#Nepalese folklore

[savage-kult-of-gorthaur]

WILD MAN IN A WILD WORLD -- EARTH YETI.

PIC INFO: Spotlight on the Yeti of Nepalese folklore, watercolors by the late, great Eric Carle (1929-2021), from the children's book "Dragons Dragons and Other Creatures that Never Were" (1988).

"The Yeti is a manlike beast, Unless, perchance, he doesn't exist. He walks like a man and has hair on his face, And rumors persist That in forests and caves where no one goes, Or high in the Himalayan snows, He may still be living. Nobody knows. If you meet him and ask him, "Are you a Yeti?" All he can say is, "Maybe.""

-- JOHN GARDNER (1933-1982)

Source: www.fairyroom.ru/?p=56315.

[mecthology]

Bhakunde Bhoot from Nepalese folklore.

The Bhakunde Bhoot is a ghost known for its round shape, similar to a ball (bhakundo in Nepali), and is often associated with dustballs or garbage sites. This faceless and limbless spirit is said to follow people, especially children, in the dark from a distance and can cling to the lower part of their body. To remove it after it clings to the body, special lines from the Hanuman Chalisa are needed.

The only way to get the spirit to detach from the trash and leave is to put it in a larger jute bag, hammer it to the floor repeatedly, and curse at it.

Follow @mecthology for more haunted tales and mythologies.

Pic: Generated by AI.

Source: youtube, honeyguideapps

[roseoftrafalgar]

Happy International Snow Leopard Day! ❄️ Ft. Law helping a snow leopard cub with a minor arm injury.

-> for some snow leopard facts, click the readmore!

Snow leopards are sometimes referred to “ghosts of the mountains” for their elusiveness and solitary nature.

They are found in the icy mountainous regions of Central Asia (i.e Kazakhstan, Kyrgyzstan, Uzbekistan, Tajikistan, etc.), South Asia (i.e. Nepal, Bhutan, Afghanistan, Pakistan, India, etc.), Russia, Mongolia, and China.

In northern Dolpo Nepalese folklore, it is sometimes believed that snow leopards carry the sins of their past lives & whoever kills them “inherits” their sins.

Often opportunistic hunters and less aggressive compared to other big cats when it comes to hunting their prey, as they will retreat from a kill if another predator threatens them. However, they are able to kill prey 3 times their own weight.

They’re more related to tigers than leopards.

They can jump 6 times their body length.

They typically have blue, green, or grey eyes & can see 6 times better than humans.

Their short nasal cavity warms the air they inhale before entering their lungs.

Their tails can serve as scarves & they sometimes like to nom on them.

-> Visit Snow Leopard Trust to learn more about snow leopards & conservation efforts, as there is less than around 10,000 in the wild!

[dross-the-fish]

What if Johnathan was Indian?

Before you go the route of making this character Anglo-Indian consider the implications of that and how it would have affected him in Victorian England.

Britain and India's historical relationship isn't a thing you can just handwave and I'd caution you to do a little research before you racebend this character out of the oppressor class and into the oppressed. That is a change that needs to be done CAREFULLY because it would fundamentally change everything about Johnathan's background and it absolutely would affect the writing of his character.

It would be way too easy to make him a racist caricature if you're only reason for making Johnathan Indian or Nepalese would be so you can emphasize the folkloric elements of his weapon.

[helenetart]

Mythic May Day 16 was a kichkandi, from Nepalese folklore/mythology.

[kellycrawford93]

NEPAL

𝟮𝟭 𝗳𝗮𝗰𝘁𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗱𝗶𝗱𝗻'𝘁 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝗮𝗯𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝗡𝗲𝗽𝗮𝗹:

1. Nepal is home to eight of the world’s ten tallest mountains, including Mount Everest, the highest point on Earth, locally known as Sagarmatha.

2. The flag of Nepal is the only national flag that is not quadrilateral in shape. It consists of two stacked triangles.

3. Despite its small geographic size, Nepal has a highly diverse population, with over 120 different ethnic groups and more than 123 languages spoken.

4. Nepal was never colonized, making it one of the few countries in Asia that has retained its sovereignty throughout history.

5. Kathmandu, the capital city, is known for its historic temples and vibrant street life. The Kathmandu Valley itself is a UNESCO World Heritage Site, containing important sites such as the Patan and Bhaktapur Durbar Squares.

6. The Nepalese New Year is celebrated in mid-April and is known as "Bisket Jatra" among other names depending on the specific region.

7. Nepal operates under a federal parliamentary republic. It adopted its new constitution in 2015, which included the change from a Hindu monarchy to a secular state.

8. The cow is considered sacred in Hinduism and is the national animal of Nepal. As a result, slaughtering cows is illegal.

9. Nepal has a significant number of rhododendron species (national flower) that bloom across the hills and mountains of the country, particularly in the spring.

10. The "Gurkhas," known for their bravery and strength, are Nepalese soldiers who have been recruited into the British Army since 1815, as well as the Indian Army, serving with distinction in various conflicts globally.

11. The cuisine of Nepal is varied due to its ethnic diversity and topography, featuring dishes like momo (dumplings), dal bhat (lentils, rice, and vegetables), and gundruk (fermented leafy green vegetable).

12. Lumbini, located in the Rupandehi District, is believed to be the birthplace of Lord Buddha and is a sacred pilgrimage site.

13. Despite its mountainous terrain, only about 20% of the total land is arable in Nepal, making agriculture challenging but a dominant part of the economy and lifestyle.

14. Nepal has a practice of worshipping a living goddess known as "Kumari," considered a physical embodiment of divine female energy.

15. Mountaineering and trekking are significant contributors to Nepal’s economy, attracting adventure tourists from all over the world eager to explore the Himalayas.

16. Nepali music is heavily influenced by the folk traditions of the Himalayan region, featuring instruments like the madal and sarangi.

17. The Indra Jatra festival is one of the exciting and important festivals in Kathmandu during which the living goddess Kumari is paraded through the city in a chariot.

18. Dhaka fabric, known for its distinctive patterns and colors, is a handwoven fabric made in Nepal and used primarily for traditional caps and shawls.

19. The Yeti, often referred to as the "Abominable Snowman," is a mythical creature said to reside in the Himalayas, and stories of its sightings have been a part of Nepali folklore for generations.

20. Nepal uses a unique calendar system known as the Bikram Sambat, which is approximately 56 years and 8 months ahead of the Gregorian calendar.

21. Nepal has a relatively young population, with roughly half being under the age of 20, reflecting different challenges and potential for the country's future.

[missionhimalayatrek]

Exploring the Mystical Kanchenjunga: A Trek to the Base Camp

Nepal, a land of towering peaks and pristine landscapes, boasts some of the world's most spectacular trekking routes. Among them, the Kanchenjunga Base Camp Trek stands out as a journey of unparalleled beauty and adventure. Join us as we embark on this unforgettable expedition to the base of the third-highest mountain in the world.

Introduction to Kanchenjunga

Nestled in the far-eastern corner of Nepal, Kanchenjunga is revered as the "Five Treasures of the Great Snow." Its name translates to "Five Treasures of Snow," representing the five peaks that make up the mountain massif. The region is not only rich in natural beauty but also steeped in folklore and spirituality, making it a destination like no other.

Beginning the Trek

Our journey begins in the bustling town of Taplejung, where we make final preparations and meet our experienced guides. From there, we set off on the trail, following ancient pathways that wind through verdant forests, remote villages, and terraced farmland. Each step brings us closer to the towering peaks that dominate the horizon.

Encounters with Local Culture

Along the way, we encounter the diverse ethnic groups that call the Kanchenjunga region home. From the warm hospitality of the Rai and Limbu communities to the rich traditions of the Sherpas, each interaction offers a glimpse into the vibrant tapestry of Nepalese culture. We stop in charming villages, where prayer flags flutter in the breeze and ancient monasteries echo with the sound of chanting monks.

Ascending to Base Camp

As we ascend higher into the mountains, the landscape becomes more rugged and remote. We traverse suspension bridges spanning deep gorges, cross alpine meadows ablaze with wildflowers, and marvel at cascading waterfalls plunging into icy rivers below. Finally, after days of trekking, we reach the pristine wilderness of the Kanchenjunga Base Camp, where the towering peaks loom overhead.

Savoring the Moment

Standing at the base of Kanchenjunga, we are humbled by the sheer majesty of the mountains that surround us. The air is crisp and clear, and the silence is broken only by the occasional rumble of distant avalanches. We take a moment to savor the serenity of this remote wilderness, knowing that we are privileged to experience its beauty firsthand.

Conclusion: A Journey of Discovery

Our trek to the Kanchenjunga Base Camp has been a journey of discovery, adventure, and awe-inspiring beauty. As we make our way back to civilization, we carry with us memories that will last a lifetime. And perhaps, we leave a piece of our hearts behind in the mystical realm of the "Five Treasures of Snow."

[informationalnews]

Sikkim: Exploring the Land of Mystical Mountains and Cultural Charms

Welcome to Sikkim, a land nestled amidst the mystical mountains of the Himalayas, where nature’s grandeur and cultural charms intertwine to create an enchanting experience. Let us embark on a journey to explore the captivating beauty and rich heritage of this remarkable Indian state.

Sikkim is blessed with breathtaking landscapes that leave visitors awestruck. The crown jewel of the state is Kanchenjunga, the third highest peak in the world and a sacred mountain for the locals. Its majestic presence dominates the horizon, offering a mesmerizing sight and an opportunity for avid trekkers to embark on an exhilarating journey to its base camps.

As we venture further, we discover pristine alpine forests, cascading waterfalls, and serene glacial lakes that dot the landscape. The ethereal beauty of Tsomgo Lake, also known as Changu Lake, reflects the surrounding mountains and presents a picture-perfect setting. The spiritual aura of the sacred Gurudongmar Lake, situated at an altitude of 17,800 feet, is believed to possess healing properties and captivates visitors with its serene ambiance.

Sikkim’s cultural tapestry is equally captivating, showcasing a rich blend of Tibetan, Nepalese, and indigenous traditions. The monasteries of Sikkim, such as Rumtek Monastery and Pemayangtse Monastery, offer a glimpse into the spiritual heritage of the region. These architectural marvels house ancient scriptures, exquisite thangka paintings, and ornate sculptures, reflecting the profound Buddhist influence on the local culture.

The warmth and hospitality of the people of Sikkim add to the charm of the state. The diverse ethnic communities, including the Lepchas, Bhutias, and Nepalese, coexist harmoniously, preserving their distinct traditions and way of life. Engaging with the locals provides a deeper understanding of their customs, rituals, and folklore. Don’t miss the opportunity to savor traditional Sikkimese cuisine, which blends flavors from various cultures and features delicacies like momo dumplings, thukpa (noodle soup), and gundruk (fermented leafy greens).

For nature enthusiasts and adventure seekers, Sikkim offers a plethora of activities. The Khangchendzonga National Park, a UNESCO World Heritage Site, is a treasure trove of biodiversity, housing numerous plant and animal species, including the elusive snow leopard. Trekking trails like the Singalila Ridge and Dzongri-Goecha La offer panoramic views of the Himalayan peaks, verdant valleys, and rhododendron-filled forests.

Sikkim’s capital city, Gangtok, is a bustling hub that blends modern amenities with traditional charm. Explore its vibrant markets, visit the Namgyal Institute of Tibetology to delve into the region’s history, and take a cable car ride to witness the cityscape from a bird’s-eye view. Additionally, the quaint town of Pelling offers breathtaking views of the Himalayas and serves as a gateway to the sacred Khecheopalri Lake and the revered Pemayangtse Monastery.

Sikkim’s commitment to environmental conservation and sustainable tourism is commendable. The state has implemented eco-friendly practices and strict regulations to preserve its pristine natural surroundings. Travelers are encouraged to respect the fragile ecosystem, minimize their environmental footprint, and engage in responsible tourism practices.

Exploring Sikkim is a soul-stirring experience, where the mystical mountains and cultural charms transport you to a world of tranquility and wonder. From the awe-inspiring vistas of the Himalayas to the spiritual sanctuaries and warm hospitality of its people, Sikkim offers a journey of discovery and serenity.

[burnbrighterthanever]

10 & 17 for fanfic asks?

10. I try not to go into writing with too many expectations, but I was a little surprised by how niche some of the SPN corners I write in are. It's such a big fandom that I thought I'd get more responses than I did. That's life, I guess!

17. I've learned about some really interesting folkloric creatures for one of my SPN wips. I wanted to incorporate some monsters that hadn't been done on the show before. Some of my favorites were the kichkanya, a Nepalese ghost that drains men of their life force, and the vorvolaka, a Greek monster that feeds on human livers.

[harvest-moonie]

cheese part 10

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[sagemonsters]

This is a complicated question that doesn’t have an easy answer. Although I can’t point you towards a specific resource, I can do my best to tell you how to figure it out for yourself rather than relying on outside sources that might be biased/inaccurate.

For a start, I would recommend looking closely at any creature from a mythological tradition (as opposed to, say, run of the mill cryptids like the Jersey Devil in America) and doing research into them on a case by case basis. Off the top of my head…

Christian demons & angels are okay. People have been writing about and using demons in various pieces of media since time immemorial (example: the character Mephistopheles from Dr. Faustus, a piece of literature from the European Renaissance). Succubi and incubi are also good examples of this.

Jewish demons & angels are not okay to use. Judaism is a closed religion (I would highly recommend looking up the difference between closed and open religious traditions if you don't already know) that has been oppressed and appropriated from for a very long time; nobody with a conscience wants to continue that.

W*ndigo and Sk*nwalkers are both from Native American cultures that are 100% closed to outsiders. Don’t use them unless you belong to those traditions. Likewise, avoid indigenous Australian creatures such as the rainbow serpent unless you’re an indigenous Australian person.

If you are white, anything involving African folklore is probably a bad idea.

Nagas and rakshasas are creatures from Hindu folklore. You’re on shakier ground here if you aren’t Hindu yourself; Hinduism is a semi-open religion, but that doesn’t mean you can cherrypick monsters from it willy-nilly and expect everyone to be cool with it. If you want to use these creatures, I would suggest researching Hinduism and thinking carefully about what (if any) stereotypes you are perpetuating by the way you characterize these creatures in your fiction.

Yetis specifically are part of Nepalese folklore. Again, tread carefully.

Yokai are of course creatures from Shinto, the most famous (in the West) of which is the kitsune. A lot of Western media appropriates and sexualizes kitsune characters when they are featured, which is part of a greater problem involving the fetishization of Asian people and their culture(s).

Dragons, dragonborn, orcs, goblins, drow, kobolds, etc, are fine! A good resource to mine for monster romance creatures would be anything contained in the Open Gaming License published by Wizards of the Coast for Dungeons & Dragons. I’ve drawn a lot of inspiration from those, and since they’re mostly public domain creatures you don’t need to worry about copyright nonsense.

Creatures from Greek, Roman, Celtic, Germanic, Scandinavian, and Ancient Egyptian mythology are also fine! Although there are absolutely modern pagans who practice these religions, they aren’t closed traditions. Think about Thor being used by Marvel Comics (and now Disney) and how nobody raised the hew and cry over “disrespectful” depictions of Norse mythology in film. It’s fine.

Slavic mythology is more iffy. I’ve heard people say that Slavic paganism and their creatures (such as the domovoi and bannick from Russia, and the leshiy from Poland) are part of closed traditions due to how heavily oppressed the historical Slavic pagans were during the Baltic Crusades of centuries past, but I’ve also heard others say that that tradition is open. There’s also a problem with white supremacy and Russian/Polish nationalism in those pagan communities, so I’m not wholly sure that the “Slavic paganism is a closed tradition” attitude isn’t just white supremacists trying to keep out POC.

That’s just off the top of my head. Again—research is your friend! When in doubt, ask a few people from that religious/cultural tradition if the creature you have in mind is (for lack of a better phrase) available to the public domain. Own up to your mistakes if you make ‘em, but it’s not the end of the world if you do. You’ve got this! Happy writing <3

Would anyone have any resources or could point me in the direction of some information on supernatural beings that *don't* belong in media? I'm talking like sacred figures like the w*ndigo, or I think the original bigfoot legend is considered a sacred tale to some native groups?

I'm worldbuilding for my next book and I want to include as many cultures' mythologies as I can, but I'd hate to step on any toes out of ignorance

[metalalia]

Mythological Throwback Thursday: Yeti

Welcome! It’s time for another Mythological Throwback Thursday, and this week we venture into the sacred peaks of South Asia, the Himalayas, in search of the elusive yeti. Don’t hold your breath-- the air’s pretty thin.

The word ‘yeti’ is a loanword from Tibetan. The Tibetan term is a compound of the words for ‘rock’ and ‘bear’. Other Himalayan people know the yeti as Kang Admi-- ‘snow man’, or mi-go-- ‘jungle man’. The appellation ‘Abominable Snowman’ was coined in the 1920s by a British officer on an expedition around Everest.

Early anthropologists were told that the Lepcha people native to the Himalayas worshipped a ‘glacier being’, a god of the hunt that looked like an ape and carried a large stone as a weapon.

Most local cultures agree that the yeti is a rare and secretive creature, that leaves little trace of itself behind. Many footprints in the snow believed to have been left by a yeti have been photographed, but these make for unconvincing evidence, and trophies like scalps or hairs have been analysed by experts and identified as belonging to other creatures native to the Himalayas. In 1959 an expedition claimed to have found yeti faeces: on analysis an unknown parasite was discovered within them. Cryptozoologists, who study creatures thought by the wider scientific community not to exist, claim that this is an indication that the yeti may well exist.

In Pangboche, a Nepalese village nearly two and a half miles above sea level, a Buddhist monastery claimed to possess the hand and forearm of a yeti. The story went that a monk seeking to meditate in a cave stumbled across a resting yeti. When he returned to the cave later in life, the yeti had died, so he took some of the remains. The hand was stolen and smuggled out of Nepal by Westerners, and though most of it has disappeared into a private collection, those primatologists who had access to fragments of the sample claimed it is Neanderthal in origin.

In more modern times, explorers and experts have settled upon the explanation that the yeti of legend is nothing more than one or more species of local bear, known to be bipedal at times. In particular, the Asiatic brown bear spends its early life in trees to avoid aggressive older bears, which gives its feet a peculiar shape that means its footprints can be mistaken for human or ape-like tracks.

Regardless of what the truth may or may not be, the yeti remains one of the world’s most famous cryptid legends. The search for the yeti has led to conservation efforts in Nepal and Tibet, protecting the Himalayas for other native species.

Join us next week for another Mythological Throwback Thursday, and follow us in the meantime if you’d like to see more myths, legends, folklore, fairytales, and other fantastic content!

[hjbender]

Following your post on jötunn and yeti. The Swedish word for giant is jätte which is clearly related to jötunn. Language is awesome!

I didn’t know that. How awesome! :D So the ä in Swedish gets a soft E sound? Jätte is pronounced “yetta”? Am I saying that correctly? (I’ll take the word of a native speaker over Google Translate any day.) That would make it even closer to the word “yeti” than jötunn. The intrigue deepens! 

Thank you for sharing this, anon!

[mecthology]

Kichkandi from Nepalese folklore.

They are generally known to be solitary spirits that haunt a particular location. Children often grow up hearing the stories of such tortured souls of women who wander the site of their untimely death. These women while alive were treated unfairly in some manner or died during childbirth or pregnancy. According to sightings, they are supposed to have unusually long black hair, pale and bony complexion and dressed up in a red bridal dress. It is said that they can be identified by looking at their feet, which face backwards.

People usually describe them as an alluring and young female, who lures a lonely male traveler and saps their life force. The victims are said to turn out drained of their life and skinny. According to other tales told by locals and cab drivers, these spirits are also known to hitchhike late at night. When the drivers of the vehicle or motorbike follow her directions, they end up in cremation grounds in a temple or a cemetery.

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[anthonyed]

you know that term; life flashes before your eyes when you die/ on the brink of death? what if, it’s not your life but your soulmate’s life?

like when tony carried the nuclear missile through the wormhole with the staticky connection of call to pepper grating in his ears, he closes his eyes to a battleship bigger that life and he sees steve’s life flashing in front of him

he sees a five year old deck his jaw in 1925 and his nose doesn’t stop bleeding in some mouldy back alley. he sees bucky hauling him up to his feet from behind the church and he sees his mother – steve’s mother – cough blood one last time and stops breathing at once

he sees his own father in flesh, kissing one blonde and one brunette with a hovering car on stage and he feels the ache in his chest when he couldn’t fit his – steve’s – head into that faceless army man in a glass framed poster with a bunch of other army men

he feels the physical pain that comes with vita ray blasting at his face, chest and everywhere and oh, god, when bucky falls off that train he feels like someone has just ripped his limbs off of him

he feels the ice on his face, the way the shards come together and poke and freeze his lungs and heart and for a brief moment, he cannot differentiate whether it’s steve who cannot breathe or it’s tony; himself

he feels the sharp pang in his chest when the lights go completely off and when he opens his eyes, there’s steve in real life and hulk and thor and – “what the hell? what just happened?”

and the thing is, there are no studies out there done on people who’d just licked death and survived. even if there were, no one in their right mind came up to say “urm.. I think I saw like flashes of someone else’s/my so’s/ my friend’s life.” because even if they did, what could they have thought about it?

so tony spends months trying to figure it out; because sure he knows rogers. sure rogers’s voice was the last thing he heard before he passed out – or died, whatever. but that doesn’t warrant him too deep insights into steve rogers’ life. not to the extent of experiencing it from the rogers’ himself’s point of view 

he’s stumped for once in his entire 42 years of life

he got JARVIS running through all researches on death and afterlife and one night while he’s signing off the confirmation to rebuild the entire penthouse, JARVIS pings him an interview done by some unknown nepalese journalist that translates into ‘kamar taj and magic’

he zeroes in on the paragraph JARVIS helpfully highlighted for him and he sees the word ‘soulmate’ and his first reaction is to laugh

two weeks later, he is terrified

three months after, he decides to brush it off because what would rogers want with a selfish man after all – if he was into man at all

then he hears that SHIELD became a dust and he arranges a plan for the tower to house the rest

and steve’s in the hospital, wires hooked to chest, to his arms and legs and they’re transfusing fluids - blood, plasma, hartmann - into him, they’re running lab tests and there’s a defibrillator on standby next to his bed

they use it on him at exactly 0045 on sunday the 13th when his heart stops for the very first time since he 1918

he’s in daze when the light flashes in front of him. his big hands are small.. so much smaller that they’re of a child’s

he’s dressed in a mini tuxedo with shoes costing more than his monthly rent. he got his heart thudding wildly in his chest like he’s entering a battlefield and when a huge fist connects to his cheek he feels the wind wiped out of him entirely

he’s with a whirring motor powered toy – some kind of technology, a robot of sort – when he sees howard – wrinkled but oh, too familiar he wants to ache but this isn’t his memory. this is someone else’s and they only have fear in their chest upon seeing howard approach them

the broken part of that robot is kicked to the corner, opened door blocking half of its death when he smells whiskey beneath his nose; “this will put hair on your chest, boy” and steve wants to crash the valkyrie straight into howard’s face

he doesn’t have to wait till afghanistan to know it was tony stark’s life being played in his head. But when it happens, nonetheless –

when it happens, steve wonders how is that man still alive even after all that

he feels the suction in his lungs as he sees a spaceship blast into pieces

he feels the pain of death and coming back alive and it feels so real that when he finally wakes up, he wonders whether it was his own or if it was stark’s instead

the difference with steve though, he’d grown up on folklores his mother lulled him to sleep and he absolutely believed it was some soulmate shit

but he’s too scared to say anything; what would stark want to do with a lab experiment? when stark already has ms potts’ hand in his?

so they spend the rest of their life pining but never telling; holding intimate details of one’s life in the other’s palm and ultron happens and steve breaks tony’s heart in siberia with heavy regret

then thanos wipes half of the universe out and tony rams his words into steve’s face like a gauntlet donned knuckles and they trip and part

tony gets a life; his second chance. steve tries to be happy for him but fuck, it’s too hard to even pretend

then tony with his brave, brave heart once again comes across death. only this time, he greets it like an old friend

and once again, steve’s life flashes before his eyes

1925 – sarah rogers – bucky – ice; and there are more this time

there’s tony

tony’s smile

tony’s laugh

tony’s harsh words like bullets flying, and steve’s own shattered heart

there’s pain, pain and love

So much love that tony almost feels suffocated by it

so much lo- oh! and there is steve. 

oh. 

but he can’t breathe. he-

he can’t –

[onmywallsiscrawlmygods]

podcast recs nobody asked for

Arcs: a queer friendly DnD podcast. v funny. told kind of like an audio drama

Join the Party: just like Arcs but better, funnier, more emotional, and more queer

Potterless: a dude reading the Harry Potter series for the first time. he’s super critical of it and it’s actually hilarious

Please Don’t Make me Watch This: Kait and Clare watch The Secret Life of the American Teenager and scream laugh about how absurd it is

HORSE: a basketball podcast about everything except the actual wins and losses. all the drama, none of the sport. no understanding of basketball necessary.

Waystation: a Lost Girl fancast. v bisexual and cringy. warning: they’re on indefinite hiatus so there’s only like 30 episodes and they might never pick it back up

Lingthusiasm: a podcast that’s enthusiastic about linguistics. learn some cool things about languages around the world! heavy emphasis on Nepalese, English, and French

Gender Reveal: a podcast where they ask intrusive personal questions and hopefully get a little closer to understanding what the hell gender is

Spirits: a drunken dive into mythology, legends, and folklore. start with your urban legends episodes

Flash Forward: every episode, they take a field trip into a possible or not so possible future scenario, then flash back to today and talk to experts about that future scenario. just really cool science-adjacent stuff

Women of Harry Potter: kinda self explanatory. they just pick a woman from the Harry Potter series and talk about her at length every other week

Goblet of Wine: two English people reread the Harry Potter series critically while drunk. one of my favorites tbh

Oh No, Ross and Carrie: a podcast where they check out pseudoscience, spirituality, and claims of the paranormal so you don’t have to. they have a 9 part series about joining scientology

Dungeons and Daddies: another DnD podcast where earth dads wind up in an alternate universe of DnD and just have to figure out how to get their sons back. very cute, very funny. if you like Dream Daddy Simulator and DnD, this is the podcast for you. tons of dad jokes.

Gender Fluids: a sex-positive podcast about all things sex, sexuality, fetish, and gender