#OvertimeDilemma

[bykatnav]

On jobs and self-worth

A job is a job, and we are the ones who bring meaning into our jobs.

Is it about building something for the greater good?

Is it about getting an award and the respect of everyone?

Is it about the salary we'll get to purchase the things we want?

For the longest time, I thought the job was my contribution to the world. It is a part of me, so the mistakes and the KPIs reached were all ME. My worth was based on my salary, and how people perceived me was based on how flashy my job title was. Everything was about work. I was busy, burnout, and feeling oh-so-important.

And then...

I got kids who needed me and asked for me. Now I'm questioning everything above. If those are true, why am I feeling so lost and taken advantage of?

Was the award worth all the overtime?

Was being the head worth all the mind space where I got ticked off with my kids asking for attention?

Is the 2 weeks off enough to compensate for my missed weekends?