#Me while giffing this: “Don't do this. Why are you doing this Shay?”

[jesuis-assez]

↠ Tim & Lucy ↳ 6x06- Secrets and lies

You deserve so much better. Oh my god.

[spncrscasey]

One Chance (k.s.)

Fandom/Characters: Chicago Fire - Kelly Severide x Fem!Reader, Leslie Shay

Word Count: 1k

Summary: Kelly Severide. The man who hasn’t stopped asking you out since you joined 51. But now, you have a date and his time is up.

Warnings: flirting, fluff, tiniest bit of angst? (idk if this would even be considered angst,) happy ending

a/n: i don’t rlly like this but it’s smth quick and short cuz i was bored. i literally saw this gif and the idea came to me, idk what it was about the gif but it resulted in this so here you go ! enjoy reading <3

“Hey gorgeous,” You heard him say as you walked in, winking at you.

“Morning, Severide.” You reply, rolling your eyes.

“When are you going to let me take you out?” He asked like clockwork.

This had been going on since the week you'd joined the firehouse. Each day, he’d ask if you wanted to go on a date with him. And every time, your response would be the same,

“Never.”

Yet he still hadn't given up, “Never say never, m’lady.” His answer earned a chuckle from you, causing a grin to form on his face.

Truth be told, you really liked him. He was not only an excellent leader but also a great friend. And let's face it, he wasn't bad looking either. Who were you kidding? You could get lost in those mesmerizing blue eyes for hours. He was beautiful.

But you also knew him. You knew his reputation. A ladies’ man, a womanizer, a playboy— you could go on and on. You were aware of the multiple women he'd take home weekly and you didn’t want to be one of them. You weren't the kind of girl who regularly has one-night stands. There's nothing wrong with them, it just wasn't who you were.

The point is, you didn't want to just be someone he was one and done with. Which is why you were continuously rejecting his advances. You couldn't lie though, it was fun watching him flirt with you in hopes of one day, getting your attention.

As you entered the kitchen in search of coffee, you noticed that he had quietly followed you inside.

“So. Any plans for this weekend?” He questioned, as you poured yourself a cup.

“Actually, yes. You want one?” You asked, pointing the mug at him.

“No thanks, but do tell.” He inquires.

“I have a date.”

“With who?” He instantly questions.

“Not that it's any of your business, but this guy I met at a coffee shop down the street a few days ago,” You reply, smiling.

He rolls his eyes in annoyance but tries once more, “How about you ditch him and go on a date with me instead, beautiful?”

“Once again Severide, not happening.” You shut him down for the umpteenth time, walking away.

Shay was currently at your apartment helping you get ready for the date you had tonight.

“I'm just saying, I've never seen him so into a girl before.” She tells you, lying on your bed as you rummage through your closet for something to wear.

For the last hour, she has been persistently trying to convince you that Kelly has suddenly developed a romantic interest in you.

“Leslie, I know he's your best friend and roommate and that you have to be on his side or whatever- but come on, we both know how he is. Which one?” You ask, revealing two black dresses you were struggling to choose between.

“The one on the left.” She answers before going back to the topic at hand, “He’s changed Y/N- he hasn't brought home a single girl in the last month! If that doesn't tell you something then I don't know what will.” She exclaimed.

“Just because he hasn't brought them home doesn't mean he hasn't been to their places instead.” You point out, putting on the dress.

She sighs. “Just give him a chance Y/N, he's a great guy.”

“I know he is, but being a great man doesn't also necessarily make you a great boyfriend.” You say while beginning your hair and makeup.

“You’re so difficult.” She counters, earning a giggle from you.

Shay had gone home and since you were done getting ready with 30 minutes to spare, you decided to watch some TV.

You were flipping through the channels when you heard a knock at your door. Assuming your date had arrived early, you hurriedly went to answer it.

“Hey, you made it-” You speak excitedly before looking up and noticing who it is, ���Severide?” You furrow your brows, not expecting him to be here.

“You look absolutely breathtaking.” He says, looking you up and down.

His words quickened the pace of your heart. And the way his gaze slowly roamed down the outline of your body caused a shiver to run down your spine, electrifying every nerve along the way.

“Uhh, thanks… But what are you doing here? If you're looking for Shay, she left a while ago-” You quickly answer, pushing aside the way his compliment made you feel before he cuts you off.

“I'm not here for her, I’m here to talk to you.”

“Well, you better make it quick because I'm sure my date will be here soon.” You open the door further, letting him into your space.

“Screw that guy!” He says turning to face you towards the door, “How many times do I have to ask you- go out with me. Please.”

If you didn't know him any better, you'd almost think he was desperate with the way he was pleading.

“Kelly,” You pause, noticing the way his breath hitches at your use of his first name. “I don't want to be just another name you add to your list of girls you've slept with.”

“You won't be! I like you Y/N and if you let me, I can prove it to you. I’m done with all the women- all I want is you.” He lets out exasperated.

“You mean that?” Still unsure of his motives, you look into his eyes searching for anything to prove to you that he’s being honest.

He nods before repeating his earlier statement while taking a step closer to you, “So how about, you call up your coffee shop man, tell him you're canceling and let me take you on this date instead?”

You laugh, “You drive a hard bargain Kelly Severide.”

“Is that a yes?”

You nod, not being able to contain your ear-to-ear grin, loving the way he beams back at you. That smile is something you could definitely get used to.

“Don't make me regret this Severide.” You say in a teasing manner.

“God no.” He says relieved before swiftly pulling you into a bone-crushing hug, causing you to erupt into a fit of giggles.

Maybe Shay was right, maybe he really had changed for the better.

[troutymouthwhisperhug]

━━━ CHAPTER TWO .ᐟ ⋆｡˚

as spencer, miles, frankie, and hunter pile out of miles' porsche in the degrassi community school parking lot, hunter says a quick goodbye and heads to the computer room to meet up with his friends in the gamer club he started.

shay and lola run up to where the car is parked, greeting spencer and frankie warmly with tight hugs and wide smiles.

"oh my god, you two look so cute! i have to hastygram this!" lola exclaims, pulling her phone out of her back pocket.

she quickly snaps a picture of the four of them, with miles photobombing by throwing up a peace sign.

shay turns to miles with a grin. "hey, miles!"

"hey, shay! hey, lola!" miles greets them back, glancing around as if looking for someone. not seeing his best friend winston, he pulls out his phone to text him but notices a message already waiting.

chewy: i have yearbook thing and got to school early

chewy: will try to catch up before classes start

miles replies with a gif and looks back at the group, who are still chattering away.

"i hope you guys don't mind if i steal spencer from your little group for a while," miles says, placing his hand on one of spencer's shoulders with a big grin.

lola places her hands on her hips, pretending to be offended. "actually, we do mind."

miles smirks, undeterred. "too bad." he hooks his arm around spencer's neck lightly and starts steering him away toward the school.

"i needed my lola and shay time before school," spencer whines, trying to pull away playfully.

miles shrugs like it's nothing. "i wanted to walk to class together."

spencer looks at him from the corner of his eye. "why are you being weird?"

miles smirks. "we have ap chem together first period. wouldn't it be weirder if i didn't walk with you?"

spencer raises an eyebrow. "we literally never walk to chem together, and we're almost four months into the school year."

"whatever. you should be happy you're getting more one-on-one time with me. i know how much you like it," miles teases.

spencer shoots him a sidelong glance. "it seems like you're the one who's desperate to have more one-on-one time with me."

"and what if i am?" miles challenges, looping his hand through spencer's belt loop and pulling him closer. they end up face-to-face, leaning against their lockers.

the gesture flusters spencer, especially since miles is looking down at him, his gaze flickering to spencer's lips. spencer quickly gains his composure. "you're so cute when you're pretending you're not into me," miles says with a smirk.

spencer rolls his eyes. "and you're so delusional thinking everyone is into you."

before miles can respond, winston comes bustling down the corridor, a stack of yearbook materials and a comic book in hand. "sup, miles? sup, spencer?" he greets, patting miles on the back.

"hey, winston!" spencer gives him a fist bump. "what're you reading today?"

"teen titans: raven," winston replies, grinning.

"cool, i can't wait to read that," spencer says, eyeing the comic book.

miles gives winston a bro handshake. "hey, chewy."

winston smiles fondly at the nickname. "why do i feel like i'm interrupting something?" he asks, realizing how close miles and spencer are standing.

spencer notices their proximity and awkwardly coughs before taking a few steps away from miles. "you and that imagination," spencer says, making a "tsk tsk" motion with his hands.

miles just wears his signature smirk, saying nothing.

winston squints his eyes at the two but doesn't push it further. "anywayyy," winston starts, "i'm just gonna go see if mrs. kelsey needs me to do anything else for the yearbook club meeting later." he hurries off, making miles laugh.

miles turns back to spencer. "anyway, where were we?" he steps closer again.

spencer lightly pushes him off. "we weren't anywhere, hollingsworth." he moves to unlock his locker, taking out some books and walking away.

after putting some distance between them, spencer calls back, "you walking me to class or what?" he raises an eyebrow and offers a flirtatious smile.

miles, who is still at his locker checking spencer out, jogs to quickly catch up with him. "of course," he says with a smug grin, looping his arm around spencer's waist.

as they walk to ap calculus, spencer says, "you know, you don't have to act so clingy."

miles shrugs. "i'm not acting. i just like making sure my best friend gets to class on time."

spencer snorts. "best friend, huh? is that what we are?"

miles nudges him playfully. "you tell me, sunshine."

spencer rolls his eyes. "frankie is my best friend."

miles laughs. "then i'm your second best friend."

"no," spencer retorts, "that would be shay and lola."

"okay, third best friend then," miles says, undeterred.

spencer shakes his head, chuckling. "you wish."

miles rolls his eyes. "oh, please. you should be grateful for my presence."

"grateful? more like mildly amused," spencer shoots back with a laugh.

as they approach the classroom door, mr. kelly stands there, watching them with an amused smile.

"boys," he says, nodding at them. "glad to see that you two are keeping that competitive energy. keep it up for quiz bowl practice tonight."

spencer and miles exchange a look before grinning. "we will, mr. k," miles says confidently.

"you bet," spencer adds, giving miles a playful nudge.

mr. kelly chuckles and gestures for them to enter. "take your seats, gentlemen."

miles and spencer walk into the classroom, still talking. "you know, if you put as much effort into calculus as you do into teasing me, you might actually do better in this class," spencer remarks, raising an eyebrow.

miles smirks. "i got an a+ on our last test, remember? you're the one who got a 99."

spencer rolls his eyes but can't help the smile tugging at his lips. "sit down, hollingsworth."

mr. kelly begins the lesson, but miles and spencer's whispered exchanges don't go unnoticed. "psst, spence," miles whispers, nudging him with his elbow. "what's the derivative of e^x again?"

spencer gives him a mock glare. "seriously? it's e^x, miles. even you should know that with your pea-sized brain."

miles grins. "just checking if you're paying attention."

spencer shakes his head, unable to suppress a laugh. "you're so annoying."

"and yet, you still put up with me," miles says, flashing a charming smile.

"someone has to," spencer retorts, jotting down notes while still glancing at miles every so often.

the rest of the class continues in the same vein, with miles and spencer exchanging comments and jabs, their camaraderie clear to anyone paying attention.

as the bell rings, signaling the end of second period, miles gathers his things from his desk with practiced ease.

he turns to spencer, a mischievous glint in his eyes. "see you later, donovan," he says, his voice light and teasing.

spencer looks up from his notebook, rolling his eyes but unable to suppress a smile. "yeah, yeah. see you later, hollingsworth." he starts packing up his own materials, clearly amused by miles' antics.

mr. kelly, standing by the door and watching the exchange with a knowing smile, clears his throat. "remember, quiz bowl practice tonight," he says, nodding at both of them. "i expect both of you to bring this energy."

miles straightens up, giving mr. kelly a confident grin. "we will, mr. k," he assures, slipping his backpack over his shoulder and gathering his things.

spencer, still chuckling, adds with a nod, "we'll be there."

miles takes a step closer to spencer, leaning in slightly as if to whisper something secret. but instead, he lightly places his hand on spencer's hip, giving him a gentle but playful squeeze. "don't be late for chem," he adds, his tone laced with an affectionate edge.

spencer raises an eyebrow, his cheeks flushing faintly from the unexpected touch. "seriously? can't keep your hands off me, can you?"

miles smirks, his eyes never leaving spencer's. "what can i say? i like having you close."

spencer chuckles, shaking his head. "clingy much?"

"maybe," miles replies with a shrug, his smirk widening. "but you're the one who keeps making it so easy."

spencer rolls his eyes but can't help the smile tugging at his lips. "just go to your next class, will you?"

miles steps back, his hand lingering on spencer's hip for a moment longer before he withdraws it. "alright, alright. catch you later, sunshine."

"yeah, see you," spencer calls after him as miles turns and walks out of the classroom, greeting friends and classmates with his usual charm.

spencer watches him go, a small smile lingering on his face. he gathers his things and heads out, ready for his next class, feeling the lingering warmth of miles' touch.

as he leans against the wall by the classroom door, his eyes scan the bustling hallway. the chatter of students heading to their next class creates a lively backdrop, and he grins as he spots shay stepping out of the classroom next door. her face brightens with recognition, and she waves enthusiastically.

"hey, spence!" shay calls, her voice warm and cheerful.

spencer's smile matches hers, wide and genuine. he pushes off the wall and strides over, greeting her with a friendly hug. "hey, shay! ready for ap chem?"

"absolutely," shay replies, her eyes twinkling as she loops her arm through his. "we're going to body that test."

they begin walking down the hallway, their conversation flowing effortlessly.

the clamor of the corridor fades as they dive into their familiar banter.

"so, how's miles treating you in calculus?" shay asks with a playful grin.

spencer rolls his eyes. "oh, you know, same old. teasing me about every little thing."

shay raises an eyebrow. "you mean he's not just teasing you about how often you talk about him?"

spencer smirks, shaking his head. "i don't always talk about miles."

shay raises a knowing eyebrow. "oh really? you and lola are always talking about boys. well, she's always talking about boys. you're always talking about a certain boy."

spencer's cheeks flush slightly. "shut up. i'm not always talking about miles."

shay grins mischievously. "you're not always talking about who?"

spencer hesitates, then catches on. "mi—" he starts to say before realizing what shay is doing. he cuts himself off, a look of exasperation crossing his face. "i hate you."

shay laughs, her eyes sparkling with amusement. "i love you too! plus, i didn't even say who the boy was, so you just told on yourself."

spencer groans. "i didn't tell on anything. you're getting just as bad as lola and frankie."

shay chuckles. "oh, come on. we all see the way you two interact. it's adorable."

spencer shakes his head, laughing. "you're crazy."

[goldenmaybank]

meant to be

(not my gif)

pairing: jj maybank x reader

summary: y/n has been in love with her best friend, jj maybank, for years and now has to watch him fall in love with another girl, who is a kook.

warnings: swearing and slight angst (?)

word count: 4k (it’s a long one) 

a/n: hi! this is my first imagine and i hope you like it. i know it’s a long one i just got carried away :)

2 years. 730 days. 17520 hours. 1051200 minutes.

that's how long i've had to watch the guy i'm in love with be with another girl. two long years of seeing them kiss, hold hands, cuddle, go on dates and anniversaries. all because i was too scared to tell my best friend that i loved him.

two years ago

" yo, y/n ! y/n ! guess what just happened." my best friend since we were kids, jj, said as he ran up to me.

"what?"

"you remember that girl, shay, that i was telling you about? that kook that i met at the kegger last weekend with the long blonde hair, green eyes, slim waist, and fat as-"

"yes, yes. jj i remember." i said cutting him off from finishing his sentence.

"so, i just asked her out and guess what? she said yes!" he said with the biggest smile on his face.

"okay."

"okay? that's all i get? an okay? y/n, this is the hottest kook i’ve ever seen that we're talking about here."

"yeah and last week kate was the hottest kook and the week before that was penelope. this is nothing new j. it's just another pretty girl with big boobs and a nice ass that you'll mess around with for a few weeks maybe even days and then move onto the next girl."

"no y/n, this time is different. it feels different."

"mhm sure" i say not convinced

this is what jj does. he meets a cute kook girl or touron at one our parties, they hook up for a few days or weeks, and he moves onto to the next one. this was no different. however, in that moment, i didn't realize how serious he really was about her until it was too late.

few months after

jj and i were laying on john b’s couch watching movies like we always do every friday night. we've been doing this since we were little kids, usually the rest of the pogues would join us, but they’re all busy tonight. john b is with sarah, kie is working, and pope is helping out his dad. so that just leaves me and jj together.

"um, y/n?"

"hm?" i asked in response

"would you mind if i ended our movie night a little bit early?"

"why?"

"because shay just got off work early tonight and wants to hang out. she's been really busy lately, so we haven't gotten the chance to hang out as much. would you be okay if i left to go see her?”

"um, sure. i guess i can just rewatch friday the 13th again without you."

"really? you're the best! thanks." he said jumping up excitedly to put on his shoes and grab his hoodie, " i mean it's not like we haven't watched this a thousand times already, you'll be fine without me."

"i kinda wanted you here, but i guess she's more important" i mumbled under my breath

"huh?"

"n-nothing. uh, j can i ask you something before you go?"

"yeah sure, but it can't take too long shay is waiting for me."

"are you serious about her? like really serious?"

"yeah, i guess i am. i don't know i've never really felt this way about a girl before. she just makes me feel so happy and i always want to be around her and spend time with her. i usually just get bored with girls after a while and break up with them, but it's different with her. it's something about her i can't explain it." he said with admiration in his eyes.

that's when i knew it was too late. i could see the way his eyes lit up when i mentioned her and how he talked about her with such admiration. he was head over heels for this girl and who am i to step in and ruin it by telling him my feelings. he wouldn't reciprocate those feelings anyways she's the only girl he's felt like this about. i never had a chance against her. i will never be her.

after that day i didn’t see jj for three weeks. he cancelled every single one our plans because of her. “i cant go surfing today, shay wants to go get lunch” “can’t go fishing, shay needs me” “cant make it to the boneyard tonight, shay wants to have a movie night” he bailed on us, on me, all week because of her. the kook girl he just met a few months ago. 

finally, after countless begging and excuses jj came to hang out with us at john b’s house. we were all laying on the hammocks outside watching the sunset and for a minute it felt like everything was how it used to be even though i knew it wasn't. you could feel that everything was different especially between me and jj. he wasn't his usual flirty, touchy self with me and the tension in the air was thick. the rest of the pogues tried to act like everything was normal, but we all knew after today it would be another few weeks before we saw jj again. all he did was hang out with shay and he barely had any time for us anymore.

“so, jj since when did you start dating kooks?” john b snickered as jj punched his arm

“since when did you start dating at all?” pope replied

“i don’t know, man. it’s just different with her, i guess. i never thought i could be capable enough to have a relationship, but she changed that. she changed me.” 

kie looks at me with sympathy in her eyes. she was the only one who knew about my love for jj. i spent so many nights crying to her about my feelings for him and how i wish things could be different between us. it took a lot to get jj to open up to me, especially about his dad, and i always wanted to be the one he could go to for anything. i was the one who patched him up after a fight with rafe, i was the one who hugged him as he cried to me about his dad, i was the one who went along with his crazy ideas, i was one who did everything i could to get him to love me the way i love him. but i guess things don’t work out the way you want them to. i give kie and a nod and smile letting her know i’m okay. as long as jj is happy that’s all that matters to me. i would do anything to make him happy, even if it means i have to watch him fall in love with another girl.

present 

6 years. 2190 days. 52560 hours. 3153600 minutes.

that's how long the love of my life has been with his girlfriend. six long years of me trying to get over him and find someone else yet i could never get that boy with blonde hair and blue eyes out of my mind. he followed me everywhere i went even when i wasn't with him. he's everything i want in a guy yet i can't have him because he's not mine to have. he's someone else's and now i definitely can't do anything about it because they're getting married today.

today is their wedding and of course they invited me and the rest of the pogues. i debated even going and just letting kie give them my present with my pathetic excuse for why i wasn't there, but after talking to jj about the wedding the other day i couldn’t not go. "i could never have my wedding without you there, y/n. you're one of the most important people in my life." is what he told me. if i was strong i wouldn't care and still not go, but i'm not. all i had to do was look in his eyes when he told me that and i was puddy in his hands. there's no way i can't go and let him down like that. he means way too much to me to hurt him just to spare my own feelings. 

i walked into the venue looking around at the setup. of course the kook princess wanted a fairy-tale wedding. i sigh as i look at all the expensive decorations everywhere. i always imagined what my wedding with jj would be like. definitely wouldn’t look anything like this. even after years of all my hard work and schooling i still could never afford something like this. i always thought we’d have our ceremony by the beach since that’s where we first met when we were little kids and spent all our time together. it became our little safe space to get away from everyone and all our problems, and just be together. just me and jj. 

“gotta admit it looks beautiful.” pope says as kie hits his shoulder

“it’s okay, kie. he’s right, it is beautiful. more than i could've ever given him.”

“hey” kie says as she grabs my hand, “you sure you’re okay? because we can leave right now. trust me, i really don’t care to see the little princess wearing a dress that costs ten times the amount of my house.”

“it’s fine, kie. we have to be here for him. i’m just gonna go talk to jj quickly.”

“okay, i’ll save a seat for you.”

i went towards the back to find where jj is, so i could give him something before the ceremony started.

"knock knock." i say as i opened the door to jj’s room walking in to see him finishing getting ready.

"hey you. i almost thought you weren't gonna come."

"now why would i miss my best friend getting married to the girl of his dreams? i would never miss this no matter what"

"good because i know i would never be able to do this without you here."

"so.." i say as i sit down next to him, "how does it feel to finally be getting married?”

"it feels unreal. i never thought this day would come. and if it did, i honestly thought you would be the one standing at the end of the aisle"

"yeah, so did i" i say as i laugh weakly.

"i remember we had this whole thing planned out as kids. we were gonna get married on the beach, preferably the bahamas, but you know any beach would’ve worked for us. 

"and we were gonna have this huge reception and have our friends give sappy speeches talking about how we've been friends forever and despite the “no pogue on pogue macking” rule we still ended up together and got married." i added.

"and our honeymoon was gonna be in mykonos. we were gonna get a suite with a pool and relax all day and then turn up at night at the clubs there." he said as we both laughed.

"wow. we had a lot of plans when we were younger."

"we really did, but i guess none of them really worked out huh?"

"i guess not"

we sat in silence for a moment thoughts both roaming our minds about how we ended up here. best friends since we were little, spent all our time together, always acted like a couple, and yet here we are sitting in this room minutes before he gets married to a girl who isn't me, a kook nonetheless. it's now or never. do i let him know how i feel and finally have this weight lifted off my shoulders or just keep it to myself and let them be happy?

"uh, j? i- um, wrote this letter for you" i say as i take an envelope out of my purse, "it was the original speech that i wanted to tell you at the reception later but felt as though it wouldn't have been right to say, so i just wrote it for you to see. just, don't open it in front of shay, please."

"why can't you just tell me what's in the letter in your speech later?"

"because i would be a shit person if i say what's in that letter at your wedding reception in front of everyone."

"what's in the letter that's so bad?" he asked confusingly

"j-just read it when you're alone, okay?"

"no"

"no?"

"no. just tell me now what's in the letter."

"jj, i-i can't."

"yes you can. what's so bad that you can't tell me now?"

"i don't want to overstep my boundaries or ruin anything or make anything awkward, so just read it later when you're alone."

"no, y/n. tell me right now."

"jj, your wedding starts in a few minutes you need to finish getting ready. we don't have time for this."

"yes we do. i always have time for you."

"jj-"

"no. i'm not leaving this room until you tell me."

"j, don't be difficult."

"i'm not being difficult just read me the letter and this will all be done with"

i sighed, "oh my god fine. i'll read you the damn thing." i take a deep breath and begin to read the letter that might just change everything between us.

"dear jj, i'm not sure when exactly you'll be reading this, but i know when you do you'll be happily married to shay. so, congratulations best friend you're finally someone's husband. i honestly never thought this day would come; you were never one for relationships. always thought it was too much work to handle and you already had enough shit to deal with in your life. remember when we were little we made a promise that if neither of us were in a relationship by the time we were 30 we would get married. as silly as it was i always thought that would happen. that we would be the ones getting married and have our best friends write a speech for us. i'd always imagine kie writing mine and john b and pope would write yours, mainly pope though because we all know he’s way better with words than any of us ever were. but i never once in a million years would think i would be writing one for you and another girl. we've been through so many ups and downs and we still stuck together through it all. you're my best friend and i love you. words can't even describe how much i love you. jj, you've brought me so much happiness and never fail to put a smile on my face. even during my worst times you were always there to pick up the pieces and make me laugh. i never thought i would have someone in my life who means so much to me as much as you do. being around you immediately makes my day a hundred times better and i don't know what i would do without you in my life. my life would've probably been extremely boring and plain without you and your crazy adventures. your smile can make anyone's day better and you always make sure everyone else is happy even before yourself. and that's one of the many reasons why i'm in love with you. yes, i'm in love with you and have been for a while. this is more than a just as friends thing. i'm completely and utterly in love with you and that's never gonna change. and i know it took you a while to believe that someone could truly love and care for you, but i always have and always will. you so deserve so much than life has given you and i hope you know how amazing you really are. i’ve become such a better person because of you and you make me so incredibly happy. i'll never be able to repay you for everything you've done for me. i love you so much. i hope you're happy in your marriage and she treats you right, which i know she does. all i ever wanted was for you to be happy even if it wasn't with me. even though i just dropped this huge bomb on you, please don't let this affect our friendship. i will always be here for you no matter what. i love you, jj maybank."

there was complete silence. jj just sat there staring at the wall not saying a word.

"see this is exactly why i didn't want to tell you in person because i knew this would happen. i-"

"you love me?"

"yes, j i do."

"like actually love me?"

i sighed, "yes and i have for a while as i said in the letter"

"w-why didn't you tell me?"

"i don't know i was always so scared to and i thought you would never really find someone, so i had nothing to lose by not telling you. and then you started dating shay and i could tell you were really happy with her and by the time i realized you two were serious it was too late. i didn't want to step in and ruin anything or lose our friendship."

"you wouldn't have."

"what?"

"you wouldn't have ruined our friendship because i felt the same way. i still feel the same way." jj admitted

"you, what?"

"i love you y/n and as more than just friends. i have since freshmen year of high school when i first told you about my dad and you cleaned up all my cuts and held me in your arms all night. but i was just always too scared to say anything because i thought you were out of my league and i never really deserved you. the only reason i was with all those girls was to forget about you and get rid of my feelings for you, but they never did go away."

"i guess we're both stupid then. we always had these feelings for each other and just never said it."

"i guess so."

"so, what does this mean for us?"

"what do you mean?" jj asked

"i mean this obviously changes things, so what are we gonna do?"

"i don't see why things have to change. yeah we admitted we have these feelings, but that doesn't change anything."

"you're getting married, jj. in like twenty minutes there's gonna be another girl waiting at the end of that aisle for you to go there and give yourself completely to her. and i don't want to stand in the way of giving you and her that happiness you both deserve. me still being here is gonna change things because things are different now whether you want to believe it or not. these feelings are out there and they're still relevant. and i'm not gonna sit here and watch you two be happy and in love and be on the sidelines and feel like shit. i don't deserve that. i don't deserve to have my heart broken seeing you together knowing you have feelings for me and yet i can't do a damn thing about it. and it's not fair to her either to have another woman who you have feelings for sit there and get in the way of her happiness. i'm not gonna ruin this for her, jj. i won't. shay has been nothing but sweet to me and i'm not gonna do that to her. she doesn't deserve it and neither do i."

"so what do you want me to do then?"

"i want you to let me go."

"what? y/n, i love you. you can't tell me to do that"

"let me go, jj. as long as you sit here and tell me that you love me and have feelings for me, this will never end. and we will be going around in circles and i've been stepping on eggshells long enough for you and i'm done. you love her and she loves you, so be happy with her."

"but i love you too y/n and that's never gonna stop." he says with tears in his eyes.

"i know and i will always love you too, but i can't keep doing this. i can't watch you be with her and not be able to do anything. i can't be able to be alone with you knowing how you feel and not do anything to you. you don't know how badly i've just been wanting to kiss you after hearing you say those words to me. you don't know how bad i want this, but jj i can't do this" i say tears running down my face.

"i'll end it then. i'll cancel the wedding and we can be together."

"no. no, jj you can't do that. i'm not gonna ruin this. you've been with her for six years already, you've created this beautiful relationship and commitment to each other and i'm not just gonna ruin that. she's doesn't deserve that. you just need to let me go, jj. let me get over you because the more i'm around you the more the feelings grow. just let me find happiness within someone else.”

"so what? we're just gonna end our friendship? our years and years of friendship is over just like that? i don't want to lose you. if i cant have you in that way, even though i want to so badly, i still want you in my life as a friend."

"but i can't jj. i can't be around you. please, just let me go. let me get over you and find someone else. maybe one day if it's meant to be we'll find our way back to each other and maybe things can work out differently but for now just let me go." i say as my voice breaks

he sighed, "fine, i'll let you go, but only if you do one thing for me."

"what is it?"

"kiss me."

"w-what?"

"kiss me. i've been waiting years to tell you how i feel about you and finally be able to hold you and kiss you, so please just let me do it."

"jj, i don't know" i say hesitantly

"shay never has to know about this and once we kiss it's over. i'll let you go."

"if i kiss you, you'll let me go?"

"yes."

i sighed looking at jj. i actually got a good look of him right now in this moment. he looks so broken. dried tears streamed down his face, his eyes are puffy, and nose is red, but yet he still looks beautiful. no words can describe how jj looks. "cute" or "hot" never did this man justice. he was beautiful both inside and out and that's why i fell in love with him years ago. and as i started to lean it looking in his eyes all the memories we've made together came flashing through my mind all at once. this is really it. after this i'm actually leaving my best friend, who's the love of my life, to move on with my life.

moments later i felt his soft pink lips mold against mine. our lips moved in sync in such a way i have never felt with anyone else before. there was something about the way his lips moved against mine in such a passionate and loving way that i've never felt before. my stomach was immediately filled with butterflies and my mind went blank. all i could do was be in this moment with him. a few moments later it ended leaving both of us breathless. we stared at each other in awe not knowing a simple goodbye kiss would make us feel this way.

"wow. i've been waiting for this kiss for so long and i never knew it would feel like that." jj said

"neither did i.”

as much as i didn't want to, i knew what had to be done next. i stood up grabbing my bag and walked towards the door.

"so this is really it? you're just leaving now. after what we just felt in that kiss you're still gonna leave?" jj asked

"you know i have to."

"no, you don't have to. you want to, there's a difference. but it’s fine you’re just gonna leave just everyone else does, huh?”

don't turn back now. i know what he’s trying to do. he knows how the last thing i ever wanted to do was leave him like countless of other people in his life have done. but don’t let his words get to you. don't turn back now. the decision is already made. if i go back now i'll never leave and end up in the same cycle again.

i turn around one last time to look at my best friend, "i'm sorry. goodbye, jj."

that was the last time i saw jj.

after that i left the venue without saying anything to anyone. i got a ton of calls from kie, pope, and john b asking me where i was. i know they all eventually found out how i felt about him, which sometimes makes me wonder how he never knew, but then again i'm pretty sure they knew he had feelings for me too and i still never noticed. it's crazy how that happens. you could spend every moment of every day with someone and still be so oblivious to how they really feel about you. i guess i was just so caught up in my feelings for him i never noticed all the signs he showed of liking me back.

they always say what’s meant to be will be no matter how long it takes whether it's a day, a month, or a year. well i never really believed in that until now. years later after i walked out of that room, now stood face to face with the guy who was and still is my everything.

[simcophogi]

oh wow oh wow! I hope you don't mind me asking, but how on earth did you make that glitchy, 3d gif for your sim! It's the coolest thing I have ever seen! I would love to know how you made it. It's soooooooo cool!!!!

AAA THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! I worked for quite a while on it, I’m so glad you think so!! I don’t mind at all I’m happy to explain! It’s been a while since I actually made it tho so it took me a bit to remember haha

Because it got quite long, the tutorial is under the cut!

So I knew what I wanted to do and searched for tutorials and ended up sort of following this and this tutorial to get the gist of how to do the glitchy thing going for an image/gif. (The second one is also where I got the scanlines you’ll see later!) I’m going to explain what to do right from the start, but if I’m unclear check them out, it might help to see a video! If you already know how to do the glitch stuff, you can skim and jump right on down to where it says “Step whatever”!

HOLD ONTO UR HATS BECAUSE HERE WE GO~

FIRST STEP: Get ur beautiful blank canvas ready for the beauty.

Fun fact, this was not actually my starting size (I originally made it too big and it didn’t run want to run on tumblr so I had to size it down!) I think the gif will work as long as it’s below 1000 KB? Don’t quote me on that tho.

I had two images I knew I wanted to use, so I started by deleting the background from them so I could just have the sim ready to be edited. I’m doing the same to both, but I just wanted them both to be prepped! Line them up as best you can and hide the 2nd image.

Second…third?? Step?? I’ve already forgotten. (I’m terrible at this PFF) Anywho, we’re gonna work one image at a time, so once that’s done, make three copies of your original. It should look like this

We’re gonna be changing up 2 of the 3 we copied. Double click the middle one (or top, it really doesn’t matter, just not the bottom one) and you should see blending options. Disable the green channel.

If they look purple that’s fine!! If it’s the only layer turned on the image will be a nice purple color. If you have all enabled you won’t see really any change. Select the image you just fiddled with and move it left (or right) a few notches and you’ll see the little color change.

Select the next layer and do the same thing, but instead of disabling the green channel, turn off red and blue and move the image in the opposite direction.

NOW, whatever step we’re on, the next thing is to move them into a group, copy the group, and merge! I made one copy now and then another after I fiddled with it because I wanted a transition to happen where the glitch effect..increased? Got more.. glitchy?

(I hope u like picture aids kiddos)

Take your merged group and start making some selections and then shift them over to get that glitchy look. I keep the group visible because I like the look, but it’s up to you! Keep fiddling with pulling/pushing the merged image around to get to what you like. I kept this one ‘simplistic’ because I wanted this to be the “middle” or inbetween image.

Copy this once your happy with it and do it again but with your 2nd copy and make it more trippy! (do more face stuff, body, whatever u like) So you should end up with something like this!

That’s basically it for the glitch effects! If you’re like me and had another image you wanted to transition to, just make sure you do the same thing! I only had one where I pushed and pulled it around because I wanted this monster version of Shay to be like a snap. I wanted her on and off and the trick about animation is the faster you want something to look- the fewer inbetweens you want.

STEP WHATEVER: If you skimmed and you ended up here– hello! There’s still one last thing to do before we put it all together and do the animation/gif part! Tbh, this is entirely optional, but I think it adds another thing to the overall product and I love it!! I mentioned it earlier, but I used the scanlines from this video, but you can either make your own or google some? Whatever you want! It’s super easy I was just being suuuuper lazy.

Moving on!

Add the scanlines above all the images, set it to overlay and I changed my opacity to 8%, but if you want more it’s not gonna look weird. The only thing to note though is that it gave me a headache to look at the glitch effect and lines if I went into the 15-25% range.

(fun fact #2, if you noticed it, I call the action I use for my gameplay and some edits psdfuckery because I made it on accident) So now is your time to apply any other edits you want before you start messing with the timeline because it’s very picky sometimes.

If you don’t want to use photoshop to create the gif, there are other things like giphy that work pretty well, just slap in your frames and go, but I’m already here and I know how to use it so why not.

Once you got it how you like it (Edits, border, lines, glitch, literally everything) it’s time to animate! If you haven’t already get the timeline up (You can find it under Window). Click to create the frame animation.

I have about 10 frames set up, but it’s really up to you and how many images you have/what you want it to look like. You gif will run smoother if you have less images!

So for each frame all your going to do is just display which image you want to show and hide the others. It’s super simple. To add a frame you just click the little page icon in the timeline window. It’s like adding another layer. Sort of. Make sure to change how many times it loops!! By default it’s set to loop only once, you’ll want to change this to forever.

How you set up your frames is up to you and how fast you want the effect to happen. For me I wanted the glitch to slowly build up, monster Shay to flash on the screen and then flicker out.

To really get the most out of it too is to mess with the timing. You can make the frame last longer or shorter by clicking on the little down arrow where it says how many seconds the frame will stay on screen. I believe the default is 0 seconds (which is super fast.) Typically, make all of them at least last .1 - .2 seconds. 0 seconds is super speedy. The only one I have longer is the starting one because I wanted it to pause when it looped around!

Now all that’s left is to save it out as a gif! File > Export > Save for Web. These are my settings if you want to copy/check what you have.

And that’s it!

I REALLY HOPE THIS WAS HELPFUL!!! I haven’t really made tutorials and my explanations tend to be quite terrible as I tend to rant on, so if I was unclear anywhere, please let me know!!