#PSA | a letter from OG

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// MUCH ADULTING HAPPENED TODAY AND IT IS GOOD

Some of y’all may know that my class schedule is 8AM-3PM monday/wednesday and 3PM-8PM tuesday/thursday. Meaning tuesdays and thursdays I usually catch up on all the sleep and things I didn’t get to do on monday and wednesday bc those are my ‘doing things’ days, and tuesday and thursday are my ‘resting and lazy catch-up days’. 

Well not this one. 

I got up at 7AM today, finally got a new temporary license at the DMV ( now will I finally be able to drive at all??  who knows! I have someone I might be able to bribe into letting me get my required hours in on his wheels, but that’s flimsy at best rn ), went to the bank and FINALLY after SEVERAL MONTHS and FOUR DAYS STRAIGHT of going in, got them to acknowledge my legal name change from back in DECEMBER. Then I fought with the school, figured out how they lost my immunization records and managed to find them ( big yay! ), and got all my financial aid & student loan stuff sorted fully for next year- I just have 1 form to fill out tonight and turn in tomorrow, which will allow me to pick up the final form I need to fill out, and turn it in as well. 

On top of that I finished a commission,designed an outfit for a character design commission I’m ALMOST done with, and made MAJOR progress on 3 of my homework assignments/finals ( no pictures included today ‘cause some of them are REQUIRED to be ugly & others are potentially triggering but please feel free to poke me if you wanna see/ask about them!!! I love talking about my assignments tbh bc they���re always hella interesting!!! ).

All that done and said I am-- EXHAUSTED, yet strangely peppy? Like for once my exhaustion is mostly physical, which means I won’t be going to the gym tonight like normal ( which is probably for the best bc yesterday I kinda managed my stress by doubling up on.... uh... everything so my body needs the break ) and thus will be expending my energy online? I have-- a huge number of things to read through still bc I have not had much time for that, but please, now is the time to poke me on IMs/Dis.cord. I can’t promise much plotting or IC stuff, but I am at least around OOC rn while I work on maintenance stuff. Who knows- we might even coax some muse out tonight after all, I’m optimistic. 

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Timeline

This timeline is comprehensive, meaning that it covers events from the beginning of Erik’s life, to the end of the book, as I have imagined them. Obviously tweaks can be made in the event that a partner’s version of things drastically differs from my own. Note that I’ve chosen to use the timeframe set by the ALW musical ( NOT the film! ) , simply to make things easier on myself on this blog. Plotlines diverge after canon events, and will be carried out in separate, verse-specific timelines, which will all be linked as they arise. Please note also that I am using the real-life date of the fire at the Paris Opera house as a basis for when the canon events of PotO take place for my Erik, to better allow him to mesh with other plotlines/stories.

Please note that in many ways Erik’s story is highly canon divergent, also note that it may contain references to events that could be triggering for some, including abuse & murder.

[1835] Erik is born to a nobleman’s wife with a horrific deformity covering the whole right side of his face and torso. Appalled, but fearing the wrath of god should she kill the child, Erik’s mother locked him away in the basement instead, with only a small window for sunlight, and spun a story of how the child had died during birth.

[1838] The child, not even given the gift of a name by the time of his third birthday, is practically feral, but for the kindness of a blind old housemaid, who visits him and recites fairy tales from her childhood, and sings him to sleep. When she can, the maid brings him picture books, so that he might learn a little of how to read. His mother sees him infrequently, sickened at the sight of him, and she has a mask crafted to hide his face that serves as his first and only birthday gift.

[1840] A caravan of performers comes through town, and Erik’s mother sees her chance. She tells herself she is giving the child a better life among those more suited to tolerate the sight of him. She sells him for a modest sum, and tries to forget he ever existed.

[1840 - 1846] There is a duality to the way Erik is treated in the caravan. By a few, outside of shows, he is fed and given what he needs to survive, however there is still a general air of disgust and mistrust- the show members 'abnormalities’ are all false, or are well planned acts that have taken years to perfect, and few have seen anything as grotesque as the young boy’s face- not alive, anyway. He is paraded around, given the titles ‘The Living Corpse’ and ‘The Devil’s Child’, but never a name. During shows, Erik is beaten for the entertainment of the crowd, whipped, and humiliated. Patrons can pay to throw small objects at him through the bars, and not once is he told it is all meant to be an act. When he outgrows the mask his mother left him with he’s given a sack to cover his face until he’s done growing.

[1846] The young boy, still nameless at this point, escapes and flees from the caravan, killing the man who tries to stop him in his desperation. He is aided in his escape by a promising young ballerina who had snuck out with others from her troupe and seen his ‘show’, and had taken pity on him. He was able to travel south a ways before stopping, and for a short time he came to live in the woods, surviving like a feral animal.

[1846] Late in that year, the boy is found by a Persian man by the name of Nadir Khan, then serving as Daroga for the Shah. Nadir brought Erik in from the wilderness and presents him with proper clothes, and a new mask, for even in his kindness he is discomforted by such a grisly sight. When he learns that the boy is nameless, he encourages him to choose one of his own, and eventually the boy settles on Erik, after one of the figures in the blind maid’s stories.

[1846 - 1855] Nadir, horrified by how little Erik seems to know of basic, human things, and almost fearful of what he might hear should the boy ever open up about the past, provides him with the tools to learn so that he can have a semblance of normalcy- and oh, does he learn. Erik swiftly proves himself to be a genius, picking up reading with a swiftness that shouldn’t be possible at his age, and writing almost as quickly, becoming fascinated by science and the arts, and for a short while he is able to learn to his heart’s content, almost openly, though still he rarely sets foot outside.

[1855] Now a young man of roughly 20 years, Erik overhears whispers which he should not, and is set to be put to death by the Shah as a result. Nadir helps Erik to escape, and he makes his way back to Paris, where he learns of the tunnels leading underneath the city, and the Opera House. He takes up residence in them, and it is at this time that he finally finds what he believes has been missing from his life, and what will fill it- music.

[1856 - 1860] Over the course of the next few years, Erik develops not only his skill with music and his home under the Opera House, but his persona as the Opera Ghost. He finds that theft only gets him so far, and over time learns to swindle the manager more effectively with threats and skills that seem truly supernatural to the untrained eye. During this time, he also encounters the ballerina who aided his escape from Paris and from the circus, now beginning a career as the instructor and matron of the Corps De Ballet, and takes it upon himself to protect her and her young daughter in every way he can out of gratitude for her help- which she continues to provide out of a mixture of pity and fear.

[1866] Christine Daae, age 13, comes to live at the Paris Opera House. She is not immediately notable to Erik- she is so only because she is treated like a daughter by Madame Giry, and therefore considered by Erik to be under his protection as well.

[1867] Nearing the end of this year, Erik takes notice of Christine’s vocal talent, and begins to pay closer attention to her.

[1868] Erik begins considering how to approach Christine, wishing to nurture her outstanding talent. He devises dozens of ways he might speak without frightening her, but discards the better majority of them out of fear of being seen.

[1869] Erik begins singing to Christine when she is alone, and she is entranced by his voice, and dubs him the Angel of Music. He does not dispute this, thinking it is a perfect, harmless guise under which to train the young singer.

[1870] Christine’s tutelage under Erik begins properly- at no point does she ever see her ‘angel’, but she adores him, and he begins to believe she might be capable of loving him, and begins to fall into obsession, spending the next few years dedicated solely to her.

[1873] The events of PotO take place ( the divergences therein will be discussed at a later point in their own post! Thanks for your patience! )

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WHILE I’D LOVE TO JUST SHARE GREAT FICS, I HAVE A REASON FOR SHARING THIS ONE!!!

This is the original fic, but it was stolen by another ao3 user! Please make sure you’re reading this one by dreamscapez!

For some context:

A person in a server (my fav server btw) I’m in brought it to our attention, so we replied to the original author’s fic telling them what was up. The OG author went to the stolen work and told them to take it down, but that “author”deleted their comment. After I and a few others from the server commented on the stolen work, telling future readers that it was not their own, that “author” deleted our comments and disabled comments on all of their works (I am unsure as to whether they’ve stolen their other works)

Because of this, I made a post on AO3, using the same tags as the OG author and telling readers what was up. At first, the fake had the same name as the original, but they capitalized one letter, but after my post, they changed the name to “it was temporary.” I don’t know how else they’ll change it, so if my summary on the ao3 post seems a little out of date, that’s why! Just click on the post and you’ll get the link to the original author’s work! (You’ll be able to tell it’s my work as soon as you read the title)

I didn’t want to reveal the name of the one that stole this fic, because I don’t want people to harass them, especially as they seem young (though they disabled comments anyway so…) but I might have to if they change the appearance of their stolen work so that at a glance, it looks like a different work. Their work is more recent, so it’ll pop up before the og work, but my PSA post or whatever is more recent than the fake, so you’ll probably see it before theirs anyway.

Please don’t steal content, yall!! It’s very uncool and content creators work so hard to produce things that we’ll/they’ll enjoy. It’s not fair if you get credit for someone else’s ideas and work. This message also goes to those people that repost work without permission. “Credit to the artist/creator” IS NOT CREDIT! Stop doing that, you guys!!

Chapters: 6/6
Fandom: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Bakugou Katsuki/Kaminari Denki, Bakugou Katsuki/Kirishima Eijirou, Kaminari Denki/Shinsou Hitoshi
Characters: Bakugou Katsuki, Kirishima Eijirou, Kaminari Denki, Class 1-A (My Hero Academia), Ashido Mina, Sero Hanta, Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead
Additional Tags: Unrequited Love, Unrequited Crush, Not Actually Unrequited Love, Soft Bakugou Katsuki, Pining Bakugou Katsuki, Bakugou Katsuki Swears A Lot, Kaminari Denki is a Dork, Kaminari Denki is a Good Friend, Kaminari Denki is a Ray of Sunshine, Pining Kaminari Denki, Insecure Kirishima Eijirou, Kirishima Eijirou Needs a Hug, bakugo needs a hug.. like seriously, Shinsou Hitoshi is Bad at Feelings, Pining Shinsou Hitoshi, Anxious Shinsou Hitoshi, bakugo and kaminari are really cute, Light Angst, Eventual Happy Ending, Tags Are Hard, Third Year Class 1-A (My Hero Academia), Love Confessions, Internalized Homophobia
Summary: “I… I don’t really know what to say? Right now?” Kirishima rubs at his neck in embarrassment. “I thought we were just like… best bros you know? I never really saw us as anything more… than that I guess.” Bakugo looks up at the ceiling in disbelief. What in the actual fuck is happening right now? or bakugo confesses, and it really doesn’t go as planned.

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[edited!]: This post is now just being used as personal reference for a big project going forward! Don’t mind it, PSAs will come when needed!

The current sitch:

Presently I have 3 tumblr accounts I have any possible intention on using: 

my personal ( mainblog: skykinks ) which I use to follow IRL folks, artblogs, and other junk. It’s really messy, though, and I don’t log on as much as I want to. It also sort of acts as the ‘holding’ place for all my inactive sideblogs so I don’t have to feel guilty looking at URLs I’m not active on. Also currently the home of my artblog, which is a sideblog.

main RP account ( mainblog: pirequehideux ) which I use for general RP purposes. Great and all, but all my follows come from one RP blog which is currently in desperate need of an overhaul.

side RP account ( mainblog: marmoriites ) which is a??? RP account I made to house all my anime RP shit ( which is frankly mostly Voltron ), and while I really love the worldbuilding I did there, and am really happy with my muses, I don’t like the fandom and don’t feel like reaching out so... these blogs are getting shoved in the graveyard but I don’t want to abandon all the work? marmoriites started out as a sideblog and shouldn’t be TOO hard to move back to one, that way I can at least keep my #branding and my content easily accessible.

Between the first two accounts, I have-- a SHITTON of sideblogs. ( though I’m putting my full blog list here, just so all my info is in one spot )

pirequehideux - Altered Plot Phantom of the Opera. Needs a bit of a characterization overhaul. Might??? Go quiet for a while as I want to use my version of the story to make an actual graphic novel for publishing, since Leroux’s book is open license and I’ve literally written my own version!

tidehearted - Age of Sail multimuse. Not going anywhere, just needs to be polished & have some muses added.

ferrousstars - Panfandom multi for muses that don’t fit anywhere else, or whose fandoms I avoid getting too deep in. I’ve also been using it to sort of store some RPC type stuff?? Needs muses added, might have more going on- but that’ll be below.

neutralreborn - Tolkien AU Melkor. Needs a bit of a re-vamp for characterization.

forgedinflame - Tolkien Gothmog/Kosomot who might as well be an OC for all the character development I’ve given him, versus his minimal canon appearances, & has a billion AUs that make him accessible in almost any fandom- except Age of Sail because he fucking hates water. Needs to have more information added.

elvesbehavingbadly - Tolkien multimuse Needs completely rebuilt tbh, and needs characters/details added. Huge project tbh.

ofsubtlearts - HP Severus Snape. All HP blogs need a disclaimer/selectivity update. Needs some verses added and some info updated/re-organized.

technicallyaferret - HP Draco Malfoy. All HP blogs need a disclaimer/selectivity update. Needs a SERIOUS overhaul to most info/characterization details, needs tags, etc.

indiscretus - HP multimuse. All HP blogs need a disclaimer/selectivity update. Needs a complete overhaul & move to a fresh blog ( same URL ). full overhaul, basically.

violencetorn - a Kylo Ren blog I foolishly made because I fell in love with those damn movies. He may or may not make his way onto ferrousstars, but I also just want to find a use for the bg I made for this blog. Otherwise this blog is going to the graveyard.

url redacted - super hidden private marvel multi. Needs a HUGE overhaul & major update. might be going less hidden eventually with it??

marmoriites/marmcrites - voltron galra/worldbuilding hub. needs to be scooted to a sideblog & re-organized but probably needs to stay dead.

lionlocked - voltron paladin blog. Has basically no info on it whoops.

skyjynx - an aesthetic/moodboard blog. needs a url change because whoops this is my art username, needs cleaned up and some organizational tags added so I can reblog more general aesthetic pictures in addition to the blog when I don’t have time to make edits.

skyjynxart - my art blog. Needs to actually get running whoops orz

skykinks - miscellaneous??? personal??? 

Things I have been thinking about/wanting to do with my blogs/blogs I’ve been considering running:

fashion blog? - I always find gorgeous outfits/dresses/shoes/accessories/etc and think “I know I’m going to use this!!!” but have no immediate use for it so it sits in my likes for years bc I don’t have anywhere to stow it where it won’t get lost?? So I’ve been contemplating a fashion blog, or perhaps a set of fashion tags on that aesthetic blog, idk, to store stuff like that. Happening regardless of what big choice I make, but whether it’ll be a new set of tags when I revamp the aesthetic blog or a blog unto itself is to be determined.

RPH - I want to have a solid place to collect useful info, writing tips, memes I can’t use immediately but want to in the future, and possibly even answer questions for newbies or something like that. I don’t want to go super serious with a big RPH blog, but it would be nice to have somewhere to dump all my resources so they’re not scattered across blogs.

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IMPORTANT: Portrayal Notes

Regarding General Portrayal Information

My Erik is not compliant with any manner of canon but my own. I have been writing him, and developing his story beyond what is presented in other forms for over a decade now, and have, in essence, created an entirely new version of the story- to such a point that I have been encouraged to take advantage of the open license and publish it ( which may very well happen eventually! ). There are influences and elements of Webber's version, and of course the plot is heavily based upon Leroux's original book. Any resemblance to Susan Kay's "Phantom" is unintention, as I have yet to even lay hands on a copy.

It is important to understand that you will not be approaching a 'canon' Erik, or a 'canon' understanding of the story- there will be divergences, and while I will try to accomodate, there are many points on which I will not budge, as it has taken me nearly a decade to craft the version I now present to you. 

It is my hope that I will have the time to post details on the differences in plot for those interested, however it is for this reason that I will rarely engage in threads which take place prior to the canonical ending of Erik’s story with any but my mains- it is simply too time consuming to sort out every detail of a new canon with each RP partner, each of whom likely has their own idea of what happened based upon their own experience with already existing forms of canon. Obviously any updates on the graphic novel I hope to make of my version of the story will be posted here― wish me luck on that!!

Regarding Erik’s appearance

The Erik that I present to you on this blog is neither the fit, attractive man with a hastily don makeup job of Webber’s film, nor is he quite the seemingly rotting corpse of Leroux’s novel- though of the two he is far closer to the latter. Erik’s body would be naturally slender, were he healthy and properly fed, if angular, and it is frightfully so as a result of how little he takes care of himself. One could count his ribs with absolute ease, if they could ever get him out of the stiff layers of clothes he prefers- even in modern settings. His collar bones- while sharp, if healthy, could puncture, in the state he keeps himself. There is a perpetual chill to his skin, as there often is with those who are underfed but not feverish with malnourished, and so his knobby, calloused fingers do feel deathly cool, even through the gloves he favours. 

He is small in stature- smaller than most average men- though he wears shoes with hidden ‘heels’ to give him the impression of additional height. He does have hair, though it is patchy, and thin in some areas, and what luster and thickness it might have is stolen by the same lack of nourishment that plagues the rest of him. One eye is a beautiful grey-green, his natural colour, while the other is stained yellow-gold with an excess of Lipochrome pigment. Deep circles rest under both eyes, as lack of sleep has been Erik’s long time companion, and they peer out over high cheekbones, and a sharp jaw. 

His back bears a map of scars, through which occasional patches of skin which might almost be called hale peek through- the result of many a beating, staged to entice a bigger audience. These scars are mostly red and angry, healed poorly and raised distinctly from the skin. Subtler, white scars ring his wrists and ankles- reminders of the shackles which once bound him. These are not always immediately visible, given the pallor of his own skin, but can be felt, if one manages to be close enough to do so. 

Skin rather resembling that of a mummy- dry and stretched too thin, wrinkled oddly where it pulls against tendons, covers much of Erik’s body, most especially the right side. His lips are thin to begin with, and it does not help when this horrible skin pulls at them from the right side of his face, where it stretches over the bridge of his nose and across most of his forehead. Perhaps he would have a normal hairline, if it didn’t continue further back as well. One ear is not quite right- misshapen and malformed against itself, blending disturbingly into the patchwork of red and yellow skin stretched too taught. The nose, too, seems distorted, though in a way more subtle than the ear. There are whorls and bumps which ought not to be present settled in to the mottling of Erik’s body, and with this deformity stretching to cover most of his neck, and nearly all of his chest ( and it likely would cover his back, were that not hidden by scars ) , as well as down much of his right leg and arm- even twisting and distorting the fingers of his right hand- thought it fades out and seems to give way to normal, relatively healthy skin by the time it touches his left shoulder.

He is perpetually covered from neck to toe, however, generally in garb which hides how thin and frail he looks to an extent, and wears masks or veils to hide his face- his favourite is a porcelain mask he crafted himself, made to cover nearly all of his face, but leaving that small, sparse glimpse of the normalcy of his left side visible.

It is my hope to provide an accurate visual reference for Erik’s looks as soon as possible, however in the meantime I can offer you this very old preliminary sketch from roughly a year ago, when my skills were not quite what they are now. Do take that with a grain of salt, and I do ask that you rely more heavily on the description presented here.

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01: OOC

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On Mun Vs. Zombies

So it’s actually come up a lot recently that people will warn me about corpses & re-animated characters, and that is! So kind! But I have also had to explain this several times now because of it & figured I ought to just make a post explaining it!

the tl;dr version: I’m freaked out by mindless flesh eating humanoid monsters, and the scenario in which they cause an apocalypse. I am not freaked out by corpses, re-animation, or death in general!

Exactly what bothers me about zombies super specific in what actually bothers me/sets me off, and anything involving a muse whose mind actually functions as a person is 100% fine! It’s more the... mindless flesh-eating hoards that are a problem for me.

I suppose I should also say that it’s really specific types of zombies that upset me- old fashioned black-and-white-movie sorts don’t really bother me that much ( though I still avoid them ), and super cartoony ones like the game Plants Vs Zombies don’t either.

However zombies like we see in The Walking Dead or the game Left 4 Dead really mess me up.

It’s mostly the scenario, however. I’m not scared of necromancy or things rising from the dead, or even the appearance of zombies ( especially bc it’s hyper dramatized- mostly rotted corpses are not going to be able to walk around!! ). I’m also not scared of literally any other apocalyptic scenario- in fact a lot of times I kind of really enjoy post-apocalyptic settings! But it’s the idea of the zombie apocalypse- the complete and utter hopelessness that comes with it, I guess?

The backstory is under the cut I guess!

My friend and I actually used to be really, really into zombies back when it was ‘big’- you know what I’m talking about, I’m sure. I was?? Around 15 then? But we had all these very serious plans for what to do in a zombie apocalypse/etc, and read everything we could get our hands on-

Including a book called “World War Z”. Not to be confused with the movie that came out not too long ago- idk what that movie was but it was nothing next to the completely chilling novel that I was not able to finish reading. It was written from the point of view of an interviewer journaling the stories of people who had survived the apocalypse, and they were written very much like real survival stories- my best guess is that they were based off war survivors, but I don’t really know.

I just know they read so realistically and went into such detail about how it all started that I started to get nervous all the time. I hated being in school more than ever because I knew it was the last place I’d want to be if it all happened ( schools are evacuation points, and infection would spread really easily & they’d also be hard to escape safely ) .

And I know, okay, I know how totally dumb this sounds, but I knew it wasn’t going to happen, but I’d read so much psuedoscience on it that my anxiety-riddled brain kept throwing the words but what if at me, and it hit a point where I stopped sleeping for more than an hour or so at night. I even started rearranging my furniture so that I could barricade my window with a moment’s notice and started making all kinds of other plans that were very much real and not the fun sort I’d cooked up with my friends.

And then I cut all things zombie related out of my life, and started to get over it. By the time I was 17 I was able to watch the movie Warm Bodies(a zombie-based romcom) with no problem. Things were good, chill- and then my very very shitty boyfriend and friends at the time decided that they would marathon the walking dead and not let me leave. I wasn’t allowed to leave the house and walk home after dark, and they actually physically restrained me and kept me from leaving the room. I couldn’t sleep while it was on- I was too terrified to make my body sleep. So I had to sit through the entire first season.

And from there had to continue living my normal life, getting up and leaving to walk to school at 6AM when the world is quiet and the roads are dead and the sun isn’t up yet and it feels a hell of a lot you’re in a goddamn apocalypse if it’s all you can think about.

And I know, and have always known that it’s an irrational fear. That there is less than a 0.0000000000000000001% chance of a zombie apocalypse ever happening. But my brain always went what if.

I’m getting better about it again. It’s been almost 5 years since that happened, roughly, and I’m able to even talk about what caused this fear in the first place, which is a really good sign! But it’s taken much longer to get over my fears this time ( I assume because the second time I was held down and forced to watch/listen and had about as much choice in being exposed to the media as I would in an actual zombie apocalypse happening ) , and to be safe for myself I avoid anything remotely detailed- meaning written AUs or comics especially.

I hope this makes some sense/clears things up and I appreciate anyone who took the time to read this, since it’s pretty personal and such a convoluted thing. ;w;

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Regarding Icons

A PSA

After much thought and discussion, I’ve decided to quit using icons almost full stop. Icons are a weirdly stressful part of writing for me- and totally unnecessary for the actual plot? I mean I like to think my writing is decent enough that I can operate without using them, so all they really do is add ~*~aesthetic~*~, which I have plenty of on my blogs already, thanks. But I have literally spent days agonizing over which icons to use in threads before, and it makes me take even longer than my average turtle speed to reply.

I have, however, amassed quite a collection of icons and lots of time and effort has gone into them, so I won’t be 100% dropping the use of them.

What will not have icons going forward:

threads

many sentence-starter asks will probably be answered without icons

What will have icons going forward:

some ask replies(if I can find one easily)

starter calls probably

Note: if you have an issue with my decision not to use icons you know where to find the unfollow button.

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Regarding Meme Karma

A real important note here, since it seems super common now?

I don’t practice reblog karma. I mean, I will always send HC and OOC memes- usually whether I’m reblogging the thing or not(I promise half your anons from here on out will be me). If a sentence meme or ‘send blank for blank to happen’ meme fits our character interaction I will send it. If not, no. I won’t. Because I’m not going to make my character OOC just to stroke your ego. And I won’t ask you to do that for me, either. Obviously it’s nice getting asks when there’s 5,000 reblog notifications on a meme, but if it doesn’t fit it doesn’t fit.

Generally I’m wary of people who enforce reblog karma. It just rubs me the wrong way, and I will either go out of my way to never reblog anything from you ever or I just won’t follow you.

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The Mun is not a Theatre Nerd

A PSA

Oh look, another one of these. Essentially a ‘part two’ to my previous statement that I’m hardly a lit nerd, I’m also not that into theatre. I know the songs from a lot of musicals, but to be honest with you I haven’t even seen Wicked once. I had quite the interest for a while, but couldn’t actually afford to go see anything live- and finding anything but bits and pieces of shows online has proven frustrating to say the least. And like with literature, it seems that entering the RP platform with a musical based muse causes the assumption that one is familiar with the theatre, and while I certainly wish I were, in this, too, I am woefully unprepared.

It is my hope to enrich my knowledge of musicals and plays over time, however I cannot promise that this will come quickly or with ease! Obviously if something is dropped in my lap, I won’t not view it, but otherwise I do presently have other priorities that tend to keep me from putting serious effort into seeking things to watch out.

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The Mun is Not a Lit Nerd

A PSA

In fact, the more I explore the world of literature, the more I learn that this is one of the greatest areas in which the American public school system has failed me, personally. Generally speaking, Classical Literature is something covered heavily in English class, from my understanding, however in my school we had precisely one unit on ‘Classic’ Romance ( classic being used quite loosely, as one girl convinced the teacher to let her use Twilight for her project! ) and a few very shoddy Shakespeare units which actually taught us nothing as a result of the class’s refusal to try to learn.

This isn’t to say I didn’t read when I was younger- books were my life, since I was someone who failed pretty miserably at making friends, but the types of books I read very rarely crossed with the types of books we consider Literature. Many of them are now found on my shelf and list of books to read, however the older I get the more severe my Dyslexia becomes, and the harder it is to read hard copies of anything ( Digital platforms have become my new favourite place to read thanks to the difference in fonts, however I’m still coming ‘round to the idea of e-books. ) .

This is relevant because I’ve come to understand that writing a literature based musegenerally means the mun is Super Into Literature, and already I’ve seen dozens of names mentioned to me that I’ve had to say “sorry, I’ve heard of that, but I’m not familiar with it,” to, and rather than waiting for further confusion and embarrassment to arise on my end, I thought it’d be wise to get it out of the way now.

tl;dr Maybe one day I’ll know the details of these stories as intimately as I know the Phantom and the other fandoms I’m in, however as of now I’m stepping into this world rather woefully unprepared, and aware of it.

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01: OOC

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The Mun is Not a Theatre Nerd

Essentially a ‘part two’ to my previous statement that I’m hardly a lit nerd, I’m also not that into theatre. I know the songs from a lot of musicals, but to be honest with you I haven’t even seen Wicked once, as of yet ( though it’s on my to-see list ). I had quite the interest for a while, but couldn’t actually afford to go see anything live- and finding anything but bits and pieces of shows online has proven frustrating to say the least. And like with literature, it seems that entering the RP platform with a musical based muse causes the assumption that one is familiar with the theatre, and while I certainly wish I were, in this, too, I am woefully unprepared.

It is my hope to enrich my knowledge of musicals and plays over time, however I cannot promise that this will come quickly or with ease! Obviously if something is dropped in my lap, I won’t not view it, but otherwise I do presently have other priorities that tend to keep me from putting serious effort into seeking things to watch out.

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The Mun is Not a Lit Nerd

In fact, the more I explore the world of literature, the more I learn that this is one of the greatest areas in which the American public school system has failed me, personally. Generally speaking, Classical Literature is something covered heavily in English class, from my understanding, however in my school we had precisely one unit on ‘Classic’ Romance ( classic being used quite loosely, as one girl convinced the teacher to let her use Twilight for her project! ) and a few very shoddy Shakespeare units which actually taught us nothing as a result of the class’s refusal to try to learn.

This isn’t to say I didn’t read when I was younger- books were my life, since I was someone who failed pretty miserably at making friends, but the types of books I read very rarely crossed with the types of books we consider Literature. Many of them are now found on my shelf and list of books to read, however the older I get the more severe my Dyslexia becomes, and the harder it is to read hard copies of anything ( Digital platforms have become my new favourite place to read thanks to the difference in fonts, however I’m still coming ‘round to the idea of e-books. ) .

This is relevant because I’ve come to understand that writing a literature based muse generally means the mun is Super Into Literature, and already I’ve seen dozens of names mentioned to me that I’ve had to say “sorry, I’ve heard of that, but I’m not familiar with it,” to, and rather than waiting for further confusion and embarrassment to arise on my end, I thought it’d be wise to get it out of the way now.

TL;DR Maybe one day I’ll know the details of these stories as intimately as I know the Phantom and the other fandoms I’m in, however as of now I’m stepping into this world rather woefully unprepared, and aware of it.

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Updates on RL Insanity!!

The good/neutral news:

Turns out monday was not the lecture for my vislit class, but the critique on our halfway points. Tomorrow is the lecture, however I have nothing to correct, and am honestly still positively glowing from hearing my ( favourite and most respected )  professor call my pieces “absolutely perfect for this project, in every way”. I physically cannot wait to add colour, and all my other classes are going as expected.

No word yet from my boss, I’ll be calling to check in with him tomorrow after I get out of class ( would do it today but am in classes from now ‘til late ). 

Move-in date for the campus apartment is officially set for May 4, and I can indeed use the excess from my student loans for this year to pay for next year’s housing- I just have a little extra paperwork to fill out in order to access them.

The bad news:

My scheduling appointment.... did not go well. As it turns out, I am only the second person in 10+ years to attempt double-majoring at this school. The last person who tried was doing animation+illustration, and did not suceed. My advisor looked me dead in the face and suggested I drop one of my majors, and that she was shocked nobody had told me it would take, rather than the standard 4 years, a full 7 years to get all my required classes in, even while taking the maximum number of credits per semester. We’ve rescheduled for Thursday of next week to give me time to figure out what the actual hell I’m going to do, and which major to drop- I might be able to take one down to a minor, but she advised against that too?? so ugh I’m really really not sure what I’m going to do here ( anyone willing to let me ramble in their general direction while I try to make up my mind please come at me bc I could use some second and third and fourth opinions tbh- and I’m positive my mum will just say “do what’s right for you!!!” which is nice but unhelpful af ). 

Absolutely 0 headway has been made on the medical stuff I mentioned because all of my focus has been on school/finances/housing, but hopefully this weekend I can actually get my mum to help me navigate this particular hellscape.

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//So exactly what kind of Crazy™ is up in Sky’s Life rn?

This is a sort of general update because a LOT has been going on while I’ve been quiet- beyond the usual college madness. Full updates  include classes, finals, living situation, and medical issues situation ( under a cut for safety ). Admittedly a lot of this is for my own personal organization, because typing it all out helps me keep track, but also so that I don’t have to re-type the same information to multiple people 

Okay- easy stuff first. Right now final projects are kicking into full swing. Across my 4 classes, here’s what I’m facing up against:

Visual Literacy(part 1) - I’m actually so far ahead on the final project in this class that I CANNOT do any more until Monday, when the teacher will be giving a lecture on colour theory for the next part. In fact, I have more than I need to done, and literally all that is left for me to do at all in this class is finish the colour on this project once I’m allowed, and to finish uploading images to my digital portfolio for the class.

Visual Literacy(part 2) - this is split into parts 1 and 2 because I actually have 2 different teachers for this class. For part 2, there has been no mention of a final project, however I do have one late piece which is actually overdue by about 24 hours rn ( but the teacher doesn’t take off for lateness so I’m all good?? )

Drawing Methods - I have to make a transformation drawing ( basically one object blending into another- mine’s a bird and a ballerina ). I’m not?? actually sure if this is our final. The teacher for this class has about 1/3 the brain function one would expect of a regular human being, much less a college professor.

SOSA - I need to make 2 editorial style pieces which would go along with a ‘persuasive’ type of article. I’ve chosen to focus on some trans stuff for mine, as I can actually re-make an illustration I did 2 years ago BD

Business Math - As far as I KNOW we won’t be having a final exam or anything for this class, however I need to find a tutor who can help me catch up because my teacher’s response to every goddamn question I ask is “I can’t help you, I didn’t write this” :/

This is honestly quite manageable as long as I keep my motivation up, and don’t spend whole afternoons sleeping.

I spoke with my boss, as he finally got back to me, and I should hopefully be returning to work when I’m not in class sometime in the next month.

On Tuesday of this week I’m scheduling my classes for next year, and also asking some vital financial questions regarding my loans and housing.

On the 25th of April my mum is moving into her new house- which as of now will continue to be my house as well once I’m out of college.

On May 4th at the latest, I will be moving to an off-campus apartment ( which was actually the original men’s dormitory way back when ) with my two roommates for next year, J, and Ari  ( if we do our payments sooner we get to move in sooner ) .

the absolute LAST day to move out of the dorm is May 12.

In addition to all this, I’ve just been doing a lot of Adulting™ and I’m very proud of myself with how far I’ve come, and I’ll leave it at that. :3

Now for the medical stuff I’m trying not to be scared about.

Something is Not Right with my reproductive organs. As it turns out, crippling pelvic and lower back pain, sharp, shooting pains in the rough vicinity of the ovary, and cramps bad enough to induce vomiting are not normal even for heavy periods, nor is bleeding through 2 pads intended to last 9 hours each in 3 hours. After speaking with some people who have had them, I’ve learned that the most likely cause of all this is an ovarian cyst- which, while terrifying, has one bright side that I’m focusing on very firmly so as not to panic, and that is that one of the easiest solutions will be for me to simply have my ovaries removed- which is on my list of things to do someday anyway, and will mean no more periods, ever again. It could also be a general hormonal imbalance, for which the most likely solution will be a progesterone prescription- which in the long run will be MORE costly than surgery so, uh, let’s hope it’s the cyst, ironically enough?

While my mother was SUPPOSED to go over our current financial situation to determine if we could even afford for me to see a doctor to determine what the problem is specifically, much less treatment for whatever it turns out to be, she refused to do this ( my mom is a nice lady, but not always consistent or reliable unless things work how she wants them to) , so I am now on my own for finding a doctor I can even afford to see completely on my own- on top of saving for my portion of the first/last month’s rent, security deposit, etc, in case my loans from this year can’t cover things for next year ( they SHOULD- I have about 6,000 dollars in loans after my tuition is covered, but I have to make sure I’m allowed to use them for next year’s school related housing ) .

The bright side here is that I do already have a clinic picked out- I’ve already had a couple interactions with them, and they are both affordable as a whole, intent on working with people to BE affordable, and have a focus on being queer friendly- which is good when you’re a nonbinary man-thing who needs to see a gynecologist. 

Over all, it’s not a super life-threatening thing. It’s just frightening and uncertain, and my family is being very unhelpful. I haven’t been able to afford to see a doctor literally since before I was 18, so I have exactly 0 experience with any of what I’m doing, and I’m thanking the gods that the kids ( kids!! people younger than me by at least 2-4 years! ) actually DO know how to do this stuff, because without them I’d be lost. ;v;