#OT6 on their way to Japan

[thediebutterfly]

OH. MY. GOODNESS. THIS. BUN.

{ Cr./ MOONLIGHT }

[tankun]

Hi Tankun! This is the first time I'm asking and I've been following this account for awhile. I really love your tumblr! Anyway, what I wanted to discuss how ships go like. In Asia (Japan, Korea, and so), they usually have the top in the first part of the ship name. I'm a yoonkook(bottom Yoongi),VminHope, and namjin enthusiast so if it is Yoongi and Jungkook it's like Jungkook x Yoongi(kooksu in korean). I just wonder why not use this formula? 1/2 -Lemon Anon

I get annoyed when I have to differentiate by actually reading the fic and there are quite a lot of fantastic fics of Yoongi bottom BUT they don’t put the tag and I end up reading the Jungkook bottom one. This might only be my rambling but I just thought if archive did the Jeon Jungkook/Min Yoongi | Suga, it was Yoongi bottom and Min Yoongi | Suga/ Jeon Jungkook was for Jungkook bottom. Sorry for rambling. Tell me what you think of Tankun. 2/2 -Lemon anon

Hello, Lemon! (Cute name by the way!)

Sorry for the delayed reply! I’ve been really busy today!

I actually like this idea for Ao3, because people really don’t tag :{

But then I’m reminded that it probably won’t help because … well people don’t tag. They may just end up tagging with whichever one has the most works filed under it. (because what better way to get your works seen than to put them under the popular tag)

Also, Ao3′s tagging system is absolutely garbage.

I haven’t really figured out how it works yet, because they don’t file it by the full tag, but instead by words(?) within the tag? Lots of question marks here because I’m not even sure how it works lol I can give an example though.

So I was blocking tags recently, and blocked the tag ‘Jeon Jungkook/Bangtan Ensemble’ and got the idea that I should do that for Yoongi as well since I don’t want to see any OT6/Yoongi fics. However when I blocked ‘Min Yoongi/Bangtan Ensemble’ it blocked a whole 130 fics that did not have that tag in it. I searched the tag on it’s own, and it brings up a lot of random stuff that has either ‘Min Yoongi’ or ‘Bangtan Ensemble’ in any of the tags.

It’s the same when you try to look up certain tags (just as top Jungkook and bottom Yoongi). I’m not sure what is going on over there when it comes to tags..

But I do like your idea! I love making things easier to find certain content for things we like :}

I think the top Yoongi side of the fandom already assumes YoonKook = Top Yoongi, because I saw on twitter some people complaining about bottom Yoongi under the YoonKook tag and not using KookGi/KookGa (I couldn’t remember which one that were saying)

I always just assumed YoonKook/SugaKookie was the blanket term for the pairing in general. If we were to adapt a new term specifically for top Jungkook/bottom Yoongi, I would like to think that top Yoongi/bottom Jungkook fans would do the same, to leave YoonKook/SugaKookie as a blanket pairing name.

But getting people to change terms is a feat all in itself hehehe

Long story short: I absolutely agree with you, Lemon :}

[sungggyu]

171119 sunggyu fm fan account

the following account of sunggyu’s recent fanmeet in taipei may get rather detailed at some point, as it is pretty much a word-for-word transcript based off my own fancams and audio recordings of both the afternoon and evening shows. just a heads-up, it is a little lengthy as more than it being something i want to share with everyone else, it is something i want to keep for myself, with as many details i can remember as possible. i will be putting in bold some of the more interesting portions in case you want to just quickly scan through it for some of the highlights. so, here goes:

2PM SHOW

when i finally got into the venue around 1.40pm, sunggyu's solo songs were blasted from the speakers one after another with a simple 'kim sung kyu mini live & fanmeeting 2017' as the background on the display screen. after 60 seconds finished playing, a little vcr (a compilation of his photos from their latest ot6 photoshoot) started playing and when it ended, the lights in the venue dimmed. everyone started buzzing as sunggyu had not come out immediately as we had thought he would and that was when he took us off-guard, walking out from the left side of the stage suavely in a blazer that made him look like a prince.  

🎶 kontrol

🎶 i need you

🎶 shine

immediately when he reached the mic stand, the music for 'kontrol' started to play and the fanmeet officially began. after 'kontrol', sunggyu went on to perform 'i need u' and 'shine' immediately after. listening to 'i need u' and 'shine' live was really sgdkskzdjkd because i've never heard them both live before  'shine' made me especially emotional because it is my favourite of all sunggyu's solo songs.. at the bridge of 'shine', the part that goes '너의 목소리, 너의 �� 눈빛...' he sang '그 어떤 것도 잊질 못해' in falsetto for the album recorded version of 'shine' but over here, he sang the first one in falsetto and the second one in his real projected voice (? idk the term for it i'm not a music person,, just, like, his actual voice) which was super duper amazing. after finishing these three songs, he said thank you and headed backstage for a bit to rest while the mc for the event came out. if i'm not wrong, she was the same mc who hosted the infinite only fanmeet in taipei back in february this year  she's really bubbly and nice, when she came out, she warmed us up by asking some basic questions. i also want to make a quicknote that she kept calling sunggyu (小)圭圭, which translates to (little) gyugyu, which was super cute especially when she referred to sunggyu using that a lot to which sunggyu even responded to at some point sjkgdfdhdgjgh

mc: were those three songs good?

fans: yes!!!

mc: is gyugyu handsome today?

f: yES!!!!!!!!!

mc: this year is the ___ year of his solo debut?

f: fifth!!!

mc: are you excited for today's show ?

f: yEs!!!!!!

mc: how many of you are coming to both the afternoon and evening shows?

me: ME 😂

mc: gyugyu has been practising really hard for this. earlier while i was backstage, i kept hearing him going ahhh↗ahhhhh↘ahhhhh, he was doing his vocal warm-ups really seriously.

mc: have any of you watched his interview from the yesterday?

fans: yes!!!

mc: wow let me complain to you a little, did any of you see how many buttons he left unbuttoned? the audacity!  anyone saw anything from the deep lowcut? yeah, a little bit of a shadow right?

after a bit more small talk here and there, sunggyu finally returned to stage. a lady translator followed shortly too. his first greetings were in korean, so the mc asked him if he had been practising his chinese, to which he said "oh, chinese? my greetings earlier? 大家好 我是金聖圭 (hi everyone, i'm kim sunggyu)。" five seconds after saying this he became shy and burst out laughing, scrunching up his face a little.

mc: your members' reactions when you told them about this fanmeet, how was it like? it was a little bit cold, wasn't it?  (a/n: she probably got this from the interview gyu gave the day before to taiwan press)

sunggyu: *sputtering* oh, no, um. *breaking out into high pitched embarrassed laughter* i guess it's because they believe in me? they did say something like "hyung, you'll do well" so..

mc: sunggyu mentioned he wanted to come to taiwan together with his members and film a variety together here

sunggyu: ah yes, if given the chance i would really love to come together with them and eat good food together

mc: yeah from the moment he arrives yesterday, he barely had any rest and hasn't gotten a chance to explore the streets of taipei

sunggyu: oh yes, well, my schedule just happened to be packed like this.. after the interview i went out to eat with the staff..

[ ‘sungkyu in taipei’ segment ]

after a while, they sat down and proceeded to the first segment where sunggyu has to pick an alphabet from 't a i p e i'. the alphabet he picks will give a word/topic he'll tell us more about. every time he had to pick an alphabet, he'd ponder his choice out loud and if fans were yelling anything other than what he picked, this would happen:

sunggyu: hmm

fans: e! e!

sunggyu: i'll go with t! :)

fans: p! p!!!

sunggyu: p? p??? alright, i'll pick e ^^

you can really feel the ^^ seeping out from his words and actions.. know that when i include a ^^ at the end of quoted speech from sunggyu here, it means that i felt it from his word 😂

sunggyu: i pick a!

mc: ooh, achieve! everyone, follow me. repeat after me, a!

sunggyu: a!

mc: achieve!

sunggyu: achieve!

(a/n: this was so cute all the fans went wild because he was just repeating after the mc so cutely)

a - achieve

q: your solo activities have been very successful thus far. are there any more goals you'd like to achieve before the end of 2017, or any dreams you'd like to fulfill?

sunggyu: basically, i feel that i've more or less accomplished most of the things i wanted to do this year. for example, i wanted to be involved in a production and release an album, so i've been working on my solo album. i've also wanted to be part of a musical, hence i'm currently participating in a musical and i hope it will be successful.

mc: so i guess you can say sunggyu is a careful planner who works effectively, right? he set a few goals for himself and he has achieved all of them within this year.

(a/n: the above exchange was pretty long as the translator translated for quite a while due to his long message so the whole time sunggyu was sitting there nodding nodding nodding his bobblehead and it was so cute fans started yelling)

sunggyu: yes, yes, that's right, that's absolutely correct.

i - impact

q: were there any solo or group activities from the past year that left a deep impression on you?

sunggyu: ahhhhhhh. for my first solo fanmeeting in tokyo, i was so nervous on the first day that i ended up entering the stage even before the music started playing. if there was a live band on stage with me then they could coordinate with me and start as we had the mr audio playing over the speakers instead of a live band, i couldn't do that. so i had a lot of thoughts in my head, should i stop the music and start over again, or should i go ahead regardless, although in the end, i went ahead anyway. once i returned to our hotel after it ended, i couldn't stop thinking about it and felt very sad.

mc: it just weighs down on you, doesn't it?

sunggyu: yes.. but well, it's alright, i guess? you guys weren't there to witness that anyway so i think it is okay? ^^ (a fan in the crowd signalled that she had been there too) o-oh, you were there too??

mc: oh, you were there? the tokyo show? OH, you're japanese? *to sunggyu* fan from japan!

sunggyu: a-ah.. ah! konichiwa!

mc: gambatte kudasai

sunggyu: sunggyu-desu ^^

t - talent

q: the sunggyu we know is extremely talented. be it singing, variety or acting in musicals, you've proven yourself to he multi-talented. if you could gain another talent, what kind would you want to have?

fans: aegyo! aegyo!!!

sunggyu: i'm sorry, what? aegyo? aEGyo? aegyo is a talent that i don't really want to have. i am DEFINITELY not going to do it.

fans: ehhhh

sunggyu: for me.. if i had to pick..... i'd say sportiness?

fans: ehhhhHHHhhhHHH

sunggyu: *indignant* what? why???

mc: are you guys unsatisfied with this answer? you want him to have a talent in aegyo?

fans: yesssssssssss

*sunggyu throughout the above exchange between mc & fans: shaking his head with his eyes shut tightly and a little small playing on his lips*

sunggyu: aegyo, i don't have it-

fans: aegyo! aegyo! show! show! show! show!

sunggyu: *resigned to his fate*

sunggyu: *did a cute v pose with pouty lips for literally 0.1s and put his hand down immediately after*

fans: KSJDHLKDHKFJFNFKS

sunggyu: ah indeed, i do have some aegyo..

sunggyu: *embarrassed, starts laughing and fanning his face before reaching forward to drink some water*

mc: that was okay, right? everyone let's let him off the hook for now. later we'll have him do the ultimate aegyo challenge, yeah?

sunggyu: *almost choking on his water* ah, i-is that so?

(a/n: the way he drinks water is SO CUTE. he uses a straw and he always takes a big big sip till his cheeks are full and puffy before swallowing the water slowly then repeat ;~; )

i - infinite

q: you have been busy with individual schedules up to now. roughly when will we be able to expect a group comeback where you will spend time together as a group with your fans?

sunggyu: firstly, infinite is preparing for a fanmeet in korea at the end of this year. right now, we aim to release an album around that time. please anticipate it a lot.

mc: as infinite's leader, could you give us a tiny little hint on the album's direction? will there be impressive choreography like before?

sunggyu: truthfully, we haven't started practising our choreography.. the dance has already been choreographed though.

fans: show us! show us!

sunggyu: ah no, well, thing is the members haven't had much time together till now so we have not started practising it yet. this album, because it's one that we've been preparing for such a long time, we recorded so many songs. we spent a long time pondering about the title track as everyone has many different opinions. we had a meeting just the other day and finally decided on the title track. we really hope that you will like it.

mc: we will be wrapping up this segment now.  can we invite our little gyugyu to introduce the next two songs?

sunggyu: the next song, i actually released it even prior to my solo debut. yes, yes, that song. 'because' from over the top. the next song after this is a song called 'daydream'. it's a song written and producdd by a senior i really like and respect a lot.. ^^

(a/n: he sounded so happy talking about nell.. the more he talked about 'daydream', the more you could the smile in his words, it was so cute!!)

🎶 because

🎶 daydream

listening to 'because' live was truly AN EXPERIENCE because ever since the moment i got into infinite and watched my first ever 'because' fancam, i've always thought that i would probably never get to hear it live considering how it's a solo song and such an old one at that but!!!  i love it so much it used to be the one song i would loop for hours and days on end without rest.. 'daydream' was incredible too, finally witnessing rap!gyu with my own two eyes and ears probably added to my lifespan by ten years. it's not that he made a mistake or anything since he put his all into the rap but i simply just couldn't get over how cute his rap voice sounded :( speaking of this, i think they've actually had the whole song re-recorded with sunggyu's rap? i couldn't really tell if it was sunggyu instead of jongwan's voice at the part towards the end too because the speakers were right in front of me messing up my listening judgement but i'm still pretty certain tablo's part has been re-recorded with sunggyu.

[ game 1 ]

once sunggyu finished the two songs and had ample rest backstage, he returned to stage to pick ticket numbers for the games segment. let me tell you this, he was really annoying while picking the ticket numbers  he would put his hand into the box (it was transparent), turn his hand here and there, grab a few tickets only to toss them aside, sweep the tickets left and right and then pick a few up at once before holding onto just one while letting the rest of them fall back into the box. how dare he play with my hopes and dreams like this..  after a few agonising minutes, of him very adorably announcing the selected ticket numbers in chinese (by repeating after the mc), the lucky fans went on stage.

this first game was a game to test for mind-link/telepathy between gyu and fans. a word would be given on stage and sunggyu, along with the three lucky fans, will have to make the same action that best describes the word simultaneously at the count of three, with the rest of the audiences as judge. they first did a trial run and after it, the mc asked the fans on stage some questions.

mc: are you nervous?

fan: yes

mc: are you confident you'll win?

fan: yes

mc: is sunggyu handsome?

fan: super handsome

sunggyu: ah, thank you ^^

the first word was their title track from infinite only, 'the eye'. they mostly did the same action, except for one fan who made a slight movement wrong. sunggyu being sunggyu, he told her "our dance isn't like that ^^ it's like this ^^” before proceeding to do a demonstration. poor fan. some of the next few words included 'bear', where he put both his palms up above his head but switched them to his fists by the side of his head instead upon seeing the other three fans' actions. even the mc couldn't resist saying "sunggyu, your 'bear' is so cute", to which sunggyu sputtered before replying shyly "ah.. t-thank you". the next word was 'hulk', where he did the cutest imitation with the cutest expression. i'm pretty sure there had been fansite previews for these. he ended up winning this game because us fans, who are biased and weak for him, were appointed the judges of the game. it's a bad combination if you asked me since we basically let him pass every round as long as our judgement was required.

oh and before each of the fans left the stage, sunggyu *initiated* hugs with them on top of the basic handshakes hdgsksjd

continuing on, the mc said they will be moving on to the next segment.

mc: okay, moving on. let's invite sunggyu to the next game segment!

sunggyu: *surprised laughter* what, there's more??

mc: you said you were the sporty kind earlier..

sunggyu: ah yes, yes, bring it on. it's great! great!

[ game 2 ]

staff then brought the box containing the tickets out again and after a few more painful moments, sunggyu finally selected another three fans for the second game. this game was charades, where sunggyu was to first pick a random topic and words of the topic will be the questions for the day. of course, as main character of the day, sunggyu has to act out the word for the lucky fans to guess. every correct guess gains them one point and to win the game, they need five of such wins within 1 minute. the topic sunggyu picked was 'sports'. some of the words that came out included bowling (where he struck a really cool pose), dodgeball (you should've seen his face he had the most incredulous expression 😂), yoga, brisk-walking, ice-skating and water-skiing.

sunggyu won this round too since the lucky fans were surprisingly good at guessing so after the same handshake and hug routine with the lucky fans, the mc proceeded with some simple questions.

mc: what were some of the more interesting questions?

fans: brisk-walking! oh, yoga too!

sunggyu: i've actually been learning yoga these days. like, i am really taking lessons outside and all.

fans: *cheers*

mc: how about we have you do a little demo of what you've learned?

sunggyu: *flustered* ah, n-no. i'm not wearing the suitable outfit for it now..

mc: no matter, we'll get sunggyu to remove these clothes and change later, okay?

mc: it's starting to feel a bit warm, isn't it?

sunggyu: yes, i didn't know the games would be this strenuous. it's great!! wheeew

mc: okay, so we thought your had good rapport with your fans earlier

sunggyu: i think i was just too good with my explanations.. oh, and of course my fans had quick thinking too.

sunggyu: actually i've never once tried bowling ever since i was born

mc: whaaaat? why is that? how can you live your life like this?

sunggyu: *sputters, embarrassed* ah, i just, i spend too much time on music that's all..

mc: since you did well and won both of the games, we have prepared a special prize for you!

sunggyu: *excited* oh, for me? give it to me, quick

mc: aaaand the prize will be.. sunggyu doing aegyo for us!

fans: *wildly cheering*

sunggyu: *bewildered laughter* i'm sorry, whAt? unbelievable!

mc: let's finish the prize quicker and get to singing songs again!

sunggyu: AEGYO???? what should i do?........... just to check again, this is me receiving my prize, right.......?

fans: hiyoong hiyoong! hiyoong!!! hiyoong!!!!

sunggyu: what? oh, that?

mc: okay, 3 2 1, go!

sunggyu: HIYOONG HIYOONG *throws his head back and bursts into laughter immediately after, slapping his thighs and fanning his face in embarrassment before proceeding to drink water*

mc: was that cute? was that ok?

sunggyu: i thought i did pretty good..

fans: yes!!!! do it again!! do it again!!!!

sunggyu: it seems like all of you recorded videos though? just hit that replay button on your fancam.. HIYOONG HIYOONG *more embarrassed laughter*

mc: alright, sunggyu did pretty well, right? he put up with all of your aegyo requests. let's let him off now and continue with songs, okay?

sunggyu: ah, yes, singing. of course i should sing.

just in the bit of time before the music to only tears started to play, fans were yelling all sorts of stuff, some acknowledged by sunggyu, others probably unheard.

fans: hhs7JwusjsajsjJYou'RE SO HANDSOME;!&@*-

sunggyu: i know

fans: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH YOU'RE SOOOOKJSKHSHDSHHDHSJS

(a/n: this was so damn hilarious it was the kind of blood-curdling screams where you could hear the vibrations in their voice.. if you get what i mean??? it's difficult to describe )

🎶 only tears

🎶 alive

his falsettos in ‘only tears’!! the most beautiful thing my ears have ever had the honor of being blessed with??? and ‘alive’, god. tl;dr ’alive' was so beautiful i wanted to cry. pretty sure the faint black smudges found by my eyes once the 2pm show ended came from my mascara while dabbing at my eyes countless times after being thoroughly attacked throughout the entire fanmeet.

[ final ment ]

sunggyu: did everyone have a good time here?

fans: yessss!!!!

mc: time flies exceptionally fast when you are having a good time

sunggyu: right?

mc: we are actually a little pressed for time today. so now, coming to the end of the fanmeet, do you have anything to say to the fans present, sunggyu?

sunggyu: ah, firstly, i’m really thankful towards all of you for coming. it’s actually really nerve-wrecking to be standing here on this stage all by myself, but from another point of view, i’m actually very happy to be standing here. before, i was only able to sing infinite songs for you guys but i have an opprtunity to perform my solo songs for you through this concert so it makes me feel pretty good.

mc: 2017 is approaching its end soon, could you share some of your future plans with us for 2018?

sunggyu: uhhhhhh….

mc: ehhhhhhhhh ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

sunggyu: hmm… firstly, in 2018, of course we’ll work hard with the release of a new album. i’m practising hard for our concerts as well. infinite concerts, my solo concerts as well, both are in the midst of preparations. it seems like we’ll be able to meet each other a lot at such concerts next year? i hope you will look forward to it a lot. i’ll be in a musical from end of this year until january next year too so i wish for your support in this as well. i feel like i didn’t do as much as i wished to this year, in part due to health considerations. so next year, irregardless of my stamina, i hope i can participate in more acitivities and boost my career even further be it in variety or music. i hope to have your support in these future activities, thank you.

mc: i hope that in 2018, kim sunggyu will continue to shine brightly! now let’s save this beautiful moment, shall we? how about a group photo?

mc: and now, we will invite our adorable gyugyu to perform our last song of the day.

fans: *whining* don’t leave! no!!

sunggyu: the final song is ‘the answer’, one of the two title songs from my second solo album.

fans: *yelling* i love you!! oppa i love you!!!!

sunggyu *smiling wordlessly*

🎶 the answer

at the end of the song, the screen turned black and what seems to be a hand-written message by sunggyu flashed on the screen. it was personally signed off by sunggyu, stroke by stroke in chinese characters .·´¯`(>▂<)´¯`·. the message read:

“和你們共度的時光，我會一直珍藏”

which can be translated to:

“the times i spent with you, i will always treasure them.”

[ hitouch ]

for the 2pm show, my friend and i joined the hitouch queue almost immediately after the queue was formed as we were both really hungry. i barely ate breakfast that day and although my friend did eat something, it was already nearly 4pm while the last time we actually ate was before 8.30am. the hitouch queue moved pretty fast, as the organisers were really rushing people. it’s to be expected i guess, since he has to hitouch the entire crowd of 2,000 fans :(

so fast forward to finally getting to hitouch him, it was simply amazing ｡ﾟ( ﾟஇ‸இﾟ)ﾟ｡ his hands were really, really, really, really, really soft. i have literally never touched hands these soft. i can’t emphasize enough how soft they were, and how i mean it in every sense of the word, without any exaggeration, because they were really!! that!! soft!!!! he might’ve applied some handcream while he was backstage or something, i don’t know, but it was just really, really soft and i bet anyone else who hitouched sunggyu that day can vouch for this. the closest thing this soft i’ve ever touched would be a baby’s skin, baby’s cheeks in particular. please believe me when i say it really was that soft because it really was thaaaat soft. his hands really aren’t just for show. they don’t just look beautiful, they ARE beautiful. this aside, it was also a little damp? maybe he has sweaty palms.. or it was from hitouching a few hundred fans before me 😂 whatever it is, that moment seriously felt like one of the peaks of my inspirit career? the past six years that i’ve been here for this man, this is the first time i’m getting this close to him, being able to touch his hand. it was an emotional moment!! i was barely holding myself together after it but the first thing i recall saying was “was that for real? his hands are so??? soft????” to my friend. 😂

6PM SHOW

🎶 kontrol

🎶 i need you

🎶 shine

mc: every time you come to taiwan, your schedule is fully packed and you have little time to relax by yourself. if you had the chance, what are some of the places here that you’ll want to explore?

sunggyu: uhhh, i kinda want to go to clubs.

fans: ehhhhhh

because i’ve never been to one.

fans: EHHHHHHHHHHHHH

sunggyu: let’s go together? i think that isn’t a bad idea

mc: you’re having your own fanmeet alone this time. is there any difference if you were to compare this to a group fanmeet?

sunggyu: i do feel a little empty. with my group members, we would joke and play around on stage but my myself, this can’t happen and i feel it’s bit of a pity.

[ ‘sungkyu in taipei’ segment ]

t - taipei

q: coming to taipei for the first time as a solo artist since your solo debut, what are some of the things you look forward to?

sunggyu: actually i anticipate everything. but one thing i anticipated the most was performing my solo songs for fans in taiwan since i have never been able to do so before ever since the release of my solo albums. it’s been a while since some of these songs were released but being able to perform them for fans in taipei despite the fact that some time has passed is something i looked forward to.

mc: speaking of your solo album, it seems like your new solo album is under preparations, is that right? (a/n: the mc’s exact words when suggesting the possiblity of his solo album being under preparation were “好像似乎貌似很像” and i can’t explain this but it was so funny 😂 chinese speakers will probably understand lmao)

sunggyu: yes, yes, that’s right. actually, i have already wrapped up the recording for my solo album a while ago. there’s quite a number of songs as compared to before as i wanted to make it a more meaningful one.

fan: when is it coming out!!

sunggyu: uh, early next year?

mc: raise your hand if you are buying the album!

entire crowd: *raised hands*

sunggyu: *surprised, laughed a bit and stood up to bow* ah, thank you!

p - passion

q: what are some of the factors that continue to motivate you in the pursuit of your passion?

sunggyu: well, if are speaking about passion, i must say it’s inspirits.. really. of course, there is a sense of self-satisfaction being able to do what i like. it's because of inspirits that there are people listening to my songs, supporting me. if i were to release an album now without the knowledge that there is a group of people out there who will definitely be supporting me, i guess i wouldn't feel too good in some way? but now, because i know that there are people anticipating me, people who often support me in my performances, people who will listen to my album well, i feel that owing to them, i can continue moving forward with this passion and put in lots and lots of effort into everything i do. (a/n: because it was a long translation, he kept nodding at everything the mc said. he looked like those bobblehead toys that run on solar power it was seriously so cute fans kept cooing everywhere.)

mc: alright, i hope that sunggyu will continue to keep this passion alive and advance forward with inspirits!!

sunggyu: *nodding vehemently and flashing a thumbs up sign with a shy smile*

i - infinite

q: the other infinite members have been participating in their respective individual activities as well. if you were to start having group activities again, what are some of your expectations for it?

sunggyu: firstly, dancing? i would say dance is one of those things. since it’s been a while since infinite has done anything as a group, i think it would feel nice being able to promote and perform together as a group with a new album and new songs. actually, if we were to start having activities together as a group, i would also look forward to sungjong’s hair color. in fact, what sungjong’s hair color will be would be the thing i look forward to the most. he’s had tried many different colors before. this time…

fans: blue! blue!!!

sunggyu: *making a noise of dissatisfication* no, but actually, what color he dyes his hair to has nothing to do with me.. *laughs* it’s not like i want him to dye his hair to any particular color and i don’t really have any thoughts about this issue.. *laughs*

i - idol

q: you've been an idol for seven years and a solo artist for five, successfully maintaining your popularity both domestically and abroad. are there any secrets to your success?

mc: any secrets to being a superstar?

sunggyu: hm, to be a superstar.. *laughs* well, i suppose you have to have a very good-looking appearance *laughs* hmm…

fans: sdhjfsyoU’RE SO HAndSOMe!!l;qrnw

sunggyu: ah yes, i am aware of that. hmm.. of course, eyes are included as part of one’s appearance too ^^

fans: hands!!!!

sunggyu: hands? oh yeah, that too. oh, voice is important too, of course. i guess that makes me a natural? ^^ alright but honestly speaking, i don't think there's any secret formula in particular. you just have to be really serious, hardworking and passionate, it’s a combination of these.

mc: you have to be powerful

sunggyu: yes yes, energy, i like that word

🎶 because

🎶 daydream

[ game 1 ]

this was the telepathy game like before. basketball happened to be the last word here and he was super extra with his actions, he kept pretending to dribble an imaginary ball left and right and slam dunking over and over again even though the time is already up. i think his head inflates with the fans' screams.

[ game 2 ]

when picking the numbers for lucky fans to go on stage and play games, he called for 八四二/842 (cn romanization: bā-sì-ér) when he meant to say 八十二/82 (cn romanization: bā -shí- èr) due to a slightly wrong pronunciation.. the number of heartbreaks or should i say heart attacks? he caused that day…. (。•́︿•̀。)

🎶 because

🎶 daydream

mc: sunggyu, you have to do well and win the game if not there’ll be punishments

sunggyu: ah, i won earlier in the afternoon show though but.. *scratches his head while making that ‘i-wonder-why’ expression*

the topic he picked this time round was ‘animals’ so some of the questions were cats, hamsters and rats. at one point, he was really desperate because the fans have not managed to guess much correct answers so when trying to describe ‘hamster’, he bucked out his teeth like that of a rabbit’s and put his hands in front like they were paws before pointing at himself and IT WAS SO CUTE. right after ‘hamsters’, the word that came out was ‘rats’ and he had a total mental breakdown right there because while ‘hamsters’ was already a difficult stage to pass, they are now asking for ‘rats’, which have little to no difference in the ways you can imitate it to describe it. when this game finally ended, he did his handshake + hug with the lucky fans too and he burst out laughing after the last lucky fan whispered something to him. turns out, she told him that there were lots of nightclubs around that area 😂

after the second game ended where sunggyu lost terribly,

mc: you’ll have your punishment now. you have to do aegyo, you know that right?

sunggyu: *nods with a confident smile directed at her*

mc: let’s have our music!

*music to ‘oppa ya’ starts playing*

sunggyu: *looks shocked before bursting out in embarrassed laughter and looking around helplessly. he then started to clap along a bit* ah wait, wait, i really can’t do this

mc: you can do it! let’s try again!

sunggyu: *heaved a long, heavy and audible sign with a resigned smile*

*music to ‘oppa ya’ starts playing again*

sunggyu: no, wait, wait, i really- this is too much please turn off the music. ah this is so difficult..

mc: shall we try one more time?

sunggyu: this is really difficult.. i think i’m going to cry.

fans: show us! show us!

mc: okay, how about just one pose?

sunggyu: alright.. ah how do i do this? *mental breakdown* how do i do this?????

mc: 3, 2, 1

sunggyu: *did bunny aegyo* *music to ‘oppa ya’ starts playing again* *exasperated, resigned, does the bunny aegyo one more time*

mc: it’s really hot, isn’t it?

sunggyu: yes.. ah i really wanted to do it for you guys, but my body isn’t moving..

mc: sunggyu has tried his best, let’s stop here, okay? otherwise he won’t come to taiwan anymore in the future

mc: being able to interact with your fans through these games, how did it feel?

sunggyu: i felt really happy! *burst out in laughter* it’s just that when i have to do aegyo, i miss my members especially more.. there are lots of members who are really good at aegyo. i am really sorry i couldn’t deliver…

fans: it’s alright!! you did well!

sunggyu: regardless, i had a really good time today with everyone. i am really happy.

mc: it’s okay that you can’t do aegyo, let’s try serenading fans with your voice instead, shall we?

🎶 only tears

🎶 alive

sunggyu: did you enjoy the concert?

fans: yessssssss

sunggyu: it’s my first time in taiwan alone. i was actually really nervous and worried because of this. i was afraid i would be lacking or make the atmosphere awkward and difficult. even though i’m sorry (for not being able to do aegyo), i’m really happy to be here and to be able to interact with you through these games and activities. i’ll be returning to korea tomorrow. although i really do want to stay longer, i have to return to korea to wrap up preparations for my new album. i’ll be participating in a musical as well. even though i’ll be performing in a place really far from here, i hope to have your blessings. oh, we will be having a fanmeet called ‘begin again’ at the end of the year in korea as well. it will also be held in a place really far from here but nevertheless, i hope you will support us a lot and if possible, come and join us. soon, infinite will be having promotions again for our new album. you guys may be able to listen to some of the new songs during the fanmeet. it may not be just one song, it could be a few too. i hope everyone will look forward to our group’s new album as well as my solo album and songs. after the album releases, i will definitely come back to taiwan to perform, both as part of infinite and as a solo singer. let’s take a group photo now, shall we? i want to bring it back to show it to my members.

* surprise fanmade video started to play after group photos *

sunggyu seemed to be enjoying the fanmade video, there are a number of fancams of his reactions to it on youtube. i personally felt that the video was touching and almost teared up too :( of course, it was not just the video, it was the whole atmosphere in the concert hall. the video included performances of sunggyu’s three solo title tracks and when they started playing, the crowd started singing along and it was a really beautiful moment. as a fan who was part of the crowd, i got goosebumps myself and it really makes me wonder how sunggyu felt watching it. once the video ended, i thought sunggyu sounded a little different. i personally thought he might’ve choked up a little before recovering quickly although i wasn’t too sure but a friend of mine said she suspected the same as well so who knows? i wonder what other fans thought.. anyway, just as he started speaking, staff brought in a cake specially prepared by taiwan fans and sunggyu sputtered a bit before laughing shyly.

[ final ment ]

sunggyu: is this me?

fans: yesss!

sunggyu: it’s cute

fans: *started to sing ‘happy birthday’*

sunggyu: *sings along*

sunggyu: ah, i don’t know how to say this well. it’s really embarrassing. *shy laughter* actually, i myself often forget the fact that this day is my solo debut anniversary as well. it just so happens that today, i can celebrate it with you and i am really thankful for this opportunity. more importantly, being able to make a solo debut, meet my fans, have an event like this, all of this, it is all thanks to infinite. i'm really really thankful for infinite. it was because i made my debut as a part of infinite that i can stand on stage like this today as a solo performer. infinite gave me the opportunity to express myself in many ways and show different sides of myself like the one i'm showing as a solo artist here today. it’s been five years now, so in the future, maybe ten years or if possible, twenty years, i hope there will be more chances to spend time like this with you in the future. we’ll be meeting at hitouch later again, you know that, right? i’ll perform the last song for you now, then.

fans: *a chorus of ‘thanks you’s’*

sunggyu: thank you, too.

(a/n: this made me reaaaaaaaaaaaally emotional i think i actually teared up. the way sunggyu said this, voice dripping with 100% pure sincerity without the slightest trace of playfulness at all, it was an absolutely beautiful moment. i’m sure the entire crowd thought the same, judging by the collective ‘awww’ that sounded the moment sunggyu said that. if i had to pick the most unforgettable moment in my entire day there, this has to be it. this tops everything else, it tops seeing his aegyo attempts, listening to him singing because/shine live for the very first times, hitouching him both times, all of it doesn’t compare to this moment. immediately after he said it, the music to ‘the answer’ came on along with the lights and there on his face too, the most beautiful smile. personally, i think it was the video that really boosted his mood. he just had this happy glow around him after it and this was probably behind what became the happiest performance of ’the answer’ ever. throughout his final performance of ‘the answer’, he was all smiles, shaking his head, swaying his body from side to side, just being really.. happy. or maybe he was just really happy he could finally go home. although i’d like to believe it was the former. 😂)

🎶 the answer

[ hitouch ]

two hours later for the 6pm show, my friend and i decided to drag our hitouch out a little longer this time unlike for the afternoon show as it meant we could stand there watching him just a little longer since god knows when we can see him again. one thing i’ve observed about sunggyu during these hitouch sessions is that he was really sincere in his gestures and expressions. despite having to hitouch a total of 4,000 fans that day, his smile never once faltered or became awkward, as one might expect when you’re tired or when you’ve been smiling too long? his smile is always there on his face and when there are fans brave enough to say something to him before being dragged off by staff, he gives really genuine reactions. as i had watched him a lot longer for the evening show, i’ve seen him reply to fans and laugh with them as and when anyone of them tells him anything. it was such a warm sight to witness.

when it was finally my turn to hitouch him again for the evening show, i got my act together and told him ”happy solo anniversary!” in english, and i’m pretty sure i must’ve said it too fast due to the staff’s pressing presence which made me super nervous. sunggyu was stunned for a couple of moments, his head went back a bit and he blinked a couple of times with a zoned out expression, before giving a little smile and nodding. jfhjskfhkslsjdk. i am so bringing this moment to my grave.

this is where my fan account finally ends. thank you if you have read through every word from start to end, misspelled words and grammatical mistakes and all. being able to attend this fanmeet has made me really really happy and i hope one day, everyone else will have a chance like this as well to see for yourself how great a guy kim sunggyu really is!

oh, and if you see any similarities in the way some accounts are phrased with the way this twitter user phrased hers, it’s because that’s my twitter account so don’t be alarmed or anything 😂

finally, please do not repost this anywhere else on tumblr and just reblog this instead. if you want to quote a part of it and post it on other social media platforms, please give appropriate credits and include a link back to this post, thank you.

[wereikonics]

iKON's MAKNAE: JUNG CHANWOO  Appreciation thread

@/bianxstan on Twitter -  8:33 PM - 26 Dec 2018

I just want to warn those who are reading this. If you're an OT6 fan, pls feel free to unfollow me and pls do not interact w/ anything related to this thread i.e. don't reply and don't quote RT. We don't need that negativity.

The world is already cruel enough for all of us. Spare us the dramatics. I am tired of defending #Chanwoo from all of you. Though I'm tired of it, pls know that I won't stop doing it. So please allow me to spread love to others without your negativity tainting it. Here we go.

~

When M&M happened, I had no doubt in my mind that Chanwoo will be iKON's 7th member. I was as sure of it as I was that all OT6 will be in iKON. There was something abt him that captivated me. He wasn't the most talented or the most eye-catching. He wasn't even the most talkative.

~

However, Jung Chanwoo was the only person who was introduced in the show that, imho, was considerate towards what OT6 was going through. He realized that he's piercing through a bond that's so strong that his introduction to the group would not be received well and so he waited.

Photo Caption: (Screenshots from Mix and Match)

CHAN WOO only smiles, perplexed

B.I. - CHAN WOO, what are your thoughts on this?

Chanwoo - I like the song

~

From the very beginning, Chanwoo has always been the kind of person who refuses to be a burden. He wants to stand with his own two feet. He refuses to be acknowledged just because Hanbin was a great leader.

Photo Caption:  (Screenshots from Mix and Match)

Pictures of Chanwoo wiping away tears in the practice room

~

I love Chanwoo because he's always been self-aware of his capabilities and his position in the group. When faced with frustrations of things not going well, he recognizes the fact that compared to the others, he is lacking. He did not hide. He did not cower.

Photo Caption:  (Screenshots from Mix and Match)

Chanwoo: 

To be honest, I’m quite disappointed

about the fact that I’m not good.

and that I’m a burden.

I know I can do this but I’m not doing as well as I thought.

~

What he did was he stayed behind in the practice room to catch up to the groupmates he's pulling behind. His sense of self-accomplishment was strong enough to push him to do well and to prevent himself from lingering at the bottom line.

Photo Caption:  (Screenshots from Mix and Match)

Chanwoo: They said it would be a very difficult journey

and told me to brace myself.

So I’m not gonna give up even if it becomes really hard.

~

One of the reasons why Chanwoo blended in so well at that time was because Chanwoo, who was an outsider, already shared the same fierce determination and thirst for improvement that the OT6 was identified with.

Photo Caption:  (Screenshots from Mix and Match)

Chanwoo: I’m so disappointed.

Chanwoo: I don’t want him to think I’m not good enough.

Picture of a frosted glass door with the word ‘STUDIO’ in unfrosted glass

Picture of a paper that reads DUFFY LYRICS - “Mercy” along with the lyrics

Narrator: Chanwoo is practicing alone till late at night. 

He worked so hard to be acknowledged for his effort. He finally did in EP 6. But what squeezed my heart about that episode was the fact that Chanwoo shed tears because despite his efforts up to that point, he can't be fully happy while taking YOYO's spot.

~

He wasn't even at the bottom three at that time & yet he felt so bad taking a spot from the OT6. I realized at the end that he must have felt guilty since he'd always felt incapable. He must've thought that despite his efforts, someone else still deserves it more than he did.

~

At that moment, I thought to myself: "If there is anyone that should be with the OT6, it'll be Chanwoo." Because this kid has enough heart and empathy to realize that his success could be someone's failure in OT6. 

~

To me, a person w/ the kind of attitude to set aside self-greed to feel for those around him will seamlessly mold himself in the tenacious wall that OT6 have built around themselves. Because OT6 reached that far by thinking of the well-being of their members than themselves.

~

However, his anxiety and worry continue even after debut. After all, it can't be denied that their debut in 2015 means that Chanwoo only had over a year of professional training. He only had abt year to completely blend himself in the team.

Photo Caption: 

Chanwoo reading a letter onstage during their Japan Tour

“will I be able to fit in?” “Won’t I just be a burden to them?”

“will the fans acknowledge me?” “Everyday I was feeling anxious and worried”

“And I promised myself, I have to debut in iKON and show them”

“my cool side to repay them”

~

People don't realize that #CHANWOO has YEARS to catch up to when it comes to training. If you're a true iKONIC, you should've realized that Chanwoo was able to improve this much despite the huge time differential of training compared to others.

Photo Caption: Behind the Scenes video during iKON’s Japan tour 2018 

B.I. instructs Chanwoo and helps him practice dancing one on one in preparation for their upcoming performances. Various iKON members can be seen resting in different places around the room. 

B.I. - Let’s do it more seriously.

B.I - One more time.

B.I - One more time.

Picture of Chanwoo sitting on the floor, his hair drenched in sweat.

B.I - You turn your arm like this here. 

~

Do you guys ever think about how much he had to work harder to not be the black hole in iKON? Do you ever think about the humiliation and disappointment he must have felt each time he practice one-on-one with Hanbin?

Photo Caption: Behind the Scenes video during iKON’s Japan tour 2018

Close Up of Chanwoo as he talks in iKON’s temporary practice area, his hair drenched in sweat.

CW: I’m so tired that I can’t talk...

CW: We checked all the flow lines and then we checked the dance matching along with the music. 

CW: As you can see, we are practicing one by one with B.I.

CW: It’s also like this for around a month in Korea. 

~

Each session must've felt like a harsh slap of realization of what level his skills are compared to the others. This was taken just a year ago. Many would think that a debuted idol wouldn't work this hard. But Chanwoo isn't like that. He knows his goals & he WILL pursue them.

Photo Caption:  Behind the Scenes video during iKON’s Japan tour 2018 

Close Up of Chanwoo as he talks in iKON’s temporary practice area, his hair drenched in sweat.

CW: There is no shyness

CW: Even though I am embarrassed, but if I don’t work hard we can’t do it. 

CW: I’m thankful for B.I-hyung who is monitoring closely.

CW: I’ll work hard.

~

I've said this before. I hate people who count lines per member. Line allocation will never equate to song quality. Hanbin giving lines not suited to Chanwoo's skills will only be detrimental to him. But does Chanwoo deliver? YES HE DOES!

Tweet Citation and Photo Caption:

The utilization of the colourful vocal tones of the members allows a portrayal of different kinds of heartache. #CHANWOO didn’t get a ton of lines but I’m not disappointed. Line distribution is about how you deliver those lines. Chanwoo delivered a tenfold of emotions. #iKON

~

The way #CHANWOO opened the song with his low melancholic tone just hits you straight to the heart. It wasn’t extravagant; it was impactful. It was subdued, almost too passively, but that’s what one goes through during a break up. You can’t do anything but accept it.

~

At the bridge, when all the instrumentals were stripped down to almost nothing, I cried bec of the weight of emotions delivered within those two lines. #Chanwoo ’s part was the culmination of all the emotions depicted in this song’s narrative. His voice is just perfect for that.

Can also be found in ‘Goodbye Road’ Song Analysis Thread:

https://wereikonics.tumblr.com/post/184634621843/goodbye-road-song-analysis

I want people to realize that #Chanwoo was able to perform this well because he did not sit on his ass all day long playing games. Nobody else knows more than Chanwoo himself how much he is lacking compared to the others. We all have only seen a glimpse of his talents.

~

I want to remind you that this year's releases were mostly written in 2015. We have yet to fully taste what these boys have to offer years after 2015. Don't get stuck on what could've been. It's been 4 years since the show.

~

Ask yourselves this: in any of iKON's dance practice videos, was there ever a moment when Chanwoo was a blackhole? As a matter of fact, Jinhwan makes more mistakes on choreo than Chanwoo ever did. This boy did not get on stage despite his injuries just for you to discredit him.

~

This boy did not get into iKON because of pity. He didn't get on that stage because he was forced to. He worked his ass off day in and day out knowing that his lack of skills could be harmful for the rest of them. But even when that fear lingers, he didn't let it foster.

~

Though Chanwoo has this fear, he would never beg for lines from Hanbin. Hanbin allows this because this is the only way Chanwoo will truly improve and genuinely feel accomplished. There is no shortcut to success.

Photo Caption: iKON on Weekly Idol

Chanwoo is speaking to Hanbin while they are holding hands

CW: This is what I want to say.

CW: I’m not good which is why I have a small part.

Yunhyeong points toward Hanbin as he looks to Chanwoo

Yunhyeong: Tell him now that you want bigger parts

CW: I’ll work harder

~

So before you question Chanwoo's work etiquette, I want you to think about the position you're in. Because at this moment, as you write those comments discrediting Chanwoo's hard work, it isn't his ass sat on a chair with your face buried in front of a computer.

~   

I'm ending this thread with Chanwoo's poem. Because I want people to realized that regardless of how much hate you throw, we're all just trying our best to live on. We're all on the same ground. You're not special.

[YT Link to iKON TV - Junhoe PD Episode excerpt - Jung Chanwoo’s Mosquito Poem]

~

Disclaimer: All photos belong to their rightful owners. I leave all credit to the rightful translators. PS: If I continued to make this longer, I'm at risk of a heart attack because of pent up frustrations lol PSS: STAN CHANWOO PSSS:

@/bianxstan on Twitter -  8:32 AM - 15 Dec 2018

If you're truly a fan of iKON, you would understand why it's hard for Chanwoo to bring his members to film for his YT. Chanwoo is a very considerate person. He would never do anything to make someone uncomfortable.

~

Besides, he knows how it feels like for the members because he lives the same lifestyle. Also, the members are not selfish to refuse to go on Chanwoo's channel. They help him out when he asks. So please, give Chanwoo the freedom to film whatever he wants with whoever he wants. 

Please subscribe to Chanwoo’s YT Channel if you haven’t already

[rofics]

7 times the SHINee pack had issues, but worked through it, and that one time where everything just worked (Taemin’s part)

Fandom: SHINee + Jongin Pairing:  Ot6 + Jongin Genre: Fluff and Angst Au: Canon / Omegaverse au (Hidden Omega verse) Length: 2k

Summary:

Every pack has issues, even SHINee, but they work through it cause they love each other. Even if some people are a little insecure.

Covers one chapter for each member being insecure, and one extra chapter which is just smut

Is part of Hidden Omega verse, but can be read without the main story.

People had always been assholes and he had always been sensitive to it. People criticized his singing and his looks all the time. He normally always tried to ignore it, but with their Japanese debut, it had just become too much for him.

He rubbed the bite on the side of his neck the memory of Jonghyun giving it to him still vibrant in his mind 6 months later. He was fine with being an omega… He really was, but with everybody saying he looked so girly he started to hate being an omega. He ripped out the hair tie keeping his hair up accidentally snapping it with the force, he stared at the snapped band in his hand. This was how he felt like now, too worn, to pulled until he just snapped.

The 18-year-old newly presented omega wanted to cry. The rest of SHINee was out eating dinner, but Taemin had excused himself with being tired. Really he just… Didn’t want people to look at him, people just saw a feminine omega when they looked at him. People compared him with Kibum, Kibum who was the sassy and strong-willed omega, Kibum who never got confused with a girl.

He pulled a lock of his hair out, wondering if people would like him better if his hair was shorter. He would look like less of a girl, right? Everybody would stop saying those things! He stumbled up from his position curled on the bed, stumbling his way to the kitchen, his entire body shaking so badly that it seemed as if he was drunk. His mind was muddy and confused only able to focus on the task at hand, finding those stupid scissors where had Jinki hid them!?

Had he been a little more in his right mind he would have noticed the fact that he was making a lot of noise and even more of a mess. He would probably have noticed how the door was opened and his name was called. He didn’t notice though, instead he had with shaking hands managed to find the scissors. He pulled on a strand of his hair hands shaking badly as he prepared to cut the strand and free himself from his feminine looks.

“TAEMIN?!” A yell came from behind him, leading Taemin instead to hit his cheek with the scissor slicing up a mark on his cheek.

Gasping out in pain, he dropped the scissor spinning around almost losing his balance to see who was yelling at him. Jinki was across the room and cupping the young omega’s cheek faster than anybody else could react. “Minnie what have you done?”

His voice was concerned and worried as he checked the wound on Taemin's cheek, he could feel how the younger man was shaking in his hold. “Minnie what is wrong, please talk to us.”

Instead of answering the question really he just looked away from Jinki focusing on the ground instead. “Why are you back already? I thought you guys went for dinner.”

Jonghyun was now behind Jinki looking over Taemin. “We have been gone for 4 hours.” His voice was soft and comforting, he knew that this was his first big test being pack alpha for Taemin. To be honest, he wasn’t really sure what was wrong, he had watched Taemin close when he had presented to make sure they didn’t reject it as first like Minho and Kibum, but Taemin had seemed… fine? He didn’t seem to mind being an omega, he seemed happy with it. They had all more or less expected him to be an omega after all Jongin had called himself Taemin’s alpha since they were 15, he couldn’t figure out why Taemin would be acting like this.

Luckily for them, Kibum seemed to be a little more in sync with what was going on.“Come here, Minnie.” He opened his arms signaling a hug with his fellow omega, knowing that no matter what was wrong physical contact always helped.

That seemed to break the dam, at first Taemin just stared at his bottom lip wobbling slightly trying to hold back the tears. But then he couldn’t hold it back anymore and he almost knocked Kibum on his ass as he jumps attacked him in a hug with tears running down his cheeks. That was when they knew it was really wrong, Taemin never cried. He always tried to be the tough one, even when he didn’t have to.

They all kinda surrendered the two omegas in a group hug. Taemin still sobbing into Kibum’s shoulder, they wanted to let him settle before they tried to get out of him what was actually the issue. That was when Minho made a mistake he ran his hand through Taemin’s hair. Normally he loved having his hair stroked. (And pulled they had once found Jongin getting Taemin off just by letting him suck him off while pulling his hair. Which had given the older members blue balls for a month since there was a rule that you didn’t touch members who had not presented! But that's another story for another day.)

Taemin went completely stiff in their arms, and he mumbled in a sad voice. “Please don’t touch it.” It was hard to explain just how out of character it was for Taemin not to want them to touch his hair. So Minho pulled his hand back like he had been burned.

“Minnie please talk to us, we can’t fix this if you don’t talk to us.” Jinki pleaded with him, wishing that Jongin was here with them. He hated that Jongin had trainee duty to see to, and he couldn’t be with them while they were in Japan. Jongin always knew what to say to Taemin.

“I just want it gone!” His voice was almost a scream now as he grabbed a handful and ripped in a movement that made the rest of SHINee cringe. Jonghyun was quick at grabbing Taemin’s hand to stop the young omega before he actually did some real damage to himself.

Kibum tightened his grip on the dancer, he hated seeing Taemin like this especially when he didn’t know how to make him feel better. He just wanted to help! “Please tell us what’s wrong, you can’t hurt yourself like this.” He begs.

“I don’t want to be like this!” he half yells into Kibum’s shoulder, “I want them all to stop calling me a girl! I just want it all gone! I work hard, I know I’m not the best singer! But I try my best!”

Oh, how had they not noticed this? They had all been so busy with their comeback that they hadn’t even noticed any of the hate Taemin was getting online. While they knew that people weren’t always nice online and that Taemin got more than his fair share of the hate, he had seemed to handle it better after he presented. He had been better at relying on his pack and speaking with them about what was wrong.

To be fair none of them could really wait for Jongin to present, and hopefully ending up picking them, it was weird and dysfunctional to only have Taemin without Jongin there.

Kibum exchanges a lost look with Jonghyun, the pack alpha not really sure what to do. He knew he had to do something, but he wasn’t sure what the right thing to do was. Luckily and surprisingly Minho was the one to step up when everybody else seemed lost. The youngest alpha lightly petted the young dancer still hiding his face in Kibum’s shoulder. “This is what happens when you keep it into long, you need to talk with us. You said it yourself we can do everything when we are together, but if we keep stuff from each other we break.”

Taemin let out a whine, but he didn’t look up still crying into the other omega’s shoulder. It took the rest of SHINee a good 20 minutes to finally talk him down, at that point all of them sitting in the corner of the kitchen.

The maknae had refused to let go of Kibum, the omega’s soft scent of kiwis calming to him. The rest of them sitting around them so they could all keep in physical contact with Taemin who was breaking apart. All of them were shaken up over what was happening. This really was their first real test as a pack. Of course, they had arguments and other stuff like that before, but never like this.

When Jinki pulled his hand away from Taemin and stood up. Taemin finally looked up confused and what seemed to be a little scared about why Jinki was trying to get away from them. As if Jinki was leaving permanently.

The betas heart broke a little for Taemin as he bowed down quickly to give him a quick peck. “I am just getting my phone and some medical stuff. I want to clean the wound on your cheek.”

Taemin hadn’t even felt or thought about the pain on his cheek. Now he let his hand up to his cheek flinched a little as the pressure sent pain down his spine, and when he pulled his fingers back there was blood on them. He looked sadly at Kibum. “I’m sorry I got blood on your shirt,”

“It really wasn’t a pretty shirt anyway.” Jonghyun teased from the side as he lightly stroked Taemin right below where his bite was.

“Hey!” The Kibum pouted, “I liked it! It was a pretty shirt right Minnie?” Taemin just nodded, siding with Kibum by default like always, making life hard for their dear pack alpha. “See this is why you are my favorite.”

Taemin still felt sad and like giving up but it was better now that his pack was here with him as he lightly giggled before Kibum kissed him softly. Kibum was always a good kisser, even if he was a little too careful with Taemin.

Their kiss first broke when Taemin felt Jinki cleaning the wound on his cheek and he couldn't stop himself from releasing a little whiny noise from the pain. “I didn’t mean to hurt myself… I just wanted to cut my hair.”

Now that he was more calmed down Taemin felt guilty from worrying them all so much and creating such a mess. But Jonghyun spoke up then decided that it was about time he actually did some work as pack alpha. “It is okay Taemin, I just wish you had spoken to at least one of us about this. We are a pack.”

Taemin just nodded sadly, he knew that he had a bad habit of keeping everything on the inside until it became too much and it just exploded out without him being able to control it. When the wound was clean and a pink plaster was put over it Jinki asked him in a soft tone. “You wanna talk to Jongin?”

The younger looked shyly on the ground still in Kibum’s lap. “Is it okay?” He didn’t want his pack to feel like they weren’t enough for him, he could be happy with just them.

Jinki smiled softly at Taemin. “Of course it is, we know how hard it is for him with only one of you having presented.”

The phone was already dialing when Taemin got it in his shaking hands holding it up to his ear while leaning on Kibum’s shoulder relaxing with the other omega’s thin fingers brushing through his hair removing the knots from it. Jonghyun was sitting next to them, his hand resting on Taemin’s thigh petting it as well.

Taemin could feel the last knot in his stomach release when he heard Jongin pick up. “Jinki-hyung? What is wrong? It’s late.”

Taemin hadn’t even noticed that it was Jinki’s phone and not his own that he was using. “It is me.” The omega mumbled with unstable voice.

Jongin who always seemed to have a magic ability to sense when something was wrong with Taemin. “Minnie what happened?” He was clearly worried about the older male, even if he hadn’t presented himself yet, he still saw himself as Taemin’s alpha.

“I… I felt bad. I let all the hate get to me, and I accidentally hurt myself when I tried to cut my hair.”

It was clear that Jongin was worried when he responded, but he also managed to keep himself mostly calm and collected. He knew that it was what Taemin needed, he needed calm and he needed soft. “Are you okay now?” A soft yes from Taemin. “It’s okay to be sad sometimes Minnie, but you need to talk to us when you feel sad so it doesn’t happen like this. You mean so much to all of us, we don’t want you to end up being hurt.”

Taemin just nodded, Jongin and he spoke for another 15 minutes with other members of the SHINee pack speaking up from time to time but sticking to just listening to the two friends talk. All of them could feel the slight doubt they had. The mild fear that they ended up not being the right pack for Jongin. With him being placed in Exo K there was a real chance that it was the real pack for him, but now was not the time to worry about that. Especially since if Jongin didn’t join the SHINee pack, none of them were sure what it would do to Taemin, but god knows it wouldn’t be pretty.

When they all went to bed that night with Taemin between them, the thin long haired omega being the first to fall asleep Jonghyun looked over his pack with a little smile. Like every other pack they had issues and problems, but how they solved them and worked through them with open mind and heart was what would keep them together.

Authors note:

I forgot to publish this yesterday! Sorry! 6 more parts of this story, mainly I will publish this story when I simply don’t have the time to do a real story for request Friday! I have been sick all week and it has been very hard to get stuff published on time, sorry if I have been rude this week ^^

- Prussia