#Nanou

[lovelydeliciouscollective]

Juan Brufal

[vsynthbday]

happy anniversary to "Theater" (演劇) by nanou (ナノウ)! this song came out 1 year ago today.

art by Kanmikan | youtube upload

[vocaloidsongtournament]

August 2024 Vocaloid Song Tournament

Round 1, Set 5, Match 5: Poison Apple by DECO*27 vs. Glory 3usi9 by nanou (Hoehoe-P)

Please listen to both songs before casting your vote! And please reblog for a bigger sample size!

[utaitemusic]

If my one and only wish Comes true, then I want to end This ridiculous, theatrical act of mine

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do you like this vocaloid song?

(FLASHING IMAGES WARNING, SUICIDE CONTENT WARNING)

(composed by Nanou)

submitted by @illdothehotvoice! thank you so much!!!

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The Protagonist of Hello/How Are You by Nanou has AvPD!

illustration by mzmt

[delaluna]

Engeki [nanou]

Please feel free to use these with due credit or to inform me of mistakes! The official lyrics are hyperlinked in the title.

Kanji, romaji, and notes under “Read More.”

Theater

Once upon a time, somebody told me That we all have a role to play We share what we’re lacking and, Making up for each other, live life in that way If that's the case, should my own blanks Not be filled in by somebody else? Can that "somebody" hear me?

Somebody told somebody else, (1) That this was their own role to play "I say these words out of love, For we all live life in that way” I was glad to see that joyful expression, So I desperately played my part, To the point of forgetting how to even breathe

My childhood backpack was carelessly thrown away In a back alley dumpster Since when did I get into the habit Of worrying about my surroundings even as I smiled? If I could have but a single wish Come true, what I would like Is for this absurd theater to be over

I've been living life the wrong way Now that my collar's been taken off, Where on Earth am I supposed to go? I simply wanted a certain sense of self God above, is this the price I am to pay? All of this, it’s all far too much

Well, never mind that, hurry up And put an end to it

演劇

或る時誰かが言いました みんな役割があるんだと 足りないものを分かち合って 補い合って生きていると それなら私の空白は 誰かが埋めてくれる筈で 聞こえますか　その誰かさん aru toki dareka ga iimashita minna yakuwari ga arunda to tarinai mono o wakachi atte okinai atte ikite iru to sore nara watashi no kuuhaku wa dareka ga umete kureru hazu de kikoemasuka sono dareka-san

誰かが誰かに言いました 君の役割はこうだって 「これは愛故の言葉だ」と 「皆そうやって生きてる」と 喜ぶ顔が嬉しくって 必死で役を演じました 呼吸さえも忘れるほど dareka ga dareka ni iimashita kimi no yakuwari wa kou datte “kore wa ai yue no kotoba da” to “minna sou yatte ikiteru" to yorokobu koe ga ureshikute hisshi de yaku o enjimashita kokyuu sae mo wasureru hodo

路地裏のごみ置き場 雑に捨てられたランドセル 笑う時すら周りを気にする癖は いつからだったっけ もしも願いがただひとつだけ 叶うならば終わらせたいんだ この　ふざけた演劇を rojiura no gomi okiba zatsu ni suterareta randoseru warau toki sura mawari o ki ni suru kuse wa itsu kara dattakke moshimo negai ni wa tada hitotsu dake kanau naraba owarasetainda kono fuzaketa engeki o

間違ったまま　生きてきたんだ 今更首輪を外されたって 一体何処へ行けばいいの ただ確かな　自分を欲した その代償がこれですか神様 全部酷過ぎるよ全部 もうういいからさ　早く 終わらせてよ machigatta mama ikitekitanda ima sara kubiwa o hazusaretatte ittai doko e ikeba ii no tada tashika na jibun o hoshita sono daishou ga kore desu ka kamisama zenbu hidosugiru yo zenbu mou ii kara sa hayaku owarasete yo

Notes:

While the first line could technically be translated without a subject, that phrasing is what one would use to say somebody told them something. I thought it was interesting in conjunction with the line marked as (1), as the person this is being told to is still the same, and yet it has lost its self and just become a “somebody” now. 

[rosenlied]

Drawing a Vocaloid song everyday during November day 8: Depression of the Literary Boy

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(hitsuji)

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[pippappop]

Vocaloid song of the day!

Day 58, July 25 2024

> Song: Hello/How Are You

> Artist: Nanou

> Virtual Singer(s): Hatsune Miku

Theme/Content Warnings (lyrics): N/A

Video Warnings: N/A

Link: https://youtu.be/-M4sAQYi6r4?si=GgAZ60WjxqKCbC9-

English lyrics: https://vocaloidlyrics.fandom.com/wiki/ハロ%EF%BC%8Fハワユ_(Hello/How_Are_You)

Pip's comments: i used to listen to this song often during my walk home in freshman/sophomore year

[lovelydeliciouscollective]

Carolee Clark.

[vsynthbday]

happy anniversary to "Hello / How Are You" (ハロ／ハワユ) by nanou (ナノウ)! this song came out 14 years ago today.

art by mztm | youtube upload

[luvrr-b0y]

演劇/Theater

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演劇/Theater - Nanou

“Everyone in the world has a part to play”

I heard a familiar voice once say

Anyone who makes an incompetent mess

We take the the blame for the whole fest

If we must abide by these cruel rules

There must be someone there acting as a fool

Can you hear my voice?

You’re the someone that I call

Somebody told someone that they know their part

“This is how you play this with your heart”

Saying that “These are just the words of my love”

Also “Everyone lives by these rules, dove”

Being so delighted of the faces they would make

That I played my role more better to make it fate

So desperately I forgot how to breathe

School bags thrown on the floor of such a mess

It looks like a dumpster alley, I confess

When has this habit begun to happen and by me of all people?

Do my surroundings check on my wary smile?

Or if I could have every wish come true a while 

It’s my desire to give up my role now

My whole life has been stuck playing a part of content hatred

I was always just so wrong I guess

For it’s been such a stupid mess

I’ve been leaded on by a collar on my neck 

What is the price of my sins, God?

Where do I need to go, tell me

It’s too much for me, you see

Please end this quick for me..

Some people act so irrational 

Along with someones patience as a virtue 

In the end, they all try find out how to play their roles

Their ugly roles others are expected to view

If it’s the way things will stay for long

My disappointment will soon bear fruit someday

When I believed that lie, it was stupid all along

Who taught me praying for this wish of mine

Was going to make it all just fine?

My innocent hopes and dreams for better futures would all come true, who told me just then?

If there’s a guardian angel watching over me

Please give me a name to call you, please?

Because I don’t know it anymore

I hoped for the morning to never ever come

Clasping my hands in a prayer, shaking —

But I see the shining sun in the sky 

I just need to know, is this a selfish desire? Please tell!

It’s a void so empty God

Nothing can be found in this place

But I’m tired of keeping up my breath

Or keeping up anything

In my search for someone to love me at all

An empty abyss, I let myself fall

On a stage with no one in the crowd, a voice suddenly spoke to me

It echoed “I’m here!” sobbing out so painfully 

Yelling “I want you to just notice me!”

The only one that could hear it and understand it though was just me 

Because that voice was mine yelling out loud

I have lived life not knowing my breathing was ever wrong 

And it finally came to my mind

Knowing this place was where I don’t belong

All I wanted was some self certainty

Lifting up the curse off my shoulders 

I’m free of the puppet strings I once had

Now the play I used to be in

Has reached its epilogue 

I’m awake at long last

 - END -

Written by L on 3/16/2024

[limelyrics]

Happy Hollow and the God Club/ハッピーホロウと神様倶楽部

Can’t feel a thing, no, not a thing, nothing’s happy

Cannot find joy and I cannot feel safe

Everyday’s going at a frightening pace

Everywhere I go is a frightening place

I heard about a kid kicked outta school today,

Said he was outed as a bully and he had to pay

See this world just isn’t made for me or anybody who associates with anybody

Ah,

What should I do? What can I do? 

Come and tell me why I feel like dying, ‘cause the feeling ain’t new

All throughout my brain, cobwebs are strewn

Everything I’ve thought of, I’ve already thought through

Happy hallow!

I’m praying to you, why don’t you get rid of the things that make me blue

Give me just a moment of peace for a while and I’ll always love you

Ah

The clock strikes midnight

Ah 

A dazzling fright

Ah

A group of misfits gathering together underneath the pale moonlight

Ah

Now everybody

Ah

Why don’t you follow me?

Divert yourself with God, become devotees!

The leader of our club is someone who can’t be seen

He’s a puppet, he’s a prophet, he’s what you want him to be

Twisted delusions, verbal abuses, we can fill him up with all those excuses

Strip away all of the pride you held before, when you come around here, nothing matters anymore

Carve a smile into that jack-o’-lantern, dance until you can’t anymore

Ah, once more, we’ll kneel before the god of the happy hollow that each one of us adores

Can’t feel a thing, no, not a thing, nothing’s in me

Everything is empty, so I bid you adieu

There’s nothing in particular I wanna do

Everything I’ve thought of, I’ve already thought through

Even if I go through life without a single sin

Even if I die always ignoring my whims

In the end, I’d end up in a coffin in a hole, slowly rotting from the outside in

What should I do? What can I do? 

Come and tell me why I feel like dying, ‘cause the feeling ain’t new

My life is blurring in and out of view

My heart is pounding heavy and it might push through

Happy hallow!

I’m praying to you, why don’t you get rid of the things that make me blue

Pierce me through the heart, and give me something that I can look forward to

Ah

Dingy coyotes

Ah

Cats, rats, and puppies

Ah

They sulk around and gather far away from the dimly lit town

Ah

Now everybody

Ah

Why don’t you follow me?

Let’s have a blast and go out on a big spree

The leader of our club is someone who can’t be seen

Not a soul has every seen him, he’s an eldritch entity

Anything obscene, anything sleazy, he’ll accept it all and just leave you be

Everybody here has the chance to be a star, everybody can do something so incredibly bizarre

Throw a white sheet over your body, cut some eyes, and dance to who we truly are

Ah, again, we say amen as another joins the score and prays to that we which we adore

Don’t wear yourself out by being so self conscious

After all we’re gonna end up skeletons and such

Wearing away at the things that keep you sane, living life by the book and just following the queue

Go ahead and live like that

No, don’t let me stop you

Ah,

Come on, take a peek and join all the freaks who drag along all their ugly souls

And even so, we walk on and live on, you know?

So anyone will do, come on, step right up!

Let it pierce through your soul if you’re feeling stuck

Oh, come light a lantern that can’t snuffed!

The nature of our club is a foolish little thing

So forever and forever we can fool around and sing

All your hopes and dreams, all of your grand schemes

You can chock us up to anything

Strip away all of the pride you held before, when you come around here, nothing matters anymore

Carve a smile into that jack-o’-lantern, dance until you can’t anymore

All alone, out on your own, kneel down to an empty god and call the loneliness your home

Indeed, you see, if you’re depressed or in need,

Why not come on over, knock on our door at the brink of dawn

Come on!

[violettranslations]

The Shoeshiner and Mary (靴磨きとマリア)

【Hatsune Miku】 The Shoeshiner and Maria 【Original】

今日も朝から路上で 僕の仕事は靴磨き 酒で狂った父親に 貢ぐため Today is yet another day of heading out early to work as a roadside shoeshiner so that I can make enough money to support my violent drunk of a father. 神様は皆平等に 動く心臓をくれたけど それ以外 何一つ 僕にくれなかった God was kind enough to bestow all people with one beating heart each, but other than that, he hasn’t given me a single thing.

一人目の客は鶏頭 二人目の客は猫頭 「ちゃんと拭けよ」と唾を吐いて 怒鳴られて My first client had a rooster’s head, my second had a cat’s. ”Put your back into it!” they’d spit at me, yelling with anger. ってかさっきから横に誰か居て ずっと僕を見詰めている？ 見上げたら強引に 話し掛けられた ...It’s been bothering me for a while now, but I’m pretty sure someone’s standing off to the side staring at me? As soon as I looked up, she got right up in my face. 『あなたが手に持ってる 　その黒いのは何？』 ”What’s that black thing you’ve got in your hand there?” 『五月蝿い邪魔だよ 　あっちへ行けよ 　馬鹿にしてんなら帰れよ』 ”Shut up, you’re in the way! Go, leave me alone. You’re wasting your time if you’re thinking of messing with me.” 其奴は俯いて 不貞腐れたような顔して 『これでお代になるかしら』って お守りを差し出した She hung her head and started to pout. ”Is this enough to cover the cost?” she asked, and held out a small charm. 汚れちゃった魂の 殴られて傷だらけの こんな僕に今更 何か用ですか神様 My soul’s already been tainted and I’m covered in bruises from beatings. God, what on earth could you possibly want from me now? お守りを差し出して 彼奴が笑ったその顔は 教会で見た聖母様の 絵みたいだった！ After giving me the charm, she smiled, and with that expression, she looked just like that of the paintings of the Virgin Mary I’d seen at church! 「世界はじきに終わるのだ 　望むと望まざるに関わらず」 襤褸絹みたいな爺さんが 叫んでる ”The end of the world is nigh, whether you embrace it to or not!” An old man cries, clad in something akin to ragged silk. 気付けば横に彼奴が居て 色んな事を話し合って それだけが少しだけ 僕は嬉しかった Before I realized it, the girl was always by my side talking to me about whatever crossed her mind. That alone was enough to make me the slightest bit happy. ああ今日も朝から路上で 望んでなどいない靴磨き いつしかそんな毎日は 変わってく Ugh, today is yet another day of heading out early to work by the roadside shining shoes I never wanted to shine. Without me noticing, that everyday routine had started to change. だんだん少なくなってきて ついに彼奴は来なくなった 解ってる 話すのを きっと止められたんだろ She started coming by less and less, and eventually stopped dropping by altogether. I knew what had happened. I’m sure that someone forbade her from speaking to me. 『あなたが心に持ってる 　その黒いのは何？』 ”What’s that black thing you’ve got in your heart there?” 『これはもうずっと消えないんだ 　どんなに泣いても喚いても』 ”This isn’t ever going away, no matter how much I cry or how hard I wail.” 彼奴のようにもっと 愛されたなら僕もきっと 人に優しくできるような 人間になれたかな I wonder if, had I been loved like she was, I could’ve become a kinder person. 汚れちゃった魂で 殴られて傷だらけで それでも愛されたいよって 口に出すことも出来ずに My soul’s already been tainted, and I’m covered in bruises from beatings, but I still want to be loved. I can’t even put that desire into words. 本当はもう分かっていた 嫌いになれない父親も 産まれた時はきっと皆 天使みたいだった！ Honestly, I’ve known for a while. I’m sure that even my father I can’t find it in myself to hate was, just like everyone else, born as innocent as an angel! 幸福な夢を見た 夢の中で彼奴と二人 手を繋いでゆっくり歩いた 横を見れば満面の笑みで I had a blessed dream. In my dream, I was with her. We walked slowly along, hand in hand, and when I glanced to her beside me, I’d see her brilliant smile. 目が覚めて泣いてしまった 薄汚いベッドの上で 見てはいけない夢だったんだ もう二度と叶わないのだから ああ 何故 出会ってしまったんだ When I woke up, I burst into tears. I had a dream I had no right to atop this dingy bed. Ah, I know I’ll never see her again, so why did the two of us ever have to meet? その日は特に酷かった どうせまた賭け事で負けたんだ 酔い散らかして当り散らす 父親 One day he was particularly cruel. My father must’ve lost at gambling again. Sputtering around in a drunken stupor, he took issue with anything I did. ふっと目に入った 僕の首から下げたお守り 「金に変えてくるから寄越せ」と 乱暴に手を伸ばす Suddenly, movement caught my eye. From my neck, the charm swung down. ”’Mma go pawn this for some cash. Givvit ‘ere,” he said, reaching out for it violently. 汚れちゃった魂の 殴られて傷だらけの こんな僕に産まれた 意味があるとでも言うなら My soul’s already been tainted and I’m covered in bruises from beatings. If despite all that, you claim that there’s still value in the fact that I was born... ぼこぼこに殴られて 血反吐を吐いて横たわって こんな毎日に何か意味が あると言うなら He beats me to a pulp, until I keel over, spitting blood onto the floor. If you claim that there’s still some kind of value in this everyday routine... ああ 骨が砕ける音がして 意識はもう曖昧で それでも固く握った右手 絶対に離すものか！ Oh no, I can hear my bones breaking, and my consciousness is fading. Throughout it all, I keep my right hand in a tight grip. I will never let it go! 痺れを切らした父親が 「そのまま死ねよ」と出て行った 折れた指の隙間から 光ったお守り 産まれて初めて勝ち取った 僕の宝物だ Having lost his patience, my father said “Well go on ‘n just die like that then” and left. The charm shone from inside the gaps between my fingers. It is my treasure, the first I’ve won since being born.