#Oh you think you're better than others bc your parents told you being white makes you superior?

[mergaliscious]

it's interesting how every trait that ppl use to demonize narcissists (except for the ridiculous ones to demonize that are actually harmless) is also very prevalent among the general population, especially among untraumatized and privileged individuals

like yeah, *some* narcissists are assholes, but the traits that make them assholes are extremely common among people who don't have NPD and were simply never told they have to care about other people

it's like neurotypicals/egotypicals will accept this sort of behavior *unless* it was developed as a coping mechanism. Like it's only bad if it's a symptom of mental illness. And fuck that.

[janggtoco]

songs you associate your moots with?

okie anon. u didn't know this but you asked someone who takes their music recs very seriously so letsgetit (i only picked songs from my fave albums & liked songs playlist, nothing but the best for my favorite people)

@seokgyuu: dog days are over by florence + the machine - the reason i picked this for mitchie is bcs literally the WEEK maybe even the DAY we started regularly talking, i instantly felt less lonely and felt more ready to just. rebuild my life. and she gave me much more motivation and inspiration and i was just a much happier person to be on this app ;-; she's the reason i'm back to being my somewhat normal self.. i'm forever grateful for her love ;-;

leave all your loving and longing behind / you can't carry it with you if you want to survive / the dog days are over / can you hear the horses? / cause here they come

@seokmins: st. patrick by pvris but also lay me down by sam smith - i mean. obviously i had to pick the song that inspired the first chapter of my own series white noise.. but lay me down.. it's just the perfect calming song. i can't explain it but it's so elv-coded for me.. both of these are tbh. elv helps me forget the bad in my life and i hope i give her even just a fraction of the comfort and happiness she gives me ;-;

but please stay / cause i think you're a saint and i think you're an angel / i said you give me something to talk about that's not the shit in my head / you're a miracle

&

told me not to cry when you're gone / but the feeling's too overwhelming it's much too strong / can i lay by your side? next to you / and make sure you're alright / i'll take care of you / and i don't want to be here if i can't be with you tonight

@bitchlessdino: bubblegum bitch by marina - nana just kind of own bubblegum pink in my mind right now (it's also perfect for her online theme for both of her blogs rn).. i don't think this song really embodies nana in any way other than her fierce alter ego that comes out when you wrong her or her loved ones. like she is queen electra heart what can i say!!

i'll chew you up and i'll spit you out / cause that's what young love is all about / so pull me closer and kiss me hard / i'm gonna pop your bubblegum heart

@bisexualgyu: intro/forgive me by chloe x halle but also mundo by iv of spades - listen. rhys has chloe x halle energy. don't fight me on this. like this whole album is lowkey her-coded deservedly so. and mundo is a little obvious (at least for her). she knows why <3

so forgive me, forgive me / i've been going too hard in your city / so forgive me cause i'm not teary / best believe i move onto better things

&

limutin na ang mundo / nang magkasama tayo / sunod sa bawat galaw / hindi na maliligaw / mundo'y magiging ikaw

@97-liners: daddy lessons by beyoncé - picked this one just bcs it tells the trials and tribulations of growing up with a tough parent and ultimately loving them through all their flaws while also realizing the trauma they put you through. not to get deep but yeah skdjfs sorry to give you a country song jackie but at least it's beyonce 😭

tough girl is what i had to be / he said, "take care of your mother / watch out for your sister" / and oh, that's when he gave to me / with his gun, with his head held high / he told me not to cry / oh, my daddy said shoot

@gguksgalaxy: bitch, don't kill my vibe by kendrick lamar - just ready to be straight chillin'. tired of the drama. here for a good time with people who also won't cause too much drama. also just a straight up club banger lol.

i am a sinner / who's probably gonna sin again / lord forgive me / things i don't understand / sometimes i need to be alone / bitch don't kill my vibe / i can feel your energy from two planets away / i got my drink i got my music i would share it but today i'm yelling / bitch don't kill my vibe

@taeiltual: nights w u by tiffany day - just such a lovely feel good person that i love talking to and always brightens my day! this song is just bouncy and lovely just like bex in my mind <3 sdkfjs

but we don't got to talk about it / i just want to dance around / all night with you, you, you, you / cause i don't wanna feel the pressure / know that I'll be better when all my nights / are with you, you, you, you

[itslovelovelyme]

(Kinda has to do with my previous posts)

When I was a little kid, I remember I always wanted to be a teen. In the movies they seemed so cool, with cool friends, parties, pranks (and the ✨singing and dancing✨ because of Disney LMAOO-), going out, romance, and more stuff. Obviously I knew the singing and dancing wasn't gonna happen, but I did expect everything else. But it wasn't until my late 16's (so now) that similar stuff to that started happening. I even thought: "Wow, being a teen sucks."

But being a teen doesn't suck. Teens don't suck. But (some) people around them do. You aren't a kid anymore apparently, but then: "What do you think you're doing?! You're just a kid!". Oh, so then an adult, right?: "You think you know it all? You're not an adult!". Wow. So, what am I? We're something in between, we should be treated that way. The issue is, most people act black or white with us, with no greys. And it's frustrating.

We're not kids anymore, but that doesn't mean we can't do silly, stupid things for fun. And we aren't adults either, but we are becoming more conscious about certain issues and trying to understand them better. But I truly think teens are one of the groups that really have it unfair out there. We are constantly dismissed, even by other teens that think are so superior and way more mature and above us and mighty compared to everyone else. (And then you find out they're even more immature than y'all.)

Of course we are angry, of course we are moody, of course we are sensitive. I am angry, moody and sensitive, they want to throw me to the adult world but they didn't even teach me how a single thing there works. Instead of saying we are on our rebellious phase, why don't you, instead, say we realized we don't have to be treated like garbage and constantly dismissed? I have teachers that thought could get away with yelling at us for wanting to show them something. Wrong.

"I had no idea my child felt that way!". When they tried to tell you, you said you were busy.

"It's just a phase". No wonder your child feels they're wrong for feeling the way they do.

"Ugh, my child never listens to me". Have you tried not yelling at them at any minimal inconvenience?

In the end, everyone always says they don't understand the way we act, when in the first place, they never bothered to understand. All the cases above are based on cases around me. Parents calling their teens lazy and useless, hitting and yelling at them for not meeting their expectations, friends feeling they can't tell them when they got a bad grade or made a mistake because their parents are going to kill them. I can assure you, most parents of the people around me have no idea about what their kids do, but of course, they are never around in the first places. Then they act confused when their kid hates them.

Guys, I have friends scared of having a relationship because of their parents. What in hell is that supposed to be about? I've been dismissed for feeling bad because "adults have it worse, you won't survive once you become one."

The things you tell your kid, it sticks with them forever. When I was 4, I told my mom I liked this kid, and she just laughed at me and called it stupid. I never told her anything else, even to this day. When you call us useless, it sticks. When you call us lazy, it sticks. And when you fucking say our feelings aren't valid, it sticks.

So yes, we are angry, moody, sensitive, heck, even annoying if you will, but have you stopped to think about why, instead of blaming it on the fact that we are teenagers? Of course you haven't. But if it makes you feel better, no one ever stopped to consider it either. And just for a fact, most teens around me, except for a few exceptions, are even way more polite than most of the adults I know. Just saying. Adults say we aren't polite for having our own opinions, they're just used to having everyone agreeing with them.

But adults aren't always right.

(And I wrote all of this down bc I've been telling my mom lately how frustrating it's to be a teen.)

[darknessisafriend]

Hi! I'd like to request an imagine with Joaquin in which he's dating an university student (she's like 21-22) and she feels insecure about being so much younger than him bc of people's comments? Hope you're having a good day! :)

Hiiiii ! thanks for your request and sorry if took a bit of time, I had trouble to write these past two months, but now it seems I’m getting better again! I’m putting too much pressure on myself ^^’ Anyway, I hope you’ll enjoy it

Love is love

I’m parked by the entrance, on your right.

You sighed as you looked at the text Joaquin had sent you. This morning you were thrilled when he had offered to pick you up at the end of your day at university. But that was until, some students came to you, showing you the cover of one of those tabloid magazines where you and Joaquin had been photographed kissing. The title was engraved in your mind ‘JOAQUIN PHOENIX DATING A TEEN!’, you were young and you knew that people always perceived you younger than you were but you weren’t exactly a teen, you were 22 years old, so legally an adult; you and your boyfriend had a 23 years gap and now people knew and some had even recognized you, you felt so bad about it, you didn’t want Joaquin to be harassed and criticized for dating you, and what if it was wrong like one of the students told you?

As you reached the entrance, your eyes scanned the area for Joaquin, until you found him. He was leaning against his Tesla, wearing his dark pants and t-shirt, and of course his white converse; he had his sunglasses on and was smoking while waiting for you. When he noticed you, he hurried to the nearest public ashtray so that he could greet you properly.

“Hey babe, how you doin’?” he said with a sweet voice, leaning to kiss your lips but you turned your head at the last moment so that his lips would land on your cheek.

“Fine.” You answered avoiding his confused gaze. All these people and tabloids were making you upset and insecure about your relationship with Joaquin; and you felt terrible for acting distant with your boyfriend, he probably didn’t know about those pictures.

You both entered the car to head to his place. The ride was silent, you looked at the window, thinking about your relationship with Joaquin, was it that wrong to be in love with an older man? Should you tell Joaquin about it? As for your lover, he was often looking at you with worry; did he do something wrong? He will give you the time you need to open up to him, you were clearly very upset and weren’t ready yet to talk about it.

When you arrived at his home, after petting his dogs, which appeased your mind a bit; you let yourself fall on the sofa, you buried your head in the cushion and hugged it tightly. ‘What a crappy day’ you thought, it should have been perfect, to spend your evening and night with Joaquin, but those people had ruined everything. You didn’t move for an hour maybe, hoping for the world to forget about you, or what they knew about you and your boyfriend.

Then, you heard quiet steps approach you; it was Joaquin. He sat at the level of your hip, his hand coming up to gently stroke your hair. You had missed his touch the whole day, it was so comforting, and yet the title of the tabloid was still there in your mind, over and over.

“What’s wrong Y/N?” he asked you, you could hear the hint of worry in his voice, you slightly turned your head, so that he could see your face, you quickly looked at him before looking at the floor.

“Some tabloid, took photos of us kissing, implying it’s terrible of you to do that…people at my uni recognized me, and everyone’s telling me it’s wrong…” you tried to prevent your voice trembling, but tears prickled in your eyes, you loved Joaquin, you didn’t want it to end. You heard your lover sigh, but his fingers continued to play with your hair.

“Y/N, look at me.” He replied softly, you turned on your back so that you could fully face him, you bit your trembling lip as you met his eyes. His hand traveled to your cheek, his thumb brushing away a tear falling coming out.

“Do you think of our relationship as something wrong?” he asked you with apprehension. You quickly shook your head.

“No, I don’t understand why people are saying this! It makes me feel so bad Joaq, it’s just…”

“Listen, all they care about is selling as much of their shit as they can and the others are speaking without knowing, we’re both consenting adults…” cut off your lover calmly, if he gets the name of the person who took the photo, he’ll have a word with them; nobody had the right violate his private life and even less to upset you.

“But I don’t want you to have problems because of me.” You added with worry, taking his hand in yours; you didn’t want him to have more paparazzies coming after him, or to even have an investigation on your relationship.

“Did I ever cared about what others thought about me?” he asked you on a light tone, arching an eyebrow. You huffed amused; he had a point.

“I don’t want us to break up because of this.” You admitted, playing with his finger, somehow you feared he would, to avoid media attention. He shook his head in disbelief with a small smile and he moved to come on top of you, propping himself on his elbows, his face a few inches from yours.

“Don’t be silly, nothin’, and I say NOTHIN’ will keep me away from you.” A relieved smiled formed on your face; you wrapped your arms around his waist.

“There’s no other man I’d rather be with; I love our 3 am talks, your playfulness, you make me laugh so much.” He chuckled as you lifted your head to tenderly kiss his lip before continuing, puncturing every word by kisses “your smile, your eyes, your compassion, how you love me…” this time you took your time to kiss him, you needed to feel him.

“Are you expecting me to list all the reasons why I love you? Cause it’s goin’ to take hours.” He joked, against your lips before capturing them once again. One of your hand traveled to bury in his silver hair that you loved so much, while Joaquin’s mouth wandered down your neck.

“You know, you won’t be able to ignore my parents…” you insinuated on a light tone; you knew your parents were going to be suspicious of Joaquin, when they hear about his age; but you also knew that they were understanding and that they will just make sure your boyfriend has no bad intentions. He lifted his head, a confident smile on his face.

“I’ll just have to prove to them that I simply care about you, that we fell in love like everyone does…and if your father wants to physically fight me, I’m sorry but I’m a black belt, he doesn’t stand much chances.” He grinned mischievously; you couldn’t stop laughing on how he bragged about it.

“Oh my god, I can totally imagine that! But please don’t.” you breathed between giggles, which in return made Joaquin smile even more, making you laugh, and smile was his daily goal.

“Alright, I’ll just pretend he’s too strong for me.” Gave in your boyfriend, covering your face with kisses. He had his unique way of cheering you up and making you happy; and for that you’ll never give him up even if you have the whole world against you.

Joaquin’s squad: @arcticmonkais @amourtiara @sirianfromsixties @sweetness-doesnt-touch-my-face @live-love-loki @lyoongx @skaravile @jaylovesbats @niniita-ah @dirtyginger @valentina15  @cumberbitching

[botanyshitposts]

Hey, just wanted to say I know how you feel about having people be weird about you liking plants, I get that all the time too. It's weird to not be yourself around close friends and family, especially if you're the one they go to to talk about whatever they're into, like double standards much???On a side note, have you been tested for ADHD because I have it and the way you think/act sounds a lot like me and it's often misdiagnosed as OCD or autism in girls/women/generally studious people.

okay lol i typed out a huge thing telling my life’s story and then was like……mmmmmmmmmm lets not so here are my Mental Health Highlights™ regarding that fun time. generally i try not to post stuff like this on this blog bc i feel like it should be For The Plonts but it also deals with how plants actually saved my life so:

-I’ve been professionally diagnosed with OCD, anxiety, ADHD, and depression. 

-OCD like?????? wrecked my life man. like it was a constant undertone in my childhood and tl;dr was a super bad time and i didn’t get properly diagnosed until i was in high school and i was like??????? oh my god it makes sense????

-started undergoing cognitive behavioral therapy for my OCD and anxiety in high school bc i was having a Hella Bad Time™

-results just in: thoughts cant hurt u and u dont have to wash your hands until they bleed and Good Numbers and Bad Numbers are just numbers, etc.

me:

still miserable at school because i was relearning things i already learned/taught myself on the side and was frustrated and hated everything and myself 

-my ELP coach reached out to me and asked if i’d like to do a plant experiment??? she would use program money to get the equipment???

-shoutout to my ELP coach for making school worth coming to again and making homework and projects worth doing on time again bc she gave me a chance to actually do something that im interested in and express myself through science and be challenged, just not in class (*insert american public school tangent here*), literally, actually saved my life and stopped my self harming and helped my depression bc at the end of the day i got to do what i loved 

-shoutout to my environmental sustainability teacher who encouraged me and was 200% willing to use his resources to help me learn, who sought out the edge of what i had taught myself and used his college microbiology degree knowledge to teach me more and provide me with more resources instead of circling me back into the lesson and making me wade through what i already knew like all my other high school teachers did when i asked them more questions to extend on my extending on my learning

-anyway back to the ADHD thing

-so i always had some obsessive thoughts and actions from my OCD, but when I got put on my current medication thats been working SUUUPER WELL I LOVE IT, i suddenly couldn’t focus. my grades dropped. this was literally in the second half of my senior year. i was off any and all ADHD medications because of their stimulatory effect, which i learned the hard way a few years ago made my OCD compulsions 200% worse and symptoms more intense. 

-okay like. this was wild right

-my psychiatrist told me that because I was struggling with my depression, anxiety, and OCD less, my ADHD was starting to show more because my (copious) energy was no longer being bogged down by depression or eaten up by fear and compulsions. 

-that. took a little bit to get used to. like i had to change my study habits and stuff (current study set up: 1. ALWAYS study at school/in a different building because when i try to study at home/in my dorm it’s a signal that it’s time to begin winding myself down and tapering off my energy for the night, and i fall asleep 2. use white noise to drown out that Dank ADHD Hypersensitivity and Distractibility). I also am now more fidgety than i was and need more effort to focus– i control this by working out every morning to burn off some of the residual stuff so i can actually function (not yoga lol). if i dont, im hit with weird slams of writing inspiration and distractibility during the day, which are cool but then get looped into obsessive thoughts that make them hard to shake

-it just was a weird moment of realization for me because the last time I struggled with my ADHD explicitly was in early elementary school. it had been “gone” for so long that i literally thought that my parents had me diagnosed too young and it was a wrong diagnosis (i was diagnosed in kindergarden). 

-most, if not all, of my autism-like-symptoms come from my OCD and ADHD. I’ve been tested for autism, and do not have it. my hyperfocus and passion come from obsessive thoughts and stuff relating to those two disorders, and im inclined to say that my social incapabilities relate to impulsivity and oversharing related to those two disorders as well (i’ve been doing pretty well controlling those lately having gotten help for that in therapy, but…….you know……still working on it like yikes. i feel better about it after meeting some of the grown up, employed plant academics here at school, which all share some resemblance to me in social ability. ive heard rumors about the whole “academics are bad at socializing” stereotype but like……….i see it now…….these are my people………)