#OH MH GOD!!! PINKI!!!

[bunnypeew]

Wicked little thing - Alastor x Gn!reader NSFW

warnings: NSFW, MDNI pls thank you,, possessive Alastor, pet names, established relationship, doesn't really have a plot just smut dom!Alastor, sub!reader

okay so this is gonna be NSFW I am aware that Alastor is ace but Id like to say that it is a spectrum and a lot of people who are ace themselves also write NSFW of Al, but in case anything happens I'll be happy to take it down also the outfit is primarily like shorts/miniskirt and a shirt with a boob window

Today was a peaceful day, well at least as peaceful as it could get in hell anyway, Y/n was getting ready in their room in the hotel, they weren't sure of what to wear so they opted for a pretty open outfit since it was hot that day, not thinking one bit about what other people might think, the important thing is that they were comfortable. So they went down to the lobby to get some errands from Charlie for the day, she was hanging out at the bar with Husk and Vaggie talking about god knows what but as soon as she saw Y/n coming in her direction she perked up ready to say hi to them

''Oh hi Y/n!! Good morning!! You came down to get some errands I presume?,,

she said excitedly taking them by the hand to greet them even more, they couldn't help but smile at her excitement

''yeah ahah, hope I'm not interrupting anything tho,,

she shook her head smiling looking back at them with kind of a serious face even tho it was still filled with excitement

''Okay so I need you to do some errands outside in cannibal town, you know how the people helped us and everything id like for you to give this to Rosie! sadly I'm too busy to do it myself I hope Its not a bother,,

''not at all, don't even worry about Charlie I will go there right away,,

they say taking said thing from Charlie's hands and heading out of the Hotel. As they arrived at cannibal town it took them a while to remember where Rosie's emporium was but as soon as they found they sighed in relief. It's not like they didn't like cannibal town, hell Alastor was a cannibal so it wasn't that, it's just that being outside with a bunch of people around made them uneasy.

As they enter the emporium they hear Rosie talking to someone so they walk towards the voices to find Alastor is the one she was talking to, they weren't surprised at all, Rosie was one of Alastor's dear friend so it was usual for them to be talking. They put all their attention towards Rosie not even noticing how Alastor was gripping his staff a little too tight

''Hey Rosie! I came here to give you something Charlie wanted you to have! here!,,

they say giving them the thing from their hands, Rosie was really happy and thanked them profusely also asking them if they wanted a pinky finger or something, but they declined kindly. It was at this point that Alastor got up from his seat, planting a hand on Y/n waist a little roughly

''My dear Rosie, it was a pleasure speaking to you but it seems that me and this little thing have to be going! till next time!,,

and like that shadows engulfed them making them appear in the shared bedroom they had at the hotel. Alastor then with one hand rotates them around roughly, putting one hand under their chin and pulling their head up to look at him while the other one digs in their waist. Y/n was confused at this little aggression that Alastor was displaying, it was not like it at all

''Don't I always tell you to be careful my dear, mh?~ what is going on with this distasteful outfit you are wearing, how many people looked at you,,

Y/n looked him in the eyes understanding what was going on: He was jealous and nonetheless possessive they didn't say anything, wanting Alastor to get even more worked up over how they looked today. Seeing this Alastor pushes them onto the bed and places himself between their legs, one hand digging into their hip while the other one is around their pretty little neck

''not replying now are we, pet?~ Let's see how much you can hold in your words, shall we?..

with that, he roughly took off their pants and slipped out his cock then pushed it all in one thrust, this made Y/n whimper with their mouth closed not wanting to give up on being a brat just yet. Alastor was going rough, hard and fast savouring every thrust, still holding on to their neck, the other hand claws digging deeper in their hip with each thrust

''you belong to me, do you understand that pet?~,,

he says waiting for an answer from them, when he doesn't get one he slaps their ass making them moan out loud, he then gets his face closer to theirs to whisper in their ear

''I want an answer my love~,,

they moan putting both their hands around the hand that Alastor had around their necks, they decide they've been a brat enough, after all they didn't want the radio demon to get even more aggressive

''Yes Alastor,,

he then smirks and kisses them on the neck going back to his pace now a little slower and softer

''Good pet,,

he says now kissing them on the neck and savouring every moan that comes out of their mouth. He then starts going even faster when he starts reaching his climax, his hands both on their hips digging into their skin, and finishing in them with one last hard thrust. He then flops himself on their chest breathing heavily

''Sorry I made you mad Al~,,

they say now in a soft voice, putting their hands in Alastor's hair to stroke at his deer ears, this makes him hum softly

a/n: I LOVE ALASTOR WITH MY ENTIRE BEING!! and him being possessive wowie sign me in!!! hope you guys liked this and remember my requests are now open in case anyone wants to suggest a prompt!!

[words-etched-in-her-skin]

Reader: Jerks off Alcina.

Alcina: Honey! Where are you’re manners?

Reader: oh, sorry dear.

Reader: *Raises pinky finger*

Alcina: Now that is how you handle a ladies cock.

🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

Oh gods, anon.. I laughed way too hard at this 🤣🤣🤣 Tho, you would likely need two hands, no? 😏😏

Also.. this line is iconic:

"Now that is how you handle a lady's cock."

Alcina, on the first day of training her new pet: "Mh.. remember, pet.. pinkies up!"

😏🤣🤣

[godmademewithoutarms]

THIS ONE WORKS PERFECTLY I CAN'T YSHSHHSH

Take my phone away I deserve nothing but jail time

(It's even funnier knowing that they were fighting over Mimi/Gigi in this scene, implying that Bakugou and Midoriya are fighting over All Might. Which they totally would by the way)

[oldmanlenz]

hello mr. lenz! i just wanted to let you know that if you like guys in ~that~ way, we totally understand and accept you! plus, it helps that you’re very handsome ;) any boy would be lucky to have you!

"Hhh...hh-..mm..mh" The man stuttered on the other line of the telephone. He stared down at his breakfast...had to eat that cereal before it turned into mush.

He interrupted his own incoherent stutters by shoving a spoonfull of cereal into his mouth.

I god-damn know I'm handsome...thy handsomesth...y-..you piggy, piggy, piggy- you bitch pig. W-whore. I'll make you squeal- heheh..oh...hm, but looks do tend to betray expectations.....huh..I know I do-

"YOU IMBECILE! STOP IT! STOP IT! DIRTY! FILTHY! IT- ..'S NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS!"

I will find you. And then I am going to kill you.

"NONE OF IT!"

It's not easy..as cutting a toenail. You don't understand. YOU DON'T, BILLY! STUPID CHILD! YOU WILL STAY IN THE ATTIC TONIGHT, THAT'S YOUR PUNISHMENT, I'M SORRY.

"None...none of it..no. I'm..no, nah-no no no. Stop- stop it. Stop me. I'm sorry- huu....m-..maybe I should hang up- ackgh..sorry."

He didn't actually hang up, since- well, he did not bother to get up from his chair, but he did just casually drop the telephone down on the carpet with a soft thud, before proceeding to clench his fist tightly and hit himself in the head abuptly. Stupid, stupid thoughts. Trying to talk over nasty Billy again. He grumbled to himself, feeling his heart pound into his chest, it felt like it was at the back of his throat. He shoved down some more cereal in hopes that'd pass.

The Moaner being accepting and open about his actual sexual interests would be as hard to achieve as lifting a whole house with your pinky.

[krreader]

Monsta X scenario → soulmate!au.

pairing: monsta x x reader fandom: monsta x warnings: soulmate!au ; language genre: angst ;fluff ; crack

a/n: so, this is the person that I’m currently in seoul with, her name is nathalie and you all know her by me mentioning her name so many fucking times, SO HEY BABE I HOPE YOU LIKE IT even tho you probably won’t see this until we’re back, so SURPRISE BITCH ♥

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son hyunwoo

You were just enjoying this beautiful, sunny day, eating ice cream and not giving a damn about anything, when suddenly something yanked you back and your ice cream fell from the cone to the ground.

“Nooooooo,” you whined, more focused on the ice cream on the ground than the fact that something had formed on your pinky and kept pulling you back.

You were yanked back, couldn't do anything about it but let fate play out.

Until you were suddenly bumping into a.. very firm chest.

You looked into the eyes of a man who seemed to be as shocked as you were.

“Well.. hi there,” he grinned, “I'm.. Hyunwoo.. your soulmate, I guess.”

You cleared your voice, taking a step back as you watched the red string disappear from your pinkies that appeared once you and your soulmate were close to each other, “Well, Hyunwoo. I'm.. (Y/N) and you owe me ice cream.”

“Is this.. our first date then? As soulmates?”

“Mh, maybe.. depending on what kind of ice cream that you like. You can tell a lot about a person by what sort of ice cream they like, you know?”

Hyunwoo chuckled, “Alright then. Let's get some ice cream.”

shin hoseok

Everyone did this when they were young. When they were around nine or ten, they would gather in a circle, all of them having a random flower in their hand and play the good old soulmate game.

You rip out petal after petal, you start by saying: “Meet me, meet me not,” and if you're lucky enough to ever meet your soulmate in your life, you will know after this game, because it was always, absolutely always right.

However, you had never played this game, because you had seen the effect it had on people when they didn't get the result they wanted.

Most of your friends that were left with 'meet me not' were now unhappily married, single parents, drunks or hating their life, simply because they knew they would never meet their designated other.

However you were becoming older and you still hadn't met anyone close to someone you might call your soulmate and you were beginning to think that you never would.

And the only way to be sure about it was to play that godforsaken game.

“Here we go, then,” you sighed heavily, sitting on the rooftop of the building you were working in, ripping out one petal after the other, starting with meet me, like you were supposed to.

You were slow, with each fallen petal your heart began to speed up and the more petals piled on the floor, the more your hand began to tremble until there were only a handful left on the flower.

“Meet me.. meet me not.. meet me.. meet me not.. meet me..-” you started at the last petal, your heart sinking in your chest and your shoulders dropping as you sadly sad, “Meet me not.”

And as you were too busy staring at the last petal, Shin Hoseok followed a friend of his across the rooftop area with a small smile, “Thank you for having me today. It was a great meeting.”

“Are you sure you don't want to stay a little longer? This area is great..”

“Uhm.. no. I need to fly back home tomorrow morning, so I'd better get a good night's rest. But thank you for the offer.”

He would have said yes if picking the petals had ended with meet me.. he would have fallen in love tonight.. you would have.

But you two were robbed.

Robbed by fucking destiny.

lee minhyuk

Sometimes you hated the voice in your head.

Mostly when it, or you, decided to laugh.

Well, just sometimes, though. Because it sounded so.. horrible.

Like a dolphin.. but dying?

“Hey, are you okay?” your friend asked with worry on his face when you rubbed your temples.

“Yeah, sorry.. it's just.. the voice.. my soulmate.. his laugh can be very annoying..”

“What does it sound like?”

“It's like a dying dolphin? But.. he's kind of laughing.”

“Sounds like you, hyung,” Jooheon laughed, nudging Minhyuk's side when they had overheard your conversation with your friend at the coffee shop.

Jooheon went up ahead to order, but Minhyuk kept staring at you.

“Can you say fuck for me?”

“What?” you furrowed your eyebrows. Deeply. Was this man okay? Mentally?

“Please.. I know it sounds weird, but.. can you please do it?”

Your friend just shrugged, you were confused as hell, but you said: “Fuck?”

“Oh my god, it's you!”

Should you be worried that he realized you were his soulmate because you said a swear word? Probably.

“You're the guy with the dying dolphin laugh?”

“I don't laugh like that. Well.. only sometimes.”

“Yeah,” you laughed a little, a bit overwhelmed right now, “Only sometimes.”

yoo kihyun

You were both too busy being on your phones to notice that you were about to walk into each other.

You were texting a friend of yours, asking her for directions to the restaurant you wanted to meet at because you were a little lost, he was texting his members, asking them if anyone wanted anything from the grocery store he was walking towards.

And then BOOM.

“Fuck,” he said.

“Shit, I'm..-” but just as you wanted to finish your sentence, both of you started to feel pain in your shoulders.

You in your left one, him in his right shoulder.

He tried to tell himself it was because of practice, but then you pulled down your blouse a little and you saw..

“Kihyun? Is.. is that you?”

And he immediately pulled down his own shirt, only to find: “(Y/N).. is that yours?”

Both of you stared at each other for a good amount of time before you both let out a laugh.

“Well, fuck.. wouldn't have thought to run into my soulmate today. Literally.”

Kihyun chuckled now and nodded, “If I had known I would have dressed up and not worn Adidas sweatpants and a shirt with a stain.”

“It has its charm,” you grinned.

chae hyungwon

Hyungwon had always worn your name on his wrist proudly.

Other idols were trying to cover it up, but he didn't give a shit. He was one of the few who was trying to find you, no matter who you were.

And thankfully so.

Because that's how you found him.

“How do you know it's him? I'm sure there's a lot of Hyungwon's out there with your name on their wrists, doesn't mean it's you,” your mother tried to reason when you walked out of the house with a suitcase.

“I won't know until I try, mom.”

And you were willing to try.

So you booked the first flight to Seoul that was available, looked up the address for their company and then you walked inside, smiling at the girl at the reception and showing her your wrist.

“I'm here for Hyungwon? Chae Hyungwon?”

You thought she'd be happy. Or at least smile. But she looked unimpressed.

“You and the last five girls that came here with that tattoo.”

“There.. were others?”

“Yes. And they all turned out to be the wrong girl, so don't get your hopes up.”

But she brought you to a meeting room anyways.

And then you waited, anxiously, your mother's words echoing in your ears now that you knew there were others before you.

But when Hyungwon finally entered the room, you both knew that this was it.

He knew that you were the real (Y/N). He could feel it. You could feel it.

“Want me to get rid of her?” his manager whispered in his ear.

“No,” Hyungwon smiled, “I found her.”

lee jooheon

Some people would say that you were the luckiest girl alive, but you didn't see it that way.

You were fortunate enough to have Lee Jooheon as your soulmate.

Yes, Monsta X’s rapper Lee Jooheon.

And because everything that your soulmate ever recorded, be it voice messages, videos, audio in general.. it would all get sent to you.

So, as a Monsta X fan, you were lucky, because you got to hear what he was working on all the time. But as a soulmate, you weren't so lucky.

Because you knew that you couldn't reach him.

Well, sure, you could send voice messages and videos and he'd see it, but you and him both knew that this wouldn't work out because of who he was and who you were.

Your life's weren't compatible, even if you being soulmates said otherwise.

So each time your phone buzzed with another notification of him having recorded something new, you opened it with a sad smile, listening to the newest amazing thing that he had come up with.

And as Jooheon was writing his verses, he received a voice message that you must have sent to a friend.

“I wish we were different, you know? I just wish he'd be normal like me or I was talented like him so that I could be with him.. but it will never work out. And I'm just.. so proud of him.. of who he is and who he will become.. but at the same time I'd just wish he wasn't like this..”

Yeah.. so did he.

im changkyun

You had seen countless of movies where this shit happens.

Where the same day repeats over and over again. One time it was a horror movie and the guy kept reliving the day that he died, but kept dying differently. That one was bad.

But this was different, because this was what everyone went through once they were close to their soulmate.

Usually people were excited, really.

But you were fucking tired of it, because of all the places that you had to find your soulmate, it was the fucking airport.

“Listen to me,” you started, staring at the security guard angrily, “I've been trying to find my stupid soulmate for at least four weeks now, I know you don't remember me, but I remember you, George. I fucking remember you. So let me through, because this is the only part that I haven't looked for him and he has to be in there.”

“I'm sorry, Miss, but I can't let you through unless you have a boarding pass.”

“Fine.. you know what? I'll buy one. I'll buy one right now.”

You were tired of this bullshit, you just wanted to return to your normal life and not see these asshole airport people that were rude and hated their jobs.

So you bought the cheapest flight ticket they had to offer and then checked in, forcing yourself not to flip George off.

And as you were already through, you could see someone walk out of the Terminal out of the corner of your eye that was clearly in a hurry.

He saw you, then you saw him and you both immediately knew it.

“Ah fucking hell, where have you been, I was..-” but just as you wanted to turn back around, George shook his head.

“You can't go out this way.”

“George.. I am about to get really, really, really angry.”

“You need to go all the way around to get back out.”

Your soulmate better be worth all the trouble.

But when you looked back at him, Changkyun grinned at you sweetly and.. well.. he might be.

[kyuala]

monsta x in são paulo (19.07.19)

hey y'all this post is to tell my experience during my concert and hi touch event of the we are here world tour last friday night 🤩 so buckle up bc its a LONG ONE but i divided it into categories so u dont have to read everything if u dont want to!

the concert in general: ok so the concert was ABSOLUTELY AMAZING. there were about 7 songs i didn’t really listen to a lot or liked before the concert but even those were amazing and had me jumping and screaming and going crazy. they’re all SO much more beautiful irl which is like !!!!!!!!! HOW. and they’re so so SO talented all the choreos were incredible and their voices!!! sound even better irl. hyungwon asked minhyuk to sing a little bit of play it cool acapella for us and his voice 😭😭😭 so sweet it’s like honey. they brought hero back to life which was. an experience to see live tbh. i got to the venue line at 9:30am (10.5 hours before the concert) and i was about maybe 15? rows away from the stage (bc i had to go pee real quick as soon as they let us inside) but im like 158cm (5'2) tall so even tho i was standing on this little protection thingy to be taller i still couldn’t see them that well :( i dont think i saw any choreos in full bc of that but it was still amazing to see them do it irl. they all introduced themselves in portuguese during the first ment it was super 🤩 adorable! most of them only said “oi, eu sou ___” (“hi, i am ___”) but some of them had longer phrases prepared (maybe kh, jh and ck? i believe) which was so awesome to see!! during the second ment, hw talked about how some of their songs were composed by their own members and he did that to introduce “our maknae’s song” (aka mohae) and my soul left my body. after jealousy there was the first vcr which was like a youtuber au vcr and it was so!!!!! cute hyungwon, minhyuk and wonho giving us styling, skincare and exercising tips respectively, jooheon making a burrito he named "honey-to", kihyun and kyun teaching us how to make coffee and how to speak english resp and of course nunu's famous asmr mukbang 🥰🥰🥰 it was honestly superrrrr cute and funny i remember hyungwon trying to spell a word in english and just going "..........ne" after the first two letters and then kyun snickering skejdkksdk and jooheon making fun of ck for something and ck laughing the fakest laugh i ever seen in my life lmao and i also remember ki telling us to be careful about a lot of things but most of all our hearts bc he's gonna steal them 😷🤒🤕 but yes i loved it it was v cute and v funny and i loved how they were all interacting with each other even tho it was separate videos. after the unit stages, hyungwon revealed that joo had actually changed up his routine for a more samba-like beat specially for brazil 🥺 he confirmed that and we went INSANE and started showing them our own beat (a classic carioca funk "tchu tcha tcha tchu tchu tcha" that we fo with our mouths/words) and at first they were all like ??????? but then they LOVED IT and joined in on the fun. mh and kh were dancing to it the most and it was so funny. hyungwon or minhyuk then asked jooheon if he could incorporate our beat into his beatboxing and he said it was possible and then we were all just going TCHU TCHA TCHA TCHU TCHU TCHA while he was beatboxing along and he said it was difficult skdjkekddk around five or six different times they told us to take steps back and step a little bit away from each other so we wouldn't hurt ourselves or feel ill (hyungwon did it the most, he actually spotted a girl nearly fainting in the front rows and brought staff's attention to her and he only stopped talking about it/got more relaxed when they did something about it). during this same ment they talked about sn's and wh's different choice of clothing for their unit stage and said it was more daring and sexy and shownu said that kihyun actually chose those clothes for them lmao and ki said he chose them bc he knew us brazilian mbbs would love it and we were like wow. They Know we're whores love that. then someone was like "u chose that?? ur kinda conservative tho????" and ki said he's been "open-minded since birth" KDJSKFKDK rip conservative brothers but the way the lady translated it accidentally kinda made it sound that he was like. open for romantic/sexual advances and we were all like 👀👀👀 OKAY. oh also sometime during the concert one of them slipped and nearly fell doing something stupid (i think wonho or changkyun) skndkskdk the second vcr was the seven deadly sins themed and wow. the PRODUCTION. the absolute ARTISTRY of it all. wheres their oscar. it was honestly super cool but minhyuk was the only member that hadn't appeared yet and the only sin left was lust so we were all like 👁️😏 but then it said AGONY. ????????? it was kinda confusing but amazing nonetheless kyun wanted to shoot hyungwon but then he didnt bc the underlying message was that they all committed sins and blamed themselves but managed to find forgiveness by being together aw <3 a random moment that i dont remember when it happened was when kyun was speaking portuguese to us and he was trying to say "vocês querem curtir?" (which is something like "do you want to have fun?") but he messed it up a bit and accidentally said "vocês querem cu...?" which means "do you want asshole?" and we were all like BOY DKEJDKEJDIDKFKS i dont think he knows what it actually means but he corrected himself real quick and moved on to the next song 💀 for the second to last ment they tried to convince us the concert was ending (lmao) and there was only one song left, so we were all shouting "não" ("no") and they were like "we cant go??????" and we were like "no!!!!!" and they were like :/ oh well guess we gotta stay kdnskdjs they had the brazilian flag up there for some time but they also somehow got an lgbt pride flag there too for the pics??? before the ending ment kihyun said that they all have strengths, as i recall kyun's was writing cool songs/lyrics, shownu's was being fun, i think minhyuk's was having a voice like honey? and i dont recall the rest but when he got to hyungwon he just said "being very tall" and we were all like LMAO SAY SOMETHING ELSE ABOUT HIM!!!! and then he said an actual compliment lol for the actual last ment they each said goodbye to us, i specifically remember wonho telling us that the energy we had and him performing on stage for us reminded him of why he was a singer and why he had to be on stage 🥺🥺🥺 and shownu agreed 🥺 kyun(?) said even though he's going back to korea he's gonna feel incomplete bc he's leaving brazil, ki said he liked us so much he could have another 6 concerts here bc our energy would be enough to keep him going and then said something really greasy that i dont remember but obviously loved at the moment. and then they said they're coming back next year 🤩 and they told us to take care of ourselves and wait for them and come back next year (in a bigger venue, they said!) and they all had their pinky fingers up and were saying "promete" ("promise", but as in the imperative verb) to us 😭😭😭

the songs: i was going to put my videos in this post but there’s a video limit so i’m gonna post them separately later but the first song was shoot out and unfortunately i didn’t get to film any of it because i was in SHOCK that they were REAL PEOPLE and RIGHT THERE u know dkjskdkd then was hero and it was INSANE to see it live??? seeing them do the “i can be your hero i can be your man” move IN REAL LIFE????? not to be a kihyun stan but i had kihyun tunnel vision during the entirety of the song lmfao then it was trespass and the energy was INSANE everybody was going absolutely crazy to it esp during the chorus and jooheon’s “excuse my charisma"s!!! after the ment they performed party time and we had this fan project and the people in my area had yellow cellophane on their phone lights and the people in the back had green ones (brazilian colors) and we had them on during the entirety of party time bc they mention brazil in the song and it was just so 🥰🥰🥰 such a vibe! one of the only songs i actually danced to lol party time was next and also a ~vibe~ we all danced a lot to it and after it was over, during the ment, hw asked mh to sing a little of it for us and he was sooo happy to see us sing along and sing the entire chorus even after he had stopped! it was super cute to see him smile so proudly like that. and then it was the loml, my fave mx song, a booty call anthem that somehow moves my heart, miss mohae and as soon as i heard the first few beats i SCREAMED and i was the only one doing that before everybody else realized the song had already started but i didnt even have time to be embarrassed bc i was literally tearing up. honestly hearing it live was one of the best moments of my life bc i have this huge emotional attachment to the song and it was just all super special, i was screaming the lyrics at the top of my lungs and dancing and jumping and yelling. seeing kyun’s rap live was amazing and you could actually SEE how proud he was seeing so many people sing a song HE composed you know? he let us rap most of his part bc he was just in awe and wanted to see us sing it back to him. and hyungwon tried to rap jooheon’s part but he got it all messed up halfway through it was SO CUTE and jooheon had an arm around him and was BEAMING WITH LOVE the entire time 😍😍😍 everyone was fonding HARD at him. and the crowd was SO loud during the "don’t kill my vibe, i be on your way, i be, i be on your way” part it was actually deafening. i only recorded one of the choruses bc i wanted to enjoy the rest of the song but here it is! the next song was one of the other lomls, miss jealousy!!! it was absolutely STUNNING!! and yes the crowd went crazy when wonho mentioned shownu and yes that hyungwon+changkyun part IS as overwhelming to experience irl as it looks. after the youtuber vcr came the unit stages and oh. my. god  mh, hw and kh came out first and it was just. so sexy and elegant. and the vocals? 10/10 LOVED that men in suit shit. then was jooheon's and changkyun's stage and HOLY. FUCKIN. SHIT. absolutely my favorite performance of the night it was EVERYTHING to me. the energy was super fuckin cool and we were all jumping around and screaming while they rapped in sexy robes over a cool ass beat it was awesome. in the middle of the performance joo tried to flip a water bottle (???) and he actually failed lol but we were so hype we didnt even notice/care we just hyped him TF up. he later apologized for it during the next ment and the real time translator lady said "desculpa" ("sorry") and changkyun said "yeah, desgupa" immediately after 🥺 then jooheon had a drum solo which ??????? i had zero fucking idea about i was just kinda standing there in shock while he absolutely murdered that drum set right in front of our eyes. AND THEN ck came back and started to rap along to his drumming and i know im saying this a lot but it was SEXY okay i have no other words they were both in muscle tees just out there being their sexiest selves UGH. and AS IF THAT WASN'T ENOUGH then came wonho and shownu's stage and uhhhhhhh wow. SEXY AS WELL but also kinda angsty? idk but i loved it they absolutely killed it with the dance and they were wearing see through shirts and the crowd went insane. after that there were the songs i didn't listen to a lot or liked before the concert but they were all still amazing to me!! honestly, i do love u, white sugar and no reason were all SUPER cute!! AND THEN. miss myself came on and oh my god. it was a spiritual experience to see it live. absolutely amazing and breathtaking even though it's so simple. like it's just so elegant and moving. i had to close my eyes a couple times to feel the moment and it was an amazing sensation. also!! a few girls gave us free banners to lift after kihyun's high note and they said 주변을 돌아봐 내겐 다 너니까 꿈이 아냐 (shownu's line, "turn and look around, because you're everything to me this isn't a dream") and it was SO emotional to see a sea of these red banners showing them our love!! 

it was amazing AND THEN. dramarama oh my god it was so freakinggggg cool! to see the performance live, jooheon milly rocking right in front of my eyes... amazing. everyone went insane during rapline's first part. one of my fave performances for sure!! next song after the ment was oh my and IT WAS AMAZING!! the choreo was just stunning and the energy!! everyone was just jumping around and screaming the lyrics, esp kihyun's line before the last chorus!! and im absolutely obsessed with the choreo, honestly. then special and fallin' were SO COOL, just like the other upbeat songs, the energy was amazing, everyone was jumping around and screaming the lyrics. fallin' was especially hype as hell and minhyuk did this funny low voice dkjskdkd then it was alligator and listen. i hated it when it came out but when they performed it i had never loved a song so much in my life. it was CLEAR it was one of the performances they were working the hardest on and their talents were really shining through 😔 i had ki and shownu tunnel vision unfortunately i missed kyun's iconic hip thrusts sksjdks but theres always next year i guess! so they had just convinced us it was their last song but after a few mins hyungwon came back out and we met H.One hehe i didnt think i would like it bc i thought it would be mostly edm and i dont really like edm but it was just some really good remixes?? he played taki taki and mi gente and everybody went fuckin insane like i remember my knee hurting super bad during this part and he was just. chilling on the stage sjejdjsk BUT THEN CAME THE TRUE GO CRAZY AAHHHH GO STUPID MOMENT OF THE CONCERT: RODEO. boy was it a fuckin ride. truly the time to fuckin wild out at an mx concert. i think it was during this song that minhyuk (?) put a brazilian flag around jooheon's shoulders so we were even more hype!! last song was by my side and it was super calm and bittersweet and like a "goodbye, ily" song :( we had these paper hearts someone gave us and we kept them up for them during the entire song, it was so lovely

the hi touch: ok so the concert ended and we waited around 50 mins for the ht event to start and we were all in a single line that went behind a curtain and THEY WERE ALREADY BEHIND THE CURTAIN SO THERE WAS NO WAY TO PREPARE FOR IT KDJDJDJD they were all standing behind a table and on the other side of the table was some of their staff on a single line to keep people from taking pictures of them and we had to go through the line of staff and the table to see them/touch their hands. it was SUPER rushed i dont think i spent 3 seconds there. my brain absolutely froze bc it was my first time at a hi touch (or first time meeting a celebrity, ever) and it was like 7 people i love and admire all at once so i couldn't manage to say more than "hi" to them and just look at them in shock and i was going faster as they (staff) told me to go faster (stupid) but they were also telling us to use only one hand and not touch their hand with both of ours but fuck that lol so in general they are all real people which is insane??? but also they ARE all SO much more beautiful in real life. like they literally glow. my friends told me they would seem taller and skinnier than i thought but i honestly didnt have the time or the brains to think about that or notice any of that. hyungwon IS tall as fuck though

kihyun: just my luck, my first bias was the first one of the line. as i walked behind the curtain there was a taller girl in front of me in line so i couldn't see much so i had like no time to process anything ksjskdks as soon as i saw it was him i went "oh my god, hi" (yes in english bc i know he understands basic english and doesn't speak portuguese lol) and he was SO sweet like it was literally half a second but his face softened and he said "hiiii" back and gave me the sweetest smile :( hes an angel on earth and i can prove it ok. hi touch aside, he's VERY confident onstage and also VERY greasy lmao he was shooting greasy stuff at us left and right and we ATE IT ALL UP. but he's also incredibly sweet and funny but like we been knew. every time he said something greasy he would expectantly wait for the lady to finish translating so he could see our reaction and afterwards he ALWAYS had that smile where he gets those dimples below his eyes :( he's one of the most talkative members!

shownu: mistre hyunwoo was second in the line and i was still in shock from seeing the loml so all i said was "hi" and he honestly seemed confused that i, a brazilian, was trying to speak english to him, a korean DJJSKDKD but he said hi very quick and had this small smile. he's taller than he seems?? i think? at least onstage and he's also very bashful no matter what he's saying lol unless it's serious stuff like him agreeing with wonho during the ending ment

wonho: ok so i dont remember the order exactly after the first two bc i started to like. have brain death but i THINK it was wonho but i saw him VERY quickly. idk if it's bc i saw him right after shownu or if he was bending forward or what but he's actually shorter than i thought he was. he had the HUGEST smile on his face and was super excited to say hi back to my dumbstruck face lol he's also?? surprisingly commanding?? like he's not imposing or anything bc he's super gentle but he told us to be quiet while he was speaking (.......lol) bc we were screaming and when he started to speak again this group of girls continued screaming and he looked at them DIRECTLY, FROM THE STAGE, IN THE MIDDLE OF THE MENT, POINTED AT THEM and deadass went "i have already told you to be quiet twice" and everyone was like??? in shock bc we didn't know if he was serious so we were just like 😳😳😮😮 it was very bizarre honestly a surreal moment to see wonho talk like that to any monbebe ever (for the record im not saying he was rude or anything, it was just very surprising to see that happen). i clearly remember these 3 older ladies referring to him as "primo" ("cousin") for some reason during the entire concert and idk why but that's so funny to me? it's kinda stuck in my mind now im gonna start calling him primo. he ripped his shirt off a total of two (2) different times, maybe three, one of them unprompted and unrequested, during a slow song. love that for him

hyungwon: oh boy. here we go. when my friends told me he was the most different one irl and that he was incredibly prettier i was like ok and then i saw him on the stage and was like yeah alright he's a little different but nothing too exceptional but holy. crap. he was never my type but when i saw him face to face i think my mind literally blacked out. like my body was still functioning but my mind just completely shut down when i saw him smiling at me and saying hi. like that didn't happen with kihyun, one of my ULTIMATE BIASES, but it happened when i saw HIM, that's how beautiful he is. im not using any of these words lightly, but he's beautiful, pretty, stunning, overwhelmingly handsome, an angel. he's just indescribable. his hair is so long and pretty and his face is just so soft and beautiful and he has the prettiest looking lips. has heavy vampire boyfriend vibes also. one of the quietest members, i barely have any pics of him bc he was rarely ever on the big screen bc he didnt say much. tall as hell too

minhyuk: listen i am SO SAD about this i was so overwhelmed by hyungwon's face my mind completely blanked when i got to minnie and i have no idea what i did, i don't even know if i said anything or if i just stared at him dumbfounded sjejjdjsd i have no recollection of his face at ALL like my mind was not able to process anything after hyungwon BUT i know he is pretty as hell (wbk) and he's also even sexier on stage!! like his presence and his moves are just very sensual and he is one of the most talkative ones too! we already know that but he is SUPER funny he never missed an opportunity to do something completely bizarre i just love that funky lil cowboy HE HAD A COWBOY HAT OVER HIS CAP DURING RODEO AND HE ALSO WORE THE FUNNIEST BRAZILIAN FLAG SUNGLASSES DURING HIS ENDING MENT HERE HE IS

jooheon: yall. he is SO. so so so SOOOO much prettier irl like he doesn't LOOK any different like hyungwon does but he's just even more beautiful up close and he also looks taller than i pictured? his whole face was just lit up seeing us and he was super excited to be saying hi to me it was so sweet :( like i am actually even more in love with him now after experiencing that i even dreamed about him that night lmao and oh god I cant even describe how cute his eyesmile + dimple combo is irl 😔😔😔 he talked a lot too and he literally speaks in POUT whenever he said something most of the time it sounded like he was whining it was so cute jdjdjfjd but when he's performing he's a BEAST his stage presence is un-fucking-paralleled he definitely has the strongest one in the group. his mere being there just commands you to pay attention to him in awe it's just very inexplicable. he's just super cute and nice and an angel 

changkyun: oh god I didn't wanna write about my experience with him during the hi touch jsjsjdjs but im gonna try to keep this as neutral as possible. so after i got to jooheon he was the last in line (which was my ideal situation, my two biases - ki and him - in opposite ends so even if i did freeze when i saw one id have time to get over it before the other one) and when i got to him he didn't look at my face, he was looking at the beginning of the line (???) for some reason, so even though i grabbed his hand and said hi i dont remember if he even said it back and i didn't get to look him in the eyes like all the others, which made me really angry as soon as i walked out and then really upset bc i spent 110 reais to see them and one of my two faves didn't look at me when i was right in front of him, but u know it is what it is. i dont think he did it on purpose or that he's an asshole or anything like that, it's just something that happened and upset me. but aside from that, the thing that stuck with me the most out of the entire concert: HE IS INCREDIBLY!!! SEXIER IN REAL LIFE like all my friends who saw mx say hyungwon is the most different but for me it was kyun. he's SO MUCH MORE HANDSOME than in the internet, pictures really do not do him justice. and he has this really hot careless, cool guy attitude in general, like when they/we were hyping him up bc of mohae he was like 🤙🏼 he stared at the floor a lot while the others were talking and like. he knows he's hot thats VERY clear lmao. he's surprisingly talkative. he's very effortless with his moves when he's dancing and that's not saying he doesn't put in effort he just makes it seem so. easy and nicely flowing idk. he was wearing a cap during the hi touch and holy fucking hell he has the nicest profile ive ever seen. thats all

sidenote: PLEASE be careful when camping days before a concert or even hours. a LOT of the people who had spent too much time in line to be closer to the stage had to leave the concert halfway through bc they were literally about to pass out after having spent so much time with poor sleep and unhealthy eating/drinking. enjoy your concert but also take care of yourselves!!

[theliterarywolf]

... You may have made me want to get into Monster High a little. I was never a doll kinda person, but some of the MH designs are really appealing. Which are your favourites?

*shoves the reboot off of a cliff* 

Oh, anon! Oh anon! You have given me a gift! Oh, I could talk about -- G1 -- Monster High and the character designs for hours! 

And I personally didn’t even actively collect the dolls. The only ‘High’ (Monster High and the ill-fated fantasy spin-off Ever After High) dolls that I own are an ‘Art Class’ Abbey Bominable and the ComicCon Collector’s Edition Cerise Wolf. 

But my overall favorite designs from Monster High are as follows:

Abbey Bominable, the daughter of the Abominable Snowman

Clawdia Wolf, a werewolf writer (doesn’t take two guesses to figure out why I loved this character despite the movie she appeared in being AWFUL...)

I also loved what they did with her since, being a writer, she moved to the series’ equivalent of England (Londoom) to study. So she was literally an American Werewolf in London.

Avea Trotter, one of the ‘Hybrid Monsters’ introduced during the Freaky Fusion movie/campaign. She’s the daughter of a centaur and a harpy.

Honey Swamp. God, her hair is to DIE for. She’s the daughter of a swamp monster from Boo Orleans. 

... Yeah, when it comes to the locations in the Monster High franchise, they’re all puns.

Casta Fierce. This design, that name! 

Kiyomi Haunterly, the daughter of the Noppera-Bo, or ‘faceless ghosts’, of Japanese mythology.

Isi Dawndancer, an exchange student introduced during the Monster Exchange program. She’s a deer-spirit from... *sigh* Boo Hexico...

Operetta! G1 Operetta was a fucking QUEEN in regards to her design and I will not hear otherwise! She’s the daughter of the Phantom of the Opera who’s going through a bit of a Rockabilly counterculture phase.

Marisol Coxi, another Monster Exchange foreign-exchange student. She’s the daughter of the Maricoxi, a sort of South American (’South Scaremerica’ in MH canon) version of Bigfoot from Monster Picchu (PUNS!!). There was a bit of a kerfluffle with this character’s design when her doll launched because, I shit you not, people didn’t like how big her feet were. 

Despite the fact that her whole character motif is being proud of her extravagant height, hair, and feet as well as the fact that SHE’S LITERALLY A SOUTH AMERICAN BIGFOOT!

Neightan Rot, another hybrid monster. He’s the son of a zombie and a unicorn and he is gay, Mattel, you are not going to lie to me and tell me this boy wasn’t gay, MATTEL!!!

Vandalla Doubloons, who I believe was the daughter of the Flying Dutchman.

River Styxx (GET IT?!), the daughter of the Grim Reaper who was one of the Monster High franchise’s 3 or so answers to characters like MLP: FiM’s Pinkie Pie in regards to her personality. 

In the movie she appeared in, Haunted, she had even fitted her father’s spectral boat with party cannons.

Gooliope Jellington, a 15-foot slimegirl created in a lab to be a circus performer. Introduced during the circus-themed Freak du Chic campaign. Interesting tidbit about her (dollwise): her doll, to keep the theming of her character, was 2-3 times as tall as any of the other Monster High ghoul characters.

Honestly, though, if you have Netflix the best way to experience Monster High is through the movies. I would say through the G1 webisodes as well, but the official Monster High YouTube channel is so chock-full of spam reuploads of crappy stuff from the remake that I wouldn’t send anyone to sift through that mess. 

If anyone is interested, I can post a guide of what movies are worth watching in response to another ask. This post got pretty long -- Oh GOD, I JUST REMEMBERED THAT ALL OF THESE EPIC DESIGNS GOT RETCONNED INTO THE ABYSS THANKS TO THE SHITTY FUCKING REBOOT..!!!

[smashgirltommo]

number 5? 💓

there you go sweetie, sorry for making you wait ;-)

Ashton

As i opened the front door of my house, all i heard were screams coming from the kitchen. I made my way to the kitchen only to find my husband trying to give some vegetables to Max, our 3 year old son who, of course, was running around the room from Luke.

I caught my son in my arms as he ran past me and lifted him up.

“Daddy!” he said, smiling big

“Hey pumpkin” i said, kissing his cheek “what’s going on here?”

“Daddy is trying to make me eat poison!” he whispered to me so Luke couldn’t hear

“Poison! Oh my god!” i looked at Luke and shook my head “bad daddy”

Luke rolled his eyes at me and i walked towards him to give him a kiss which was quite hard because of the little blonde terror that was trying to escape from my arms, hoping to stay away from his plate full of untouched vegetables.

“I’ve been trying for half an hour” Luke said “please make him eat”

I smiled at him before looking at Max “you little man are going to eat what’s in that plate of yours”

“But it’s poison!”

“It is not poison, it’s food, and you’re going to eat it. Daddy prepared it all for you and you’re being mean to him. So now you eat and then you apologize to daddy”

“Can i get ice cream after?”

“Of course baby but only if you finish your plate”

Max nodded and i put him down so he could sit down on his chair and eat his potatoes and carrots. He finished them all without grimacing then he drank up his glass of water and put his plate in the dishwasher. But then he went to Luke and hugged his thigh.

“ ‘m sorry daddy” he said with a sad face

Luke looked down at him in awe. “It’s okay baby, try not to make it a habit”

“Pinky promise” he said before lifting up his pinky finger and Luke laced his with it.

“I love you, you know that” Luke said to our son

He smiled “i love you too daddy” then he turned to me “i love you daddy”

“Aw i love you too baby”

Then Max ran into my arms as i lifted him up and he hugged my neck “can i get ice cream now?”

Luke an i both laughed before Luke said yes and took it out of the freezer.  

Later on, it was bedtime for Max and as usual, he wants Luke to read him his bedtime story. Then i was called for the good night kiss.

“Good night daddy!” Max said to me, making grabby hands for me to hug him

I hugged him before kissing his cheek “good night Maxie, sleep tight, don’t let the bedbugs bite”

“Can you check under my bed?”

“Sure baby” i said, lifting his covers up so i could see under his bed. I looked closer before screaming “oh my god it’s eating my arm! It’s eating my arm!”

And Max screamed too but i got back up and said “i’m kidding it only eats kids”

“What’s going on ?” Luke came running in our son’s room

“Just the monster joke” i said

“Oh come on Ashton you know it scares him! There’s nothing under your bed baby, daddy’s just messing with you”

“Bad daddy” Max said to me “can you check under my bed? Just to make sure” he asked Luke

“Of course love” Luke said before looking under the bed “see, there’s nothing here, you’re safe”

“Thank you daddy”

Then Luke kissed Max’s forehead before saying “sweet dreams Maxie” and got out of the room.

“ sorry pumpkin, you know i’m just messing with you. Did you get scared?”

My son nodded

“I won’t do it again i promise”

“You said that last time…”

“Sweet dreams Maxie” i said, hugging him “you know i love you”

He smiled and took his teddy bear in his arms and put his thumb in his mouth.

“Good night daddy” he said despite his thumb

I turned off the lights before heading out of his room.

I joined Luke in our bed where he was watching tv after i took my clothes off and put on basketball shorts.

“Dickhead” he said “you know he’s scared when you do that!”

“I know babe, but i don’t know it’s funny”

“It is yes, but trying to calm him down after isn’t”

“Aw come here i want my night cuddles”

Luke shook his head, smiling, before rolling over and place his head on my chest as i wrapped my arms around him. I gently stroked his arm until he fell asleep before i turned the tv off and fell asleep too.

But around three am, our door opened and we heard tiny sobs.

“Mh what’s the matter pumpkin?” i asked sleepily

“Scary dream…”

“You scared him so fix it” Luke whispered to me before rolling over to his side of the bed

“Come here baby boy” i said and he walked up to me, his teddy bear in his arms and his thumb in his mouth.

I lifted him and placed him under the covers next to me as i scooted closer to my husband.

“What did you dream of?” i asked

“There… there was a giant bee and it wanted to sting me so i ran but it was getting closer and closer and it was mean”

Max is allergic to bees stings, plus who wouldn’t be afraid of a giant bee?

“That’s a shame you woke up, did you know i was about to come with some repulsive spray and fire torch and kill the bee?”

“Really?”

“Yeah! I wouldn’t let it get anywhere near you don’t worry. Though giant bees don’t exist pumpkin, but i wouldn’t let any sort of bee get near you”

“You will kill them?”

“Of course, it’s my duty to protect you and make sure nothing ever hurts you”

“Thank you daddy, can i sleep with you? So i’ll be protected”

“Of course baby, come here”

I scooped my son in my arms and laid back down before we both fell asleep, and without me knowing, Luke was smiling with his eyes closed on his side of the bed.

A few days later, i was dropping Max at daycare. But he wouldn’t go. I succeeded getting him out of the car but he wouldn’t let go of my leg.

“What’s the matter pumpkin?”

“I don’t want to go”

“Why? You love daycare”

“We are making mother’s day presents and i don’t have a mom”

I took his little hands in my big ones and knelt down in front of him.

“Is that why you don’t want to go?”

He nodded “the lady asked each of us the name of our mom and i said i didn’t know and everyone laughed at me and now we’re making presents…”

“You know what? You’ll give the mother’s day present to daddy and the father’s day one to me, okay? Make something pretty for him”

“Okay… but i am the only one with two daddies”

“Are you happy with two daddies?”

“Yes, i love you and daddy”

“Then you don’t need a mom. Not having a mom doesn’t make you different from them, they’re just jealous because daddy and i are better than their mom and dad. Show them how happy you are without a mom, i don’t ever want you to feel down because of that. Daddy and i both love you so much and we make sure you have everything you need, and you don’t need a mom because you have us”  

“Thank you daddy i love you” he said, hugging me

I hugged him back and said “i love you too Max, i love you so much”

He smiled and i gave him his little TMNT backpack.

“Now go make daddy a pretty little present, okay? I’m sure he’ll love it”

“Okay daddy, see you tonight!” he walked through the doors and waved at me as i waved too and when i saw that he was joining some other kids, i went back to my car and got to work.

And Luke had a nice little frame with flowers on it and a photo of us three inside, and Max was very proud of it, and Luke loved it.

[schrodingers-rufus]

hmm... for the horror/scifi au thing... i think i'd like to see you try F or W for mh - maybe Fjam or W brian or alex? (honestly tho that whole post is a treasure trove of fun for both fanfic and exploring ocs)

F - Clairvoyant predicting disaster AU

This fill ended up a lot longer than I expected. (Darn you, Tim and Jay, for being so fun to write.) I’m also thinking about giving W a try, because I have Ideas. *steeples fingers*

Jay tossed a bag of peanuts his way, and Tim snatched it out of the air. Muttering a quiet “thanks”, he tore it open, a few stray peanuts falling into his lap. It wasn’t much, but it was protein, and god knew he and Jay needed it. Especially Jay.

He felt tension creeping up the back of his scalp, and he reached back to knead at it. Must’ve had his neck at an odd angle in the car, or maybe the AC had been on and he hadn’t noticed. The tension spread, shooting down his shoulders and back, and recognition set in with a jolt.

He hadn’t had one of these in months, and he was starting to think his medication had blocked them out just like it did the seizures. He honestly wouldn’t have minded–and just as he thought it, he felt a cluster of muscles running up his left side spasm and then go loose, sending him stumbling sideways out of his chair. He managed to call out for Jay just as he hit the carpet, his voice cracking on impact.

Jay was at his side in an instant, though whether it was from concern or just curiosity, Tim wasn’t sure.

“You okay?” Jay leaned over him, peering down. “You need your, uh–?” He twitched a lanky arm out to point to the pill bottle, still sitting on the desk.

“No–no,” Tim wheezed, his vision growing hazy. “It’s one of the other, the–”

“Oh!” Tim couldn’t make out his expression through the fog, but it sounded like he’d caught on. There was some shuffling beside him, and then Jay’s voice came again, much closer. “So we just wait it out, see what you see?” Tim snorted. “Basically.”

And then his head was spinning, there were sparks flashing in front of his eyes, and he had to stumble to catch his balance–wasn’t he just on the floor?

There was a knock at the door. He didn’t approach, not yet.

He called out as softly as he could manage while still being heard, asking who it was.

“It’s me.” It took a few seconds for the voice to register as Jay’s. There was something off about it, an unfamiliar tension that raised goosebumps on the back of Tim’s neck. “Come on, open up.”

Tim reached forward, gingerly unlatching the lock before stepping back and away. He tried to keep his voice even. “It’s open.”

From his hiding place around the corner, Tim could hear Jay open the door hard, slamming it against the wall. There was some quiet shuffling, indecisive, and just as Tim was about to spring forward, keep him from trying whatever he was planning to do, a voice cut through the silence.

“Where are you, Tim?” It was a dull drawl, yet it still had a mocking sing-song quality to it, and it was unsettlingly familiar. “Stop playing games and come out.”

That was Jay’s voice, Tim realized with uncanny conviction, but those weren’t his words.

Tim heard the wet slosh of something on the kitchen floor as he inched closer. “This is what you wanted, right? Me and you?”

Jay paused before speaking again. “Here I am.”

Tim heard an all-too-familiar click and something small clattering to the floor.

He rounded the corner just in time to watch his kitchen catch fire.

Jay stood at the center of it, flames reflecting off his eyes–Tim had always thought they made him look like a deer caught in the headlights–as he stared directly forward, as if he was daring Tim to try to stop him. To try to save him.

The flames licked the edges of his jacket, the edges of his jeans, but Jay didn’t pay them any mind.

Then, all at once, he jerked back, doubled over, clutching his side. Tim could see red seeping out from between his fingers.

Instinctually, Tim stepped forward, reaching for him, but Jay drew back further into the flames.

Still doubled over, a hand across his stomach, Jay tilted his head up and locked eyes with Tim. Tense and shaking, those familiar wide-set eyes shining, he rasped, “This is your fault.”

—

Tim jolted back to consciousness, nearly colliding with Jay–oh god, Jay–as he tried to sit up. He clenched his hands into fists to try to stop the shaking. It didn’t work.

“So?” Jay asked expectantly, something like a smile playing at the corners of his mouth. “What was it?”

Tim took a moment to catch his breath, but thinking about breathing just seemed to make it worse; he could feel his heart beating faster, his throat constricting–

“Shh, shh…” Tim could see Jay backing away, though his words sounded like an attempt at comfort. “It’s alright, you’re…back from wherever…you’ve been, I guess.”

Breathe in…2, 3, 4…out…2, 3, 4…

Tim covered his face in his hands. When he spoke, he could hear it was muffled. “I’m back.” “You’re back,” Jay repeated hesitantly.

“Yeah.”  In, 2, 3, 4, out, 2, 3, 4. “That was…something.”

“What was it?” Jay sounded impatient, and while Tim couldn’t bring himself to laugh if he tried, some distant part of him still found it funny. Jay continued, pacing. “I mean, what did you see?”

Tim brought his hands away from his face and tried to dig them into his pockets. Keys, wallet…where’s the–? There was no tape. There shouldn’t have been–it was still at his house, but the fact that he expected to find it in his pocket unsettled him. There was something he was missing.

“I think I–” Tim spoke carefully. “I think I need some time to think about it…before I can really explain it.”

Something dangerous flashed across Jay’s eyes, but before Tim could even fully register it, it was replaced by Jay’s usual jittery curiosity. “Nothing? I mean, if you need time, whatever, but you’re…planning to say it eventually, right?”  

“Yeah.” Tim sighed, leaned back against the leg of the hotel bed. “Eventually.”

Jay stared down at him. “What, like–?” “Soon,” Tim cut him off. “Soon, for sure. Maybe after we’re done at the house.”

Jay eyed him suspiciously before sitting down on the bed, head in his hands. “Assuming we’re alive at the end of it.” “Assuming that, yeah.”

“You swear.”

“Yes, Jay.” Tim groaned. “Pinky swear. Cross my heart and hope to die. I just…need time, okay?”

Jay unwrapped a stick of beef jerky, tearing into it with a bit more gusto than Tim was comfortable with. “We’re getting on the road tonight.”

“If you want–” “Yes.”

Tim didn’t argue.

Weeks later, he wondered if he should have.