#Nandor gets respect and admiration he misses

[blue-b-bro]

Guillermo with Nandor: aggressively pulls him out of depressive episodes by fighting (verbally or literally), tired of his shit yet indulges him most of the times, generally takes care of him

Guillermo with Laszlo: "oh honey, shush now, don't fight 😘", all this domestic shit they do, me and my (??? what are they) on our silly quest again te he~

Even before s4 it kinda like Nandor is his demanding sensitive baby and Laszlo is that annoying unthreatening guy, like they were destined to be silly duo

[mr-nauseam]

Guillermo is fucking complicated and I'm so happy that I'm not the one who has to write him into a series officially but well how would HE have come to that conclusion? (Reference to this post here and the conclusion is clearly the wanting human set).

First I want to say that yes the imbalance of power influences this but beyond that I think one of the reasons these specific vampires became his found family is because he is similar to them on many points and one of them is the fear of change.

Yes to say that Guillermo the one who changed everything is afraid of change is one thing to say. I know but it doesn't seem so far fetched to me considering that for 13 years he helped maintain a status quo in the house until outside circumstances forced him to change. He literally had no choice.

That's where the familiar master power thing could come in because we've seen really old familiars but I think considering how alien the relationship is between Guillermo and Nandor to be master and familiar; this was Guillermo wanting to keep things the same. No alterations.

I think genuinely the 19 year old Guillermo wanted to be a vampire with his soul. And that there are more reasons behind why Memo kept the status beyond the fear he felt of change (his love for Nandor being the most obvious), but I can see how he wanted to be trapped to some extent with these creatures that have been left behind by the passage of time.

And the Van Helsing lineage thing happens. Memo abruptly receives an irrefutable sign that shatters his lifelong dream: being a vampire is not in the world's plans. You are a vampire hunter in reality.

Memo's world trembles to its foundations with this revelation and I find it very interesting how being a slayer brought him closer to what he wanted: to be an equal within the vampire house. That they would have respect for him and recognize his worth more than his power. Guillermo the hunter is everything the normal Guillermo can't but it's also not something that gives him 100%, what he wants. He has no interest in killing vampires unless they want to harm his own in some way.

He certainly doesn't enjoy the idea of slaughtering vampires for the sake of it. His conflict with the Baron his first victim is very telling as it is Memo doing almost irreparable harm to someone he admired and feared. A test of what his impact on others can do. Something that is overwhelming. Let alone Derek who is quite an issue in his own right.

Way back at the beginning of the season I talked about how Memo put a lot of expectations and dreams into the idea of vampirism. I think for as much as one would think that by reading Anne Rice's depressive vampires, Guillermo would be ready for what was coming his way it is more possible he was interested and focused on reflecting his complicated feelings about his sexuality, his self-esteem, his relationships, etc, in these than reflecting on the reality of vampirism.

Memo suffered an abrupt shock because his whole idealization of vampirism was destroyed and slaughtered in unimaginable ways. And it was a very strong idealization with good foundations, for 13 years he saw these vampires enjoying their immortal existence and being free and sexy.

So it is only natural that his fall into the reality of vampirism and his eventual disenchantment was stronger. First shock; vampirism does not make him his best version. His insecurities are still there and in fact grow. He is still the same. Second shock: it is natural for the 19,20,21,etc. Memo. He wouldn't have cared about his biological family, he was young and felt he would never miss them but selfishly he is 30 and now wants them back because Laszlo and Nandor in their own way in s3, ruined his big chance of be a vamp and he dind't how deeply all the vampires love him. Then in s4 he shows his family for who he really is in a way and gets their love and validation. It's hard to say goodbye forever. More because they are slayers too, they would want to destroy you.

Third shock: it's irreparable. What, you may say with the ending but I really don't think anyone but Nandor knew that sire thing exactly. Makes sense, he's one of the few who read the vampire code apparently. So Guillermo knew this was a decision with no turning back.

And finally added this season was the bonus that vampirism could make him be far from the love of his life and his FOUND FAMILY!

Second part later