#PICKING UP MY APPLE PENCIL RN

[smallidarityfan]

imagine jimmy and joel doing that couple art challenge thing where they paint the other's portrait across from them and then they do a reveal after finishing

Jimmy's drawing of Joel is a cute stick figure while Joel's drawing of Jimmy is the Mona Lisa

[joesheistyy]

Singing in the shower

Your favorite way to get rid of a bad day was to blast some of your favorite musical tunes while taking a shower

Your day had been super long. Consisting of 8am classes up until a 5pm night class. Those days were the most exhausting and Joe knew that. Not only did your day feel like years, it was also super frustrating because one of your professors would teach one thing and then say people were wrong when repeating exactly what she had said. (a/n: I have a professor like this rn and its infuriating)

Coming home from class, you still had a buttload of homework to do. The 2 hour gap you had at lunch time wasn't enough time to get stuff done like it usually was. When unloading your stuff at your desk at home, you made sure to plug in your computer so it would have battery for your work later. Sometimes, when you had stressful days, you'd do homework downstairs while Joe would clean or play games, his presence calming you.

"Hi princess, how was class?" he asked when he saw you come down the stairs. He was taking a shit when you originally got home.

"It was alright, it was just super stressful and my professor pissed me off," you sighed, pouring yourself a glass of wine.

"I'm sorry baby, I remember those days and how frustrating they are," he said, pulling you into a hug. You let out a sigh, letting some stress from the day begin to fade. Joe had cooked dinner for you since he knew how hungry you were when coming home from your long class days. He made your favorite comfort meal, butter noodles and roasted asparagus.

"Thanks for cooking, Joey. It's delicious," you said with a mouth full of food, unlocking your iPad to look at your planner. Joe glanced at the amount of assignments that you had yet to do, giving you a kiss and walking away so you could get started.

After finishing your meal, you set your plate in the sink and headed toward the living room where Joe was playing games. He looked over at you and smiled as you sat down with your computer, iPad, and glass of wine. You opened your devices and got to work.

After about an hour, Joe had finished up his game and came over to check on you, digging his thumbs into your shoulders to help you destress a little bit.

"Mmmm baby that's so good. I never realize how tense I am until you do this," you sighed into his touch.

"How about a hot shower baby? You can sing your little heart out, I know how much that helps you destress," he suggested as you closed your computer. You had gotten plenty done, and the only assignments you had left were due at the end of the week.

"Actually, that sounds amazing," you said, stacking up your things, making sure your Apple Pencil was attached to your iPad. You always seemed to misplace that damn thing.

Joe headed up toward your shared master bathroom, getting the water started for you. You followed him up there, picking out some comfy clothes, opting for a pair of his boxers and one of his large t-shirts. You grabbed the JBL speaker out of your nightstand and turned it on. Pulling up your favorite playlist called theater songs to sing at the top of your lungs.

After the shower had been heated up, Joe headed downstairs to work on cleaning up the kitchen. You got undressed and cranked up the volume, the song Burn from Hamilton turning on. As you began to lather your shampoo, you sang along and scrubbed your scalp. Closing your eyes and enjoying the sensation of the suds cleansing you.

You continued to sing, not hearing Joe come into the bathroom. The steamy doors to the shower were foggy, so you could not see that he had taken his shirt off in hopes of climbing in with you.

“Is it alright if I join you?” He asked, peeking in through the shower door.

“Of course Joey, you just have to agree to sing with me,” you giggled.

Joe undressed and joined you, placing his arms around your waist and pulling you out from under the warm stream of water. His body glistened under the droplets, holding you tight.

Joe knew your musical playlist and sometimes he really enjoyed singing with you. It was a great mental detox for the both of you. The song Five Forever from Little Women came on and you grabbed your shampoo bottle and pretended to use it as a microphone. Joe followed, but used your conditioner. While he's not the most talented singer, he doesn't care what he sounds like around you. You two harmonize, taking different character's parts and singing along.

After Five Forever, the song She Used to be Mine from Waitress played. At this point, you had completed your whole shower routine and were just in there to sing and let it out. Singing was definitely better than screaming.

This was one of those songs where you didn’t care how you sounded, you always had to belt it.

After setting down the shampoo and conditioner bottles, Joe pulled you into a hug, wrapping his hands around the small of your waist.

She used to be miiiiiiine

You sang while Joe hummed along with you. When the song came to an end, you rested your head on his bare chest. He held you close in a way that made every stressful feeling from your day wash away and flow down the drain.

“Let’s dry off and get some ice cream, shall we?” He asked, turning off the water and going to open the shower door. He grabbed your towel out of the towel warmer, making sure to wrap you up first. He squeezed you tight in the towel, almost like you were his child.

Joe grabbed his towel and wrapped it around his waist, water droplets still glistening on his skin. You walked over to the sink, still wrapped up in your towel. You started your in depth skincare routine because it was definitely one of those nights. Joe enjoyed your company while you continued to hum along to your playlist as Still Hurting from The Last Five Years played.

After completing your skincare, you tossed on Joe’s boxers and t-shirt, finding your slippers near the door and heading downstairs with Joe to get ice cream.

He grabbed your individual pint out of the freezer and handed you a spoon. You poured yourself a glass of Barefoot Moscato. Joe always messed with you about liking cheap wine considering what he could afford.

You two cuddled up on the couch and turned on BroadwayHD to watch Falsettos, your favorite comfort musical. The one that always made the both of you cry.

Joe really was the best, good singer or not. He knew what you needed and when you needed it. And tonight was the perfect example of Joe at his sweetest.

[rarebritney]

could u share ur everyday makeup routine? you always seem so cute and stylish !!

thank you🥺

I like to wash my face first with Dr jart microfoam cleanser bc it leaves a really smooth finish on my skin, then tone with laneige cream skin toner. I use a sponge or my fingers to put on the salt New York sneaky balm skin tint in the lightest shade. If I need more coverage in places I'll layer on the kosas revealer concealer in shade 1.5C.

right now I'm really into bronzing my forehead, I'll either use the glossier solar paint in shade flare and blend out with Milani silky matte bronzer in the lightest shade, or I'll use a nude/peach colored blush to bronze, which works well for me since I'm fair!! I either use Patrick Ta doubletake powder in "do we know her" or Milani cheek kiss cream in nude. I put my bronzer along my hairline, on my temples and down to the top of my cheekbone...

Then I add whatever blush I feel like, I have many lol. My favorite cream blushes are the salt new York creme tint pro, tower 28 beach please balm, melt cream blushlight and Milani cheek kiss. I usually go with a blush that is pink, berry, peach or nude/brown. I'm currently quite obsessed with a brownish nude blush mixed with a dusky pink, like a dirty ballet slipper pink, then a touch of blackberry/hot pink on the apples of my cheek. I mix and match a lot. I also always highlight the tip of my nose with salt new York's pearl highlighter, add faux freckles with original freck, and fill my eyebrows with the kosas brow pop pencil in taupe. I always fill my brows to appear a bit straight with a slight arch, and I don't make them thicker.

my favorite mascara rn is Maybelline Sky high, but I also like the Ilia volumizing mascara. I like to have big dark lashes, even on the bottom ones, and I especially load on mascara at the outer corner. For eyeliner I like a very fine wing just at the outer corner, sometimes so fine as to look more like a single false lash. the glossier pro tip is good but right now I love the freck lashrocket.

I currently love a nude/brownish lip liner with a pink, clear or rosy brown gloss. All day I just put on whatever lip gloss or balm that's in reach lol. I also love tower28 lip jellies and the girlactik jello balm (which smells like fresh laundry and grape soda).

Little details of my beauty routine I just want to mention: I love the mix of native aloe& green tea deodorant with Perfect by Marc Jacobs. I'm obsessed with claw clip updos, my favorite claws are from Chunks, but I also my scunci pink $3 one. I love natural hair makeup brushes bc they work sooo much better at picking up both powders and creams. my favorites are from Rephyr!! Thanks for asking, I find this fun to talk about and document💖

[polyphonial-old]

4 7 10!

4. how often do you draw?

hmm lately i've been drawing almost every day just as something silly to do to get my mind off things, but sometimes i don't pick up my apple pencil for weeks. it rlly depends. on average every few days probably

7. do you prefer sketching, outlining, or coloring?

honestly? up until recently i'd say colouring, but since i do painterly style stuff, it takes forever and i usually don't even get to that stage before i lose motivation so. sketching! random ass sketches are like 90% of my gallery rn

10. are you right or left handed?

right handed!

[myincomplete]

Am I ready for School? Aesthetically? Yes. Mentally? No.

So my I picked up my iPad and Apple Pencil last week, and then I also bought a DSLR camera from my friend (she's going abroad next semester, ahhh must be nice), so she's getting rid of a lot of stuff. Now, it's pretty dumb why I got the camera...

I want to start a study youtube channel. If you're done shaking your head, hear me out, (This is starting to sound like a cringey Author's Note on a FanFic, omg). I've struggled to get myself to do things because I know the consequences of my actions will only affect me and usually won't care, depending on how low I'm feeling. I also seem to get more done when I put my phone down and hit record as if I'm already a youtube and need to seem productive. Fake it till you make it type of mentality, yk?

So, I've already made short clips here and there of me walking around, so I'm gonna use that as a practice video to edit and upload. Because I'm recording things now, I haven't opened my iPad or Apple pencil lol. I was gonna wait till I had time, which is apparently is now since I didn't even realize school starts next week haha. hahahaha.

This also means I might not be using my iPad right away, smh I was hoping id have more time to get used to it, but oh well. The camera also isn;t specifically for recording but it'll do for now. Cheap used camera in good condition from a trustworthy party? Yea, I went for it.

I definitely do have more time, for now at least since my schedule has changed and only work four days atm. I might change it to 3 and just pick up shifts here and there. That's IF I stay at my job, I've been thinking about leaving and finding something less physically and mentally exhausting. (I was writing a Leaving My Job post last week when one of my managers walked behind me >.<) I'll write more about that some other time, rn I'm just gonna focus on my resume.

Anyway, that's it for now, ciao!

~S

[maybeimamuppet]

the best medicine

Cady is very worried. It’s almost noon and Janis still hasn’t answered her good morning message. She’s trying to calm herself; Janis is renowned for being a late sleeper, especially on weekends. But she wasn’t in school yesterday, and they haven’t spoken or even texted since Thursday night. Something must be wrong.

She decides to start doing some math homework to distract herself from her anxiety, pulling out her textbook and grabbing a pencil from the cup on her desk. She’s working on her fifth problem when her phone finally pings.

Jellybean: good morning butterfly

Jellybean: sorry it took me so long to answer i’ve been asleep all day

Caddy Cakes: It’s fine, darling. Are you okay??

Jellybean: i’m not great

Caddy Cakes: What’s wrong?? :(((

Jellybean: i’m sick. that’s why i didn’t come in yesterday 📷

Jellybean: doc says it’s strep. had to get swabbed

Caddy Cakes: Oh no, poor Jellybean 📷

Caddy Cakes: How long have you been taking antibiotics?

Jellybean: uh since yesterday morning i think ?? why ?

Caddy Cakes: If you’ve been taking them for more than 24 hours you’re not contagious anymore. Do you want me to come take care of you?

Jellybean: u don’t have to do that babes. i’m all gross rn

Caddy Cakes: I don’t care, lovey. I picked up lion crap as my daily chore for eight years, I can handle a sick girlfriend. I wanna take care of you 🥺

Jellybean: if u really want to, cads. my mom and jules are out of town, there’s a key under the ceramic frog in the garden

Caddy Cakes: I’ll be there in fifteen 📷️mwah! 📷

-

Cady puts down her pencil and closes her book, heading downstairs and grabbing everything she might need to help her sick girl. Two different painkillers, the recipe for the super-awesome-cure-all-wonder soup her family always makes whenever illness hits, some medicinal African herbs to make tea with, and some soothing lozenges for sore throats. That should be everything.

Once she grabs her phone, jacket, and charger, she takes her bike from the garage, since her parents took the car to some convention thing. She texts them to let them know where she’s going and heads out.

————-

She’s so distracted worrying about Janis she doesn’t even notice where she is until she arrives at Janis’ place, hiding her bike around the side of the house and taking the key from the frog.

She heads up to Janis’ bedroom, finding her in the dark, huddled under several blankets, and with Pancakes resting protectively at the foot of her bed. Janis looks half-dead, her skin is pale and flushed pink with the fever, and her eyes are glassy and fogged over. She’s clammy and burning hot to the touch, and clearly in a great deal of pain.

“Oh, mpenzi,” Cady breathes. “My poor love. How long have you been feeling so bad?”

“It hit me on Thursday when I went to bed. I woke up yesterday and my throat felt like it had shards of glass in it,” Janis croaks out a whisper.

“You poor thing,” Cady strokes a hand through her sweaty hair, Janis leaning into her cool touch. “Have you taken your antibiotics yet today?”

Janis shakes her head. “Haven’t had enough energy to get water,” she explains.

“Shh, Jellybean, don’t try to talk, you’ll just hurt yourself more. I’m guessing you haven’t had breakfast either?” Janis shakes her head again, wincing at the mere idea of swallowing anything. “I know, darling, but you still need to eat. I’ll make something that won’t hurt too bad, okay? I’ll be right back.” She tucks Janis in a little tighter and heads down to the kitchen.

The Sarkisians don’t have a lot in their fridge, but enough that Cady can scrape up a decent breakfast. She makes some quick scrambled eggs and grabs a banana, those are both healthy and easy to swallow. Pancakes hasn’t been fed either, so she fills his bowl with some food for him to find before she fills a cup with cold water and heads back up to her love.

-

Janis is now lying on top of all of her covers, the fever changing her temperature every minute. “Here, mpendwa. The other pills are just ibuprofen, it’ll bring your fever down and help with the pain,” Cady says as she pours out one of Janis’ antibiotic pills and some painkillers.

Janis swallows everything obediently, grimacing at the sensation in her throat when they go down. “My poor sickie,” Cady says sadly, handing Janis the plate of breakfast. She must be totally miserable, she would usually protest absolutely everything happening. Janis hates feeling useless. “Can I draw you a bath, Jellybean? It might help your temperature. It’d make you feel less gross, too.”

Janis nods happily, excited at the idea of a comforting soak. She takes a small bite of her eggs, wincing again as she swallows. Cady kisses her burning forehead gently and heads to the bathroom, spying a bottle of lavender bubble bath. She turns the tap, filling the tub with lukewarm water. If it’s too hot, Janis’ temperature will go too high, but if it’s too cold it will just be uncomfortable for her. She uses entirely too much bubble soap, causing a large wall of foam to rise above the water level. Oh well, Janis loves lavender anyway.

Janis is just finishing her meal as Cady heads back to her bedroom, nibbling slowly at her banana. “It’s ready whenever you are, Jay. Do you want me to stay with you or wait in here?” Janis points to herself. “Okay. Has the medicine started working yet?”

Janis nods, standing slowly and throwing her banana peel away. She tries to walk over to where Cady is waiting by the door, but her knees buckle just before she can make it. Cady lunges to catch her before she hits the ground, pulling her back upright again. “Hate this,” Janis grumbles weakly.

“I know, my love. You’ll feel better once those antibiotics actually start working, I promise. Um, I put in a little too much soap,” Cady mutters once she’s managed to half-drag Janis to the bathroom. Janis chuckles weakly at the tower of bubbles, slowly stripping off her clothes and stepping in.

Cady scoops some of the foam and rests it on top of Janis’ head, giving her a bubble hat. “You’re so cute,” she teases. Janis just huffs, pouting and crossing her arms under the water. “Yes, I know, you’re my tough punk protector. But you’re also adorable.”

Janis shoots her a look that says “I can live with that, but I’m not happy about it.”

“Let me go grab you a towel and some clothes to change into and then I’ll wash your hair, I know you love that. Try not to drown,” Cady jokes, heading back towards Janis’ room. She folds back the blankets to allow the sheets to air before she grabs some comfy shorts and fuzzy socks, a thin tank top, and a hoodie to go over it from her dresser.

She bursts out laughing when she comes back, finding her girlfriend with the bubbles still on top of her head sunk down into the tub so that only her eyes and nose peek out from the mound of foam. “Alright, sit up for me, lovely.”

Janis emerges from the bubbles slowly, as Cady lathers her hands up with Janis’ signature apple shampoo. Once she starts massaging it into Janis’ dark roots, her eyes flutter shut and she gives a contented purr. “You’re just like Pancakes. You both love having your heads scratched.”

“He doesn’t like baths,” Janis says quietly. “And he’s a little bitch.”

“Janis! He’s your son, don’t be mean. He was guarding you when I got here,” Cady chides jokingly.

“He bit my toes! I was napping!” Janis insists hoarsely.

“Okay, that was mean of him. Look up and close your eyes,” Cady says, tipping her chin up and scooping water to rinse the soap out of her hair. Janis gives a pleased shudder at the warmth cascading over her head.

She goes for the conditioner next, squeezing out a little more than she needs and warming it in her hands before stroking it through the blonde ends of her girlfriend’s hair. She works it up from the bottom slowly, the excess giving her a reason to massage Janis’ scalp again. Anything to make her feel a little better.

Once that’s done, Janis lowers herself back into the cooling water, exhausted just from holding herself upright for so long. Cady gives her a moment to rest, telling her some stories of things she missed during school the day before.

“Did you know the way the football team hazes new people is with a taser?” Cady asks, prompting Janis to pop an eye open curiously. “One of the guys who sits next to me in sociology was talking about it. One of the other seniors has one and they tase all the freshmen on the ass when they first join the team.”

They both start giggling at that, Janis in particular getting a vindictive joy imagining the same jocks who used to shove her in lockers getting their asses shocked.

“And obviously your natural instinct is to move away from it, and he said the guy with the taser just kind of follows them with it,” Cady says, making them both laugh harder. “Like, they keep leaning or running away and he just goes with them.”

“That’s great,” Janis whispers. She pauses and then says, “I’m cold.”

“Do you want me to come in with you?” Cady asks. “Or do you want to get out?”

Janis nodded at the first bit and points to her once she finishes speaking. All she really wants is to be held. Cady goes quickly to fetch another towel for herself, coming back and taking her clothes off. She ties her hair up so it won’t get wet and slides into the tub behind her.

“Ooh, it is cold in here now,” Cady says quickly, adding just a touch more hot water to boost the temperature back up. Janis leans back against her and turns her head to tuck her face into her neck, inhaling her comforting scent of rosewater perfume. “Is this better?”

Janis just nods, trying to relax and ignore the burning in her throat. “Another story?” she whispers quietly, glad she’s so close to her girlfriend’s ear and doesn’t have to strain her voice.

“Sure, Jellybean. Let me think... did I ever tell you about the time a lion broke into my tent?” Cady asks, running her fingers through Janis’ wet hair and gently separating a few tangles. Janis shakes her head. “I was nine, I think. Some new cubs had just been born on the reserve and I got to help with the newborns every now and again. One got really attached to me, followed me everywhere like a little puppy. She was kind of the closest I could get to a pet.”

Janis looks very interested in the story. She always does, she loves Cady’s Kenya tales.

“Anyway, one night I was asleep and I remember being a lot warmer than usual, like I had an extra blanket or something, and I couldn’t move as much in my cot. I woke up in the morning cuddling this baby lion. She’d managed to hook the zipper on one of her teeth to get the flap open and just plopped herself right in my arms. I was lucky her mom didn’t eat me. They’re very protective, but she was just laying outside waiting for the cub,” Cady giggles at the memory.

“That’s cute. What was her name?” Janis whispers.

“Louise. My dad named them. They were supposed to be named Lewis and Clark because they were the first ones that would be living in a new area of the reserve, like the first explorers. But they turned out to both be female, so we called them Louise and Clarke instead,” Cady says. “I miss them. I think those two were my favorite.”

“You’ll have to introduce me someday,” Janis mumbles sleepily. “Can we get out now please? I’m cold again.”

“Okay, Jay. Here,” Cady hands her the cushy towel and pulls the drain in the tub, helping her to stand. “Your clothes are here.”

She dries herself off quickly and tugs her old clothes back on, Janis trudging through her aches and fatigue to dry herself and pull on her clean clothes. Once she manages, Cady leads them back to the bedroom, preemptively taking a hold of her girlfriend so she doesn’t fall over again.

“Do you want lunch, Jayjay?” Cady asks, wrapping a towel around Janis’ head so her hair doesn’t get her clothes wet. Janis shakes her head, popping one of the lozenges Cady brought into her mouth before flopping back down on her bed. “Nothing? You have mac and cheese.”

Janis pokes her head up at that, apparently having reconsidered. She hadn’t eaten at all yesterday, so she’s actually quite hungry, despite the pain in her throat. “Okay, take your temperature while I’m gone. I’ll be back in a minute.”

————

Pancakes follows her back to the kitchen, and Cady gives him one of his ‘diet’ treats and some pets for helping to take care of Janis. “Good boy. But stop biting Janis’ toes, you little perv. She’s sick.”

She decides to make the tea with the herbs she brought to go with their lunch. Janis isn’t a big fan of tea unless it’s super fruity, so she adds a lot of milk and sugar to the mug to cover some of the earthy flavor. She also adds honey, having to psych herself into grabbing the bottle and squeezing the sticky stuff into the mug, grimacing at the goo on the bottle and washing her hands quickly afterwards.

-

Janis was apparently waiting for her the whole time she was cooking, lying on her bed watching the door with her sad brown eyes. “I love you,” she croaks when Cady comes back in.

“I love you too, my bluejay. What was your temperature?” Cady hands her the warm bowl and rests the mug on her nightstand. Janis shows her the thermometer, the little screen glowing yellow and showing 99.0. “It’s gone down a little, the bath must have helped.”

Janis reaches for the mug, taking a cautious sip of the warm tea.

“Good?” Cady asks, coming to sit behind her with a hairbrush and some hair ties. Janis nods.

“You put honey in it?” She whispers, sounding a bit pained. “Good job.” Cady struggles with certain textures to the point of nearly fearing them, honey being the worst. Imagining touching honey gives her almost the same reaction as imagining watching someone break a bone.

“I did. You owe me for that,” Cady teases jokingly, gently brushing out Janis’ damp hair and twisting it back into two Dutch braids, slightly challenged by her side shave but managing regardless. “Now your hair will be all curly like mine.”

Janis touches one of the braids, playing with the elastic at the bottom. She points to her desk, where Cady sees a notebook resting. She goes to grab it and a pen; Janis’ throat must be hurting too much to speak again.

“When did you learn how to braid like this?” Janis writes.

“I did it a lot in Kenya, and Damian helped me practice and taught me new stuff. He lets me practice on a wig he has. It’s fun,” Cady explains. Janis gives a nod of understanding. Cady realizes something after a second. “Hey, do you want to learn some more sign language? Now is kind of a perfect time.”

Another nod. “Okay, write down something you need or want and I’ll show you the sign for it.”

Janis writes, “Snuggles?” and blinks at her hopefully.

“Aww. Of course, mpenzi. That looks like this, by the way,” Cady says, making a sort of peace sign with her first two fingers bent back, resting it on the back of her other hand. Janis copies the motion, raising an eyebrow curiously. “Yeah, just bend your wrist back a little more. There! Okay, you can take some more medicine and come here.”

Janis swallows a few tylenol with what’s left of her tea before letting Cady pull her in. Cady lies on her back, pulling Janis to rest on top of her with her head on her shoulder and face tucked into her neck. “Comfy?”

Janis nods. “Will you read to me?” She mumbles shyly.

“Sure, my love. Which one?”

Janis leans over to grab Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children from her nightstand before cuddling back into her. Cady kicks the blanket up over them with her feet, tugging it tightly around her girlfriend’s shoulders as she opens the book.

“I had just come to accept that my life would be ordinary when extraordinary things began to happen.” Cady reads, Janis listening intently even though she’s read it several times before.

Cady kisses her still-warm forehead gently before continuing. By the time Jacob winds up in Wales, Janis’ breathing evens out and she can hear a faint whistling sound with every breath. She dog-ears the page (knowing that Janis is very pro-dog earing) and continues reading silently to herself as she eats her own lunch; it’s an interesting story. Once the light from the setting sun just barely starts stealing in through the window, Cady decides to get started making the soup.

She very delicately shifts Janis off of her and tucks her in again, Janis grumbling crankily in her sleep for a second at the removal of cuddles. Cady leans in and pecks her nose before she goes, giggling quietly as it crinkles like a bunny’s.

She pads down to the kitchen quietly to work on the soup, tiptoeing so as not to wake Janis. The Heron’s super-awesome-cure-all-wonder soup is actually just chicken noodle soup, but a really delicious homemade variety with some extra spices. Cady is lucky Juliana likes to cook, they have everything she needs except the chicken and vegetables.

She decides to check with Damian first, he lives closer than the grocery store is and she doesn’t want to leave Janis alone for too long.

africabytoto: Hey Damian, do you happen to have any chicken and carrots and celery at your place? Janis is sick and I wanna make her some soup 📷 all she has is dino nuggets and frozen peas

sashafierce: Aww poor Jan

sashafierce: Let me check. What did she catch?

africabytoto: Strep throat. She’s miserable, I hate to see her like this 📷

sashafierce: She got strep all the time when we were kids, she hasn’t had it in a while. Poor thing :(

sashafierce: You’re in luck little slice, we do indeed have your poultry and veggies

africabytoto: Oh yay thank you!!!!!! I’ll be over soon, I just need to write her a note in case she wakes up

sashafierce: Sounds good :))))

-

Cady scrawls “Went to grab some ingredients for your dinner, be back soon. Text if you need anything, love C xx” on a post it note and sticks it to Janis’ bedside table, kissing her forehead gently. She feels a little cooler now, so the medicine must have finally kicked in again.

She grabs her bike from and heads over to Damian’s house, finding him waiting for her on the porch with a bag of goodies. He stands from his chair when he sees her, coming to wrap her in a hug.

“How is she?”

“She’ll be okay. She’s really weak right now and still in a lot of pain, but she should be feeling a lot better by tomorrow,” Cady answers, peeking into the bag. Ooh, ice cream.

“Poor Jan. She got strep all the time when we were little. Turns out she just had giant tonsils, she had them removed the day after her mom finally took her to a specialist in second grade. She hasn’t gotten it since, until now,” Damian explains, letting Cady go.

“I hate seeing her like this. She’s so tired and weak. But she is extra cuddly today, that’s been nice,” Cady says sadly.

“She always is when she’s sick. The only thing that makes her feel any better is being held, and then she pretends like it never happened once she’s better. She has to ‘maintain her image’.” Damian says, doing air quotes at the end.

“Sounds like her,” Cady giggles. Janis’ punk image was checked at the door when they got together, but she still clings to it desperately. “I should get back before too much longer. Thank you for this, I owe you one.”

“No you don’t, just tell her I said to get better and give her a hug for me. See you on Monday, Cads.” Damian says as he hugs her one more time and hands her the bag, heading back into his house.

————

Once Cady has pedaled back to Janis’ house, she heads up to her bedroom to check if she’s woken up yet.

Turns out she hasn’t, but she’s tossed her covers away and is spooning poor Pancakes, who looks like he’s just barely tolerating the affection. Cady goes to give him some scritches when she spots the tip of his tail flicking in annoyance, trying to coax him to stay.

She pecks Janis on the forehead again, frowning at the heat she feels. She scraps the note she wrote now that she’s returned, writing a new one explaining that she’s downstairs if Janis wakes up and needs something.

-

She decides to do the dishes first, scrubbing out the plates and cups as well as the pan and pot she’s used so far today. She probably should have done it earlier, but Janis needed her more.

Once that’s handled, she starts prepping the chicken and veggies, cutting the vegetables into bite-sized chunks and seasoning everything with the various spices. It’s designed to have enough flavor to taste even through a stuffy nose, so it takes a lot of seasoning.

She seasons the chicken broth as well, adding in the noodles and vegetables to boil. Pancakes comes trotting down the stairs once she puts the chicken into a pan to start cooking, licking his fur back into place after Janis’ rather aggressive cuddle session.

“Hi Pancakes, did Janis finally let you go?” Cady asks, checking the time on the microwave. “It’s your dinner time, too, let’s get you fed. Not that you need it, chunky.”

She picks up his bowl and scoops some of his food out of the can, giggling as he brushes against her legs and purrs very loudly. “I’m going as fast as I can, calm down.”

He dives in once she puts his bowl back down, munching happily on his salmon and turkey paté. Gross.

Cady cuts up the now-cooked chicken into small chunks, adding it to the pot and giving everything a stir. Pancakes hops up on the counter next to the stove once he’s finished his meal, sniffing curiously at the steam coming from the pot.

“Get down, young man. You had your dinner, this is for Janis,” Cady scolds jokingly, scooping him off the counter and back onto the ground. “I’d give you some, but the spices aren’t good for your tummy.”

She ladles the soup into two bowls once it’s finished, cleaning the dishes she used right away since Janis is still asleep. She finds a tray in one of the cabinets, grabbing it so she doesn’t have to carry  everything up in her hands.

The soup is warm, so Cady gets some apple juice from the fridge so Janis can have something cold to go with it. She makes extra sure that Pancakes isn’t around her feet before picking the tray up and heading back up to her girlfriend.

-

Janis is still asleep, on her back now and shivering slightly. Cady frowns, resting the tray on her dresser and heading to wake her. She brushes her thumb against Janis’ cheek gently, leaning down to kiss her forehead a few times. Janis’ eyes flutter open at the attention, and she gives a pained sigh.

“Hi, lovey. How are you feeling?” Cady asks gently, handing her the thermometer to check her fever. Janis gives her the saddest look and a thumbs down, obediently sticking the thermometer under her tongue. “Worse than earlier?”

Janis nods as the thermometer beeps, pulling it out as it blinks red at her. 102 degrees. Cady frowns at it before shutting it off and putting it back on Janis’ nightstand.

“I made you soup, it’s my family’s secret recipe,” Cady says quietly, as Janis seems to be showing signs of a headache. Janis perks up slightly at the mention of soup, looking around for it. Cady goes to grab the tray, settling in next to her and taking her own bowl.

“This is good. I’ve never had homemade soup,” Janis whispers hoarsely.

“Never?”

Janis shakes her head. “I always got the canned stuff.”

“Well now you have me. I’ll make you soup whenever you need it,” Cady says, leaning over to peck Janis’ forehead. “You should take your hoodie off. You’re burning up, my love.”

“I’m freezing,” Janis responds in her notebook, having leaned over to grab it off the nightstand.

“Freezing looks like this, in sign,” Cady says, holding both hands out in front of her and curling her fingers slightly at the knuckles. “The soup will help warm you up, you’re going to cook yourself if you keep your shirt on.”

Janis pouts but pulls it off, being careful not to knock her bowl. Cady finishes hers and leaves to go get a cool cloth. It’s still too early for Janis to have another dose of medicine, so she’ll have to bring her temperature down a bit the old fashioned way.

Janis has finished her dinner by the time she comes back, sipping carefully at the juice and wincing slightly with every swallow. She perks up when she sees Cady come back, finishing off the glass and resting it back on the tray.

Janis does the sign for snuggles again, blinking sadly at her. Damian did say it’s practically all that helps.

“Let me go clean these dishes, and then I’ll come back and cuddle you, I promise. Rest this on the back of your neck,” Cady says, handing her the damp cloth. Janis takes it and stands, the soup having given her just enough strength to get herself to the bathroom.

Cady takes everything back down and rushes through scrubbing them clean, leaving them to dry in the rack instead of doing it by hand before hurrying back upstairs. Janis has returned by then, looking so small curled up under her blankets.

Cady crawls in next to her, and Janis shifts to sit on her lap and cuddle into her shoulder. Cady rubs her slightly sweaty back gently, leaning down to kiss her cheek and adjust the cloth on her neck.

They sit there for a while in peaceful silence, until Cady feels tears soak into her shirt and hears a quiet sniffle. “Oh, Jellybean, what’s wrong?” She asks sadly, holding her girl closer.

“Don’t feel good. Hurts,” Janis whines hoarsely, letting out a whimper of pain. Janis cries a fair amount, but almost never from physical pain. She must be feeling miserable.

“Oh, mpendwa, I’m sorry. I wish I could do more for you,” Cady says sadly. “My poor love.”

“Medicine?” Janis asks quietly with another whimper.

“You can’t take any more yet, it’s not safe. Just a little longer,” Cady tries to comfort gently. Janis chokes out a sob at finding out she can’t take anything more yet, and has to continue dealing with the pain on her own.

“Please?” She begs.

“I’m sorry, Jellybean. You’ll get sicker if you take more. Shh, lovey, you’ll make yourself feel worse if you cry, shh.” Cady squeezes her tighter, rubbing her back again. “Damian gave me some ice cream for you when I went to get the stuff to make your soup, would that help?”

“What kind?” Janis asks tearfully.

“That really good caramel stuff you like,” Cady answers, wiping her tears gently. “Do you want me to go get it?”

Janis thinks for a second, wanting the ice cream to help her pain but not wanting her Caddy to go. She nods after a minute, scooting off her lap with a sniffle. “Hurry back?” She whispers, blinking her watery brown eyes pitifully at Cady.

“Always, my love. I’ll be right back,” Cady insists, kissing her red cheeks gently and leaving again.

True to her word, she comes rushing back in no more than forty-five seconds later, brandishing a pint of non-dairy ice cream and a spoon. She sits down again, pulling Janis back into her lap and opening the frozen treat. Desperate to do what little she can to help her girlfriend, Cady scoops some onto the spoon and holds it in front of Janis’ lips.

A testament to her illness, Janis accepts the spoon feeding without complaint. “You’re really feeling sick, hm? You almost never let me feed you,” Cady says, getting her another bite.

Janis just nods and nuzzles into her, opening her mouth again. She’s exhausted, it’s nice not having to exert herself. They continue this for a while, until about a quarter of the pint is gone and Janis puts the lid back on it gently.

“Did the cold help at all?” Cady asks, adjusting her grip on her as she leans to put the ice cream down. Janis nods and holds up her fingers in a pinch sign, signaling that it helped a little. “Good.”

Janis shuts her eyes and tries to rest as best she can, held securely in her girlfriend’s arms. Cady starts rubbing her back again and gently humming a lullaby, something Janis doesn’t quite recognize. She just cuddles in closer, nuzzling into Cady’s neck. She can’t quite fall asleep because her throat and head hurt so badly, but she gets close and rests there quietly for a while.

Cady kisses her forehead softly after about a half hour, telling her she can have more medicine now. She heads to fill up a glass with water and put the ice cream back in the freezer, handing Janis another dose of ibuprofen and another of her antibiotic pills once she comes back. Janis takes them thankfully, immediately swallowing them all down.

“I’m amazed you can swallow those with a throat infection, they’re absolutely massive,” Cady says, shocked at the size of the antibiotics. “I never understood that. Surely they should be small and easy for people to take.”

Janis nods her agreement, huddling under her blankets in a desperate search for warmth. “Stay over?” She asks pitifully.

“If you want, my love. Let me tell my parents and borrow some pjs,” Cady says, texting her parents that Janis is still very sick and needs her to stay, before grabbing a large t-shirt and some thin lounge pants from Janis’ dresser and changing quickly. She comes back once that’s done, pulling Janis back against her chest and kissing her forehead. “Get some rest, Bluejay. You should feel better tomorrow.”

Janis falls asleep once the medicine kicks in, held safely in Cady’s arms.

————-

When Cady wakes up the next morning, Janis is already looking much better. Her temperature is almost normal and she’s gotten some color back. She’d woken up a few times in the night, needing more medicine for her pain before falling quickly back asleep, but it seems to have done its job well.

Janis’ brown doe eyes blink open after a few minutes, the fogginess cleared and the beautiful shine back. She grins upon seeing Cady looking at her, stretching and giving a yawn. “Hi.” Janis says, sounding much less hoarse and pained.

“Hi,” Cady responds, kissing her nose softly. “How are you feeling?”

“Better. Still not totally back, but better,” Janis says softly, protecting her recently returned voice.

“Good. I missed your smile,” Cady says. “I liked the extra cuddles though. That was the only good part.”

Janis chuckles. “Thank you for taking care of me. I know I’m annoying when I’m sick. I get so clingy. Whiny.”

“Love, you were absolutely miserable yesterday, you’re allowed to be clingy and whiny. I liked taking care of you, I just didn’t like seeing you hurt so badly,” Cady chides gently.

“I love you,” Janis cuddles back into her, kissing the spot on her chest she can reach. “You’re the best medicine.”

“I love you too. I’ll always be around to take care of you.”

-

thank you for reading, I hope you enjoyed. please let me know what you thought!

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[aro-throughyourchest]

Misadventures of Magic

CHAPTER 1

WORD COUNT: 1,542

WARNINGS: Minimal Cursing

I did not mean for a single chapter to be this long

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Ah... A pleasant, peaceful morning.

Not a single thing wrong.

A high-pitched scream went off in the background. Varian screamed internally.

NOT A SINGLE THING WRONG.

Ah, Varian, lying to himself again. He tried to calm his nerves and go back to planning, but Hugo’s screams of terror were getting too much to bear. The tip of the pencil in his hand snapped, and so did he.

He slammed the pencil down in frustration and spun around in his chair. “Guys, can you chill for one SECOND?! If we don’t get that totem soon, we’ll be stuck here for another, I don’t even know, a month?”

Hugo and Yong stopped in their tracks before Yong mumbled, “He started it.”

Varian resisted the urge to scream as Yong went back to terrorizing Hugo.

“If you two don’t shut up, they’re gonna kick us out!” Varian hissed.

Yong pouted, and Hugo collapsed onto a bed. Varian sighed and went to sharpen the pencil.

They didn’t say a word for a minute. Just soaked up the silence. Yong picked at the shag carpeting, and Hugo stared at the ceiling. Ruddiger ate an apple. Varian blew off the excess shaving and got back to work.

Yong looked between the two and spoke up. “I saw an ad for a magic show in the Town Center. We can go make fun of it and take a break.”

Varian muttered to himself and waved the boy off. “Magic shows aren’t as important as-“

Varian noticed how disappointed Yong looked and rubbed the back of his neck. “A tiny magic show would take our mind off this... So, why not.”

Yong lit up and rushed out the door.

“YONG, WAIT!”

Varian chased after him; Ruddiger tailing behind him. Hugo slipped Cheese, his mouse, into his shirt pocket and followed suit.

Varian skidded to a stop to say hi to the owner of the BnB before continuing the chase. Hugo did the same, and the old lady went back to their knitting.

Yong rounded a corner and then another. He slid to a stop, jumping up and down. Didn’t even look the slightest bit worn out.

Varian caught up to Yong, panting. He did not expect this kid to be that fast. “YONG-“ He gasped. “Don’t DO THAT!”

Hugo took a bit longer; he was a little less in shape than the other two. He took a deep breath. “Firecracker, what the hell-“

The boy shushed them and pointed to the stage. A purple smoke billowed from the tips of the stage’s curtains; Varian leaned against Hugo with a tired grin. This was already turning out on a bad start; the rest would be a train wreck. God, that’s going to be hilarious.

Hugo huffed at sudden lean-on but left it alone, focusing his attention on the show. A voice bellowed, “YOU HAVE COME FAR AND WIDE-“

“I’m using a deep voice! Tremble before me!” Hugo mocked in a low voice. Varian laughed, and the show continued.

”HOLD ONTO YOUR SEATS, GET READY TO MEET-“

”MARMIE & MARJORIE!“

The curtains pulled back to reveal one girl, not two. She looked out of order and clearly did not expect to be a one-man show that day. She waved sheepishly to the crowd, and the announcer, who apparently didn’t see this coming either, awkwardly declared, “Or... Just Marjorie!”

She clumsily pulled out a book from her cloak and straightened her bonnet.

Varian felt bad for Marjorie as she scrambled around, trying to do the show on her own. Hugo found it hilarious.

“ALRIGHT- UM-“ She flipped desperately through her book. “I WILL PERFORM- No, that’s another two-person spell... Oh, bother.”

She mumbled to herself, flipping through the book. Hugo snickered, and Varian hid the side of his face. This was uncomfortable.

Marjorie finally reached a page and inhaled.

“I shall shine a ball of blue light, changing the color ever so lightly.”

She grimaced, not pleased with her own choice of spell. Mouthing the words of the spell, she raised her hand and ...Nothing happened. Her eye twitched as she scanned the page. Varian cringed; Yong did the same. Hugo held back laughter, barely keeping it in.

Marjorie’s face grew red as she said something the group couldn’t hear. She hollered the hymn’s words.

“SUNLIGHT,

GIFT YOUR GLOW

SEND DOWN A RAY OF BLUE

HELP ME CHANGE THE HUE

OF EVERYTHING TRUE

EVERYTHING TRUE...”

She stared upwards at her raised hand, but still, nothing happened. Marjorie bit her lip, and the crowd began to whisper amongst themselves. Hugo decided to ruin her day a little more.

“BOO! GOT ANY REAL MAGIC IN THAT LITTLE BOOK OF YOURS?!”

Varian punched him in the arm.

Hugo grinned as Marjorie just timidly stood there. She took a breath and called, “A heckler, I see! Alright, then! Come on upstage, see if you can do better!”

‘Wait, what?’

The three gave her a weird look before shuffling up to the stage, judging murmurs coming from the audience. Okay, this was a little weird...

Varian caught Marjorie’s eye, but she quickly looked away. Odd. A lot of things were weird about this.

They arrived on stage, and she handed Hugo the book, folding her arms. “Let’s see if you can do better, pretty boy!”

He grinned and flipped through the book, finding a spell. The boy cleared his throat and mouthed the words, openly trying to mock Marjorie’s earlier performance.

She caught on and snatched the book from him; the crowd chuckled. Done with Hugo, Varian butted in, “Come on, cut it out, and let’s just go, Hugo.”

Marjorie smiled at Varian and visibly blushed, tipping off Yong and Hugo. She went back to flipping through the pages and shoved the book into Hugo’s hands again. “Here’s one! Do this spell, ‘Hugo!’”

She grinned as if she finally stumped him. Hugo read through it and scoffed, confusing Varian and Yong. He slipped a hand into his pocket, disingenuously read out the lines, pulled out an orb, and held the tiny ball of science behind his back. After finishing the chant, he dropped it, and bubbles erupted around his feet. Neither Varian, Yong, Marjorie, or the crowd noticed this.

Hugo grinned and started to hand the book back to her before going back to look through it again. “Wait, wait, if you get to choose a spell for me, it’s only fair that I do the same.”

Marjorie gulped and glanced at the crowd, tugging at her hair. He shoved the book into her hands, and she yelped, cautiously looking down at the page.

“Hugo, why are you such an ass?” Varian whispered.

He shrugged coyly. Marjorie cleared her throat and muttered the words, eyes closed. She opened an eye and saw nothing but Hugo's smirk. Grumbling, she slammed the book and yelled, “LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, THANK YOU FOR COMING!”

She stuffed it back in her cloak, teary-eyed, and the curtains closed. Marjorie shoved past Hugo and stumbled down the stage’s steps.

Yong sighed, and Varian glared at Hugo. “Goddamnit, Hugo. You are so extra.”

Hugo held up his hands. “What?”

“You know damn well what!”

Varian smacked him on the back of his head.

“Ow!”

“You really couldn’t stand not being the center of attention, could you?!”

Hugo stared down at Varian. “Well, excuse me, Goggles, I had fun. Not my fault, you didn’t.”

Yong looked between them worriedly.

“REALLY-“

They continued yelling at each other, making the stagehands and others very uncomfortable. Yong glanced around the room, noticing all this, and tried to get their attention.

“Guys...”

“Guys.”

“GUYS!”

The two turned to Yong. Yong clenched his fists and stomped toward the stairs. “Hugo’s not the only one making a scene. Let’s just GO.”

<•>

The walk back to the BnB was silent. Yong refused to say a word, and Hugo and Varian kept a bitter distance from each other.

Yong swung open the BnB’s door, let Varian and Hugo in, and slammed it. He noticed the little, old lady was still in the room and sheepishly apologized.

“Sorry, ma’am!”

“It’s fine, darlin’.”

Yong sat down beside her and politely asked, “What’re you knitting?”

“Just a sweater.“

Silently, he watched her knit. It was mesmerizing how she had all the motions down. He scooted closer, and she calmly asked, “Do you know how to knit?”

Yong shook his head.

“Would you like to learn?”

He nodded and she smiled.

“Go grab a set of needles; they’re on the counter in the kitchen.”

He hopped up excitedly and went to go get them. As he got closer to the kitchen, the screaming upstairs got louder, and Yong tensed. Dang it, why couldn’t Varian and Hugo get along? They were both really cool people!

Folding his arms, he huffed. It was getting tiring to have to keep Varian and Hugo off each other’s throats. He needed some air.

He yelled, “MA’AM! I’m going to hold off on the lesson and head out if that’s fine with you!”

The old lady called back, “It’s fine, dear! Just don’t forget to close the door on your way out!”

He smiled tiredly and left.

Not taking into account everything in this city was new to him.

CHAPTER 1′S END

Yup. Not really proud of this, and I accept all criticism and questions RN.

NOTE: I kinda mixed up the order on all this, so the water kingdom comes before meeting Nuru. My bad...

[vanchlo]

The Assistant / Chapter Twenty-Three, “Bleeding Heart”

hello hello. i’m so sorry that i’m an awful person and i haven’t written in a bahillion years. life has been wack and i fell out of writing for awhile. instead of doing homework like a good human being - yay! - i found this chapter i had started and i finished it. it’s not as long as usual, i know, but i did that on purpose and you’ll see why ;) ;) ;) ;) i hope i can write some more soon and stick with this. i’m unreliable i know and i’m terribly sorry. college and work are crazy and my mom was just diagnosed with 2 kinds of cancers soooo oooo life truly is crazy and overwhelming rn. i hope to maybe set aside some time each night to write, but it’s hard to stop when it’s getting fun haha. i enjoyed writing this chapter and delving more into this story, like idek where it’s gonna go haha.

anyways lemme know what you think of this chapter. i wanna hear your predictions and thoughts!!!!!!!!! reblog, like, share with friends, say hi to me :) 

one last thing. we should decide a ship name for harry and becks, i mean it’s been coming. here are my ideas and feel free to send me others :D 

a) hecks (my personal fav) 

b) barry (i just think of rachel’s barry from FRIENDS but it’s ok) 

c) hebecca????

d) ??????

e) hecky?

“No. No. No. No. No. NO. NO. NO.

I try to breathe in, but I can’t.

And suddenly the switch inside of me changes. Instead of pushing him away for the last few weeks, I want him. I want him to come and save me. 

The laugh that falls from my lips surprises the both of us. “You can’t hurt me anymore.” 

The swarm of voices that crowded my ears from before is now gone. A soft chatter of voices occupies the conference room now, around an hour after the festivities had begun. Now the fun is over and the last few of us clean up the forgotten plates, take down the streamers donning the walls, push in the chairs, vacuum up the crumbs, and everything else required to return the room to its former glory. 

“Hey, you stop that,” somebody says from behind me. “This was yer party, yer not s’posed to be cleaning it up,” they finish as I turn around to find Harry pushing a lock of hair out of his eyes as he grasps a wet rag in the other hand. 

“No, I want to help. Please,” I reply, turning back to the table and picking up the spray bottle. I spritz the plastic top and run the wet rag over the spot, repeating in sections until I finish the table. 

“Fine, I guess you can help,” Harry huffs and I smile to myself in triumph as I return to my cleaning. “So, what did ya think?” 

“It was a lot of fun and very nice of all of you, thank you so much again,” I tell him trying to circumvent having a conversation. I move to the other end of the table as he begins on the next one over. 

A few male coworkers fold up the table to my left and carry it out the door, probably to place back in storage. My eyes life to find Harry leaning over the table he scrubs and he must notice my pause because he meets my eyes. But I can’t look at him, not today. 

“I’m glad ya had such a good time, ‘m sure everybody else did too . . Everybody’s going t’ miss ya, ya know,” he comments, and I nod with a small smile. I don’t know how much more of this awkward small talk I can put up with, especially as the domino that caused all of this is gnawing at my insides. Particularly the part where he could have stopped it coming to this. 

But he didn’t.  

The rest of the clean up consists of few words between Harry and I, or anybody else for that matter. We cleaned tables, folded them and carried them away, stacked chairs, vacuumed, packed things away, and carried more things away. The room was now bleak with its new emptiness and quiet, all of the people previously filling it returning to their lives. Luckily I found my escape shortly after the room was all squared away. 

“All done?” a voice asks me. I look over my shoulder and find Asher tying up a bloated garbage bag. My stomach drops all of a sudden with disappointment at who it is, and who it’s not. 

“Yep.” I nod. Then I feel bad for being disappointed. Oh it’s just a never-ending rollercoaster, isn’t it?

“I can’t believe you helped clean up. The whole point was having other people do stuff for you, and then you helped them?!” Asher laughs with a disbelieving shake of his head. He happens to pull a giggle from my unsure lips. I sheepishly nod at his words, and I give him another laugh when he almost trips over the garbage bag. 

“Are you on your way out now?”

“Yeah, I think so. I just have to drop off some last-minute things - keys and keycards, that sorta thing. But now I can’t find the person to give them to . . ,” I confess, losing my words as I scan the room for those green eyes and that mustard top. 

“Hmmmph, well it’s getting late. Maybe he left or had something. You could leave them with Myles or Jennings, I’m sure if you wanna get outta here. I know you’re just dying to get those drinks with me tomorrow,” Asher quips, turning my lips up with his words. 

I leave him with a few words, telling him I’ll see him later. I say goodbyes to a few people as I leave the conference room and begin my hunt to find Harry. One I’m not sure how I want to end. 

I find my desk empty and many others as well. Glancing at my watch, I find that the hours have flown by. Many people jetted out of here as it’s five o'clock on a Friday afternoon. The cushion welcomes me as I sit down in my chair for the last time, but I don’t miss its welcoming squeak. The squeaking continues as I spin my last spin in the chair, feeling hot tears at the back of my eyes at the finality of my actions. My mug of pencils- no, it’s not my mug anymore. It never was mine. 

A polar bear post-it note holder invades my -not my desk - along with framed pictures of strangers, a bright pink day planner, candy apple lotion, and other foreign objects belonging to the new owner of this desk. Who isn’t me. A long sigh leaves my lips as I release my hands I didn’t know I was clenching. 

“It’s now or never,” I say aloud, willing myself to stand. 

Okay, Becky, we can do this. This isn’t even the hard part. 

But it is, I think to myself as my eyes glance up and memories that took place at this desk spin through my head. Making Harry laugh for the first time. Silly arguments with him about which was the better movie. How easily he made me smile by bringing me coffee out of nowhere and- Stop, Becky, you can’t do this now, I tell myself as I swipe a hot tear away from under my eye. I exhale as I get to my feet and feel for the ring of keys in my pocket. Good, they’re still there. 

The hallway is dim, but the light from the London evening comes in through the many windows around the office. His hallway. A hallway I will never walk again. Fuck, am I really sure I want to do this? How can I not see him again? You can and you will. You have to, Becky. It was too hard sitting there day after day wanting him. And him not wanting you back. I nod to myself, trying to affirm those words to myself. They don’t do that good of a job, because of the person I see around the corner. 

“Oh hey, bug. A-are ya leavin’?” Harry stutters, his furrowed emerald eyes falling on me. He comes to a stop in front of me, running a hand through his mop of curls. 

“U-uh yeah. I was just going to drop off the keys with you and go over a few things.” 

“Yeah yeah, sounds good. I jus’ really gotta take a leak, so ‘ll be back in a minute, ‘kay?” He asks with a pat on my arm. I nod with a soft ‘okay,’ as I turn to watch him walk away. Nodding with a thumbs up, he gives me a small sad smile before turning around and walking down the hallway. I watch until he’s gone. 

Almost done. But now for the hard part. Leaving him for the last time, I contemplate with a pout. I shuffle my feet to his door and twist the knob. Immediately, his familiar woodsy scent hits me. Suddenly, all of my senses are inundated with him. His messy desk. His blazer draped over his chair. Bookmarked biographies dotting his desk. Empty mugs of tea taking up empty spots. The essential oil diffuser in the corner humming as it mists Sandalwood. Bach’s Cello Suite No. 1 trickling from a Bluetooth speaker in the corner. Harry. It’s all him. And my reserves begin to fall. Can I really do this? No, there’s no way I can. Even if I have to sit at that desk day after day trying to love him, it’s better than leaving him. 

Yeah, and then what about when he marries Amber or somebody else that’s not you? 

I gulp, trying to get rid of the lump in my throat and at the same time pressing my fingers against my eyes, willing them to dry. 

“Wow, are we getting a little teary-eyed on our last day?” a voice snarks from behind me. 

No. No. No. No. No. NO. NO. NO. 

I try to breathe in, but I can’t. 

And suddenly the switch inside of me changes. Instead of pushing him away for the last few weeks, I want him. I want him to come and save me. To save me from her. And to see her for the monster that she is. 

The laugh that falls from my lips surprises the both of us. “You can’t hurt me anymore, Amber,” I snap, turning around to face her with a wry smile coating my lips. 

“Oh I don’t know about that, I still can. But hey, I won, and don’t you forget that,” she retorts. Amber’s blonde curls shake as she stomps her foot and points a tanned manicured finger at me. How can he even comfortably hold hands with those daggers?

Her blow hits me, and she knows it. I can’t hide it, because I’ve lost it. The last few weeks or even months have taken everything from me. My grandpa dying, my mom’s abusive treatment towards me, Harry’s bipolarness, and Amber’s physical and mental attacks. I lost.

“I don’t care,” I croak, throwing up my hands in defeat. The keys on the ring twinkle with movement in my hand. 

“But you do! I know you do!” she cackles, excitement twisting her plastic face into a Cheshire grin. “You wanted him, but you couldn’t have him and so you gave up! I won!” Amber continues, stepping towards me in her flowy scarlet blouse and skin-tight black jeans. 

I instinctively step back and away from her, but I stop when I think I hear a noise. It’s a loud squeak on the floor that makes me stop, but it doesn’t stop right away. 

“I don’t care, Amber, you can have him! I told him what you did to me and he didn’t believe me because of whatever spell you put on him. So you can keep him and live a wonderful, happy life together. I don’t care anymore, and I hate that I ever did,” I announce with weight to my words, willing my feet to lift from the carpet, but they won’t. 

Amber chuckles, crossing her arms with a pleased smile of satisfaction painting her face. “I can’t believe you had the nerve to tell him what I did to you,” she mutters in disbelief, shaking her head. “As if Harry would believe that I’d do such a thing. He probably thinks you made it up. Hell, for all I know I never laid a finger on you and you just imagined the whole thing.” 

“You left marks on me, Amber,” I spit out through gritted teeth. 

“Yeah, and apparently that wasn’t even enough to convince Harry. God, I really do have him wrapped around my finger,” Amber sighs happily. “I can’t do anything wrong in his eyes. He hasn’t even noticed how much I’ve been gone lately, or how often I’ve been texting this new bloke I’m fucking on the side.” 

“You slut!” I exclaim, not being able to hold it in. “Harry loves you and would do anything for you! He built this firm from the ground up! He’s sweet, he’s kind, he’s giving, he’s funny- he’s amazing and that’s how you treat him?!” 

“Excuse me?! Who here was throwing themselves at my boyfriend right in front of me?!” Amber argues, taking another frightening step toward me. She’s no longer laughing, but instead, her drawn-on eyebrows have fallen into a point above her glassy stare. 

“How dense are you?!” I laugh, feeling the anger rise warmly in my chest. I really don’t care anymore. “You have such a huge problem with that - which never happened, thank you - but you think it’s okay to cheat on your boyfriend?! My god, you really are fucking dumb!” 

“You just had your last laugh, bitch, because I’m going to slap that smug smile right off your face,” she snarls, taking several steps before I can almost see the flames rising in her eyes. 

“No, you won’t!” a voice announces. 

I take my eyes off of Amber to see who said that, but it’s a second too long that lets her clawed hand accost my face. 

[szopenhauer]

What was your last dream about? pamiętam tylko tyle, że M. powinna uważać na jej byłego

Would you like to build/design your own house? yes

Do you have a cherished childhood teddy bear? it’s not really a teddy but yeah

Are you psychic in any way? it seems

Are you a good dancer? meh

Are you a good singer? nooo

Are you a good cook? not the worst

Are you a good artist? maybe

Are you a good listener? try to be 

Are you a good public speaker? but don’t like to 

Are you a good babysitter? might be but hate that

Are you a good dresser? have my own style

Are you a good comedian? I’m funny :P

Are you a good cleaner? not good enough

Are you a good actor? I am

Are you a good writer? just like to write

Do you ever get chills & goosebumps when you listen to music? tell me about it...

What was the last song that had that effect on you? not sure which was last

Do you know what any of your siblings did over the weekend? I don’t care

Was the last book you read a hardback or paperback? paperback

What was the last thing you required the use of a spoon for? I was eating breakfast

The last time you ate something, was it in a bowl or on a plate? neither XD

Can you recall the last time you held hands with someone? I can

What was the last thing that made your heart melt? hmm...

Can you recall the last time you visited a bookshop? not the exact day but yep

Did you purchase anything? I don’t think so

Have you been wearing homemade masks or store-bought ones? both

Do you call yourself stupid a lot? sometimes

Are you listening to music right now? not rn

What is your newest favorite website? aliexpress?

Do you have a headache right now? had before today

What month is your birthday, and what month would u change it to if you could?  February and would like June, July or August that’s why I will spend my name day during summer instead of spring with my sister

Have you ever had to use an epi pen? not yet

Do you know the names of 3 of your neighbors? (list if you can): personal

What was the last grocery store you shopped at?

Do memories from your past come back to haunt you ? frequently

Have you ever seen an angel? or a ghost

Have you ever seen a demon? that time in a mirror?...

What color was the last sweatshirt you wore? grey

What was the last act of creativity you displayed? Vinnie’s tiny bird next to her signature?

Do you ever find yourself just writing/typing out your feelings? my tumblr is full of this shit

Whose house were you at last, besides your own? my current partner’s

Do you like your teeth? not really

Does piano music tend to calm you down? wouldn’t say so

What’s something you need to get done soon? ugh...

Is your best friend awake right now? they are

If I came to your house, could I find any kind of chocolate? ask my mother

Who was the last person to upload a picture with you in it? M.

Do you ever wear sleep masks when you sleep or shower caps when you shower? neither

Don’t tell me lies, so where’s your man? where’s Nat? XD

Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex? dad

Has anyone said they love you in the last week? yasss

Have you ever kissed under water? hell no

Have you kissed anyone whose name starts with a M? hahaha

Would you kiss the last person who texted you, on the lips? done and I hopefully will

Camping with a ton of friends or hotel with a few friends? hotel 

Could you go the rest of your life without a cigarette? absolutely

Have you ever wanted something you couldn’t have? like health

How is your boyfriend/girlfriend doing and where are they now? she’s angry, has a flu and she’s working

What was the last topic you read about? DID?

Do you prefer Windows or Mac? Windows

What’s the best amusement park ride you’ve ever been on? I’m not a fan of rides tbh

Would you know how to read a house blueprint? partially?

Do you keep notes on your phone? What sort of things do you write? used to on my old cell

Do you remember much from high school? tought so

Has anyone ever come out to you? yup

What was the last album you listened to in full? Red army choir or Anastasis?

Do you have Disney+? we don’t

Have you ever sent a package or letter to a foreign country? postcards

How many jobs do you have on your resume? 0

Are you comfortable with leaving the house without any makeup on?: I don’t wear makeup

Do you have any expensive hobbies?: if I had money...

What length do you like to keep your nails at?: short

Have you ever felt physical pain in a dream?: but not as much as Nat 

Have you ever had Christmas carolers come to your house and sing for you?: when I was a kid

What’s your favorite Studio Ghibli film?: Porco Rosso?

What did you learn from your last failed relationship?: can we not talk about it...

What’s something on your to-do list that never actually gets done?: I’m a huge procrastinator

Have you ever been really passionate about something but then lost interest? If so, what was it?: collages

What’s the worst thing about being male/female (whichever you are)?: period, being able to get pregnant and have female kinds of cancer etc.

What movie has the best special effects?: I’m into practical special effects more than cgi but... there’s too many to name

When did you last have a vision test?: ages ago 

[sasukebarmitzvah]

watching every naruto opening and discussing my opinions because im bored liveblog

original

took me a little while to warm up to it idk why maybe because its not as up tempo and its a shonen and i want to get hype but i love it now. love the part where the camera pans around team 7 fighting randos they are babies… also its so funny when sasuke holds out his hand to naruto to help him out of the lake and he jsut fist bumps him. gay boy

Haruka fucking kanata baby!!!!!!!! a fav. like we all know this. i listen to the song just regularly a lot and every time it comes on shuffle im like Oh my god its haruka kanata. read the english translation of the lyrics… sns

this one got stuck in my head for a while lol. i like seeing everyone babie and i like naruto shaking his head at the end to dry off like a dog

DDMnanannaddnnaaaaa naaaaaaaaa nda aaWE ARE FIGHTING DEAMERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OOLI OLI OLIOOOOoohh!!!!! very fun very good also a very good time in the show, hello tsunade

**edgy shonen opening where theres something important in front of a chain link fence**

lol skipping 6-9 bc thats the huge chunk of filler which i didnt actually watch most of

shippuden

heros come back is SO GOOD absolutely one of my favs. banger first of all. i love how its actually choreographed and naruto sakura kakashi are like moving to the beat and i love the part where the animation is like pencil sketchy and theyre running and their bodies warp bro its just cool. the part where everyone dramatically reaches for gaara is fun, also love deidaras moment. anyway i shake my ass to this song eveyrday

distance oh god oh fuck. YOU ARE MY FRIEND!!! the sasuke and naruto stuff where they are little baby at the beginning at the end we return to the same place theyre there and like about to stab each other i’m going to scream. i lvoe the song of course. hello sai! i love team 7s little spotlight moments where they get to pose to the music its so cute. why is sasuke snake jesus? DO you remember that long lost DREAM!!!!!!!!!!

BLUE BIRD YA BANGER ok the whole symbolism. when naruto falling next to sasuke rising is positioned like yin and yang lol. when naruto is falling from the sky but then sasuke comes to mind and he springs into action lol. ok random people from the fillers i dont care about. naruto fell in the lake he picks up the bird feather interspersed with a couple shots of sasuke horgh. additional reading: paper bag by fiona apple

closer is one of the ones where im like eh its ok its not my favorite and then it gets to the chorus and my dumb ass is jsut screaming YOU KNOW THE CLOSER YOU GET TO SMETHING THE TOUGHTER IT IS TO REACHIT. the funniest part where narutos moping and thinking of sasuke and then he just perks up and smiles at the camera like. gay boy. like getting to see the asuma fight scenes in this op, also it was so funny seeing him get all the screentime in this op knowing hes about to die like yeah very subtle

SHA LA LA!!!! LOVE IT i love it i love it soooo much first of all banger second of all naruto looking into the water and his reflection is sasuke. lollllll. metaphor m-e-t-a-p-h-o-r the little prechorus bit in the middle gives me chills. love sasuke walking into the purple pool like a smug motherfucker thats my boy. at the end zooming into sasukes pupil zoom out it’s narutos eye oh the poetry..

signs another one of the ones where im like eh whatever its fine but not my fav but by the chorus i am standing on the table freaking out. like fuck jiraiya but this one got me a lil. the lighting and choreography of the sasuke itachi fight bit is sooooo nice and pretty, love getting to see all the new players in the story. baby ame orphans fading to the shot of yahiko as pain.. :(

this one literally makes me cry. i get chills what the fuck. definitely one of my favs. am i a bitch? maybe. i like the song by itself but like the way the rise/general shape of the melody flows with the visuals its like oh god oh fuck. again fuck jiraiya but like the role his character serves as a link between these disparate groups of people and the way thats used in this opening… how it starts and ends with him writing and this is the arc where naruto reads tales of a gutsy ninja and he learns about how he got his name and jiraiya wrote the book and hes WRITING and im going CRAZY!! i’m starting to tear up watching it rn. the shot of konan and the pains in that moment just before they leap forward. Sayonaaaaaaara aa lksasldfkwpoeifjhnuerIELFeuiertekdjsnlfweiourbg kakashis moment is cool in this op. also love to see the girls getting fight scenes in this op cus they sure dont in the actual show LOL anyway yeah im at the part where the melodys just hitting sooo different oh my god naruto frog eyes

DIVERRRRRRR. FAV literally like naruto is drowning. hes drowning and everyone is pushing him up so he can breathe again everyone is fighting to save him and thnen he s ouf ot the water and then he sees sasuke drowning and he JUMPS BACK IN. FOR ONE PERSON EVEN THOUGH ALL THESE OTHER PEOLE were working to help him out he dives back in for SASUKE whos drowning in the eyehole of obitos mask which is cool. ok yeah this is another one where im like tearing up because THe cymbal is em….. the way The movement of the visuals is choreographed with the song is so much. nico TOUCHED the fucking walls.

this one kinda annoys me i dont know why it just wasnt my favorite. love the sasuke and naruto staring at each other intensely moment though, would this be a shippuden opening without that. also the part at the end where sakura holds up her kunai and it like slashes and covers sasuke and naruto… inch resting…

newsongs so weird i love it. like what the hell is going on. why is naruto running like hes from some weird gmod video from 2013. love the LITERAL choreography, everyone dancing to the song like this is a musical. theres just a lot of weird moments which is fun. love sai naruto and sakura making the seal together to shoot lightning. raikage leaping gracefully across the beach

i do not enjoy this one. i just dont. it just feels like we’re bootlicking which of course we are because this is the war arc and everything is a nightmare

i remember seeing the first episode with this opening and i was excited bc its like… great another naruto pining for sasuke one this is what im here for. a light banger. minato manlet monday. ohh right this was the one where gaara sees his dad again and his OH I SEE SASUKEE

Banger! nico did indeed touch the walls again. i like that this one is like visually thematically consistent thru the whole thing, i like the nighttime dimly lit atmosphere with the bursts of brighter colorful lighting, also whenever i see tsunade i freak out. narutos cute at the end

SUCH A BANGER!!! also very cool visual style, appreciate it for that like the last one, its got that pretty consistent aesthetic with the red sky and the high contrast black blocking its fun and cool to watch. did i mention the song is a bit of a banger. obito passing thru the rock is cool too bad hes an idiot

ok from this one there were two lines i remember always seeing in the english sub that made me freak out. and one of them was like “this red hot love burning my heart” and it was over kakashi and obito fighting like damn OK. also the “i put the candle out with my finger” thing sticks in my head idk why. hate that we have the narutos big meaty claws i mean manly hands moment though. omg its hashirama and madara and then it CUTS TO SASUKE AND NARUTO IN THE SAME POSE LOL OK…

SILHOUETTE IS a banger… not as much so as some of the others but its a lot of fun. very colorful op, we got some naruto pining for sasuke, classic. also love the thing where ppl are running and they age as they do and they sort of grow into their present selves, a fun visual bit. the end where narutos like obito be nice now look at all these people behind me who think youre a meanie please be nice :(((((((((

another one with a really good visual principle ugh i love how the style of the show is integrated w the styles of more traditional printmaking its very swexy and nice to look at

LINE uugrgh i love this one, maybe a fav… naruto chasing after the light and sasuke trying so hard to snuff it out as they both reflect on their memories of each other oh god oh fuck… also i love the bits where it just has all the characters in a row like it reminds me of that one post about how in the endgame trailer they had a shot of all the female characters together to be like Girl power!! and someone was like yeah thats them showing u exactly how many women theyre going to disrespect LMAO but yeah i do love this op. also the song itself being slower w/ the triplet tempo is a nice change of pace

blood circulator hee hee… the version of this with naruto and sasuke moments is A Lot but even just the generic first version is fun. the part where narutos like knocked on his face hes sinking into the tar and hes not even trying to save himself hes just staring at sasuke, but then he sees sasuke distressed and he goes bijuu mode immediately like What did u say about my mans? there is some homoeroticism

i really hate everything about this i hate it all. sasuke is cute. thats it. ok first of all why did choji cut his hair his long hair look was so gooooooood. hinata bimboification? i mean if anything it was fun to watch these fillers just cus it was fun to watch kakashi be the hokage but really goofy and also the Crumbs tossed to the kakairus… but yeah i hate everything temari got bimbofied too like ugh please let her be a dyke :( this isnt even me talking necessarily about the opening this is me just being like i hate the naruto ending. LOL SASUKE AND NARUTOS NO HOMO BRO HIGH FIVE AT THE END LOLLLLL

ok im done

[papaiyatree]

my brain is on some really weird creative roll rn but i'm not doing anything major with it,,, i'll just doodle the ideas and pick it right back up if i find my stupid apple pencil

[surveyhoursss]

110.

'How much of a life do you have'

Level 1

Smoked a cigarette.

Smoked a cigar.

Kissed a member of the same sex.

SO FAR: 1

Level 2

Are/been in love.

Dumped someone.

Been fired.

Been in a fist fight.

SO FAR: 3

Level 3

Had a crush on an older person.

Skipped class.

Slept with a co-worker.

Seen someone/something die. (would never wish it upon my worst enemy oh my god)

SO FAR: 6

Level 4

Had/have a crush on one of your DA friends. (What does da mean???)

Been to Paris.

Been to Spain.

Been on a plane.

Thrown up from drinking.

SO FAR: 8

Level 5

Eaten sushi.

Been snowboarding.

Met someone in person through the internet.

Been in a mosh pit.

SO FAR: 10

Level 6

Been in an abusive relationship.

Taken painkillers.

Liked/loved someone who you couldn't have.

Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by.

Made a snow angel.

SO FAR: 15

Level 7

Had a tea party.

Flown a kite.

Built a sand castle.

Gone mudding.

Played dress-up.

SO FAR: 19

Level 8

Jumped into a pile of leaves.

Gone sledding.

Cheated while playing a game.

Been Lonely.

Fallen asleep at work/school.

SO far: 23

Level 10

Watched the sun set or rise.

Felt an earthquake.

Killed a snake.

SO FAR: 24

Level 11

Been tickled.

Been robbed/vandalized.

Been cheated on.

Been misunderstood.

SO FAR: 26

Level 12

Won a contest.

Been suspended from school.

Had detention.

Been in a car/motorcycle accident.

SO FAR: 27

Level 13

Had/have braces.

Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night.

Danced in the moonlight.

SO FAR: 29

Level 14

Hated the way you look.

Witnessed a crime.

Pole danced.

Questioned your heart.

Been obsessed with post-it notes.

SO FAR: 33

Level 15

Squished barefoot through the mud.

Been to the opposite side of the world.

Swam in the ocean.

Felt like you were dying.

SO FAR: 36

Level 16

Cried yourself to sleep.

Played cops and robbers.

Recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers.

Sang karaoke.

Paid for a meal with only coins.

SO FAR: 39

Level 17

Done something you told yourself you wouldn't.

Made prank phone calls.

Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose.

Kissed in the rain.

SO FAR: 41

Level 18

Written a letter to Santa Claus.

Watched the sunset/sunrise with someone you care/cared about.

Blown bubbles.

Made a bonfire on the beach or anywhere.

SO FAR: 44

Level 19

Crashed a party.

Have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people.

Gone rollerskating/blading.

Had a wish come true.

Been humped by a monkey. (i'm sorry? wHAT?)

SO FAR: 47

Level 20

Worn pearls.

Jumped off a bridge.

Screamed "P*N*S" or "V*G*N*".

Swam with dolphins

SO FAR: 48

Level 21

Got your tongue stuck to a pole/freezer/ice cubes.

Kicked a fish.

Worn the opposite sex's clothes.

Sat on a rooftop and watched the stars.

SO FAR: 50

Level 22

Screamed at the top of your lungs.

Done/attempted a one-handed cartwheel.

Talked on the phone for more than 6 hours.

Recently stayed up really late talking to someone you care about.

SO FAR: 52

Level 23

Picked and ate an apple right off the tree.

Climbed a tree.

Had/been in a tree house.

Been scared to watch scary movies alone.

SO FAR: 56

Level 24

Believe in ghosts.

Have/had more than 30 pairs of shoes.

Gone streaking.

Visited a jail. (for girlscouts when I was little lol)

SO FAR: 58

Level 25

Played chicken.

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on.

Been told you're hot by a complete stranger.

Broken a bone.

Been easily amused.

SO FAR: 62

Level 26

Caught a fish then ate it later.

Made a p*rn video/got asked to make one.

Caught a butterfly.

Laughed so hard you cried.

Cried so hard you laughed.

SO FAR: 65

Level 27

Mooned/flashed someone. (on accident ;-;)

Had someone moon/flash you.

Cheated on a test.

Forgotten someone's name.

French braided someone's hair.

Gone skinny dipping.

Been kicked out of your house.

SO FAR: 68

Level 28

Rode a roller coaster.

Went scuba-diving/snorkeling.

Had a cavity.

Blackmailed someone.

Been blackmailed.

SO FAR: 70

Level 29

Been used.

Fell going up the stairs.

Licked by a cat.

Bitten by a cat.

Gone to a rave party.

SO FAR: 74

Level 30

Been shot at/or at gunpoint.

Had sex in the rain.

Flattened someone's tires.

Rode in a car/truck until the gas light came on.

Got five pounds or less worth of gas.

TOTAL: 75

0-10: Go outside.

11-20: Get a life.

21-30: Loser.

31-40: Loner.

41-50: You have friends?

51-60: You're kinda-sorta cool.

61-70: I'll hang with you.

71-80: Mr. Cool. aight ig

81-90: Dude, you're sweet!

91-100: Fuckin' awesome!

101-110: Woah! YOU WHORE! YOUR TOO AWESOME~

111-119: Holy shit, you belong in a hospital!

120: Corpse...

[jinjinwooz-blog]

11 Questions

tagged by @vocalpmh & @dalkkong for 11 questions and then also by @cha-eunwoow for 6 questions (i figured i’d do them all in one post ajsdkasjhd) tysm darlings i really enjoyed these questions!! :’)

tagging @fourseasonsofastro, @jakganim, @astrofireworks, @sanhatation, @heybinnie, @eunrocky, @jinwoostro, @m0onbean 💕

(my questions are at the end!)

hayley’s questions ✨

1. if you could travel back in time, which decade would you go back to?

catch me in ancient greece chillin’ with the gods 😎

2. do you sleep on your side, belly, back?

my side! although i toss and turn alot adhaksjhd

3. favourite era of your favourite group(s)?

my favourite astro era is dream pt. 1 💜💜

4. guilty pleasure?

i suppose kpop started as a “guilty” pleasure;;;;; little mix and fifth harmony are sort of a guilty pleasure now?? i don’t like calling them guilty pleasures though bc i don’t like the idea of feeling ashamed of my interests :(((

5. do you know how to play an instrument? if not, which instrument do you want to learn how to play?

saxophone (not for a few years tho), piano, and guitar :’) although I haven’t had time to keep practicing them since starting uni;;; i always wanted to learn how to play the drums!!

6. pens or pencils?

pens

7. most frequented social media?

tumblr ahsdbajshdkjasdlkajs i mean;;;;; where else

8. favourite platonic and romantic ships?

in astro: moonrock :((((( gO D i love them so much;; and myungjin ofc

in other groups: KIHO 💖 and joohyuk (monsta x), verkwan and soonseok (seventeen), yoonmin (bts), 2seung (victon), junhwan (ikon).....there’s probably more but i can’t think rn 

9. siblings?

nope;; just me myself and I

10. favourite mode of transport?

i love car rides!! i also quite like trains :’)

11. when did you create your tumblr acc?

i created this one in like june 2017?? but i first joined tumblr on another blog in 2011 i think??????? i’ve been here Too Long

jen’s questions ✨

1. what was your favourite photo from last year?

i honestly loved the photos astro posted on twitter of all of them standing in a circle with their robongies all lit up it was so pretty :(((((

2. memorable quote from a book?

“Here Phaeton lies who in the sun-god’s chariot fared.

And though greatly he failed, more greatly he dared.”

- Edith Hamilton (from Stephen Fry’s Mythos)

3. favourite meme? (can i pls steal this one to put in my 11 questions ajshdkjashd i love it)

i fuckin love that one of the guy standing at a podium;;; i also love the “then perish” obama one

4. do you have an old fashion trend that you want to bring back??

all the denim trends i love me some denim

5. favourite place in your area?

sitting by the tiny lake we have on campus :’)

7. an aesthetic that you really like?

ALL THE SPACE AESTHETICS 💞💞 

8. do you want to get into gardening???

my heart says yes but my ability to withstand being outdoors surrounded by bugs n dirt says no

9. how would you describe your least favourite food?

tbh i like most food nowadays......i used to be really fussy about foods with weird textures

10. what’s something that not a lot of people know about you?

i guess that i have a tattoo?? or otherwise that my natural hair is actually brown and very curly ajksdhkashd bc i wear it v straight and bleached blonde

11. lastly, something you really want to try out in 2018?

maintaining a healthy lifestyle for once in my goddamn life ajshdjkashd

liv’s questions ✨

1. You’re given one chance to have tea/coffee with a celebrity. Who do you choose?

stephen fry;;;; chatting with him sounds like it would be so nice and interesting, he knows about so much and talks really well about them too!!

2. What would you do if you had a million dollars?

i’d probably travel a bit, buy a nice place to live somewhere, go to a few concerts i’d wanted to see, buy stuff that my family need, maybe use some of it to start a business or smthg ajkdhaskjhkh idk;;;; i’d probably put some of it towards a charity, something focused on either environmental problems or curing diseases

3. Are there any years in your life you would like to do over?

probably last year at uni?? there are a couple things i would do differently, like living with different people bc Mistakes Were Made

4. What’s your favourite dessert?

tiramisu 💜💜💜 i can make a rly good one too!

5. What’s your cure for a hangover?

i’ve only been hungover like twice in my life bc i just don’t get hungover when i drink;;;; the first was st. patrick’s day last year (i haven’t been able to touch Bailey’s since) and the other time was at my cousin’s wedding 🙈🙈 i usually have peppermint tea for the nausea/stomach ache, lots of water & apple juice (and some pain meds;;; also stay away from citrus/acidy drinks) for the headache, and i’d stick to bland foods like bread and bananas

6. What’s your favourite kpop album and why?

this is such a loaded and difficult question oh my days ashjdajslkl

honestly, if i had to pick just one (and i could literally only do this if there were a gun pointed to my head), i would have to pick Noir by B.A.P;;;; every single song on that album is so uniquely good and beautiful i was just so impressed the more i listened to it

my questions:

what are your wishes for 2018?

what’s your favourite part of your bedroom?

what do you like to do on a rainy day?

if you favourite idols weren’t idols, what jobs could you see them doing?

what’s the last book (or fic) you read?

favourite meme?

did you have any weird passions/obsessions as a kid?

do you like rollercoasters?

if you could live in any fictional universe, what would it be?

if you could, what hair colours/styles would you change for your favourite groups(s)?

what are the best and worst purchases you’ve ever made?

[rainbowshapedspace]

Answer 1 through 92!! No question should go unanswered.

Oh damn okay

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?

Not sure

2. Think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them?

No

3. Have you taken someones virginity?

Yep, twice

4. Is trust a big issue for you?

Hell yeah lmao

5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?

Yep

6. What are you excited for?

DR (Dystopia Rising, it’s a LARP I go to) and to try ADHD meds again so maybe I might be able to focus on my homework lmao

7. What happened tonight?

?? it’s 3pm?

8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?

Nah live your life girl

9. Is confidence cute?

Hell yeah

10. What is the last beverage you had?

Dat focus juice (coffee)

11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?

Oh yikes um…not very many, only people who are really close to me

12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?

Yup, wearing them rn

13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?

Not sure, I’d like to get drunk tbh

14. What are you going to spend money on next?

Probably DR

15. When was the last time you cried? Why?

A couple days ago because I was listening to a song and the sound quality was SO GOOD AND AAAAAAAAA

16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?

Yeah, I mean everyone changes gradually over time

17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?

Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm I honestly don’t know, Arron maybe?

18. The last time you felt broken?

Maybe like a month ago? I don’t know tbh

19. Have you had sex today?

Unfortunately no

20. Are you starting to realize anything?

This is so vague lmao but yeah I am, I’m realizing that I’m not as mentally ill as originally thought, and that I know what steps I can take to make myself happier

21. Are you in a good mood?

Yep

22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?

Probably not, but who knows

23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?

Yes

24. What do you want right this second?

To be able to fully focus on my homework and also for someone to turn up the heat in the ITCC gotdamn

25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?

I mean I would be sad but it’s not like I have any authority over them, they can do whatever they want. Now if we were in a relationship then that would be a different story…

26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?

Yep

27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?

Nope

28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?

bONK

29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?

Yes

30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?

Everyone? No. Most? Yes

31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?

Not at all

32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?

Nope

33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?

YEP I can’t do bubbles it’s sensory hell

34. Listening to?

These weird howling wind noises that the ITCC is making rn it’s really creepy

35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?

Yeah

36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?

On campus somewhere

37. Do you believe in love at first sight?

Yes

38. Who did you last call?

My doctor

39. Who was the last person you danced with?

Claire at DR

40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?

I was bored lmao

41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?

Oh man I dunno, a while ago

42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?

No

43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?

Oh yeah lmao

44. Do you tan in the nude?

Bruh I am ginger I don’t tan

45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?

Eh, I’m kinda indifferent about it

46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?

No

47. Who was the last person to call you?

Chris

48. Do you sing in the shower?

Sometimes

49. Do you dance in the car?

Sometimes

50. Ever used a bow and arrow?

Yeah, a couple times, I still don’t really know how to do it

51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?

Oh man I dunno, a long time ago

52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?

No

53. Is Christmas stressful?

Oh yeah

54. Ever eat a pierogi?

I don’t think so

55. Favorite type of fruit pie?

Apple I guess if I had to pick one

56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?

A scientist

57. Do you believe in ghosts?

Hell yeah

58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?

Yep

59. Take a vitamin daily?

If I remember, so no lmao

60. Wear slippers?

Sometimes

61. Wear a bath robe?

Sometimes

62. What do you wear to bed?

T-shirt and shorts

63. First concert?

Furthur

64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?

T-T-T-T-T-T-TARGET

65. Nike or Adidas?

Nike I guess? I don’t really have a preference

66. Cheetos Or Fritos?

Fritos

67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?

Peanuts

68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?

Style

69. Ever take dance lessons?

Nope

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?

Maybe computer science since I’m in the field too, but idk

71. Can you curl your tongue?

Yep

72. Ever won a spelling bee?

God no, I have this processing issue where it’s really hard for me to spell out words one letter at a time so a spelling bee would be a nightmare for me

73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?

Yep

74. What is your favorite book?

East by Edith Pattou

75. Do you study better with or without music?

It depends on what I’m doing, I like to listen to music while I study but I can’t listen to music with words while I’m reading something

76. Regularly burn incense?

No

77. Ever been in love?

Yes

78. Who would you like to see in concert?

Arctic Monkeys, The Black Keys, and Radical Face

79. What was the last concert you saw?

Fall Out Boy!!

80. Hot tea or cold tea?

Neither

81. Tea or coffee?

Coffee

82. Favorite type of cookie?

Entenmann’s chocolate chip cookies, or those super soft sugar cookies with frosting from the grocery store

83. Can you swim well?

I don’t know how to “properly” swim, like different strokes or whatever, but I can keep myself from drowning so that’s good

84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?

Yep

85. Are you patient?

Nope lmao

86. DJ or band, at a wedding?

Ooooo that’s tough, but probably live music would be better

87. Ever won a contest?

Yeah I think I’ve won a couple raffles for things

88. Ever have plastic surgery?

No

89. Which are better black or green olives?

Eww neither

90. Is there someone mad because you are dating/ talking to the person you are?

OH YEAH GIRL YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW LMAOOOO

91. Best room for a fireplace?

Living room? I guess?

92. Do you want to get married?

Yes

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all 92 😘

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?no way man she’d probably dom the fuck out of me

2. You talked to an ex today, correct?nope.

3. Have you taken someones virginity?n o p e

4. Is trust a big issue for you?YEAH

5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?like in terms of romantic??? no. like in terms of “we have a really weird relationship and idfk how i feel @ you”? yeah.

6. What are you excited for?april 19th!!! my friend and i are going to go see phoebe bridgers in madison!!!!

7. What happened tonight?its 10am so ill roll with last night: i played nv and got killed in a beautiful cacophony of deathclaws and the legion :) and then my game crashed.

8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?no bc id be right there with them

9. Is confidence cute?very

10. What is the last beverage you had?i think some water? okay not the last but: hot water is so good with wildflower honey pls just drink some its good for your soul okay???

11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?opposite is bullshit but i guess like,, 3? half my friends are nonbinary so counting EVERYONE regardless of gender and shit id say 6 people

12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?im a proud supporter of boys in skinny jeans and i own 2 or 3 pairs

13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?my main ho @thebonerfoy is coming up to visit me and were probably gonna pack all my shit in her car and play cards against humanity

14. What are you going to spend money on next? lmao probably my student loans. unless i can get the hours i asked for at work or a sugar daddy, then im gonna buy a proper lid for my fishtank bc my poor kid has a piece of cardboard rn.

15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?no

16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?yeah. even in a state of stagnation were changing somehow.

17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?probably amanda, but im working on trying to be better with everyone

18. The last time you felt broken?my dude, im broken right now. its okay though. like i said, im working on it. were all fckn broken somehow.

19. Have you had sex today?not unless a ghost and i got in on in my sleep. which would be pretty cool ngl

20. Are you starting to realize anything?on a deep level: i deserve respect and a lot of my issues relate directly to my upbringing, including my inability to receive praise or speak well of myselfon a not-deep level: kinda hungry.

21. Are you in a good mood?i think i just heard fedex or ups outside so my mood just skyrocketed

22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?maybe like. nurse sharks. theyre really cute.

23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?yeah

24. What do you want right this second?to take a day to go into the city with all my friends that i cant see on a regular basis

25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?probably be upset unless we discussed it beforehand. then id be fckn cheering for them like you go get some!!!! do it man!!!! in general tho: if i wasnt with them and they didnt show interest in me and showed interest in someone else id just move tf on.

26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?half of it is bc my roots are growing out

27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?no. too boring.

28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?okay so i went to renew my library books and one of my favorite youtubers is on the library website dressed as one of his characters and i completely flipped because i watch his gaming channel and now hes interviewing authors for my library??? he doesnt even live in my town!! hes in madison!!

29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?no? im enjoying my solitude atm

30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?depends on the person

31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?no! hes my friend and gives really good advice!

32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?i think so. i mean, were kind of a thing.

33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?yeah.

34. Listening to?killer - phoebe bridgers

35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?only if im doing a rough journal spread, which i dont normally do

36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?hes probably in class right now. 

37. Do you believe in love at first sight?love at first sight? no. some sort of mutual infatuation/attraction? yes.

38. Who did you last call?my mom

39. Who was the last person you danced with?dancing with as in both dancing at the same time? probably amanda or my mom.

40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?we were dating and he was cute lmao

41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake? a couple months ago? 

42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?no bc she leaves for work before i wake up

43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?constantly.

44. Do you tan in the nude?lmao no.

45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?no. as previously stated, i liked the guy and he was cute. why would i take that back?

46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?yeah

47. Who was the last person to call you?my mom

48. Do you sing in the shower?sometimes

49. Do you dance in the car?yEAH

50. Ever used a bow and arrow?yes i love my bow :’) its so good and wow i love archery

51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?picture day junior year of highschool, and if that doesnt count: my mother took me in at jcp to have pictures taken when i graduated 8th grade and theyre awful bc my hair is so long and its so not me

52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?excuse me, how dare you,, in this house we ask for war and peace for christmas because npgc1812 is so good and then get addicted to ghost quartet (@ anyone reading this: pls listen to ghost quartet it is so so so good)

53. Is Christmas stressful?depends on the year, but i hope in the future i can spend it with my friends :)

54. Ever eat a pierogi?i just had some last night for dinner and im probably going to eat the leftovers in a couple minutes. also, my mother is polish and we see her family for holidays, so yeah. lots of pierogi in this house.

update: i got the leftovers

55. Favorite type of fruit pie?idk??? apple? im basic okay i dont eat pie

56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?1. teacher2. ballerina3. both 1 & 2, simultaneously4. paleontologist5. archaeologist6. both 4 & 5, simultaneously7. librarian8. game designer9. author/illustrator

57. Do you believe in ghosts?yeah

58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?almost daily

59. Take a vitamin daily?im supposed to ;) vitamin d deficiency like a real champ

60. Wear slippers?real talk i never liked slippers but then i bought these cute pig slippers @ walmart for $10 and i love them so much i tried wearing them to sleep last night. also im wearing them rn theyre so cute

61. Wear a bath robe?i live in a dorm, so yeah. to the bathroom and back when i take a shower. sometimes im lazy and i just run around in a towel but so do half the people on my side of the hall lmao were all lazy and dead inside

62. What do you wear to bed?fluffy pajama pants or sweats, tshirt or hoodie, socks, sometimes slippers.. once i fell asleep with a beanie on. when im being an Adult i wear my actual pajamas!!! like a legit shirt and pants that match

63. First concert?none that i was old enough to remember :’) apparently my mom took me to the rodeo when we lived in texas and saw some country group but i was like 2 so idfk

64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?TARGET I AM A CERTIFIED TARGET GAY

65. Nike or Adidas?adidas bc my feet are too wide to fit in nikes

66. Cheetos Or Fritos?yall real talk i used to love cheetos but i think im allergic to them now? last time i had them my throat got all swollen and hurt for like 3 days so im gonna have to say fritos. plus theyre really good if you put them in chili

67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?sunflower seeds bc im a slut for anything i can have a spitting contest with

68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?lmao i used to like her when i was like. 11. not my scene anymore

69. Ever take dance lessons?i dont think so?

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?anything that makes them happy, but also something fun!!!! like wedding photographer or a baker or maybe zookeeper?

71. Can you curl your tongue?idk??? kinda????? i can tie a cherry stem so i want to say yes.

72. Ever won a spelling bee?no i always got out bc my anxiety made me stutter/rush and miss letters, so i never even got past the classroom levels to the real thing

73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?a lot!!! i laugh so hard i cry and get a stomach ache more than id like to admit

74. What is your favorite book?eleanor & park by rainbow rowell :) OR alice’s adventures in wonderland by lewis caroll

75. Do you study better with or without music?depends on if i can get into hyperfocus mode or not. if not, then i pick one song and put it on loop and blast it until it fades and is just loud background noise, but if i can focus then silence is best

76. Regularly burn incense?i used to but no burning anything in the dorms :( then i came home for break and it started giving me a headache

77. Ever been in love?i think so

78. Who would you like to see in concert?kesha, against me!, my chemical romance (rip), bigbang (also rip)

79. What was the last concert you saw?the one i mentioned earlier @ a rodeo

80. Hot tea or cold tea?hot tea

81. Tea or coffee?i live on coffee but i love tea too so both

82. Favorite type of cookie?mmm snickerdoodle. or just sugar cookies. chocolate chip is good when theyre hot and melty but not as good when theyre cold

83. Can you swim well?yeah! i love swimming!

84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?yeah?

85. Are you patient?hahahahahahhahahahhahahhaa

86. DJ or band, at a wedding?oo. oooooo. okay so dj would have more variety of music but im a sucker for live music??? idk i feel like a band would be more memorable, but what if they fuck up your favorite song??? but what if they make it more special???????

87. Ever won a contest?yeah! i won an art contest once and got my drawing printed on christmas cards for a nonprofit that did things for cancer patients!

88. Ever have plastic surgery?im 17 i dont have that kind of money

89. Which are better black or green olives?depends on what theyre in?

90. Opinions on sex before marriage?good. live your life fuck the rules

91. Best room for a fireplace?bedroom!!! i love fireplaces in bedrooms its such a Look

92. Do you want to get married?idk. if it happens then it happens. im not planning on it though.

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Starting out in nursing school: an updated guide.

So back at the end of 2014 i made a list of everything you’d need to start nursing school... the reality is that this list was made before myself had ever started. I knew i wanted to make an updated version after going to university so here it is 3 years later. It makes me laugh so much!  2014 Vs 2017 Not in original: 

Sense of humor Strong stomach Crazy Curiosity And immunity to bitch hierarchy BS!

But seriously....

  Planner - 1 page per day. Wall Calendar –for visualizing what is coming up each month.   Weekly to-do List – it feels great to be able to cross things off each week. Household Schedule – for keeping school in perspective with life. Paper -  pocket notebook for clinicals, loose leaf paper, printer paper and index cards 3x5 and 5x8.

Folders - 3-ring binder, display folders with plastic sleeves.                      Misc. - 3 holed punch, calculator, small stapler, staples.        Pens, highlighters and pencils– for note taking. Highlighting key ideas and for drawing diagrams for study aids.Technology/ devices.         Recorder – great for recording lectures and classes. Also comes in handy for recording any notes you make to so that you can reinforce concepts. It is important to make sure that your teacher gives permission for you to record as they may have a strict policy. More often than not they allow it for personal use and ask that you do not distribute it.   Most Lectures should be recorded onto an online system through your university where you can stream them or download to listen to as a study tools in your own time. Note: if your school does this, don’t think that you can get away with not attending as 9 times out of 10, the day that there is a system failure will be the day that your away.          Laptop/Desktop computer – important for accessing online content, doing assessments and checking emails. It is important to have internet access while completing nursing school, however if you are unable to have it at home, most public libraries and educational institutes provide computer labs to their students.        Printer/Scanner – for printing assessments and lecture notes. This is also convenient but not necessary, so if you are prepared to pay small fee at public libraries and other educational institutes they always have many on hand to access.        IPod/mp3 player – amazing for unwinding to your favourite music or even uploading recordings of notes and lectures for extra reinforcement while going for a run or walking the dog. I personally love listening while I’m cooking or washing up.  Nurse Stuff!!!  Water proof watch – must have a second hand So a wrist watch is actually NOT ok! You’ll need a fob watch instead (hangs from shirt) as a wrist watch is a major health hazard and you’ll need to be washing all up in there repeatedly. Stethoscope – Your school may have a particular one that they want you to use that is fairly cheap. If they allow other brands, Littman is very good and reliable and will definitely take you all the way through nursing school. However, make sure you have it engraved or don’t let it out of your sight as I have heard sooooooo many stories of them being stolen out of bags etc. Basically you can get away with not having your own …  most times you’ll need them will be in labs at school because everyone will be using them at once at it’s easier to just have your own, but out on placement there is always one with the obs gear and people aren’t running around with steths 24/7.       

Comfortable shoes – this is a no brainer. Nurses are on their feet all day and night so it is important to splash out where comfort and support is needed. Klogs, despite being some of the ugliest shoes to exist, are wonderful. Dansko are also really comfortable, as well as the brand Sanita which offers cute prints and colours. We just needed leather enclosed nurse shoes, something with support and durability.    

Durable bag - this one is also really important! A lot of people have said that a bag with wheels comes in good use when you’re lugging heavy books across campus. Please don’t use shoulder bags! You will wind up with an immense amount of strain on your shoulder, and they just aren’t practical. So I get away with my big ass handbag. I can throw my A4 notebook and bens in their as well as a snack and a bottle of water. Realistically you don’t have to take your textbooks with you to uni. They have them in the libraries do don’t break your body and cart the dead weights aound. 5.       Scrubs – Scrubs are a bit of a grey area as there will be variations in what is required of students from school to school. Mostly blue are used I believe, but I may be wrong. NOT REQUIRED!!!!    

Student uniform - this will be something you purchase from your school. It is important for when you are on placement so that you are recognised as a student from your school. Make sure you have pockets in your pants!  Also I have three of the shirts and three sets of work pants. Note: get yourself a few sets of compression socks and save your feet and legs the pain.       

Long sleeve tops – nurses have early starts and finishes so it is important to stay warm. Hospitals often aren’t the warmest of environments so having a few long sleeve tops to layer up with is definitely worth it.  Yeah… no! Your not allowed to wear long sleeves. Its bear bellow the elbow in most facilities so buy yourself a singlet and tough it out!    Penlight – penlights are like pens, you’ll start off the shift with a few spares but by the end you’ll be trying to trace your steps back to find one! They aren’t too expensive so whenever you, replenish your hoard! Haha Not really the case and only used for neuro obs. The first RN I ever worked with gave me his as a gift. He was lovely !      Bandage/Dressing scissors – these will be your best friend. There’s no need to go out and by a ridiculously expensive pair. Just the basics that do their job! This is maybe one of the less important items you need when only starting out.     Medical Dictionary – every student needs one. It is so handy for looking things up and often they have small diagram explanations. I actually picked up a seventh edition Oxford mini dictionary for Nurses which is great and it is the perfect size.       Latest Drug guide – this is an important friend to the nursing student as there are so many drugs that we come into contact with. Make sure that you get an up to date one as there are new drugs out all the time. Try and get a hold of a mimms. Even if its an older edition they give you a great idea of different drug classes etc. buying an up to date guide is expensive and not worth it with the amount of annual changes made to them.

Thesaurus – this is just a helpful one for writing essays. I find myself looking for new ways to say something all the time and having a thesaurus gives you lots of options for words. Most computers have one built into their document writing system if you decide not to get one. Computer has this built in.        Referencing Guide ­– as soon as you find out what kind of referencing your course uses for assignments, make sure you get a guide on how to do it correctly. You may pick up on it right away without needing one, but if you’re like me, it’ll help to be able to look it up whenever you need to. Note: never leaving referencing til last. Do it as you go!      NCLEX Q’s book – the earlier you get yourself acquainted with NCLEX questions, the better. There are so many of these books out there. My advice would be to ask someone at school in a higher year, or one of your instructors, whether they can suggest a good one to you and go by that.  Not useful until later on.       Required Textbooks – you will either get a list of these given to you or it will be in your course outline under core texts. Buying textbooks brand new can be super expensive so I suggest you try and get them second hand. There’s is absolutely no shame in this, in fact it is the smarter thing to do.  Check textbook exchange pages for your school on Facebook, look at noticeboards, gumtree. EBay, craigslist and advertise on these that you are looking to buy. If you know someone the year or semester ahead of you, contact them and offer to buy them for a reasonable price. Unless the course changes dramatically year to year, you will be able to get away with having books a few editions behind. If you have the money and you want to buy them all brand new, then do so! There is something satisfying about accumulating textbooks… I myself have many!In your bag.    Wallet – make sure you carry your student ID card, bus pass, drivers licence, cash cards and loose change for printing. Keep a photo of someone or something you love or that motivates you to keep going.        Keys – don’t forget your house keys, car keys and if your school has lockers, get one and don’t forget to bring the key with you to school!        Hand sanitizer – at nursing school lots of people turn into crazy OCD hygiene gurus, and for good reason! Travel size hand sanitizer is perfect to carry around with you whether it’s at school or on the floor!        Lip balm/Moisturiser – because hospitals are cold and dry areas it good to make sure you have a chap stick or some paw paw ointment on hand to stop any wind burn, chapping or cracking. Moisturiser is a must. You will be constantly washing your hands and using hand sanitiser upon entering a room so it is important to put some moisture and life back into your poor little hand. Any vitamin E creams or aloe Vera based moisturisers will do the trick!        Headphones - make sure you have a spare pair of ordinary headphones. Preferably not the apple ones as they don’t always work on school computers. Some computer labs or libraries at schools will sell these or loan them to students for a few dollars. Sometimes you’ll find yourself at university with a few hour between classes and you might want to re watch a lecture, but you don’t want to disturb other students in their study. You may simply just want to watch silly things on YouTube to cheer yourself up after a terrible day so make sure you are prepared.     Tissues – make sure you have a travel pack of tissues. There may be day where you just feel like crap or have had very little sleep and just have a little melt down so tissues or face wipes can save the day!      Water bottle – stay hydrated!! Try to stay away from caffeine where you can. We all know that the caffeine high is fast in reacting, but when you crash you crash hard. Just starting your day with a big glass of water can set you up for feeling good all day so carry it on through the day too! My university has refill places where you can refill your bottle without having to buy it or go to a bathroom.      Lunchbox – Always pack lunch!! You will go through so much money buying lunch every day. If you don’t have time in the morning, prepare the night before or even cook for the week on Sunday and pop something into a microwave safe container to heat up at school. Make sure you have a few pieces of fruit, a handful of mixed nuts and some form of carbs and protein. Make sure you have a few muesli bars for back-ups, and I often freeze a little tub of yogurt for later in the day. ;��N�*�uA �uQ�