#NO BCUZ YOURE SO RIFHT

[sweet-little-dude]

AWWW OK THATZ SO GOOD TO HEAR, LOVE U TOOO

its my daily or hourly or whatever trip to your inbox time and i just have to ask abt pah chin x peh yan man. IDC IF THEYRE CANONICALLY MARRIED and a lot of ppl see them as straight men which is understandable but idk man i think theyre really compatible together as well as peh being so loyal to pah chin i just love them ok.......they're just some sillies give them a chance

lmao sorry i took so long to reply i was busy replying to your other things... our ways of communication are a mess but well. it is what it is okay anyways

honestly they’re one of the like.... one pair of best friends that i actually prefer as best friends ngl idk. ship is also good!! and they can platonically kiss all they want idc. or romantically if they want ig. basically whatever their relationship is >>>>>

I LOVE THEM SO SO MUCH YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND

i don’t think about them half as much as i’d want to but i genuinly love them they are so asgjhdfh scrunkly <333 idk

tbh all that matters to me is that they stay at each other’s side forever. happily. they deserve it

congratulations to pah-chin & peh-yan to be two of the very few fictional characters that i just want to be happy. i love angst but not for them !! they deserve fluff and happiness and all the good things there are

i might be a little too soft for them but eh

they ARE just some sillies so true. very underrated sillies at that

conclusion: pah-chin & peh-yan as best friends > pah-chin & peh-yan as romantic relationship >>>>> anyone else /hj

thinking about it.... them... but queerplatonic........

[kusundei]

chat somethitb baf is happening.

no bcuz i had tbaf feeling this mornjng a little. i assumed it was me recovering from what i had said last night and grieving slightly but as the hours pass im slowly getting mire and more scared. i feel. sick.

i just i pdnt know god forbid the shower isnt helping. i think its the hot water its makinf it hard ti breathe but i know i wont have a panic attack no more how hard id wish it jnto existance. god how i wish i cohld have them still but im doomed to recovery even if it makes me more ill. im shaking and the water is boiling but i fesl cold. my throat is closing in on itself and j cant breathjkiuhwe? and i just feel so. so. torn? confused? doomed?

i. just. theres so much going in i think and god let it be the homework looming over me or the threat of the job or just home or eli and kira or god ajax. let jt be any but not all at once i am sick

i just i feel os. so. so. so. ? i cnatn even explain it i feel too mich right now and i cant pinpoint what im feelifn exaclty im jsut i cant

the most horrible bit abo this is that eight now like ysual im thinking about her. shes pipped into my mi today and she wont leave me alone and its been looming ovee me more than usual i just i dont know ehat is happening i feel strange nad insecure and i want to have a panica ttaxk so fuckinf abd but i cant because i hate when it just sticks okto me i feel sick

i genuinely cant im jjst so. fucking. i dokt knowni just i keep thinking about everything for no reason and its freakinf menkht and god forbif i just i .? i??, i want ajax so bad right njow?,? do nkt miscontrue my words i hhst i want to tely on someone and i want to let myself be vulnerable and i want to cry and i want someone to hug me and tlel me everyhtjng will be okay and that im nkt a burden and i can take up space and i can feel my own feeling snad j dont have to leep bearing others and keep doing thigs flr lther people and i want somekne to tell me im not selfish and im not a horrible person and god what the fuc is happenjnf tl me

i jsht god i cannt. the teason jd is looming so badly over me and gkf forbid i thjnk about bella too right now bht j jsut i cant? im taunting by mysrlf. consemning myself. i can commhnicate i am good at thag i can help myself but i juet i dont know what im doinfg. i feel strange and matbe thats what it is from yesterday because i said that and i regret it because i teel like ive just dumped all my feelings out for no reason i let mtself be vulnerable becahse i wasnt thiking straight and now im scared. im scared in the same wag hes scared i dont like change. i dont like jt and im thinking abkut it now and in scared? and jdotn know why??? i want change with you but im also horrified i wont be enlufh and i cant help. god forbid jd mindset rekindles inside of me but i jjst im so scared to be vulnerable. ii want to rely on someone j want to bevulnerabme i want to tell you im not feeljng good right now and i want you to know eberythint about me and i want you to understand but . but. but. theres so much stopping me. you are not mine but i am yours heh webweaving but i jhst i cant chat? ,? i an not your issue. you have your own issues you vocalized them with me and i just feel so. broken.? i dont confess that i feel the same way becahse i will not soeak into the truth that i am also doomed that i am broken and i am lying and i am a horrible person truly at heart and i wanted to help yu and put you first becaushe you mean soso much to me but i am not the good version of you i am the version of yoy that is lying to make themself feel better and victimize themself and hurt. hurt peiple hurt people. i an fuckijng ill andi an talking aboth so many things rifht now i jsut god jd i cant i mjss her but i dont i miss the wway felt with her thag i felt like i could be comfortable and talk to her and be broken but i cant do that with you because im not lile that. i an not rhat gersion of me anymore and god i just icantn fucking im ill and theres sp much . i am thinking ablht all the time god forbid your ex and the others and i am ill and sickened and selfish and horrible. and i didnt eben respond to eli and im horriblr and i keep trying to distract myself but tis nlt working and GOD you keep texting me and i jsht want to talk to you and cry i want to crt so bad i want to tell you that i need you but why do i need you why am i so attached to oyou am i already codependent from this many months? am i broken? am i still sick? i have healed in the least jmpprtant points i jjst i im sp. I cant. injsjt i need to calm down and think i feel so horrible ans so selfish i want someone to hell me but i want to be doomed but i want spmelone and i want thag to be you but im selfis h and im sorry

[deeply-unserious-fellow]

Hey, hello! I am really sorry for sending this, I just hope I’m not overstepping any boundaries as I’m about to ask for help which is very important right now. Our Sleepy cat requires urgent medical attention from the veterinarian. She is experiencing pain and I don’t have the money to take her to the vet to help her. so, I am asking for help from any well-wisher. Even if you can’t spare some money to help, reposting the link would be of great help. She helps me in taking care of my daughter since they are best friends and she is my only close relation with mom since my mom died last year 2021. If you would be interested to help, I have Pinned the post on my blog, please you can try reply to the ask privately as well because some people like getting creepy over this matter. We are alright, pray for us, please. ♥️🙏

Okay I'm actually gonna use this as an opportunity to set some boundaries cuz if I don't do it now I'll never get around to it- donation asks aren't something I really encourage sending to me. I can't donate myself, because I don't have a bank account or a reliable source of income, and I don't have a large enough audience for your request to reach... anybody, really. Obvs if somebody does send an ask abt that kinda thing I'll post it, but there really isn't anything I can do beyond that. I also won't post them rifht away bcuz spamming posts like that is a good way to get those posts buried and I want everybody to have a fair shot. I rlly don't care if ppl send in asks like this, like y'all do what you gotta do to get by I'm not judging, but I think it's important that ppl understand I am just one broke teenager with a mediocre following who can't actually. Do much to help.

That being said, I do actually hope u get the funds to help ur cat dude, sorry I can't help rhat much