#Okay. I think I'll go read a sskk fic

[chuuyanakaahara]

Why do you hate Act of Faith?

okay. okay, well. hate is a strong word for it, i guess, but i do have a complicated relationship to that fic.

first of all - i was never particularly excited to write it, i guess? like, it's the sequel to my sskk fic, but i felt woefully underprepared to write the skk dynamic and i still think something is missing when i try to, which is why you often see me talking about skk but rarely writing for them. it's a whole other wheelhouse, and i don't want to fuck it up.

second of all - i'm incredibly removed from it. i don't have the patience to go back and re-read all 94k that's already published, you know? the first chapter of act of faith was published november 1st, 2022. that was nine-ish months ago. this isn't necessarily the biggest chunk of time, but here's a rundown of events that have happened since i started it: my family got into this big fight, my dad died, my bio-dad left my life (good riddance! this was a good thing), i turned 18 and got autonomy in many ways, i moved houses, i made my college decision, i got into a relationship, i graduated high school.

so it's not necessarily the biggest chunk of time, but it's been an eventful one! it's been on the backburner since even the first chapter was written.

third of all - and this is just petty, don't get me wrong. i love that people are connecting with the way i write soukoku, and i'm glad it measures up for them, and i wrote it for it to be enjoyed. however. i genuinely think act of faith, being a long-fic about a popular ship, gets unreasonable praise and attention as compared to my smaller works, which is a pretentious thing to bitch about in fanon, we're all here to enjoy things, etc, so it's just a tiny thing, you know? i am so much more proud of works like apple of my eye (my jouno backstory) and taste of fear (my tanizaki role reversal au), both of which are much more interesting and consistent in my eyes.

so, like, i'm going to finish it, because i'm invested in it. but this fic has fought me every step of the way, i don't quite know how to write it, it's a relic from a different part of my life, it overshadows the other things i write, and - well, that sounds about right. my hcs have evolved, my writing style has evolved, but act of faith hasn't for consistency reasons.

when it's finally done, i'll be proud of it, don't get me wrong. but half-way through writing chapter ten (as you know, i exclusively write 10k chapters), it's somewhat like the home stretch and i want to be done with it.

[kyouka-supremacy]

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[fy-soukoku]

You're so sweet for answering all my asks! Thank you💜💜 ohhhh yes yes I'll definitely check it out! Would you have any shin soukoko or soukoko fic recommendations?

AHHH! HONEY I HAVE SO MANY!

Shin Soukoku (my personal favourites)

The Sexual Awakening of Akutagawa Ryuunosuke by Otakumikulovinggamer4life | Explicit | 5k

Atsushi and Akutagawa have been in a relationship for two months but haven’t gone any farther than light kissing so what happens when Atsushi unintentionally kickstarts Akutagawa’s sex drive?

Striped by AliceinHyruleBastion | Teen | 8k

Atsushi found his soulmate.No big deal.Until he comes into work one day with soulmarks on his face and the office demands an explanation.

SSKK soulmate AU shenanigans with a dash of battle, sass, and angst on the side!

Moving Forward by nemui (ribbonelle) | General | 2k

It’s really hard to put whatever they have going on into words.

Acts of Affection by Miss_Aki | General | 2k

Atsushi has a strange request for Akutagawa, and they manage to grow closer because of it.

Nakajima x2 by Chilled_Mango_Beans | Teen | WIP | 16k

Nakajima Atsushi and Nakajima Ryunosuke were twins, born into the slums and saved by the Port Mafia, a clan of ruthless members who wouldn’t hesitate to kill anyone. They at first considered it a miracle, when a certain someone prevented them from getting killed by members of the mafia and took them back with him, but after being trained by the infamous double black and living with their new ‘family’ for a few years, they were beginning to realize that the life they are living…..meant death for them.

OKAY THIS ONE LOOKS WEIRD AND IT PUTS ME ON EDGE BUT IT IS SO GOOD I SWEAR T^T

Soukoku

Slice of Life by setosdarkness | 2K | Teen

Dazai is baffling, to say the least.

He flirts with every single person he meets and proposes lover’s suicides every five minutes or so. But then he also always shows up to work with an impeccable bento, always goes home at five o’clock sharp, always turns down all offers for dates.

The most popular bet in the Agency is that Dazai and his lover are running away from a group of shady people. But that’s not possible… Is it? *ugly sobbing* I love this fic so much. Domestic!Soukoku, with Chuuya as Dazai’s angry smol husband.

Drop the Act by writingfromtheshadows | 5K | Explicit

If Dazai’s fingers slid any further down Chuuya’s restraint might completely collapse, and he grasped for something to say that could be a valid excuse, “Why would I want you anymore? Your goody two-shoes act puts me off.”

“It’s just an act.”

(or the one where Dazai’s been a Port Mafia spy all along)

SINSINSINSINSINSINSINSINSINSIN Beautifully written, incredible characterization, and super hot. Enough said.

Five Times Dazai Didn’t Stay, and One Time He Did by Me! (like, seriously I wrote this.) | Mature | 4k

Alternatively, Dazai and Chuuya don’t really know how to deal with sexual tension, and Chuuya doesn’t think it’s fair that he’s fallen in love and that Dazai leaves every time they share a bed.

I don’t like a lot of fics I write. This one though? I think this is the best fic I have ever written besides that one Death Note fic a while back.

Right and Smile by @carlynagisa | Mature | 10k

Dazai was intrigued by Kouyou’s new disciple. Fascinaton grew into fondness, friendship, trust.

Chuuya was his, ever since they were children Dazai owned him after all. At least for one night.

Soukoku throughout the years.

If you didn’t already know, I read this when I’m mega depressed and need perfection to make me feel better.

The Courtesan by @cinnamondazai | Explicit | 11k | WIP

Moulin Rouge AU with Chuuya being a courtesan working for an establishement run by the Port Mafia. Dazai is a private detective invastigating some kind of case and Fyodor is Chuuya’s patron.

It’s a choice. But he doesn’t want to choose at all. What will he do?

Musings by crimson_snowdrift | General | 2k

Dazai lets his mind wander as a certain redhead uses his lap as a pillow.

*screaming in background because fluff and angst galore*

And here’s more fic recs before I lose my mind because I’m going to go re-read all of these T^T