#OC: Nimileth

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“You are a true daughter of Sithis. Everything you touch dies."

His Silencer just killed the entirety of the Black Hand and he doesn't know whether to be mad or 🥵 about it

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lghajrkghlkahg LMAO IT'S SO PERFECT

I used to be a human then i was godlike and perfect for a while and then I got tired and now im an beast. you know how it is

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The Illusionist: To New Beginnings and Old Conclusions by SeydaNeen / @dirty-bosmer

fandom || Oblivion rating || T categories || f/m, gen pairings || Raminus Polus/f!OC genre || coming of age, adventure, romance characters of note || Raminus Polus, Fathis Aren, The Gray Fox, Methredhel status || 18/18, 107k

Following the death of the Emperor, Nimileth escapes prison and with it, the shadows darkening her past. But she's a skilled illusionist, a thief, a swindler, and old habits it would seem are hard to kick.

"I needed this during quarantine, and there's a part 2 (!!!)" -- Goo

"GOOD LORD THIS HURTED ME IN THE MEOW MEOW ; A;" -- memai

"Nim is immediately a compelling character right off the bat. She wants to do good, to be good, but she struggles with anger and darker impulses, and this being the prologue makes me immediately want to read on and see how she's faring in the future." -- FourCatProductions

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@skyrim-forever the dumb Lucien Lachance/Silencer modern AU from the ask

Inspired by these:

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Wip Wednesday

tagged by @skyrim-forever and by @theoneandonlysemla @thequeenofthewinter @lady-iizsil last week. Thank you <3 As always I love seeing what everyone's working on :) posting before work and will catch up on lunch break heheh

Tagging: @justafoxhound @elavoria @ladytanithia @unironicallytes @gilgamish @tallmatcha @sheirukitriesfandom @lucien-lachance @stormbeyondreality @bostoniangirl21

Chipping away at chapter 2 of post-applewatch Lucien/Nim smutchaos. He's slowly discovering that his girlfriend is the Daedric Prince of Madness and he's uh... not happy about it :)

Mountain air and forest musk. Sharp sting of pine on wind-chafed skin. Past the battlements of Fort Farragut, the sunlight grasps at all it can touch, scours the world until it’s clean, gilded and glimmering. Lucien has seen enough of Tamriel to know that this is as close to paradise as he’ll ever be again, so he breathes it deep, permitting himself only a moment of idle fantasy, where alone, he dreams of the life that he’s since left behind. One with the security afforded by the familiar title of Speaker, one where he still knew with certainty what Sithis wanted of him. One where he didn’t question the power he’d rightfully earned. The life before he met her.  But now? Now as Listener, bearing the highest honor that can be bestowed, he’s become frayed, unfinished, a stranger to himself. Now when the Brotherhood needs him the most, doubt rots him at the root, hollows him out in the xylem. And it sickens him, revolts him, and he knows this isn’t him, knows in his bones that this weakness comes from powers beyond comprehension. Strange magic she's infected him with— she's changed. She changes him, for he has never been this man, and it’s her fault. Hers. The sin no prayer will deliver. The poison he’d have to let himself bloodless to relieve. Him and his Silencer who's no longer his Silencer, growing together like lichen, alike in that desire makes them even more frightening. How they want so completely. How their love consumes all. Even here, hundreds of miles from their home in Bravil, he can’t escape it. Trapped in the whirl of it, he watches himself orbit about her as if hovering a foot above his head. Lucien's fists strain against the railing, because he is the Listener; he is not this man. Duty comes before all and if she threatens it, she'll reap the consequence, and yet he knows, in his bones, that he'll return to her out of instinct, some animal inclination, by some foreign presence inside him. Inhuman and shapeless, unable to vanquish the final act of longing, he opens his heart to her like a fresh wound. Like something torn apart. 

It's them.

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Oh my gaaaahd the detail on this piece is incredible!! And she looks so adorable in your style, I can't stop staring. Thank you so much, my friend 💕😭💕 I am so touched and it's more beautiful than I could have ever imagined.

@dirty-bosmer’s darling Nimileth at the height of her Arcane University career. :3

Lines under the cut~

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wip I'm late

tagged by my lovely friends: @skyrim-forever @thequeenofthewinter @elavoria @theoneandonlysemla @sylvienerevarine @unironicallytes

They are about to kill each other or kiss with mouths full of blood.

The context:

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It's you... hi.

Nimileth — The Menace Hero of Kvatch

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Aakijdvfkw crying for days on end 😭😭She’s so beautiful, and I am still so flabbergasted you asked to draw her!! I love seeing her rendered in your style. Thank you so much my heart is so full, it hurts ❤️❤️

@dirty-bosmer's turn! This is their OC Nimileth. I like the one without the wrap, she likes the one with, so I'm sharing both versions. 09-04-2023

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OC in fifteen

Tagged by @justafoxhound : share 15 lines or less of dialogue that showcases your OC's personality

This one was so much fun! I had to sift through a lot 😅 Tagging: @elavoria @thequeenofthewinter @gilgamish @kookaburra1701 @wispstalk @skyrim-forever @theoneandonlysemla @sylvienerevarine @lucien-lachance @bostoniangirl21

Going with Nim for this one and tried to pick quotes that were somewhat chronological:

1. "I bet you don't have any friends either. You're as pleasant as guar dung, and you look like a netch fart with a face."

2. "Were we supposed to kill him?" she asked, shaking her dagger free of the straggling bits of bunt flesh. "Sorry, I probably should have clarified earlier."

3. "Who are you becoming?" she asked it, tapping the face of the emerald as though it might respond. "Is that you in there? What are you doing?"

4. “Well only if there's more to it then. Please continue, Mr. Lachance. You have my undivided attention.”

5.. “Oh, little moss," she said to it. "Why couldn't I have been born such a little moss too?"

6. "Ah— oh." Nim looked back to the bottle like it was a long, lost lover returned from the dead. “Well then… a sip, maybe.”

7. "But it's our guild. It's our fight."

8. “We’ll fix this,” she said, reaching for Lorise's hands, holding them tighter than she'd held onto anything in her life. “I promise.”

9. “It’s quite alright, Master Wizard,” she mumbled hoarsely. “I really should go anyway. I need to, um, brew some potions.

10. “It makes me happy, Mathieu. Why is that such a terrible thing?”

11. “Because I’ve sold him a lie. A pretty one. One that masks all the ugliness inside me.”

12. Her face split into an ugly grin then, cracked like an open coffin. "Yes!" she cried out. "Yes, I'm fucking around! As soon as you turn your back, with everybody, on every corner!"

13. “Gods, Arquen. I’m just a woman. I’m not a war.”

14. “You watched gleefully as I tore my life apart. When you put your hands on me, I turned myself inside out. You touched pieces of me not even I’d seen before, and now what, Lucien? Now you’re scared of what lies beneath?”

15. "It’s me or something pretending to be me or I’m pretending to be it. I can’t tell, but I can feel it. Can you feel it? Have you ever? Have you ever looked at yourself and thought, ‘what will it take to get rid of you? Why do you keep doing this? What a truly remarkable feat that you’ve managed to fuck up your life this badly?’”

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How easily could your OC be convinced to do something that goes against their moral compass?

What's one way your OC has changed since you first came up with them?

Thank you for the ask! I will answer these about my HoK, Nimileth.

How easily could your OC be convinced to do something that goes against their moral compass?

Pretty easily if the compensation is good 😅Partly because she lives in constant state of delusion, partly because she has a very poorly calibrated moral compass. A lot of Nim's moral struggle comes from her desire to be better despite not knowing what better means. Having spent her formative years in a cult that did pretty atrocious things, she's never really had a good role model for 'morally-upstanding citizen,' and from her time with the Renrijra Krin and the Thieves Guild, she learned that some of the kindest, most loving people were also capable of committing the most heinous crimes. So she kind of sees it as 'one man's unforgivable sin is another mans means of feeding his family' and tries not to think too hard about, eheh.

What's one way your OC has changed since you first came up with them?

Ooh, funny enough, a few days ago I was looking through old, old, old drafts with scenes that never made it into the fic and realized my early version of Nim was a lot more mean. She's always had a bit of a blood-thirsty streak, but the way I've written her, it's something she refuses to acknowledge about herself because it scares her. She does bad things, but she's not necessarily cruel, and tries to hide that part of herself from everyone until the end of the fic. In early drafts, she was a lot more open about it, sanguine even. In general, less anxious and more comfortable with the ugliest parts of herself.

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I bring forth my humble attempt at (serious) Nim moodboard <3

Crying of joy and hissing and spitting AJHGakKGaSf it’s so perfect!!! You’ve captured Nim, my lil suffer baby and her garbage fire life choices 😭 thank you, dear friend, for gifting me this blessed object of Pinterest Power. Gonna go print it out and tape it above my computer 🥰

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From the edgy oc asks, for Nim <3

10. What's an AU that would be interesting to explore with your OC?

13. If you met your OC, would the two of you get along?

25. What is your favorite thing about your OC?

Sneaking this one in during work hours, heeheee. Thank you for the ask <3

What's an AU that would be interesting to explore with your OC?

Oooh, I got asked this one a month ago, and I still think about those alternate endings a lot. I have two:

1) Nim joins Mathieu in destroying the Dark Brotherhood, Lucien dies at Applewatch (she joins in the effort LOL it's✨cathartic✨), kills the rest of the Black Hand, and gets her happy ending with Lorise and Raminus and a happy family :)

2) Nim decides to be Listener, moves to Bravil, has a full blown affair with Arquen. Lucien still goes crazy because the power has been completely shifted and he can no longer control her. After a year or so, she gets extremely bored tho and fucks off to the Shivering Isles with no warning, leaving everything in shambles :)

I have some really stupid modern AU texts between Lucien and Nim that I've thought about posting before. I might draw them eventually. We'll see...

If you met your OC, would the two of you get along?

Honestly, idk XD I think it depends on the context that we met in. If we were drunk in a bar bathroom or university roommates, I think we'd be really good friends. We'd go to parties together, study together, probably would have made each other's college lives feel less lonely by just... being alone together, if that makes sense. Doing our own things but knowing someone else is there when we need them, which is how the relationship with some of my closest friends are. We're all pretty introverted until we're not lol.

But if we met while she was elbow deep in her Dark Brotherhood shit, I'd be like girl you are stressing me out!! There are some rancid vibes wafting off of you and I am trying to write my thesis! I have my own neuroses and cannot handle another person's self-destruction right now!! Also I have a really hard time sitting idle and shutting my mouth if I know my friends are doing dumb shit/fucking around with trash people. I'd tell her to get her shit together and I don't think she'd like hearing it 😔

What is your favorite thing about your OC?

Probably her resilience. Despite how painful her life has been, it's never broken her spirit or stopped her from scrabbling toward happiness. She goes through a lot of traumatic stuff over the course of her life and the events of the fic, but I never wanted it to strip her of hope. In fact she's kind of delusionally optimistic that things will somehow work out in the end despite her inability to stop making terrible choices lol, and I guess I respect that even though she knows she's doing awful things, it doesn't stop her from helping out those she can.

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The edgy asks for bb girl Nim

7. What's one way your OC has changed since you first came up with them?

17. What is the worst thing you have put your OC through story-wise?

22. What character alignment would you consider your OC to be?

What's one way your OC has changed since you first came up with them?

I answered this one in the last ask, but something more superficial— her appearance. She's always been scrappy and disheveled, but I really wanted her to look weird, and I haven't managed to be able to draw that without it looking like I just don't understand facial anatomy lol. Skill issue on my part. I'm hoping I'll feel more comfortable with practice because in the fic, Vicente describes her as 'rough around the edges, but not without a quaintness' and Lucien straight up says she's strange to look at, and I don't think I've quite captured that :/

What is the worst thing you have put your OC through story-wise?

Definitely making her Lucien's Silencer XD She could have had such a normal-ish life as an academic, but instead she's putting up with all his bullshit and they're trapped in this toxic cycle while she's slowing consuming his sanity. They are each other's punishment <3

What character alignment would you consider your OC to be?

I've taken quizzes for her before and at the start of the series, she was neutral good, by the end she's chaotic neutral.

Thank you so much for the asks <3

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WIP Whenever

Thanks @elavoria for the tag! And also a BIG thank you for the recommendation for Rebelle! I finally set aside some time to try out the trial before v7 is released, and I love it <3 Here's a little Nimileth portrait I started over the weekend.

I'm very late and also at work (😅) so I'm tagging anyone who has something to share. Happy Friday everyone, woohoo!!