#NEVER FELT SO INVESTED OVER A GUMBY BUILT GENIUS

[mrs-weasley-reid]

Here's the thing... I have NEVER seen prison Spencer Reid. Pictures, gifs, and clips? Yes. Watching it? solid NO.

After Hotch left the BAU (aka the freaking show, still mad about it and will never not be mad about it), I had a hard time watching the show cuz Derek just left episodes ago from the past season. But I kept going since yk I'm Spencer's wife, and I gotta support my loofah-haired husband.

When I got to S12 x E11, Surface Tension, I was so sad cuz I wanted to give Spencer a tight hug.

Then, I got to S12 x E13, Spencer, and really mastered my pause game just to repeatedly say "wtf" while staring at the screen.

It took me a whole week to finish S12 x E14, Collision Course. I was so devastated by the plot that I couldn't continue without eating one bar of chocolate every time I watched it. During those times, I take a good number of breaks in between, like it's a full-time job.

S12 x E15, Alpha Male, was my undoing. Five minutes into the episode, I paused and never looked back.

I kept rewatching, but anything after S11 was repressed somewhere in my brain. I would mourn the episode where Derek decides to leave and then restart at S1. Still, though, I know a few things here and there. Cuz I cannot escape the fandom and fanfics, I didn't mind the knowledge. Watching it was a different story.

And now, after sooooo many years, I finally decided to push through.

I'm back on S12 x E15, and literally five minutes in, I paused and started typing this entire thing.