#Optimus blames himself for what Jamie deals with

[autobot2001]

Ongoing problem Pt. 4

Author: Autobot2001 Genre: Fanfiction Fandom: Transformers Rating: E Warning: None Pairing: None Description: Optimus blames himself for what Jamie deals with. Continued from day 7, but this scene would appear after day 8 if this was in a story.

@juneofdoom day 9; blame

Optimus sits behind the desk in his office, struggling with the news that soldiers are still targeting Jamie. Lennox left to tell the soldiers there’s a meeting in the main hangar. “I can’t believe this is happening,” Optimus sighs as he looks at a photo of Jamie with her guardians. One of the last times everyone has seen her smile, “I failed her years ago and now this is what she deals with.” “You can’t blame yourself,” Optimus hears Ratchet, “I know we’ve known her the longest but you know it’s her family and how they treat her mental health.” “I did nothing to help her deal with that.” “What could you have done since she doesn’t feel loved here? The scrap she deals with in her dimension is affecting her here.” Optimus sighs, frustrated. He knows Ratchet is also worried about Jamie and that he can’t help her. He worries Ratchet blames himself for not ridding Jamie’s body of the chemical. Optimus knows Crosshairs and Drift blame themselves for not helping Jamie better than they are.

[autobot2001]

June of Doom 2024 Masterlist

Author: Autobot2001 Genre: Fanfiction Fandom: Transformers Description, rating, and warnings are specified for each day.

Day 1: "Help me." Title: Needing Help Rating: E Warning: None Description: Sunstreaker knew he'd be helping Lily with many things due to her broken leg, but he didn't think that would include helping her on the toilet.

Day 2: Scream Title: Plagued With Nightmares Rating: E Warning: none Description: Crosshairs and Drift worry about the frequency of Jamie's nightmares and the struggle to get her back to sleep.

Day 3: Stalking Title: A Suspicious New Recruit Rating: T Warning: None Description: Sunstreaker suspects a new recruit is up to no good.

Day 4: "Does this hurt?" Title: Broken Leg Rating: E Warning: None Description: What happened after Lily was brought to the medbay.

Day 5: Swelling Title: Not Your Fault Rating: E Warning: none Description: Drift struggles with guilt for how Crosshairs got injured.

Day 6: "They don't care about you." Title: Ongoing Problem Rating: T Warning: None Description: Jamire tires of soldiers harassing her, and so does Sunstreaker.

Day 7: "What happened?" Title: Ongoing Problem Pt. 2 Rating: E Warning: None Description: The terror twins bring Jamie to her guardians. Crosshairs is told what happened but believes Drift knows from seeing Jamie upset.

Day 8: "This is your last chance." & chair Title: Ongoing Problem Pt. 3 Rating: T Warning: None Description: Sunstreaker warns the femme soldier about harassing Jamie.

Day 9: Blame Title: Ongoing problem Pt. 4 Rating: E Warning: None Description: Optimus blames himself for what Jamie deals with.

Day 10: "Can you hear me?" & phone call Title: Forcing Himself to Go on Missions Rating: T Warning: Talk of poor mental health Description: Drift chooses to go on a mission, but Crosshairs knows Drift makes himself go and it affects his mental health.

Day 11: Collapse Title: A Critical Ongoing Problem Rating: T Warning: Talk of poor eating habits Description: A soldier watches Jamie collapse, and rushes her to the medbay.

Day 12: Grief Title: Missing Her Parents Rating: T Warning: None Description: As Audrey's first birthday draws near, Jasmine struggles with grief.

Day 13, alt 1: "Who did this to you?" Title: Accidents Happen Rating: E Warning: None Description: Sunstreaker assumes someone hurt Lily. Drift decides he needs to talk to Sunstreaker.

Day 14: "What were you thinking? & outmatched Title: You Were Warned Rating: E Warning: None Description: Lily ignores the soldiers' warning her not to spare with another soldier.

Day 15: Rescue Title: Rescue Rating: T Warning: Character in poor condition Description: Jamie is rescued from a horrible place.

Day 16: "At least it can't get any worse." & setback Title: Not Recovered Enough Rating: E Warning: None Description: After a few day's rest, Lily tries to do a painting with Sunstreaker, but this doesn't last long.

Day 17: Struggle Title: The Same Conversation Rating: T Warning: Talk of poor mental health Description: During a camping trip, Sideswipe starts the conversation about Jamie's mental struggle that the friends hate having since they can never figure out solutions to help her.

Day 18: I'm fine.", Allergies & headache Title: A Terrible Spring Day Rating: E Warning: None Description: Today is not a good day for Jamie's allergies

Day 19: "This can't be happening." & sobbing Title: Hiding From Everyone Rating: T Warning: Poor mental health Description: Crrosshairs struggles with anxiety and hides from everyone.

Day 20: Panic attack & neglect Title: Making Things Worse Rating: T Warning: Panic attack, poor mental health Description: Drift helps Crosshairs through a panic attack.

Day 21: Pressure points Title: Had Enough Rating: T Warning: None Description: Jamie has had enough of the soldiers targeting her and fights this one in a way that won't get her in trouble.

Day 22: Poisoned Title: Tricked Rating: T Warning: None Description: Vegeta poisons Jamie's blood to kill her.

Day 23: Trembling + alt: "Please don't leave me." Title: His Fear Rating: T Warning: Poor mental health Description: Crosshairs is in a poor mental state from Ratchet's lecture.

Day 24: Stitches, blankets, bandages Title: Shattered Rating: T Warning: None Description: Drift returns to the shared bedroom to see Crosshairs' hand bleeding.

Day 25: I should have listened to you." & guilt Title: Silent Struggles Rating: T Warning: None Description: Drift and the medics are concerned about Crosshairs' choice to act like he's ok until he can't. Ratchet knows his lecture is part of what set Crosshairs off and injure his hand.

Day 26: "Don't lie to me." & rage Title: Some Can be Trusted Rating: E Warning: None Description: Used to soldiers targeting Jamie, and seeing her anxiety; Sunstreaker doesn't believe the soldier when he claims he's not targeting Jamie.

Day 27, alt: "I'm not ok." Title: Off to A Bad Start Rating: T Warning: Talk of mental health Description: A trip starts with Drift preoccupied and Crosshairs thinking he's the cause.

Day 28: "Say something." & numb Title: Troubling Silences Rating: T Warning: poor mental health Description: Drift worries about Crosshairs' silence.

Day 29: "I'm cold." & fever Title: Worried Over a Cold Rating: T Warning: brief talk of poor mental health Description: It's Crosshairs' turn to be sick.

Day 30: Broken glass Title: Seen as Weak Rating: T Warning: Self-harm Description: Crosshairs is angry at himself.

Ongoing Problem Rating: T Warning: None Description: Combining @juneofdoom Day 6, 7, 8 & 9. All parts are titled Ongoing problem pt (1-4). This is all the prompts combined.

Echos of Silence Rating: T Warning: Poor mental health, panic attack, self-harm Description: Crosshairs silently struggles with Jamie being in the ICU again until it backfires on him. Ratchet doesn't help the situation. Combining day 19, 20, 23, 24, 25, 28 & 30.