#Mr.Sharpe

[bektemir03]

Daddy? Sorry. DAD–

[l3m0ngal5]

Benny and champagne get into an argument with off screens biological parents

Hearing the bell benny got excited. "Hello there, customer." She washed past benny and grabbed onto offstream before loudly announcing." Oscar, there you are, we finally found someone who is willing to cure you A man tried to grab off screen's hand champagne Stop him " I don't know what you crazy.To doing but you are not leaving here with Off screen" The Woman looked angry."He's Are son and Mr.Sharp Was just holding Him for a while " Benny awkwardly Sneaker " I'd like to keep holding" The man wiped his vest " Well i'm sorry mr sharp but You and Your assistant We ll have to say goodbye" Benny laughed hard he grabbed his chest " That is one strange way to say boyfriend" The man's face went pale.They left our son In the care of" Champagne charmgpain step closer " He's are son now " The 2 left In a Huph And off screen hugged his real parents Benny and champagne.

[tiny-starky]

Hey there co-founder of the Stark Sex Cult, how’ve you been?

I miss you and your snark!

Heyyyy there I've been good! A little a lot busy at the lab, you know how it goes.

I've missed you too! Its so good to see you again. How are you doing?

God I sometimes forget how good I'm gonna look when I get older

[tiny-starky]

Oh good to know what someone understands. I keep locking Thomas out of my lab because I find him sweet talking to the bot and having "intellectual conversations" with him

#8 and 25 for the asks

8. 3 tv shows that you never get bored of

FRIENDS

Modern Family

Downton Abbey

25. 3 people you’d never get tired of

@sir-thomas-sharpe-anon

@alrightmrstark

Does Dum-E count as people?

Ask games

[kamil-g-arts]

Ya know i just had to draw this scene( and maybe do a little bit of fixing* )

[aikofanfan]

Mr.Sharp??

Mr.Shaaarrrrppppp????

Oh my fuckin god

He fuckin dead.

[lucifers-horror-harem]

“Well if it isn’t Mr.Sharpe himself! Amber here, obviously, and I have a question.” The red-head sat on his desk, picking up some of the paper work he had out, looking them over idly, flipping through as she asked, “How do you feel about a partner who can take care of themselves WITHOUT- ” she glanced to him, big smile, “ -your help? You know like someone who wouldn’t take shit from you. Think you’d be able to handling reining them in?” She threw the pages back down, “Or at least try to anyway.”

@bisexual-horror-fan​

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Alan glanced up from his work as he looked up at where Amber was perched on the edge of his desk. With a click of his tongue, he folds his hands on the desk and looks up at her. “Well, Miss Cottrell, I certainly appreciate someone that can hold their own, as much as I do enjoy having a partner that gives me the affection I need when I need it, I can’t help but also enjoy working for it a little.” Alan smirks. “And while I have no idea what you might be trying to get at, I can assure you, Amber, that I can more than handle any challenge that might present itself to me.”

[faeded]

open to @theodoresharpe​ . location in sycamore heights, junos home.

   she was always someone who waited until the problem couldn’t be ignore anymore. that shouldn’t be a problem if it wasn’t for the fact a good portion of her poor home needed care and attending too. although her hands were not the ones to do so, hell even know she was attempting pasta for lunch and she was barely doing that right. was the water suppose to be boiling a lot or just with little bubbles? something in her decided cooking would be a better hobby then shopping and in the mix she would be adult enough to call someone for help. the younger gal on the street told her about a handyman in the neighborhood and like the stars aligned just right he was free on her day off too.

    just as she had glanced to the clock, the knocking indicated he’d arrived. on time probably, the vintage clocks batteries died at “4:00″ it seemed. a soft sigh came out she quickly moved to the front door, a large smiling playing on her face to greet him. “hi-- i’m sorry i have water, on the stove and i just -- need to go watch it please come in! shoes go on the beatles rug and just come meet me in the kitchen once you’re ready. oh ! i’m sorry i’m juno, you’re mr.sharpe right?” her words came out in a ramble as she spoke and attempted to listen for a sizzling noise.

[stilwaterskeeter]

Lin/Playa Headcanons

This has been a top priority post since I made this blog believe it or not. This will also be specifically a female Playa/Boss character because I personally headcanon Lin as a lesbian

This post also goes out to @syndicateau because wlw Lin rights

Lin had pretty low expectations of The Playa when they first met, she shared Johnny’s opinion of the new girl. Doesn’t look like much and a little bummed out she got stuck babysitting the new girl instead of working with a more experienced Saint

That being said, Lin was however relieved that the new kid was a girl. There’s not many in the Saints at the time and Lin was getting real sick of some of these asshole dudes and their gross comments so The Playa is a breath of fresh air, even though they’re pretty quiet most of the time

Lin was pretty quickly impressed with The Playa. She was efficient, skilled, and followed Lin’s plans, never tried to outshine her or do her own thing because she thinks her plan is better than Lin’s or some crap

And even when The Playa went off the plan, it actually helped the plan instead of just derailing it and putting them back at square one

Not to mention she was also pretty cute and Lin certainly wasn’t going to complain about working with someone easy on the eyes

Lin was also one of the first people in the Saints to hear The Playa talk

She made some witty comment when they were scoping out Donnie’s garage and it took Lin a moment to process it was The Playa who said something next to her

Lin tried to coax more out of the girl be joking how she didn’t know she could even talk but she’s met with more silence and a shrug

She doesn’t have an explanation for replaying that dumb joke The Playa made in her head and ruining her focus after that

It wasn’t even that funny, what the hell

After that, Lin tries to get The Playa to talk more in various different ways. She says it’s just to prove she’s not crazy and that the girl definitely can talk, but in actuality she just liked their voice and wants to hear it more. And the fact that she could in theory have Actual Conversations with her and make excuses to talk to her more was a Big plus for Lin

Her “plans” to get The Playa to talk consist of just leaving extended pauses between certain sentences when she’s talking about her plans to leave her a chance to speak up. And also of directly asking her random questions when they’re hanging out that aren’t as simple as yes or no

The questions plan works a few times. Asking why she’s in the Saints or trying to ask anything about her past really will usually coax a comment about how it’s “not worth the time” or how it’s “in the past so what does it matter?”

The Playa also starts chiming in with more witty comments as time goes on, all of them about as funny as a piece of wet cardboard usually but Lin laughs anyways

She doesn’t have an excuse for that and Johnny makes fun of her for it relentlessly because “Damn, Lin. I didn’t know you had such a shitty sense of humor.” And other wise comments

Speaking of Johnny: He and Aisha both act as (albeit shitty) wingmen for Lin and The Playa because they know Damn Well what’s going on between them even if neither Lin or The Playa will admit it

Johnny gets a rise out of The Playa by always making random comments about how “Hey, you seen Lin today? She’s lookin’ pretty hot—“ and then continues to describe Lin in literally just whatever clothes he thinks of first because he really doesn’t pay attention to Lin like that ever but The Playa does

She always corrects him with an added comment about how weird it is that he was looking because she’s kind of gullible and she doesn’t catch on that he’s just messing with her

Aisha and Johnny both repeatedly try asking Lin about The Playa like “The Playa’s kind of attractive, and you work with her a lot, you thinkin’ about making any moves?”

Lin always responds with the same eyeroll and dodging the question. “I don’t really have the time, Eesh, I’m busy” or “You work with her a lot too, Johnny, you sure you don’t wanna try anything?”

That’s not a no, Lin

Lin starts taking The Playa to Freckle Bitch’s and to street races she’s competing in when she doesn’t need to be hiding or undercover from Rollerz

She says it’s just because she wants to talk business with her or that she wants The Playa there “just in case any Rollerz show up to ruin the fun”

But we all know she just wants excuses to spend time with her and maybe show off a little

Girls totally dig street racers right?

She also starts taking the time to help The Playa learn how to race better and offers to help her fix up her cars for racing

Lin’s actually pretty private about her work when she’s working on her voxel, but she never minds The Playa hanging around when she’s busy with the car

It’s another chance to show off for her of course she’s totally okay with The Playa’s presence

The Playa literally couldn’t understand less about what the fuck Lin is saying when she’s talking technical about all the guts of mechanic work but she listens intently nonetheless

If Lin cares about it then shit so does she

Not to mention Lin’s kind of hot when she’s working on the car and gets all passionate and into it

The Playa is reasonably a little touchy and jealous about Lin stringing Donnie along even for the mission

Lin actually seems to enjoy the time she spends with Donnie and starts mentioning unrelated pieces of information from their time like shitty jokes Donnie made or Donnie being a klutz

The Playa is starting to think she had Lin pegged all wrong and misunderstood all the signals because it’s starting to look like Lin is actually into Donnie and even if she had a chance before she probably missed it now

Johnny and Aisha think that’s absolutely ridiculous because They Know Lin doesn’t swing that way but they aren’t about to be the assholes who out her, even though Johnny comes close one time when The Playa is trying his patience with all this “woe is me” crap

When Mr.Sharp has Lin in the pool hall, it takes him a painstaking anount of time to get Lin to comply and lure The Playa there

She was not about to get her stuck in this situation with her. It’s her problem and whether she’d ever admit it out loud or not, she doesn’t want her to get hurt. Especially not because of her own mistake

Eventually she only complies because she thinks that if anyone could end this with Sharp dead and neither of them severely injured, it’s The Playa

Jokes on her, I guess, huh?

Oh Boy here’s where it gets fun. I’m gonna split the rest into 2 different versions. One where Lin lives and one where she dies.

Lin Dies

The Playa doesn’t even think for a second that Lin needs her to get her out of the water

Lin’s too fucking badass, she doesn’t need help, she can handle herself

The Playa was too blindsighted by her anger at Donnie and Sharp to think twice about it. She gets out of the water and fucking bolts for the first car she can grab and races off because she’s going to fucking kill Sharp and she’s really going to teach Donnie a fucking lesson for betraying Lin’s trust like that

Lin loved him and he just left her and The Playa to fucking drown? Oh, he’s going to fuckin’ get it

She doesn’t find out until the next day that Lin drowned...she drowned because she didn’t help her

She was so caught up in killing Sharp and how Donnie betrayed Lin that she didn’t think for a second that she was ultimately the one who put the last nail in Lin’s coffin. She is the one who betrayed Lin the worst

Johnny and Eesh do their beat to keep The Playa’s spirits up but Johnny is Johnny and isn’t much comfort or help and she’s not the most comfortable with confiding in Aisha at the time

They do take her to tag along on some of their smaller dates though and Johnny starts putting time into trying to find where Donnie ran off to because “revenge is the best medicine”

Donnie and The Boss really get into it in SR2 when she finds him throwing the flowers into Lin’s watery grave

Donnie’s really fucking confused at first when she’s yelling at him for betraying Lin’s trust and love like he did. He manages to get in a few words that makes The Boss pause for a moment because Donnie definitely just established that he thought Lin and her were together

“You what? What the fuck made you think that?”

“I-I don’t know! She really liked you a-and I just kind of assumed—“

The Boss originally was just interested in revenge but now she’s going to get Donnie to rig some Brotherhood trucks so she isn’t just wasting time while she interrogates him about Lin

Whomp whomp whomp, turns out he and Lin talked about cars, her, and Joseph and there was never anything romantic there

“I can’t believe you thought me and Lin— We were both gay, what the hell, man. I thought you knew about her.”

The Boss also decides then and there that she’s not done with Donnie yet though, she wants him to hurt like she hurt for so long

Lin Lives

When Lin wakes up in a fucking ambulance she’s really fucking confused because she should be dead

She used what breath she had left to get The Playa out, what the fuck is she doing alive and on her way to the hospital?

Lin absolutely cannot believe for a second that The Playa wasted precious time to save her. She didn’t think they cared about others that much, let alone her

She hates being cooped up in the hospital and hates Julius’ babysitters waiting with her while the Rollerz are still around, but honestly she doesn’t mind when The Playa shows up between missions to tell her in detail how she killed Sharp and later Joseph

And after the Rollerz are out, while The Playa still doesn’t have a ton of free time, she still visits as much as she can just to talk

She talks a lot now

Jokes about how much money she’s being forced to dosh out on mechanics while Lin is out of commision

Talks about that one time Mr.Wong hired her to kill a hot dog mascot and about how she fucked up bad enough that it took her $500 at Forgive & Forget to get the cops off of her ass

Tells Lin about how Johnny is ever the classy guy and got his knee blown out with a shotgun from Big Tony because he couldn’t help from making a sex joke about Tanya and how Dex and Troy are constantly at each others’ throats with The Carnales

It’s like the new girl just doesn’t shut up ever now

And funny enough, Lin finds that she really doesn’t mind. She really likes talking to this girl

Oh no, Johnny was right

Lin thinks for a while about date ideas she can ask The Playa on after she gets discharged but they all sound annoying, lame, and way too cushy for her tastes

Ultimately she invites The Playa to her place because “Fuck it, after all the shit we’ve done I don’t care. I almost died and I’m not about to miss my chance again because I can’t think of something like a date idea.”

The Playa is very confused at all the increasingly obvious passes Lin is making towards her when they’re at her crib because they’re still pretty sure she was into Donnie and not her

Lin has the patience of a rock and gets frustrated and gives up within the first hour or two, “How are you this stupid?! How am I still attracted to you?! I’m trying to get into your fucking pants, do you wanna fuck or not?”

In SR2, it turns out Lin had the same idea as The Boss and they ran into each other at the courthouse both trying to break Johnny out.

They work as well together as they always have, it’s like almost no time has passed at all

“You get Johnny, babe. I’ll meet you two outside. Same old voxel but it’s purple because fuck the Rollerz.”

“Meet us up front, no point in going the long way if they already know we’re here.”

“And don’t get blown up again, okay?”

“Fuck, I missed you.”

[sir-thomas-sharpe-anon]

Mr.Sharpe I just been accepted into an honor society at my university!

Oh my dear,

How delightful, congratulations, I am very proud of you!

Would you like to pick a little drawing for yourself?

[bisexual-horror-fan]

Have a taste y'all. Amber Cottrell and Alan Sharpe. A slice. Nothing too out there, just these two dancing around each other.

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One night it was late, important end of quarter matters needing to be discussed, everyone else had cleared out, only the two of them could handle this particular issue. They were in his office, the lights were low and while normally he would hate being stuck here so late, getting to be here alone with her on his turf was more than worth it. Especially for this. She was seated on his desk, hair down, it was so long, he wanted to bury his fingers in it and feel how soft those curls were. She had those glasses off in one hand, legs crossed and reviewing notes. Her legs were bare today, when she crossed her legs like that it showed more thigh and he wished he could see even more. She had removed her jacket again, a button or two more than exactly appropriate undone on her blouse but they were alone and she was clearly comfortable.

She spoke and pulled him out of his thoughts, “Can you review this bottom paragraph? I am unsure about the wording.” She held out the paper and he took it, their fingers brushed and it had been months of this. Of subtle and not so subtle flirting and talking, meetings and looks, small touches that started to linger longer and longer and he felt that urge again but this time he didn’t suppress it. “Hey Amber?”

He asked and she hummed, already looking over more paperwork as she responded, “Yes Mr.Sharpe?” He has taken to using her first name a long while ago but she still insisted on calling him that, it bothered him how she said it, so teasingly, like she knew it got to him.

“Would you be opposed to having dinner together?” She set the paper down, attention fully on him. “Why Mr.Sharpe what are you suggesting?” She asked it with this coy little smile and fuck how did she keep on doing this?

“It would be business related of course-” She nodded once, “Of course.” She looked so pleased, one hand on his desk, leaning closer, she tucked her glasses into the open collar of her shirt and she brushed some of her hair behind her ear with her same hand as she asked, “I wouldn’t say no. I’m curious, do you cook or are you a bigger fan of eating out?” The raise of her eyebrows as she said those last two words, the slight bite of her bottom lip after she said it.

“Oh I am a very, very big fan of eating out.” She smirked and said, “What a coincidence. Me too.”

There was just this beat of them looking at each other, he had the distinct thought wondering just how long they were going to keep dancing around each other like this. “So you got a place in mind?”

She asked it as she leaned back, stretching her arms up over her head and he just watched her, how her eyes closed and the small hum she let out, trying to release some of the lingering tension in her muscles, eyes lingered on how the buttons on her blouse strained against her ample chest.

“Not really…” He leaned forward, forearms on his desk, his own jacket had been long since abandoned, he had his sleeves rolled up, he noticed how much she would look at the exposed skin whenever he wore his dress shirts like this around her, having her eyes on him, looking at him like that was something he understandably wanted more of.

“Well do you have any particular cravings?” She asked, arms falling back down, eyes back on him, soft smile on those glossed lips and fucking hell did he have cravings, his current craving was to find out whatever Miss Amber Cottrell tasted like. He always liked her last name and it prompted him to say, “French is good.”

She perked up at that, “Oh French is very fucking good! You know I like you more and more every day Mr.Sharpe.” He couldn’t help the smile that spread across his face, “So she admits that she likes me. Bout fuckin’ time.”

She laughed at that. “Awe come off it. You know I like you, how much more obvious does a girl have to make it?” He had some ways in mind that she could start employing to help convince him.

“How about you start with saying yes to dinner.” He asked and she smiled, “Yes I would love to have dinner with you.”

I feel like you should all know that @lucifers-horror-harem and I have been talking extensively about Amber Cottrell and Alan Sharpe hooking up and what that would be like and I may have written almost 5k of set up of how they meet and get to know each other. They tease each other and flirt RELENTLESSLY and it is too fun.

[detectivemxriarty-blog]

❝Love is not a lost cause. I will not betray the one true love of my life.❞ [ from thomas ]

@neverpartedOrla raised an eyebrow at Thomas, before smiling shyly. She held up a fold up fan to her face, trying to blow away the colour off her cheeks."My, Mr.Sharpe you are rather good with your words. You're not trying to woo me, are you?"A small, but playful smirk spread across her lip. She folded her fan once she was done with it, although her cheeks still had a rosie tone to the.

[tiny-starky]

Tones! It’s always good to find you active around here!

What song are you jamming to these days? I’m in need of a revamp of my playlist.

Heyyy there! It's good to be around here, I've missed you!

Alright, this is a little Playlist with the songs I've been listening to the past days. I have to say you've come kind of to the wrong person because I listen to the same songs on repeat until I can't stand the sound of them but anywayyy

Under Pressure - Queen, David Bowie

Killer Queen - Queen

Edge Of Seventeen - Stevie Nicks

Peach - BROODS

Rocket Man -Elton John

Only Angel - Harry Styles

7 Rings - Our Last Night (That's a staple song for me and it's somehow always stuck in my head)

Goodbye Yellow Brick Road - Elton John

Family Lines - Conan Gray

Breath Of Life - Florence + The Machine (this one is curtesy of your hubby)

Tell me some songs that you like I feel like it's time for me to expand my horizons

[bellringermal]

oh jeez, your LND fanfiction sounds amazing every time you talk about it! Will you ever release it to the public, English translated or not?

EDIT: this post became longer than I thought and contains stupid ramblings about gothic literature and me overanalyzing stuff even if nobody asked me about any of this lmao. You’ve been warned.

Thank you :3 I’m pretty proud of that little soap-opera! Has been a while since I spent so much time just dwelling into characters’ personalities and trying to imagine how they changed as time went by. The last time I did something like this was at least 5 years ago with my own original characters.

Sadly, translating it would take me way too much time considering that I just hit 40 pages (add the 150+ pages of my ‘main’ fanfic and you’ll get the picture of how much Gehrmaria and Micorom crap I’ve written XD) but I can consider uploading the Italian one somewhere in the future.

The biggest problem I have with the LND AU rn and why I am hesitant to post it anywhere (aside from the language) is that I’ve lost the 1st chapter when my file got corrupted and I honestly doubt that I’ll ever re-write it. It was a nice introduction imho, taking place 8 years after the massacre of Fishing Hamlet with Patches, now on the run like many other Cainhurst survivors, carrying on his sketchy business in post-industrial revolution Lothric and giving Gehrman precious information in exchange for a conspicuous sum of money. The greedy bastard :P

From there, Gehrman made contact with Greirat (or at least, his Bloodborne-ish counterpart. He’s not supposed to be the same man, just like Patches is not the same as DeS and DS1-3) who’s the counterfeiter who forged Maria’s documents allowing her to safely leave Carim. The story then moves to the small, peaceful village near the border between Vinheim and Astora where Maria fled, a place so different from Yharnam that Gehrman can’t believe his eyes. I just like to imagine how shocked the characters would be to find themselves in places where not everything is trying to kill them lmao.

I mean, it’s super cheesy. It’s a rip off of the worst Phantom of the Opera fanfiction ever written (and performed. I still can’t believe that I saw that thing on stage 3 times. I AM SCARRED FOR LIFE WEBBER!) after all, but I guess that’s why I love Gehrmaria so much in the first place XD

I love Gothic Romance and many of its tropes but I am bored to death by how most of the time it presents female characters. Boring, empty, subservient ladies with no character *cough cough, Christine, cough*. So, let me explain why I find Maria to be a much more engrossing character, but in order to do so, we need to take a look at the old man himself first :P

Gehrman perfectly mets all the ‘requirements’  of the male counterpart in traditional gothic romance:

Is in a position of authority over the female lead. (Owner of the mansion/castle/whatever spooky place the story takes place in, teacher, replacement of a fatherly figure, betrothed the poor girl has never met before and so on)

Is usually older than the heroine and of a different social status.

Deceives the heroine. (this aspect changes from character to character and can range from an elaborate evil plan to kill the heroine just like Mr.Sharpe plans to do in Crimson Peak to Erik hiding his monstrous appearance from Christine or simply hiding an inconvenient secret like Mr.Rochester does in Jane Eyre. Most of the time, is just hiding the fact that they REALLY like the chick because *insert moral reason here*.

Uncertainty of reciprocation / unreturned love.

Elements of manias of various sorts and neuroses. (Ironically enough, these characteristics are found also in positive heroes such as the Byronic ones. In fact, most modern super villains AND superheroes can be considered Byronic heroes, depending on who you ask.)

Is associated with the supernatural, death and the underworld. (it can be through visual clues, the house is described as a tomb, is located underground, the character possess attributes, supernatural or not, that associate them with death. Erik is literally a living corpse, Maxim De Winter is haunted by the ghost of his deceased wife and Dracula is obviously a vampire. I don’t like to include Dracula among the other boys because his character was made an icon of tragic love only in modern media and not in the original book :/. “Eros&Thanatos” and “Death and the Maiden” are really common archetypes.)

etc.. etc…

BUT what I like about this ship is that you can easily turn the tables and say that almost all of the above applies somehow to Maria too. She is in a position of power being a noblewoman from a scary and powerful family of pseudo-vampires with a dark history. She’s not physically inferior in any way and had no reason to take interest in someone like Gehrman unless she wanted to because she saw something admirable in them or because they proved themselves worthy of her attention. Maria is also depicted in canon as someone in possession of traits traditionally associated with gothic heroines such as kindness, mercy and the will to bring solace to those who suffer BUT Gehrman possesses the exact same traits even if he shows them in a different way.

Personally, I love how balanced they are and that’s why I like writing about them so much.

[sweater-daddiesdumbdork]

Come on Mr.Sharpe sir, I gotta save you from Hiddles... Shes a menace tonight.

For the FMK, Thomas Sharpe, James Conrad, Loki.

I haven't had the chance to see most of Tom's characters, but these ones I have and I do enjoy your turn on the characters! It's always nice to see you posted something whatever the character you wrote! I love your work and I'm excited to see more

Okay, I love all these!!  This is super hard.  Legit.  

Fuck- Loki.  That is a given.  no other explanation needed.

Marry- Can I marry both and just be in a poly relationship??!  Please??  Okay fine.  Marry Conrad.  I feel he is a romantic on the inside.

Kill- Sharpe.  He technically helped murder people (although I claim under duress)  @sweater-daddiesdumbdork come claim my victim!

And I know people might say you can pick Kiss, but the point is to make the hard choice.  Thank you Nonny!!

[oddlymysteriousphoenix]

#62 12:51am May 29

Huzzah, I have achieved the next level of life for most people living in first world countries,  I have graduated.  Won’t lie, the experience of graduation is something I won’t keep closely to me at all. Things that have happened before and after will. Again, I’ll do what I can to recollect all the memories.  Before graduation I had to wake up various times to go for testing, all I feel that I did well in, not a good sign, but it’s in the past. On that testing week, Jessica and I went out for a wall starting from the school.  It was a long walk. Wonderful experience,  to be with a buddy and out of the influences of stress.  We walked around these collection of stores and off we went to Burger King.  Since it was still morning that Friday,I think 11am, they weren’t selling the vege burger she wanted so she got something else while I ordered  (she did, I was too shy) a burrito basically and a drink. We ate and spent the time well, she payed for it as I had no money,  how kind of her. Not only that we went to a nearby Goodwill and we were there for a good amount of time.  I can’t avoid to mention she bought me some stuff we were trying out like sweaters and suits. In the time we were there, I found old CD cases and video games for the Xbox and PS1, I miss old box art on them.  There were also vinyl discs including the soundtrack to Ben-Hur and Vincente Fernandez, I took pictures of them. Eventually we ended up getting items in which she, again, bought for.  She got a mini plate of a clown and some child, a blue painting with yellow eyes to it, a sweater that was bigger than her sweaters.  While I got some random sweater and suit, all of it was cheap.  We soon parted ways as I didn’t want my need to poop come instantly so I walked back home. My mom told me tell sweater is made out of wool and would costed around 90 dollars, I got it for free, nice. Skip some days, graduation practice occurred.  I hated those two days, ah. Then graduation occurred this past Friday night,  at the Germain Arena, small arena if I must judge. I sat with a very few people I knew, also I had this golden rope around me to signify my GPA,  but I didn’t care. My mom put on Bobby pins to hold down the hat, I look like I was balding. Worthy mention was that my dad was there and he recorded it, but he complained the video wouldn’t focus and I’m too terrified to look into it, he never had my camera to play around with.  I was glad, of course,  to have him there.  It was the plan to leave the next day,  but Rose is coming down here tomorrow as I write, well, today,  so I’m having a good feeling to me. Before I go too fast, we ate at an Italian restaurant that I enjoy, dad and I ate “underwear” my favorite Italian food. Oh, also, my mom and I went out before the day of graduation to look for a suit for me. I’ll probably post a picture of it, it’s a flawless suit. Mom tried to show me over suits to get, but it was calling to me and I required to get it in order to be glad in something I wear that’s fancy for once. My dad had to leave the past Saturday to go back up in order to work. He took my computer so when Rose comes to my house, she won’t be able to see my “ultimate power”. Eh, oh well. I’m almost at ease that I’ll be meeting up with her, just hoping her blinding by her boyfriend won’t get in the way of our enjoyment.  As the day got closer, she has been texting me more and just a few hours ago I could actually tell she was happy for once unlike the other times she texts me. Not saying she texts upset,  just no faces or such, you know? I’m seeing if I should say what I’ve been fighting to hold in. She’s so happy with the guy and if it doesn’t work, it doesn’t work.  I’ll need to clean up my act too, especially my habits that plague me, such regrets.  Good thing is that workout had worked out a bit, that’s a plus. On Sunday I managed to get to Bubba as it was his birthday, I gave him some money that was given to me by my mom. So my mom gave him money, basically.  We, as in Bubba, Russian guy and some dude along with me were in his room the whole time. I’ve known tell Russian guy for many years, just never tried to keep contact to the guy and Andrew, the other guy, seemed cool. We all got along very well and we laughed at each other’s jokes and so on.  There was some food, I barely ate the cheesecake and I mostly had some cheeseburgers and Dr . Pepsi.  Bubba and his family must drink soda everyday as he never fails to not have any. I was there at 12 and mom picked me up at 8:10pm. His mom, dad and relatives were there too. I brought my Xbox,  we were going to pay Resident Evil 7,  but his computer was a mess so we played Bioshock Infinite for a bit, mainly me that I bought as no one else wanted to play as he was trying to fix the computer.  It was something to do with Windows that was messing up. We eventually played spilt screen Minecraft and then to YouTube watching videos,  obviously.  It was wonderful,  I loved it. Now Rose will be coming around, we’ll see what happens.  Also, Mollyboo and I chatted awhile back to meet up in Toronto as I was talking to my dad about it, my favorite movie is set there.  I have no clue where exactly in the city, but oh well. Dad is up for the idea. So is Mollyboo. The bad news so far as been Alyssa hasn’t been doing well. Her health is diminishing as she left me a voice message on snap chat about it. She’s doing awful, they’ll have to move somewhere in about a year so I dearly hope I could possibly drive up there to her to get a chance to be with her. I honestly miss her, I do. Erin,  on the other hand, I don’t care, I won’t mention of her anymore.  I hope Alyssa texts back with something soon,  I’m afraid for her health and life in general.  There would be no problem if I had to take care of her, she’s a good person at heart, an innocent heart with some unique characteristics.  Oh, about that Jenna girl, she disappeared suddenly from my life.  She just stopped replying a bit after I offered for Skype. As for now,  I know who to care for and who I shouldn’t care much for.  Deep down I’ll always care regardless.  Over the summer,  I’ll be practicing a lot of guitar and maybe drawing or Russian. Time passing will only make the motivation get stronger, I wouldn’t mind getting better at guitar and singing was to kill me. I do believe what you love will kill you, hopefully others will understand what I mean. Probably best way to die,  or dying peacefully knowing all who you love will be safe for now.  I don’t want to think too far, it’s not the time.  Almost forgot,  dad shaved my beard so I look whiter and younger. Hah. Not like it’ll make a difference with people assuming my background. I think I’ll have to pass by to my school soon, I want to keep contact with a bit more teachers.  I haven’t done that with Estock yet. I was going to invite Mr.Sharp to the graduation,  but during the practice they told us, including the audience,  to not even cheer to hear the names properly as they say and honor the students rightfully.  People cheered anyway. Plus, we were off to eat right after that so yeah. I’ll see what I can do if I can go tomorrow,  maybe.  If they’ll let me, who knows?  As for now, I’ll do what I can. Stress has been low for now,  I’ve made some progress with what I want to do and that’s good. Unfortunately,  I’ll be off to college near here, plan is to leave Florida in about less than 3 years. I want to go. I need new surroundings and places.  A new identity.  My true identity.  But for now, I need true sweet dreaming. Good night.

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