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hes1an1asshole · 6 months ago

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One time there was this fucking bitch, I was telling her about this guy I liked and how he was coming to the library today she was like "I'm so excited to meet him" and I was like "me too", I was kinda worried they wouldn't get along but then they got alo g to well they started talking and I was so worries he would like her more, even if it was in a platonic way, at one point I left because I dunno that's usually my response when possible to anything, leave. He dragged me back by the wrist I think, I love him. After that she begged me for his number I refused, she went up to him in school and was asking him and he was like "oh Taylor has my number, you can jsut ask her" and she was slike "no I can't be-" and was gonna tell hum I refused to give it to him. Then later I joked that she's not allowed to talk to him anymore and I even out "/joking" so she knew, amd then she was like " you can't do that, we really bonded you know" like...yeah...thanks for reminding me, I litterally said I wa smoking no need to get that upset girly

Later we're hanging out at the library and litterally every time he comes she runs and hugs him, which to be fair she does to everyone but he rarely hugged me so thst fucking...nvm...but yeah we were playing dnd together and he had was sitting on her side a lot while they were trying to make her character and he kept getting really stressed out because she kept leaving all the time, and we were like an hour in haven't made her character yet, and then she fuckung hugged him and he was like "" thank you" and im like " fucking asshoke" were at the library another time amd I kept leaving because I wa upset for some reason probably because of Charlie doing stuff with my bf and I knew I couldn't stop from crying so I felt really bad but I had to keep leaving, because I couldn't let him see me break down and cry but I and to keep leaving to ball my eyes out Erica*librarian* said they were looking for me but then i come back and she's touching him on the face, probably wiping his tears cuz he got frustrated like the little bish she is, one time she was upset for some reason and attitude wanted to hug her and she was like "no, I don't want to, hug your gf" and he was like " I don't want to". He also says stuff like "go" or " leave"

I'm pretty sure he's joking but it hurts, I wish I could tell him it hurts, but I don't want him to know it hurts, I'm pretty sure he's never seen me cry, he's seen me panic, but not cry, because everytime I'm about to I'd run away

I was gonna write a song on chat got in how much I love him, and then u started brainstorming ideas, and then I wrote all this lol

Also no hate to my bf please, he doesn't mean it, I think-hope, it's my fault, I need to be more communicative about my needs rather than just letting this sit because I'm so scared of my fear turning into hate, and I think I've let it a few times, maybe, I can't rember, I was crying the whole time I wrote this,, it's way to late rn but maybe tmmrw if we call or maybe I could text him say " remember how you'd tell me to leave during school a lot lol" and then he'd probably say smthin like "....yeah what about it?" And I'd say ".. could you maybe not do that next year" and u know it's way to late for me to be making any promises because I know once I wrote birthday cards for him at like 3 am and expected my non- 3 am sled to give it to him

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