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void-and-virtue · 1 year ago

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Thinking about Neil’s anger. Thinking about Neil’s jealousy. Thinking about emotions beyond ugly and raw bleeding right out of him the second he lets his mask slip even just a millimeter.

Thinking about how what Neil perceives as miasma hanging over him acts like a breath of life to Andrew’s drowning. Thinking about how everyone expects them to cover each other in bile and guts until they’re both festering even worse than before and that’s not what happens. Thinking about how when they look at each other in the aftermath of their poking and prodding, it’s with the most rotten parts of themselves on display, but those parts have finally been drained and what’s left might just get the chance to heal.

#Neil is a shot of epinephrine when Andrew has been flatlining for years #Andrew is a door that has to swing open and almost break Neil’s nose for him to realize that it’s there and an out to the running #also #Andrew’s selflessness being the most destructive thing about him #to the point where getting angry and selfish is actually what he needs more instead of less of #the way Neil understands that about him when nobody else gets it #also the way Andrew is at first most fascinated by the exact things that make Neil feel ugly raw and exposed #and how that becomes the space Neil needs to let go and lay himself out in the open #the understanding and acceptance of it all and the way they become a safe space for the other #if I think about this too much I might just spontaneously combust #aftg #all for the game #neil josten #andrew minyard #andreil #aftg meta

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