#OKAY THAT TURNED OUT WAYYY LONGER BUT BAM

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What was it like the day you found out Akela died in the Vanchat raid all those years ago? What was it like finding out she was alive? How does it feel knowing she was suffering all those years alone and no one knew?

MUSE IS UNDER TRUTH SERUM FOR ONE HOUR. ASK ME ANYTHING. NOTHING IS OFF LIMITS AND EVERYTHING MUST BE ANSWERED. GO!

Over the years Shield had changed in the most drastic fashion possible, it was a new shield now and with that came that fact that many of the people that bore the title of Agent didn’t know him when he was just a recruit and that with that came the fact that he and Akela were in the same class. So naturally the question catches him off guard and it results in him being quiet, a rarity in truth as he regards the question. He remembers the day, remembers how his heart seemed to drop into his stomach at the news, remembers how he’d locked his jaw and dugs his nails into the palms of his hands as he made fist far too tight at his side when Coulson had told him.

He finds himself doing just that now, digging his nails into the palms of his hands, despite the fact that he knows she is in fact alive it doesn’t erase that day, erase what he felt, or erase his fury about what truly happened. Clint inhales, it’s deep as he begins, “It was chaos at first, everyone trying to figure out what happened, what broke down, but then it was just pain, it was that empty feeling you get that hits at the very heart of your soul. I lost a friend that day, one that meant more to me than I had ever told her, one that understood me when most people don’t. That day was hell, I remember being so out of line when he told me that I actually pushed Coulson backwards.” He’s shook his head.

“But then years pass, too many years and we find out she’s alive… alive but not the same Akela, alive but tortured, alive but stripped of everything that made her herself. They’d taken everything from her and Gael her nothing but pain in return.” His response is deep now as if it possesses somewhat of an understanding. Though their situations are drastically different he knows what it’s like to be controlled, he knows what it’s like to be commanded, to be stripped of your own willpower and he wouldn’t wish it on anyone. He knows what’s left behind when it’s over.

For once he’s not joking, he’s not throwing his humor into the mix, no instead he’s responding with a seriousness about him that is rare.

“It makes me angry, makes me feel guilty, it makes me want to protect her from everything.” He shook his head.

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Liz Rambles TWD 8x05

So I didn’t really live-blog too hard this episode like I have been and that’s kinda gonna become a theme. I think I’ll only tap on the stuff that comes to the forefront of my mind and post it now. I feel like I get distracted when I live-blog and miss a lot. I mean I can rewind but I don’t like to unless I can’t hear something lol.

That said, here’s a few thoughts from the brain hole! Expect them to be all over the place. Cause it’s me and that’s how I roll.

The flash at the beginning of the opening title was more obvious, super clearer, and definitely longer. I’m not imagining that either (I hope not). I literally wasn’t trying to look for it this time and it was like BAM across the screen. It’s also becoming the brightest thing of the credits too.

I feel so bad for Gabriel being trapped with Negan and is obnoxious ass. Honey, Im sorry! I know you’re trying to be better! The last thing you need is to be dealing with a guy who keeps talking about his dick and king/god complex going on!

I’ll be honest that most of the meeting mouth off fights I wasn’t really into. I did like Dwight coming down and standing with what Eugene was saying. Like the two aren’t alone in this. Eugene is a coward but he’s smart and he’s going to gather enough information to take shit down. But he can’t do all of it alone. He can stand for himself when he needs to. He proved that to Abraham… But he still needs help. Now he’s got a slight showing that he has Dwight. And with Gabriel there, he can have another influence to help… I just hope Gabriel is gonna be okay.

The Daryl and Rick fight – while great – wasn’t as rough as I thought it was gonna be. I was kinda expecting a bigger push and pull to happen… That said, I was still bouncing in my seat going “CHILDREN WHAT THE FUCK” and chuckling just a little at the S1 reference back to when Daryl and Rick first meet. Another reference to S1 that was said backwards. Daryl is the one who told Rick that. This time it was Rick who tells Daryl that. Looking glass I see your ass, okay!

THAT WAS A FUCKING HELICOPTER OH MY GOD WHERE-WHY-HOW?!

Now that I screamed that, lets look at the last dealings with helicopters on this show.

S1E1 Rick sees a military helicopter after he stumbles out of the hospital. Later, Rick catches the reflection of a helicopter in the window of a skyscraper.

S2E13 we see walkers in Atlanta being drawn to the sound of the helicopter we saw in s1 by the same building Rick saw it reflected in. This draws Walkers to stumble down a dirt road and start a heard of them that eventually merges with another heard before they’re drawn by gunshots – Carl and Rick’s gunshots. This is the episode we learn that everyone has the virus that turns them into a walker so it doesn’t matter if you’re bit or scratched.

S3E3 starts with three soldiers – Franklin, Welles and Sean – in a military helicopter as ut begins to malfunction from mechanical problems before it crashes. Welles is the only one to survive the crash. The crash draws The Governor to inspect it. The helicopter crash also draws in Michonne and Andrea, who are found by none other than a Dixon – Merle Dixon! Who had been missing since S1 at that point and had only been seen in S2 as a hallucination by Daryl.

S4E1 There’s a crashed Helicopter on top of the food bank that Daryl was gathering from and that falls on top of them and causes Zack to die. The episode that had Daryl and Beth’s first “romantic like” scene. The “damn romance novel” scene.

So basically MORE PAST REFERENCES?!??!

Father Gabriel talking about how he survived as long as he did and Negan talking about the real Lucille was great! I know some people find the whole thing about Negan’s backstory to be boring, but it’s actually one of the things I liked about him; the story behind the bat and Lucille. It’s pretty great to me. And FG showing that he’s still fighting his past and that he is searching for his purpose of being in whatever place he ends up.

The talk of Daryl and Tara teaming up to go take down the saviors has me shooketh and very concerned for those two… They’re gonna get themselves killed. I mean, fuck, I’m happy to see them talking and having scenes together more and more but they are both in wayyy to dark a head space to be thinking how they are and doing what they’re doing… It’s gonna get them hurt and it’s gonna get innocent people hurt. People just on the wrong side but trying to survive, not fight.

JADIS! We’re going back to the Junkyard Kids and their funky ass Kingdom! Just like I was waiting for… But now I wonder what’s gonna have Rick be put into that containment car… Oh brother.

Overall – while not my favorite episode and one I got kinda bored of in places – I like what I did like and I’m telling you, something big is gonna be happening and something from the past is gonna crash into TF pretty fucking hard!