#Or uhh the government is gonna steal your cat and they sent you a warning through that HOA Newsletter in the mail

[blue-banditt]

just find it funny how I found out ab my BPD (pre diagnosis). It wasn't because I had abandonment issues, it wasn't bc I had unstable relationships (although true), it wasn't bc of my self harm or validation seeking behavior; no

It was because I was having episodes where I was unbearably happy and joyful to the point of it being painful and needing to seek help bc I wanted it to stop. It was also because I was experiencing such severe dissociation that, beyond the daily disorientation dizziness foggy vision losing time forgetting things trapped in body feeling; I was having episodes where I was having mental breakdowns bc I felt like my memories weren't mine, my sentimental objects belonged to someone else and I was zapped into another person's life and body. And the gender dysphoria didn't help. It was so bad I genuinely can empathize with and understand how DID would feel, because the only thing that was missing for me was having a fractured identity and amnesia barriers.

BPD is fucking wild bro like forget abandonment issues what the fuck was I going through at 17