all people would be happy that I am back here."

"I am."- Rebekah said-"ok- got to go to work. See you later. We have to talk about father and mother's anniversary thing."

"Yes. Later."- Klaus said and took his car keys and his backpack, exiting his apartment.

At the same time, elsewhere

Joel Goran, who was leaving his apartment, answered the phone-

"No, dad, I don't think that we will be there this weekend. Alex and I are kind of in a strange place right now- Nothing happened. Can I call you back? I am late as it is."

Joel now hung up and got into the car, driving off to the hospital. 

And the two best friends? 

Y/N and Caroline, were not far behind. After the eventful night, the were ready leaving their apartment, very much ready to take on another challenge in their lives, as if anything had ever been difficult for them. School and college was easy, but their love lives were pretty messy. Mostly falling for the wrong kind of boys. In Y/N's case, the Lockwood brothers, Mason and Tyler, both extreme bad boys. And in Caroline's case, long High-school on and off relationship with Tyler and then the same with Enzo St. John during college.

Their phones now rang almost simultaneously. 

"Hey, Bon"- Y/N said-"we are on our way. OMG- last night was crazy. Tell you later- Ok- See you."

"Hey Ray"- Caroline said-"I still can't believe I did what I did- and he was unbelievable. I got to go now, but I will tell you everything later."

The friends now got in their respective cars and drove off.

Soon, they would receive the greatest shock of their lives, as Josette Parker introduced the supervising physicians to them, as well as the other interns starting their five year program to become surgeons supreme.

"You are the best of your generation, and that is why you got the place here. You will be taught by the best, and they will expect to give more than your all. So, let me introduce you to your Attendings"- Jo now introduced each one one of the Attending physicians-

"Dr Joel Goran, Trauma and orthopedics, Dr Alex Reid, Cardiothoracic surgery, Dr Alaric Saltzman, Neurosurgery, Dr Vincent Griffith, General surgery, Dr Meredith Fell, Paediatrics"- she introduced some more, who could not be there at that very moment. She finished with a special introduction -" and our new addition to the team Dr Niklaus Mikaelson, Plastic surgery."

Y/N as well as Caroline, was wide-eyed as they saw Joel and Klaus enter the conference room. Both surgeons were not less wide-eyed as their eyes set on the women. Never ever, not in their wildest dreams could they have imagined  that their one night stands they would be interns they would have to work alongside with. What were the odds. Only universe knew. 

Both, Y/N and Caroline, exhaled as neither of them were assigned to their respective one night stands. 

As they went to change, the two friends both now exclaimed in one voice-

"This is some kind of a crazy joke?! How could he be-?

Y/N now looked at Caroline and asked-"Who -?"

"Klaus!"- Caroline said.

"You were with Klaus Mikaelson?"- Y/N said amazed.

"Yes. I can't believe it. Rebekah's big brother! What is he doing here? Doesn't he live in New Orleans? "- Caroline said to her sister.

"Well, obviously he is back."- Y/N said.

"Obviously!"- Caroline said-"after thousand years."

Even though, Klaus' sister Rebekah was their peer, as well as their arch rival in High-school and pretty much later on, they never met Klaus, as he went on an exchange programme to Britain when he was 15 and stayed on to study medicine in Oxford for later on, deciding to live in London, where he would meet Camille O'Connell, and years after married her, settling in New Orleans.

"And yours?"- Caroline now asked her sister.

"Joel Goran."- Y/N replied.

"That is 'Dreamy'??- Caroline said.

"Yeah, but he so didn't look like a surgeon."

"And how do surgeons look like?"- Caroline remarked.

"Like -Granpa! Not like this-"-Y/N looked for a right word to describe Joel, and finally spit out-"Rock star! This is so mad!"

"Yeah, madhatter mad!"- Caroline agreed.

They were hurried now out to their stations. And so, they postponed the conversation about the hunky surgeons.

Joel, same as Klaus, tried to get his head around that the woman he had a quite a hot nightstand was an intern,  and now they would have to work side by side.

Joel found it particularily hard as he was involved with Dr Alex Reid, his on and off girlfriend, even though their relationship was already on very shaky grounds, and her finding out that he picked up someone from the bar would put the nail on it.

As he finished in the OR, he now looked to find the right moment to speak to Y/N. After a while, he saw Caroline. As they were introduced to them earlier he had figured out that Y/N were friends and he, now approaching her asked. 

"Dr Forbes, so how do you find your first day at work?"

"Hectic."- Caroline said and then continued-”Y/N is in the OR. She was assigned to Dr Griffith’s team.

"Yes- right."- Joel now said with a nervous gulp. He asked for a sandwich and he got it turned to her and said-" Ok. I will see you around."-and went away. Y/N really got to you, ha?! - Caroline  thought as she looked for a second at Joel walking away. But that was Y/N's business, and she had enough of her own to deal with. She now took her coffee and went to the elevator. As it opened, there it was-  Klaus stood there and they both now muttered a clumsy hi. Klaus stepped back in the elevator and Caroline walked in with a couple of other people. She stood  right next to him. They just exchanged a little glance, but kept quiet during the ride, and as they got to the ward, stepping out of the elevator, Klaus then said-

"Well, fancy seeing you here as an intern."

"Yeah, it's kind of mad."- Caroline said.

He looked at her, getting lost in the moment as the night before came flashing in. 

Flashback

                 Snapping out of it he now said-

"Can we talk?"

Caroline nodded a little and Klaus now gestured towards the on-call room.

As they slipped in, Klaus started-

"About - last night", but Caroline cut him off-

"What about it?"

"Ahm- nothing really. I just wanted to make sure that- I - just- this whole situation is  - unexpected."- Klaus said.

"Yeah, it really is. Don't worry. It was just one of those things."- Caroline said.

"Yes, it was."- Klaus said with a little sigh of relief-"Ok."

"Ok."- Caroline said now trying hard to stay cool in his presence, but it was not much different for him, her warm ocean blue eyes luring him, disarming all his defences.Taking a small silent sigh, he now said-

"Now that we got this cleared up- we can go -"

"Yeah, you are my boss- sort of and -"

And the and finished with their lips now locking into a heated kiss. Breaking it off abruptly he now said-

"This is -not right. I shouldn't have- Forget this, ok? I am really sorry, but - I have to go."- Klaus then exited the storage room, pulling himself together. What was happening to him? Was it some weird magic in her eyes that just couldn't keep him away from her. He shook his head now slightly and tried to focus on work.

Caroline stayed on for a second closing her eyes as she leaned on the door, trying to deal with all the kisses had just stirred up in her. And he was right. If they start something it would only lead to complicatios. But the night before and the kiss  now was magic and her heart now flew as she smiled. "Get a grip."- Caroline muttered  and got out of the room. Walking down the corridor she stumbled upon Jo, the Attending, and also the sister of her best friend’s ex- boyfriend Kai, who actually never liked her much.

"Where were you?"

"On my break."- Caroline said somewhat guiltily.

"Right. I know that you and your best friend have the IQ of Albert Einstein, but that doesn't mean you can do as you like."

"Dr Reid said we could have a break."- Caroline said.

Jo sifted something and then sent the blonde off. 

Y/N was already been pretty busy in the OR. And as she got her break now, she went to see if she could find Dr Goran. And the nurses directed her to the doctor's lounge. And as she was a few feet from the lounge, she now heard him and Alex talk-    

watch video!    

                   and a little after Joel said- "we make this work"- Y/N walked away her heart now crumbling a little. 

to be coninued…

[casuistor]

Re: Matsuda’s Theory about Near’s Victory

Guess who’s back on the mission of reposting their old posts? I tweaked this one a little to better reflect my current thoughts. Carry on, good people. 

This wasn’t at all my pet project, but I’d been meaning to write this analysis for ages and I just left it on the back burner because time is a thing that sadly only exists in limited quantities. I’d mentioned months ago that I feel like taking the events at the warehouse at face value made odd, arguably out of character assumptions about various players involved. I’d specifically mentioned Mikami Teru back then, but I feel this is true for Near as well.

Now to make something absolutely clear from the start, I don’t hate Near. Let’s just get that straight so this doesn’t obfuscate the point. Near is my favorite Wammy kid and this analysis is not about trying to delegitimize the sheep’s win. The phrasing “Near cheats” is not my own, but rather it’s Obata’s from How to Read 13 in discussing Near’s character. I personally don’t see how it is possible to “cheat” in a game where the rules of engagement are ill-defined in the first place, but that’s just my view of it. The way I see it, Near takes a lot of effort to ensure Kira’s downfall as well as the safety of the people around him, and I think the degree of it is somewhat overlooked. Let’s give the sheep credit where it’s due.

For those who are unfamiliar with Matsuda’s proposed theory about the events that took place at the warehouse, it’s the one he explains in Chapter 108.

So I don’t cap the entire theory, I’ll summarize here. Matsuda puts forth the intriguing theory that Near writes Mikami’s name into the Death Note to prevent him from confirming whether the notebook he brought to the warehouse was real. Lending credence to this theory is the fact that Mikami died after “going crazy” ten days after the events of the warehouse.

I want to talk about this in depth. Matsuda’s theory is shrugged off and dismissed as biased and pointless by Ide, but that doesn’t mean we, the readers, should follow suit in devaluing Matsuda’s reasoning. Personally, I think Matsuda is onto something, and hopefully this post will stir up some interesting conversations!

The circumstances of Mikami’s death are fascinating, but for now let’s hone in on the timing of the man’s death. Assuming for a moment that Near does write Mikami’s name into the notebook, the earliest he could have done so is January 26th 2010 as this is the day Mikami goes to the bank and inadvertently reveals the whereabouts of the real death note to the SPK. Mikami dies February 7th 2010. Thirteen days have passed.

As you’ve probably guessed, what I’m getting at here is the fact that Mikami dies well within the 23 day limit in which a person’s actions can be controlled before their death. That alone is, of course, insufficient to establish any certainty that Near did write Mikami’s name in the note, but it does get you thinking. 

As I mentioned previously, in discussing Near’s character in HTR13, Obata states that he thinks Near is the smartest character because he cheats. I find this a curious statement considering we don’t see any explicit evidence of Near cheating anywhere in canon. That said, I’m not terribly fond of using HTR13 as evidence of anything as I think canon ought to take precedence.

However, I do think it’s worth keeping HTR13 mind as it provides some insight into Ohba’s thought process in writing for each character. So let’s take a quick look at Mikami’s HTR13 stats below. Apologies for the low quality on this mangacap; sadly there just aren’t any high quality scans of the English HTR13 around to use.  

Of particular note, we have intelligence at 8/10. initiative 8/10, emotional strength at 10/10 and loyalty at 10/10. The absolute numbers aren’t important per se, but I bring them up because Mikami was clearly written to be a smart, driven, resilient and loyal guy.  

I’ll come back to the latter traits later, let’s focus on Mikami’s intelligence first. We know the guy is canonically quite sharp. He attends Kyodo University  (a reference to Kyoto University – the equivalent of an Ivy League university in Japan) and that he passes the Japanese Bar exam (司法試験 shihō shiken) on his first try. We know this because by the time Kira is first active in November 2003, Mikami is twenty-one, freshly out of college and already a prosecutor.  

The Japanese bar, I might add, is notoriously difficult with only a pass rate of 2% prior to 2006 before reforms were implemented. (Source) Mikami was a prosecutor by 2003 so that absurdly low pass rate still applies to him. TL;DR the guy is impressive.

Okay. we’ve established that Mikami clearly has a good head on his shoulders. So next what’s interesting is the fact that Mikami was fully aware that he was actually being followed by Gevanni.

Keep in mind that that for the panels I’m referencing there are three key points to remember:

1. Light and Mikami are actively in correspondence through Kiyomi (Not true in the third referenced scene) 2. Kiyomi is the person doing the actual killings by writing names on the pages of the real notebook that Mikami sends her. 3. Mikami is aware that the plan is to make it appear as though he is responsible for the current Kira killings while he writes in a fake notebook.

So in this scene below where Mikami murders the creep on the train, Mikami is doing it for the benefit of an audience.  (And also, lbr, he hates unrighteous chikan too.)

There’s more evidence of this as well. In that sort of infamous scene where OMG MIKAMI IS TALKING TO HIMSELF!!!!!, Mikami is again doing it for the benefit of an audience.

So here he is on the roof of the district attorney’s building, seemingly randomly talking to himself. However, it’s not actually random. Mikami knows Ryuk isn’t there – he can see that just fine for himself. However, it’s important for the people following him to know A) there isn’t a shinigami following him and B) there hasn’t been one following him for a while. Why? Because when the SPK inevitably touch the fake death note he carries around, there needs to be a credible reason for why they don’t see a shinigami materializing before them. They cannot entertain the possibility that there is no shinigami because the note is fake, thus Mikami preemptively explains the discrepancy.

And finally, we have this scene.

For the very first time in the entire period that Gevanni is following Mikami, Mikami shows a sign of awareness that someone could be following him.

So if Mikami is definitely aware that he’s being followed, isn’t it a little odd that Mikami, a man who clearly isn’t afraid to take initiative (see the way he murders Demegawa and Kiyomi without instructions), possesses above average intelligence and knew that his fake death note was being modified by the person following him (he studies it with a microscope), would simply leave the bank empty handed that same day without taking at least a page of the real note with him just in case? Or at the very least, Isn’t it weird that Mikami doesn’t actually test the Death Note on a criminal the next day before showing up at the warehouse just to confirm that the note hadn’t been in any way modified? These are both very simple, logical solutions to problems that are raised by leading Gevanni to the real note. After all, it’s only logical to conclude that whoever is tailing him might try and get access to his bank safety deposit box, discover the real death note and then make sure to neutralize its utility for January 28th.

Of course, what canonically ends up happening is that Mikami doesn’t appear to take a single step to check if the note works or not on January 28th.  But it doesn’t really make sense for Mikami to exhibit such a serious lapse in judgment.

At this point, let’s shift gears and talk about Near for a moment because it also doesn’t make sense for Near, who is canonically a genius, to assume that Mikami wouldn’t have done something to ensure that he could kill everyone at the warehouse the following day or that Light wouldn’t have told Mikami to confirm the note worked that morning.

Near, up to that point, had been operating on the assumption that Light is an idiot. It takes Mello kidnapping Kiyomi to inadvertently stir Mikami into action for Near to realize that Light actually wanted Near to be lulled into a false sense of security with Mikami’s predictability. Note that Near also thinks Mikami is an idiot. In Near’s mind, Kira worshippers are idiots by default to Near by virtue of their beliefs, so naturally it doesn’t even cross his mind to question why on earth X-Kira is taking unnecessary risks by killing people while he’s physically at the scene of a crime. Of course, in reality, Mikami had played his part to perfection and had successfully tricked everyone in the SPK, Near included. 

After Near learns about the real note, he’s forced to confront the fact that he had completely underestimated both Light and Mikami’s intellects and had played right into Kira’s hands for months. Had Mello not serendipitously made his move, Near and the SPK would have all been murdered. Near admits as much during the confrontation at the warehouse; he’d been so catastrophically wrong about his enemies and it would have cost him everything had he not taken action. 

Of course, the action he outright admits to is having Gevanni make a duplicate of the real notebook in Mikami’s safety deposit box and switch the two. 

But does it really make logical sense for Near to simply stop there, when he suspects that pages ripped out of the notebook could still have the full capacity to kill? When he knows how easy it would be for Mikami to check if the note works before heading to Daikoku Wharf?

It doesn’t seem particularly in character, at least in my opinion, for Near to simply disregard either possibility and assume Mikami won’t think to do anything at all -- especially not right after his assumptions about his enemies had been proven to be terribly wrong. And in fact, considering this…

….is literally one of the first questions Near asks Ryuk, we know that this possibility was clearly one that Near considered heavily.

And if Near did consider it, he must have accounted for it rather than leaving the results of the warehouse up to chance. It just, again, doesn’t make sense for Near to not have a contingency plan in place precisely because so many lives beside his own were at stake at the warehouse.

The answer that addresses both the conundrum about Mikami’s lapse in judgment and Near’s own strategizing is simple. We’re right back at Matsuda’s theory that Near does write Mikami’s name into the Death Note specifically to prevent any potential Mikami shenanigans from happening on January 28th.

This is easily accomplished by writing something along the lines of:

“Mikami Teru brings the fake notebook from his bank vault to the Yellowbox Warehouse on January 28th. He does not test the note or bring any pages or scraps of the real death note with him to carry out his instructions.”

Personally I think this much is canon. Near is not the type to gamble his life and the lives of the coworkers and the Japanese Task Force members who’d been working tirelessly to put an end to the Kira case on the back of a deeply misguided hope that Mikami didn’t take the most basic of precautions. We know Near is intelligent. For Near to even think “maybe Mikami will be stupid and everything will turn out fine” would show that he has learned nothing from his initial mistake of underestimating his opponents. Put simply; it’s just not like Near to be this stubborn or naive. 

Writing Mikami’s name into the note doesn’t appear to go against Near’s ethical codes of conduct either. 

As Near himself states in that scene, he’s a pragmatist who doesn’t believe in absolutes in morality.  People have to decide for themselves what’s right and what’s wrong. In this case, I think Near would have concluded that putting the lives of innocent people at risk and potentially sending them to the warehouse like lambs to the slaughterhouse when he could eliminate that risk is unjustifiable. 

As for why I don’t think Near writes Light’s name into the note, it’s because forcing a confession is meaningless. In other words, Near wants to establish Light’s guilt with evidence not by playing Simon Says. (Plus, if Near had written Light’s name into the note, Ryuk wouldn’t have been able to kill Light himself).

As further food for thought though, if Near does in fact write Mikami’s name into the death note, this leads to some really interesting questions about what else  Near wrote into the notebook to control Mikami’s actions as well as how Mikami dies.

From here on out, this is purely speculative on my part, but I’m bringing it up because this is fun and I’m really curious to know what other people’s thoughts are on this.  

Think back to Mikami’s HTR13 stats from before, 10/10 loyalty, 10/10 emotional strength and the fact that we see neither of his dominant traits on display at the warehouse considering he has a meltdown and calls god “trash.” Additionally think back to what Matsuda says about Mikami’s death. He “went crazy“ and died. Of course, psychosis isn’t a cause of death, but it can lead to tremendously self-injurious behaviors and suicidality, which is what I assume Matsuda meant.

Here you may be wondering why would Near write this? Well, he does actually benefit from Mikami’s insanity. See, if Mikami is simply remembered as “that lunatic” people then are naturally disinclined to analyze Mikami’s behavior in depth. (“So what Mikami was acting weirdly at the warehouse, he was clearly a mad man.”) Or in other words, it helps cover up tracks that perhaps Near didn’t want made apparent.

There are some cues in the warehouse scene itself that suggest that Mikami is already unravelling at the warehouse even  before Light’s downfall. Mikami pulling all sorts of crazed expressions is basically a meme in the fandom, so a lot of people are aware that the way Mikami physically looks and presents himself is completely different from how he usually carried himself prior to that point.

Take for example, Mikami’s usual pleasant expression.

He scowls a lot and is generally well put together. Composed, if you will.

And this is the expression Mikami pulls when he confirms that god is real.

This is arguably one of the best moments of Mikami’s entire life and it’s still a normal facial expression as facial expressions go.

Next this is Teru’s face when he’s literally speaking to god on the phone and is already acting as god’s right hand.

Again this is arguably one of the best moments of Mikami’s life. You can tell he’s thrilled and excited about this, but again, it’s not twisted, it’s not alarming. He still has that composure to him with his hand placed respectfully over his chest as he pledges his loyalty to Kira.

And then we have this outlier.

Seriously. Who is this guy and which circle of hell did he come from? 

Granted there is a tremendous amount of context that needs to be accounted for in this panel because this is, after all, the moment that Mikami has been chosen, hand picked by god, to eliminate his enemies!! The Dream!! There is no question that it’s the highest honour of his entire life….

…And yet there’s a total disruption in the way he presents himself. He smiles manically, he looks unhinged and about ready to unravel at the seams — and it makes one wonder if “went crazy” was something that was already happening right before everyone’s eyes.

So if Mikami was specifically written into the note to apparently have a psychotic break and die ten days later, it raises an interesting question. How much of Mikami’s behavior in the warehouse was a product of Mikami’s own volition? 

Were the sakujogasms a lie?! /soblol.

Thanks for reading!

[nikkithomas]

Save The Butterfly

It’s been two years since my doctor told me that I needed to start keeping a journal of my daily diet and working out. I told him that I HAD been doing all of that for 6-8 months and seeing no real results. That’s when he stopped dead in his tracks and said “we’re checking your thyroid”. Sure enough...my thyroid appeared to be for ornamental purposes only.

I’d been through this before. Most doctors test your TSH and when the values look normal...they just let it go and tell you that you’re fine. Thank goodness this doctor looked even closer at what was going on and knew to test my T3 and T4 as well. It wasn’t until over a year later when I felt horrible even though I was taking medication (levothyroxine andl then later liothyronine) that I went back to another doctor (I had moved to a different state at that point and really hadn’t been in to see a doctor since moving) and it was discovered that my levels were way off. The second doctor tested my TPOab and they were way out of whack.

Doctor #2 took me off of the levothyroxine/liothyronine combo...and took it down to just the levothyroxine and upped the dosage. By spring, I felt like garbage again and sought out an endocrinologist with the help of my primary physician. It took MONTHS to get into her practice...but when that time rolled around...she sat me down...looked at my blood work and told me that she would have had me hospitalized if she had seen the blood work that my primary saw several months before. She diagnosed me with autoimmune thyroiditis. Hashimoto’s disease.

I started reading everything possible. Dr. Internet had a whole lot of nothing to say.

Fatigue? Yeah. Swollen face? You betcha. Weight gain? Damn right. And lots of it. Sleep problems? Uh...yeah. Big time. Anxiety? Yep. Muscle pain? OMG yes. Sometimes so bad that it brought me to tears. Hair loss? Lil’ bit. Brittle nails? Yeah Weird swelling? Mmhmm I even had problems with my tongue. WTH?! EXTREME Vitamin D deficiency? Oh yeah...that too. Weird low body temperature? I average around 97.3 degrees to the average persons normal of 98.6. I am truly...cold-blooded. I burn up all the time though. Odd.

It was so frustrating. It was as if everything that had gone haywire in my body was now readily explained with this diagnosis.

First off...I was worried and relieved all at the same time.It was like a light went on and everything fell into place. THIS is why I was so tired. I’d work 12-14 hours a day and go home and go straight to my couch or to bed. I still do. I’m not complaining because I love my job. BUT...I have to admit that it had become increasingly difficult to push through for all those hours. Even now with medication it’s tough but I do it. When I wake up at random hours in the night and can’t get back to sleep...I find things to work on. It’s how I’ve adjusted to the situation. This has been going on for YEARS.

Secondly...it was concerning because I wondered how much damage had been done and was now irreparable because it had gone untreated so long.

Third...even with an explanation about my weight...that didn’t really help me feel any better about it.

I started thinking back and it was overwhelming to process things like my erratic body temp issues...my face getting red in the past (and even now to some degree...) having TWO major surgeries for things that could have been controlled and treated with medication. The crazy weight gain. (I am basically the size of a small to medium size village at this point.)

What a ripoff.

How in the hell did this go on so long without being diagnosed!?!?!

The levothyroxine sucked. I had felt better with the mix of synthroid and cytomel. My friend Amy in Arizona had Hashimoto’s and had recommended Naturethroid. I begged my endocrinologist to switch me out and she did. It was awesome!! I felt so much better. Not great....but better. Not like a melted candle on a summer sidewalk...but more of a semi-melted ice cream cone on a spring day.

THEN...there was a national shortage?! No. Seriously. That happened.

Walgreen’s ran out of Naturethroid. Almost all pharmacies ran out. That’s when they put me on Armour. Garbage. Lame. I might as well have been licking chalk every day. I gained even MORE weight. Was super tired. Depressed. It was terrible.

Finally...I found a pharmacy that carried Naturethroid and even though it wasn’t an accurate dose...was able to break it into something that seemed to work.

One of the hardest things about this stupid thyroid disease...disorder...whatever you want to call it...is that it seems to take forever to get the dosage correct. I’m still not 100 percent. I’m still getting bloodwork done more often than I’d like. Just to function. Just to live. I keep reminding myself that there are so many others who have things that are so much more difficult to live with...and that puts it into perspective. It still sucks though.

I hate the memes about this disease. Annoying. Basically...there are two varieties: the “omg I’m so tired and you don’t understand” garbage...

Okay. Seriously?

Just STFU.

If you feel like you have to put that out there...the people around you suck. Stop talking to those losers and caring what those bitches think. Just...STOP. The whiny memes are not inspirational. They’re just...whiny. Yeah yeah. You’re sick...I’m sick...we’re all sick. We’re all trying to get by...blah blah blah.

Sorry sweetheart...but we’re all on a one horse open sleigh...straight to the grave. All of us. No one will make it. There will be no survivors. Suck it up. We’re all dying. There are people out there with cancer and a bajillion other things that are excruciatingly painful. Hypothyroidism sucks...and it isn’t easy...but come on. Try not to live in that head space. We all want to take a nap...under our desks...ten minutes after we get to work...but still...

Listen...if you feel like you have to explain yourself and your battle to people...maybe those people aren’t really worthy of being around you? Something to think about. Your pain is real...the fatigue and symptoms are real...people who genuinely love and care about you...will understand. Anyone that would try to make you feel bad about what’s going on with your health...probably isn’t worth your time and effort anyway.

(Thyroid Cancer...is pretty scary. I literally had one doctor tell me that if I ended up having thyroid cancer...that it was the “best kind”. For the people that have lived through that...you go ahead and you post the memes. You’ve earned that right.)

And then there are the dicks that make fat jokes. I don’t mind the fat slurs. I have to admit though...the acceptance of that form of discrimination makes me laugh. It’s totally fine to trash someone for being fat and treat them like they’re less than human...but a lot of those same people that discriminate against the “glandular challenged”...seem to get offended over other forms of discrimination. The hypocrisy...is awesome...not really.

Except for this quote...this one is actually my favorite...

Gets me every time. Fat or not...that’s just...funny.

They can make all the gravy jokes they want...deep down...I can’t wait until their glands fail them and they start to chub up later in life...or until their wives leave them because of their impotence issues. But...I digress...

If you’re living with this garbage...I’m sorry. If your “journey” (that’s my least favorite blog buzzword EVER...”journey”)...is anything like mine...I wish you the best of luck and hope that you find the right mix of medication for your condition. I’m still on the struggle bus trying to find mine. As you work your way towards a workable solution...and maybe start losing the weight and get some of your energy back...just remember the people who weren’t there for you or made you feel like less of a person...and make a note of it. That’s who they really are...deep down. Don’t you deserve better than that in your life?

I’m going to go grab 45 minutes of sleep and then go to work. Namaste’ people.

[bigbrothermonopoly]

EPISODE 6:

HOH: JESS

EVICTED: CHRIS 6-3

JESS:

BRIEN:

BRIEN:

BRIEN:

CHRIS:

Please on everything let the nominations stay the same 😂. This is the perfect scenario to backdoor someone. I’ll be pissed if I don’t get taken out by Andrew. If I die and get evicted , I want the satisfaction of being defeated by my enemy, not someone who works for them. The ban hammer is coming though, once we get on an HoH , it’s time to play 

KORI:

So let's see, Gwen now knows about Emma's advantage. Apparently Brien told her, I'm mildly worried she doesn't believe me when I told her I didn't know that Emma had the advantage though I stupidly said I knew she had a SINGLE light blue... so it was a sort of truth because that was true awhile ago. That's a storyline waiting to blowup in my face later I'll bet. I'm glad Jess won HoH because I feel like my odds of staying pretty much certain this week. ADDITIONALLY, I LOVE the current nomset, especially if Brien is the one that goes. But naturally fate will intervene and someone will win Veto shaking things up. I mean I didn't expect Eve to go, and look what happened. I'm trying to be optimistic since I don't think I'm bombing this... TOO hard. I just keep worrying I might make a social misstep (Assuming I haven't already). There's just so much constantly happening and honestly it IS tiresome playing this middle role. I think it'll eventually bite me in the ass. Gwen told me about Dem's tea apparently being about me according to Chris. I tried probing Chris to see if he'd tell me that Dem was slandering me, I was just talking about how much I trust our group. (To be frank, I think I laid it on too thick.) He didn't give though. I think it's a good gauge to see if people want Dem to go. We'll have to see if others beyond Gwen come forward with this info. In the meanwhile I made $50! I missed the last couple 1 to a mistake which Gwen got. The other I'm not sure since I simply wasn't online. If I can make back another $100 I'll meet the amount I'm "supposed" to have after having bought the utilities. I still don't think I'll ever have enough to "make a move" in this game, but maybe I can prevent someone else's. A railroad purchase isn't too crazy if I can get things and people to line up properly. I feel like my ideal 3 at THIS moment is Myself, Emma, and Jess. While my ideal next 3 boots are Brien, Dem, and one of Andrew and Chris.

GWEN:

I feel like Chris is lying to me about something, but I don't know what. I definitely trust Kori 100%. The information that I share with him does not get out. The only thing that I haven't shared is that Chris and I literally go on call every night and like fall asleep. I'm debating whether to tell him...I feel like if I wait too long, he might not trust me. But if Chris tells him, I might break Kori's trust. I might tell him tomorrow. We will see. I would say that on a game/strategic level, but Chris definitely more on a personal level. But like Chris COULD be totally playing me. I wouldn't put it past him. But luckily, I have my guard up and I'm totally aware that this could be a possibility. I really hope Brien goes home. He's toooo snakey. I'm still not totally sure who shared the info about the alliance with Dem...but time will tell. I have the Cloud 9 power. Chris, Austin, and I put our resources together to get it. I can use it on me or on them, but I can't transfer it. Obviously, I told Kori about it as it was going down. Lol. But I trust Kori not to throw me under the bus. I WANT to trust Chris. I'm trying to feed his ego in case that is the case. OMG Chriss you are such a great Will Kirby OMG teach me your ways. Like I haven't had people fooled before. But in all seriousness, I hope that Chris and I can continue to be friends once the game is over. BUT IN THIS GAME I WILL DO WHAT I NEED TO DO TO PROTECT MYSELF. Oh also, I'm getting closer with Kristine. I like her. I wish I was closer with Jess and William. I feel like Jess doesn't quite trust me, which is sad. We shall see.

GWEN:

Chris, Chris, Chris...you silly silly boy. I'm ONTO YOU. And you don't even realize you did it to yourself. You are sooooo lucky to be up next to a showmance right now. I might have to play this charade for one or two more rounds. I just need to try to get you out without you knowing I did it so you don't blow up my game. And get you to give me your money. (DEVIL EMOJI).

GWEN:

As I wait 8 more minutes until I can search for an idol in another ORG...I figured I would elaborate on my last DR. Chris, Chris, Chris. First of all, your talk with Dem today was complete BS. And you didn't give me a straight answer when I asked what was happening. You think you are soooo clever manipulating everyone a la Dr. Will. Not on my watch MR. You may have charmed me for a while, but I am onto you and I am coming for you. And for someone who doesn't want to be found on the internet, it was pretttttty lazy of you to post a picture of you with your work badge with your last name showing Mr. Chris. Easy Facebook search and what do I find? Mr. Chris has a girlfriend of at least a year. How does she feel about you staying up on call with me almost every night for a week? Sounds like either you don't tell her (which I would be pissed about) OR you think I'm just a tool to use in this game. Well, watch me hammer you out of here and give me your money in the process. I don't know how yet. But I will. Don't you worry. Until then, I'm just your sweet, innocent, naive Gwen. "OMG Chris how do you do it you are sooooooo good. OMG Chris get on call with me tonight. OMG Chris." Please. You may be lucky and not go this week, but guess what? I have someone that I actually trust 100% in Kori and between the two of us, we will cook up a plan. He will be finding out about your shenanigans tomorrow. Have fun in VL/Jury House. Byeeeee.

WILLIAM:

Ummmmmmmmmmm.... Alot happened in the last few days... 1.) Everyone found out about an alliance of 6. 2.) Dem lost his shit, both making everyone mad and showing that he is emotional but also exposed many more people. 3.) Kristine said the Brien started the whole alliance and decided to leave me out, and 4.) Chris (Who is on the block...) TOLD ME HE MADE THE ALLIANCE AND CHOOSE TO LEAVE ME OUT... Like do you want me to vote to keep you???

BRIEN:

BRIEN:

https://youtu.be/y5F4dQL_CKk

AUSTIN:

I believe I fucked myself. I decided to team up with Chris and Gwen so we could get a full property set. The plan was that I ended up with the set but I got stuck giving it to Gwen. I trust her but I don’t trust Chris. I need him to go so there is a better chance of Gwen using the power on me. Also he decided to throw me under the bus multiple times so I don’t trust him one bit. On the contrary, I’m in an alliance with Andrew, Jess, and Mackenzie and I feel very safe with them. 

KORI:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dgDcG250h60&feature=youtu.be

JESS:

Holy fucking shit. I knew my HOH reign would be messy but I didn't expect it to be as messy as it is probably going to be. A lot of people are cracking. There are sooooo many god damn cracks. Which was kind of the goal. I knew there was a high chance of there being some strong connections between people and people usually crumble under pressure. I know with me as HOH there is A LOT OF UNCERTAINTY between people so people are going to crack. So after nominations Brien had come up to me basically insinuating that he said screenshots to prove my word was shit which is fine because my word is DEF shit to people I don't trust aka: Brien. But the way he went about this conversation kind of had me dying lmfao. He basically was saying how my word was shit but then 5 minutes later.... outed an entire side of the house? IT JUST DOESN'T ADD UP SIS. BUT points were def made. He basically outed a majority alliance which had fucking two people I thought I trusted? Honestly though, I knew I couldn't trust Kori. The guy literally had the personality of a wet Kleenex, Emma is going to float to the end and probably win because she's harmless, Chris is a snake, and Kristine is charismatic. The End.

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5/27/17, 1:45 AM - Records Broken, Curses Lifted

This is gonna be the weirdest post I’ve made in a while, I don’t think I’ve ever made a post dedicated to a girl who was actively reading my blog, but I’m gonna try my best not to hold back what I was going to say anyway because fuckit whatever I guess I was going to tell her eventually.

“Textiles girl [Katy] has become something really special” is how I tried to start a blog post last week but I was drunk and bailed out on it.

Initially I was tweeting about how she was tinder attractive because of her fondness of cats and her familiarity with smash bros. But the more I talk to her the more I get that familiar feeling of “this is a female version of me” that makes me go absolutely bonkers for someone. Yknow, kinda like what happened with Ashleigh but like maybe even moreso.

It started as like cosmically coincidental that I matched with her on the one day out of two weeks that I was visiting raleigh, but then found out that she was going to be spending the summer in greensboro. So since I was going for harem strats my idea was that by chit chatting with her until she moved into town I’d kinda have dibs lmfao.

But like then the more we talked the more and more we’d have in common. She’s one of the only people I know to have the same degree of nearsightedness that I had before I got my vision corrected. We both have the same phobia of commitment after coming out of long term relationships [I mean who doesn’t]. We both order our drinks without ice, she says her favorite color is specifically “royal blue” which is exactly how I worded it until I became a unc student, we got picked on in school the same ways, we both have similarly detailed sex conquest lists, we both have a strange fascination with cheetah print, my birthday is the same as her mom’s while her birthday is only two days off from my dad’s and we even have matching scars on our feet. It’s weird. There’s a lot more but I digress.

I didn’t find out all this before meeting her, but Katy is like the first girl I actually thoroughly enjoyed talking to on tinder. We started snapchatting a few days later and haven’t missed a day since (I think we’re at a fire streak of 17 now). Every day that she’d go to work she’d be bored and beg me to entertain her. It reminded me exactly of when I first started working after I graduated and I used to ask Kailey to try to entertain me. Except the only difference is she wouldn’t. Instead, I’d ask Katy all sorts of questions about herself and it got to the point where I was half guessing some of the answers (but I never got them right. We’re not like carbon copies lmfao). 

Almost all of this talk happened after our pseudo-date plans fell through, and so she’s living out in hickory with her parents. I practically begged her to come with me to lake week, but she couldn’t because of family plans, and instead we messaged each other the whole time.

So in typical Tyler head over heels fashion I decided that I needed to do something dramatic to see if this was legit or if I was just getting catfished yet again. I mean we had actually taken the time to go through each others facebook pictures and like talk about our pasts and shit so I knew she wouldn’t be too far off from what I thought she looked like, but idk I just did my best to stay skeptical. But I was excited enough to meet her to drive all the way out to Hickory the day that the lake weekend was over so that I could finally see her and talk to her in person.

And ho.ly. shit. She was cuter than I could’ve possibly imagined. She has this slight southern twang in her voice that I fucking love, and she’s only just barely taller than me, and her laugh had me giddy like immediately. We went out to see Guardians of the Galaxy 2 in a nearly empty theatre and held hands through like the whole thing. She guided me to a bar, we ate a little food, and we finally actually talked about our lives in person. Parked in a church parking lot and had pretty damn good sex, considering it was car sex. Her parents gave her a curfew and she had work in the morning though. Came home into Ashleigh’s apartment in my boxers and Aaron and her both laughed at me, and I joined them to watch some twin peaks.

I felt absolutely hooked on her though. It was like the best first date I’d ever been on in my life. I felt like I could tell her almost anything, and it was like impossible for us to have an awkward moment. I couldn’t stand the thought of waiting until I got back from Florida to see her again, so I asked if she wanted to see me again on Wednesday.  [tuesday was great too, played some smash and chilled with Aaron and Ashleigh, played some magic, went to bars, smoked with them and discussed theology lol.]

and she did, though. We decided that since we couldn’t hang around her parents place and since we’ve both always wanted to, we’d get a hotel room for the explicit purpose of just having a ton of sex and hanging out in alone. It was fucking phenomenal. Her parents weren’t home when I picked her up so I made her give me a tour of her house so I could meet her pets and see what her room was like (she has SOOO much cheetah shit omg <3). We got some chic fil a, I made an ass out of myself yelling about rubbing fried chicken all over our naked bodies in the middle of the supermarket next to small children while we got cider, and we checked into the hotel. We had about 5 hours until we had to drop her off at home, so we basically alternated dual marathons of sex and rick and morty. I want to get absurdly explicit about how sexy it was, but idt I can right now, I only do that kind of writing in private lmfao. The tl;dr is we broke both our 6-hr records by hitting 7 separate sexings. I came 6 different times in 5 hours, it was fucking crazy hahaha. And we got through like 5 episodes lol. pretty perfect day if I do say so myself.

And what made it all the better was I let her pick between my two pairs of sexy underwear - the space tighties from my NY road trip and the cheetah briefs that Kailey got me as a birthday present. Obviously Katy picked the cheetah ones but my go to would have been the space ones, only because every fucking single time I wore those cheetah boxers in anticipation of a date it’s either fallen through or gone totally shitty. They were literally cursed until wednesday. I swear it’s like a sign or something.

I hate drawing this kind of comparison, but there’s something nagging me like Katy represents all the traits that I had actually wanted in Kailey when we first started dating. Like the interest in video games and cartoons and better music taste while retaining the absurdly high thirst for sex lmfao. But it’s like kinda purified by her allergy to smoke, because I feel like that was the only core connection that me and Kailey had for a long time. For a while I would postulate that Kailey quitting smoking weed would be like me quitting melee, and so I kind of fucking love that Katy doesn’t smoke at all. It makes me not want to, too. The day before I left the lake I smoked my last cigarette in anticipation of seeing her. Haven’t had a problem not smoking since, haven’t wanted to pick up a new pack. I think I’m really done with them.

But so long story short I’m getting feelings for this girl because she’s absolutely incredible to me. I’ve only seen her twice but I feel like we’ve been talking forever and I’m pretty committed to doing whatever it’s going to take to get her to date me eventually. It honestly kind of horrifies me to write that knowing that she’s about to read all this, because I know that she’s just getting out of her relationship and we’ve talked about how she doesn’t want to do anything serious right now, so I was just going to keep these feelings under wraps for a long time so that I didn’t blow things prematurely. Kind of reminds me of Exactly how I fucked things up before lmfao. I hate making the same mistakes twice, but who knows.

😘😘😘😘 Katy, if you’re reading this, it’s too late. Hope ya don’t freak out. Fingers crossed. You’re totally gorgeous and I love spending time with you and every time I get a message from you it makes me a little happier, and persistent thoughts of you have dissolved all of my interest in pursuing any other woman for the time being. So that’s it.

Love life updated.

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As per request, 2.05

You guys have been so freaking sweet and kind  to me with your feedback since I started making these ridiculous posts, it’s insane but I love it!❣️ I literally started these as a joke because my one friend who watches call the midwife didn’t pick up the phone (and bc I was under the influence whoops hahaha it happens) but now I have so much fun posting every week! I’m sure I won’t stop these any time soon (what will I do when this series is over until Christmas? Yikes lets not talk about it yet)  Anyways @marialujan22 requested I rewatch and post for 2x5 & shit it’s been a while since I’ve watched series 2 but I couldn’t say no! Besides Im in a good mood because I have 10 days till spring break & only like 8 weeks left in the semester so here we go ..

idk if I’m mentally prepared for this

THE BIKE SONG I LOVE IT

“Somewhere far away, scientist we’re working on a magic pill, rumored to make pregnancy a case of choice..” Hell yea birth control, deff a magic pill in my opinion

Crazy that it took 3 series for the pill to become a thing & then there was still lame ass government guidelines

Jenny Lee! lol I often forget about her sorry not sorry, I liked her but she left. ya no importa

I love how “mature jenny” still narrates even though her character is never even mentioned anymore #letmenarrate lol jk I like Vanessa Redgrave’s voice

“Meanwhile other scientists were trying to send humans to the moon” fuck yea Hidden Figures

If CtM went up until 1969 that’d be lit, like the episode on mad men when they watched the moon landing! Just replace them with nuns and nurses and babies & replace the liquor for tea 😂

Shit I’ve said typed so much already

SISTER MJ💕 I wanna smack myself she’s brushing her teeth & I thought of that stupid toothbrush song from last week’s episode kill me

Nora’s pregnant again uh oh

Cynthia! SISTER E! Jane! It’s been so long

My bby Trixie 💕😍 I miss her pin curls! But now she’s serving those 60s looks so I’m here for it all

“Take that off this minute before you go to hell” LMAO TRIX YOU CANT TELL KIDS THAT

lol who am I kidding I would’ve said the same

I love sister Monica Joan, id quote everything she ever says but that’s too much work

Vicar’s wife? But who was the vicar?

LMAO WAIT DOESNT SISTER MJ FAKE A HEART ATTACK??

YES SHE DID IM DEAD I LOVE HER, WELL IT WAS LIKE ANGINA BUT IDC STILL FUNNY CAUSE SHE DIDNT WANNA GO

PRECIOUS SISTER BERNADETTE 😭💕

I STILL CANT BELIEVE MY BBY SHELAGH WAS A NUN, ITS SO STRANGE TO GO BACK AND SEE HER IN THE HABIT, LIKE YOURE PREGNANT NOW, WITH DR TURNERS BABYYY!!

anyone else really wanted to know how she was going to tell Sister Julienne “um i was already done with being a nun and now im love sick, I can’t stop thinking about Dr Turner so  I gotta ditch this habit”

damn I feel so bad like she did not want another baby & had no choice but to deal with it

No Jenny, tea is not gonna help right now

And heres the lady that scammed her

How much is 2 guinnis ? Idk how to spell that u already know I’m an ignorant American

Did she really tell a married woman keep her legs closed? It Doesn’t even matter if she was married or not like who are u anyway?? I would’ve bitch slapped her too, good for u Nora

Sister MJ saying her horoscope was right, we are the same😭

Wtf is spotted dick? Also I laughed because I’m immature Lmaoo

Sister J eating the pudding, she knows how to get to sister MJ 😂 I love them

Trixie teasing Jane about the Reverend lol aw

“I can’t knit I had a heart attack this morning” ME TRYING TO GET OUT OF THINGS

8 kids in one bedroom though yikes

Cute and classic bedroom moments 😭💕

“Naughty version of eggnog” like coquito? Lol nah, coquito is the bomb

IM CRYING SISTER BERNADETTE LOOKING IN THE DOORWAY

THIS BREAKS MY HEART EVERYTIME

THEY FUCKING CLOSED THE DOOR ON HER, MY BBY. I WANT TO HUG HER 💔💔💔 she deserves the world

Who is this irrelevant ass vicars wife? “Cherrio”

I’m so sorry Nora

Ew wtf a rat just bit the baby?

“Just tell me what you want sister” SHE WANTS YOU DOCTOR

THE WAY THEYRE LOOKING AT EACH OTHER OMG IM SHOOK

WHAT THE HELL TIM WHY DID YOU RUIN THE MOMENT ?!

sister MJ wants to roll bandages, make it happen! lol I love that Cynthia and Jane unwrap them all for her 😭

Aww i love babies !! but that one with a funny nose uhh

SISTER BERNADETTE BLOWING THE WHISTLE AND CHEERING 💕 MY HEART SHE IS SO ADORABLE

Aw I wish Trixie could have another scene going through old pictures and maybe share old stories with the new nurses💔 unlikely but you know I can hope. SHE DID HAVE THAT PHOTO OF HER AND CYNTHIA ON HER MIRROR LAST SUNDAY💕

“I’m a woman on a mission” beatrix, light in my life

Curly locks lol, when I was younger I  was called Shirley temple and when I dyed my hair I was called Goldie locks.. mind u that lasted into high school 😂 I’m staying blonde for good though, I don’t think I can pull off anything else

DONT GO OUT WITH HIM TRIXIE, HE’S TRASH

Laura Main’s angelic voice ✨👼🏼

who am I kidding she’s an angel

you know what would be fun and a dream? to go out with the ctm cast and get drunk and take trashy snapchat videos singing

Gin & a hot bath??

Trixie looked him up lol, good move

BUT HE’S STILL TRASH and an asshole

Pickle knife ?

again, this irrelevant vicar’s wife? vete ya

Everyone thinks Sister MJ is senile but she knows what’s up with Sister Bernadette..

“..but is all blank sadness and continued tears”  MY HEART💔 sister Bernadette/Shelagh has spent the majority of this show crying/being sad/distressed ugh!! Laura Main plays is beautifully but I CRY!? Let her be uninterruptedly happy please 😭💕

she (and helen) ruined me tbh, I used to have dignity

Is Jenny really naive or is she just pretending not to understand??

SEE SISTER BERNADETTE IS ON SCREEN AGAIN & IS UPSET

“I almost wish I was physically ill..” okay bRb CRYIN. THIS IS WHY I CANT WATCH THESE OLDER EPISODES I CRY TOO MUCH, I DONT LIKE TO SEE HER UNHAPPY

Remember when I started the show and didn’t know it was gonna ruin my life? Or before I grew attached? Yea me neither lmaoo those were the days when I thought downton killed me. I Didn’t know what was coming 😂 still love downton though rip #downtonmoviepls

Knitting needles?? aye dios mio

HA GREMLIN TIM AND JACK

Again how much is a gunniea and how do I spell it? I could google it but I’m busy here

She was willing to sell her wedding ring and risk her life for an unprofessional abortion. DO YOU SEE THE ISSUE? This isn’t just the a period drama either. Shit is real

“Are babies more valued because they can survive or do they survive beside they are more valued?” good question sis

lol Jane was so sweet and just bounced with no word

AT LEAST I KNOW WHERE SHE WENT THOUGH, THANKS FOR THAT NZ CUT SCENE

Trixie being a babe and getting ready to do her nails 😍💕 I wish I could do mine well but I’m trash and so I pay to get them done

The cross cutting in this scene is crazy but so well done (& yes look at me using real terms lol, I took a Music in film class last semester and had to know editing techniques 😂, I did fairly well too)

I really don’t know how she survived this

My bby trixie looking gorgeous as per usual. I love her so much, Helen u kill me

NO COÑFIO TRIXIE, HE’S NO GOOD

Haha why did I not remember the Gone With The Wind reference? Cynthia was so cute, I miss her carefree and happy

FRECO MOVE YOUR DAMN HAND, YOU ARE TRASH.

HE’S FICTIONAL BUT ID STILL FIGHT HIM

my poor bby😭💔 it is not your fault , he’s trash!! But this moment between the nurses warmed my cold heart

“Matrons in charge, virgins of iron” 😭😭

Aw Earth Angel playing, ✨🎼 I highkey pop to 50s/60s pandora stations

Jenny yes it’s illegal but do you think that matters rn??

TIM AS MAID MARION LMAO

Sister Bernadette looking at Dr Turner ah omg 😭they’ve come so far.

It’s not your fault Jenny but you should’ve told someone

Sister B & Tim won 👏🏼

LMAO ALL I CAN THINK OF IS THAT POST “WOAH CALM DOWN IM JUST TRYNA DATE YOUR DAD”

and she’s down, and the glasses flew

“You’ve hurt your hand” “well I’m sure there’s no need to amputate” ah sister b/shelagh lowkey has some of the funniest lines she just slips them in and people miss them !!

Here it comes ..

THE MOMENT..

“Would you like me to have a look at that?” UHM YEA

No but seriously I can barely remember what I thought when I first watched this but I knew something was gonna happen because a nurse can handle her own damn cut & well you know, she was in love with him

HE KISSED HER HAND. A fucking doctor kissed a nuns hand people, how scandalous & this was THE MOMENT I KNEW I WAS CORRUPT AND WAS GOING TO HELL, I AM SATAN I WANTED THE DOCTOR TO KISS A FREAKING NUN ON THE MOUTH LIKE WTF WHO RAISED ME? MY MOTHER WANTED IT TOO SO IDK BUT THIS KILLED ME, LIKE R.I.P HERE LIES GABBY, I WAS IN THE GROUND DECEASED. I’m actual trash. Someone dispose of me in the proper bin #recyle

for real, this is when I really knew that I was never going to love any other show like this and I allowed it to ruin me

BUT HONESTLY WHAT THE HELL WAS HE THINKING? THATS A BOLD MOVE

BOLD IN GENERAL BECAUSE YOU DONT KNOW IF SHE LIKES YOU BUT BOLD x1000 BC SHE IS A NUN, YOU KNOW MARRIED TO GOD, VOW OF CHASITY AND ALL THAt??

What if she would’ve freaked tf out or told sister Julienne? I don’t even know. I’ll just be grateful for how things turned out

“At this moment I only know I’m not turning my back on you because of you but I’m doing it because of him” AHHHH, DONT WORRY BBY GOD LOVES U AND UNDERSTANDS YOU LOVE HIM AND THE DOCTOR, LOSE THAT HABIT AND GO PROPERLY KISS PATRICK 😭

Sister MJ judging the baby contest is the purest thing & I need it to cleanse my disgusting soul that wants a dr to get with a nun #notsorrythough

“In Nonnatus we were good at tending other’s wounds and there were times I felt we were all each other’s children..” brb I’m crying I love that they’re like a family 😭💕💔

I’m so happy they didn’t kill Nora and she actually was happy in the end. I really wasn’t sure for a moment (obviously when I first watched lol)

“ Free reliable contraception came too late to help her, but in time the scientists triumphed. Her daughters and granddaughters lives remained transfigured, long after man left fleeting footprints on the moon.” Vanessa always knowing what to say in the end.

Lets see how the pill is going to be reintroduced this series, I’m interested  in how it’s going to play out.

I’ve said that so many times though so I’ll be done

The End.