#Ot5 feels

[1ddiscourseoftheday]

Liam was a boy, and then a man, who suffered so much trauma and pain. He was bullied as a child and then lived a nightmare that I think none of us can really imagine of having that triggering experience replicated on a literally global public scale. He became a man who inflicted trauma on others. He was an addict who was unable to find a way out of that disease, and now never will, but who was open and vulnerable about his struggles. He was an incredibly talented musician and artist and an absolutely integral part of one of the most important bands of a generation; his voice and songwriting and skill in the studio shaped every aspect of what One Direction became at their best. He loved that band and being a part of that experience with his whole being and would never have stopped celebrating what they meant to us and to the world. He had problems and did bad things; that doesn't mean he was a bad person who didn't deserve to be loved and helped to heal- everyone deserves that- and the fact that that's not something that can ever happen now is devastating. I was very distressed by many of his actions; and I cared deeply about this man I didn't know and wished for better for him than this outcome.

I'm so deeply, deeply SAD tonight. I'm sad for Liam, who will never now have the chance to look back on this hard time and reflect on how far he's come, and for Liam's family, for his parents and his sisters who loved and supported him so much, and for everyone in the 1D band family and circles. And I'm sad for us. It feels like nothing will ever be quite the same, and that's hard and sad and shocking. It's a special kind of doubled grief, to mourn the loss of the person, and also of what he meant to us in this strange world of parasocial fanning, for the real him and also for the version of him that we made up and attached so much meaning to and for the escape that brought us. For him, and also for the easy uncomplicated joy of listening to those beautiful songs from happier times, which might never feel the same again. For the other boys, who we love so much and wish we could shield from suffering and loss and pain. For our fellow fans, who we also worry about the impact of this on. Everything about this is terrible, and I am sending so much love out to all of you. We are not alone, and it's okay to feel complicated emotions and it's okay to mourn and it's okay to care about how it effects you and your life, whatever you're feeling- it's okay. We are here with you. We are 1D family.

[dlstmxkakwldrlarchive]

240524 SHINee World VI Perfect Illumination: SHINee's Back Day I

The Feeling (ending)

[larrylimericks]

17Oct24

What joy these five names used to carry: Louis, Liam, Zayn, Niall and Harry. Now we ache to the core — A strange new OT4 Signed, “Louis, Zayn, Niall and Harry.”

[yeonjune]

TOMORROW X TOGETHER ✙ 'Chasing That Feeling' Official Teaser

[eminentzayn]

i'm sorry liam.

i've built a life without one direction for the last 5 years. when i last logged out of tumblr in 2019, I've been able to do a lot of things. I went to college, went to law school, started working, etc.

but when i heard about liam, it just hit me that the life i've built the past few years was just preparation for when the time comes that 1d ever reunites. it was a subsconcious goal for me to achieve my dreams because then i'd be able to actually heal my inner fan-- the fan who never got to buy merch, buy cds, buy tickets, watch them live, etc.

all these years, i've mindlessly scrolled past the solo endeavors of the boys. i didn't listen to their solo songs, etc. i now realize it was bc i felt like i was betraying my inner fan if i started to love the stuff they put out alone. it was a weird thing to think but i think that's the explanation why i never went out of my way to support them in their solo careers.

im so, so lost. this loss is unspeakable.

i'm so sorry liam that i wasn't there for you. i'm sorry i wasn't able to support you. the way you must've felt is burning my heart bc i know i contributed to that feeling. you must've been so sad. it kills me to think how you probably felt-- that we left you. that we didn't care anymore. i am so sorry liam. i just am so fucking sorry. i wish i could do it all again.

[bscenez]

👑👑👑

[tomorrowxtogether]

[jinseulss]

onew | ‘the feeling’ mv

[herewegobebe]

SHINee 샤이니 'The Feeling' MV

[smtown-tourist]

I thought it was hilarious that Key is using the Pleasure Shop glass to store his SHINee rings… until I noticed that his ring from Jonghyun is in there as well. Now I’m sitting here like:

[1dstills]

my kids one day will walk in on me crying and say, "mommy, why are you crying?" and i'll just show and reply, "i'm just thinking about how i've lived with them at the same time."

[dlstmxkakwldrlarchive]

SHINEE WORLD VI PERFECT ILLUMINATION — ENDING

[hyunjining]

OT5 ITZY COMEBACK NEXT MONTH WE CHEERED

[yeonjune]

TOMORROW X TOGETHER ✙ '2024 DECO KIT' SPOT

[leserafim]

LE SSERAFIM — JPN 2nd SINGLE 'UNFORGIVEN' / CANDY PUNK

[eminentzayn]

it pierces through my heart that while we remember 2011-2016 fondly, the boys probably don't.

we couldn't love them through the hell they endured. if we could, the hiatus wouldn't have lasted this long. something there broke each and every one of them that they really left and never looked back.