#OOC ~ OUT OF PERSONA ~

[townslore]

be nice to him please he was born in a wet cardboard box all alone [pro/ship dni]

[flightofgoro]

chronic maybe later dance, busy making idols of my friends — just like you.

[skrrtscree]

That feeling when you can't stop thinking abt the new guy..

[kairugah]

tonight the headcanon swirling around in my head is the idea that akiren buys the toy ray gun that he sees at the end of the proof of justice OVA as a way to cope w his grief and make up for the childhood that akechi lost, even just a little bit. & then when akechi returns during the third semester akiren gifts it to him as a sort of late christmas present, causing akechi's impenetrable facade of apathy over his own impending death to crack because of the fact that he hasn't received such a personalized gift in years and it fucking hurts that the only times he feels truly acknowledged for who he is & not just the mask he puts on is when it's not going to matter in the end anyways (the other time being in the engine room)

[jazbell]

akira gets a job at junes and is immediately fired bc of morgana (au)

[glacialswordsman]

[hopefuture]

Consider if you will

The image of Clark flipping burgers at a backyard BBQ in a trucker hat, a beer in one hand, yelling at the football game from across the patio

[books-and-dragons]

Ik it's been awhile since I have dropped a HC on you, but consider: Akira doing some unnecessarily dangerous stunt in the Metaverse and feeling so proud of himself... and then he's shocked when the team gets angry/worried that he risked his own safety like that.

"Guys, it's fine, only I would have gotten hurt!"

And then they just get even angrier and he's confused and startled they're so worked up about it. He's not used to people worrying about him.

omg june, hi!!! aaa i yelled when i saw your user pop up, hope you're doing well!!

your brainworms are angsty as ever and oh how i love it

i'm such a believer in the akira-is-passively-reckless-about-his-own-life concept, you'll have to rip it from my cold, dead hands

considering the in-game clues we get about how he's not great about keeping himself well-fed and has an automatic tendency to throw himself aside for the sake of other people's safety, akira's probably got a huge lack of self preservation to add to that (maybe even, a complete lack of care for his own wellbeing) (i'm absolutely blaming his home life for this)

which works well enough for someone in a leadership position, he'd make sacrifices for others very easily and yeah!! he's just so used to not putting himself into consideration- he doesn't even think about his own safety. nobody else ever has, so why should he?

it trickles into everything he does. the last healing item goes to a teammate, whatever funds he makes from part-time jobs goes into the phantom thieves (nevermind that he's living on sojiro's patronage curry and instant noodles, that's unimportant, he's unimportant), he offers unconditional support and a listening ear to every confidant he meets, and helps them with all their problems- even if it is to his own detriment. on the battlefield against a new enemy, joker will do his best to find the weakness- because if they repel anything, at least then he carries the brunt of the backlash. it's natural, instinctive, and therefore he sees no wrong in it.

and for a long time, he gets away with this reckless abandon for his own safety.

except he goes a step too far, maybe he decides to distract another hoard of shadows on his own? or makes what should be an impossible zipline move to cross to the other side of a chasm. against a rampaging enemy, he throws himself in the firing line. after months of excusing the passing recklessness, this is a step too far for the phantom thieves.

when they're reunited with joker, he's not greeted by praise for his dramatic flourish, or impressed and spirited cheers for carving a path deeper into the palace, but instead worried frowns and scolding reprimands. flurries of hands which search for his injuries and want to heal, and he doesn't need it he's fine-

and oh you're so right it would hurt so much because akira would be so confused by their concern!! at first, he probably assumes they're talking about anything but him. did he accidentally break a treasure on his landing? for some reason, had the thieves not wanted that shadow hurt? what was it this time, what had he done wrong- because he had to have done something wrong he always does something wrong, eventually

when it gets through to akira that no, they're worried about his safety the boy blue-screens there and then.

it's not something he's ever been used to- care, affection....attention. nobody's cared enough to look close enough before, and suddenly akira doesn't know what to do with this worry, with this obvious sign that people care about him, that someone values akira kurusu....he's in a bit of a fugue as the diarahan washes over him, so much do he can't even scold what he'd deem an unnecessary use of energy

they call it a day in the palace not long after.

learning to value your own life isn't something that's easy, but akira's surrounded by people who care about him now- they can be patient. this time, they're taking the lead to help akira, not the other way around.

maybe makoto challenges him to find a more safe plan, that doesn't involve reckless action. ryuji helps him be more open about his feelings. ann teaches akira how to appreciate himself. futaba shows him how to trust in what people promise. yusuke guides him through self-appreciation in his own, artistic style. haru helps akira define himself, outside of the parameters his parents set for him. morgana stays at his side through it all.

in their own way, they'll help akira find some self-worth, and hope to see the fruits of their labour in akira guarding a bit more often in battle, turning to his teammates instead of charging in headfirst and bearing the weight of shadows' attentions himself. they'll wait patiently for the day he asks for help, and be proud when he does.

for now, they'll accept the occasional willingness to head back to a saferoom, or retreat from battle. they'll mentally cheer when he uses one of their few healing items to patch a gash in his side. it's all about the small steps.

[fortifice]

I do write stuff that isn’t sampard shaped I said like a lying liar.

[xluciifer]

What if I made a persona huh????

What if it's just these two if they had a love child???

What if??????

[zalimbane]

i'm a sucker for arranged marriages , so i really wanna someday do a au or something where gort is like: i have to have a consort in order to be taken seriously , and he just either picks a random person in bg and its your muse . or he picks a trusted ally (your muse). but then they go to a feast or a gala and have to act like a real married couple and they make silly little jabs at him slowly throughout the night but now he has to genuinely pretend he is that person and it kills him .

[calmlythrilling]

oh if we want to talk about current debate... both suck. i am allergic to most animals and plants, i hate math despite being good at it, and while science looks cool i never been able to fully understand the whole cells thing for some reason? but i have never been able to give actual history my full attention either and barely passed my history classes. i'm with rin's "let's read a manga" take

[scarecrow-in-a-hatake]

[talentforlying]

one of these days i'm going to write up all that i've changed from azzarello's bullshit era and the one (1) piece i've kept from milligan (and also changed) and the only thing currently stopping me is that it is going to be so, so inside-baseball incomprehensible. and i almost never want to go reading/screencapping azzarello and milligan to add references but i Want to add references.

canon is goop, just know that we continue to ride the bus down "hellblazer ended at #250 and looks like swiss cheese before that" street.

[memuntos]

INTRODUCING HITOMI ARAKAWA — a persona oc, adaptable to other verses. hitomi is a student at shujin. when she started her first year at shujin, hitomi was quick to join cheerleading. despite her newfound popularity and rapid climb in the social ladder, no one could get a read on her and many questioned her eagerness to join a club before she had even settled in. girls gossiped that she just wanted attention and boys whispered about her flirting with boys on the sports teams. but no one truly knew anything about hitomi.

when second year rolled around and the new kid joined their class, she uncharacteristically avoided him like the plague. known for her friendliness, most people thought it was because she believed the rumours about the delinquent new student. soon after, whispers about kaneshiro spread throughout the school and hitomi began skipping out on cheerleading practices. it raised questions but she always had an excuse at the reason. the reason hitomi pulled back from her involvement in school was that hitomi’s family was tightly connected to kaneshiro and cheerleading had been her way to recruit more students into kaneshiro’s scheme. it wasn’t something she did of her own will but having been threatened by both her parents and kaneshiro, hitomi thought she had no choice. when she caught wind of kaneshiro being a potential target of the phantom thieves it piqued her interest. she believed it was finally her way out of her parents criminal background that she so hated.

when she saw the photograph of the four students that had stumbled into kaneshiro’s club, hitomi started doing her digging. she confronts them about what they were doing there and tells them that she can give them an insider scoop on kaneshiro if they let her into whatever they’re doing. this leads to hitomi joining the phantom thieves. her confidant card is the aeon confidant, a direct parallel to sae nijima’s role as the judgement persona as they stand on opposite sides of the legal world. her persona is a fallen angel and focuses primarily on her repentance of her and her parents’ crimes. however, even after the phantom thieves defeat kaneshiro, hitomi doesn’t pull out entirely from the criminal underground. her parents begin to maintain a lower profile for a while in fear of arrest and hitomi uses her connections to keep the phantom thieves informed of potential new targets.

[joannes-journal]

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I keep seeing eyes. EYES. It's buggin' the hell out of me! There are eyes in the flowers, the sun! And, unrelated to the eyes? I was washing dishes the other day and there were fish? IN THE SINK?? Kota said there was no fish, but...THERE WAS! I swear! After a while, he went and grabbed his glasses and looked again and said, "Oh, shit, guess I didn't see them without my glasses." I know he was trying to play into it. I know he didn't see them.

No one ever does.

Kota gave me that old journal he and Jackie've been luggin' around, apparently, it's one of Mom's unused ones. He said to write in it if I needed to, but to give it back to him when I wasn't using it.

Anyway, we went out for a walk earlier today. We hadn't explored the entire 15 acres of the woods, and Kota wanted to find a quiet spot to sit and think. Back home (well, our childhood home), there was a large flat boulder in the forest behind the house and he'd go there.

We were smelling smoke again, it triggered Kota's asthma and I didn't know how to help him. He hadn't had an attack in almost three years. I touched where his lungs were, I don't know why I did it. But I remember being so scared that I'd lose him that I verbally said, "No!"

And he stopped after coughing up a bit of blood.

I don't know what's happening.

He found a place to think, it's a tree stump covered in moss. He sat down to think, and I took out the bead box I keep in my bag. I made a singlet that says, "Here's Not Here." I don't know why, the phrase was just in my head.

Later, when we got back to the house, I sat by Jackie's body. Kota successfully tethered her soul to the pumpkin and tethered both to her body. She just hasn't woke up yet. She's been lying on the couch since he did the spell.

I'm worried. I'm tired.

And I'm hearing something knocking on the wind-

WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT THING?

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